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The Preggo Diary: Big Kicks, Big Feels & an Existential Crisis

• Breanna May • Season 5

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Hey legend,


If you’re here for polished and perfect… this ain’t it 😅


This month’s episode of The Preggo Diaries is raw, hilarious, a little feral, and a lot emotional.


I’m talking:


 💥 Lightning crotch (yep, it’s real and WTAF)

 💞 The moment Paul finally felt our baby kick - and how Dad felt it first

 🧠 Identity shifts, marriage feels, and missing the “us” before “three”

 🙏 IVF reflections and a love letter to anyone still in the thick of it

 🔥 The surprising business lessons that came from slowing down... and how I accidentally made more while doing less

It’s real, it’s rogue, and it’s the most me episode yet.


If you’ve ever wondered what pregnancy is actually like (beyond the curated bump pics and “glow”), you’re going to love this one.


🎧 Listen to the new episode: The Preggo Diaries — Month Five: Glowy Goddess Meets Grandma With Pelvic Pain


Thank you for being here - for the love, the laughs, and for letting me document this wild, beautiful, emotional AF journey.


🤍, 

B

As always, please don't forget to hit Subscribe! xxx

Breanna Hunter:

Breanna, welcome to the pregnancy diaries, a raw and unfiltered look at my journey into motherhood after two pretty fucked years of trying to conceive. I'm finally pregnant, and I wanted to document the real behind the scenes, experience, the excitement, the body changes, the identity shifts, the doubts and all the mindset lessons along the way, whether you're pregnant, trying to be or just love, an honest story. This series is here to remind you that you're not alone in the messy, magical middle you welcome back to another episode of The Prego diaries, and I feel extremely prego. It's actually really good timing to be recording this today, because after this episode, I have a coaching call with my mastermind clients, and then I'm off to our OB for our six month scan. So in this episode, I'm just going to go over so many amazing, hilarious, funny shit, all the things of the last month, and do a little bit of a recap of my fifth month as I sort of sit here going into my sixth month. I'd say if the last month had a theme, it would be somewhere between like, glowy goddess and grandma with back pain and pelvic pain and making noises every time I move, like Paul's now started calling me. He says, like, pregnancy noises. It's this whole new thing in our household where he's like, God, just Breanna and her pregnancy noises. I will literally just roll over and be like, because it's and I'm just like, how, how am I going to do this for three or four more months? Like, anyway, we'll get to that. So I'm going to go through today the mindset, things that I've noticed, the identity shifts, how we've been preparing, physical changes, emotional shifts. Emotional changes are really, really special moment that I'm going to literally cherish in my heart for the rest of my life and so many other bits and pieces. So if you're new here, this is just a once a month series, the Prego series, where I just share how I've been finding pregnancy, and I'm documenting everything along the way. It is completely separate to the regular episode that I release every Tuesday. So if pregnancy isn't really interesting to you, by all means, you do not need to listen to this episode. But if you are love, if you just love pregnant stories, pregnancies, watching other people's journeys, then this episode is going to be really funny for you. So physical changes in the last month. I spoke too soon, I think in the last episode, or even when people have asked me, I've been like, pregnancy is amazing. It's easy. I feel fine, like I didn't get too sick in the first trimester, second trimester. I was like, my energy's back. I'm eating normally. I'm training again. It's really not that bad, like pregnancy is not so bad. I still maintain it's not terrible. But I can see how, if you ask me again in December, January, maybe February, I might be in a completely different place, because just in the last two weeks, I have had so much pain that I have never experienced before. I've never understood pelvic pain until now. I've never understood hip pain until now. And it's like every step that I take. It's like, literally, I said to Paul, I can't explain it. Every step that I take, it feels like there is this nerve in my vagina that just fucking fires. And one of my girlfriends said to me, Oh, it sounds like you've got Lightning crutch. And as soon as she said that, I was like, that is exactly what it feels like. It feels like there is lightning in my vagina. And I said to Paul, I'm not being sexual, but I just want a vagina massage. Like, please. This is not sexual, but like, I just want my vagina, it feels like tight, and every step kind of hurts, and I had hectic hip pain that seems to be a bit of a thing now. Like, I can walk for about 20 minutes, 30 minutes, and then I start hobbling, and it really hurts. So I went to the physio. He was like, can you just walk less? And I was like, No, I gotta do my 10,000 steps a day, which I'm trying to maintain, but just breaking it up a little bit, doing a lot more stretching, all of that. So anyway, that's been a really fun update. I feel 90, and it's I'm finding that slightly frustrating. I think I said to Paul yesterday, the thing that I am looking forward to the most about next year is being able to fucking send it in the gym again, like I don't I was getting right into running. I like high intensity training. Yes, I like to lift weights, but not all the time. I find it quite boring style of training. I usually like to like. Like, you know, mix it up with a bit of hit and a bit of high intensity and burpees and skipping and running and jumping and all of that. And I said to Paula, I just miss that feeling of exerting myself physically. Like, I really miss that again. Like, not complaining, just saying, like, it really makes me appreciate what you get from physical exertion. Like I get so much from that, in terms of relief, door, endorphins, dopamine, just feeling good. And so I'm so grateful to the like I've just got a new appreciation for physical training, really, and I can't wait for that. So nothing fits. I had a tiny little moment, just literally now, as I was getting ready to record this, because I'm in that weird thing where I'm like, I don't want to buy a whole new wardrobe, because that would be silly, but even just before, so I've got, if you're listening, you know, you're a woman, you know, we've all got a pair of, Like, say, our fat pants, like, just our kind of, like, they're our fat pants when you're feeling like you got your period, or you're not feeling great, like, we've all got a pair that we chuck on, and they always make us feel cozy, and they're like a warm hug in a pair of pants. I've got this one pair, and when I bought them, they were way too big for me, but I liked that baggy, like, big, oversized look, and so I've got these pants. And I was like, God, I don't know what to wear. Unless I'm wearing active wear, I literally don't know what to wear because I usually live in denim shorts, activewear. That's about it. Well, none of my denim shorts fit, and so I'm just living in activewear. Anyway. I grabbed my fat pants, my trusty fat pants. And I was like, oh yes, these bad boys, and they didn't zip up. And I was like, oh, okay, maybe I need to buy some new things. So mum's coming up this weekend. We're doing a wardrobe shop. We're doing the nursery shop. That's a whole I'm so excited about this weekend. So that's been really exciting, like, just those bits and pieces, but, yeah, it's it's a little bit frustrating having nothing to wear, but that's okay. I'll just buy a few little things, and then that'll be that okay. The most beautiful moment, or like, physical change, in the last few weeks, is that I have been feeling kicks. And at first I was like, Nah, I think it's just food digesting. I think it's just maybe gas, like, Who fucking knows what's going on right now? I don't know. And then it slowly but surely started to feel like, Oh, that feels like a little tap, like a little bump, like a little elbow or something. But I wasn't fully sure. And then, literally, in the last, excuse me, that's another thing. I'll talk about that in a moment, reflux, I think, or just burping, like, anyway. So after the first few where I was like, Oh, I think My food's digesting, I started to really feel like, No, this is getting stronger. And in the last two weeks, between like 22 and 24 weeks, he must have gotten so much stronger, because they feel like booting me. So I have been feeling kicks. But a few times I've said to Paul, can you feel that? And he's like, No, I can't feel it. He's like, Oh, he actually said to me, I'm I'm so jealous that you get that extra connection. Like it's, I'm a bit jealous that you get that. And I was like, Yeah, that makes sense. Like we get a lot more opportunities as women to connect, even when we're just going about our day, it's like these constant little reminders of, like, Oh, shit. Oh, that's right, I'm pregnant. Like, otherwise we'd forget. And so I can see how, for the men, it's easy to just kind of forget Paul. Actually, I was in the kitchen the other day, and I just let my belly hang out because I was just sore. I'd been standing for too long. I'm in the kitchen preparing dinner, and I just, I was wearing, like a bra and not much else, little box of shorts. And so I walked out, I'm in the kitchen, and Paul, I just found him, sort of like, looking at me, and I'm like, what? And he's like, I love this. He's like, this is really nice to finally see you. He's like, he was explaining how it's so easy for men to be disconnected from it. And now looking at me, when he sees my belly, he's got this constant reminder, and he said that he just loves seeing the belly grow, because it helps him stay really connected. So anyway, then the other night, I was lying down, we got out the shower, and I was lying on our bed, and I had my tummy there, and it's always when I just lie down and put my tummy there, he starts fucking booting me. So I'm waiting for Paul to get out the shower. And I was like, fuck, they're pretty strong. They're I can fully feel them. And what was so interesting was that day, that day, dad came up for a appointment. So I went to Dad's appointment with him, and then dad was leaving and driving back home to Albany. Anyway, Dad's driving home, so he gives me a hug, and I'm hugging him, and as I hug him, he went, Oh, I just felt a kick. And I went, No, like bullshit. No, you didn't. That's wishful thinking, Poppy. And I'm like, You're wishful thinking. I don't think so. I think that's full of shit. And he goes, No, I swear to God, I felt a big kick. And I was like, really? So dad had said that he felt a kick. And Paul was like, No, I have been trying, and I can't feel kicks. You can't feel the kick first. So anyway, that night, I'm lying on our bed after the shower, Paul comes out, and I was like, just try. Like, he's I can feel it. He's kicking a lot. Come put your hand on so Paul's got his hand on and and then just this huge boot, like it was massive. And Paul's face, I will have that moment tattooed on my heart for the rest of my life, because it was like pure shock and joy all at once. And he was just like, oh. And I was like, did you feel that? He's like, I fucking felt that. And then he did it about three or four more times, and Paul's like, I can fully feel it. He's kicking. And it was just so beautiful. So then we just laid on bed, like in our pajamas, just, you know, both feeling the kicks. And that was so cool. Like, I complain, and I sort of complain in jest about the physical changes, but it's a net positive. Like, it is such a net positive because all these little micro moments of joy that you share with your friends and your family. Like, I saw my best friend this month, went over to hers to do some co working, and I've walked in, she hasn't seen me for a month. Obviously, I've popped she's also the godmother, and she's just like, oh, like, took one look at me, like, I can't I'm gonna cry. And I'm like, Oh, these moments of connection and joy and intimacy and closeness that it brings with your people. Like, give me the hip pain, give me the fucking lightning crutch, give me all those things. It is so worth it and the IVF, like, I've got a girlfriend who literally just started IVF last week. She had her first transfer, and I said to Paul, God, my heart is so in it with her, so in it. And I just, I just want her to feel my belief that even though you're, if you're listening and you are in it, and if you're listening and you are in the depths and you can't see

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Breanna Hunter:

hear me saying it was all worth it, like I feel like IVF was a distant memory, and that those mornings crying in the car and doing blood tests and injecting myself like they feel truly like a distant memory. And I hope that if you're listening and you're in that same place, that this gives you so much hope. It really is a net positive, and everything that you go through is so so worth it. And I haven't even met him yet. So that's my little side tangent. A few other a few other physical changes, both good, bad and in between. So this weekend, oh, my god, what is this? I've never experienced heartburn, I've never experienced reflux, I've never experienced any of this stuff. So the other day, I was like, Oh, I just need to keep burping. What the hell. And it felt like something was like, stuck in my esophagus. And I'm like, What is this? So anyway, Paul and I did our usual Saturday routine. We went and got our coffee and our toasties, and we sat down at the beach, we had our toasties, and everything's all good, but then we're walking back to the car, and I start coughing, and just as Paul turns around, because it was a pretty extreme cough, I just did like this unexpected, cheeky vomit on the sidewalk. And he's like, are you all right? I'm like, and I'm just, you know, very, like, classy, very classy, like, wiping myself up and I just vomited on the sidewalk, like, in this little garden bed. And he's like, What the hell am I? I don't know. Like, is this reflux? I'm not really sure. It's not all the time, but I've had a few nights where I'm just like, like, something's not going down, right? So that's been a fun physical change, positive physical change my skin. And this is a tip at the same time. Obviously, when you're pregnant, you can't have Botox. So I haven't had Botox for I didn't even do it when I was doing IVF. It's been a long time. Your girl has got wrinkles again, and it's fine, like, it's actually fine. I've gotten used to it, but it's actually made me really, really invested in skincare. So I have been making gelatin gummies. I have collagen every single day. And I'm also on, like, tallow, castor oil, skincare. Holy shit. My skin feels the best it's ever felt. And yes, I think it's because I'm putting a lot of effort into hydrating, a lot of effort into, like I said, collagen and all those things. And I think it's a thing to have, like, what they call the pregnancy glow, because your blood volume increases and it looks like you've got, like, plump, red, sort of flush cheeks. But yeah, highly recommend collagen gelatin gummies and some tallow and castor oil, my skin feels bloody incredible. So that's the physical bits, emotional and mental changes. So these have been really interesting. So one thing that I wasn't expecting, Oh, my. Maybe, maybe that actually makes so much sense. Yeah, so I've been grieving, not grieving in this really intense, like crying really sad way, but I just have these moments where I'm like, Oh, I'm gonna miss Paul. Like, I'm really gonna miss the two of us. We've had nine years of just the two of us. And I was saying to my mum on the phone this week, I'm like, Mum, like, we've never gone to bed separately. We shower together. And just the thought of like, saying to Paul next year, all right, or him saying to me, like, all right, I'm gonna go to bed. And I'm like, you know, up breastfeeding, and I'll see in the morning. Like, I don't know that just makes me so sad, because we're so close, and I know this will make us closer, but I also am very aware that there might be a season where we're kind of like, you know, tag teaming and just supporting one another and our son. But just feels like I said, Paul actually has noticed I'm a little bit extra needy. Like, I would say, I'm already a very like, I love quality time. I love our weekends. I but I just feel like I said to him, I'm really because he's studying so much at the moment, he's doing so much extra at work, just to essentially, for us, like for our family, he's studying more and all this stuff that he loves. He's obsessed with his career, so he's been doing all this extra stuff. And I'm like, Oh, can I see you? And he's like, fuck. You're actually like, I said, I just really feel like I'm gonna miss you next year, and I want to soak up all this us time. And so we've really been putting some time into that, and it feels so nice. But, yeah, there's a part of me that's like, God, that's going to be a huge change for the two of us, and I'm going to be super invested in making sure that we're still we've spoken about this at length. We are still the most important priority our marriage, because without our marriage, there would be like, without our marriage and each other, there would be no child. And so we're so big on we're going to pour into our relationship as a priority always, and we understand that there'll be times we can't, but that needs to always be something that we're considering and thinking about, because I feel so disconnected without quality time. And yeah, that's something that I've really just been like, we've had it so good. We've had it so good. So that's come up. And then another thing that's been really interesting is that I said to Paul, I feel really sad. My brother lives with us at the moment. He's FIFO, so he's FIFO, so he's only here, like a week on, a week off. But I'll say to Paul that week that Trav moves out, I feel really sad about because it's like the end of an era. It's like when I think family, family is my everything, but every time I've ever thought the word family, it's instantly associated to my mom, my dad, my brother and me, like the four of us, and we are so close and so connected. And then now it's like this, not separation because we're and that's what Paul said to me, you know that, like, it's still going to be at all. Your family has got no chill, like you're still going to have that. But I'm like, yeah, it's just this new iteration of family where it's like, family is now me and my husband and my son and my dog, but like, I've got my family, and it almost feels like a little bit of sadness, of like, oh, like, and even my brother said, you know, it's weird for him, like, you're going to have your own son now you're because we're so tired, and it's just all these little changes which Are So Beautiful. We're all so excited, but I don't think I've ever heard anyone talk about the dynamic shift of being like a close family unit of the four of you for, you know, 34 years, and now I'm going on to have my own child, so I've got my own family, and that's beautiful, and that's amazing. And now my parents get a grandparent. But I wonder if there's a part of them, even that would grieve their daughter is really like doing her own thing now, like the next generation has begun, and there's almost something sensitive that comes up for me where it's like, that makes them grandparents, that makes them there's a new generation in the family now, and that makes them getting older. And I'm actually starting to tear up thinking about it, because it's like, it's so beautiful, like, I've cried so much this pregnancy, because I'm like, this kid has so much love, like my parents, I've got the best family, and I'm so grateful for it always have been. There's so much love, there's so much excitement, and I'm so hyper sensitive to like, how much I just want to hold on to time, and how I want time to almost slow down. Because now it's like fuck, as I have a child and he grows up, my parents are growing up, and they're grandparents, and they're going to be in their 60s, and they're. And when my child's 10, they'll be in their 70s, and it just feels like, Oh my God. Now time speeds up, and I want it to slow down so I can stamp it and soak it up. And there's something so beautiful about all of it, but there's also been a little bit of like sadness, I suppose, that like the era of family as I know it, as my mom, my dad, my brother and I, it's just changing, and not better or worse, just different. And I suppose I've just been kind of thinking a lot about that and processing that, so that's been, like an emotional part, and then there's been a few identity shifts, and one of them doesn't feel great, because it's in that fuck not knowing energy. I'm really sitting in the not knowing energy of what is next year going to look like, and what am I going to want from my business, and what am I going to want from motherhood? And what is it all and I'm so privileged and I'm so grateful that I actually get to take the time to decide. So it's not like a negative thing, but it's just, you know, when you're someone who's always had a goal and always move toward a goal. It can be a little bit discombobulating to just go up. I'm fully in the surrender of I don't know, and so many people have asked me, What's going to happen with your business? Are you building a school? Are you, like, all these things? And I'm like, honestly, I'm kind of letting life take me for a ride for the next year, because I don't know, and that is equally frustrating and exciting and full of possibilities, but that has been like, I had my girlfriends over for a slumber party last weekend, and we all got the whiteboard out. We took it in turns, like we called it let's, let's. It was un fuck our life, and we were just being funny, because our lives are all great, but we just did this big white storming session, whiteboard brainstorming session, where one by one, we went through all of our like, goals, how we're going to achieve them, all of that. And when it came to me, it was like, I don't know. I don't think it would be smart to create goals right now. Like, yes, I have little micro goals, like I said about pouring into my marriage and looking after my health next year and learning to be a mum, but in terms of, like, my career ambition and all of those bits, like, I don't know, it's a bit of a question mark, and I've got some ideas, and I feel things brewing, and I'm excited about that, but it is that, not knowing. So there's been that. And then the other thing, which I have actually noticed, but I didn't really think about it until my best friend reflected it back to me after that weekend. So after that weekend, my girlfriends left, and one of them messaged me. She's like, I was gonna say to you, like, I feel a shift in you. I wanted to just like reflect that I feel like you've been on a journey for the last few years of giving less fucks, but something has really fucking shifted, and you are giving less fucks, like you just seem so grounded and certain in yourself, and your conviction is really, like, palpable. She was like, and you just seem to, like, be saying exactly what you think more. And I think that I've noticed that too, and I think that's been a perfect storm of so many things. I think the world is fucked, and I worry, not worry. Just see things that I'd like to change and things that I can't actually just let go anymore. Like there's so many things that I don't like about the way the world is heading. And now I'm like, nah, nah. I want to be someone that actually talks about these things. And when you've got a kid coming into the world, I suppose it brings all that up. So I have found that my filter, I'm always in the past, I've been like, oh, I don't want to say anything that could be taken the wrong way or offend people. And now I'm like, You know what? People are going to be offended any fucking way you say it. You can say the most kind thing. You can put out a recipe for a strawberry cheesecake, and there'll be someone on the internet that goes, um, actually, I can't eat strawberries. And it's like, oh, fuck off. Like, do you know that's the world that we're living in, and I'm just not for it anymore. So I think that's been a really cool shift that my girlfriend actually reflected in me. But I have noticed it. I've been writing a few more posts about, you know, my thoughts on the feminism movement and what that does for men and so many other things that are just like, they're just brewing, and I can feel myself being like, No, I've got a child to raise in this world, and I'm going to fucking say more, you know what I mean, whereas before I'd probably be like, say less. You know, keep the peace. Don't offend anyone. And now it's like, yeah, no time for that. So that's all the other little bits and bobs, a few little life prep things. I won't spend too long on this, but we did start our first Hypno birthing class. We've got a lady coming to our house once a week, and we've only done one. And so far, like, it wasn't anything new. Obviously, I've done a lot. Like, I understand the subconscious, I get the purpose of language. It wasn't new. But what I will say, Paul loved it, and took so much from it. He was so impressed, and it was really cool for him to be so actively engaged and like participating. So I've loved that. We've got another session tomorrow, so I'll report back next month about how our Hypno birthing has gone, because we'll be nearly finished by next month. But I think having your partner involved and interested and invested just makes it a. Again, like such a beautiful experience for a relationship. And then the other thing in terms of prep that I've been doing, or how I've been using all of the tools that I teach in my programs in level up your life, in the mind school I have made so if you know, you know right, the most powerful way to reprogram the subconscious is through mental rehearsal and subconscious reprogramming. The only way to do that is through two things, repetition and emotion. So one of the fastest ways to get to emotion and to activate all the senses is to do a visualization that encompasses music. And so music is one of those things that just activates all of our senses. And since I'm so aware of this, I have spent so much time creating this labor playlist that is already anchored with so much positivity, and I'm listening to it on every walk. I'm visualizing the birth. I'm visualizing putting him on my arms. I'm visualizing, visualizing, visualizing. And this baby has already heard these songs so many times. My subconscious has already seen it so many times, and I think when I go into labor, I'm really excited to see how this anchor and this playlist all plays out. And I will be so fucking honest, like I will be so honest when I come back and share my birth and all of those bits and bobs. But I'm really enjoying using birth and labor and prep and all of that to use all the tools that I teach. And so far, I'm absolutely loving Hypno, birthing, anchoring, scripting. I've been doing a lot of scripting about postpartum and how I visualize my postpartum being Yeah. So I will share all of that. There's, like, a couple other things I want to touch on, and they're more business related, and I'm going to do a different episode that unpacks a few of these things, because it's just been so crazy. Honestly, there's been so many lessons, so many things, that I'm like, Whoa. This is here to teach me so much. But one of the things I noticed, firstly, was that, like, my intuition has never felt so strong and so connected. Like I really feel like I've got this sixth sense, and I just It's fucking wild. But what was more interesting than that for me is that in the last I'm going to say, 12 months, I have intentionally and purposefully scaled back my time and capacity within the business, because I was going through IVF, I had so many appointments I was emotionally really drained, and now being pregnant, I just want to, you know, not overdo it and really soak up this time that I've been praying for for years. So I've intentionally scaled back my time in the business, so I'm working very much part time hours, and yet, business has never felt so freaking easy. Like I'm getting inquiries. I sold out a mastermind without fricking advertising it. I'm having like, people reach out that want to work like now there's just so many weird things where I'm like, I energetically am not in a season of hustle. I am just so in a season of, like, gratitude, abundance, trust and yes, I believe there's always both, like, energetics are so important and strategy and all of the things. But this season has just been such an interesting reflection, and what I actually did, which is why I'm going to do a totally separate episode on this. I started to really map out each launch that I've had in my business, and map that with what was going on for me personally, and where my energy and nervous system was at. And it is like a map when my nervous system and like energy was low, launches actually did result. Like launches were a little bit harder, and it's just so interesting, like this reflection where I'm like, gosh, even the last few months, I have made really high, easy cash months and worked, like I said, maybe 20 hours a week, and I've fully maintained my business revenue. Like my business revenue has stayed the same, and I'm working way less. And so there's something in that for me to share in another episode around energetics and really, really thinking like, yes, strategy is important, but there's just been something here that I thought was super interesting. So I'd say the overall lesson insight of the last month has really been like making peace with the in between periods of I don't fully know yet what's coming. I don't fully know what my big goals are. I can't fully be the version of me that feels at her peak in terms of energy, physical exertion, like all of that, I'm in an in between season, but I'm also like, I'm kind of pumped I'm in this season. Of like, I'm gonna call this and I've literally just decided right here and now I'm gonna call this season my metamorphosis, where it's. I'm becoming something so fucking cool, I don't know what it is yet. And while for me, that can be frustrating, I've sort of lived in this a few times throughout my life, and I just know something better always comes, and it's always for a reason. And so I'm using this as a bit of an experiment, and I've sort of just fully taken my hands off the driving wheel, and I've sort of, you know that quote, I don't know if you've heard the quote. I remember my first mentor saying it to me, and he said, just let go and let God. And I was like, what? Like, that didn't really mean much to me at the time, but I get it, and right now I'm in this let go and let God. And I keep saying, show me. Show me. Show me. Like, use me as a vessel. I'm following these curiosities. I'm feeling these real passionate things inside me, fucking brewing. And I actually said to one of my coaches a few months ago, I founded my whole business, my company of pissed offness and passion. And I think over the last few years I've I've not felt that pissed off I've not felt that like pissed offness And lately, and like I said before, I don't know if it's because I'm noticing the world is at this weird, turbulent, strange time, and I'm like, Whoa. There is a lot I want to say, and I don't know where it's all heading, but I just know that there is something brewing, and next year is going to show that to me. So I've been using this pregnancy and next year as a bit of an experiment of, like, show me, show me, show me, show me, use me. Like I say to God, whoever God universe, whoever you are. Like, show me and use me. Use me for your highest good. I know I was put here to do what I'm doing, but I think it's going to get a lot more passionate, a lot more heated, and perhaps bring kids back into the equation. Like I said, I don't know this is my metamorphosis, and it's really fucking exciting. So that is the fifth month of pregnancy. I'm going into the sixth month, and next month I will come back, and I will be able to tell you all about our experience hypnobirthing. We've also got my baby shower, which my best mates are currently planning. Mum is coming up this weekend for us to go for a full shopping spree we're going to put together to the nursery. I'm so excited about that. I guess I'll just keep plodding along with the physical aches and pains and see how they go. So I will be back next month with another episode of The Prego diaries. Thank you so much for being here. Truly, I wouldn't be sharing this if it wasn't such a cool, safe, awesome community here in the podcast listeners. So thank you for listening. And I've really felt the love the last few years in this whole journey, and it feels really cool to be sharing this part of what's been a really long journey. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, and I'll be back next month. Thank

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