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In our latest episode, we revisit the long con from last season, focusing on the questions you’ve been eager to have answered. Toby shares some startling revelations about the events that transpired, particularly involving the so-called "phantom mother" and her dubious claims.
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Two girls. One mic. Two girls, one mic. Season three. Loose ends and loaded questions. Welcome back to two girls one mic. I'm Ray Ray. And officially welcome to season three. We spent last season talking through the long con. And while that story has come to an end, you guys definitely weren't done asking questions. You sent them in, but Toby has the answers. And as turned out, there are a few things we missed along the way. So we're kicking off this season by tying up some loose ends, filling in a few gaps, and answering the questions you've been waiting to hear. But after that, who knows where these microphones are gonna take us? New stories, new topics, probably some questionable opinions, and definitely a few conversations we probably shouldn't have with microphones in front of us. The long con is over. The conversations are just getting started. So Toby, one last time, what did we miss?
SPEAKER_00My name is Toby, and this is my story. So there are a few missing pieces that kind of go in with this story. So I'm just gonna go over those before I go over any of the questions that were asked. Um, so in the beginning of this story, I talked about the lap dog not being able to see the kids for a few months. And I talked about them driving up to the house when I was outs open, hoping to take some, take the kids if anybody answered the door. Uh, what I didn't mention is my niece and nephew were there watching my children, and the bang on the door was so ridiculous. It scared my nephew so bad that like he grabbed a knife. Oh my god. Like, this wasn't just gentle, we want to see the kids. It was, we're coming in, we're scaring everybody, we do not care. Just the most environment whatsoever. What's the point of that? I have no idea. Like, I get it. You wanted to see your kids. She should have never been involved. She should not be cop knocking on my door. You're scaring the children. Stop it. So we're gonna skip forward to some things we missed with all of the fake babies. So now let's go with fake baby number one. The baby that passed away that never existed, right? Yeah. So with the ashes that I spoke about, and there just being way too many ashes. Uh, usually it's a couple ounces. The bag that the lap dog sent me a photo of was like a really cheap sandwich bag and what looked like either, I don't know, icing sugar or booger sugar. Um, but like swurt. You know what I mean? Um, and it also didn't come with any identification tags. Now I looked in my dad's ashes, and other people opened their ashes, and there is an identification tag. And it's important you keep those with the ashes in case they ever go missing. People know where to return them. Absolutely. So, for whatever reason, in her brain, she removed said identification tag from the ashes. Or was it because said baby's not real?
SPEAKER_01It's not real. I'm just just guessing.
SPEAKER_00Right? Just pure guessing on all of the facts that I have. So now when said baby died inside of her, uh, she says the baby died inside of her. She didn't stay at the hospital, she left. Yeah. Again, she went, right? She wasn't ready to birth said dead baby. So she kept it inside of her for 10 days. This is what she's telling everybody. You kept a rotting corpse in your body for 10 days and didn't go septic. The hospital didn't force you to get it out.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, that's why most of all that would never. It just those things are never gonna happen. Just made up how Google.
SPEAKER_00Yes. So now she went when she finally went to the hospital. She snuck out of the house in hopes that nobody would hear her. But the lap dog ended up hearing her and following her, to which she said she didn't want him there for this, she didn't want him to experience this, she needed to do it alone, whatever, which also makes no sense. So she was at the hospital for no longer than six hours. Everybody's got a different time frame, but it's in between three to six hours. She was at the hospital. She came walking out with a hospital wristband, no memory box that they generally give you, no overnight stay, no wheelchair, nobody to accompany her out.
SPEAKER_01That is just completely would be that would be completely irresponsible of the hospital.
SPEAKER_00Correct. Also, they're gonna keep you overnight, they're gonna do a mental health and wellness check. They need to make sure you're okay because when somebody goes through something like this, it is a big deal. Um, and now there's no still birth certificate or death certificate whatsoever. She's claims it's in storage. Um, but like, no, ma'am.
SPEAKER_01If you don't keep those in storage, I just you don't make a memory of your the baby that has gone. Like just don't be like, okay, whoops, and then forget it. Yes.
SPEAKER_00So now finding out about the second fake baby, when we started to uncover the truth about the first fake baby, the enabler starts messaging the switch to basically threaten her and threaten all of us, and to to say, I held the baby, I don't know what you're talking about. Like this is ridiculous. So the enabler is enabling the phantom mother's lies with all the laughing faces ever told me she's lying. No one held the baby, and the phantom mother went by herself. She's a fucking liar. I have the text for that. Again, receipt, receipt, receipt.
SPEAKER_01I just don't understand how you can lie. Like, go in there and say you held a baby when you weren't even you would have been in the car with them, you would have gone together.
SPEAKER_00Right? It would have been a thing, but no, she went by herself. But now you got a cover for her because she's the product of you, and this is your fault. You know, you raised this, you're absolutely a fucking shitstorm with her. So now with the second fake baby, that this one's fake. I don't care. You can't tell me otherwise. They're both fucking fake. But with the second one, we know for sure police and hospital evidence that it's fake. Remember, she was telling everybody, you know, well, I lost it, and the trauma of losing my first one came up now that I've lost the second one. So with the second one, while she was still apparently pregnant, it would be great if you could see my rolling eyes and my air quotes. Um, she was going as far as telling people she was three centimeters dilated. She was faking contractions in public, saying that the contractions are this many minutes apart and this many minutes apart. And the lap dog's messaging with the switch and they're talking about it, and they can't convince her to go to the hospital, but they're all trying to convince her to go to the hospital. And the lap dog's like, she looks tired, and the contractions are six and a half minutes apart. And the switch is like, you need to get her to a hospital. Like, she's faking all of this. Because again, we all know, and she has admitted that the baby was not there. It was just PTSD trauma, blah, blah, blah. But meanwhile, in these text messages that I'm seeing between the lap dog and the switch, um, he's still adamant about getting the DNA test. No matter what, he's getting a DNA test. She stated, the Phantom Mother stated that she ordered an online DNA test, but unfortunately, it was sent back for some unknown reason.
SPEAKER_01There's a lot of sent backs and didn't see and put in storage, and I'm just throwing it out there. When somebody has an opportunity to take pictures in a hospital, too, you don't you don't say, oh no, and just not have you in them and huddling like keep you. These things just don't add up.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, no, you're absolutely right. You're you're 100% right. So it's like the answers are all there, and it's like the lap dog has the answers already written out to an open book exam and he still fucking fails it. You know what I mean? Like, what are you doing?
SPEAKER_01You chose that, yes.
SPEAKER_00So now I'm aware. Thank you. Such a dick. Now we move on to the lap dog when he told the kids he wouldn't get back with her. And I said to him, She is unsafe. Somebody this psychotic is not going to hurt herself. She's too into herself, she's too invested in her stories that she's creating. So the next thing she's gonna do is harm what she can't have, and that is your children, because she can't have your children. No, so the chances of her harming our kids is so real, but more than just both of them, she's gonna harm the one that she has gone around saying is not his. She is telling people that my baby is not biologically his and that she wants a DNA test. Fucking do it. Because I hope to God there is a miracle that states he is not the father. Because I'm also pissed off that I'm the baby mama.
SPEAKER_01It's not something you go, yes, he's the he's the daddy of my babies. You're like, no, I'm biased to the death. Yeah, he is the father.
SPEAKER_00But also, like a little word of advice. When I have I've had a hoe phase for myself, and you know, I've taken other people's fucking hoe phases. You know what I mean? Like I did did some terrible things, so but there's a long list of men you could have chosen and accused of being the father of my baby, but you went out on a limb and accused a man I've never slept with, you dumb bitch.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, she is. That's because that's the only person that she's got in her brain. Like, she was the shit that comes out of her mouth.
SPEAKER_00Like, it's just give your head a shake. Come on. I even messaged him and was like, Did you hear you're the father of my kid? And he said, Dang, I figured I had some bastard kids out there. I just assumed it would be with somebody I actually slept with. It's a miracle baby. Yeah, right? Like it's we also had a miracle baby. Go figure, look at us go.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, no, it sounds a little bit uh you get information from trash, it's gonna look like trash, it's gonna smell like trash.
SPEAKER_00It's gonna, it's gonna be trash. So all the trash, right? I know it's so ridiculous. So Amid's telling him, like, she's gonna harm one of our kids. I do not want her anywhere near our kids, and they don't want to be around her. So if you bring her around my kids, I will take them from you. And both kids said, Yep, we don't want to be around here. We were all in my house, we were all in my living room, we were all on my couch. And he said, I know, and you shouldn't be around her, and I don't want you around her, and I'm not gonna get back with her. He even went as far as running into the protectors and telling the protectors to take her kids away from her because she is not a safe human. He did all of this, and then boom, they're at ball together. My kids are upset, especially the oldest one, and now they're going away together, and it's gonna cut into his time with the kids, and he doesn't care, he has no remorse. So, all I can actually ask, my question is the fuck does she have over you, buddy?
SPEAKER_01Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Like, that's uh that is what we all say.
SPEAKER_00It's not a chance in hell. There's no dick on the planet that would make me leave my kids.
SPEAKER_01No, not at all, ever.
SPEAKER_00Just stupid. Well, he still doesn't out here trying to trap a man that doesn't fucking pay child support.
SPEAKER_01He's a cold star, that one.
SPEAKER_00Right? So now she um is she's playing the mental health card. Like, I just needed to fix my mental health, and I I realized the trauma from the first one, and I was on the phone with 211 because that's what I was trained to do in schooling. Insert rolling eyes emoji here. Um, and I was talking to them, blah, blah, blah. First of all, 211 only gives you resources.
SPEAKER_01Yeah.
SPEAKER_00So they're not gonna sit there and counsel you over the phone, they're gonna give you phone numbers to call. So hopefully you called somebody, like a fucking exorcist.
SPEAKER_01Jesus.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, Jesus, that's a good one as well. Right?
SPEAKER_01Go to church, get on your knees and start praying because what you've been doing on your knees is not working, right?
SPEAKER_00And you know what? Like, also, you could call uh Dr. Kavorkan. If you don't know who that is, fucking look it up because you'll understand the reference at a later date. Um, so now we're at a baseball tournament, and Judas was seen with the Phantom Mother because Judas and I had a falling out. Like, you know, that happens. Um, but they ended up even leaving the field together, and the next thing you know, they both quit their ball teams and joined a new team together. So this is how Judas got her name.
SPEAKER_01Yes. Well, yes, those type of people they like to stay together. It's a group thing.
SPEAKER_00Yes, it is. Trash begets trash.
SPEAKER_01The trash again. Yes, here we go.
SPEAKER_00Yes, the trash episode just so much. Um, now there was some comments made. So there's a character I will call Lit. Um, so there was instances in the beginning of the demise of my relationship where everybody thought Lit was the one sleeping with lapdog. You know, like she was over all the time, even if I wasn't there, everybody was drinking. He went to the bedroom in the middle of the day to pass out drunk, and she went into my room to wake him up, immediately crossing a fucking line, right? Like, so when he ended up leaving me just before the Phantom Mother moved back, uh, the enablers and I were still very close. So they came over pissed, ready to exile him to an island and ready to have her head on a spike. Like, we told you she was bad news. Fuck all these people. We're gonna be here for you no matter what. And the moment they found out it was their kin, the moment they found out it was the Phantom Mother, they welcomed him in with open arms, and I was kicked to the fucking curb because it's not okay to be a dirt bag, home-wrecking slut unless it's your kin. So I can't remember what that my apologies to Lit for accusing you of something you apparently didn't do. So now Lit reached out to you and to say that she was proud of me, which is great, but mentioned that she had to get out of the drama because there was so much drama. Lit was my friend until somebody told her I was sleeping with her baby daddy. Okay. Yeah. First of all, y'all weren't together. Second of all, I wasn't sleeping with him. We were absolutely hand in hand. I was sitting on his lap, like he was one of my best friends. No sex was had. Any sexual relations I had with that man was long before I ever knew you even existed, long before you guys had your kid, long before any of that. I don't care who said what to you. All right. But either way, they said that to you. So the next thing you know, Lick becomes friends with the whistleblower and the phantom mother. Now, I moved in with Lit's baby daddy, but we were solely roommates. I was seeing somebody, and he was seeing somebody. Now, I was helping to drive their child to daycare because he didn't have a vehicle. So I had just started a new job. I'm ready to drive her. There's no car seat. I'm panicking. I'm gonna be late for work. I have no idea what to do. He finally convinces me to take her because it's like a five-minute drive, no car seat, just drive slow, you'll be fine. The father of this baby convinced me. And I'm not sure who said what to Lit, but Lit ended up calling the cops on me because I drove without a car seat.
unknownOh my god.
SPEAKER_00And the cops just like, don't do that. And I was like, all right, yeah, you bet. And I told him, I was like, I'm not fucking driving your kid anymore, and your baby mama can suck my dick. So as much as she loves to say she had to get out of the drama for the mental for her mental health, you were the drama. You were a part of the drama. You inserted yourself into the drama. You got mad at me, so became friends with my enemies.
SPEAKER_01Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Like you're not innocent in all of this either. But apparently you're doing well now, and good for you. That is amazing. Keep on, keeping on.
SPEAKER_01I just remember being at a party and he rated himself as a seven. I believe it was seven or eight, wasn't it?
SPEAKER_00Lit Lit is the girl.
SPEAKER_01Lit is the girl. Yes, sorry. And what was what was the other?
SPEAKER_00We're just gonna call him Lit's baby daddy.
SPEAKER_01Lit's baby daddy, yes.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, he rated himself as a seven.
SPEAKER_01Yes, yes, and I shot him down and said you're maybe, maybe a four or three. Size and height do matter. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, you're not getting to a seven when you're that short.
SPEAKER_01You have to be at least five seven. Absolutely. You have a seven or above in your height, sir. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Oh my god, that's so I forgot about that. That was New Year's. That was so good. Yeah, it was. That was that made me feel better. That was so funny.
SPEAKER_01Um, definitely not around his girlfriend at the time, though.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, I can't. It's so good. Um, so now to anybody um wondering what's happening in the now. So since the podcast has come out, the Phantom Mother has obviously gotten so pissed, right? I can't imagine why. So she has threatened to other people who have told us that she's taken us to court and whatnot for harassment and deafamation. Defamation. Deaf words are hard.
SPEAKER_01Yes, they are.
SPEAKER_00She is taking us to court for harassment and defamation. Now, um, I have not contacted you in any way, and you got so upset you outed yourself and sent the podcast to people. So you can throw your harassment claim out of the fucking window.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, absolutely. You have to be able to prove that it's you too. So are you willing to go into court and prove that all these statements are you that you've made and you've done this and you've lied. So take us to court, we'll make sure that you have to make sure your answers are correct.
SPEAKER_00And I also I spoke to a police officer because she did call on me, the whistleblower, and the switch. And now when the officer called me, he said, the phantom mother is accusing you of harassment. And I went to like I was about to, I took a deep breath and I said, sir, this is a long story. And I started to talk, and he goes, I'm gonna stop you right there. He's like, I'm the officer that found her that day and knows that she faked her pregnancy.
SPEAKER_01Yeah.
SPEAKER_00And I said, Perfect. I'm the baby mama, and she's mad that I'm the baby mama, and I haven't talked to her since baseball. Like a year ago with children. I had not contacted her in any way. Here's what I did. He goes, that's not harassment. Have a great day. Just don't contact her. And I was like, don't plan on it. And that was that. So that was the end of that call. And that was the end of your fucking harassment. Now, as for the defamation claim, this one's my favorite. And here's why. Because as we've learned throughout this podcast, by the way that she spells and the things that she says and her science not being scientific at all, she's too dumb to know this. Defamation is not defamation if what I'm saying is true. So take me to court for defamation. The courts will subpoena your hospital records. We will all find out that it is not true. And then I will counter sue for defamation for you saying I killed a baby that was never real because I stressed you out so bad. So maybe during your lies, try and fuck with somebody who isn't as sober and intellectual as I am. Because you're fucking ridiculous. Let's go to court. Mic drop. Literally. So I think that's it for that part of the catch up. Like I think, like that's where we are. Um, I still don't speak to her. I don't want to speak to her. I haven't seen her, which is lovely. Um the lap dog and I are co-parenting through an app now because that can be used in a court of law, whereas text messages can't be used in a court of law. And not that I need my text messages for the court of law. They're mostly just to piss off the phantom mother. Um so, like things, they are what they are. Him and I are absolutely done. So I want to get into answering some questions. And the first question I am going to answer is um the question is from one of my favorite people at ball. I didn't have a nickname for her, um, because she has a nickname, but I don't want to use it on the podcast. But she's gonna know that this question is for her. So she asked, When are you gonna stop sleeping with the lap dog? So it's been it's been over a month. Um, and I can promise you on my father that I am done. I got my closure, I got it all out, but not just the lap dog. I am not sleeping with anybody, and I won't be. I don't want a date, I don't even want to go to dinner. I've been asked out several times, and while thank you so much. No, thank you. I I don't want to. I am on a cleanse from men. I need to heal my mind and my body and my soul from everybody. I need to work on me. Yeah, that is important. That is important, yes. Um, so now the same person asked, how many people have you punt? So I want to say like less than 50, but like around there. Now I also want to clear up the fact that I didn't just go around beating people up, it was a drunken reaction to somebody's actions. And I am well aware that it is the wrong way to deal with things. I I laugh and joke about every single bit of my trauma because I have to or I will drown in it.
SPEAKER_01Yeah.
SPEAKER_00But I'm not proud of the things that I have done by any means. Um, but like I said, it was drunk reaction, whereas, like with the lap dog, like, and he admitted it to me. So he's getting some props for this because he has no idea how much this actually healed a part of my soul. He admitted out loud to me for the first time in 12 years that he abused me and he's well aware of the abuse and that I never deserved that, and that he would never do that again because he's a changed man. Now, first of all, I don't think you're a changed man, but fucking thank you.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, you need to hear those sometimes. It's just kind of like an ah moment.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, and it that's like, oh man, thank you. Because there's so many times I remember, and he'll even I'll tell him a story with so much detail, and he's like, I do not remember that. How do you remember? And I said, Because for you it was a fucking Tuesday, but for me it was a traumatic event. Yeah, exactly. So I unfortunately have been beaten into a fight or flight response. And I promise, if you ever find me unalived in a ditch, I fought my way there. I shit talked to the very end, I threw punches, you're gonna find that person's DNA all over me. Like I did not go out easy. Yeah, that is true.
SPEAKER_01Nothing I want to think about, but that's true. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Yeah. I say I didn't go around just beating people up. There was that one girl at a bar who we're gonna call jube juke. Um, she was hauling it up and she pissed me off. And so I fought her. It wasn't really a fight, though. She didn't get a swing in. Um, not proud of my past. This is why we're airing it out.
SPEAKER_01That's right. Exactly. It's like a blog.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, exactly. So now, next question. Uh, several people asked me this. So I'm not gonna mention anybody. It was just several people. Are you and the whistleblower friends? If so, why? So the whistleblower and I became friends before children, and now there's five children in a lifetime of events that have happened between us. Things are not back to the way they were, but I speak to her every day. Our kids hang out. The the relationship between the children, no matter what would or wouldn't happen, I would never want them to lose. They're not a part of this, and I don't think that's fair to have them a part of this. I love the whistleblower very much. And when we did stop talking and she became friends with the lapdog and the phantom mother, I was broken and I didn't know why. And when we started talking again, I asked her why. And she didn't really know why. But amends were made. This isn't just some random person in my story. There's a past, there is a timeline of events, and all of our fights that we had, three in total, were because of the lap dog. One of them was because he called her cancer. Somebody accused me of calling her cancer, and I chose not to throw my husband under the bus. Right? So we so we got into a huge fight, but she found out later on it really was not me. Um, but amends were made, and I think that's important for people to understand with certain people in life. I know what it's like to be under the spell of the lap dog and the phantom mother. So I get it. And apologies are it wasn't one apology, it was a specific apology to each thing that she did, and it's continuous. And even re-listening to the podcast, she will message me and apologize again. And you can understand and and read and hear the actual sincerity of it.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, sometimes you know, mistakes are made in in the time, but you don't realize what's going on or what you're falling for, or yeah. And I mean, sometimes sides do end up being taken, and and apologies are made. And I think that's really important for you to say, and that's awesome. But it does need to recommend itself and it does take time, and uh which is well worth it.
SPEAKER_00Exactly. Like things are different, I'm different, everything's different, but you know, it is what it is. Um so next question from my little peanut. Lil' Peanut, she asked, Auntie Toby, if you had to ask anyone in your story questions and they had to answer you honestly, who and what would you ask?
SPEAKER_01That's a good question.
SPEAKER_00Well, my dear little peanut, it would be Uncle Lapdog. Um, because I don't think in 12 years he has ever told the truth. So to be able to get the truth out of him would be fantastic. And my two questions, I would have two questions for him. One, did you know about either of the fake pregnancies? And like, did you have anything to do with it? And two, what the fuck does she have over you that keeps bringing you back?
SPEAKER_01Yep, that's what everybody's thinking.
SPEAKER_00That those would be my questions to him. There's nobody else that uh the Phantom Mother's not gonna answer any questions. I don't care what her reasoning is in her made-up little brain, right? Like, I'm pretty sure she talks to 17 different people. She's probably out there crying somewhere, going, it wasn't me, it was Patricia, you know, like that's from a movie, if you don't know.
SPEAKER_01I do.
SPEAKER_00It's a good one. Um, so next question from the whistleblower. And this is a good question because I've thought about it so much. Now, if you could go back and do anything differently, what would it be and why? And now I have thought about this so many times. Like, I had my kids, I could have just not married him. You know what I mean? We could have not gone to that ball tournament, I could have never introduced them, so many things. But I wouldn't change anything because changing one moment could change a million after that. And today I am sober, I have my kids, I am in therapy, I'm getting the help that I needed. I am out of the toxic relationship. I would have stuck around till I uh was firm until death do us part. And I would have never left, and I would have never been where I am today with the job I have, with the recent promotion, with the friends I have, I would not be here. So there is not one goddamn thing I would change because I'd be too afraid it would change all the beautiful things I have right now.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, that's a good answer. I don't think a lot of people, if they have kids and and all that stuff and how they are now, if they fix themselves, would want to change anything because it would put you on a different path, you know? And paths are really important because it's one path to you on the street, one path you doing better for yourself. And so it's a small, small line that can change this the whole world and a whole outcome.
SPEAKER_00So yes, absolutely. Um, and honestly, I wouldn't even change the fact that he's my baby daddy because my kids are so amazing, and they have all the qualities that I always wished my kids would have. They're funny, they're sensitive, they're sweet, they're athletic, they're talented, they're smart, they're good looking. Thank God. I think I would be that mother who bullied her children if they were ugly.
SPEAKER_01Well, just wait, they haven't grown up yet. Things can't change.
SPEAKER_00Touche. Oh my goodness.
SPEAKER_01Just kidding.
SPEAKER_00So another question I was given by the whistleblower. This one's just a funny one. Would Carl have gotten to enjoy his corn dog if he did just let you hit the damn lap dog?
SPEAKER_01Yeah, I think you owe Carl a uh maybe a box of corn dog.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, just like a whole box.
SPEAKER_01It's cheap enough.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, beside a mustard, like my guy, I'm sorry. I am so sorry.
SPEAKER_01I would have cried. Like, I I feel for him because it you could be like, you know, when you're really hungry and you have this meal, and somebody like you comes around and knocks him out of my hand. Oh how dare you, ma'am.
SPEAKER_00Right. Um, the next question I was given. Now I want a corn dog, so that's a little annoying. Um a friend of mine, right? God. Uh, so a friend of mine name who I will name the betrayed. She said, Does the Phantom Mother's family support all of her betrayal and scandals? I'd like to think they try and get the woman some serious mental health. Yes, yes, they do. They enable the shit out of her. There is a group of them, her kin, and then a couple little friends, whatever she has left, who are enabling the shit out of her. They're making excuses for her, they're making lies for her, they're not helping her.
SPEAKER_01Intervention seems like it should be happening. Just a thought. Because we don't want people to suffer. We want people to have a happy life, whether you're a horrible person or not. It's this person needs help.
SPEAKER_00Yes, yes. So that's all the questions that I have. But there's a few things I want to say. So to quote Miley Cyrus, okay.
SPEAKER_01I'm in like a wreck and ball.
SPEAKER_00Well, that's not the quote I'm gonna use, but that was my swinging thing. Okay, that's fair. That's a that's a great song. Thank you. Um, so Miley Cyrus. I didn't talk bad about you, I talked about what you did to me. And if that makes you look bad, that's between you and your behavior. Because telling the truth about my experience is not bitterness, it is clarity. And I am not responsible for protecting someone's image when they had no problem damaging my peace. So sometimes the truth only sounds harsh because somebody else benefited from the silence. That is a good one. Well done, Miley. Right? That is a great one, and I feel that one. So now, amidst my recovery, my my relapse recovery again, going through everything, I kind of went MIA, right? Like nobody saw me. A lot of my really close friends who were there for me for all of this. I just I went missing on a lot of them. I didn't show up on them uh with my family, anything. So I just want to say something that I learned in therapy is survivors of narcissistic abuse tend to go quiet and pull away from everyone. We unfortunately learned that speaking up only made situations much worse. No one believed me when I finally spoke out. And when I did speak out, I became the problem. I'm not cold or bitter. Speaking out cost me my relationships, my safety, and my peace. I watched everyone turn on me and I was painted as a monster. Isolation was for my survival. Something that I learned from Leo Skeppi, we love him. Um, the way that you hear heal from betrayal is accepting the fact that everything you knew was a lie. And it's easy to accept because there's nothing to grieve, because everything you knew was fake. And I think that's really important to hold on to because I held on to what I thought it was instead of just realizing what it was, and that helped to kill me on the inside and mentally, and then I started abusing drugs and alcohol because I needed the pain to go away and I didn't know how to make it go away. I I was never okay. Nope. You weren't. But the the woman that I am today was built by situations I'd honestly never wish on anyone. I was pushed to my absolute breaking point, and when I snapped, I was simply called crazy. Every warning sign, every tear, every I'm hurting, and the only thing that mattered was my reaction. It didn't matter that I was burning alive from the inside out. You chose to watch me burn and added fuel to the fire instead of water. To respond to people's facial expressions when they think I'm just an angry little monster. My story was to take accountability for everything I've done. My reaction to people's actions were not always okay. But something many of you do not understand is that my mind and body have been through the ringer. I have been essayed by men that I loved. I have lost six babies in my body. Two of them were at the hands of men I loved. I have been cheated on and betrayed by all the people I loved. I have almost lost my life at the hand of others and myself more times than I can count. I was diagnosed with the same brain injury soldiers get from war, but mine was caused by multiple women's dusty ass sons. I'm not perfect. I strive for progress. I will not hit anyone, I will not harass, I will not do anything. The point of this was to tell my story. And it was hard, but also very therapeutic. I wanted to spread awareness for addiction, depression, abuse, and anything else I could. If you are struggling, please reach out to anyone, 988, your doctor, someone you trust, or even us. You are worth it. This world would not be the same without you. I am sober, I am in therapy, all about my kids. Progress is my goal for every aspect of my life. To the few people who witnessed everything: Bray Ray and Jojo, my twin and my witness, my mom, my nieces and nephew, my aunt and uncle, and my boy Blue, the ones who stuck by, you are forever and always in my heart. You are some of my favorite people, and there is absolutely a special place in heaven for you guys. Because amidst me falling and burning, you are the only ones who continuously stuck your hand out, even if I didn't reach for it. So I appreciate that. Now, I say all of this, and it's important that you know, again, progress, not perfection. I am doing my best. Everyone has already done their worst to me. So I don't care what happens next. God made me hell of a lot stronger than any of you could imagine. The only thing I will say to anyone ever, anywhere, if you hurt my children, I will smile in my mugshot. And in the end, karma will be a bigger bitch than I'll ever have to be. And that's my story. Well done.
SPEAKER_01And there you have it. Questions answered, a few blanks filled in, and hopefully we finally covered everything we forgot the first time around. Thank you everyone who sent in questions who followed this crazy story and stuck with us through every twist, turn and wait, what moment. The long con may be finished, but two girls, one mic is just getting started. Season three is officially here, and from this point forward, absolutely anything is fair game. That's Toby. And until next time, two girls, one mic. Probably over sharing. Until next time.
