We're Back!

After some time away, May I Have a Word? is officially back.

In my first solo episode I return to the microphone to reconnect, reflect and share what has gone down this summer, the painful lessons learned and share what this next chapter of the podcast is all about.

No guest. No script. Just an honest conversation to welcome everyone back and set the tone for what's to come.

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All right, all right, all right, ladies and gentlemen. Welcome back once again to the May I Have a Word podcast. As always, I am your host, Gustavo Montes. What is going on, everybody? How are you? Oh man, it has been too long. It has been too damn long since we've been able to get together and hang out and have a few words. Oh, I missed you. I missed you, and I hope you missed me. Oh man, I wish I could literally get a response when I say, How you been? How you doing? What's going on? What is the latest? We've missed a lot, but here we are. We are back again, reunited, and it feels so good. Yes, let's get into everything, man. I really hope that all of you are staying safe out there during these interesting times. It's just something of where life happens. Life happens sometimes. It does an incredible way of derailing everything that you have worked for and everything that you've hoped that would go well. So, you know, let us go back to the beginning. Well, not the beginning, but let us go back to April. I had just wrapped up with my oh, wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute. What am I doing? I you know, I buried the lead here. I buried the lead here. Hold on one second, hold on. Oh, there we go. There we go. I take. Sorry. That is uh that is an honor of you. That is an honor of you and yours. Thank you. We go back to April, and I had just uh released the episode with my brother from another, Mr. Mario Miranda, which the the feedback was incredible on that one. Right now, it's the second most listened to episode in the history of May I Have a Word. However, with things that I got coming up, I do not think that that title's gonna stand much longer. But yeah, it was everything went phenomenal, everything was going great. I had just been released by my doctors, cleared to go back into the gym after I fully recovered from my back injury, and I had made the decision. I'm not sure if I shared this on the podcast or not, but I'd made the decision to where I was going to uh run and compete in the LA Marathon. I want to do that, I still want to do that because when I was going through my rehabilitation for the back injury, I had read that 1% of the world's population has only completed a marathon. Only 1% of the world's population has ran and completed a marathon. So I was like, you know what? I have done many things with my body. I have done the bodybuilding route, I've done the powerlifting route, I've done so many different things with it. I mean, did I compete with that stuff? No, but it's like I trained, I trained as if it was gonna be. So I was like, you know what? Being that level of cardio disciplined is the last frontier. To me, that is the last frontier for me to conquer when it comes to what I will do with my body. I started to train for the marathon. I looked up Chad GPT, I went in there, shout out Chad GPT, shout out Soul, and I just got up in there and it gave me a full-on regiment. It gave me a full-on regiment as if I'd never ran before in my life, and here it is, giving me the complete lowdown of what it's gonna take for me to start day one and finish being marathon ready. So I'm like, all right, cool, let's do this. I didn't want to run the risk of running around my neighborhood out here because you know, some of the sidewalks, even though it's Brentwood, even though it's Brentwood, and I love my little over here in Brentwood, but uh the the sidewalks are sometimes they're they're treacherous, they really are. And uh, you know, I didn't want to run the risk of you know of you know breaking an ankle, like running down the sidewalk. So I was like, all right, I'm gonna go down to Santa Monica. They have the uh nice little strand, a little sidewalk uh that runs through the sand. So nice paved path going through the sand. So I'm like, you know what? I think you know, I'm gonna start training there. And so I was doing it. I was getting up early every morning. I was getting up at 6, 6:30 in the morning, and I was hitting it. I was hitting it. And you know, at first it was a little difficult because for nine months, pretty much, I didn't do anything physical, did not do anything physical for nine months, and that sucked. It really did. Because, you know, I'm I'm one of those people that it's like I get I just need to stay active. I do, I need to stay active, whether it's pushing it, you know, doing push-ups, doing sit-ups, doing cardio, doing you know, lifting weights. I just have to stay active. And so I was doing that. I was I was going to the to the beach every day, and I was running every day on the path. And so, well, like not every day, because you know, I was trusting the Chat GPT training regimen that it gave me. And so I am there. I'm running fast forward a few weeks. We're into the early part of May here. I think it was May 11th. It was May 11th. I'm there, I'm running, I am about a mile and a half. I was running five miles that day. That was gonna be the full thing. The full turn was gonna be five miles, no more, no less, just five miles for the day. And I've been doing incredibly well up until that point. I was I was getting for like for some reason, like the first one that I ran, I ran like a mile, and I was just kind of like, ooh, that was like I had some rust on the lungs on that one. I like everything after that just came very easy, just very easy. I think I just needed to get that first run out of the way, and then I was like, Alright, I'm good. I'm running, and it's about a mile and a half, close to a mile and three-quarters, that area of distance, and I start to feel a little pinch in my left calf, and I'm like, ooh, alright, that's that sucks. It doesn't feel well, but you know, we can continue, and I'm one that I will continue. I'm not one that's gonna be like, ooh, no, we gotta stop, we gotta stop. So we continue, and the pinch grows, it goes from a pinch to pain, from pain, it goes into it, feels like someone's stabbing me right dead center in my calf. And when that happened, when I got that feeling of just dead center, and it felt like somebody had stabbed me, and it felt like a lightning bolt had stabbed me too. Let me tell you, not kidding you, because the the like the pain was shooting out of my foot, it was shooting out of my foot. It felt like I had torn my Achilles. I I know I hadn't torn my Achilles, but it felt like it because it was just the pain was shooting out of every direction, and I was just like, oh my god, I couldn't lift my foot, I couldn't lift my leg, I couldn't put any pressure on my leg, nothing. And I was like, wait, I didn't break anything. I didn't break anything, so what the so what the hell happened? Like, what is this? And this was if that didn't suck enough, I am a mile and almost three quarters away from my car. I have to turn back around and walk that distance, and it like it, it was something that I'd never want to experience again because it was take a step, exhale, inhale, take a step, exhale, inhale, take a step, exhale, and I had to do that for a mile and a half. It was how that happened, I I I don't know. So I was I was in a lot of pain. I didn't go to the urgent care, didn't do anything. I went home and I laid there and I was like, dear God, what did I do? I should have gone to urgent care right then and there, but I didn't. I ended up going the next day. I went, they checked me out, they're like, you don't have any broken bones, nothing like that. You're gonna have to go see your doctor, you're gonna have to do this. So I tried to make an appointment for the next day, couldn't get in the next day. I had to wait another day to do it. I go to the doctor to to do that. Um unfortunately, my doctor was like, I don't feel anything, I can't feel anything. You're gonna have to go see your orthopedic. And I'm like, Alright. So I had to wait like another week to go see this guy. I had to wait a whole week to see this doctor. So I'm like there, I'm here hopping around on one leg. I was like, all right, I tore something because there's swelling. There was swelling around the calf area, there was some coloration. It wasn't like the like the dark purple or anything like that, but I'm like, I must have torn something because there is swelling. So I'm like, I don't know what the hell's going on, but I'm but I'm in some excruciating pain here. So finally, by the time all this happens, we are in the end of May. By the like by the time with me waiting all the days, me waiting all the weeks, you know, to get appointments to see this, to see that. Unfortunately, I'm I'm already we're we're entering the beginning part of June here. So I'm like, damn. So I I finally go and I and I get to the orthopedic, and the orthopaedic is like, alright, he goes, we're gonna get you an MRI. This was like on a Tuesday in June, like the beginning part of June. And he's like, Alright, we're gonna get you an orthopedic, we're gonna do this, we're gonna do that. And I'm like, Alright, cool. We I get the MRI done. It was a Friday, beginning part of June. He sits there and he was like, Alright, man, like the minute that I get the results in, I'm gonna call you and you know, we'll talk about it. And I'm like, Alright, cool. So I go and I get the MRI done and everything, and I get the MRI. My doctor calls me and he's he's like, you know, let's let's set up a zoom so we can talk about this. So we set up a zoom. He proceeds to tell me, he goes, All right, he goes, two things. We got some bad news. And I'm like, alright, well, like what's going on? And he was like, you pulled, you didn't tear your uh he goes, you pulled your soleus, which I did not know what the hell the soleus was or is. The soleus, for those that do not know, it is your it's the ligament on the interior of your calf. I was like, what? And he was like, yeah, he goes, you severely strained your soleus. He's like, yeah, that's why you can't put any pressure on the toes of or like on the balls of your foot and anything like that. He goes, Yeah. And then he proceeds to tell me, he goes, he goes, and we also found signs of DVT, which is deep vein thrombosis, commonly known as blood clot. And I'm like, a what? We found a blood clot, it's okay, it's okay, it's alright, it's fine. And I'm like, uh I just I I like I kind of went into like a mode of like, what? Like, I was I was mad confused, but you know, you hear blood clot, you kind of think the worst. He saw that I kind of started to like dive into my own head. He was like, Yeah, no, no, no, no, no. He goes, hey, hey, he goes, Look, man, we're gonna take care of this. There's gonna be nothing that we need to worry about, all right? At that time, the NBA finals were going on in the world, right? Like they were taking place, and my doctor was like, Hey, goes, look at me. He goes, Hey man, Victor Webinyama had one. Okay, and he's playing right now. He had it done, it's over with, he never has to worry about it again. Like, that's what we're gonna do with you. Because don't worry about it. He had it four months later, he was good, he's gone. I was like, All right, man, look, look, I trust you, like, I'm like freaking out, right? All right, so what do we do now? And he was all like, Well, you know, we start physical therapy, we'll get you on some medications, everything like that. He goes, There's some things that you can do, some things that you can't do. And he was just like, you know, like as far as like getting on a plane goes, he was like, I only recommend that if you're gonna get on a plane, you're gonna get on a plane from like here to like Feni. Because you can't be on a plane for for more than an hour. All right. He goes, any long distance flights are absolutely out of the question. And I'm like, son of a bitch. I was like, Alright, you know, I had to process that. You know, it's funny, as I've said very sarcastically this summer. What if something 2026 has taught me is that it can always get worse. That was a one-two combo that I wasn't expecting to hear that day. So I'm going about my business and I'm there, and so I actually called him up a few days before my birthday. I do my annual birthday run up Mount Hollywood, and I was just kind of wondering if I'm able to do that. Because that's that was always important to me. My birthday run up Mount Hollywood, because it it just sets the day off on a great foot. It really does. To me, at least it does. I'm able to run up Mount Hollywood, I'm up there usually by myself because of how early I'm up there, and I just get to put the good vibes out for the new year, for the new age. I get to sit back and I get to recap the good, the bad. What did I learn? What did I hear? What did I listen to? Where did I fall? Where did I fail? And what we're gonna do about that, and how we're gonna approach the new age and this year. So I loved always doing that, I really did. And unfortunately, my doctor was all like, I can't recommend you do that, man. He goes, I just can't. He goes, I don't think it'd be the best thing for you. If this was like a flat surface, he goes, Yeah, I'd say it's okay. Because, but due to the fact that there's a lot of incline, a lot of decline, you know, it's just too much strain on the on the calf right now. And I'm like, Alright, fine. So that kind of sucked. It really did. It really sucked because I'm one that I celebrate birthdays. I absolutely celebrate birthdays. If you're in my life and your birthday comes around, I'm gonna celebrate it. I'm like, I'm gonna at least acknowledge it in a very grand way because you know, not to get deep or anything, but I buried four friends before I turned 21. You know, friends that were my age that I buried before I turned 21. It's something special to me to celebrate a birthday, to be able to acknowledge a birthday, to be able to sit there and put another candle on the cake, it's something big to me to be able to sit there and witness someone being able to age another year and add another chapter to their history, to their story. I'm one to where it's that's your day. We only get one day out of the year to where we can truly be as selfish as we want. Which I mean, like the goal isn't to be selfish, but if you want to sit there on your couch and eat Lucky Charms and ice cream and watch episodes of Fresh Prince all day, then you are well within your right to do that. It's your birthday. If you want to skydive, you know, you want to go sit on the beach with a margarita and you know, just chill or whatever, go ahead and do that. Ain't nothing wrong with that. Which I'll have a margarita any time of the day on the beach. Doesn't need to be my birthday or anybody's birthday. I'll do that on a Tuesday in March. It it's just something of where. And to be honest, my birthday really sucked this year. There were reasons why, and you know, down the road I'll get into those reasons why, but this year, more than not, I hated it because my birthday was taken from me. There were a couple things that led to it, but you know, me not being able to start my birthday off on the way that I always do, and everything like that. I tried to make the most of it, I'm not gonna lie. I tried to make the most of it. It was just something of where, hey man, it was what it was, and that's life. Period. I still woke up early, and I still went to the beach, I went and I sat on the sand and I said my my good vibes, good juju, put it all out there, hoped for the best. You know, I thought it was because like I tell you, the theme of this summer was for 2026 to tell me that hey, it can always get worse. After that, I I hit up my doctor and I was like, yo, man, can I like I like I can still work out though, right? Like I can train the upper body. And he's like, absolutely. He goes, absolutely. He goes, dude, if you could be you can still walk, you can still do this, you can still do that. He goes, but there's no running, no none of that, no incline, no decline, no none like that when it comes to walking or anything like that. I'm like, all right, cool, I got you. I was training. I started, I man, I was living in the gym by the end of July. I was, oh my god, thank you to my genetic blessings. I had a body that rivaled my 21-year-old self. I was so happy. I was I was just beside myself with the reflections in the mirror. I was very happy because I was able to take a like a negative with the calf injury and with the diagnosis of the the DVT. Wow, I'm I'm I mean, at least I'm I'm making dividends here. At least I'm doing something you know positive and I'm in the healthiest, you know, state that I've been in in years. So I'm like, I'm like, you know, awesome. I was doing that, I wasn't overdoing it because I had to keep in mind with the DVT. So but I but I was blessed genetically. And then came the last week of July. I'm here in my place. I had a very important appointment to get to, and so I had put on some deodorant and I was wearing a shirt already. I was already having my shirt on, and I put a deodorant on, and the shirt kind of like bundled up a bit, so I was uh I was walking back to my bedroom and I just kind of extended my arms out so I could let the shirt fall down. As we do every single day, we we don't think twice about it. And as I'm extending my left arm out, I feel and I hear a pop right in my forearm close to my elbow on the interior side of the elbow. And I just was ooh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. I I started like I kind of started to panic a bit, and I just started to shake my shake my hand out. I was like, whoa, shit. I was like, wow, that hurt. And I started shaking out my hand, right? I start shaking out my hand, and I'm like, like the pain's getting worse, like it's getting like from radiating to blinding. What like what the hell? What the hell? I'm literally keeled over, and I'm like holding my arm to my stomach, and I'm like, what the hell's happening here? What's going on? And then this is the part where I went from panic to I'm losing my mind. Um, is that when I was keeled over, I had I was holding my arm against my stomach, I closed my fist. I balled up my fist. The only thing that it could do was close. Like I could not forcefully close my fist. I could not apply any pressure to form a fist. The only thing I could do was close, like bring my fingers in. That's it. That's all I could do was just close my fingers, just bring my fingers in. It was a scary magic trick that was happening because from my arm or to my shoulder down my bicep, I could feel that there was like I am forcing the hell out of it. But from my elbow to my fingers, there was nothing happening. It was the weirdest feeling ever. I'm sitting there and I'm trying to close my fist, and the only thing that can do is my fingers just kind of come in. That like that was it. There was no force, no grip, no nothing. And and and I'm sitting there and I'm just looking at my hand like this. My eyes are the size of cue balls because I'm like trying to figure out what in the blue hell is happening. Like, I had to go to my appointment, so I'm like, you know what, I'll deal with this when I get back. So I go to my appointment, I had a terrible appointment, didn't go well at all, and I'm guessing it's because I had this thing on my mind the whole time, and I'm just like sitting there and I'm just like, no, this cannot be that like this can't be happening. I like I kind of refuse to accept it. But like if 2026 has taught me anything, there's shit gonna be thrown at you that you will accept, doesn't matter what it is. I I just come home and and I don't go anywhere, I don't go to urgent care, I don't do anything like that. I'm I'm I'm just kind of sitting here and I'm just like I'm upset and I'm like, alright, whatever, I'll just deal with it. The next day I go to urgent care, they give me an x-ray, they're like, nothing's broken, don't know. You're gonna have to go to your doctor, you're gonna have to go see an orthopedic. So I'm like, alright, fine, I'll go to an orthopedic. So I go to an orthopedic, or well, actually, while I was there at urgent care, this nice little nurse, and I say little, just kind of like like not to be a dick, but it's like I'm sitting there in a chair and she comes up and she's almost eye-level to me. And she's like, I just want to perform a grip strength test. And she goes, if you can bring your index finger to your thumb and close it, like making a circle, and then try to press it as hard as you can. She's like, Alright, I'm gonna put my fingers there, and you're gonna try to keep my fingers from coming up. I do that, she rips right through them. She goes, Okay, let's try with your middle finger. She rips right through them. She's like, ring finger, rip right through it, pinky, ripped right through it. I'm like looking at her, and she's looking at me and she goes, Yeah, okay, so you failed that. And I'm like, Yeah, I I I kind of figured that. She goes, There is something that's very alarming. She goes, It's very alarming that you have no strength, no grip in your hand. Because she did it from my right. One and it's like she didn't even like the first one that she did, she was all like, No, that's grip right there. That's that's grip strength. Uh, I had to wait a few days to make an appointment with my orthopedic doctor. So I go see my orthopedic doctor, and I walk in there, and he's got the ultrasound machine ready and everything, and so we're there and and we're having the test done, and he starts doing the ultrasound, and and he finds it immediately. And he's like, Yep, right there. And I'm like, What? What like what do you see? What'd you find? And he was like, extensor carpi longus. And I'm like, That's my what? And he's like, Yeah, that's your extensor carpi longus. Because that's a tendon that controls your grip. And he goes, and right now you have a tear in it. And I'm like, What? Like, what kind of a tear? And he goes, he goes, right now it's partial, which is good. That doesn't mean surgery, you don't need to get surgery with you know with that. This can heal on its own. He goes, it's probably gonna take about four to six weeks. He goes, so I don't want you doing anything with your arm for 46 weeks. I'm sitting there and I'm like, you gotta be shitting me. I got the calf injury, I'm going through the deal with debt, and now I've got this. It was very hard to go through mentally. Like, I I was going through like some good things, like with the podcast. I was rebuilding the podcast at that time. I've got some other projects in the works that once those go official, I'll be able to share them with you. But as of right now, I can't. Being active, working out every day, it's a part of me. It doesn't matter what it was, it was like I I had to stay active. Period. It gutted me really bad because I'm sitting there, I go from training every day for the marathon, lifting weights in the gym, doing all that, and I'm like, I'm back, baby. I am fucking back. Let's go. And then to being like, nope, you can't run, you can't do anything like that. You like you like you're only allowed to walk. And I'm like, all right, whatever. I have a shitty birthday, to which I'm trying to have, like, I'm literally legitimately trying to have another birthday. I'm like, I'm not kidding you. I'm like, I like I want to have myself another birthday, and I don't care when it is, but I just want to have myself another birthday, so I can like, hey, this is what June 19th would have been like. I went through that, and now with the arm thing, oh, you can't run and you cannot use your arm. Like, you can use your right arm, you want to go do curls with your right arm, yeah. Go do your curls with that. I'm like, come on, man. You take someone that at the moment just has the gym and you take that away from them, you take away any form of activity for them, it creates a level, it creates a level that let's just say that thank God I went through therapy. And you know, hey, September is Suicide Prevention Awareness Month, ladies and gentlemen. Just throwing that out there. It's been a rough one because you know, I haven't work has not been there. All these injuries and everything, no work, no nothing, no nada. I'm just kind of having to go through the emotions every single day. I've been here, I you know, I mean, it's just been terrible. So I have been able to walk, so what do I do? I go down to the beach and I walk. That's it. Going down to the beach and getting out of the house, let me tell you what, I feel like it's the pandemic all over again. That me just getting out of the house and walking around is a banner day. I'm salvaging everything because I'm on the come up, I'm on the rise. A lot of people have shown me their true colors of late. I'm really glad that they have. I started the year off with a lot of people were either in my corner or that I cared about, and I'm ending the year with a lot of people that I'm like, oh well, that's one less funeral I gotta go to. A lot of people have hurt me this year, but but that's every year though, right? That's every year. Like every year we're gonna get bumps, we're gonna get punches, we're gonna get this and that. We roll with it. Like Bruce Lee said, be water. Like, you gotta be water in moments like this, because unfortunately, even though I was going through the shittiest summer of my life, things just kind of just kept on finding a way to get worse. That's why I jokingly say, hey, it can always get worse. So, you know, just be grateful for where you're at in life. I always used to joke around that you know, I can always be in a worse situation. Um, I'm not gonna say that because it seems like the universe takes it as a challenge. It's like, oh damn, you can't work out with your legs. How about we take away your arms? So I'm just kind of like, yeah, no, I'm just gonna be grateful with here doing this and whatever, which I'm completely very happy right now. I'm truly very happy. Thank you, therapy. Thank you, therapy. Therapy has been an absolute lifesaver for me. And I'm very proud of myself that I, you know, that I still had you know the mental strength to be able to go put myself and you know, sit on someone's couch and be like, hey, so this is what's happening, this is what happened. Yeah, doesn't that suck? So, you know, I've been able to do that and and uh save myself a lot of further hurting of the heart. So, you know, um there's a lot of there's a lot of positives that have come of this, you know, with the injuries and everything. I was able to, you know, sit down and watch a plethora of great new shows. Well, new shows to me. Um, I saw Yellowstone, which opened me to that whole world, you know, 1883, 1923, and Marshall's and Dutton Ranch. You know, I I was able to do all that, watched a new show, incredible new show called Furious on Peacock, no, on Hulu. Holy hell was that show intense. I was not expecting that show to be that intense and to be that kind of graphic about things. Got a lot of Jeffrey Epstein vibes going on in that show, which was horrible to watch, but um very gritty, very, very well done show. Yeah, uh, right now I'm enjoying lanterns on HBO Max. I'm not one that knows too well, I'm not too well worded of the of the comic book world, but uh lanterns does a great job at um at being able to break it all down for you and show that side of it. The funny thing, something that happened that was really funny. Um so I've got a whole plethora of new equipment here. Okay, I built myself a voiceover studio for the podcast and everything, and all this and that. I really did. I went out and I bought myself a brand new laptop. Thank you, Apple. Um, I went out and bought a brand new, a bunch of brand new audio equipment, uh, brand new microphones, audio interface, awesome pair of headphones. I invested a lot of money, more, probably much more than I should have. But you know, hey, I don't want to nickel and dime this stuff because I love it. When I was getting everything ready and everything, I actually went to um I needed an adapter that Target sold. So I went to um uh Target and and you know, like I told you, I'd like to get out of the house now. I kind of need to get out of the house now because it's therapy, it truly is therapy for me to get out of the house. So it's just therapy for me to get out of the house and for me to just walk. And there's a target right around the corner from where I live. So I was like, all right, I'm gonna get up and I'm gonna go and I'm going to like I'm just gonna get out of the house. I have to be in a sling, I have to have my arm wrapped up in a compression sleeve, aside from a those like compression wrapped compression bandage, I guess. And then I have to have it in a sling because my doctor was like, I don't want you grabbing anything. When you leave your house, he goes, I don't want you to be put in a situation to where you extend your arm out or whatever, and then risk further injuring yourself, resulting in a complete tear to where you will need surgery as the only way to fix it. So I go to Target, I'm able to find the adapter, I got what I needed, I'm walking back home, and I'm walking down the sidewalk, and I take a step with my left or with my right foot, and I'm bringing up my left foot, my left foot gets caught in my right foot's shoelace. And I tried to take it out, I tried to like take it out really quickly, but nope, I am fully I'm standing straight up when this happens. And gravity is just like nope, you're gonna lose this, and it was it's like because even though it felt slow motion, it was fast because I face planted right on the ground. But yet, like it truly like I'm falling, and it's like I'm just hearing, you know, um, I'm hearing this. This is what I'm hearing. That's what I'm hearing. I'm hearing someone yell timber and I hit the floor, my arms in the sling, and I slammed down on the f on the on on the sidewalk. I don't stand up. I lay there. I just lay there and I roll over. I roll over from the from the sidewalk over to the grass, and I'm like laying there, and I literally uh like I was wearing sunglasses, and thank god that they didn't fall off, but I'm I'm I'm there. Um, you know, I had my AirPods in, I was listening to you know some music, whatever. I just kind of like I roll over, thank god that my my sunglasses didn't break or anything like that. But I literally just kind of like look up towards the sky, and there were cars driving by, mind you. So I know for a fact, I know for a fact that there were people at their dinner tables that night being like, all right, man, I saw the most fucked up thing, but I laughed, and I just gotta tell somebody. So I laid there for like a good good few minutes. I really did. I like maybe like six solid Mississippi's. I laid there. Oh my god, you know, this sucks, this sucks. Um, why did this happen? Why why does this happen? And I just stood up, and when I finally was able to stand myself up, because like I told you, my arm's in the sling and I'm like trying to figure it out, trying to stand myself up. As if I didn't think that God had enough of a sense of humor courtesy of me, as God is my witness, I'm standing up and I'm like dusting myself off with one arm, dusting myself up with one arm, and I'm just like, I'm just like slapping the, you know, like and I'm just like patting the dirt away, I'm patting the grass away and everything and all that. And in my headphones plays this. Help starts playing right in my headphones. I just stand there and I'm just like, okay, you made your point. You have a sense of humor. It's getting a little cold now. That's kind of like what I've been dealing with, you know, as far as like the physical sense goes. Everything else in my life, believe it or not, has been great. I've done everything I can not to test it, not to tempt that, because I do honestly feel right now that if I were to be like bragging that my personal life is going so great that the universe is gonna remind me that hey, it can always get worse. Be because, like, truth be told, like on the personal side, yeah, the personal side it has taken some hits, especially this summer. You just have to really remain positive, man. When you're kind of alone in this world, you have to remain positive. You know, you have to be your biggest supporter, you have to be your biggest fan. It's just the way life is right now, it doesn't mean it always has to stay that way. So I'm doing everything I can. I'm I'm rehabilitating the body as fast as I can, as as much as I can, as well as I can. We're we're very optimistic as to where we are in the in the physical therapy process and the rehab process with the calves and the arm. So, you know, we're doing good. You know, I'm on the bounce back, I'm on the come up when it comes to the injuries and everything. And as far as the podcast goes, you guys have no idea what the hell is coming your way. I am so excited. I've never been this excited regarding the podcast. I am, man, I wish I could see you guys' faces when when the new episodes start coming out. I really do. But, you know, um, I guess I'll just have to wait to see what you guys tell me. You know, when you guys text me or call me or email me or whatever means of communication you guys are gonna choose, that's what's gonna mean to me. So, like I know that the episode was a little bit dark, but unfortunately, your boys, you know, he was going through it. He was going through it, kind of still is, but I'm having great days every day, as much as I can, you know. Not every day am I gonna, you know, have the greatest day, but it's my personal job, it's my personal goal to smile every day, to try to stay active every day. And uh right now I'm doing that to the fullest in many different ways. So for all of those that are still around, that still are in my life, thank you so much. I love all of you. We are going to uh continue having great times. As shitty as the summer's been, you know, January to the beginning of May was too awesome, too sweet for me to allow a couple of bad people and a couple of bad months for it to be ruined. So uh, you know, this fall is gonna be just as incredible. Not like my fall off of Barrington Avenue. Uh, I'm talking about, you know, the season, you know, and you know, the season of the witch, as Lana Del Rey eloquently saying. Yeah, it's gonna be a great fall, it's gonna be a great uh autumn, fall, winter. I'm excited for it. I can't thank you guys for being here. I'm excited for you guys to hear all what's coming up. I'm not even gonna you know tease anything as far as names go or whatever, but this is gonna be the most epic run in the history of the podcast. So, with saying that, guys, I'm gonna let you guys go. I do appreciate you for allowing me to have a word with you guys. As always, this has been the May I have a word podcast. As always, I am your host, Gustavo Montes. You guys can find the podcast as always, anywhere and everywhere. Uh, Apple, Spotify, you look up anywhere where podcasts are offered, find them. You will find May I Have a Word, you'll find me, and you will be able to enjoy incredible episodes like the one you just heard, and many more that are on their way. All right. You guys stay safe out there, wash your hands, stay safe, and I will chat with you guys very soon. You guys take care.

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