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<v SPEAKER_00>Our first scripture reading today comes from Matthew's gospel, the 25th chapter.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Hear now the word of the Lord.

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<v SPEAKER_00>For as if a man going on a journey summoned his slaves and entrusted his property to them.

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<v SPEAKER_00>To one he gave five talents, to another, two, to another one, to each according to his ability.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Then he went away.

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<v SPEAKER_00>At once the one who had received the five talents went off and traded with them and made five more talents.

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<v SPEAKER_00>In the same way the one who had the two talents made two more talents, but the one who had received the one talent went off and dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.

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<v SPEAKER_00>After a long time the master of those slaves came and settled accounts with them.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Then the one who had received the five talents came forward, bringing five more talents, saying, Master, you handed over to me five talents, see?

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<v SPEAKER_00>And I have made five more talents.

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<v SPEAKER_00>His master said to him, Well done, good and trustworthy slave.

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<v SPEAKER_00>You have been trustworthy in a few things.

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<v SPEAKER_00>I will put you in charge of many things.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Enter into the joy of your master.

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<v SPEAKER_00>And the one with the two talents also came forward, saying, Master, you handed over to me two talents.

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<v SPEAKER_00>See, I have made two more talents.

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<v SPEAKER_00>His master said to him, Well done, good and trustworthy slave.

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<v SPEAKER_00>You have been trustworthy in a few things.

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<v SPEAKER_00>I will put you in charge of many things.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Enter into the joy of your master.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Then the one who had received the one talent also came forward, saying, Master, I knew you were a harsh man, reaping where you did not sow, and gathering where you did not scatter.

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<v SPEAKER_00>So I was afraid, and I went and hid your talent in the ground.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Here, you have what is yours.

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<v SPEAKER_00>But his master replied, You wicked and lazy slave, you knew, did you, that I reap where I did not sow, and gather where I did not scatter.

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<v SPEAKER_00>Then you ought to invested my money with the bankers, and on my return I would have received what was my own with interest.

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<v SPEAKER_00>So take the talent from him and give it to one with ten talents, for to all those who have more will be given, and they will have an abundance.

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<v SPEAKER_00>But from those who have nothing, even what they have will be taken away.

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<v SPEAKER_00>As for this worthless slave, throw him into the outer darkness where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

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<v SPEAKER_00>This is the word of the Lord.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Y'all see the cross by me?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Yeah.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, I know it's easy to miss.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You know, what with uh the other much larger sacred object next to it?

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<v SPEAKER_01>The organ.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, but it's there, uh, looming over every single person who steps foot in this pulpit.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Last week, for those of y'all who were here and remember it, uh, we talked about the second coming of Christ.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And uh and it reminded me of a joke that I'm sure a lot of you've heard.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I've heard it several different places, where you know, Jesus comes back and uh and Jesus goes to church and he sees all the crosses, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>He sees crosses around people's neck and on top of steeples and uh even over pulpits, and he goes up to you and he says, crosses, crosses, did you read the story?

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<v SPEAKER_01>What makes you think I want to be honored with crosses?

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's not the happy part of the story, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>But the gospel is not really just a bunch of happy success stories either, which I believe is why we have to really pay attention and read closely the parable of the talents.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Because on the face of it, it looks like the parable of the talents is basically a story about God rewarding success on the one hand and punishing failure, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>I mean, we just heard it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, God gets five talents, he turns them into ten, guy gets two talents, he turns them into four.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Go and enter into the joy of your master.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But the last one, the last guy, he just got one talent.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Uh, he buried it in the ground, he failed.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Throw that one into outer darkness.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So anyone who has read the Gospel of Matthew closely, as we have been doing over these past several weeks, um, frankly, anybody who's ever sat through a Good Friday service, um, they will tell you that the story of Jesus Christ is not just a story about God blessing success, God punishing failure.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Frankly, anybody who's ever been in the ministry will tell you it's not just a bunch of happy success stories up here either, folks.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um anybody who's lived life knows that too.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I was thinking as I was writing this, like, that's kind of the problem with preaching, you know?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Because everything you get up here is written and rewritten and practiced and rehearsed and fine-tuned most of the time.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Most of the time.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But trust me, everything in ministry, it is not practiced and rehearsed and fine-tuned and always successful.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I learned that early on.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, I've told you all a couple of these stories about how when I was in college, I worked as a youth minister for the Baptist church that I grew up in.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And uh, and before that, when I was a teenager, when I was a youth back in the 1990s, um, we had like a very stereotypical 1990s youth minister.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like he wore flannel and he had a guitar, and uh, and he would lead us in praise courses, and and he could just sing, he could sing beautifully.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He was a tenor, just fantastic singer.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So when I started as a college youth minister, I just thought, like, hey, I'll do that, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, I could string a few chords on a guitar, um, I could lead kids in praise chorses.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I mean, how hard can that really be, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, here's the thing I didn't realize.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, I can sing, can't really sing on tune.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You know?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, but I was such a young and innocent and doe-eyed uh looking college kid.

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<v SPEAKER_01>At first, nobody had the heart to tell me that I wasn't singing on key for these praise courses.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, it wasn't until like about a month in that I realized like nobody was singing with me, you know?

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<v SPEAKER_01>And then about two months in, I kid you not, like suddenly, when it was time for me to lead the praise courses, all the adult volunteers who were older than me, they suddenly like had to go use the bathroom during praise course time.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um so trust me, not everything in ministry is turning five talents into ten.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's just not.

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<v SPEAKER_01>To be fair to the parable, though, let's go to the parable real quick.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, taking five talents, turning them into ten, probably was not just like a very simple success story either.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, there wasn't like investment strategies back in the first century that guaranteed success like that.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um this slave, and mind you, he was a slave, so anything he did with money was putting him at substantial risk.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But just think about this he was investing five talents, which is a fortune.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Five talents is about two million dollars, our money.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And he had to put that money at substantial risk to make a profit like that.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So surely, while he was going through the process of doubling it, um, there was a lot of success, but surely he met with some failure along the way, too.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, and he certainly had to put himself through a lot of risk to do it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He probably lost some, he probably gained some.

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<v SPEAKER_01>We just don't hear about the ups and downs of through the parable.

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<v SPEAKER_01>What we do hear about is the failure of the last guy.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You all remember that, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Notice, though, the difference between the five talents and the one talent.

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<v SPEAKER_01>The guy with the one talent, he wasn't willing to risk anything, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, he just buried it in the ground because, Master, I knew you were a harsh man, he said.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He didn't even try.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So let's just say out loud, well, the parable skips over maybe a bit too quickly.

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<v SPEAKER_01>To live in the kingdom of God is to risk failure.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Not even to risk failure.

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<v SPEAKER_01>To live in the kingdom of God is to experience failure every once in a while.

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<v SPEAKER_01>This is the problem when you read the parable of the talents as just a story about rewarding success.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You really, if you read it too quick, you miss the fact that turning five talents into ten was risky business.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Probably had a lot of failure along the way, too.

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<v SPEAKER_01>To be frank though, got to thinking this week, like this is kind of the problem with like with everything we do up here, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like um, like even communion, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, like, think about it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, in just a few minutes, you all are gonna come up here and you're gonna come up here in your Sunday best, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, it's a problem if through doing that we assume that God only wants to see successful people, that God only cares about you when you're all tidied up and looking great.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um it's a problem if we assume this table is just for perfect Sunday people.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Because it's not.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's not what communion is about.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um what communion is really about is bringing up not just your Sunday best, but really like your whole self to the communion table.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um your success, but also your failures, your uh your risk and also your failures, um, your rewards, but also your failures.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, all of it, all of it, your your whole self is about supposed to come up here.

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<v SPEAKER_01>What what God turns into the beautiful people of Christ, the beautiful people of God, the body of Christ, um, is a bunch of imperfect people, just like you and just like me.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's what God mysteriously turns into the body of Christ every time we come up here.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Our whole selves are transformed.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And if you think about it, if you think about the communion story, I mean that's actually like how communion got started, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, think about it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, communion got started during the Last Supper, when you'll remember Jesus took bread.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And you remember what happened right after the meal?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Uh, he was betrayed by somebody who was really close to him.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And um, and then he was condemned by the state, and then he died on a cross.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So Jesus' um own life of faithfulness, it wasn't just a simple success story, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>It wasn't just taking five talents, turning them into ten.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Last week, you might remember, I told you about a preacher, famous preacher named Fred Craddock, whose book I did finish this week.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, some of you actually, after the service, you came up to me and you said like you had heard of Fred Craddock.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Some of you had actually even seen him preach before.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Uh, for those who don't know him, believe me, uh, in Presbyterian preacher world, Fred Craddock is like the top of the top.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um he was a brandy distinguished professor of preaching and New Testament at Emory University like for decades.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He taught thousands of students, like literally thousands of ministers.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, he lectured and he preached all over the country.

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<v SPEAKER_01>On the face of it, Fred Craig looks like a really successful story.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Which is why it was so striking to me uh in his book on preaching, where he says the life of a preacher, and frankly, the life of faith, it's not like that at all.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's what he said.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um he says that like when you look at the pulpit from the pews, it looks uh really neat and really nice, doesn't it, from where you're standing, sitting.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, but once you get behind it, you notice it's it's a little bit of a mess.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's my fault.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I'll I'll take responsibility.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, but there's like there's old bulletins back here.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um this is water from last week.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um here's my my sweat rag starting to turn a color.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And this is something I was thinking about last week.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, there's a fire extinguisher back here.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, I don't know what you want me to do with this thing if like a fire broke out.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, in other words, uh the life of faith.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's not all just like turning five talents into ten.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Craddock says when he was first called into ministry, like he envisioned it as like a once and for all, like, yes, Lord, here I am, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, are you able, Fred Craddock, to drink this cup?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Yes, Lord, here I am.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Are you able to write that one big check for your life and give it over?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Yes, Lord, here I am.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But then, like, he got into ministry, he got into life, and he realized that big cup, you don't just swallow it once, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>You take a little sip here, take a little sip there.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You preach a sermon that flops, there's a sip.

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<v SPEAKER_01>The McKinnon room tiles fall apart, there's a sip.

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<v SPEAKER_01>The kids stop singing when you're trying to lead them in singing.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's a sip.

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<v SPEAKER_01>There's also, he said, there's no just like one big check that you that you pay for your life up front.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's more just like little withdrawals.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, you know,$1.50 here, five bucks there,$10 there, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like um, like you stay up late in the office, you miss your kid's baseball game.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's a withdrawal from that check.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, your teenager yells at you for the first time.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's a withdrawal from the check.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um you get that unexpected call back from the doctor's office.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That's another withdrawal.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, all the time.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It's like life is just like a little bit here, a little bit there, these withdrawals from your soul.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Truth is though, Jesus never said being faithful would be easy.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He did say in this parable, though, to be faithful, uh, you do have to try.

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<v SPEAKER_01>We have to try.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That last guy with the one talent, he didn't he didn't try.

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<v SPEAKER_01>That guy with the one talent, he's like, sorry to name names, but he's like Joel Olstein, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like, he's the guy standing up in front of uh a thousand people saying, Jesus is gonna bless you with success.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I guarantee it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But then he never preaches a sermon about a hard topic.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, he never admits that a life of faith takes some risk and that it can be hard.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And sorry, last time, but to to return to communion again, um, just to underline it, that's what that's what the bread is all about, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, Jesus, in his lowest moment, that turned into one of his highest moments, all of that was rolled into one through the bread.

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<v SPEAKER_01>In the bread, you can see both cross and resurrection.

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<v SPEAKER_01>In the bread, you can see Jesus' whole ministry.

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<v SPEAKER_01>You can see your whole life of faith in this.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um all of that is celebrated here at the table.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I'm gonna leave you with just just one more youth ministry story from back when I was in college.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um there was a kid in my youth group.

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<v SPEAKER_01>He was a teenager, uh, his name was Jesse.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And Jesse like struggled to make friends.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And he was the type of kid that was like he's really sensitive, he was really thin-skinned.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And when I was a college student, I actually used to just go over to Jesse's house to play video games after school because like I was starting to worry about him.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Like he was really, you could sense it, like he was really starting to withdraw.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And I don't remember where we were at, but I was leading a retreat for the youth group one night.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And uh, and yes, I had my guitar.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, thankfully, I wasn't singing, so the kids didn't have to go to the bathroom.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I was just strumming the chords.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And and I asked the kids to wash each other's feet.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Uh, it wasn't Monday Thursday.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I don't know why I asked them to do that.

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<v SPEAKER_01>It just felt like a cool youth group thing to do.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And they did it reluctantly, and it got to be Jesse's turn, and somebody washed Jesse's feet, and suddenly Jesse just started like sobbing, crying.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And it wasn't like like an embarrassing type of thing.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, it's not like the kids like laughed at him or like drew away or anything.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um I don't know, like maybe it was a miracle, maybe it was the Holy Spirit.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But like I remember several kids like came over to Jesse and like just put a uh hand on his shoulder.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And uh and Jesse said something like, I just never thought anyone would ever do something like that for me.

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<v SPEAKER_01>So I was trying to keep it cool, right?

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<v SPEAKER_01>Um, like I was I was strumming my guitar, just acting like everything was normal.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But inside my head, I was thinking, like, yes, like they get it, they finally get it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>I had a dream about that night recently.

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<v SPEAKER_01>Uh I don't know if you would call it a dream or a daydream, um, but I was thinking about it.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And probably I was thinking about it because Craddock in his book, he talks about something very similar, so it like it got me thinking in this way.

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<v SPEAKER_01>But um, but anyway, I'm dreaming about how present Jesus felt in that moment.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And in the dream, I'm um I'm strumming my guitar, and Jesse is there and he's crying, and the kids they're they're up and they're rubbing his shoulders, and all of us are there together, our full and our complete and our imperfect selves, at once, taking a risk, trying to be the body of Christ.

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<v SPEAKER_01>And um, and in the dream, I'm strumming my guitar, and then suddenly I look down, and it turns out I'm not holding a guitar at all.

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<v SPEAKER_01>What I'm holding is a loaf of bread.
