Maybe you're like me and God really wows you.
I’ve mentioned before that I am an avid journaler. I am one of those people who is always writing, doodling, practicing her signature. I feel like I have a mild form of hypergraphia but that’s beside the point. A part of my devotional time is journaling. One day last week it occurred to me that I was randomly apologizing to God while writing in my journal. I didn’t even know for what reason.
As a recovering perfectionist, I tend to look for what I’m doing wrong and try to compensate for that. Like most people I want to be perceived as being ambitious and excellent yet sometimes I conflate that with being perfect and making all of the right decisions. And as a human in general we sometimes ascribe feelings, expectations and characteristics to God because that’s what we’ve experienced from people.
As I have become aware of some of my behaviors that go along with being a recovering perfectionist, I realize that sometimes I also assign a feeling I have to God. But I try to remember what God says in Isaiah 55: 8- 9:
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD.
“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."
So while I was journaling in that moment, knowing that I serve and was talking to a real, living and active God, I simply said and wrote, “Lord how do you really feel about me? I want to hear “well done” from you. I need to hear well done from you.” If I want to know what he thinks of me, I can just ask.
And God came through in a magnificent way on that request. I share that story in this week's episode.
We might be more alike than you think...
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