The Day My Prayer Life Changed

A personal testimony. Pastor Randy shares how his disabled daughter transformed the way he prays — and the lessons about dependence, surrender, and the nearness of God that came with it. A vulnerable look at how the hardest seasons can reshape our walk with the Lord in the most unexpected ways.

Transcript

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When things happen to your family, you take it on yourself. When things aren't going right with your kids, or your kids get hurt, or they they're struggling with something, you take it personally. And I'm a um I want to share this with you because it changed my prayer life. This this moment changed the way that I pray, right?

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Okay.

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It's a a moment.

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Okay.

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So for those that don't know, um, listeners that don't know, don't know me personally, um, my daughter, my baby girl, she uh was born cerebroposa. She was born early, and um she's paraplegic. She has a trach device, so it's like we can't even if she cries, we can't even hear her cry. We have to be looking at her to hear her, right? Uh there's only certain ways where she can like maybe hold her neck or something where it'll make a sound to even hear her. So we but that's my bake. Right. I was praying over her, and I've been praying. I remember this this day, it was it was not too long ago, maybe close to a year. I I've been praying over her. I've been and one day I was just, it was just me and her. And mom was, you know, um either gone or something, and it was just me and her, and I was just looking at her, and I was, you know, um, she has this way of smiling and you know, showing that she's happy, right? And I'm just like, what did I do? What did I do? God, like, why can't I heal her? And I will I remember I picked her up off her bed, and when I tell you, you know, the the snap bubble tears, that those that did cry.

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Mm-hmm.

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I'm just I'm holding her and I got my and I'm crying the hardest I've cried in a long time. Because I'm just like, God, why won't you heal her? Why don't you hear my cry and just make, just heal part of it, just something. And I bro, I'm holding her and I'm crying, I'm crying, and I open my eyes and look and look at her, and she's looking at me, and she is laughing her butt off, bro. When I tell you, she was it's one of those deep belly, like laughing. I'm like, yo, why like I'm in this moment where I'm I bust out in tears, and this is the weakest moment that uh that I've had in a long time. And why are you laughing at me? And I couldn't help but smile. I was like, you just happy to hear your daddy's voice, aren't you? You just happy to have me around. And it was like, I could hear it, like, it was so loud, bro. The voice was like, that's the way I want you to be with me. And that moment completely changed my prayer life. I stopped asking for things. I stopped wanting to, God, please give me this job, or God give me, please give me this promotion, God give me this car. I just say, God, I just want to always be able to hear your voice. I just always want to feel you around me. And ever since then, and then shortly after that, um I'm in, I'm in Bible study. I'm you know, my personal Bible study, and I run across the song, Psalm 7325, and it just confirmed that. And the the song reads, uh, God, who else do I have in heaven besides you? And there's nothing on this earth I want other than you. Man, when I tell you that, that's my favorite song. And they and when I go before God and pray, now, of course, I'll intersect, uh, I intercede, I pray for healing for folks, and I pray for, you know, the souls that are lost. But my prayer, when we know, when we truly know, because we say we have faith and we believe that God will provide all our needs, God will do all of these things for us. What I know, like, yo, that is my father. And you may you mention something in the clip. It's like, yo, I have the best father ever.

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Yeah.

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I have the perfect father.

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And he's always going to make sure that I'm good.

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So therefore, I'm not worried about asking for things. God just be near.