Sushi Scuffles, Queer Quandaries, and Everything In Between

In this hilarious yet insightful episode of "Not Well," hosts Bobby and Jim dive into a variety of thought-provoking and entertaining topics, exploring everything from Bobby's trip to Charleston, the challenges faced by LGBTQ+ couples trying to adopt, to the ongoing issues surrounding gun control and mental health in the United States.

Bobby kicks off the episode by recounting his recent trip to Charleston, a city that he likens to a southern frat house with a dark history. He discusses his run-in with a flight attendant and the discomfort he felt while exploring the city's past. Bobby also shares a wild story about a fight that broke out at a sushi restaurant bar, which led to him nearly vomiting up his sushi.

Switching gears, Jim recounts his recent change of luck, having met two attractive guys and attending a Betty Who concert on a whim. The duo then delves into the complicated subject of adoption, discussing the high costs and barriers faced by queer couples like Jim's nail tech Carmen and her partner. They touch on the hypocrisy of outlawing abortions while making adoption a challenging and expensive process, wondering what the solution could be.

The conversation takes a turn as Bobby and Jim discuss the ongoing violence in Mexico and the tension between Canada, the United States, and Mexico. They reminisce about their childhoods, confessing to snooping on their parents and pondering whether their parents snooped on them too.

The hosts find themselves discussing the awkward experiences of being nude in locker rooms with older men who have grooming issues. They then tackle the topic of Pride Night in the NHL, criticizing the organization for failing to address players opting out even though it's a charity event.

Addressing a serious topic, Bobby and Jim discuss the recent mass shooting in a Nashville, Tennessee school. They express concern about the fact that the shooter was transgender and worry about the potential increase in attacks against trans people as a result. The duo laments the lack of progress on gun control and the shortcomings of the American system, touching on issues like poverty-stricken individuals joining the military and returning with untreated mental health problems due to the inadequate healthcare system.

Jim opens up about his childhood trauma and the lack of boundaries he experienced growing up, wondering how it has affected his mental health. The episode concludes with a segment called "Sundries," where Jim vents about gym bros constantly posting their workouts on social media, and Bobby shares his annoyance with people who make a big move, only to flood their Facebook feeds with inspirational quotes about taking chances.

This engaging and candid episode of "Not Well" covers a wide range of topics, from personal experiences to societal issues. Bobby and Jim tackle these subjects with humor and empathy, making for an enjoyable and thought-provoking listen.

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[00:00:00] I was talking about today, I was like, oh my God, I haven't seen him in so long. I just can't. Okay. Okay. Now, um, are you gonna get your wet, your whistle? Are you ready? Oh, yeah. Get it? Okay. Hello everybody. Welcome to another episode of Not Well. I'm Bobby. And I'm Jim. And we're here. We're queer and we love you, and we're feeling fatter than normal.

And that's why you shouldn't wear horizontal stripes. I said You were skinny though. It's the horizontal stripes. Maybe. I literally wear black every day now, like every day, every episode I'm like, I'm gonna wear my black T-shirts again. I have like seven of 'em. I did get a compliment from Matt. He was like, black looks so good on you.

And I'm like, I think it just looks good on everything. Yeah, but I don't, I never wear it. So he was in shock. Um, yeah. You don't ever wear black Really? I just don't like black. I don't like, I don't need colors. I need brightness. I need, see I like black. And then like if I'm going, let's say we're going to like some kind of event, then I'm gonna wear like outside, like a [00:01:00] beer festival or whatever.

Then I'm gonna wear like a colored glass or something. I like doing those moves sometimes. Or little colorful flam or like colorful, colorful, col colorful shoes. Oh yeah. I like that too. So, okay. But black makes me feel skinny. And that's the name of the game here folks. So does my puss blanket. Oh, same. And these are actually really nice today for some reason.

I don't know. Cozy. Cozy. Um, make sure you subscribe or share with your friends. We always, we always love the new listeners. And welcome to our new listeners as well. There's a few of you out there. There is a few cause we've had an uptake. Again. Um, make sure you call us six one four. Seven two one. 5 3 3.

Six. 6 1 4. Seven. Two one. Five. Five. Three. Three. Six. Six. Did you glance down and look at that? No. So I wrote that act. No, I actually wrote that. I actually, when I typed it out, I wrote because I was like 6, 1, 4, 7, 2, 1, 5, 3, 3, 6. I'm in. You're actually getting better at this. I'm smart. Um, I broke out over the weekend, so excuse my fucking, is that the, did you eat chocolate?

No, it's cold. Remember up south. Remember people always used to say that like, I can't eat [00:02:00] chocolate. I'll break out if I eat too much chocolate. It's like, girl, I don't even know. A bit may be true. I just always thought it was fake. I actually, did you hear that? You never heard that? I haven't heard it, but I think it's a lie.

I think it's a lie too, but I remember like several female friends being like, I can't eat chocolate. I break outs. I think that's just an excuse to like, These poor females are having so many hormonal changes throughout the month that I'm like, I don't, I think they're just like eating random things and they being like, it must be that.

It's like, no, it's your estrogen going this way, this way. You're up and down going this way. It's like, it's always a mess with uterus. It seems like it's an ovaries, like it's always a hormonal mess. Always feel, think about it. I feel really bad for women. , you get like four good days a month where you're like, I, I feel great.

And that's when you're wonderful. Yeah. And the rest. And then it's like, like, oh, here it comes. The PMs. The PMs, and then I'm bleeding everywhere. And then, oh, you want to fuck me now? Like, ugh. Can you imagine like your pussy just goes through hell and it does this until you go through menopause And then you have a whole other set of things where you have to like, yeah, you're having hot flash.

You have to like bamboo sheets to like, I mean it's cool down, cool [00:03:00] down sheets. I'm sweating all the time. Like I remember like right when my grandma went through menopause, cause I was like still a young teenager. I remember when my aunts are started going through it and it's like, hell, it's hell. Like they can't even stand in the kitchen without sweating through a shirt.

I meanwhile guys are like, you don't do enough around the house. It's like right. I like, well, well actually your whole body is just basically sh killing itself every day. I don't know. I Sabrina about that cuz she was like, I have to like, take a day off from boxing because I'm having I my period started.

She's like, you guys do not understand what it's like to have a period every, no. Like, men would lose their shit. Oh, we would be every month. So grumpy humor every month. Don't fucking talk. I'm already grumpy enough and I don't have a period, period, period. And that's on God. Yeah. So, so I don't know why you're breaking out, but here we Oh, I do.

Cuz I was in the south, I was in South Carolina this weekend. But the sun usually clears you up. Yeah. But when it's muggy, it's already a humid down there babe. And there's, but I'm bit every Wait, what? I'm, wait, there's bugs out. Yes. I'm bit everywhere. March. I'm bit all over [00:04:00] my legs right here. Like, I mean, so why were you in Charles style?

I was in a, I was at a gay wedding. Um, in the south. In the south, yeah. It was kind of, um, it's kinda like a, it's a choice. An oxymoron or is that what it's called? Yeah, it's like, like gay wedding in the south. Like Charleston doesn't ha, has like one gay bar, I guess . Um, we didn't go there. It's probably boarded up.

Let me just, let me just talk to you about what's it like in Charleston with gay being gay. Like, I feel like it could be, I think it's scary. It reminds me of my childhood reminds me of being gay in the suburbs of Atlanta in the country, redneck areas and being like, yep. Yeah. Like I just got really, you had to get butch?

I had to get butch. I had to not say a word. And then every fucking Uber, Dr. Uber driver there talks, oh no, where are y'all from? What are you doing ? I'm like, okay, look, I don't want to talk on this ride. Yeah. And every Uber ride we took was like 30 minutes because we were at Folley Beach, which is like 40 minutes from the goddamn.

and then 25 from Charleston. It's just Oh, so you weren't in the city like the [00:05:00] old Point town? Only one time. Only one day. Like, oh, weird. So on Sunday we went to Charleston. Yeah. That's why we stayed Monday. Cause we wanted to do like the whole like, oh, cock kitty kaka. But of, of course it's Sunday. Of course, you know, me and traveled to my belly just starts hurting.

I almost threw up sushi again. Um, went to a sushi restaurant, Charleston. I was like, okay, let's try it way better than Park City. I, oh yeah. That rice at Park City was a problem. And I wonder if it was like literally they had fish on the menu in Park City. I was like, well, I've never had this. Quin may die and I've never had this.

And I like, would, I took a bite and was like, oh, this fucking rice . It was the rice stale. It's like, it was like, literally, I'm like, do you think it's the altitude? Its cooked more like I, it wasn't sticky at all. It was like, it was like going to Kroger and getting their sushi where it like falls apart.

Sick. Yes. Like the cold, like the rice that's been chilled and not thawed. Yes. It's so gross. It's like, I don't get that, like, but you almost threw up sushi in Charleston too. No, so Charleston, I was like, really full. And I'm like, Michael, I'm not hungry. He's like, well, this is a nice dinner. Well, it was a very nice place.

And as you know, the Southern show, uh, Southern Charms filmed there in Charleston. I've never watched [00:06:00] it. Oh, I've, I've heard of that Bravo show. That's like all like the crazies. We are sitting there and the woman's like, welcome to Oak New, or whatever the fuck we were at. Like, um, okay, duh duh da da. And all of a sudden we here, Hey, we see somebody jump onto the bar.

I mean, I'm talking, this is like a nice restaurant. This is not trash. Like this is like nice, okay. Oh my God. Somebody jumps on the bar, the bartender's like, get the fuck off of him. Da da da. There was two dumb straight guys fighting each other at the bar at this fucking Suge place on a Sunday night at eight o'clock on a Sunday night, eight o'clock like.

Yeah. So in that moment I was like, well this is, this is the toxic masculinity in the town. Like it's just boils over every once in a while. Like, I gotta fight. Yeah, I gotta fucking fight. It's almost like if I can't, this is like what I can't. Oh yeah. If I can't get it up with my wife or what were you gonna say?

Well, I was gonna say, I feel like it's a lot of little dick white guys who used to love to have slaves in their lives, like their, they're ancestors and they all had little dicks and so now they have to fight each other to feel like relevant. They can't beat [00:07:00] anyone up. So it really, now the descendants of those slave owners are a little like, and there's a lot of money like that.

I guess. They're like, there's a lot of people with like, they call it plantation money. So like they're, it's generational onion to all this land. All the land, all the farm. So they on all the farms. So then they can sell the land as they want. But there's also a thing called I don't, okay. We have to remember like Jim Crow was like forties, fifties, like people were still sharecroppers black people I know.

Landed by white people. What the hell? Yeah. Like remember that was only people's parents ago. Yeah. Like it wasn't that my parents were born in the sixties. We're getting a little older. But yeah, I. But still, like it's not that far ago. Like it's like your parents or grandparents could have been that way if we were in the south.

My grandparents absolutely. If your grandfather wasn't a pilot, my grandfather was a pilot though, and he was from the north. That is so scary to think so, yeah, it was very, um, it gave me very like, fraternity meets, racism meets. Oh my God. But there's a lot of history, so you're like, I wanna understand the industry.

It's cute colored buil buildings in your, where they call something like there's a market there that they actually still call the slave market. And [00:08:00] I don't think it's called the slave market, like on the writing, but that's what people refer to it as. And apparently that's where the black people would be brought in from Africa.

And when they would house 'em there and then auction 'em off my, and I was like, horrifying. Oh my God. Actually sing it. It freaked me out. Oh yeah. It's like a concentration camp. It was kind in America. Yeah. It was like, you were like, oh, just cage 'em up, ship 'em off. Get that baby away from that mom. It was just too real for me.

I was like, oh wow. They're like tearing apart families. Like this is fun like this. Let's go down and buy some slaves. Yeah. Like can you imagine? They're like, oh, can you imagine on the auction block next we have a six foot five. Yeah. It's like, what? Like that was just completely normal back there. It's horrifying.

It actually is horrifying. Like it, but I have a feeling like it couldn't have been completely normal. Like I, there had to have been a lot of people who were like, this feels wrong. Is it kind of like school shootings? Yeah. It's a little bit wrong. This is wrong, but we're not gonna do anything. We're not gonna, we think about it.

Well, it's not that, well, it's fine. You know what I mean? We gotta bring the black people culture. So, I mean, it's like, that's what people were justifying it as. Like, and apparently people in these markets, there's a, there's some like [00:09:00] African descendants, I don't know if there's, they're like, I think they grew up in Charleston or whatever, but they make these baskets there that are like traditional African baskets and stuff.

I'm like, I just don't, I just don't feel right walking. Kind of, that's what made me feel that place should be closed and cut down just a historical site. Like, I don't wanna buy a trinket from a slave market. Right? Like, oh, I got this woven basket from some black lady in the market. It's like you're still, oh no, you're still like, yeah, so, oh no.

I mean, overall it was okay. So problematic. But it was like, it's just one of those towns that makes you get a little iffy. Yeah. Yeah. I don't know how to describe it. Describe it. It's fun in terms of the food scene and like, oh, the food is amazing. The building are neat, but, and the weather's fine. It's like coastal.

It's like intercoastal. It's like there's palm trees, , but it's like, oh no, there's, I don't know. And then it's just like, I don't, don't know if I'm gonna get murdered at any point. Being a gay person. Yeah. Like the frat, the frat vibe's. A frat vibe is not good. I'm telling you. I'm telling you. It's so dangerous.

It's like if a, I'm telling you, it was so freaky to me. I'm like, this is weird. Cuz you, they'd all walk. I could just picture like [00:10:00] pastel, like long sleeve shirts rolled up. Oh yeah. Tucked into white shorts and then like belts and then boat shoes, shoes, and it's just, and that's on God. And that's Charleston and that's Charleston for you.

So it was a good place. I say you should go there. However, don't fly Delta down. Okay. Well, I've gotta go off on this real quick. You, you have the worst travel luck. Yeah. So, but why? Okay, so I do, I think it's official after this. I was like, I it's you. It's me. I'm, it's problem. I like fly around places and never have what's delay, what's, when I'm alone, nothing happens.

When I'm with somebody else or when I'm, I am telling you right now, I almost went fucking ape shit on a goddamn fucking flight attendant . We're getting, okay. So we go from Columbus to Atlanta. Great. Everything's great. I bring my bag on my duffle bag, carry it on. It fits perfectly in the overhead. Well, yeah, no problem.

Probably the, the size it's supposed to be. So I'm like, okay, we get to Atlanta. I'm, I'm coming on the plane. So I decided to hold it like this. Yeah. Because I didn't want to hit people with it. And I was like, just trying to like keep it in front of me. You get polite, [00:11:00] I get , sir, you can't get on the plane with that bag.

What? And I go, uh, I'm sorry. Like, I was like, are you talking to me? Kind of deal. And she's like, that's way over the 41 inch regulation for the F faa. And you know, and I go, um, yeah. So I look at her, I go, so this is my connecting flight. So I was actually on another flight that they didn't say a fucking word about it.

Yeah. And she's like, well, I guess I'm just one of those people that just follows the law . And I go, yeah, I guess you are. And sh then she proceeded to tell me, like, then I'm like, oh shit. I have my c p I have all my medicine. Yeah. So I have to, in the front of the fucking. It's a big plane too. It's like bigger, like where, you know, when you get on.

So it's not even a small one with smaller overhead. I was like, is it huge? I was like, is it one of those one one? No, it's the ones where you get on in the middle and the left side is first class and Yeah. No, I was so proud. Absolutely not. Oh, oh, oh. Those, those overheads I have seen people bring full luggage on.

Yes. I'm talking this tall, this wide, like, and fit it up there. The bag looks bigger, but it's a [00:12:00] duffle bag, so it duffle, it folds in on itself. Okay. What the fuck? Ever. So then I'm like up front now people are getting on the plane behind me and, and I'm not small. So as you know, people are trying to get around me and I'm trying to dig out my fucking medications, my weeds specifically.

Thank you. Yeah. And also my C P A P. So then there I am with my C P A P and my fucking toilet. Walking to the back of the plane and then she's like, well, we'll get your bag and put it. And I'm like, this is horrifying. Then that, yeah. So then the bitch doesn't, she's like, I'll bring you your bag tag. I go, okay.

I went back to the seat and I think she was scared cause I was talking to my girls like, I fucking hate this bitch. Like she's lucky. Literally, she's lucky I'm not one of those psychopaths. Because you could have yelled. Yeah, I could have been like, you could have been like, I literally, well, I mean that's what people would say.

I just took a flight with this. Like why would I, if they would've said this in Columbus, you would've would've rear things. That would've been fine. I would've like, okay, makes sense. But when I get on one plane and it's one way and it's a smaller plane, that's what I was gonna say. , I'm done. Like what? So I was fucking pissed.

So then she doesn't bring me the tag. She has another bitch bring it, which is fine. Whatever. [00:13:00] She doesn't serve me. She won't look at me the whole time. , she's like scared of me. So then I get off the plane, I stare right at her and I was like, what am I gonna say to this cunt? And I was like, I really wanna say bless your heart, honey.

Or like something really southern and shitty . She looks at me and she goes, Hey, by the way, thank you so much for your cooperation. Early I go, no problem. Like a little con, Michael like laughed and ran. Cause I was like, oh. The way I said back was like, Conte panicking. So anyway, her name was probably Jennifer, this dumb bitch named Jennifer or something.

Cuz it just, she gave me Jennifer vibes, like I'm the one at school. School that's like Jennifer. I, well, I guess I followed the law. Yeah. Yeah. It's a, it's the girl that's, it's not really a law. It's like, They give you these recommendations, but then, you know, are you gonna enforce it amongst everyone? Cause I guarantee there were people with foot.

Oh, every bag that came back. 42 inch bags got up. Bigger. Bigger bag Too big. Too big a cello. Okay. Oh, bring on the, oh my God. Go ahead. Bring on the plane. I was so, oh my God. I was so fu And these bins are huge on this plane. Well that's so, this is so stupid. Put a body in one of the, so, so then you, we had to wait at [00:14:00] the fucking Charleston airport for 40 minutes to get the bag and that's why I was pissed.

Yeah. And that's why you like, I just brought this, I just wanted to get there and go. Yeah. So anyway, that was my story there. There. So that's Delta. That's Delta. That was my big, uh, weekly story. God. Now what's going on in your life? Buffy. That's is wild. Oh, okay. So since we talked last, remember I was very, say you were down, down episode, you were little, I was just tired.

You were having a moment and it was okay in a moment. And it was justified. It was justified. And then the universe was listening. Um, cuz the, the same thing happened to Sabrina. So I. After we recorded Friday, then Sunday night, Sabrina and I were gonna go to this very good restaurant and we were like, let's get a cocktail before.

So we went to Alibi. Well, we're at Alibi and these two guys come sit next to me and they're both really cute. I can confirm. And I was like, um, hi. Hi. All of a sudden, little Jimmy Boys back to being social and back to meeting new people, little Jimmy's [00:15:00] a little whore. And so I talked to them. They convinced us to duck out of our $125 dinner per person.

And so we did, and we went to a Betty Who concert. I've never, I don't know how I say something, I'm queer and I've never seen Betty who How was about, have you ever seen Betty? Who, nobody. But I almost sent, sent you a picture of somebody that we know that's like showed a picture of before and after, like 10 years ago or something.

Yes. And I, my almost fucking knew that's what you were saying. And I almost literally takes me, it's my own. This is my now and 10 years from now, I'll be like, I was gonna be like, oh, these fucking gays at Betty. Who? And then all the gay, guess what? I see your story. And there you are at Betty. Who? And I'm like, that little cunt.

I have never seen Betty. Who? And, but she's actually amazing. Like a random thing. That's cool. It was a random's cool. It's just like, I like that. I like this guy. Like, let's go to Betty. Who? So she, hue came out first, which was neat. Yeah, that's interesting. Like, I don't even know any of her songs , but like, it was awesome.

So I'm like, okay, Shee and I should have done a pronoun check. Cause I'm not sure. Uh, they, [00:16:00] them it might sh they might be they, them. I forget about she, you know what, the drag queens is hard because like when they're in drag you're like, well, I always call 'em, she is. She. But then it's like, some of them have transitioned outside of drag that like, Gigi good.

Like got mit. Got mit, got milk. Godick Godick. Oh my God. You free. I was like, is it? No, wait, I was, its always a black and white. Right? So Godick Godick is a trans man Who then? Yes. So when I'm like drag Oh, she, I'm like, wait, is that offensive? Because she was a, she was a, he's a, she's a trans man. Yeah, yeah, you're right.

And that's why, I'm not sure where Shakee, but Shake it came out first. Fine. And yeah, Betty, who was amazing. So that was, that was a Sunday night, by the way. So do you have your, so I just wanna say, so is Faith restored in the universe or, yeah. I hung out with this guy again and it was really fun. We went out again and had a blast.

In your hole or in hit? Well, . Oh, well, wow. Wow. A lady never shares. That's true. His secrets. That's true. No, I mean, obviously like, but it [00:17:00] wasn't mine. New friends are always fun to meet , so I'm in trouble. Um, you're not in trouble. Yeah. So that was like a great time. No, I think it was good. I think it was like, if you complain enough, the universe will listen.

But it wasn't just complaining. You were really, I was really tired. I think you were like, I was tired of Columbus. I'm not gonna lie. You literally said, you're like, I'm so sick. I'm just done. Yeah. I'm just done with Columbus. And you still can be done. I mean, I, I'm still. Can wanna move occasionally. I think what it, what it breaks down to is that I think you need to keep doing, I need, I think you need to go on some solo trips again.

Yep. Because you were doing that a lot. I was before Covid and it was like, you would go away and then I did like two a year at least. Yeah, at least two. And you would be like, I'm gonna go here and do this and do the foot, and you would do whatever you wanted and you'd come back. So refresh, but like not mad that you were back cuz you got to be able, you were able to like, this is okay.

So maybe I do need, you're taking a solo trip, so maybe I should take a page out of Bobby's book. You should. I, I think everybody needs to take a solo trip to be honest with you. Agree. So everyone needs to go jerk off in the woods. Um Oh. Cause that's what I plan on doing. [00:18:00] Well that's what you're doing. Yep.

Uh, pictures and woods. So let me see what else has happened. Yeah, tell us. Um, okay, here's some things that I realized. and this has come into my mind after the past, like few times I've been out. I think we need, all of us should stop drinking. But not just that. I agree. But like, if we don't stop drinking, can we please get like a zero calorie alcohol?

That's what I'm really after. Like Okay. Like a Coke zero. Like a beer, zero. Yeah. Okay. Because I'm just, I'm like realizing that I love eating so much. Mm-hmm. , but then I'm drinking 1200 calories. Mm-hmm. , drinking's really bad. Just alcohol in general. Like even if you spread it out, you're like, oh, five hours and orange juice.

But then I'm like, wait, I had three or four drinks over like all evening and into 2:00 AM and then it's like that translate. You drunk eat and then you drunk eat. And it's like, why didn't I just, so we need a zero calorie alcohol. Which I did think, I'm like, well that's what Xanax is. [00:19:00] So we don't, we don't wanna do that.

We just want like a drink. No, we want a drink. We just want a drink. And that's what I think maybe Delta eight. Oh yeah. That's very popular. So that's why I like doing that. Maybe. Okay. Like in between, but then I get really goofy, so I'm kind of like, I don't know. You don't wanna get too goofy. You don't wanna be too loose with your lips, honey.

Well, I sound like I was from Charleston then. Don't wanna get Oh, you went up to the frat boys. You're like, you like loose lips? Cause I got a couple. Billy. Bella. Bella, Bella. You could do the Charleston accent really well. I bet I could if I went down there. No, you couldn't. Do you think they would accept me?

Um, yeah. I don't know if we would go down with your nails painted, but I guess also I want you to be your authentic self, so I don't know. Okay. Wait, the green screen. Oh, that's kind of fun. Yeah. Fucked. Oh, he has no fingernails now, honey. None. He's all part of the background. So my nail person, Carmen, she's amazing.

Yes. I have to tell you, I, I go to Lac Bar and Carmen for the first time. Monday did Chrome. So that's why they look metallic. Yeah, I like it. They're shiny and I, I'm obsessed. It seems [00:20:00] like you're just gonna go to her also just for like chit chats. Like it sounds like she's a good person to like she's a great person.

Have in your corner and now I'm picking my nails, so we gotta, so Carmen watching off on the nails. Carmen, it's not my fault, it's not. He's got a nervous tick. Carmen is trying to start a family with her husband and they're in the adoption process. Okay. And it's hell. Oh, I'm sure. And yeah, so she's gotta do all this paperwork, all this shit.

And they're a queer couple, so it's even harder. Oh yeah. So no, like Christian based places are helping them. They're having to do like, and you're It's so much mo. I can't, there it is. The money. Is the money like the money to your like, no, I'm trying to help a kid. It's 30. It's like $30,000. Like, I'm not even fucking kidding.

It's stupid. After the hospital bills, after all that shit, you have to pay for the mother to do shit. S thousands of kids in foster care. It's like, but then also we want to ban abortions, but yet we're not. We have, so you want me to adopt a kid for $30,000? I can't. What? It makes no goddamn sense. Sorry, doesn't, it's so, the whole [00:21:00] system is stupid.

It's fucked. Everything's fucked. Everybody sucks. Yeah. It's just a mess here. It's a mess Here. It's like the poor Canadians, . It's like living in an apartment above a meth lab. Like you're just like, oh, it's kind happening. It's like we're the middle floor. Yeah. You're like, oh. Cause you have the Mexican.

Because Mexico is not doing so well. I know. Um, it's, I'm like afraid to go back. It's very dangerous. Like, I can't believe I was in Tulum like a year ago. I'm just like, do to-do very dangerous right now. Like so randomly people are just getting kidnapped and killed and they're d diverting flights now.

Like, it's like, it's like I don't, I saw somebody's post, like we're on a plane and they just said, don't go to Cancun. I'm like, like I was in Mexico City in November. Right. Just like a few months back. Right. But you also said it was a little, there were areas, moments, right? There were moments where you're like, so we have those people in the basement.

We're in the middle thinking we own everything. We stomp and we hit our fucking, we are too loud. We're making wage noise. We're, we're both ends. We're loud. We're loud. And uh, the top is Canada being like, Ugh, God. They're just trying to get [00:22:00] through like, God, fuck God. Damnit God, we have to deal with these dumb people south of us, like both of 'em.

Honestly, if I were Canada, I would build a wall. Yeah. Like I would just put the wall, put the wall. Put the fucking wall up, like how long that wall would be though. Fuck. Oh yeah. It would have to be, it'd be a big thick wall. It's too thick and too long. Oh, yeah. Um, so that is my life right now. Um, I did learn a new phrase this past week that I wanted to share with you.

Okay. Let's share the phrase of the week. It's a Palestinian phrase that Sabrina said. So I think it's Palestinian. It may just be like a phrase she learned. Okay. But she said back home when they see someone who might not be the most attractive, they say, I hope she's kind . I died. Now that remind you of the cell.

If that's a Bless your, bless her heart. That's, that's a bless her heart moment. I hope she's kind. Wow. So now what I see, like that is great. Oh, I hope he's kind, I hope she's kind . I hope they're kind . I love that phrase now. I [00:23:00] absolutely love that. That is, I hope she's kind. So our Palestinians really like cunty Southerners in Yes, they actually are.

Okay. Like her grandma used to say a phrase that I, well, I don't even wanna say in Arabic cause you can't really bleep it if you have to. But basically, like she said, her grandma would be making food for them all. And like some of them would like, you know, eat outside the house and then come home and her grandma had all this stuff ready and they would be like, oh, I already ate, or like, blah, blah, blah.

And her grandma would say a phrase and use the exact word. Well, I, our neighbor's pussy is better than ours. Cuz like, you went to someone, you went, oh, you went to another pussy. Right. So you, you went somewhere else. Oh. Oh, that's har, that's like oof her. That's like a Italian grandmother. Her grandma said that to her.

And I'm like, how old were you at the time? Like, my grandma would never say to P word. So, okay, so in translation, is it pussy or is it in translation? Is it like, just like vagina? Nope, pussy. Yeah. Oh no. Yeah. Cause I've said that word [00:24:00] in Arabic to like other people who know Arabic. Mm-hmm. And they just start, they're like, what?

What? I know in Fari Gok as I farted . And that's my phrase in the week. And that's on God and that's on God. And happy hope pretty to people Last. Hope. You're hope. Hope you're kind. I hope she's kind. We hope you are kind. I hope you are kind. Cause I know a lot of people out there and you're not, people are not kind.

People are not like tune up for on the Delta Airline because you can be ugly or you, or you can, I mean, you can't be rude and ugly. You have to be one. Get it together. Okay. Um, let's do a voicemail. We have a voicemail and I haven haven't actually heard it at all. Okay. So I'm kind, I have no idea. Queen Yas.

So if you're ready, I'm ready. Hi, I'm Jim and Bobby. Um, my name is Joseph and I am calling from California here in Southern California. Um, I guess what I wanted to tell you that's making me not well is that I, [00:25:00] um, I've found out through Twitter that one of my good friends is a furry, and I guess that's not the issue.

I, I mean, I don't think there's an issue here, but, uh, it just kind of throws you off. Well, it threw me off, you know, it kind of lost an innocent thing, finding out your friend. A furry, not, again, not that there's anything wrong with it, um, but you know, it, it, it, it throws you off the way that you see them.

And I guess what perturbed me was that they're one of those furries that have like a huge dildo collection of like different styles of dildos [00:26:00] ranging from human to non-human, you know, and again, it just kind of throws me, it just threw me for a loop. And I'm not, I guess I'm just more shocked than anything that, you know, they're kind of living this online persona.

Double I, they haven't mentioned it, so I'm not gonna bring it up. You know, it's their right to their privacy publicly on Twitter. But yeah, I, I guess I just wanted to tell someone that's what's making me not well. Alright. All right. Have a good day, guys. Oh, uh, . Hi. Did not. Okay. Like they're not gonna say anything.

Oh, imagine. Found out you're, yeah, like I'm, my whole is spread on Twitter and I'm, and you, you're and, and, and I have peanut butter being put in there and guys eating it out. Oh, cuz you're a dog [00:27:00] or whatever. I'm a p maybe I'm a big old pup. You're a fox furry, like an orange fur can. And like, like this color said, there's imagine's, nothing wrong with that alone, but like, if I found you were doing that, I'd be like, Oh my God.

And you imagine if it's like somebody like, I'd be like, what else are you in? You know, like one of your really sweet, quiet gay friends who like, you don't think they're really that sexual even. You're like, oh, okay, like whatever. And they're the ones that are doing it and they're like shoving dildos and they're whole unto Twitter.

Well, that's what I don't understand. Like so non-human dildos. Yeah. So I think they have like, so like, like screws, donkey, oh my god. A duck dick duck. There's probably different because those birds have no, cause they fucking furry outfits, right? Like that's like the whole thing. Well, and that part I don't understand either.

I don't either's like a hole there in the, like I can just hung like a horse, like a, cause some of these are, yeah, honey, I can't get through. Some of these outfits alone are this thick. So like that takes away that inch or two from there out and you're like, oh. So it's just literally gonna be couple inches.

Just the tip, like just the tip. So I can't A, I [00:28:00] couldn't be a furry and I get too hot. I'm too hot. I get too hot. Like you just, yeah, like, unless there's like an air conditioner built in, I don't have that. You know, like the character Disney World, they have built in. I, so then would you consider it if they

I just, and I'd be, I just don't know if I'm, I don't wanna be bulkier. Like I don't wanna be bulky. Yeah. I don't want to be like, caress me. Can you imagine me as a furry, like that's an extra, like eight inches around me. Like I would take up the whole, I think I should be a furry fan. You'd have to be a polar bearer.

I'd be a big old polar bear, but I'd have like a coarse group. I don't know. Uh, I, I fully can understand this though. I'm fully living for this. I know it's a no. I just don't know how you now interact with this person. Without, somehow he's like, I'm not gonna tell him. Like, I would have to be like, so I actually would, I think, confront you and be like, I'd be like, so what are you doing this weekend?

Well, no, honestly, I don't think, I think it . Can you fucking imagine? I can't imagine, can you? Well, I can't imagine like finding videos of [00:29:00] my friend on Twitter, like getting fucked by a horse. Still do. Yeah. Like, and then just being like, dude, do, Hey, how you doing? Unless they like had an only fans and it was like, norm, like a, to be honest, you knew about it.

If I found you online spreading your hole and getting horse fucked or whatever, I would subscribe. Subscribe. First of all, subscribe right away. A year, a year's, a year subscription. $45. Yeah, that's it for the whole year. But, but also I would be, Hey, you got a second? Like, I need to just like tell you that I've seen you getting fucked by a horse, a furry and Oh my God.

I would have to tell you how weird would that be? I'd rather tell you though. Yeah. Instead of holding the secret of like, I know in that closet right now. Yeah. Because what is, sometime later in life, they're like, I have to tell you something. You're like, yeah, I've known Yeah. Every, every Sunday. Yeah. It's like a jerk off.

It's like gay. It's like people being gay. Oh my God. It's what straight people felt like when Yeah. They're like, I don't think it's a problem being gay, but I just don't know how to say. You're like, yeah. Oh yeah. I've known for, I do dicks in my asshole. Oh yeah. That's weird reality when straight people are like, like when they find out that, that, [00:30:00] and they're like, yeah, we've known all along.

They're like, yeah, yeah. We figured once you, uh, once I walked in on you. Yeah. Once you started printing off dick's from the printer, uh, on Windows 98, I, wow. I feel, I feel attacked. Oh, honey. I had the feel attacked. I pixelated if I, you had some in your ceiling. The I know. I just wanna go back in. There's so bad.

And take the ceiling tile. You gotta take off the ceiling tile. Like pull some out. Oh, it's right there. I can just, meanwhile I was. Oh my God. Oh my God. . Do you think your parents snooped your room? Do parents snoop like kids? I feel like kids, Snoop, we snooped all the fucking time. Oh yeah. They had to have snooped.

So we all snooped. You know, you would go to school and your mom would be like, what's this thing? What's this sticky little tissue? Why is this smell like asshole? Was he sticking this remote up his asshole? It's like, oh no, no. It was probably like the end of a toothbrush or like end of the razor. Oh fuck.

It's like not too thick, like the, like speaking from experience a banana, but it breaks too soft. Yeah, I found that out. Yeah. But a but a cucumber does the job. Cucumber will, [00:31:00] it'll be the job. Maintain just my mom like to really, what? Like broke off though. Like that never happened. But I'm just saying like, could you poop?

No, people like get things stuck all the time. That's what I find very weird and interesting about the asshole. Like I see a lot of Instagram, like I know it's like, it almost is like a cave that like it can take anything and then it's like, nevermind. We're gonna hold onto that. It's like quick, quick saying that it throws up.

Like why is a bottle of wine getting stuck in there? Like you can't, why can't you poop it out? I think cuz the amount that can go out at once is different than the amount that can go in at once. In, at once. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So like your actual sphincter Shrinker. Yeah, actual shrinker. Your shrinker is like tight around the a hole.

The outside. Now ladies, ladies and gentlemen, work on your Kegels. Um, work on your whole, I've been doing them the entire episode for my dick. Like I really want my dick to be good. Soft and like for camp help. Yeah. I read. It gives it more like you're just moving it around more natural. I have noticed a difference.

It's more control. It's more control. But you can kind of like, you're moving it around giving because you're about to be walking around. I know. Soft with other [00:32:00] men. Just like fully seen you soft. I don't, I I'm the more and more I think about it though. I just can't, the more and more you think about it, just pretend you're at the Y M C A.

Like I don't care. Like I have been naked before in front of men. Yep. But it's just like used. I want get uncomfortable naked. We would go swimming at the Y M C A and I remember like going to pee in the locker room. Oh yeah. You'd go be like, yikes, pull down your Oh yeah. I like walk in and like, all these men are just walking around completely naked.

Go, Hey Joe. And you're like, oh no. Like, ooh. Yikes. Yeah, we used to, it's like, wow, I'm glad you have a wife. Cuz cuz that thing, that old thing, that thing is hideous. That little stick. And it's not, I'm dick shaming. It's like the, the hair around it, like the entire, like just lack of care. I gue I don't know. I absolutely want, you know, I'm saying like, they're not even trying, like it's, you're not even, it's tough and you're likes, you're like, So how did, I'm just like, so that's gonna poke me in the face when I'm talking about clearly you're not getting a blowjob because like, unless they wanna floss their teeth, like there's no, you have to like, push the hair down, down first around it.

Like, [00:33:00] and then like a random hair always falls out in your head. Always. You're like, even with people who are very like, not that bushy hair's just there, babe. Yeah. Like, you gotta trim. That's why Yeah. People gotta trim. Yeah. And trimming helps your cock size. You look bigger, you look bigger. Really do wanna all the straight men listening, like trim.

Trim, just trim, trim. Try out. I'm not saying shave and you don't have to go this short, but just, you just do a little, you just do a little shave right by the, the, the shaf around the top. Oh, honey side and top of the shaft. Yeah. And honestly it works better if you get hard and then like kind of find Yes.

Find the groove because you, when you're soft, like things get wrinkly and there's extra skin and you're like, do I need to trim that? Like, no get. Figure out how to frame it, frame it, frame it, frame it frame. It's like doing a fade. It's like when, okay, imagine like getting a fade haircut. Yeah. Like you're fading your head.

You want your face to look good. You want your dick to look good. Yeah. So I look skinny when I get the fade down here, honey, and it slims my face. That's what you gotta do on your crotch area and you to make it look bigger. Yeah. I like that. She's the opposite. That's really cool. Thank [00:34:00] you. Um, these are lessons on for straight and this was all for straight men.

Well, and I think there's some gamers that can probably, and you're gonna find some of them at the camp. You'll see some, yeah. They'll be a lot of like, oh, lot of natural. All natural. Natural. And they smell. Oh no. But then sometimes I wish I could just embrace that, but I just can't. Um, I have a topic that we need to talk about.

Um, lemme just see on the agenda. No. Okay. I was gonna do like some gay news, but I don't feel, I really feel like I'm going to now we can just, I mean, I was gonna talk about like, oh God. Yeah. Like, it's so depressing. Yeah. I mean like, I don't know. We wanna talk about, there's either shooting, it's, there's, I like I can't talk And another news, another news.

Back to you. Another fucking school shoot. Oh my God. The pride jerseys is like, we got to, I am very, okay, so you need to update me because I have seen this in the news a lot and I am not hockey fan, but like, what's going on with the pride jerseys because I always thought it was like fun and like as a queer what?

As a [00:35:00] queer, as a queer hockey fan. Um, is that a category now? Category is queer hockey. . I'll take your puck. And I think that be setting, um, So basically what's happening in the NHL is they would have these Pride nights, just like they have like Black History, month, night, women's, whatever night they have all these nights.

Black History month, night . Well, yeah, like whatever. , , black History. Year, month, night, couple hours. Um, we'll give them a year. So up an hour. And there's, in the past, hockey has been very Homophobic. Racist. Yeah. Very. All this, it's macho. So they're working on their image. It's like the football of Canada. Like it's pretty, well it's a bunch of white guys who don't under, who are like Broy and like even if they were gay, they don't realize it or something.

I don't know. Yeah. So basically they have these pride nights. Okay. And there's usually like a representative in each city, like our Columbus guy. Like there's a group on Facebook actually that I'm part of, but like, It goes, they wear these jerseys and they'll tape their, their tape with the rainbow tape, like their sticks.

Oh. On the stick. Okay. And they'll wear the jerseys, a warm up, bah. And then it goes to a auction. Oh, cute. And then that goes to a [00:36:00] charity. So it's all for, I that for good. It's all for like a, it's for like youth that have ran away from home cuz their parents hate 'em. Yeah. Like got kicked out. Yeah. Like, so we're really, like, it's a very great event for the local areas.

I love that. Well, now all of a sudden, players from Russia in particular, oh, Jesus Christ. They started this, they're, I mean, the biggest w of 2023 has to be the hockey player, Yvonne Proov, whose jersey is sold out online after he refused to wear a Rainbow Pride jersey to warm up before his game due to the fact that he is a Russian Orthodox Christian.

So first of all, you're lucky you're here making money. You're lucky you're here. Right? Like, you should go back and fight the war that your president wants to have. Right. So they're, they're scared for their families back in Russia for wearing gay, because I guess that's the whole war on Ukraine too. I don't know if you heard that.

That's part of it. Like, they're like, oh, everybody's gay. Like Zelensky is gay. And like, and if he's like, why. Mm. And if he were by me, if he were, I'd take that on car. Bring, I'd take that. Uncut. Uncut. He's uncut and he's a boxer. And like he's, I mean he's um, he's definitely thick. I think he's got some big balls.

Like you're just like, oh, [00:37:00] they're huge. Yeah. Yeah. They're full. They always feel full. You know what I mean? They fill the boxer briefs. Yeah. Full, like they fill the boxer briefs. So basically what's happening though is now it's the Russian, Russian players are afraid. So the Russian players are afraid and it's their own, my belief, my Christian beliefs, um, my Orthodox Catholic, what are the fuck?

They are, they're like, uh, you know, I can't do this. So then now all of a sudden other players are like, well, my religious belief. So there was then, then a goal tender, fucking religious belief shit, right? A goal tender in San Jose. Okay for everyone initiative, the San Jose Sharks have chosen to wear a jersey in support of the LGBTQ Qia Plus community tonight.

Um, for all 13 years of my NHL career, um, I've been a Christian, not just entitled, but in, in how I choose to live my life daily. Um, I have a personal faith in Jesus Christ who died on the cross for my sins, and in response asked me to love everyone and, uh, and follow him. Um, I have no hate in my heart [00:38:00] for, for anyone.

Uh, I've always strived to treat everyone with, uh, respect and, and in kindness. Um, in this specific instance, I'm personally choosing not to endorse something, um, you know, a sexual identity or orientation that is counter to my convictions, which are based in the Bible. Um, which I consider the highest authority in my life.

I strongly believe, um, you know, I feel like I couldn't reiterate that enough. I strongly believe that, that every person has value in life, um, or sorry, value and worth. Um, you know, you guys, um, my teammates, everyone, uh, I strongly believe that every person has value and worth, uh, and, and people in this community.

Um, And the lgbtqia a plus community, like all others, should be welcomed in all aspects, um, of the game of hockey. Um, so obviously, um, that's kind of my, my statement, , let me just say something about this. Your [00:39:00] paycheck is paid by pretty much gay people, cuz you live basically in the Bay Area. Yep. Um, so a lot of your fans are probably gay.

Yeah. And you're an asshole. You're getting paid millions of dollars by these people. And then you're gonna be like, for religious reasons, I cannot wear the jersey. And you're like, girl, you were just sucking dick last weekend. The things that people do. And then the gay issue is like, well, because of my religious beliefs, I'm like, but you just had shrimp.

Your reli. Yeah. Like your religion hasn't, you don't actually read the Bible because you're wearing mixed fabrics. You're eating shrimp, like all these things. You cut, you trim your beard, you cut the hair around your temples, which you're not supposed to do. That's all in Leviticus. They don't actually care about the Bible.

They just don't like gay people. And they won't, don't wanna say that they're just, but instead they're like, it's, but it's not even that. They don't even, it's biblical. The problem is, is it's not. They don'ts. They can't even wrap their head around like, they're so dumb. Yeah, I know. They're so sheltered and ignorant that they can't even wrap their head around the fact that people are different and they probably have these same feelings at some point.

Oops. And didn't understand what it was. And so now I feel this way. Wow. Yeah. It's like, oh, so now I'm gonna totally [00:40:00] avoid it. Like there was a player, Eric Stahl, this photographic evidence of you wearing a pride jersey in Montreal. Uh, hi.

Okay, motherfucker. I used to like him and now I don't. There's three brothers. The Stall brothers are all and then ain't L Ball blah. Oh, okay. So Eric Stahl decided not to wear the jersey cuz his brother decided not to wear a jersey. But he also then stated, I've never worn a pride jersey. Oh, is this the Montreal player?

Yeah. In the past. Yes. I saw a video of, I'm like, no, you're wearing it the year before. It was just last. The year before Last year? Yes. 2021. Oh, I thought it was old. No, well actually it was probably two years ago. Two years ago. That doesn't matter. I thought it was like 30 years ago. No, and it was just during warmups.

They don't wear it even during the game. It's just the warmups and then they sign it. His signed jersey went for the most, I think. Cuz he's a really popular player. He's won of the Stanley Cup. He's been Right. You're raising money for charities. Right. So you are not going out there. You did it in Montreal, but you didn't do it.

[00:41:00] And then, and then he like gets called out by a reporter. He's like, I never wore that. And he's like, they're like, there's video evidence of you skating on the ice with a pride jersey on. and he just can't handle it. He probably just doesn't say it. How scared are you of gay people? Like you took that? No, don't.

And they, now they are in Florida, so they probably took that, don't say gay bill. Really serious. Like, we are in Florida. We can't, we're gonna break the law. Oh my God. It's bad. We're going to camp soon. I mean, it, it, it's, yeah, , you're going to camp in April because the other thing that I've heard now, all of a sudden it's, oh, now all of a sudden the shooter's transgender, oh yeah, they want to talk about this national.

So it's like, oh, so one out of the 130 mass shootings so far this year is transgender. Well, I mean, trans people are about 1% of the population, so what do you expect? I like, it's literally like, yeah, yeah, that's gonna happen. It's gonna happen. Just like there's, but the Republicans like it's mental health is the problem.

I'm like, so why aren't you providing mental health? I have to pay $300 to talk to a lady over the internet. And why aren't they banning guns being bought from people? This person. They bought six, six or seven guns or seven guns [00:42:00] legally. Why though? Like why do you need that many? And they are under the treatment and family reported that this person has mental health problems and they're keeping the guns away from the family.

The family reported it and it makes you wonder, and they still legally were able to buy seven guns. Hmm. So it's like they don't wanna pass law saying mentally just mental health issued people. Is that a phrase? Yeah. I, I mean, I don't know how to call them mentally. We all have mental health issues, but it'ss, like there are people, people, these are psychotic.

If your family is back concerned that they're calling police. But isn't that like a technical term, like psychotic? Like psychosis? Yeah. Some of them are probably psychotic. Yeah. But it, it is just, so I think you were gonna kill somebody. You're psychotic, but anyway. Yeah. Especially a kid. So, but it's just like, that's the whole thing though.

It's like now anything trans, anything gay, and they're like, oh, not me. And it's like, wait a second, wait a second, wait a second. But what about when the cis white men do it? You don't care about that. I I, you're not trying to attack that. You're not trying to outlaw that you're not. Um, all these Christian men are carrying attacks.

Military appreciation, night on hockey. You're wearing that jersey. Mm-hmm. . [00:43:00] Guess what they do? They kill people. They kill people. Literally. They, and they accidentally kill civilians all the time. And what we do in this, oops. Yeah. Our drone accidentally bombed this wedding in Iraq. Oh no. Oops. Oops. Go watch Homeland honey.

Literally all the time. We are killing civilians. Our military kills civilians across the world. We also, you don't wanna. But it does. Well, the other problem I'm seeing with the military, if you really think about it, is we tell poor people to go to go fight in a war. As you'll get your college paid for you, you'll get a home closing.

You'll probably end up with some wife. But what happens is then these people are still, they come back, ptsd, they come back with a limb gone. They come back with scars for life and where they're we're just like, and they didn't have a foundation. Come on, come on with, right. The politicians, kids aren't going to war.

The rich people's kids aren't going to war. But we like bribe these poor people and people of color into getting into the military. It's all a bribe and it's, I understand we need a military and I understand there's gotta be like some sort of, that's fine, but like that's fine, but it's not equal. But I just [00:44:00] think it's kind of sad though, these people, it is.

These kids are dragged in there and then they, and then they come back like we were in a rush. We were in Iraq for over 20 years. This is crazy. What did we accomplish? Like, I literally want to know what exactly did we get out of going into Iraq for no reason, by the way, because there were no weapons of mass destruction found.

Right. And Saddam Hussein did not cause nine 11 wasn't even related, but it was like nine 11 happened, but was, and then Bush and Col, Powell and Rumsfeld were all, all Dick hurt. We've gotta get pe. Even the UN was like, no, we don't need to go to war there. And then Bush was like, we need a coalition of the willing.

And so he dragged all these people like UK and the Netherland, all these other countries into a war over nothing other than his to get Saddam father's feelings. Got hurt. So he wanted to go after Saddam. And we spent 20 years there. We spent 18 trillion there. Like, what are we, what did we do that for? And we killed, by the way, we killed over a million Iraqi civilians in the process.

A million people dead just because we had a war somewhere for no reason. But guess what? But those people [00:45:00] who served there are coming back with a lot of scars from killing people. And guess what? That, that general that ordered all that killing, he's a really devout Christian. And he hates the gay people.

Yes. . But yet he's like murdering kids. And you're like, it's fine. The gays are so much worse than murder. Remember the torture going on in American prisons in Iraq Don't. That is why we have those images. We have videos. We tortured people there. Yeah. That lesbian pus now. Yeah. We tortured of course another L G B LGBT person.

It's like we're the problem. It's just so problematic. Like our military is so problematic, but we're like, support the troops. It's like I support the people who are part of a terrible system that takes advantage of them. Again, we're all, I hate to, but I'm not gonna use the same term, but we are all prisoners, I'll say.

Yeah. To the government. Like from the start. Yeah. You're either gonna be so poor, you have to do something like go murder people and. Put your life on the line. Yeah. You're gonna be so smart that you're gonna be enticed then help serve the country by doing things like being lawyers and doctors and all these things.

But you're [00:46:00] probably gonna have a lot of debt to do it. But yeah, you also have to pay for that though. Like more than normal. Yeah. Like, oh, you wanna help people? Well, you need to take on 300,000 in debt in order to get through school. Yeah. Like Michael has never, I mean, I'm like, literally, I don't even know why I'm, it's like, what?

Like I don't, I don't even know. Like Yeah. To me it is so dumb. But anyway. And then you have the rest of us. Yeah. And you tell us we need to go to college again. We've done this conversation and I'm not, you didn't go to college to get a job. What job? But, but so you're in debt as well to the, to the government is what you're in debt to too.

So it's like, but then the government doesn't just let you pay back directly with no interest. They ship your debt off to banks. Yep. To that are crashing. By the way, , we're gonna bail. Banks are crashing banks that we're gonna bail out when they crash. Yep. But the banks are getting like 7% interest off of you and making money off you repaying your loans that you got to do good or to get a job or whatever you were like to, to a teacher to teach the kids to do the same goddamn shit we're all doing.

It's like, like cycle. Oh. So they're making money off me. Getting debt to do good for society and then to teach other [00:47:00] kids that they need to go into debt to be able to then go into debt to pay for the next kids that need to go into debt. And meanwhile you don't have healthcare. Yeah. And you're not guaranteed healthcare lose your job.

You don't get healthcare. Because you're not poor enough to get on Medicaid. Hi. I'm starting a business that I think I could pay myself . And the only reason I don't quit my job is because of the benefits that it gives me based on the government's fucking like health insurance to work in this country.

Yep. To get benefits. Yep. And the job keeps, whether you're a military, military person Yeah. Or you're doing it, it's blinking. I just . I just had a moment. Oh god. But yeah, so anyway, tough young guy. Back to the pride jerseys. Back to the pride jerseys, that's what they're distracting us with. They're like, well we gotta take care of these queers.

We gotta make sure the trans people don't exist And we gotta, it's scary cuz the drag queens and we're like arguing over that. Meanwhile, our entire system is full. Well, they have no answers. That's, that's the problem. Yeah. They don't, they have no government. I've noticed republicans really know no answers to like student debt.

They're passed trans laws. It's like, [00:48:00] but people can't afford to, well, oh, they passes trans laws. Oh, they pass is trans. They're like, if we just keep these trans people from playing soccer with my seventh grade son, this will solve our pro. And then they're like, the border Biden and the border have fucked up.

Oh. Passed a single thing to fix the border. They don't, they haven't done anything to fix it. Nothing. But now they're gonna look at, but now they're gonna take the shooting, which is not the gun's fault. Yeah, it's mental health and Oh, they're, they're probably sick cuz they're trans Now there was one person, yeah, one shooter was trans.

So they wanna focus on that. Yeah. The rest, that's exactly what they do. That's all they do. They're just running with those things. Running with those things. And you're like, yeah, well we can't fix that cuz of. It's like very, so, so, so do something about the guns. Well, it's mental health. It's not the guns.

I'm like, well, everywhere has mental health. Well, not like we do , so I mean it is, it's so fucking dumb. This country is so, so dumb, actually. Like world is dumb. Like society is really fucked up. Yeah. And when you think about shows like Yellow, have you seen Yellow Jackets on shows? Mm-hmm. . Okay. So the new [00:49:00] season just came out, by the way.

I know I have to like re-sign up for fucking Showtime. Oh, I'm not gonna buy Showtime forever. Like, um, so Well, yeah, I know. Great. Like there's nothing else on, I think it's on Paramount who wait. It's on Showtime, but they maybe it's same Paramount too. Well then maybe I, I don't remember. I just like did a free 30 day trial through Apple Plus.

Through Apple tv. Yeah. So maybe you'll be able to do it through And then I canceled it after I like binge the season. Right? Right. Now, do you know it? Did all of them come out at once? No. So I'm gonna wait a while then. Yeah, you gotta get build up. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. But it's like, you see what happens to people, even like the show on, um, there's another show on Netflix that does the same thing, but people, when they get taken away from regular society, when you're constantly under stress.

Yeah. It's crazy. So the, you put all these people who are under economic stress constantly. You give them something to get mad about that's unrelated. Like, that's what the Republicans have given their voters. They're like, Hey, these transcripts, we don't them to know. Yeah. Hey, these, if all the banks are failing, we don't want them to know that though these liberals are coming after your [00:50:00] kids.

They're brainwashing your kids. And then all these voters are like, oh, right, I guess they are. And it's just completely unrelated. But they're like, yeah, we gotta keep voting for you. Because we're afraid we're losing power. And it's like, it's like you never had power to be become, first of all. First of all, you don't.

But second of all, yeah. Cause I honestly think if if it came down to it, then like, shit went down. The the the good side would still win. Yeah. It would like, there's more people that would not. Yeah. We're like, we're not participating in this. Like, no. Well, and also red states have like 20 people to 2000.

Yeah. And our blue states. Right. That's why they still in elections. Cause like Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. So yeah, go ahead. Bring your people. Um, go ahead. Go ahead. Go ahead. Aid, go ahead. Um, do you have a topic or do you have anything that you need to discuss? Um, what else? Do you have a question about this past week that you like?

I actually wanna talk about something really random. Go ahead. It's called Childhood Trauma of the Week. And it's gonna be funny though. Oh, because I think it's really quick. You just triggered something. Okay. Oh, okay. Do you wanna [00:51:00] So no, I try, I should afraid. Why shop Afraid? Well, basically, Uh, I had like revelation.

Okay. But then I'm not sure it doesn't make sense or not. , maybe it's not really a revelation. I wanna do like a, uh, I don't know what you were gonna say though. I feel like there's something you're like holding back. No, you're not. Um, like, what's going on? What were you gonna say? Um, you're like, I don't know if it's relevant.

Like, I don't know what that means. Like you can't just like stop the show and then Well, it was something that we were like gonna, I was talking about with Sabrina probably, or like, I don't know, like we were going over her childhood trauma and like how it's still, I wondered like why it's probably still affecting her.

Probably everything about, I'm just thinking of like, I think recently I've been going back through my childhood and like bullying and things like that and I'm like, oh shit. Like that definitely still affects me [00:52:00] and. No, I, yeah, that I see how that triggered you. Well, okay. So I was thinking about, um, you know, people have said things like, we've come up with this word a lot recently.

Boundaries. Boundaries and like testing boundaries or like crossing someone's boundaries. And I'm starting to wonder if I, because I never had boundaries respected as a child, if I just like, have forgotten they exist as an adult. Cuz I feel like there's a lot of people who are like, yeah, you shouldn't say that to them.

Or like, that's rude. Or like, well, they don't like that. And so people have said things to me before, like, well that's just one of my boundaries. And I'm like, oh, okay, well that's weird. I didn't even think that you would have that boundary. So your parent, you didn't have boundaries with your parents is what you're saying?

Or like they didn't have boundaries? People with you, other people or anybody? I would say parents did. Okay. My parents were great, but it was like being out in school. Like I couldn't even trust walking down the hallway without. Being shouted, shoved, pushed things stolen out of the locker room. [00:53:00] And then like even like I couldn't change in, I couldn't change in the locker room without sweating.

I had to change in a stall because they would throw my clothes on the ground near the toilet. If I changed in the locker room, they would take them out of the locker and put them in by the bathroom where like, I think pee on them one time cuz it smelled bad. But I couldn't tell if it was the floor or if they peed on him.

Oh. And then like I couldn't sit in a certain area of class one time I was walking around in fifth grade and someone just walked up and kicked me right in the balls, like just in the middle of like recess. And I was like, okay. So like I feel like I, okay, you know? I was like, oh al that feels kind of good.

Fucking her. How the fuck? Yeah. . No. And then in high school the same thing happened. Like being pushed into urinals, pushed down the stairs. So like I constantly had boundaries. Like I didn't have boundaries. I couldn't do anything on my own. I couldn't say like, no, you can't do that to me because you just had to take it all the time.

I was, yeah, I was bullied all the time. So then I'm wondering if like that, how that has rolled into my adult life. I'm sure where I like repressed that so much that I'm like, . Oh, like maybe I should check with that person if me telling this story or talking about this topic. [00:54:00] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Is like bothersome to them or like, oh I shouldn't share that.

Do I overshare? Right, right, right, right. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So that's what I'm thinking. I'm like, no, that's a really good self observation. Like, oh no, like I need to like go to therapy about like the past to, because there is more things that like you just telling me that kind of shit though. Really? Like the urinals and like the peace model.

Like Yeah. Well that's why I'm like pea shy, but it's not just that. It's like I can't be around other people sometimes cause I'm like, oh my God, I have to go cuz of like the bully. It's so interesting how people feel. Like I never felt safe anywhere until I like, do you got my own? Do you feel safe now though?

Even like not telling everything? Maybe. I think so. I don't know. I got better now as an adult, but I still feel like there are times where I'm, well, you're still that kid inside. I mean that's, oh yeah, that's still, you need to talk to him. And when you're tired or stressed, like you go back to that stuff.

And then, then you, uh, I think it's your body letting you release that energy. So you're like, I'm gonna think of something real sad. Let me see my childhood. Yeah. So I think I need more therapy. Yeah. I mean, to talk about it more. [00:55:00] That wasn't gonna be my thing with the um, yeah, you're like, I wanna read top actually.

Well, I'm actually really, really, I think that was like a very, I think, I'm trying to figure out, Sabrina was talking about her childhood, and so then I was like, going back to him. I'm like, well, it doesn't mean your parents, like when you had parents, nos child trauma. It's basically my trauma was not really my parents.

It's hardly your parents, like the religious upbringing was not like them, like even trying to force it. They never even explicitly said like, you can't be gay looking back. Right. They never said, they just didn't talk about it or bring it up. Correct. It was like, but they never looked at me and was like, well, you can't, that's my parents too.

But my dad had a gay cousin, so it was like, right. Like what? Okay. So it's just, yeah, my trauma came from other things I guess. That's interesting. Well, my trauma game that I wanted to play was like trauma of the week. And then I wanted to be like, do you remember the basement? And walking up the basement stairs?

Like, oh, I have trauma from that. From when we would play like tag and stuff. You'd run up the stairs and they would grab your legs. Yeah. I could never go to the basement and turn off the lights down at the bottom. But no, I'd have to sprint up the [00:56:00] stairs cause I'm scared. Something was following me chasing.

I could never turn the lights off if the switch is not at the top of the stairs. And even then I'm like opening the door like, but like what do you think that is? Like why? Why are we so afraid of the basement? I getting trapped down there, like getting grabbed. I guess that's horrors present film. Maybe that, maybe it's the films.

I wonder, but like I am also afraid of getting grabbed, like walking to the bathroom. Same in the middle of the night. I'm like, ugh, I have to go pee. Oh, you're wanna jump, don't you? Jump over the back. I usually jump about like two feet away. I will jump into bed honestly. I will kind of like now I just do it slowly with my butt where I like reach and like pull my butt in.

No, I, cause I'm afraid of jumping cause I don't wanna ruin the bed now. Yeah. because, so I have other, I have other cons. I'm like, well I don't wanna make a noise and wake up mad and I don't wanna like, and then I don't, I don't wanna like snap the mattress bed. Yeah. I'm not gonna snap the bed. That's why I pray for every, I'm like, hopefully this holds me.

Yeah. Yeah. I don't know why we hate that. No, that's interesting though cuz like, I was thinking about it, I was like, this is my, like, this is a trauma, but like where, like what happened to us where we're like afraid of being, but is that like instinctual? Like where, or is [00:57:00] that because we were bullied or were you um, well you were Yes.

In a truck. I mean, but it's like, are we afraid of No, I was bullied. Like, like someone just taking control of us are gra are grabbing us. Yeah. Actually it's at any time I watch, actually at any time I remember middle school, high school, this is what put me in fight or flight. These grades were Yeah. Where you would transition.

You don't know who you are. You know who you are, but you're trying to deny who you are. You're doing everything in your power not to be that. But then you're also being sniffed out by these people being like, oh, you faggot. Or you get, and like, oh, you, you're not gonna make the team da da da, duh. Like, I didn't make the the basketball team when I was devastated.

Oh, I know. I didn't either. I remember I made first cuts and I was like, first cuts. I, I remember that. I couldn't even look at the teacher. Teachers try out, I was like so angry at them. I couldn't even look at the teachers. It was bad. Um, that, that whole like feeling of. Being rejected potentially, or, yeah, it's always rejected.

And actually this is, every time I trade out for basketball, I was like, well, the guys on the team are rude and hate me, right? So why do I wanna play my mom's like [00:58:00] my dad? You know? They're like, well, you're good though. And you're like, and I'm like, yeah, maybe I'm good, but like, I fucking hate it. I'm good.

Cause I have to run from people because my whole life is all about running away. I, you know what's crazy? I was bull. Yeah. I think once you're bullied too, like if you're bullied at a really young age, I don't think you know how to not be not bullied. Does that make sense? Yeah. I can see how I become a victim, right?

Like, you know, it's coming like, you're like, well fuck it. Like I'm not gonna put up a fight anymore. I'm tired. Like, oh, what am I gonna do? Like, stick up myself. You do shut off. Like, I'm like, I was, I would be like, okay, well that's what they're saying. Haha. And I, well, and this is another thing I do and I'm still like, I'm trying not to do it anymore.

And I haven't in a long time, but dissociating, like I literally. Or like would leave my body because I would be like, well I can't hear this right now. So I'm here but I'm not here. That's actually scary. I used to like go, I would, there was a time where like I thought I wasn't, I thought I was sleeping, but I wasn't sleeping when I would be like thinking about things from school that day and I'd be in bed, but I would actually be thinking [00:59:00] about being in another house, like as a, a different kid of a different family and like it was like a warm house.

I remember this one specific house, cause I went to my friend's house and I was like, wow, everything just seems like safer here. Yeah. But it's not cuz of like my house, but I remember them being like accepting. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I think I heard them say a gay thing maybe, and I was like, oh, like, well this home you could do anything here.

No, I totally can understand all that. Like, it was so weird. I would dissociate all the time and be like, I wonder if I'd dissociate it. I'm somewhere. Yeah. Like I used to be, I think I still do sometimes where I'm like, doo do, sometimes I, my mind is wandering and it's like, no, I'm really just outta my body.

Like I can leave my body very easily. , huh? Like, like when I did a sound, so can I, cause I'm higher than thought. Like when I did the sound bath in Tulum. But that also like, does that to people boring. So I was like, look, I meditate, I can go out my, I was out. Yeah. I'm just like, boop. I do that with meditating.

I really do. When I'm really high. Sometimes I do. I've definitely it. With meditating, I'm like, I'm gone. But, but I'm high. I'm sometimes I'm like, am [01:00:00] I even a human? Like, and I come up with the crazy as shit and I've been writing it down lately, but, but dissociating as a trauma response because it's like leaving the situation well cause you're trying get, it's like, it's like rape.

It's like it's a form of ptsd. CMOs too. I know. It's like it's trauma. This traumatic, just maybe I need therapy. Like I've just started thinking this this past week. Well here's the thing. That's okay. Like I have therapy. Yeah. Yeah, you do. I mean, I. It's not bad. Like the thing is it's expensive, but like, we're blessed if you will.

Yeah. So like, you should probably really look into it because I think it's good just to talk to somebody different though too. You can talk to your friends all day long, but your friends at the end of the day are gonna end up lifting you up. Like they're gonna lift you up at the end of the day. Like, they might not ask like that.

They might be like, I don't question is this for you, but you're gonna do it like, you're great. That's true. Huh? Uhhuh Good advice. Yeah. Um, so yeah, I don't know. Yeah. So, yeah. Good. I'm glad you just got that through your chest. Sundries, sundries. Let's go. Right. [01:01:00] Let's get angry. Go ahead honey. Yeah. Well, I'm sure there's trauma associated with this too, but my sundry is, I just, especially the Columbus gaze, I'm noticing, um, I wanna let you know you can work out and go to the gym without posting on your Instagram story, period.

Like you can just, you can do it without it. I know it seems impossible. I know at least four times a week you have to do it. I think you're looking for the likes. You're looking for the views. I know you're going on your story afterwards. Swiping up and seeing 50 people viewed, and that's fine, but you need to ask yourself, why do you need that?

Why can't you go put in the work and not post it? I'm proud of my God, because that's hard. Why are you proud of it though? You don't need, I mean, that's great for yourself, but you don't need other people to be proud of your body, so you don't need to really post and share. You can just go work out. Yeah, and it, it's, it's certain people like, yep, there's, it's one thing that posts a hot picture and I'm, these don't even look that like, I don't understand.

I love it [01:02:00] when you see 'em in person. You're like, I know. They're like, they're approximately seven inches shorter than they look on that five one. They're not as attractive because they, you know, it's not the same angle every time and it's just like weird to me. I'm like, how much validation do you need?

I feel bad. Like I want to go up to them and. You look great. Like you look great. You don't have to look how you look online. Like you don't have to post these picture pictures over and over, but they like thing, oh, I don't do that. And I'm like, let's go through your story. Let's talk about it real quick.

Here it is. Every time it's the same. Oh no, it's just a little, mine is actually kind of on that same vein. Mine is about people on Instagram and Facebook who make a big life change and they're like, okay, I'm gonna move to X, y, z. We all hear about the the process, we find out the acceptance, and you find a place and we da da da da.

The thing that I fucking hate is when it's these people that are like, they move and that same like day almost, or maybe like the next day. Yep. They'll post these things. [01:03:00] Trust in yourself because you're the only one that knows what you want and go get what you want. . And I'm like, you moved to Nebraska.

Like, I'm not really sure no litter. Like what? Like so you didn't get found, you weren't found by like a modeling agency and you moved to LA No. And started filming in a movie. You literally moved because your job told you to move to Tampa. You went to Tampa. It's not that in big of a deal. The thing that I think is really funny though is these are also the people that'll post.

No one wants to be my friend, I guess. Yeah. Blah, blah, blah. And you're like, okay. Always single forever single. Always single. No one wants, but then they the same fucking people. It's like, well, other ones that are like, ah, moving here and life is good. Just make sure you have a self-talk with yourself and, and really realize what you want in life.

And I'm like, you moved yesterday first. I know what it's like to move. Okay. It's not, and it's not, that's not fun. It's not fun at first at all because you're like, you don't know people. You don't know people. And you think it's like, oh yeah, yeah. It's different when you're living somewhere and you [01:04:00] don't have the, the like friend reprieve.

Mm-hmm. . Does that make sense? Like if I go to a city right now, I may talk to some people, but I know when I get home I'll have people to talk to. Yeah. Like and really talk to, really talk to you. You have to actually force yourself to be like, hi, I'm Bobby, I'm new here. Like I need friends. And then you find out like, hey, wanna hang out again?

Like you have to like get into their lives and make sure they wanna hang out with you. Yep. So don't like, after a week it, I Come on. Yeah. Like, we don't need your, your fucking Mr. Rogers fucking post saying like, I don't need you to leave a Yelp review on the city you moved to a week ago. Like, it's not accurate.

Or, and my favorite too is like posting, like, heard this restaurant was the best Thanks Mallory for, for helping me find this place. And it's like Mallory from work, he just, they just met, he just started Monday and they're like, you just started. It's like, and it's like, we know this cuz we talk about, we just talked about it.

Right. Absolutely. Your problems are gonna follow you. Yeah. So a lot of these people, I know people are like making the big change and this life change and it's like, It's, and some people it's what they need. And I'll say, for me, I think I, I needed it. I needed to come out some people. So that was my, you, it needs to match.

There's something that you're gonna learn from it. [01:05:00] Yeah. However, but if you're just going to a new city because you have to, but also don't preach, babe. We don't need you to preach at us. Okay. I don't know. I just, do you know what I mean? Like we don't need you to tell us that life is all your are. That's back to the, the gym post.

It's like interestingly. Exactly. It's just, it's just, it's just like that fucker that's like, I used to be fat and God, God, but now I do. Oh my God. I know. And he's like, I'm not fat shaming. You're like, you're fat. You are, you literally just wrote fat. You literally do post after post where it's you choose you not fat.

When you were fat and then you skinny and fit with muscles and you're like talking about how one is better than the other. But then you wanna pretend like, oh, well it's more about, um, the mental health. That's why I'm No, if you were about that, you wouldn't post pictures. You wouldn't say, look at this, this is bad.

So, I am getting a little sick of the fitness trends I've noticed. I'm like, we're really just fat phobic. Honestly. The people that try to be like, people are not exercising better than they [01:06:00] are. People are not exercising to lose weight and get fit and blah, blah, blah. I, that's the wrong, I know I have a body type and I know it's not going anywhere.

Right. But you're moving, right? Like I'm not, things I go to work's every day's. I, you know, I have six companies. I have a book coming out. He's kind of a big deal. Kind of a big deal. Um, yeah. So anyway, we just don't like the internet and I think we don't like theses. The days are fake. Yeah, I think it's fake.

Gays, to me that's, we should have a whole episode on fake gays. I've met a few and you like meet them and you're like, huh, because you think they're this thing online. Then I send you in ones and I'm like, I'm rejuvenated. And I'm like, okay. Like, you're actually just a nice guy. You're just nice. And usually are those the ones that like aren't very mouthy on?

Yeah, they don't, they don't get mouthy online. It's crazy. And then the ones that you think are funny and cute, you're like, oh my God, he posted again and then they're, they're assholes and you hate 'em. Uh, Southern beard and that's to you. Oh yeah. He's mean to me every time out. I'm like, I know you're right.

Kind say something. He's hot this, and this is what I'm worried about is the gay lifestyle. I'm always worried I'm gonna get [01:07:00] sucked into that of like, I gotta, it's weird. Get blacked out. Gotta get blacked out. This one is, yep. I don't know. Look, look at it. Yeah. Right. And now you have a beard like that. But like, I'm trying to find, cuz he, I think this is just like 2018.

So he was playing in 2018, basically. What? Yeah, but look for what? For like college. Totally. Oh, he was so cute. Adorable. So the gay lifestyle does ruin people. I think it's also turns some of them into shooters. Yep. Just kidding. Some shooters and some jk, some people listener, like Yeah, right. That's true.

I'm telling. Yeah. Anyway. Um, so anyway, yeah. I need to make one any fucking way. I'm gonna do a quick announcement. I am making a book, it's called Barely Boring Book. Barely Boring. I know it sounds weird. It's alliteration. It's supposed to be a little different, barely boring book. And it's basically, I'm saying any photographer, any amateur, anybody who wants to be in a nude coffee table book.

Yes ma'am. You can be in the book cuz I'm making one with all of your submissions and all of like, or I'm gonna do my own too, but like, [01:08:00] and could be on one of the pages. You wanna be on a page? Me? Or you could be on a page. Yeah, we could actually. And no face obviously. No, you have to show face. That's the whole thing with the book.

Well, I could still do it. So the book also it like, I want it to be in positions that are interesting. So like a man outback, nailing, like working on the fence. Yes. Or raking leaves like I want them naked. Doing things that are like everyday things. I also want to have some daring people. Like if you're daring enough to go, I mean, I'm not condoning it, I'm not saying to do it.

We're not gonna say you have to, but like if you do like a public picture, let's just say cuz I like, again, Spencer Tunic. Look him up. His work is incredible. Okay. So anyway, that's what I'm doing with the book. Barely boring. Barely boring. Go check it out. Even though nobody's, I'm really breaching with this and I'm following my dreams.

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