137 EGO IMPROV

🎙️ EPISODE 137: Ego Improv

“Your ego is doing improv in your skull—and we call it truth? Nah. That’s pain with a mic.”

In this soul-shaking solo riff, Scott pulls apart the destructive improv routine running in our minds and lays out how to reclaim authorship over your inner narrative. Inspired by The Untethered Soul, this episode explores the power of simply witnessing your thoughts instead of becoming them.

Scott unpacks the idea of taking action in opposition to the mind—when it says, "You can't," you go anyway. He ties in addiction recovery, the false self, and even drops a breakdown of Jasmine’s Hero's Journey from Disney’s Aladdin. From the voice in your head to the spiritual power of disruption, this episode is a firestarter for anyone ready to drop the act and live in truth.

🔹 Learn how ego programs our reactions 🔹 The illusion of thought as identity 🔹 Why action, not analysis, leads to healing 🔹 Jasmine, Raja, and the call to a whole new world 🔹 The divine purpose in disruption

Watch your thoughts, not because they’re true—but because they aren’t you.

This one hits deep. No fluff. Just truth.
Hit play and let’s get free.

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01: 0:00

What's the eternal principle?

UNKNOWN: 0:03

That one.

SPEAKER_01: 0:05

Which is? Well, we call it God, but that personifies it.

SPEAKER_00: 0:15

If you had a roommate who was constantly criticizing you, cutting you down, reminding you of all your mistakes, reminding you of your trauma, you'd kick that son of a bitch out, wouldn't you? In a heartbeat. But somehow, when that voice echoes in our skull, we call it truth. We just deal with it. That's not truth. That's pain with a microphone. That's your ego doing improv on your soul. I read The Untethered Soul recently. And it talks about this concept, Michael Singer, the untethered soul. And he was a guy who had a spiritual experience where he started witnessing his mind starting to come up with things that he should say when he was in the living room with one of his buddies and TV was off or there was like a lull in conversation. And his mind started... Should we talk about the weather? Should we talk about this? Should I ask him how his day was? I wonder what, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And he's like, what the hell is going on, right? We all have this voice. Michael Singer in The Untethered Soul calls it the inner roommate. If you can hear the thoughts in your mind, if you can listen to them, then who's doing the talking and who's doing the listening? And so Singer's whole point in The Untethered Soul is about stepping back in the seat of awareness. He says it's almost back and up. He's a guy who had a spiritual experience and then turned his life over to... experientially trying to just have a relationship, be curious about, find more about this voice in the head, if you will. And he put it all down in a book for us, right? A book changed my life. It changed my life. So the whole point is we are not our thoughts. Our thoughts are just energy forms, okay? We can choose to identify with whatever thought we would like, right? And now it's obviously really cute and pretty to say, but, you know, when you're about to go do something scary, And your mind's like, we're anxious. And then your body gets all fucking tense. You can't just be like, oh, that's just a thought, man. No, I'm not anxious. I remember what Michael Singer said in The Untethered Soul. You know what I'm saying? It just doesn't fucking work. I don't know. I've never really had that experience. But nonetheless, the knowledge tends to pivot our compass just enough where we start to take little daily steps towards unraveling the story and the identification with the mind. So the next time the real fearful thing happens, we're like, oh shit, I'm not as scared. At any rate, number one, before you even consider reading the book, you have to be so sick and tired of your mind that you're willing to address it in any manner, in any manner, even if it We replay things over and over and over and over and over in our head, things that happened 20 years ago, things that happened six months ago, things that happened a week ago. It's like, you know, A, you know, this dude said, hey, Scott, you suck in high school. And 30 years later, I'm like, fucking that guy, man. I cannot believe, you know, Willie or whatever the shit, you know? And so... You know, then you'll respond in anger. Your body will respond. Your nervous system will jump into that moment like it's happening again. And so, you know, how healed are we really from those ugly or rough moments in our lives that we'd rather not remember? And so... Your ego plays improv on you, and it just fills your mind up with the stats. As scientists, I guess it's like around 30,000 to 50,000 thoughts a day, and none of them reveal anything about you more than a freckle does on the end of your nose. They're just thoughts, right? I have bad ones, I have good ones, but it doesn't have to change how I move. So at any rate, one of the most powerful concepts that we can work with is to just witness the thinking mind, letting the mind be the mind. Light Watkins says, Right. Right. if we step back or release this identification, identification is to become, to step into something, right? And so if the higher self is seated back in a level of awareness, right, you can watch your mind Just think. If you really practice this, you can anchor into the breath or work with the concept of, I'm listening to my mind think. I'm not speaking right now. My mind is thinking, but I'm also a witness to the narration, to the story. And for a long time, we're not even privy to there even being any type of separation. I just am what I think. Here's a for instance. Scott, you're an addict. Oh, okay. Yeah, I'm an addict. Here's some heroin. Right? And now it's like that thought isn't even a fucking thing anymore. It doesn't even say, hey, you're an addict. It never even says, oh, you're uncomfortable. Do some drugs. Get out of it. Doesn't say it anymore. Not a thing. Gone. Right? So the thought life changed. Because I stopped responding to, hey, you're an addict. And I go, oh, yeah, I'm an addict. I guess I got to do drugs and drink now, right? Once recovery gave me the grace to not do that, right, I no longer became identified as With that fucking story, the narration, the you're a piece of shit, you're never going to make it, you're a junk box, you're never going to get sober, why try, you're too uncomfortable, run, hide. And I would just go, yep, yep, yep, yep, yep, yep, yep. And I'd be like, well, these thoughts, these thoughts are me. I'm wearing it. It is what it is. And this is how I'm just how I'm living my life, you know. And thank God for chain breakers. Thank God for expanders. Thank God for vitalized men, you know, vitalized men and women who can spot the terror of somebody being identified with such a warfare state of mind, you know, and to step into that warfare and put their arms around you and say, hang on with me for a little bit. I've been there too. I'm going to show you how to do this, but we ain't going to think our way out of it. I'm just going to get you to take action in opposition to your mind. And we go, well, what the hell does that mean? That means when your mind says, hey, you're uncomfortable, go get high. You don't, right? Take action in opposition to your mind. Mind says, hey, we're scared. You definitely can't do this. And then you're scared, and then you just do it anyways. That ego, that voice of improv, it has in that moment with that fear, right, the little nuances it has on you, it loosens its grip. It's losing the narration. It's losing the identification, right? It's saying, hey, we're this, don't forget. And I'm like, I don't know. I don't know if I want to be that. And it's like, who the fuck told him he had freedom, right? Who told him he had a choice, right? Who told him he had a fucking choice? So by the power of others, I was shown how to walk out my own power. I was shown that I actually do have a choice to act in opposition to my mind. And so my mind used to, these thoughts used to fill my skull up with just doubt, doubt, poor self-worth, worry, remorse, dread. self-pity, dishonesty, neediness, you know, just like, just my skull was just, it was just lower self shit, you know? And I would just be like, yeah, I'm that. And then I would act in accordance with that thought. That thought opens up a feeling in the body that And then that feeling propels the body into action. And when you take a mind and body and you move it into action throughout the world, you create. We're little creating machines. Whether we want to be or not, we are creating all of the time. Not some of the times, all of the times. One more time for all the times. And we go, well, how am I creating all the time? Well, I have a thought. That kind of parallels itself with feeling. I respond emotionally to this thought, you know, you're a piece of shit. You're never going to make it. Contracted, lower self, ho-hum, self-pity, eorship. You take that guy and you let him loose into the world. Now that guy is creating a world for you. Now that guy is affecting your relationships, your intimate relationships with your siblings, with your parents, with your job, whether you're showing up late to work or not, how much ambition you have. You know, I mean, fucking everything, everything. And so we get identified with these fucking thoughts. And it's just like people don't realize that that thought is pimping them out like a$2 hoe. You know, hey, you're sad and it's never going to be any better. And, you know, you should just like, you know, walk around and feel bad for yourself. Oh, OK. You know, and then you spend two weeks hating your life and everyone you stumble into until, you know, some freaking crack in the universe. You get out of it somehow and you're like, oh, that fucking sucked. I should try and not do that again. And it just takes like immense amounts of pain. to become painstakingly aware of the thought life and 100% responsible to shoulder that life of it to change. Like in this recovery book, right? The big book, it says, our thought life will be placed on a much higher plane when our thinking is cleared of wrong motives. Prior to that, it says, you know, upon awakening, we ask God to divorce our minds of self-pity, dishonesty, or self-seeking motives. If I divorce my mind of these lower vibrational BS, whatever, right, my thought life is naturally going to be placed on a much higher plane, right? And my thinking is now cleared of wrong motives. And now I'm going to be able to rely upon the intuition or my inner guidance system, right? Which comes through charmful thought. And now I can rely on that. Why? Because the energy that dishonesty, self-seeking, and self-pity are The energy that that shit robs from me, it contracts a human to where he's fucking ho-hum Eeyore, right? And just forget about it, dude. You're now a slave to that. We call that the bondage of self. The bondage of self. Just manufacturing your own misery day in, day out. Just, what are you going to do today? I'm going to manufacture some more misery for myself. How about you? That sounds like hell. Yeah, it is. Why don't you not do it? I don't know how. You know what I'm saying? Like, oh, I love it. So anyways, I got to chill out a little bit. This is the power of the mind. And, you know, it's going to take a... radical spark of truth to hit you in between the eyes, to make you willing to consider that your story, the thoughts that you have, which are pretty much the same day in and day out, that maybe they ain't it. Maybe they ain't clicking. Maybe you're fucking wrong. What if you were wrong about yourself? What if you didn't know who you were? What if you really didn't know what you wanted? What if you didn't know? How would you know? Would you be willing to give that up? And in order to draw a conclusion from that, you just look at the life that you've created and you say, how's it going? Am I happy with the report? You know? How's the report? Not good. Would you like to change it? Kind of. What are you willing to do? I guess anything. All right. Well, check this out. Stop listening to your fucking self. Stop listening. That's why there's mentors, right? That's why there's mentors. That's why there's sponsors. It's because there's a reason why there's journeymen and apprentice. That's why there's... tattoo artists and apprentice in the shop, right? That's why there's, you know, NFL, college, high school, peewee, like you have to learn, like, okay. You could probably jump in, even if like you're not a good swimmer, right? You could probably jump in the ocean and figure it out and like swim and be okay, okay? Swimming is thinking, right? or navigating your thought life. And you'd probably be all right, you know. But if somebody took the time to show you how to swim, to show you the right stroke, how to breathe in fluid movement, which I still can't do, by the way, show you how to do the breaststroke, I don't know, what other one, you know, freestyle, isn't there like a frog or some shit like that? I don't know. You get what I'm saying, right? There is experts who have learned how to leverage water with the God-given body and oxygen that they're given. And as a result, they move fluid through the water for miles, miles. You throw a guy like me in there without that type of skill, I almost drowned when I had to swim 400 meters for my first ever sprint triathlon. It's a sprint, all right? It's like 10-mile bike, 5K run, and then 400-meter swim. Just in case you don't know meters, 400 meters is a quarter mile. It was literally like from the beach out, It was like a big U and I started in the front and fucking finished last. And I was coming by the dude and he was like, you know, one of like the lifeguards and like next to the buoy, but he was in like a kayak, but he was like kind of lifeguard, but like kind of not. He was like, I'm going to have a chill day. No one's definitely for sure. No one's going to drown. Right. And then like, here comes me. I'm like, I'm like, you know, like doggy paddling. Right. And he just looked down at me and it was like one of the most embarrassing moments. I don't know if it was like embarrassing. It just, he knew how sad I was with myself and he looked me in the eye and let me know that. And he was holding the paddle and he was just like, you're almost there, bro. And it was just like, he had no intent on helping me. Like for sure. If I started to drown, he would have been like, dude, you should have fucking figured this out. Don't come in the ocean, not knowing how to swim for a sprint triathlon. Your boy did it. I did it anyways. I almost, fuck, it was bad, all right? I couldn't, it was bad. So that's a guy who doesn't know how to swim. That's a guy who is completely identified with, hey, you're an addict. Hey, you know, it's never going to work out for you. Just give up, low self-worth, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. All that bullshit, man. And who the is telling you that you have to be that? You are. If anyone else talked to me the way I used to talk to myself, I mean, I'm not really that much of an angry dude anymore. I mean, I have my flare-ups, but I'd have to kill him. I'd have to kill him, you know? Imagine somebody talking to your mother, your father, your wife, your husband, or your kids the way that you sometimes talk to yourself. You'd kill him. Broad daylight, not a problem. Easily go to jail. You talk to my blood like that.

UNKNOWN: 20:54

No.

SPEAKER_00: 20:56

So why do we settle for these things ourselves? Very interesting question to sit with. Why on earth would I settle for myself, settle with the pain that I would never impart on another human being? But why do I just put it on my own plate like I'm going to a buffet? You know, if you were to meet yourself, pick a time, 10 years ago, your teenage yourself, whatever it may be, right? If you were to meet yourself, would you hug you or slap you across the head? That's a looking in view to where we're at with self-forgiveness. Why do you think that I am such an asshole when it comes to whining? Boo freaking hoo. Get over it. Stop whining. It's because that's all I used to do, is whine. Whine. I can't stand that. I can't fucking stand it, right? So that would... That pretty much says that I haven't really forgiven this past version of myself or haven't really truly accepted him and loved him as part of a story. Somebody once told me we look on that guy like a younger brother. He's my brother, man. He's an idiot sometimes, but he's growing. That's the love, right? I think about some of the podcasts I've done six years ago, and I cringe sometimes. I cringe. I look at him like a younger brother. It's literally all I knew and could be in that time in life. The same way all I am and all I can be and speak of is where I'm at in this current state of consciousness right now. And so five years from now, for me to be upset with the me right now for talking about the untethered soul in such a bad way, such a poor way. How could I ever be upset with myself? It's my experience right now. There's nothing I can do about it. This is also the path of forgiveness for our parents, things we've gone through as kids and whatnot. But yeah, think about this, all right? Think about your mind, your thought life, okay? The thoughts you have concerning yourself. And we go, would you hire you? Would you start a business with you? Would you let you in your home to have family dinner with your kids? Would you send your daughter out on a date with the mind you have or vice versa? Appallingly, the answer is no, if we're honest. If we're really, really witnessing the intricacies of our thought life and the improv that ego is trying to play in there, it's a sobering thought. It's a very sobering thought. The goal is to get to the place where we would pick ourselves 10 out of 10 times. Where you line yourself up against the wall with nine other men, right? And you get to see a preview, a little bubble of thought life above each man's head, right? And it's like, you know, shade of red is really bad. Yellow is like, okay, we're doing some work. Green is like, okay, we're doing all right, you know? No matter the shade of green, even in all its imperfections, the goal is to always pick yourself. Always be willing to pick yourself. Because that's radical acceptance of who I am, what I'm thinking, how I'm speaking, and how I'm living right now. It's okay with me because I am genuinely... trying to grow and develop under the grace of God. And no matter how far we progress, we are always going to have desires that oppose God's grace. I'm always going to have iterations of me that try to shoot myself in the foot. It's just, you know, I don't know. Call it whatever you want. But I know that it is a damn real part of my life okay and so as long as I bring that pain to the altar as long as I bring that ego up to the altar and I'm willing to sacrifice this and say show me a new way to think here I'm not going to experience much different result and so like for me right my one of my you know, thorns of my thought life is lack of self-belief or self-worth in terms of like, you know, Scott, you can't do it. You can't do that. You know, you can't do that. That's dope. That's awesome. That's awesome. That would be so sick. But like, that ain't, you can't have that. You know, that's not, that's not it. And it's like, where's that? And who the fuck's saying that? And where did it come from? And most importantly, do I have to listen? Now, I'm not certain I can just be like, never mind, I can. I can. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Who said you can? I did. Okay, I can. For me, it's more like, again, taking action in opposition to the mind. So the mind goes, you can't. And I go, maybe, but I'm going to do it anyways. and just move forward. You know, I went and had the honor to go speak at Ole Miss. Now I had to speak to a room full of, it was probably, I don't know, I think it was like 200 people. But the point is, like, college athletes, like, you know, top-tier athletes, right? I'm not going up there to do a recovery talk or a talk on addiction, right? So it's like a whole different crowd, whole different ballgame, like, you know, cameras, vlog, like all this stuff. Something I never did before, right? But what has changed with me is I no longer just say okay to the you-can't-do-it identification, right? I'm not fucking willing anymore. I'm not willing. And that's not because I'm just like, you know. The only reason why that is is because I've experienced enough pain from the guy who says, you're right, I can't. I've done that song and dance for far too long. I want to see what happens when I don't listen to that. I think it was Gandhi who said, whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right. That wraps everything up right there. Whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right. And there's this act as if principle. Shout out Matt Durso. He told me it's a therapist, actually. It's a psychotherapy, I don't know, tool or whatever, but it's act as if. You can, and then you will find yourself doing, right? Act as if you can, and you will sooner or later find that you are doing the thing. And so you step into that. So that whole fake it till you make it thing, it's real because you're not really faking it. You think you're faking it because you're so used to the I can't voice. So when you step out as though you can, you feel like a fake. But that's your ego saying you're an imposter. Get back to not doing it. Get back to hiding. Get back to the contracted, lower self. Give up. Stop doing that. Stop trying. The whole fake it till you make it, that thing is real. It's just like act as if you could. Act as if you could stay sober. Act as if maybe you wanted to go to a 12-step meeting. Act as if maybe something good was going to come from you calling your sponsor and asking for help. All these things, they're out of the ordinary actions and thoughts and behaviors. These are all out of the ordinary. So of course it's going to feel like I'm a fake person. Of course, my ego is going to say, you're an imposter. You're an imposter. Light Watkins also says that everyone who's... I'm sorry, I might botch this a little bit, but he basically says that if you have imposter syndrome... That's evidence that you're living on the edge of your comfort zone. So it's a good thing. Right. But when the ego is not trying to grab at you, you're an imposter. This is too much. Give up whatever. Right. You're not fit for this job. She's too good for you. He doesn't love you. You know, fill in the blank.

UNKNOWN: 31:31

Right.

SPEAKER_00: 31:33

Usually I'm landing in a big, comfy, reclining, lazy boy, and I'm just nestling in there for hibernation. Because I ain't doing shit, you know? And, you know, the verdict of the ages is that God loves us so much that there's always, always going to be plenty enough fear to walk through and discomfort to wade through. And, you know, baptized in fire type shit, you know? That's, you know, I mean, listen, man, like, you may have a cracked vase, right? Right? But when we weave all that stuff, when we build it up, now it's got stories. Now it's a mosaic piece. Now it's got something to say. So I think that God is found in the gutter. I think that you don't just get baptized in water. I think the baptism is in fire before you even get to the water. It's the fire that makes me dip into the water. And, you know, it's a beautiful thing, man. It's a beautiful thing. But I think one of the biggest things that we need to consider and let go of is that something isn't going right. If I'm struggling or if I'm in a season of pain or sadness or worry, like that's where the fucking grit is. That's the stuff, you know? That's the G shit, man. That's what makes you a badass. That's what makes you resilient is you know you're about it. You know you can be really, really uncomfortable because you've been baptized in fire. And now you can just dance around this stuff. There are no problems. There are no problems. There's minor setbacks. That's all I have in my life today. Minor setbacks. Now, I understand that life can be pretty gnarly, and the chaos of life shows up, and there's very gnarly things that happen, like cancer and grief and loss, and I'm not saying that, oh, those are minor, that's not what I'm saying. What I'm saying is that when you go through this baptism of fire, you have a deeper understanding of This rhythm of God that you have no say over. That his ways are higher than our ways, just as the heavens are higher than the earth. His ways, his thoughts are higher than my thoughts. It's just the way it is. So you know your role. You know what I mean? Know your role, jabroni. And God is Dwayne Johnson in that metaphor. And you just realize, you realize like, It's the people's champ. God is the people's champ, you know? And life's going to do whatever life does. Why? Because number one, it doesn't owe you anything. Number two, life was here way before you, and it's going to be here way after you're gone. So your resistance to life or you wishing it would be different or that this didn't happen or this should happen is silly. It's silly. It makes no sense. You know, it's like a three-year-old getting mad that it's raining out. You would just kind of laugh. Oh my God, the three-year-old, look at him. He's all, oh, he's upset because it's raining. He just doesn't get it yet. He just doesn't get it yet. For us to be, I'm not saying that, you know, We can't be disconcerted about the drama of life. All I'm saying is, who am I to say the way people should be and should not be? Who am I to say the way life should be and shouldn't be? It's been doing it way before I was even here. Life's been life and people have been people. So who am I to judge it? Or say that it should be this rather than that, or rather be this. It just doesn't land right with me. So Singer talks about in The Untethered Soul, he mentions like the more you just let life be life, the more you'll get the opportunity to see that in the drama of life, life itself is really good at taking care of us. We just have to learn how to let life do that for us. But the more we cling and resist and wish and want and demand and expect and bend and twist to have our own way, our own voice, narration, whatever it may be, I'm not letting life do what life has been designed to do, which is evolve in the rhythm of growth. Nature only ever supports growth. Evolution. Evolution is growth. Non-stagnant. I beg you to read The Untethered Soul. It will frustrate you, for sure. For sure. Because it puts onus on you. It puts onus on you. And that's why the 12 steps are so gangster, because... You know, people are like, oh, I want to get sober. Yeah, la, la, la, la, la. I'm willing to do anything it takes. You know, and all the 12 steps really do is they just point back at you. They're like, oh, yeah? Yeah, you want to? All right, let's see what you got, homeboy. And then just be like, well, I didn't know. I thought we were going to, like, go get stuff. We're not going to get stuff? I heard we're going to get stuff. We're going to get sobriety. Not the fucking way it's written out in my book.

UNKNOWN: 38:06

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00: 38:07

So anyways, you know, I'm going to circle back to, I don't know where I was in the beginning, but I'm trying to get back there, is, you know, this spark of truth. If truth is truth, right, we gag on it. It doesn't go down easy. It will frustrate. That's why, like, I was talking to somebody earlier, and he was– he sent me a screenshot of, you know, a text with a text with mom. And it was like, you know, mom being mom and the frustrated son, if you will, you're never going to change, blah, blah, blah, all that, the same old story. And so, you know, I was, I was talking to him. I was like, yeah, yeah. Well, so like, of course, right? Like, of course. And it was like, why, why will she never be able to hear me? I shouldn't say never, but why is she right now incapable of hearing the truth? And, you know, the truth. And he was like, because then she'll have to do the work. And I was like, fucking right. But before that, what it's doing is it will threaten mom's whole story. It's going to threaten the whole thing. It's going to be like, guess what? Right. It's just going to rip out the foundation. Right? And nobody likes to look down and be like, the foundation? I laid brick on sand? What the hell am I thinking? Your whole house is threatened now. You thought you were living in a fucking palace. It turns out it was a shack with dilapidated floors. Who wants that? No one's ego wants that. Before we're even willing to like, oh, I would have to do the work. No, no, no. Before that even, it will disrupt everything I think I know for sure. I think it was Mark Twain that says, it ain't the things that you don't know that'll kill you. It's the things that you know absolutely for certain that are killing you, right? What do you say to a know-it-all? Not much. You know, it's like, what do you say to a no-no? Not much. You know so damn much. Keep talking, man. I'll just fucking listen, I guess. Yeah, keep going. What else do you know? You want the mic? Should I give? You know, he's like, there's not really much. You're just talking. Story, story, story, story. So the gift is the disruption. The gift is the disruption, man. Is realizing that there's improv going on in your skull. And then not being okay with that. You can try to blot that out. Right? The consciousness of that. Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot. Doesn't exist. Doesn't exist. You're an alcoholic and you can never drink safely ever again. Blot, blot. It doesn't exist. Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot. Like... Like... Like girls trying to cover up a pimple with a cover-up. No, no, I'm not an alcoholic. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. It's like, yo, we can see that shit. We can see that pimple. And more importantly, you know it's fucking there. You know that thing is there, right? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. You know? No, dude. Come on, man. Life's too short for that shit. You're an alcoholic. You know what I mean? Stop drinking, dude. This is how you're going to do it. But anyways, you have to be disrupted. In the Vedic worldview, there's three stages, pillars, functions of life, and there's three operators of life. There's the creation operator, the maintenance operator, and then the destruction operator. Disruption. There's just as much love in the creation and the maintenance as there is in the destruction. Each have its own purpose. And what's the purpose? For it to support you in your evolution, your growing. The next season of your life can't take this version with it. So what's got to happen? It has to disrupt your whole game. Here it comes.

UNKNOWN: 42:47

Fuck.

SPEAKER_00: 42:48

But I don't want... No. No, no, no. But how about... Stop. What if I just... Enough. Stop, bro. But what if I... Zip it, right? www.zipit.com Sorry about that. Like, for instance, I'm a big, big hero's journey, big, big, big, big, big Joseph Campbell, Disney movie guy, and Aladdin is one of my favorite movies, right? So... We'll play on the role of Jasmine here for a second, right? Jasmine is a princess oppressed by old school theology or old school perspective and impression of man. You're pretty. You're to sit there and look pretty. You're to be seen and not heard. You're only to speak when spoken to, and you damn sure ain't never going to leave the palace and the walls of the palace. of the kingdom. You ain't ever going to leave. Right? And that's all, of course, that's all she wants to do. Now, each animal in Aladdin and multiple Disney movies have, excuse me, each characters in all these Disney movies all have animals as like sidekicks and they're all kind of representations of their inner nature. So, Jasmine had Raja, which was the tiger, right? And every time Jafar would talk sideways out of pocket to her and say some slick shit, she could never speak up for herself because she was programmed, right? She had that identification with, I'm just a woman. I'm lower on the totem pole. I'm here to look pretty, never talk, blah, blah, blah, right? And so Raja, the tiger, was a representation of her inner voice that she needed to learn how to use. And that was her story. That was the disruption that she needed. And so every time Jafar would talk sideways, Raja would roar, right? And then here comes this, you know, poor street rat dude, Aladdin, trying to, you know, whatever, you know, bring her on the magic carpet for a ride. And... she's not ready for it. Because again, the programming says, well, you have to marry a prince, he's got to be this, he's got to be that. And all of a sudden, she finds out that Aladdin isn't who he said he was. That the programming wasn't real. And that she was actually to find love in the place that she didn't think it was to exist, which was the Opposite representation of how she lived, a poor, no good street rat, that type of programming. But see, Aladdin at this point had come to disrupt her norm by the magic carpet, right? And so one night, Jasmine gets on the magic carpet with Aladdin. A magic carpet is a representation of the spark of truth and its ability to raise us up a level in consciousness over the kingdom of our normal programming, right? And then they go out into a song, a whole new world, right? I'm not even going to do it. I was going to sing it, but I'm not going to do it. But see, that's what she wanted was a whole new world. because the programmed Jasmine was dying to, you know, there was this inner voice dying to break free through the programming. And finally, to the end of the movie, her tiger Raja gets struck by Jafar. Raja can no longer speak or roar for Jasmine. Jafar says some slick shit to Jasmine, and then she finally uses her voice, right? She was scared to death. in a fight for her life, in a battle, right? And now she became Raja. And it was like, no, Jafar, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, right? And that's her overcoming. That's her raising up in a level of consciousness that came to find her, that came to disrupt the programming. Excuse me. Every one of us has and lives in those moments all of the time. All of the time. So I believe, you know. Five years from now, I'll probably look back and just be like, oh, my God, I can't believe I thought that, dude. What an idiot. And, you know, I hope I do. I hope I do because that means, like, that means that I'm growing, you know. And I think that to a certain degree we want to become hypocrites to ourselves because that means that our awareness, our consciousness is expanding, if you will. So, you know. Let life disrupt you. Let it disrupt you. And when the disruption happens, have the courage to sit back, relax and release the shoulders, right? Relax and release and just watch your mind think. Watch it think and be fearful and tell you that you're angry and annoyed and pissed off. Just watch it. Because then the consideration is who's doing the watching? Who is the witnessing? Right? And that's where the whole goal of life is to try to live from that place. So meditation is our practice in order to drop into that place of no thought, get saturated, in that beingness, in that bliss consciousness, in that kingdom of heaven, whatever you want to call it. So when we establish ourself in that being, and then we go out into the world to perform action, over time, year by year, we become much more identified with that beingness without the I in the story, and we have... a much better reservoir of adaptation energy to give to the world and the people in it. And now I let that guy loose in life. He's going to create some good shit. He's not Eeyore, right? He's not, oh, self-pity, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, boo frickin' who, right? He's like, dude, I'm okay. Damn, I'm okay, you know? There's another quote. Singer says in The Untethered Soul, and I'm paraphrasing, but it goes something like this. He says, he goes, everything will be okay once everything is okay with you. Only then will everything turn out to be okay. So it's like me letting everything in my life, where I'm at right now, Be okay. Only then will I find okayness within me in order to create an okay life. Like, there's no problems, right? Like, I'm not okay because ABCDE needs to change. He's not doing this. She said this. I can't have her. I want this job. I don't get enough money. What if this happens? What if this doesn't happen? Oh, my God. Fill in the blank. Not okay. Once you just let go and surrender and let life be life and know your role, jabroni, find your okayness here. Because if I'm upset with everything that's going on in my life and I'm the one contributing to it, that there's no rhythm in that. It's divided against itself. It doesn't make any sense. So the first recognition is to realize that my life is Everything in my life is the fruit of my own doing. Stop complaining. That's number one. Number two is I need to let life be life. I'm not going to fix everything like that. The man that I am, caught up in this worry and fear and neediness and worry and self-pity, that guy's not fixing shit. He's not fixing anything. Why? Because he's clogged up. His conduit isn't open. There's no truth. There's no beingness flowing through him. He might as well be walking around blindfolded. So the first step is to step back away from the inner turmoil. Renew the inner world. Learn how to become okay inside. Once I'm okay inside, that guy... Once I'm living in okayness, now I'm bringing and breathing okayness into everything I do. And then all of a sudden, everything kind of becomes okay. I know it sounds really simple and cute and pretty to say, definitely hard in the taking. But, you know, how's it going? How's it going? What do you got to lose by really, really trying this out? More importantly, what do you got to gain? That's everything.

SPEAKER_01: 52:25

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