This is the first episode! Gisselle is a student in Denver and we talk about life with Miso in college. We also get into when she first noticed she had Miso and what it was like growing up.
Side note - I'm making stickers of the logo for you to slap on (quietly!) to your laptop or wherever you else you like. Email a mailing address to hello@misophoniapodcast.com and I'll send some.
Music is "jltf" by Moby, courtesy of mobygratis.com
Disclaimer: This contents of the podcast should not be taken as medical or therapeutic advice. The opinions expressed are of the host and guest.
This is the first episode! Gisselle is a student in Denver and we talk about life with Miso in college. We also get into when she first noticed she had Miso and what it was like growing up.
Side note - I'm making stickers of the logo for you to slap on (quietly!) to your laptop or wherever you else you like. Email a mailing address to hello@misophoniapodcast.com and I'll send some.
Music is "jltf" by Moby, courtesy of mobygratis.com
Disclaimer: This contents of the podcast should not be taken as medical or therapeutic advice. The opinions expressed are of the host and guest.
spk_0: 0:03
welcome is Episode one. My name's a Deal Lamont and I have missed If oh, nya this week, I'm tucking it yourself from Denver. She was, I think the first person to sign up assumes I dropped some hints about the podcast on Reddit. Remember, if you want to be a guest, just go to Miss. If on your podcast dot com and click to be a guest link too easily, grab a time slot. Most thoughts are booked for the rest of the year, but keep checking back before we get started. Just a reminder that I'm adding some brown noise to the background of all these interviews. In case you're wondering why this sounds so different for other podcasts, I'd love to get your feedback on that or anything but the show. Just email. Hello at Miss a phony, a podcast dot com or through any social channel. I'm getting stickers with the logo and want to give them away, especially early listeners. So if you want to email a mailing address, I'll send you some. All right, that's more than enough from me. Here is my conversation with just sell, so welcome. Just sell. Um, glad to have you here?
spk_1: 1:06
Yeah. Thank you,
spk_0: 1:08
I guess. Let's let's start. Tell me a little bit about you. Like we're in the world. Are you this right? Listeners from everywhere
spk_1: 1:14
right now. I live in Denver, Colorado. I ridge here my whole life.
spk_0: 1:19
So, what do you do? Are you like a student or you work somewhere in an officer?
spk_1: 1:23
Yeah. I go to school downtown. Um, yeah.
spk_0: 1:27
Yes. I was at the at the convention last week in Denver, and there was definitely this the first time they had two tracks. They have actually had a family tractors. There's a lot of students, a lot of people who have problems in school. Um, how is it? I guess that the school you're at
spk_1: 1:43
So now that I have, like, smaller classes now I'm wrapping up my degree. It's a lot better. A lot smaller classes. There's how, like 200 people are 100 people in a lecture. And it's also like older students, too, for the most part. So
spk_0: 1:57
that could be good or bad, but
spk_1: 1:59
yeah, definitely.
spk_0: 2:00
So Okay. And then, um I'm sorry, are you coping with it? Like what? Er, I don't want to get too much into, like, you know, triggers, cause they you know, they can kind of like some people off. Um, well, you know, how do you How do you handle it when I see you got air pods on? So I'm sure having stuff in your ears as as for me is key.
spk_1: 2:20
Yeah, I had never really made the association, but like since my freshman year of school, I've always just have headphones on where I'm walking or on the bus or anything. Yeah, so that's definitely the moment crosses over the ones going, and then it's like that when I'm at the library. On the bus home, always. Yeah. So headphones are definitely super imported. Can't leave the house without
spk_0: 2:44
do you Only have, Do you have Ah, here, Pop. The only airport. You have other form factors.
spk_1: 2:48
So, yeah, I had the beads, like the actual headphones. That that was really nice. And I just like, Yeah, I just have the things I don't use them anymore, but they still work. I'm and I have the beach wireless. Before I got there, Pause. And I like those a lot too.
spk_0: 3:03
Yeah, I always have bluetooth, uh, and then I always have wired to like something that's a wired in case I lose batteries.
spk_1: 3:11
Exactly. They're probably really convenient. So could like the careful charges them. So it's
spk_0: 3:19
so they don't know if you've seen the pros, but the pros, that air, they're coming out next year have the. So for me, they had normally airports don't fit in my ear, but I need the in here, and these ones have him. So I'm like,
spk_1: 3:30
Yeah, I didn't see that on like the also are like saying that the Arno is counting so way
spk_0: 3:38
interesting to see how they do that with. Yeah, well, I guess if they're in here, it'll be easier to noise. Cancel. But
spk_1: 3:43
I switched the
spk_0: 3:44
picture because I needed to keep. I wanted to keep the, you know, the small headphone jack. So, yeah, Google's coming out with something later this year, too. So I'm excited about that.
spk_1: 3:53
No, it's quoting here that it's, like, no completely obsolete the audio, Jack.
spk_0: 3:58
Yep. For now, at least. Definitely. So I guess, uh, so, yeah, that's kind of how you're coping with It s o going back. Like, how long have you have? You had this.
spk_1: 4:09
Um, So, like, as far as I could remember, because I had I have two younger brothers. They're actually my half brothers. So they're stepped at Lake. I feel like he was the first person that would really triggered me. Just like you with the mouth. Oh, van and And it really, really know evey and just, like, really gross. And then my brothers, like, he modelled that behavior for them, and then they would do the same. So I'd be sitting there and it would be like two or three of the men, I think. Oh, my God. And then yeah, and then absolutely,
spk_0: 4:41
Mom to Noor was the meeting your dad.
spk_1: 4:44
So my stuff done. One eating? Yeah. My mom, We're just kind of like, be making, like, solid 30th and that kind of bugged me are like, Yeah, but mostly myself down brothers really so late? Probably the biggest sugars, like chewing and hearing an evening. Like seeing people chew their mouth opener Hearing it, that's probably the biggest one.
spk_0: 5:06
You know, that's interesting. And I just remember just a few days ago at the convention, they're like almost 10 of us around some table and everybody's first triggers with her dad specifically
spk_1: 5:19
like, Yeah, he's like my step dad. So there's even more like Trump. Sister. Yeah, he's just like the volatile person. All in also. Yeah, And then I had never really like today I took, um, some survey questions for a study about that. Like someone's asking for people to take a survey in the Sinfonia. I'll read it. So I took it. And then you have ask him, Like, who? Tribute? I had never really that this person was just an awful person in my life, period. So it's kind of crazy.
spk_0: 5:51
So your relationship outside of the miss phony is not was not ideal saying it. This is just gonna adds to it, or it's just
spk_1: 5:59
I feel like this where it began. And then it kind of followed me elsewhere. Yeah, Yeah. Even at work, hearing people legally, you it's a lot. Yeah, or tapping of stuff in class. Two people shaking their leg. I could see it and hear it lost dio off in the front of the class, always. Oh, yeah, yeah,
spk_0: 6:21
so you can take your right. So it's another thing that came up that I know It's a visual. Triggers a company, misinform you a lot. And I'm hearing more of that. Or at least it's being identified. Like people trying are starting Make that connection
spk_1: 6:33
over percent. Yeah,
spk_0: 6:34
there are. Yeah. Pardon Purcell going going back to your I'm just curious when you first kind of like when they first aren't bothering you. How did you How did you handle it, then? Obviously you don't know what the term is. A phony awas. I was doing that. Were you confused? Was like, Oh, this is definitely the mobile. Did you ever feel guilty? Like I'm, you know,
spk_1: 6:56
kind of yes. Really yelling and reveal yourself. But then I also have lake. When I was growing up with that, I was like, It's a manner thing. Like manners, Like an etiquette being, like, just pleased you with your mouth closed early. Please don't smack your So that's not like I thought it was like people don't have table manners. Yeah, but yeah.
spk_0: 7:15
And then and three triggers. Then in the end, in your life, kind of expand beyond that. Then you see that yapping and
spk_1: 7:24
yeah, definitely even like breathing sometimes even like elementary school like we'd be taking, like, a standardized exam. Right? And they never would have to be quiet. Yeah, someone's breathing. Or like, just like bottle noises. Like the body aches, right? Yeah, yeah,
spk_0: 7:40
yeah. Ah, about that yet. It's still. I guess so. You know, you you accommodate it. We'll need to cope with it with headphones. Are does the school do any kind of accommodations for you? Have you talked to anybody there or is it just like you're bombing it up for now?
spk_1: 7:56
Yeah, kind of Morley me just dealing with it. And then also, um, I would say, like, maybe less than a year ago, I was officially diagnosed. A th de eso like that has helped me, like, get back on track in terms of college. I haven't asked any accommodations in terms of that, but I feel like I should like saying that to be able to take it complete silence would just help a lot. So I should definitely reach out to the disability section of my institution and check that out.
spk_0: 8:26
Yeah, cares about that. So you were diagnosed officially with a DHD. Any official diagnosis with from miss a phony A through I don't know audiologist or anybody, or that's just not
spk_1: 8:37
Not great yet. Um, yeah, Just, like, definitely. Just all diagnosed, like the real thing. Yeah, but you actually have not barred up with, um Oh, my therapist. I definitely should do that.
spk_0: 8:52
And it has these, so whatever. No, You know, I don't know what you're defensive we're doing for a D h d. I'm just curious. Has do you think, um, is that getting better? And it has working on the DHD. Helped me so at all. Or is
spk_1: 9:08
it separate? So you medicated has helped me a lot. So we're treating it in that way, and it's helped me a lot. Um, and just, like, actually being able to focus in class kind of direct my focus a little bit better, but yeah, I think it helped not pay attention to the noises my classmates are making. Especially if I'm sitting at the front and stuff like that. Um, that help also just feel like in this this one class I have, There's not just many people don't eat and stuff in class that just like, takes away the issue to begin away,
spk_0: 9:39
right? Yeah, It's interesting. I'm not a therapist, but whoa! When we were at the convention that one of the bartenders think singing someone thing where she's like, I can hear everything across the room, everything seems that gets the same volume. And, um, I want to Hoover, one of the therapists there, said, No, I tell my patients, is to listen to, like, extremely loud music and just your years of two cents that have just dead in them. Yeah, I wouldn't I wouldn't You know, I'm not going to tell anybody to do that. It doesn't just an interesting thing, and she's quite serious about it. So, um,
spk_1: 10:08
yeah, I mean, if anything, I feel like I've aided in like my hearing loss because I would like when I was younger and fall asleep with, like, headphones on. And my probably don't do that like it's not the leg you have always like loud music. And so, but regardless, still, like trigger sounds still want, and I could still hear them. So yeah, but loud music, it's always turned away. It does help a lot on public transportation and stuff,
spk_0: 10:33
so obviously it sounds like you know your family doesn't doesn't seem like Yeah. Know much about it? Uh, yeah. Do you have anyone else around who are supported? Like, have you told other people, or is it just completely just just to see you Basically.
spk_1: 10:48
Yeah. So I shared with me Was like my brother, but not usually no ex people just doesn't come off like the top of my head to bring it up.
spk_0: 10:57
It's not extreme. Your
spk_1: 10:58
yeah, or if they are making this noise, I go out of my way to just my husband gone or myself from the situation, or like, leave. But, um Well, yeah, I feel bad. Like telling people a k please don't eat like this or that. Like, I feel I would feel guilty like telling them. So look, I just remove myself from the situation.
spk_0: 11:19
So how did the So maybe How did how did you self diagnose initially? Did you just read it? Did you go for it, or did you come across an article or something?
spk_1: 11:26
Yeah, I came across like something that was like, Oh, this this thing is like of this order. And I was like, Oh, my God, There's a name for this thing. Like I didn't have to like, kind of like it was like, Oh, no, this is There's a name for this thing and I know I have the these triggers in the issue. So
spk_0: 11:44
how did it make you feel? It was like a relief? Or was it like emotionally, just like Oh my God, this is explained so much. And I'm
spk_1: 11:50
just I definitely feel like it's a relief. Definitely what I learned these, like beings or that could explain, like, disorder that, like put everything Yeah, make everything makes sense. So yes, I was like, Okay, it's not entirely my fault. I'm being irrationally. I'm not the only warrant. I'm not just crazy. So that was nice, but yeah, I mean, just like reading about that. There's not really, like much to do other than, like control our response to stimuli, stimuli. That kind of a lake butters, we under no
spk_0: 12:20
right so and in your readings, like have you? Obviously this year this headphones, But better there was like a one track. There's one. Uh, yeah, there's one lecture or talked last week about like strength CBD. There's devices you can put in that or not, Um, not iPods, but they're like just a white noise kind of things. Have you gone to that? Leads to kind of, like, research other stuff or just get well, you know, they had enough. I mean, me personally. Like Evans Air kind of enough from me, for now at least. And Aiken, remove myself from the situation too. Um, excuse you, if you know, if you've heard of other mechanisms or try anything or curious.
spk_1: 12:59
Yeah, sure. So actually, a few weeks ago, I, like, came across something like an article or some talking about, Like, white noise and brown noise and pink noise. It was like, Okay, well, it was more like help focus right now. Lovely kind of injury. Like looking up things to help me, um, be more efficient with my study time. So I came across this, Yeah, and then actually really like it. I really like pink noise and brown eyes that are lower frequency. So, yeah. Did you like those things? A lot. Um, I always have my found on in my room, and I didn't realize that that is being that. That what, you know, individualized counsel, um, kind of awesome. You're like, Okay, that's cool. Yeah, I definitely will do that. Helps again. Like when the library trying. You really does help walk out?
spk_0: 13:46
Yeah, definitely. So the this this podcast. I'm planning to put Brian noise in the background just because I don't know what we're gonna hear. So I might drive me crazy or the sound like we're basically in a rainforest or something, or I might actually use a beach sand. I'll be the first podcast to have, like, uh, injected sound, I think would be
spk_1: 14:12
That would be really cool. Yeah, I like that in our control for a lot of, like sounds. Yeah, 100%. They
spk_0: 14:20
called it like I asked, I guess. What would you like in the background? And everyone is kind of different death metal to be just white noise.
spk_1: 14:27
Yeah, maybe have beans. Yeah, that'd be kind of cool. Uh, well, you listen to a podcast even here. All of these things in the back. Yeah,
spk_0: 14:35
yeah, yeah. Do it Exactly. So Okay, so there's nobody else. So you don't have any friends or that have it too, or you have any meet ups, so I know I went to the convention last week, but I was curious if there, if you reached out need ups and stuff. One thing that I've noticed that well, that since the last convention is there has been kind of a push. Maybe that's one way of knowing your podcast have more like in real life kind of like meet ups. Because people have found that these conversations kind of like I just wanna get together. Just kind of helps a lot. I'm just curious if you looked around in Denver first stuff like that or
spk_1: 15:09
yeah, actually, I do have, like, a coworker when we touched on this topic. And yeah, we both are Lake, actually, Yeah, we're very sensitive to these things. And then it kind of funny because, like like when we eat together, it's like, both very mindful, almost Riley, like we don't want to. Unconscious of the way I eat Riggs. I would hate for other people to feel like I I almost imagine other people hear that amplified as I do or react the same way. So it's kind of funny. Yeah, how She also has these feelings. So yeah, how she carries herself around like dying of is interesting.
spk_0: 15:46
The interesting thing about being at the convention of, like the first time that we were out. Especially mindful causes. So just kind of like being the other person's shoes. Exactly. It's in your your other coworker. Uh, do you mind if I know what kind of work that is? But
spk_1: 16:03
I'm sure, um, yeah, You're my friend's baby together, so Yeah.
spk_0: 16:07
Oh, interesting. So I'm just curious. Like what? Yeah, well, got you got.
spk_1: 16:11
You got a bold, like teeth, Ian. Yeah,
spk_0: 16:13
right. It's curious because, you know, some, like, if you're sitting in a cubicle, that could be a terrible thing. But if you're Big King
spk_1: 16:20
Yeah. Very musical. Yeah, we're hanging out doing stuff. Yeah, I think I could just remove myself like people start eating. Just, like leave. Go somewhere else outside. Put my headphones on if they're not already in. Yeah,
spk_0: 16:34
well, that could be part of the therapy, too. I mean, I didn't set into one of those, you know, Tuck on CBD Cool. Tried bad as a therapy yet, but I was quite curious, so that would be interesting, but kind of like working with your work. Some potential therapies for this?
spk_1: 16:52
Yeah, definitely. Um, I used to teach the regularly, but, um, I've never thought about it. I like to use that therapeutically for this. Yeah, that'd be kind of cool. Yeah, Yeah,
spk_0: 17:05
for that. I'm still kind of researching that stuff too, but, uh, yeah, there might be something there, but, you know, this is a neurological. This is a neurological thing. Ultimately, so that we're still early in the research for that, but, uh yeah, Well, um, yeah. So I know a lot of people are out there who are used to bottling this up, so they're building. I'm gonna benefit from hearing this and we'll be
spk_1: 17:31
under pressure. I'm excited to hear about others experiences.
spk_0: 17:35
Well, obviously I'll be talking about, like, this convention and immediate one upcoming next year. I think would be cool to have. Yeah, you can try to make up the feeling that would be
spk_1: 17:45
Definitely That'd be cool. Yeah. No. Yeah. Check that out. Would be really cool. Thio, learn that it's continued to learn more about this than yet. Definitely. Want to check it out?
spk_0: 17:58
Cool. Well, yet thanks so much for being on
spk_1: 18:02
this episode
spk_0: 18:03
of this new miss. Funny. A podcast,
spk_1: 18:05
of course. No, thank you. for doing this and thank you for having me.
spk_0: 18:09
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