Universe, Hear Me Out

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Hello, hello. Welcome back to the Hotter Than You podcast. I'm your host, Leah Hotter. How are we doing today? Happy Friday. The weekend's here. The weekend's here. What are our plans, huh? What are our plans? You guys, like, why the fuck is summer? Like, all winter. All winter, I beg for summer. Like, I'm like, every day in the winter, I literally say, if it was summer right now, I'd be in a good mood. Okay, but it's summer, and I'm still like fighting demons. Like, I thought summer would solve all my problems, but apparently it's fucking not. So you guys know last week I had a full-blown crash out. Okay, and I will say I am feeling better. This Mercury in retrograde, whatever the fuck the moons are doing right now, need to chill. Okay, things are happening to me. And it's just, it's all too much. Like people from my past are coming back. Um, I've been having anxiety. I've been like dealing with shit that like I didn't think I'd have to deal with. And I'm like, okay, please stop. I can't do it anymore. Okay. So yeah, you guys know I crashed out last week. This week I'm feeling a lot better. I will say. Okay, I'm feeling a lot better. Although Love Island ending is kind of ruining my ruining my life because Love Island, it kind of Okay, if you don't know what Love Island is, first of all, crawl out of your rock. Let me help you lift up the rock you're under and crawl out of it. Um, it's a like a dating show that's on every single night except Wednesdays. Okay, it's on every night on Peacock at 9 p.m. Okay, so when you're like invested in a show like this, it kind of like is your new routine. Like I make sure my kids are asleep, I'm showered and exfoliated, my silk PJs are on, my snacks are ready, and then I'm ready for Love Island. Like it's kind of like my routine. So now that like it's over, I feel lost. The winners, by the way, were Trinity and Bryce, okay, and they I just like knew they were going to win because they were the most authentic couple. Who the fuck are these other people? Like, you guys are not in love. Stop acting like you're in love. Melanie and Sincere, goodbye. Get the fuck out of my face. Kata and Zach, goodbye. Get the fuck out of my face. Kata, you're still a baddie. The girls are all still baddies, okay? No, I'm not hating. Okay. Sincere, get the fuck out of my face. You know who Sincere reminds me of? My friend actually brought this up. Jax Taylor. The way he speaks, put them side by side, please. Put them side by side and like the way they talk about women and like how they how their brains um just how how they talk through like these problems with women, how their brains think. It's the exact same. I don't know what that is. It's like they they like believe themselves when they speak, but it's the same energy. It really fucking is. Okay, so yeah, we have Bryce, Bryce and Trinity who won. By the way, I'm not settling until I find myself a Bryce. He loves that bitch down. He loves that bitch down. He since day one, okay. They kind of had like a slow, like a slow, um, like love story, but it like it was real. Like these people who are like crying over each other like the second day, that shit's not real. It's like they're like trauma bonding. Okay, and you gotta be careful with those, okay? You gotta be careful because then you'll end up pregnant and get toxic. And it'll be toxic. Okay, learn from me. Let me take a drink of water. Okay. Hang on just a second, guys. And then we have Anaya and Carl. Okay, and I think they're cute. I think they're cute. Well, I think they'll last no because their dynamic is just he's too mature. I don't know, you guys. It's so hard to tell watching a TV show, like what's really going on. But I feel like Carl can do better. And I loved Anaya, but like, girl, I just think I think that thing with her and KC, it's gonna come back in their relationship because I don't know. I don't know, I don't know. Okay, she has something she needs to work on. So, anyways, Love Island's over. We love Brinity. Okay, congratulations. We hope you're we hope your relationship just you know blooms and you guys get rich and famous, which they already pretty much are. If you have a million followers on TikTok or Instagram, I think Trinity might have two. You're famous, baby. What brand deals do you want? You're set. Sell some phone cases on TikTok. Like you can make you're gonna make bands. You're you're already rich and famous. Like, I really cannot imagine being just an average Joe being asked to come on Love Island, and then after six weeks, you're famous. Like, there's no like preparing you for that, and like your brain and your mind, and uh that fucked me up. Like, they need therapists on speed dial as they're coming out of the villa because that's too much overnight. Like, your brain cannot process that. Your brain cannot process that. Like, it's trum, it's gotta be traumatic. The comments, the hate, the love, it's gotta be so overwhelming. Like, I would need a Xanax immediately coming out of that villa, maybe two, because no, so yeah. Um, La Vielin, La Island. Also, I really want Ariana to dye her hair back blonde. Like, I feel like she was so such a baddie with her long blonde beach hair. Like, that was like her look. I'm not gonna lie, I'm not loving the brown hair. And that's just me talking. Like, who gives a fuck about my opinion? Do you think Ariana really gives a fuck about my opinion? No. Who am I? Nobody. Who will I be? Somebody, hopefully. So I want to catch you guys up on my date last week. Um I was not feeling it. Here's the thing. I just think I'm like, I've been going for older men because I feel like they're gonna be more mature and like more stable, but it's not the case. They're actually corny as fuck. They're actually so fucking corny and have no game and are so like out of it that it's not worth it. It's not worth the like slightly more stable life because I think you could find a younger guy who like is honestly just as stable and is like more with it. You know, I don't like you have no game. The way he's texting, the way the last text he sent me, uh goodbye, never talking to you again. What the fuck? His text said, Why don't you send me a sexy picture to keep me interested? Crickets. Um, to keep you interested? To keep your saggy ball sack interested? Blocked. Blocked. Because what do you mean keep you interested? Boy, you're here to keep me interested. You can't even keep up. Okay? You're close to like being on social security and like needing life alert, and you're over here telling me that to I need to keep you interested. Blocked. Fucking blocked. Like you have zero game. And I understand, I can't imagine being married for I don't fucking know how long. I don't give a fuck how long you've been married, 10 years, coming out of the game, and you're in your 40s. You're kind of like, you're getting old. All right, you're getting a little old, and then you're talking to a young, like 29-year-old who's kind of like cool. You just you need to go practice. You need to go practice a little bit. So, like, that's a fuck no for me. And in my life right now, I'm like speed dating, okay? I'm speed dating because I'm figuring out what I like, and if I don't like, if it's just a slight no, it's a no. Like, I'm sorry. Like, and I you guys might think like, oh, you're being a whore by like experiencing this. No, this is me like I'm weeding them out quick, okay? I'm finding out what I like. Now I'm kind of realizing maybe I don't really want an older man because I've been like, that's all I've kind of been going for. And I'm kind of fucking over it. Okay, I'm kind of over it because they're just they're just just as lost as these younger guys. And like honestly, I'd rather go for like a guy that's a little younger that has like time, that has time to kind of like, you know, get his shit together, get right, and like be a little bit more with it. Okay. So, anyways, yeah, he's gotta go. He's blocked. I never even saved his number, and you're saying that shit to me. I almost said, Who is this? Who does dead fucking ass, who does, because I don't know who like what what is this a client saying this to me? Because I don't really save my clients' numbers. No, no, hate, except like unless you're an OG. But yeah, you gotta go, homie. So, dude, my mouth is so dry. Hang on. Why? Like, I must not talk this much. So, what direction do I want to take this? So, I've been like talking to myself a lot, like damn near schizophrenic, like borderline schizo. And I do this all the time, especially in the shower, you guys. Talking is so powerful. What is the phrase ask and you shall receive some shit like that? It's real, you guys. It's so real. And taking showers are so like spiritually like cleansing, like you kind of like it's a good reset for like your soul. It really is. Like, if you're having a rough time, you're having a rough day, take yourself in the shower, lock the door, let the kids scream at the door, play some loud music, and just like talk. Talk about what you're going through, what you need, what you want, what you desire. And I'm not joking you, like the world around you will answer. I am not lying, you guys. Okay, so last week I was like, after this date, I was just over it. I was like, I'm over these older men, and not coming from a desperate place because I'm not like dying for a boyfriend or like to date, but like I think I'm becoming ready. Okay, I think I'm becoming like ready. And so I was in the shower and I was talking to myself, like talking tongue. And I was like, God, Lord, spirit, whatever's higher than me, universe. I believe in all of it, by the way. I believe all of it's real. I believe in God, I believe in the spiritual world. I just believe in all of it because it's all real. Like we are God. There, God is in us, God is like it's real, all of it. Is Jesus this man who like came to earth and like uh like spoke to the people? I think so. But was like, I think he was preaching that like God is in all of us, like we are all God, like as a universe, okay? And like our higher self is God, okay? I think people are like living in heaven already, and people who are living in hell that are like addicts and miserable and like living on the streets are like literally in hell. I don't know, like that's what I believe. Okay. Anyways, I was preaching to God, and I was like, Jesus, like, like let me just tell you exactly what the fuck I want in a guy. Okay, and I I said this. I said, I think I want a younger guy. Obviously, like mid-20s, like, no younger than that. Okay, I'm not a fucking weirdo. And I like my biggest crush right now is like Morgan Wallen. Like he has been. Am I blending into this curtain? If you guys are watching, like, am I just a floating head? Sorry. And I literally said, like, I want a younger Morgan Wallen. Like, Morgan Wallen is so attractive to me because his first of all, his body is like my exact body type. Because he's like kind of like buff, but not like too buff. And he's kind of got that like country twang, country swag twang, right? And I was like, he's got the stash and like the flow, and he's like just the perfect body type and like look for me, personality. And so I was like gibbering on like going off on that. And so literally the next day, I was working this golf event that I really did not want to work. Like, I did want to, I literally asked to work it, but when the day came, I was kind of like, damn, like this is just like I worked a full day the day before, and I was just like tired, and I was like, I don't know. I had so much fucking fun, by the way, you guys. We ended up working like the beer tent and working with these golfers. I don't think they were no, they weren't pros because they were like local people. I shit you fucking not the next day after I was speaking tongue to Jesus, to the Lord above me, to my savior. A young Morgan Wallen walks up. I'm not fucking shitting you, okay? I'm not shitting you. He walked up, and I immediately was like taken back. I was like, this is not real. First of all, I need to find out if he's single because that's like the main thing. Like if he's married or some shit, like it's not what I asked for, right? God wouldn't send me a married man, would he? Shit. So I was like, that's the I didn't even say, do you want to drink? I said, are you single? Like that's the first thing because it's necessary. Are you single or not? Like, I need to know. He was so beautiful. He had the most beautiful blue eyes, buff, stash, like a vibe, got a country s a country swag. I don't know, you guys. He was the hottest thing I've literally ever seen in my entire life. And we just like fell in love instantly. I'm not joking you. I asked him, I said, Can I have your number? He's like, Yeah. And then we're texting each other, like, you're so hot, you're so attractive, whatever. Anyways, we're gonna go out soon, hopefully. But he's 24. What do you guys think about that? My mom is horrified. By the way, if I ever, if you even like talk to me or we go on a date or anything, my family group chat knows. My family group chat has already dissected everything about you. I'm sending zoomed-in pics. Um and then we're like, we're picking it apart. My mom and my siblings and I are tearing your ass apart. We're Googling, we're finding your address, we're looking up your fucking salary, all of it. Okay, we're doing a deep dive before we even go on a date. So I'm sending it to the group chat of my family, and my mom is kind of horrified that he's 24, but it's what I asked for. Careful what you ask for, okay? Because a young 24-year-old Morgan Wallen might walk into your fucking life and sweep you off your feet. Okay, and I'm gonna give you guys I'm gonna tell you guys something. He's on my TikTok, okay, and he's holding me up on the keg stand in my recent video. Tell me that's not a young fucking Morgan Wallen. And I really hope to God he didn't lie to me about having a girlfriend because he just got exposed. He just got exposed because that's your fault. I'm so tired of these men lying to me. They lie to me all the fucking time. Okay, and I do find out. And you know what? It's just too much for me to handle. I just I just can't, okay? And I'm gonna give you one more example because this just happened to me again. The tongue, the tongue, the speaking of like what your desires are in your life. It's so important, okay? First of all, you need to find out what the fuck you want in life, okay? I'm slowly figuring that out, okay? I wanna be somebody. I've already thought about it. I want to be somebody big, okay? I want to be known. I can handle that as a person. I think I give off that energy, that famous girl energy. I want it, okay? And I've already said this because I was I'm back and forth. Can I really handle that? Can I really handle that life of like maybe going out to eat and like people recognize you? I can. I fucking eat it up. All right. So I really like you gotta shed the layers of like your trauma, first of all, because the trauma keeps you stuck, okay? And the trauma keeps you in loops that like keep you stuck, okay? So once you start finding out what those are, shedding them, closing them, you'll start your your intuition will start to like speak. Okay, it really does. And I've talked about this before. And I'm like coming to terms with I want to be somebody, and I do want to be in a relationship, and I do want something big from my life, and so I'm talking to the universe about it, okay. I'm talking, talking it through. I'm I'm talking the universe through it, okay? And so I was in the shower fucking two nights ago, you guys. Two nights ago. I'm not lying. I can't lie. I I'm not a good liar, okay? I'm really not. And I was saying to the universe, asking the universe to give me a sign that if I'm going in the right direction with this, this podcast, maybe putting myself out there just a little bit more, slowly, okay? Bread crumbing. Bread crumbing, I don't know if that's the word, but like, I don't know, kind of like starting to get myself out there a little bit. Give me a sign that I'm going in the right direction, okay? I'm not making this up because I have people that can confirm this, okay? So I was getting my kids out of the car yesterday. This is the day after, again, the next day, after my after my spiritual tongue shower, alright? I was getting out of the car, I was Charlie, I was like kind of like, oh fuck, it's like 100 degrees. I'm getting these kids out of the car. The fuck are we gonna eat for dinner? Whatever. And a car is like staring at me and like breaks in front of my house. Okay, I've never seen this car or this person. Okay, and it's a man, like a grown man, like a 50-year-old man. And he looks at me and he's like, Leah. And I was like, Hi. I'm like, do I need to like fight you? Like, I'm like, my instinct is coming in of like, what's going on? Like, I'm kind of going into like defense mode. Like, hi, who the fuck are you? And he's like, Oh my god, I'm your biggest fan, or we're your biggest fan. And I was like, What? And he's like, I like watch your TikToks and listen to your podcast. And I was like, You are fucking lying right now. Out of this, out of the couple hundred people that listen to my podcast, a man is driving by at the same time that I'm getting my kids out of the car, and like I probably wouldn't stop my car and like say that shit. And he was like, Oh, I instantly recognized you. And like my wife and I listen, like, we're from Chicago. It's hard to find like cool people around here. And like, keep keep it up. He said that, like, keep it up, keep it going. And I was like, no, fucking. I shook his hand, and then Charlie's in the back screaming, she's like, Mommy, you're gonna get hit by a car, like crying, because I tell her, like, never go out in the road. And I was like, This is not fucking real. This is not fucking real. Like, let me get back in that motherfucking shower and speak on what else I want to fucking know. Okay, what else I want? I want to meet Justin Bieber. Okay, if I met Justin Bieber, first of all, I would ask, do you have any does baby Jack have any extra diapers for me? Because I just shit my fucking pants. Okay, can I let me get a look in your diaper bag because I need diaper and wipes. Baby Jack, I'm coming for your supplies because. Lord help me. I truly think it would ruin my life if I met Justin Bieber because I'm I'm not even obsessed with him. I'm just a fan of his music. Okay. I'm not some like weirdo. I mean, if like we went, if he was single, we went on a date and he was like Justin Bieber. I would definitely fucking like I don't know. Could I act normal on a date with JB? I don't know. I would be like so sweaty. My palms would be like drenched. No fucking joke. My palms would be drenched. And I don't know. So let me get back in that shower and start speaking. Okay, Lord. Like, let me go to church. Let me like that shit is powerful apparently because I haven't been doing that really recently. And I haven't really been seeing movement or like things happening. So get in that fucking shower. Start diving deeper on like who you are, who you want to be. And here's the thing. Here's the cool thing about that. You can be whoever the fuck you want to be. Okay. There's not always like something that's gonna tell you, oh, this is what this is what you need to do, this is what you're gonna be. You can literally just pick. Okay, you could just literally pick. That's why like doing the inner work helps because it starts to guide you on like what's right and like what's wrong. And maybe if this wasn't went meant for me, I would have had like a sign that was like this shit ain't for you. But the fact that I'm seeing the signs of like someone fucking driving by, stopping his car, and saying, Are you Leah? and then telling me to keep going, that that's no coincidence. That's no coincidence. I'm telling you it's not. Okay, so let me get in that shower and tell ask the Lord Jesus that I want to be in Coachella. Like me and my manager, oh, we're already talking about it. Coachella 2028 front row. Like Justin Bieber standing next to me. Haley, Haley Bieber's standing next to me, okay? I'm playing it cool. Alright, I'm playing it cool. I'm not like I'm not a big fan, but are are my knees buckling and do I need a diaper? Yeah. Okay. But I'll still play it cool. Are my hands shaking so fucking bad to the point where like I don't know? Today's lesson, ask and you shall fucking receive, you guys. Like the world is so powerful, the universe is so powerful, Jesus is so powerful, and y'all are sleeping on it. You're just like going throughout your life like a damn zombie. Like, uh, I don't know. Like, is this my life? Is this my relationship? Start paying attention to yourself, to your body, to your feelings, to to your um, to your habits, okay? It's powerful. And then things will start to like slowly, they'll start to like align, okay? You'll start noticing things if things aren't working out. Should I be in this relationship? Ask. Should I be in this fucking relationship? Something shitty will happen the next day. I I shit you fucking not. Like the universe will answer. Okay, I asked and I shall receive my answer. Thank you. Thank you, Lord. Okay. Is this a podcast or is this church? Okay, though your answers will come to you. I I swear to you. So that's my lesson of the day. Ask and you fucking shall receive. It might not be exactly what you want to see or hear. It's not always gonna be um, you know, exactly what you want, but it's what you fucking need. I've done the work, okay? I've done the work, and that's why my path is starting to align. It's taken me a couple years, okay? I went through a few years of fucking hell, okay, to get to this point of like things starting to maybe take the right direction. Even though I might not be seeing that much movement, okay? I might have a hundred followers on Instagram, TikTok. Go follow me by the way, at Hotter ThanYouPod. All right, but I feel the things aligning. I feel it in my spirit and in my soul. Okay, so while you're listening to this podcast, my ass is on my way to Traver City. Okay, I'm about to have a girls' weekend, so don't fucking talk to me. Actually, do talk to me. I want to like give me some positive feedback while I'm on my way to Traverse City. I want to read my DMs on my way up there, okay? At Hotter ThanYouPod, Instagram, DM me, please. Give me some positive feedback that you like this podcast because shit. I'll stir some shit up to give you guys some good stories. My life is a fucking it could be a reality show. I'm not joking you. It really could be a fucking reality show. Uh, I just went on a rant, my mouth's dry, and you know what? Hopefully, you guys take a spiritual shower this week. Start talking out loud, and things will start changing for you. I swear to God. I swear to God. It just takes that first step. So I love you guys. Stay fucking hotter than you. And let's let's get our lives right. Let's get our lives right. Let's. I just want the best for everybody. I don't want you guys living in this low frequency like life where you're just going to work every day, coming home to your lame ass husband, and like you're just you're just there. It's the same shit every week. Like, life should be so fun, life should be so exciting. Like, even for your kids, like, do it for your kids too. Like, give your kids a fun childhood, but it starts with you. It really does. Like, going a little deeper and like having fun. It's okay to have fun. Okay, it is like.