As a Sea Org member, I had to keep my pregnancy secret. I knew what had happened to other women that got pregnant: they were sent away to strange and unknown places to run small and failing Scientology organizations (they don't call them churches). I was getting sick a lot and that means you are in trouble and sent to the Ethics Officer to "figure out" what you are doing to cause your sickness. That's when I spilled the beans and was immediately branded an unethical human. Why would I choose to have my baby over "putting in ethics on Planet Earth"? Who was the woman that trapped me in a room in an attempt to get me to abort my baby? Where would I go to get help or try to change the ugly future I was expecting to live? I went to David Miscavige and I share exactly what his response was to me BEGGING for help.