Ep 4: You're Not Crazy: Why Craving More Means You're Awakening

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In this episode, Aiyahla speaks to every woman who has ever felt crazy for wanting more, more depth, more purpose, more contribution, while her life looks perfect from the outside. 

Through Truth #10 of the Sixteen Truths of Freedom, she reveals why the people around you judge you when you begin to change, why it was never about you, and how transforming judgement into compassion keeps your heart open on the edge of the unknown, where miracles happen.

Whether you're here to understand your own awakening, release the fear of being judged for changing, or simply remember that you were never crazy for wanting more, this podcast is for you.

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Transcript

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This is High Freedom with Ayala Loctus, the podcast that expands you into freedom consciousness, melts the golden cage of success, and shifts paradigms. Hello, wildflowers. I'm so excited to be here. Wow. I'm excited that we're doing this um deep dive in this these next few weeks. And we have so much to go deep, deep, deep, deep, deep. And this the podcast is already such a success. I'm I couldn't be more grateful. This was always a dream of really taking this beautiful and profound teachings to profound wisdom to so many amazing souls. So thank you for being here. And today we're gonna dive deep on something that it wasn't a question that I received from one person, but throughout these almost eight years of free-free, I just have seen in so many women. And I just want to bring this quick to all of you in a deeper way. So I I hear a lot like women feeling they're crazy just because they're they're feeling like they they need something more in their life. They they feel crazy for wanting more. And I just want to be very clear about this and why does this happen? Yeah? Because in the outside, it looks like your life is perfect, right? Everyone looks at you and you seem to have the perfect life. Maybe you are in this great relationship that looks great in pictures, or have that perfect family that you send Christmas cards every Christmas. Um, or maybe you just reach this level of business success, right? You're a C-level in a C-level position of VP or CEO of a big incredible fortune in 500. I've seen it all. But deep down, you're craving for more and you're feeling crazy because of that. And you're only feeling crazy because of that, because the people around you don't want you to break free. And I just want to really be clear here they're not doing this consciously. You're feeling this craving for more, for more depth, for more love, for more purpose, for more contribution because you awakened. And maybe you don't even know you're awakening. Because the awakening can happen in many different ways. We we tend to believe that you know, we see a lot of people talking about near-death experiences and people awakening in that moment. We also see other people having these kundalini awakenings and their life shifts from a day to another, but it's not like this for everyone. For a lot of people, the awakening can be mild and can take time, and it's a discovering. Awakening means that you know there's more to life, a part of the 3D world, right? There's more to life, there's this unseen, and that you can't really grasp, but you know it's there, right? You start understanding more than what you understand through your five senses. Yeah. So this is very important. So the awakening can unravel for different people in different ways. And if you are craving more depth, it is probably like 99% of chances is because you are in an awakening process. You know there's more to life. And a perfect life on paper, on the outside, even if it's beautiful, can feel very superficial when we're going through that process. And the people around you, if they haven't awakened yet, they won't understand it because they're very focused on the external, the material world, and you're not anymore. And this is why you're craving more, more depth, more truth. Your heart is cracking open, your mind is expanding, your vision of the world, it's shifting because when we are focused on the physical life, the material life, before we understand there's more to life, our lower mind is activated. We we don't have access to our higher mind, to our spiritual mind, to the ego's eye. So we tend to focus on what's out there, on our five senses. And this is the world we live in. I normally call this world a world where we're using horse blinkers. Yes, we don't know there's more. The moment we start awakening, just feel that these horse blinkers they start widening, and you start noticing subtle things that you didn't notice before. Your vision shifts. And this can be very confusing to a lot of us. I can say that because I went through all of that. My awakening wasn't um subtle, but it did take time. And during those, that time, when when you start seeing things in a different way, when you go back to your usual life and to your everyday life, it can be very challenging because you you don't relate to things in the same way. And normally the people around you, if they are not awakened, they don't get it. And it can feel very lonely. So I just wanted to bring this to our to our podcast here, just to so you understand that you are not crazy. It's the contrary. You're just going deeper into your soul. Your soul is speaking to you. You're accessing subtle feels that you weren't accessing before. You're accessing your gifts. And this is why you crave contribution. This is why you crave deeper connections. And this is why the glittery physical material success is not enough anymore. You want to leave a legacy, you want to change the world, you want, you want to contribute in ways to your family, to the world that you've never thought you would be, you even thought about before. And most people don't want you to break free. It's not in a negative way, it's simply an unconscious reaction because they don't want to lose you, right? They don't want something to change. Most people still fear change because if they're not changing, they don't want you to change. So we shouldn't judge them. And I really want to bring in here um truth number 10 for all of us, because I think this is an important one, and I'll read it. So let's just really pay attention here. Judgment is a defense mechanism, transform it into compassion. Judgment distorts your vision and creates karma. Compassion aligns you with divine will, restoring balance through love, not fear. So, what does this mean? So the moment people judge you because you're always a sudden craving new things, craving more depth, questioning your friendships, questioning the work that you're doing, questioning the relationships, questioning everything, because this is what the awakening does. It makes us question what is true to us, to our soul, or what was a conditioning of our background, of our traditions, our nationality, our family. And a lot of the people that are surrounded by us, that we surround ourselves of, they start judging us for small changes at first, then bigger changes. But the moment you look at them and you feel judged upon, right? You feel like no one is getting me, no one understands me. This truth brings us a very important comprehension of the whole situation. They are judging not because it is true, but because they have a limited perception of what you are going through, because there is a distortion there. They're judging through the veils they have access to. So, for example, your veils are getting thinner. Probably their veils are not getting thinner yet. So they're not at the same level of consciousness. They're seeing reality through distortion, so through their own conditionings, through their own traumas, through their own memories. And if you judge them back, oh, they don't get me, they don't understand me, I'm feeling crazy, what is going on with me, or you judge yourself, you're hurting yourself and you are hurting others. So this truth brings to us something that is very important is that we transform judgment with compassion. So the moment you see all these people judging you because all of a sudden you you're looking for more depth. Maybe you said to yourself, I'm, you know, you worked your whole life to reach the sea level position and now you want to leave. A lot of the people would say, Oh, you're going crazy. What are you thinking about? And I went through that. I remember when I was leaving Vogue, people didn't get it. I had this incredible career in fashion. Um, working in fashion for 11 years, I was in the top of my career. I was a creative director, artistic director at Vogue. And I had a baby. Like people didn't get when I wanted to leave Vogue. They thought I was completely crazy, right? But they didn't understand there was a deeper meaning to all of that. I was being called to do service, contribution, and this is what free free was giving me. And feel free-free was really fulfilling me in ways that at the time Vogue didn't. So at the time I didn't know this truth, and it really hurt me to see all that judgment. But I was really following my soul. I think for us, and for you that are having the possibility of listening to this wisdom, something that I've been learning for over 11 years now, and I'm so happy that I'm here, able to share with all of you, is that when you see someone else judging you, you don't need to hide. You don't need to feel you're crazy because you're different. You just shift that into compassion, meaning that you just see them through the eagle's eye. You see that they're just seeing through distortion, they're seeing through their own limited point of view. This doesn't mean that they won't change in the future, that they won't evolve and grow their consciousness. We're not better than anyone. People just awaken in different times and they start freeing themselves, right? So I'm so excited that we're able to have this conversation because this is so important to everyone that is in the freedom journey. It is really all about understanding how just by shifting our perspective. Sorry about that. Shifting our perspective, our life changes in ways that we don't even understand, and that's fine because in the freedom journey, we're always walking on the edge of the unknown, and being comfortable to be in that edge is where miracles happen, it's where magic happens, it's how we go to the next level of consciousness and that we start reaching higher and higher and higher into freedom consciousness, and our hearts keeps open, completely cracked open. The moment we judge back, we close the heart, we close our connection, we we go into the horse blinkers. So instead of judging yourself, am I crazy? Why are these people thinking of this about me? Am I doing something wrong? Just keep going, shine your light, keep your heart open, listen to your soul. This is not happening because you're having a breakdown or a midlife crisis. It's because we're living in a moment and time that the veils are getting thinner and thinner, and everyone is being called to awaken, to see beyond the material, to see into the unknown. And this is freedom. Because the moment you free yourself, you're not going to be manipulated anymore by the external, you're not going to give your power away anymore. And this can make people very uncomfortable. Either because they have been manipulating you for a long time and or they have exerted some sort of power over you, or because they just don't get you anymore. And when people can't put us in a box, it brings them a sense of uncertainty that their ego feels it's danger. This is why a lot of people don't want us to change. But I repeat, they're not doing this consciously in most cases. So this is where compassion comes in. Compassion means that we're not saying this is right or wrong, it's saying, it's saying that you see beyond their response and you keep the heart open. You see it, you don't allow it to interfere in your field and your heart, but you keep the heart open. So when you judge, you close the heart. When you have compassion, you keep the heart open. And this is the biggest shift, and this is the biggest shift all of humanity needs to have because most of us we're living in this duality where someone does something and we react and we close our hearts, and they react and close their hearts. And we are living in this in this very superficial reactive space, material, physical, sensorial space. And as we grow in consciousness, it's really all about shifting into a higher level of consciousness, freedom consciousness. And for us to be free, the heart has always to be open. I would love to hear from you. You can join us in the channel and my Instagram. Um, the channel is called High Freedom with Ayala. And if you have any questions, just drop in there. I'm so excited, and I would love to answer your questions here. Send this incredible podcast to friends and share with us, like tag us in social media. We would love to hear from you. We would love to see that you're sharing, that you're enjoying. And we're going to have some surprises for all of you soon that I will share in the channel. So I can't wait to see you there. See you in the next episode.