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So if you"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3565.12,"endTime":3569.38,"body":"could, if you could get one"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3569.38,"endTime":3571.54,"body":"message to people that are"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3569.38,"endTime":3571.54,"body":"listening today, what's, what's"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3571.54,"endTime":3574.3,"body":"the most important thing to take"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3571.54,"endTime":3574.3,"body":"away from our conversation?"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3577.84,"endTime":3581.68,"body":"I feel that"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3577.84,"endTime":3581.68,"body":"right now, it's coming through,"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3581.68,"endTime":3588.3,"body":"is that it's so important right"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3581.68,"endTime":3588.3,"body":"now to be very, very kind and"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3588.3,"endTime":3595.38,"body":"gentle with yourself through all"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3588.3,"endTime":3595.38,"body":"the things that you're being"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3595.92,"endTime":3605.3,"body":"given to face, deal with, look"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3595.92,"endTime":3605.3,"body":"at, walk through it. 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Enjoy the rest of your"},{"speaker":"Brian Smith","startTime":3774.84,"endTime":3774.96,"body":"day."},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3775.32,"endTime":3777.54,"body":"Thank you. You"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3775.32,"endTime":3777.54,"body":"too, Brian, thank you so much"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3777.54,"endTime":3780.0,"body":"for having me. Thank you,"},{"speaker":"Mary D'agostino","startTime":3777.54,"endTime":3780.0,"body":"everyone. Bye."}]}