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JANUARY RECAP: Addiction Recovery, Wedding Chaos & The Free Skincare Hack That Saves Me Money
It's a recap episode, baby! Every month we take the word RECAP and turn it into an anagram to chat about all the things that happened over the last month.
Listen in to hear all the hot goss on:
- What's been going down inside my therapy sessions in workaholism recovery
- Why i'm against exercise & workout routines + what i'm doing instead
- Wedding planning chaos: from only half my wedding dress getting delivered & being told we can't have drums after paying for a 6 pieces live band 8 weeks out from the big day.
- How scaling back to only 2 private clients ended up being the best decision I've ever made
- The free skincare hack that has my face looking the best it's ever been
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Links To Mentioned:
Creativity Book Recs
Steal Like An Artist By Austen Kleon
The Creative Act: A Way Of Being By Rick Rubin
The House That Joy Built By Holly Ringland
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I'd like to begin today by acknowledging the traditional owners of this land on which this podcast is being recorded today, the dark and young people. I pay my respects to, their elders, past, present and emerging. Always was, always will be Aboriginal land. It's an esoteric entrepreneur thing.
Speaker 2:Hey, welcome back to the podcast everyone, the esoteric entrepreneur podcast. I miss you. Oh my god, I miss you. I'm so glad that I decided to do these recap episodes because I am not loving not recording for the pod. I record for the club every single week and it's really fun what we do in there, but it's just a completely different vibe. It's so much more like teaching and guiding and there's a lot more structure in there. So from a creative perspective it just feels completely different. It goes on here. It's much more I don't know freeing. It's just a different vibe. So I've missed you and I hope you enjoy this episode because we're going to do our January recap.
Speaker 2:If you don't know what our recap episodes are, it's a new thing I'm doing where I come on at the end of every month and literally recap the month, but recap is an anagram or a bakagram rather, that has a different theme every single month and, although that was the intention, this month doesn't really have a theme because there has just been so much going on. Maybe I'll think of a theme by the end of the episode and it'll be in the title, but as of right now, I don't have a theme. There is just so much shit that has gone on and I'm excited to fill you in on everything. We're going to talk about my wedding. We're going to talk about therapy. I'm going to catch you up on how all of that's been going. I am going to talk about business, some things that I've been doing that I've just been loving. I just wanted this to be a place where we could catch up and connect, but I hope that you're enjoying the Club Unlocked series that we're doing. Let me know how you found the last episode. We've got another one coming up soon. I'd love to hear how you're enjoying it. If you love them, go jump in and become part of the Club.
Speaker 2:Let's move through the January recap. I'm going to spill the tea. Let you in on all of the goss and fuck me. Is there some goss? R stands for recovery. This is recovery is something that my therapist has been telling me over and over again.
Speaker 2:I've officially started my weekly therapy and I wanted to talk about this because I don't think many of us go to weekly therapy. It's actually not something that I advise. Even when I'm seeing my private clients, I like to see them once a fortnight because seeing somebody weekly can be a lot. I've seen coaches weekly, but I've never seen any kind of therapists weekly Psychotherapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, anything like that. I've always done monthly or most on a fortnightly basis.
Speaker 2:But because my mental health has been so fucked up and I'm going through a PTSD diagnosis and I am really just all in on the recovery thing, all in on getting better and really making big, long lasting changes in my life now and forever more, I wanted to up my therapy to once a week and that was what was actually advised by my psychotherapist that I'm working with which, by the way, jules, julie, fucking shout out to motherfucking Julie. Julie is by far the best therapist I have ever had. She just gets it. You know, when you find a therapist that just fucking gets it and it's just therapy on a whole new level, it feels like you are simultaneously being nurtured by a mother figure that actually is going to help you because they're fully qualified. That's what it feels like when I'm with Julie and I just love her.
Speaker 2:Moving it back to this recovery piece, I never really saw this journey that I've decided to go on with Lexa Pro and weekly therapy as recovery, and when she mentioned to me that what I'm doing is I am in recovery and that is going to mean that I'm going to need some space and time to get better and it's going to be a little bit of a rollercoaster. It really just shifted my mindset around, my expectations of myself and the room, the room that I need to give myself to heal, because I think when you are in like therapy with a psychologist or a psychiatrist, it almost feels like a little bit of a race, and I don't know if that's because of the mental health plan system that we have here in Australia I know I have a lot of listeners overseas as well but basically our public health insurance will cover I think it's 75% of the cost of your first eight or 10 sessions, and then it goes up a lot Like it's very expensive to see a psychiatrist or a psychologist and so when you're in that mental health plan for those first eight sessions or 10 sessions, you want to get your therapy done, or that's at least how I felt, and I wonder if anybody else who has gone through the Australian Medicare system feels that way too. It feels like once you hit that 10 session mark you'd have to go back to your GP, your general practitioner and, I guess, ask for another mental health plan. But I don't know, it just feels like greedy or something. It's just not really what's done. I'm sure people do it, but it just I've never allowed myself to get to that point. I've just been like okay, like I think I'm done and I wasn't done, whereas now, because my psychotherapist isn't included in Medicare, it's something I'm paying completely out of pocket. I'm seeing if my private health covers it, but I'm paying out of pocket for it. And so this timeline and this room, this proverbial room that I have maybe put myself in or society puts me in in the past, just doesn't exist. But I was still acting that way in our therapy and trying to zoom through everything.
Speaker 2:She really slowed me down by reminding me that I'm in recovery. And not only has it helped me switch my mindset around that room that I'm giving myself and I think that has had a massive, silent but very impactful ripple effect on the way that I'm showing up in therapy and in my day-to-day life and what again my expectations of myself are but also I didn't realize that I was recovering from anything. I just thought that I was like healing, not recovering. The word recovery makes me think of somebody who has gone through something that is very outwardly traumatic. I've had traumatic things happening to me from the ages of five through to last year and each of them I probably should have recognized and acknowledged that they were traumatic and I didn't. And so when I think about recovery, I'm like, yeah, but I didn't go through anything. Like specifically, she was like, yeah, you did, but we're also catching up from the thing that happened when you were 25 and the thing that happened when you were 20 and the thing that happened when you were 16 and the thing that happened when you were seven and the thing that happened when you were four.
Speaker 2:So all this to say that simply by labeling what I'm currently moving through with my dedication to my mental health and getting better as recovery, has helped me understand the importance and really feel into the enormity of this quote unquote healing journey that I'm currently on, and it's impacted a lot of the decisions that I am making, mainly being the getting another job, getting an outside source of income from my business and moving my business into a side hustle. My business is going back into its side hustle era. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you're like wait what? I think I'm missing something. I talked about this in my forecast episode, my 2024 forecast episode, so go back and listen to that.
Speaker 2:But basically, I have decided this year that I wanted to get a job, and it wasn't because I necessarily needed to get a job from like a business perspective. It was for me to be able to fully honor what it is that I want to value in the year ahead of 2024. Again, I shared those values on that episode as well, but one of them was creativity. That is where the job piece really came through. I have been reading a lot of books around creativity. I actually have marked this as an honorable mention that I wanted to tell you about in this episode, so I'll just mention it now. But I've been reading so many books on creativity. That's all I'm reading right now.
Speaker 2:One because my therapist told me that I'm not allowed to consume any media that is heavy, and if you know me, you know that's not easy. All I do is read, watch, listen to true or fictional crime. That's all I do. Give me a cult documentary, give me a serial killer documentary. I like reading anything that was inspired by American Psycho or Agatha Christie. That's the vibe the more fucked up the better. And because I have just been dealing with a lot of anxiety and my nervous system's pretty fucked, and especially because, being in therapy, obviously a lot of shit is coming up, she was like, how's about we just let that go for a little bit and just keep things light? And I was like, oh my God, what the fuck am I going to do with my time? So I've basically just channeled that love and that curiosity into creativity and it's been so great.
Speaker 2:I have read so many incredible books. I'll give you a quick little list right now of the ones that I'm loving. I just read Still Like an Artist. I just read it in like a day. It's a really short, amazing read. I also am currently reading the Creative Act by Rick Rubin. There's also another one that my almost mother-in-law gave me. Joy is the house that we built on or built for ourselves. I can't remember exactly what the title is. I will put the link down in the show notes to purchase any of these books if you really want them. I'm also reading the Success Myth by Emma Gannon Incredible book. That's one that I'm really loving and keep coming back to. There's just so many incredible books that I'm obsessed with that I'm reading and I have so many on my list. Yeah, if you are wanting to learn about creativity, definitely check those out. I'll put all of my recommendations down in the show notes for you, but I digress.
Speaker 2:The reason I even mentioned creativity is because my choice to go to work for somebody else and have a stream of income that is not connected to my business is mainly because of my connection to creativity and the one thing that I've seen come up time and time again in every single book that I'm reading about creativity or anything that I'm listening to from other creatives podcasts on creativity. All of them say that having a job is the best thing for your creativity. It's the best thing for an artist because it takes the financial pressure away from your art, and the thing about art and money is if you're not really good at separating those two. The money can impact the art and what I've realized over the time in my business, particularly over the last two years, the money has affected the art. I've said this a million times I don't see my business as just a way to make money. I see it as my canvas, I see it as a creative act.
Speaker 2:Entrepreneurship is not something that I purely see as like a numbers game. For me, being an entrepreneur versus being a business owner versus being a CEO, it's just completely different hats that require you to step into a completely different archetype, and the entrepreneur archetype is an artist at heart. There is so much creative energy that is required to be an entrepreneur, and that tool of creativity has to be sharpened. I just noticed that when I look back at how I felt about my business and even like the money that was coming in and the ease in which it was coming in when I was working my full-time corporate job, business just seemed so fucking easy because I had so many ideas and I actually had a lot of momentum and a lot of energy, and so a big part of this recovery has been figuring out what kind of job is going to be conducive to my recovery, conducive to my business, conducive to my creativity, and it's also going to provide me with a little bit of an opportunity to show myself that I don't have to perform in order to make money, and what I mean by that is I have a performance complex.
Speaker 2:Hello, growing up in the entertainment industry, being in this world where you eat what you kill and there's only a limited amount of resources available to be killed and eaten, and there's a lot of artists and whether that's true in reality or not, that's how it's always sold to you I've realized that a big part of my anxiety and my depression and my mental health and possibly my PTSD, is triggered I guess that's where we're at right now but triggered by this idea that if I don't perform then I will die, basically like I'll go hungry, and that's so anxiety inducing, obviously, just to even hear that. So it's not how I want to live my life anymore. I don't believe that to be true consciously, but it's so deeply embedded in my subconscious and in my nervous system that basically moving away from a life like that has caused this really intense, crazy downward spiral and getting a job that is outside of my business, creating another stream of income outside of my business that isn't connected to my performance, isn't inherently connected to that. It means that I can start to put this into action and show myself that I can be happy and I can be content and that it's safe and it's not boring. I think that's the thing too. I just don't want to be ordinary and I feel like I have to be this like struggling, starving, busy, chaotic, sick version of myself in order to be safe, which is just really sad and I know that might be heavy or intense for people to hear, and if it is, I'm sorry. And if you feel that way, please go and seek help, because that's not what life is about. Being with Dan has shown me that he does not operate like that at all and I'm so envious of that and I think that's what probably started me on this journey. But the thing is, once I got content and once I felt safe, I freaked out like internally, subconsciously, and that's really sad. So the job piece, it's so much more than just financial stability. It's so much more than, yeah, even what I was saying.
Speaker 2:With the creativity piece like it can provide this sense of momentum and I know as a Gemini, it actually works for me to have more than one thing going at a time. Spinning a couple of plates feels a little bit more freeing to me than just being like boxed into one thing. I get hyper fixated over, obsessed with that one thing, and then the performance stuff comes out and it's just a fucking shit show. I don't want my life to be like that. I wanna be able to dedicate myself to one beautiful big thing and have space and time. But as of right now, I'm in this process there where I kind of have to go back and I'm excited to experiment and see what happens. But the job I wanna choose is something that isn't sales, where it's literally your whole thing is about performance and numbers and money and profit and all of that Like that's not gonna work cause that's just gonna feed into the trauma and feed that part of myself that I'm trying to dissolve. And the other flip side was like okay, then I have to go and get like a data entry job and that makes me wanna die, that makes me feel like I am not like living my full potential, I'm not using my gifts, and it's not to say that if you have a data entry job, that's like a job that doesn't require any gifts and talents. It definitely does, but they ain't my gifts and talents. That's just not me. And I wanted to find something in the middle and I'm literally, as of like yesterday, waiting to hear back from an opportunity that I've put out in front of me and yeah, I'm gonna see if it comes back To me. It's like the perfect thing, like it's so fucking perfect. So I shooted my shot, shooted my shot and I've left it up to the universe and I'm just thinking positively and we'll see how it goes. But, yeah, hours for recovery.
Speaker 2:E is for exercise and not in the way you might think. I have tried so hard this month to prioritize exercise, to no avail. Honestly, like I just cannot get a fucking exercise routine worked in, even if I tried and you know what I've given up I quit. I quit trying to find an exercise routine. I've decided that maybe that just aimed me. That just aimed me.
Speaker 2:I am not someone who can do like a morning walk every single day and that's where I find my joy. It's just not my thing. I think a part of it is the rebellion from being a dancer my whole life and having to show up for class and like being on this really strict routine. I just don't wanna rock with that. What I've decided to do is throw that whole routine thing out the window just for a little bit and just stop trying to force myself to do something that is clearly not working and find ways when I can to honor any desire that my body has to move. And honestly, guys like that can be fucking anything.
Speaker 2:Sometimes Dan and I like to go for a Saturday or a Sunday morning walk. We tend to talk about wedding things on that walk and just get the dog out and it's just a great time for us to be like phoneless and connect and chat. That's exercise. But I'm not gonna force myself every single Saturday. We've got to go on our walk Like it's that whole make it a routine thing that I'm like I don't want to. So I decided to like basically reverse engineer it. What are the things that I like to do that just so happen to be exercise? As I mentioned, the walk with Dan, I wanna start experimenting with different kinds of workout classes. One, because, as a dancer, I knew I was exercising, but that wasn't the reason I was doing it. It definitely felt like more of a brain thing Boxing was another one that I used to do with my PT that again, your brain is more fixated on the movements rather than doing like reps. Boxing feels like a routine and a dance. I really liked that. Sex is a great one. There's so many things out there that we do that just happens to be exercise, and that's what I'm interested in finding and getting creative around. I just know now that exercise for me is not a routine. It's something that happens when I do something that feels fun.
Speaker 2:C is for chaos, the wedding chaos. Guys, I could probably do a whole fucking episode on this and it's basically gonna be me bitching and moaning. So if you're about to be like, you're so privileged, you should just be happy that you're getting married. I know, I know, but a wedding is not just stressful. It's not even about the stress, because you know what I can handle stress. I can handle stress. It's the chaos. It's the fact that nothing ever feels organized Like guys. I have fucking spreadsheets. I have a whole fucking notion dashboard that has my mom and Dan CC'd in. We have a dedicated email address. Like I'm fucking organized. I'm so fucking organized and yet the chaos just does not fucking stop. It does not fucking stop. There's nothing you can do, and if you've gotten married before, you will know.
Speaker 2:Now, look, is this a product of my own making? Yes, did I decide that I didn't just want one wedding day, not just two wedding days, but three wedding days? Yes, I did, I did. Did I also decide to host every person that's coming to our wedding? Hundred people were having. Did I decide to host them at the actual venue so they're all staying there for three days as well? Yes, imagine organizing a weekend away for 100 people insanity. You need to be a professional for that. And then, on top of that, you're not just going to hang out, you're getting married, so you also have to get the dress and the cake and the tables and the dinner and everything Like. It's insane. And you know what? We haven't even had that many issues Like. We've had stuff come up for sure that's annoying, and just the stuff that people think that they can tell you and you give a shit about. Of course there's always that, but it's not even that. Obviously, I knew that was going to happen. If that's all I had to deal with, I'd be chilling. If I just had to have one day, I actually think I would have fucking killed it, guys. I would have become a wedding planner, because it would have been like I can do this. I breezed through this.
Speaker 2:The fact that it is such a big undertaking, I think, is what is just resorting to the chaos, because it's like every time we get back to somebody about, like, what it is that we need. So, for example, our celebrant they're like okay, let's meet up and chat and go through everything. So we're like okay, we're going to meet the celebrant, that's going to get ticked off. We walked away from the meeting with the celebrant with homework. So more things to tick off. Okay, we've booked the band. Okay, done, amazing Band is done on our way. You have to give us the playlist and then what time they need to bump in and out.
Speaker 2:What songs don't you want to be played? What songs do you want to be played? How long are the sets? How long are the breaks in the sets? How many musicians do you want? What kind of musicians do you want? Do you want a trumpet player? Do you want a saxophone player? Like it's insane. It's insane. We've had so much shit go awry a little bit too. Like we had our venue tell us, like two weeks ago, that they don't allow live drums at our venue and we have booked a six piece live band. We will like. Excuse them why, but shout out to my mom, kel, we love Kel. She just I just called her and I was like mom, can you make this happen? Can you just make them make an exception? I can't deal with this. She was like I'm on it, bitch. And she called them and the next day she called me. She said don't worry, you can have your drums. I was like.
Speaker 1:Thank you very much.
Speaker 2:My dress, guys. So go to my fitting. Choose my dress. I don't know, eight months ago, seven months ago. Choose it because it has this specific piece on it. That's why I chose it. Okay, just keep that in mind. I go to the final fitting. It's here. Mind you, the dress is not made in Australia. Okay, overseas designer. So the dress comes. It's taken seven months to come. The piece is not there on the dress. The whole reason that I bought the dress not on the dress. And I am like holy fucking shit when, seven weeks out, eight weeks out from the wedding, I don't have a fucking dress. It ended up all being fine. The piece has been delivered and it's all good. I think still has to be put on the dress, but should be fine.
Speaker 2:There was that that happened. I've had my makeup trial. I think I knew what I wanted. I did the makeup trial, but now I'm thinking like, oh, it's basic, it's not really what I wanted. So now I want to change my mind. There's just so many fucking lists on lists, on lists.
Speaker 2:We met with our videographer, who actually, by the way, has been the shining light in all of this. Our meeting with her was fantastic. Obviously, I have a fucking vision. I was like I'm sorry, I'm gonna be creatively directing my own wedding video for you. Like you're gonna have to put me in the credits as director because I wanna be really involved and I had all of these really cool ideas of what I wanted for the video and I was worried that it wasn't gonna happen. But when I spoke to her she was like oh my God, I love this. I've never done anything like this before. It's super exciting.
Speaker 2:That's one thing I've noticed with a lot of my vendors that I've said to them like look, I know this isn't what people normally do. We believe in creatives and we want people to bring their creative flair. We're hiring you because we believe, through the work that we've seen of yours, that you have an incredible creative eye and we would love for you to push your own boundaries and try stuff that maybe you weren't able to try. Obviously, like, we have a vision, but it's a very creative vision and we wanted it to be or I really wanted it to be a creative process with my vendors, and so when I was choosing who I wanted to work with from the videographer to the photographer, to our stylist, makeup, hair I wanted to make sure that they were people who felt like they could bring their creative stamp and full expression to the process, because I think a lot of the time, people in the wedding industry are so fucking like they're actually so talented, but you really have to capitulate to what the couple wants, which I totally understand. But these are artists in their own right and that's what I looked for when I was looking for my vendors. And, yeah, meeting with her and knowing the eye that I chose her through was also the same eye that I've chose all of our other vendors through.
Speaker 2:Maybe be like yeah, this is the vibe, and every single time we talk to someone, especially our stylist and who's doing like the flowers and everything they were like oh my God, this is so exciting. We never get to do anything like this, but we've always wanted to. They're like so excited about it. It feels really good, but it's been fucking chaotic. We are fully in the thick of it. As I record this, we are almost five weeks out and, holy shit, the last week of my life has been all day, all night thinking about the wedding, the run sheet, the schedule, the food, the numbers, the rooms that everybody's staying in. Like it's been so hectic, but I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and now that sort of boring, stressful stuff is out of the way. We're getting into the fun stuff now, which feels really exciting. However, I know the chaos is far from over.
Speaker 2:A is for aligned specifically aligned clients. Guys, I have been loving my clients lately. The people that I'm working with one-on-one are so fucking dope. I just started working with somebody new on the foundational pieces of her business. I'm working with her as an advisor and a consultant, more so than like the shadow work and the mentorship and the hypnotherapy and all of that. We're getting down to brass tacks. We're getting down to business literally and, oh my God, it's just so great. I'm so picky when it comes to the people that I work with. I'm not the kind of advisor or mentor that just will work with anybody. I really wanted to this year just work with people that I'm obsessed with, that I'm excited to help and serve and I just already feel like I'm doing that.
Speaker 2:I don't talk a lot about the advisory and business consulting work that I do. It's been on my secret menu, but I'm actually thinking about making it more public. But my expertise when it comes to the consulting piece is really around people who are starting their businesses, who are in that beginning phase, who are wanting to lay foundations of sustainability and build something that is not just scalable but sustainable, that doesn't take from them and burn them out. And whenever I am speaking to any founders that are struggling with burnout or boredom or isolation or workaholism, we can sit there and talk so much about that in a work, and there's containers that I offer for that but every single time they end up having to strip their business back to the studs, basically, and redo a lot of stuff because the foundations are not set in sustainability. And so, when it comes to consultancy and advising, I feel like my skills as a salesperson and a copywriter and an entrepreneur are best suited for people beginning their business or maybe starting a new brand or a new arm of their business.
Speaker 2:And yeah, I have two private clients at the moment. I'm looking for a third and then I'm capping it at that. So, if that feels like you reach out Links are always down in the show notes or you can send me a message on Instagram and we can chat, but I have my consultant client that I just started working with. I have my other client where our biggest focus is the inner work, and she actually sent me a message this morning making it very clear that it's time for us to go even deeper into that inner work right now. And that's just where we're sitting and I don't know. I just feel really fulfilled by these two clients and I feel like I have enough space to give them and, yeah, just that magic three number, knowing that third is coming, knowing that space is available and again, just feels really aligned. And I don't think I felt this holistically aligned with my private clients ever before.
Speaker 2:And it was scary for me to really scale back on my one-on-ones and bring everything down in my business to its studs in order for me to really create a sustainable business but also a sustainable life. My life was so unsustainable up until now and seeing that I'm doing it and I'm honoring it and I'm sitting in, how uncomfortable it is in so many different ways, I always lay down at night whenever I'm feeling like fuck, what about this, what about that, what about this, what about that? I've got so much fucking shit going on and think at least that part of my life is a vibe. Time just falls away. When I'm working with these babes and we're in session, it just feels so good.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I guess the takeaway for you here is simplification can sometimes be the thing that needs to happen in order for you to get the sustainability. Sometimes it isn't about changing your strategy or getting down into the nitty gritty and leveraging tech and AI. Sometimes it's simply about simplifying. I learned that the hard way over my sabbatical I took last year. I talked all about it in the simplicity files, which, if you know, you know, and if you don't again link down in the show notes. Just go to the link tree and look for the simplicity files and go. Do all that, because if you're someone who is really struggling with burnout, that has to be the first step, and it's sometimes the scariest Actually, no, it is the scariest, especially when you're overworked, overwhelmed. That feels like death, it feels like career suicide and, oh my God, is it the opposite? So shout out to my two clients, rachel and Alexa I love you. And again, if you feel like you might be our third, then you know what to do.
Speaker 2:P is for purity. I'm going to make this one really short and sweet. I've been going makeup free and my skin is bombcom. My skin is so fucking good. The only breakouts I'm having at all are hormonal and around my period. That is it. I'm looking at my skin and I'm like bitch, what the fuck? I want my skin obviously to be the best it possibly can be for my wedding, but I didn't want to go for a facial every single month for the six months leading up to my wedding.
Speaker 2:One I only got engaged not even nine months ago. There wasn't enough time for me to prep for that. Two for whatever reason, I was like I don't want to spend my money like that. I just didn't want to do that and as somebody who loves a facial, loves a massage I'm all about beauty stuff I actually really love the process of it. I love doing it. To me. I was like that's a wedding expense and it just didn't feel right To me. I was like I'd rather spend the money on therapy to get better and get ready for the wedding. I just had this urge to stop wearing makeup.
Speaker 2:You may have noticed that I'm not really showing my face as much on social media. I'm not making a whole lot of video content at the moment and just this idea, I think, of performing and putting on a face is just something that I'm just fully repellent against right now, and I think it might be a part of the recovery in my healing. But regardless, I've been going makeup free and my skin is absolutely loving it. I don't even really wear that much makeup, as it is the makeup that I use. I don't know if it's natural makeup. I don't think it is. It's probably horrific for my skin anyway. But I'm just not that kind of girl. I don't really care that much.
Speaker 2:But allowing my skin to just be in its element, just be raw, naked and pure, has not only felt really good and helped me realize and see my own beauty. It's looking so much more vibrant. I'm getting way less breakouts, because there was a period there where I was really struggling with my skin, which was so weird because I've never had bad skin in my entire life. But even from a texture perspective, my skin is not as combination as it used to be. It's not as oily where it was and not as dry as what it used to be. It's just settled down and panned out. I'm finding that I can predict what it's going to do and I'm learning more about the cycles of my own skin and, honestly, I was always using this skincare. The only thing I've changed is I stopped wearing makeup.
Speaker 2:So if that's something that you're struggling with, cut the makeup out. I know that's not easy for everybody for your working, corporate or whatever but just only wear it when you have to wear it. I wanna say I've put on a face of makeup five times in the last like three months. It does take a whole new level of not giving a fuck to maybe look a little bit dead. And I definitely have one of those faces where people are like are you sick? I'm like, no, I'm just not wearing makeup. So don't worry, I've heard it all Quite frankly, it's not your problem, it's your face. That's what I tell them. I just say, no, this is just my face. So you can take that one and do what you want with it. But, yeah, hashtag, fuck the makeup, at least with the wedding.
Speaker 2:Now, before we wrap up, I do wanna do an honorable mention. I know I mentioned that the honorable mention was going to be reading all about creativity, but obviously we already talked about that, but I still wanna do an honorable mention. I wanna do this every single month because I don't wanna be restricted to just talking about the things that fit into the recap anagram. If there's something else that I wanna say, I'm gonna say it, and so that's why we have our honorable mention. So the honorable mention this month is Mystic man Dan.
Speaker 2:Mystic man Dan has been putting up with my bullshit. Mystic man Dan has been the ultimate fiance. Mystic man Dan is really just taking all of this wedding stuff in his stride and all of the chaos, all of the recovery, all of the looking at me without makeup on and still telling me that I'm beautiful because that's why we're marrying him, celebrating with me and all of the one-on-one clients and stuff. Like it's just, he's just been such a fucking legend and obviously he's always a legend. We love him. If you don't know who Mystic man Dan is, he's my fiance. We actually did an episode about our engagement, so if you scroll back, you'll be able to see that.
Speaker 2:But my relationship with him this month has really entered a whole other level of like team. You know what I mean. We have gone from like partners to a team and I'm not gonna lie, doing this wedding and being this deep in all of the organization and what he wants and what I want and what we want, and figuring all of that out has been testing at times I'm not gonna lie Like we've definitely had some arguments, we've definitely had some fights, but at the end of the day we've always come back together and we've been there for each other, even when it feels like we're against each other, and I'm really proud of that and I think that is a testament to not only our relationship but the kind of person he is. I just think it's so easy for guys to check out during a wedding and all the planning, and he's just so not checked out Like he really wants to be involved in every single process. Sometimes I'm like, babe, can you just let me take this one? Like, just let me have this, will you? But I know in the long run I'm so grateful and so lucky to have a husband to be who isn't like, yeah, babes, I'll just show up on the day. That's not what I wanted, that would have pissed me the fuck off, and I'm just grateful, so grateful that I'm doing this process with him. Yeah, shout out to Mystic man, dan. Communication and compromise All right. Thank you so much, guys.
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