You can go on youtube and see the videecorded this only hours ago and I don't remember everything in it, but I do know it is with love, from my heart and I was talking to all the people and hoping I as a nobody, well I am a somebody but just a regular person with real problems,  "Those who forget their past are doomed to relive it" My schemas trust no one. I remain mindful and remember not to dig my claws into everything I hear no matter where or who it is from and I must think wisely, logically, objectively, and look to find more information myself. We all have life experiences and had our weak moments  and it is very painful to share and overcome when we have been manipulated and persuaded convincingly with misguided and disingenuine lies from people we believed and trusted.