Doorway To Life | ACIM Deep Dive @ Bellingham, WA | December 10, 2025

What if “the last judgment” isn’t a cosmic trial but a daily practice that restores your peace? We dive into the end of ACIM Chapter 2, Section 13, and flip an old fear on its head: judgment becomes discernment, the simple act of keeping what is loving and letting go of what isn’t. When “last” means the end of illusion—not the end of life—you stop bracing for punishment and start walking through a doorway to real aliveness.

We explore how fear shrinks awareness and makes survival thinking feel like reality. The shift is practical and immediate: notice the thought that contracts your energy, recognize it hurts, and release it. You can’t judge your Self—because you didn’t create your Self—but you can apply perfect judgment to what you made: stories, identities, and interpretations. Real memory keeps only what is good; it heals without erasing, so even painful scenes can be remembered without blame or victimhood. This is forgiveness that actually works.

Time takes on a single purpose: a safe buffer for correction, moment by moment. Every minute is an invitation to choose again—love over fear, innocence over guilt, clarity over confusion. Perfect judgment isn’t moral superiority; it’s clean seeing that recognizes illusion as illusion. As you retain only the lovable, fear loses its foothold. Relationships soften, defensiveness drops, and you feel bigger than the problem—free to embrace whatever appears. That’s your part in the atonement: keep what is loving, release what is not, and let perception be corrected now.

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Chapters

• 0:00 Opening Prayer And Setup
• 2:52 Ego’s Scary Version Of Judgment
• 5:15 Discernment: Real Versus Unreal
• 11:15 “Last” Means Life, Not Death
• 20:00 Restoration Over Punishment
• 29:36 Fear, Aliveness, And The Present
• 42:54 You Don’t Judge Yourself
• 50:00 Keeping Only What Is Good
• 1:02:40 Time’s Sole Purpose: Correction
• 1:14:00 Perfect Judgment Of What You Made
• 1:26:20 Retaining Love Heals Memory
• 1:37:20 No Fear When Only Love Remains
• 1:48:00 Your Part In The Atonement
• 2:00:00 Closing Gratitude And Logistics

Transcript

SPEAKER_01: 0:05

Yay. Aloha, and welcome to ACIM Deep Dive, where we're gonna be covering the end of chapter two, section thirteen. I believe we're on the last judgment. Um, yes, we're still finishing. Let me just double check that. The last judgment. Yes. So let's get going. But first, what we're gonna do is open up with a prayer. Yay! To help us see so clearly. Ah thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you, Jesus, thank you, God, thank you, Holy Spirit, thank you for being the voice for truth in our mind. Thank you for your identity as us, in us, through us, helping us to see the truth of who we are and be relieved of all guilty concepts and uh this secret desire for punishment, too. Yes, thank you for helping us see beyond that to the truth of who we are, and may this session bring us so much closer to you. There's always uh we know there's always room to be closer and closer as we're perceiving until perception is gone. And thank you so much for always being with us in us as the light that we are, and let's go. Amen. I love you, thank you. Yay, yay, thank you, Billy. You can't hear me, hmm. Maybe your thing is mute. Maybe it's possible because I should be heard. If you can't hear me though, and you're on Substack, you can cruise over to Zoom. If anyone else can't hear me, let me know. Usually people do. Yay! I'll put the Zoom link on Substack just in case. I know this by heart now. Case you're wondering, it's bit.ly forward slash love is one. That's the link to all the ACIM deep dives and wisdom dialogues that I ever schedule. So, yay!

SPEAKER_00: 2:46

Let's get going.

SPEAKER_01: 2:52

Okay, so we're in the section called The Last Judgment. That is section 13 of chapter two, and we're gonna go over the last couple paragraphs here. That's gonna be paragraphs seven and eight. We went through six last time, and what we went over was the ego's idea of the last judgment being rooted in fear and punishment and condemnation. And that's why people are generally afraid of the last judgment. It's an assumption that God judges the same way ego does, judging through guilt and rep retribution, retribution. Like it's as if you've if you've been good your whole life, then you get to go to this uh beautiful heaven place. If not, you're in trouble. That entire idea is just a projection onto God by the ego. That doesn't mean anything at all. Uh, because God just doesn't ever judge, doesn't condemn, doesn't punish. That is just not something that God would do at all or needs to do. Um, there's just no reason for that because God sees everyone exactly as you were created. All right. So uh so that idea is getting exposed and resolved through this set through this section. So judgment as it's being presented here is the last judgment. That's how the Holy Spirit uses it. The Holy Spirit is the voice for God. And, you know, a closer meaning would be discernment between what's real and unreal. Okay, this is the kind of judgment we're looking at here. This is the kind of judgment we want to employ, and this is what's being called the last judgment. It's discernment between what's real and unreal. So nothing real is being judged. An illusion is being judged, and it's only being judged as meaningless, it's not being judged as sinful. Okay. Uh, nothing's getting punished at all. There's no nothing getting punished. Yes, something is being judged, and that's an illusion being judged as such. You might also call it discernment between what's real and unreal. So, what most people do is picture a courtroom scene, kind of like a courtroom scene in the future, where the last judgment comes upon them. It's not like that at all, it's an inner correction that you do. You know, whenever you let your mind let go of false belief, this is a willingness. It's not like you're on trial. Your true identity or your true identity just can't be judged at all. This is only undoing mistakes in your perception that make it seem like you're something that's susceptible to judgment. So the last judgment is actually release of misperception. And it's a process. We were shown that it's a process. Um, not that it needs a process, but the unwillingness in the mind needs a process. All right. So the final judgment is the moment when there's no value of illusion at all. And that's something that seems to take a process just because so much meaning is put onto illusions. So now we're reaching paragraph seven, and this is what's already clear up to this point in time in the text. God, uh God is freed of all projections. This is what this is what is expected to be clear to us, like freeing God of all projection. We're no longer, we're no longer projecting onto God as if God is projecting onto us. Okay. Punishment being removed from the idea of judgment. That's what we did in these past uh paragraphs. And the last judgment being revealed to us as correction, not condemnation. So something we really want. It's something we want, not something that we're trying to get ourselves to be worthy of so we don't get the wrong judgment, right? Something we want right now. Always comes down to now. All right. So let's jump into sentence one of paragraph seven. And again, we're in the complete annotated edition of A Course in Miracle that came out in 2021. And here's the sentence the term, quote, last judgment, is frightening, not only because it has been falsely projected onto God, but also because of the association of last with death. Okay, so this fear, all fear comes from the ego. There's no fear in God at all. So if you find any fear of the last judgment, that's not coming from God, meaning it's not a true thought of yours. It's it's an ego thought, it's a fearful thought, always means that's not your real thought, although you may identify it, identify with it temporarily. Okay. So this always comes from the ego's projection, this idea that the last judgment is fearful. And that's the ego's belief in punishment. Also, not a real thought of yours. There's no such thing as punishment. That's an ego belief. So egos believe in attack and guilt. That's what an ego does. It's like attacking and guilting. That's it. So it expects judgment. The ego is always expecting judgment. And what happens when you identify with expectation of judgment? You perceive it. You end up perceiving it. It seems like other people are judging you, even. That's not possible. That's an effect of thinking against yourself. Everyone's only capable of loving you. Okay. Ego projects judgment onto God and calls that divine justice. Even projecting judgment onto someone else, like God would judge them, someone that you think is doing wrong in the world. That's the opportunity to bring that back to truth and be at peace. Because there's no way you can be at peace while you're projecting judgment for anyone. God is never scary to your mind. God does not frighten your mind. That's always the ego. And the ego makes you think you're afraid of God, but you're not afraid of God. God is just love. God is the truth of who you are and your true being. You know this love. So the word last in here, let's see the sentence again. The term last judgment is frightening, not only because it has been falsely projected onto God, but also because the association of last with death. So the ego automatically links this last with death, finality, your annihilation. This is not what last actually means. Last is not the end of life here, it's the end of illusion. You could say it's the beginning of life. All right. I think a couple sentences down the road he's going to talk about when you're uh in fear, you're not even alive. So to be released from fear is to begin your life, and you know, fear seeming to be there is only because the illusion still feels valuable to an ego. So it's in recognizing you're not the ego, you're able to get released from that fear. The ego is always afraid of losing what it believes protects it. It thinks it's protecting you because it identifies as you, it's protecting you, but not really protecting you. It's pretend protection. Okay, because it's only protecting an image that you made, something that makes you fearful in the first place. So the last judgment is the letting go of that fear, it's allowing misidentification to be released and go back to truth. Nothing's gonna die in this. You're gonna live. Only what wasn't real, your illusions, your fearful ideas, are going to be resolved. Of course, to the ego, that feels like death because that's the ego's job. That's the job you assign to it to protect you from knowing the truth, as if the truth would annihilate you. But that's not actually true, and that's what these sentences are meant to be uh reinterpreting for you. So once again, the term last judgment is frightening, not only because it has been falsely projected onto God, but also because of the association of last with death. So we're gonna start associating last with life now. Yes, eternal life extended everywhere. That's the true joy, that's what allows you to live in ecstasy while still having an apparent body in an apparent world, okay? It's a beautiful way to experience it. So, unless anyone has any questions there, we go. Sentence two of paragraph seven. The idea of the last judgment is really one of restoration, not destruction. That's the sentence. The idea of the last judgment is really one of restoration, not destruction. Meaning also not punishment, not destroying anything. It's only just revealing that what you thought to be true, that hurt your mind, that caused you pain, is not a real thought. It's a meaningless thought. So, in that, this the thought is resolved. Do you see how that would be associated with something being destroyed? Because now that thought isn't something that is automatically believed and allowed to run the show for you. This is illusion being undone, and that's the point of this course. So, restoration means restoring right perception to your mind, restoring awareness that there's only innocence for me, for you, for every living being. There's no such thing as anything that is sinful. Anything or anyone, nothing is sinful, no circumstance, nothing. So it's restoring your awareness to what's always been true. Again, the idea of the last judgment is really one of restoration, not destruction. And the reason why that's being pointed out is because the ego automatically imagines that this is a destructive event. But Jesus is gently retraining our mind here to see the last judgment as something we want, a healing event. Not as the end of life, but the end of misperception, which is what we all want. Or misperceiving when anything seems to be fearful or threatening, any kind of lack, any kind of scarcity, lack of love, meanness, anything like that. The restoration is really returning our mind to sanity. It's the one movement. This rest restoration is the one movement where the mind recognizes only love is real and nothing else ever happened. That's it. Nothing's been taken from you, nothing has ever been punishing to you. Only what was not true is released. And you know what comes into play for me here is earlier in chapter two, Jesus was talking about how you can't see it because you're afraid of it. If you're afraid of it, you won't see it. The unconscious mind is really an unwatched mind. He also said that it's reasonable that you're fearful of the of the unconscious mind. It is the source of fright. But when you recognize who goes with you and why you're looking at it, you can see it without being so reactive to it. You're still going to recognize the fearful uh energies crossing through your awareness, but not be identified with them and let that make you afraid of looking. So this is how the mind is being restored to its original clarity. You know, it's it's required in order to see the original clarity and in order to identify with that and know it, that these unless unholy thoughts that are in the unconscious mind are seen in the light of truth and resolved. Otherwise, they're blocking the truth. They're like veils over what's actually true. And that's why they require resolution. And that's why the last judgment is such good news. This is where fear disappears from the mind that we made separate. And as that disappears, this the sense of separation resolves and resolves and resolves until you just find yourself in perfect union with yourself. You know, this union is a relationship that was formed as soon as God created you. God created you for relationship with him, and you are actually God as well as the creation, which we can get into later. It's fine to see the two as being separate right now, as you're learning uh here in only chapter three, which I believe there's like 30 chapters to go. So hooray. Yeah. All right. Let's do sentence three of paragraph seven. Actually, if the last judgment is examined objectively, it is quite apparent that is that it is really the doorway to life. So actually, if the last judgment is examined objectively, meaning without the ego's input, it is quite apparent that it is really the doorway to life. So the idea of examining objectively, that's without fear. And that's when everything changes. Examining without fear. And that's why these last paragraphs have built up to undoing the fear of the last judgment. Right. Objectivity means without ego interpretation, meaning without guilt, without some inherited religious. Right? Because religion's been saying for quite a long time now, God is the judge. God's gonna judge you. In the end, God's gonna judge everyone. And of course, the ego takes that as a fearful thing. And truthfully, God's not gonna judge anyone. God doesn't need any judgment, it's not necessary for the one who knows his creation. What would judgment even be for? It makes no sense. So without the ego's interpretation of the last judgment, the meaning is totally flipped. Instead of being a sentence where someone else, some other being, decides whether you go to heaven or you burn in the lake of fire. You realize it's not a sentence on myself. It's something that I do. I walk through this doorway. This is me going through this metaphoric doorway. Every time I invoke the last judgment, and this is the doorway to life, my life. This is a doorway to eternal life. And it brings everyone into this eternal life. I had an interesting experience uh yesterday with my with my friend Billy's sister. You know, I'm just like being in awareness of eternal life, I'm being in awareness of timelessness, um, and and in awareness of eternity, right? So when she asked me how old I was, I say, Well, apparently I'm 53, but I'm actually I'm an eternal being just like you. And I just saw it land. It just landed, and she even teared up. She's like, Oh my goodness, you just said that. And it and I go, I know that's because you know it. I'm speaking to the part of you that knows it. Right? Everyone's pretending that we're not eternal, even when we just asked each other our age. It's funny because in in America, in English language, let's say, you say I'm such and such years old. And every time we talk, that's a spell. We're putting, we're laying spells down. Yeah. So it occurred to me quite a long time ago, uh, maybe a few years ago, I'm not sure. I don't just, when someone asks me my age, I don't just say my age without acknowledging that we're eternal. You know, it's like the way we say it here is I uh I'm this year's old. And uh, like in Spanish, it's saying I have this many years. The the language is different. It's like I have this in uh English, I am this. You know, the Spanish one makes a lot more sense because it's like I have this much experience in this lifetime. I am not something that can age despite appearances, right? It's not like I'm expecting that the only way this is true is that I constantly look like I'm 20 in the illusion. It's knowing it's true despite illusions. All right, illusions don't need to be proven as untrue in that way where you're trying to uh force yourself to look younger so you can look eternal. It's not that, it's recognizing what's true, irrespective of whatever illusions are being shown to you, you know, in this case wrinkles or whatever it seems to be. So you can say that, you know, just acknowledging that we are eternal beings, that's the last judgment. That's the that's what you could say is uh part of that process, the last judgment being a process in illusions where we just keep on waking up to what the truth is. And I love it when I happen to share someone and it seems like someone else just woke up because that's also my mind. I don't feel like I need to gather everyone and get them to believe like me, right? Even when it comes to these talks, it's not like I have a choice in that. That's where the joy is. I'm just allowing everything to go in uh like in sequence, or you can say in the flow of what joy is. Okay. So there's nothing for us to do, even to gather others. It's just a matter of uh looking at and recognizing what's true. So when illusions play, you're always ready to see it differently, and in that others automatically see it differently as well. Sometimes they get released, sometimes they get triggered and seem to be against you. It's all great, it's all the same. It's all love, yes. Thank you, Billy. So the last judgment as a doorway. I love that part of the sentence. It is quite apparent that it is really the doorway to life. I love walking through that doorway to life again and again. It's beautiful. Yes, it looks like an ending to the ego, but the ego starts to calm down about it after a while, right? The ego is only projecting, uh protecting you from fear. And so as long as you're identified as something that's fearful, you need that protection from the ego, apparently. That's what it believes, and that's why its counsel seems to make sense. For me, the ego's counsel just doesn't make any sense. That quiets it down, it's kind of giving this the ego this uh uh this leeway to just relax. Nothing bad is happening to you. Always reassuring, too. Hey, nothing bad is gonna happen to you. You're just gonna be reabsorbed into what you've always been, the source from whence you came. Yeah, it's beautiful. So the last mo the last judgment is that instant where fear is suspended, guilt is suspended, misidentification is suspended. All right, eventually it leads to all of this being final. It's final. Well, you can also call it the final judgment, meaning nothing else that comes later that that speaks of something different is uh granted any access as far as truth is concerned. We can look on it but not believe it. So, what happens when the last judgment is finished? Life remains exactly as it actually is, not the way you made it. You're living without defense, you're living without self-attack, you're living without opposition. That means anything you seem to say or do, and anything anyone else seemed to say or do is looked upon as helpful. It's not seen as any kind of loss or any kind of offense or anything like that. So the ego hears last and thinks lost. Or you're gonna lose something, you're gonna lose yourself. The spirit hears last and knows freedom. So start to listen to that voice that says, ah, this is a call for the last judgment. Hooray! What a fun opportunity. This is a doorway to your life, and through this doorway you see that there's nothing to fear or defend against, and there's nothing anyone's gonna be punished for. This is basically the crossing point, is what Jesus is saying. He's talking about this doorway. It's the it's a crossing point between illusion and life, fear and love, creation and miscreation.

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So everything begins here.

SPEAKER_01: 28:49

At the last judgment. It's not the ending, it's the beginning. Where everything real begins, everything unreal has ended. Yay! All right, let me just check on you, sweeties. Yay, Danny. Thank you for joining, my love. Okay. Paragraph seven, sentence four. Sentence four already reading awesome. This is fun. No one who lives in fear is really alive. What a fun sentence. What a fun sentence. Yes, I would say that's a true non-player character. If you look at it through a video game lens, uh, whoever lives in fear is not really alive. That's why a lot of the times people look like they're going around uh kind of like half here, because their mind is focused on all these apparent problems and situations and relationships and all these thoughts. So they can't be here present. You look at their eyes, and their eyes look like they are absent. That's because they're caught up in thoughts. That's what fear does. It gets you in future and past thinking and completely out of the present moment. What I love about the present moment is how much joy is here. And it's not anywhere else. It's the only uh place, you could say place, it's not really a place, but place to find it. Okay. And what that looks like to me is where my energy field, my body's energy field, which I can sense, okay, that sense of self is open rather than contracted. Okay. So that means I could sense uh what the clothing feels like on my skin for one thing, right? Any air that seems to be blowing, the hair on my head, I could feel uh energetic sensations going all through the body's energy field. That is where uh that is where this uh uh this truth lives in the present moment when you're actually being the experience instead of listening to narration about the experience. See, so it's beyond words. No one who lives in fear is really alive. So fear is it's not just an emotion in the ego's energy field. What's being called an emotion, and you know, emotion here is anything short of gratitude. Okay, this is actually a state, it's a mental state of contraction, and you can sense it in the body's energy field, and people feel you when you're in a state of contraction. So to live in fear, he's saying no one who lives in fear is really alive, so that's living in defensiveness. See, there's defensive thoughts arising. Here's one, here's one. You're imagining a conversation where you're defending your actions to someone. That's just it's just fun to just smile at it. It's not a big deal. You don't have to be living in in defense. Oh, that's that's what Jesus was talking about about living in fear and not being alive. I choose life right now, living in anticipation of loss. That's another, you know, like if I don't get this, something might go wrong or something like that. That's another one. And you know, these thoughts, they just come up, it's kind of like they come up like an arc in the mind, and then they resolve, sort of, they just go back under in the unconscious, and another one comes right back up. Most people do not have a break here, even between these thoughts. The break comes with recognizing that these thoughts don't mean anything. Oh, that's that live in fear thought again, right? Protective mode, needing to secure your future. A lot of thoughts go to how much money do I have, especially as people seem to be getting on in age. They try to uh they try to anticipate how many years they got left and how much money they need and set something up like that. You know, that those kinds of thoughts. Not necessary. Those thoughts are not necessary. Uh something like that may evolve and seem to be played out, but just you thinking about it is not a necessary thing. Okay, you don't have to secure your own life. Your life in God is secure. And as long as you're really alive, as in not living in fear, you're going to recognize that your sustenance comes from God. And there's nothing for you to secure on your own. See, the ego calls all this stuff being alive. Thinking about defensiveness, uh, your lot, you know, anticipation of loss, protecting yourself, okay, building threats. That's what the ego calls being alive. But what Jesus is saying that this is no life at all. And I'll tell you what, this is something the way the ego, uh, the the way the ego runs your life and presents all these thoughts, these are what are considered being alive from a nervous system perspective as well. This is what's considered being alive. It becomes addictive to have a thought where you're anticipating loss. It actually becomes addictive because of identifying with the idea that that's life. So when you're first practicing this, it seems like it takes a lot of effort to just see through it. But all you really need is a little nod of willingness. You know, you may not see it or get it right away, but as you're consistently offering that nod of willingness, that grows and you become more and more willing and just wanting to be alive and not dead, right? Jesus is saying that this ego way of living is not even life at all. And that's because fear is narrowing your awareness down. It's narrowing your awareness of what's truth, it's fragmenting your perception. This is basically death. And you know, that fear of hell uh that seems to be in the unconscious mind. This is exactly what uh what hell would look like. This being dead and not alive, right? That's it, that's as hellish as that's as hellish as you can get to trudge through life being dead instead of alive. So what you want is heaven now. What you want is eternal life right now, so that you're really alive. You have a real life going on here. So what the ego calls life and what's life to the ego is really survival, it's management. Okay, it's control, it's trying to control things and endurance. Oh, I just gotta push through this. A lot of what this is push through this, like let's say you seem to have a bunch of work to do right now, and you're gonna get back to your spirituality later. I'm just gonna push this. Is I an idea, the work can go. That doesn't matter. That's the that's nothing, it doesn't mean anything. But to you it means something because it seems like that's how you get money and support your family. So, in that in that case, if that's the case, you gotta work. You don't you don't have a choice in it. Well, you're not really doing anything, either way. So this is where you know, this actually comes into play in the experience. It's recognizing, oh, I'm thinking while I'm working, I'm thinking in terms of survival, management, control, scarcity, endurance. I gotta endure this. That's not true. Real life is open, it doesn't matter what you seem to be doing on the surface. It's expansive, it's creative, it's joined, it's feeling free. You know, and that freedom, it's sometimes it's hard to see, especially where it feels like you have all this work to do and you seem like you don't want to do it. It doesn't feel free, does it? I know I've definitely been there, right? But freedom isn't in the mind, it is also uh is in the mind. Uh, freedom is only in the mind, it's not in the appearances. The appearances are an effect of what you've believed up to this point. So the freedom and the joining is in your ability to recognize that your mind is free. And in this moment, you're making miracles. You're being in a miracle, miracle state of mind where you can see past everything that's saying you're trapped because of what you seem to be doing, and because of what you seem to have to do. The only trap is in the mind. This is where you get free. Now, look, this means that eventually, somewhere down the road, when your mind is more aware that you're sustained by the love of God, you're also not gonna have that contradiction where you seem to be doing something that you don't want to do. Because this change of the mind, this mind training actually has effects. It does have effects, but it's gonna take longer to show those effects when you you decide, okay, as long as I have to work to support myself, I'm mad at God, all these different things. This is what you made. This is why you have to play it out. Otherwise, you're gonna make yourself super fearful because you still believe in it. So, as you still believe in it, you're undoing the beliefs in it. See that? So, this sentence again: no one who lives in fear is really alive. And I bet you can feel that too. Notice when you're living in fear and how it feels like death.

SPEAKER_00: 39:34

In fact, the ego starts demanding death.

SPEAKER_01: 39:42

So, fear always means something can be taken, something can be lost, something must be defended. I'm being forced to do something against my will, anything like that. And as long as a fearful belief is running, the mind. Is not living. You know why? It's bracing. It's bracing for the next fearful thing, the next threat. It's wishing things were different. So in life, which you can experience no matter what you need to, no matter what you seem to need to do, there's no enemy, no threat, no need for projection, protection. It's just now. So this sentence isn't meant to condemn anyone, it's describing a condition. This is a condition, and it's a common condition. No one who lives in fear is really alive. And that's why you know awakening can feel pretty lonely because you can tell most people are not truly alive, like Jesus is pointing to here. So this is not condemning anyone for not being alive, it's just recognizing hey, I want to be alive, I don't want to be the walking dead. That doesn't sound good. Jesus is just describing a condition here. He's saying, as long as fear is believed, life is being filtered through illusion, and that filter is basically not alive.

unknown: 41:23

Okay.

SPEAKER_01: 41:26

You know what it reminds me of? It's really funny. Um, is dormant cells, right? It's like if you you look at the cells of the body and uh look at them as a symbol for people in the world, right? The cells in the in the body go dormant when they don't get the life, when they don't get the nutrients and they don't get the blood and oxygen, they go dormant. They're not dead, but they might as well be because they're not doing anything. And that's the same kind of thing here. It's like you're not really dead, but you might as well be because your mind is blank, nothing's going on, you're just kind of like stagnant. Okay, so this is to help loosen that fear so you can come back to life, kind of like one of the cells in the body coming back to life. And you know, when all the cells in the body are alive and thriving, uh, not in a dormant state, there can be no kind of disease. Same way with your mind, it's like calling back all these fragments, so there's no dis-ease, uh, taking up space in your mind. You can be fully alive with whatever it is that seems to be going down in your experience. So, yay, everyone. Woof. All right, we are going to a new paragraph. This is the last paragraph in section 13, paragraph uh, paragraph eight, and this is chapter two, the final judgment, or the last judgment. It's named something like that. Um, so here's the sentence. Sentence one of paragraph eight. Your own final judgment cannot be directed toward yourself because you are not your own creation. It cannot be directed toward yourself. Why? Because you are not your own creation, you didn't create yourself. See, this is something the ego believes that you created yourself, that you're not created by God. If you're created by God, you're totally holy, you can't be changed. So you're not your own judge of yourself. Yourself is not something that needs to be judged. The ego is assuming it created itself, so it's the defining itself, and it can accept assess its own value. So creation is not something that is authored by a separate self. The separate self, or the uh you could say the individuated self, because nothing's really separate, even when God created individuated self, that's not something that's separate. And being created did not extend to you the right to create yourself different than how God created you in perfect holiness. So it's your origin that determines the authority over you. So only the creator of what is real knows what's real about you. And what I'm saying is, you are also that creator right now, at this point in time, it's not so necessary for you to know that you are this creator, just to know that the creator has perfect love for you, and you can't judge against that. So uh God's gift in this regard is really knowledge, it's knowledge of self, it's not judgment. You don't need judgment. So judging, judging yourself is always mistaken because it's using false standards, it's using standards of the world, it's from a false identity, and you cannot assess your true identity through those false concepts. So to the ego, you know, you're the judge and the defendant. It's projected onto God as if God is judging you, but the ego is taking charge here and making itself, right? It's an ego identity as both the judge and the defendant. You're never gonna win in that. It's meant to keep you in fear, and that's the outcome if you keep listening to that voice. So the final judgment isn't you deciding who you are, it's actually releasing the belief that you ever could decide who you are. It's always, it's the truth is always true about you. So this sentence is meant to lift that weight off of you of any self-evaluation, completely lift that up. You know, one thing I've talked about a lot in wisdom dialogues, too, is don't make any movement to evaluate yourself. That's always the ego. You don't need to evaluate your actions, your behavior, uh, how well you did on some project or anything like that. Just recognizing that that's the ego, you're free from it. You're not earning innocence anymore. The ego is always like, well, if you do this, this, this, and this, then you're gonna be cool. It's like, no, I'll take that right now. Ah, my innocence. This is where we stop denying our own innocence. The reality of who you are is never dependent on your opinion, it's always dependent on your source. God of love, the God of love, the only God created one son. That's you. This is why peace gets restored, because self-judgment is over. Here's that sentence again. Your own final judgment cannot be directed toward yourself because you are not your own creation. So you're denying meaning to these thoughts, even that say you're something that could be judged. You're really recognizing what's actually true about yourself. And this last judgment that we're talking about, once again, it's showing you that none of these things that are said by the ego, these fearful thoughts, are even true. Okay, it's discernment between what's true and not true. So, so right here, that what the discernment would be is that you need any kind of evaluation at all. This is very common. If you watch for this, you'll see it. It's very common how the mind wants to move to evaluation, self-evaluation. You do not need that. All right, sentence two of paragraph eight. You can apply it, meaning the last judgment, meaningfully at any time. However, to everything you have ever made, and retain in your real m in your real memory only what is good. Okay, you can apply it, the last judgment, meaningfully, and at any time, however, to everything you have ever made and retain it in your real memory, and retain in your real memory only what is good. I had one friend uh tell me, oh, okay, you just want to pick and choose what it says in the Bible. You only want to take the good stuff, but you don't want to take any of the bad stuff. And I'm like, precisely you fucking got that right. I'll just keep what's good. That sounds good. So even though you you cannot judge yourself, you're not capable of doing that. That's what we learned in the last sentence, and that's why he says, however, in here. You can apply it meaningfully and at any time, however. Remember, in the last sentence, it says, you know, this is not judgment of yourself. Let's look at that again. Uh, final judgment cannot be directed toward yourself. He says, you can apply it meaningfully and at any time, however, to everything you've ever made, and retain in your real memory only what is good. All right. So even though you can't judge yourself, you can apply judgment meaningfully to what you have made. All right. So the self you made isn't a real self. That's judgment right there. That's the last judgment. Right there. The self you made is not even a real self. Yours, God created you. That's an example of the last judgment right there. Okay, so whatever you've made refers to self-concepts. That's any idea you have about yourself, ego identities, your stories, your images, the reflection in the mirror. That's what you made. That's not true. So there's nothing to evaluate there either. All interpretations uh that are not of the Holy Spirit, past decisions that you made from fear. This is what you made. This is actually where the last judgment becomes practical. And that's what this course is. A course in miracles is a practical course. So this is what we want. This is not a future event. This is not something we're gonna get in the future. This is all about now. Now it says at any time in here. I love this. You can apply it, it, the last judgment, meaningfully and at any time. Okay, that's saying there's no waiting period. You're not required to be spiritually mature. One of my friends was repeating repeatedly telling me my ego is immature. And I'm like, what the fuck are you doing identifying as an ego? You don't need a mature ego to see through shit. This is not waiting for your ego to get mature, okay? Yeah, you don't, you don't, it's not even really there. It's an apparition, okay? So uh identifying yourself as an ego that hasn't learned enough a lot, it's it's just a distraction. There's not gonna be any special graduation ceremony before you release illusion, okay? You're not gonna have a special event with fireworks and shit like that. You're just gonna recognize what's not true is not true. That's all. Yes, only what is good is true. So why wouldn't we choose to keep only what's good? This is what a course in miracles teaches us to keep only what's good. And this works. If you do it, it works. And it only takes about a year, really. All right. So meaningful judgment is like this. You look at what you made and you decide is it true or is it false? Is it loving or is it fearful? Meaning, is it real or is it unreal? That's truly judgment. True judgment. Uh, also can definitely another word be used, it's discernment. Okay, because nothing real is ever being judged. The unreal is really being looked upon and discerned as unreal, not true. So, this is how what's not real is gently released from your unconscious mind. This is why it's mind training, and what's real is is kept, it's automatically, it resonates with you. It's quiet, it's not like I declare I'm keeping this good thing. No, you just you you undo everything that that feels upsetting, that feels contracting, and you go for release. So real memory doesn't mean remembering the past, it's remembering the truth. Okay, talks about real memory in here. You can apply it meaningfully, the last judgment, at any time, however, to everything you have ever made, and retain in your real memory only what is good. So, real memory isn't about remembering the past, it's remembering the truth. Only what is good is kept. What is good? What extends love, what reflects innocence, and what comes from God, you can say. All right. It in you to feel in your body's energy field, it's expansive. Nothing loving is ever lost, nothing loving is being deemed an illusion here. All love is retained. Okay, nothing true can ever even be discarded. So you can say the last judgment is kind of like this filter of love where fear passes through this filter of love and just disappears. And love passes through, it just remains. This is how your memories get healed. It's not erasing your memory, but you're selecting what's real. Only the love in it is real. You know, I can speak from my own experience because there are memories uh that seem to be about violence and molestation of me when I was a kid. And I could still recall those memories perfectly, but I can only see love in all of it. This is how memory is healed. So the other person involved with me in these apparent experiences, by the way, are being projected right now. There's no past. That person is not made into a villain, not made into a culprit, I'm not made into a victim. You're just recognizing because you've seen through the illusion, you're recognizing this play of pain that arises, and you're recognizing that the pain has been healed. So these these kinds of experience don't even have to be repeated because the underlying pain is healed. So you're not really purifying yourself. There's nothing in you to purify. This is a projected world, and all this judgment is projected. It never touches you. That's why you don't have to purify yourself. You're allowed, you're allowing your illusions to be purified and fall away. And what remains is what's always been there, what's good, what's true, innocent, loved, lovable. See, this gets applied to all your relationships, and then you don't have any problem with anyone either. You don't have to deal with those thoughts that are constantly circulating your mind about a person doing something to you, for instance. You know, even when a thought like that arises, it's like, oh, that's not true. I'll bring it to the last judgment where we're talking about here. So if you have any questions, let me know. Otherwise, we go. We're still in uh chapter two. We're toward the end now, paragraph eight, sentence three. This is what your own right-mindedness cannot but dictate. So, what that means is this is what your own right-minded right-mindedness can only dictate. You can say that's what cannot but dictate means. Only right-mindedness. That's the part of the mind aligned with the voice for God, the Holy Spirit. That's what's known as right-mindedness. You know, I said earlier the Holy Spirit isn't a part of you, is or is a part of you, it's your being, it's part of your being, you can say. Um, and it's only temporary, it's only necessary temporary for temporary in that form. But this is your voice. You know, it this is seeing truly the Holy Spirit in you. Without distortion or fear. This is being called right-mindedness. So when the mind is right-minded, it's always keeping what is loving. It's always releasing what's unreal, recognizing truth without effort. That's why it's just allowing yourself to be in the state of right-mindedness always, not waiting for any event to go, oh, now it's time to be in right-mindedness. This is a constant thing. Refusing to value anything fearful.

SPEAKER_02: 1:00:33

Billy. Yeah, where it says your own right-mindedness, isn't that also referring to retaining your real memory of what is good? That's that is your right-mindedness.

SPEAKER_01: 1:00:47

Yes. And you could say that's what we're calling the Holy Spirit, the voice for God, that always retains what's good. The Holy Spirit knows uh what we're going through as far as whatever we seem to believe about ourselves, and also retains for us what's the truth. So our right-mindedness is basically being aligned with what the Holy Spirit knows about us. This helps us to see truly. This helps us to be truly alive without distortion or fear. So when the mind is in a right-minded state, it's only loving. It's seeing everyone is lovable, seeing every uh expression is lovable, not something to run from or correct or fix or anything like that. And right-mindedness is not something you force on yourself, right? You don't have to convince yourself even. You don't really have to work on it. Okay. Right-mindedness, this is aligned with truth. This means that you're not, see, this is what I mean, my you don't have to work on it. It's like this wrong-mindedness wants to retain guilt, cherish attacking, hold on to fear. It's just recognizing it's really like a gentle recognizing that none of that stuff touches you, and you want to hear from your right-minded guide, the Holy Spirit. You don't you don't need to hear this stuff, you don't need to hear from this stuff. It's not true. It's all right if it's it arises, though. You're also not pushing it away. You're just recognizing this stuff has no meaning. I'm not gonna start basing my life on it, so I don't need to listen to it anymore either. It just really has no meaning. If it keeps on coming, you just keep on doing the same thing, recognizing that it has no meaning. All it's doing is making you bummed out, which you don't need. Basically, bummed out. You're in a fearful state of mind, which Jesus is saying now, you're not truly alive when you're like that. I would say a better word for that would be you're dormant, because it's not like you can ever be dead. But you know, you don't know life, let's say. So the Holy Spirit knows in your right-mindedness, that's the same thing. Uh, what's loving is true, and what's unloving is just not true. So this is releasing all that you made in error. So in sentence two, we talk about you can apply it meaningfully, that's the last judgment at any time, however, to everything you have ever made, and retain your real memory of only what is good.

SPEAKER_00: 1:03:55

Only the good.

SPEAKER_01: 1:04:04

So the right-minded uh right-mindedness is always going to release you from guilt and attack and anything that's unloving. Right. And that process that we just read, that's sentence two, uh, it's releasing all that you made in error and keeping only what's good. So it's not a burden to the right mind. It's the natural response of the right mind to keep what's only good. So it's not about judging you ever. This is something to be clear about. You do not need to be judged. I like to throw forgiveness over everything like a blanket. Like, I do not need forgiveness because I'm not anything that's ever been judged. Same thing with you. You do not need forgiveness. So I don't come up with, unless I'm joking around, I forgive you. You're not something that needs forgiveness. I don't want to keep illusions true. So I forgive the illusion, the uh the thought that comes from the wrong mind. Let's say the ego mind, a thought that makes fear true or threat real, something like that. Recognizing, and this keep the self is always untouched. Yourself always untouched. You're as God created you. But this keeps yourself untouched in your own mind. So you're not constantly looking and needing to needing to have it confirmed that you're okay. Just leave yourself untouched by any illusions. Don't endeavor to evaluate yourself. This undoes everything that's not aligned with your creation, which is perfect holiness. When you're aligned with the truth, you're always going to be aware of your perfect holiness, and that's going to make you so happy. And happiness is also alive. In time, this becomes effortless, even you might say intuitive. And the evidence reveals itself. It's like, wow, this makes me very happy. This is what I want. This is the only thing that really can satisfy me. And you know, that makes everything that you experience in the dream so much more enjoyable. You bring the joy to everything. It's not like you find some certain thing. Okay, now this is the thing, now, this is the thing that's gonna bring me joy. Nothing satisfies. No matter what it is, it doesn't satisfy you. The only thing that satisfies you is truth because you're created in truth. The purpose of time is solely to give you time to achieve this judgment. Now, this is so good to know. It seems like the purpose of time is a whole bunch of other things, right? Being productive in a worldly way, let's say. You know, not that that needs to be rejected or disregarded. That stuff just plays out. It's actually playing out. That's not where you're making choices on what you do in the world and how productive you are. That's not where you're making any choices. Where you're making a choice is where you're given this opportunity to achieve the final judgment. Because it's either you're agreeing with the ego or you're recognizing that the ego's judgment is not true. Time really exists. The only reason it exists is to support this correction. So time only has one purpose. It's not evolution as it seems, it's not aging. All right, that's not the purpose of it. It's not to punish you, it's not to kill you, it's not to delay anything, it's not to get anything built or anything done or anything learned. Time exists for one purpose only. Jesus says the purpose of time is solely to give you time to achieve this judgment. So, also, this is an achievement that you do. So, give you time means you have a learning environment. That's what this what you're calling your life. This is actually a learning environment. That's why it's perfect for your learning. It's a buffer, also, it's a buffer in which your mistaken perception can be undone. If you didn't have time, you didn't have the illusion of time, your mistake in perception would be stuck to you. That's why you want this time to undo and not be wasting time. That's why Jesus calls it wasting time if you're not using it for the purpose uh for which it was made. Yes.

SPEAKER_02: 1:09:40

So I have it seems here that the last judgment can be used to determine what you've done that's good or bad, and retain only the good.

SPEAKER_01: 1:09:54

Okay, okay. Well, you know, it the last judgment he's saying, it seems like it's uh it's to see what you've done that's good or bad and retain only the good. Okay. So, yeah, so look at this. This is something Jesus says too. You're perfectly unaffected by lack of love coming from you to another person. So let's look at that. If you're perfectly unaffected, yes, that's true. You haven't actually done that, you're perfectly unaffected. You you cannot be uh, you can't extend lack of love, you can only project it. So it's it's recognizing like that. Anything I've projected has been a dream, it hasn't been real. It's only the extensions of love that have been real, that that are actually kept and made part of creation itself. So, yes.

SPEAKER_02: 1:10:49

So sometimes I, you know, like it says, people worried it's the last judgment, and the last is the last thing. But so the purpose of time is solely to give you time to achieve this judgment, which is the last one. That's it, but it also refers to retaining what is good.

SPEAKER_01: 1:11:10

Yes, that is the same thing because that's what that that's what the last judgment does. Um, retaining what is good is automatic, right? It's really retaining what is good is automatic. You're recognizing that whatever is not of truth is not meaningful to you. You're discerning that the truth is un that the truth is true, and what's being made true by the ego is not true, so that's why it's kind of like quiet where you're retaining uh what's real, that's automatic. It's automatically retained for you, all extensions of love.

SPEAKER_02: 1:11:51

So that's opened up a whole new facet to me. Okay, because I've always thought that the last judgment was nothing happened.

SPEAKER_01: 1:12:01

Uh-huh.

SPEAKER_02: 1:12:02

Okay. But yet in our dream, yes, we appear to do good things. Sure. We're we're loving to somebody, we're giving to somebody, whatever those good things are. And now that is also so we're retaining something from this dream, the good stuff.

SPEAKER_01: 1:12:22

Yeah, you're you're retaining the good stuff, and really all of the manifestations that seem to be good to you, those don't happen either. They're really reflecting a shift in your mind. They're reflecting a shift in your mind where you're recognizing your own innocence. You're recognizing, let's say, that giving is receiving. You're being miracle-minded. So, you know, you feel really good in the manifestation of that, right? You recognize you feel really good in the manifestation. And this is what allows more and more good to be your experience, okay? Because the ego's way is everything has opposites. Anything that feels good, you're gonna have an equal amount of pain, right? That's the ego's way of propping up the world. It's all polarity. Okay, there's people who even study uh mental things that say as much pleasure as you get in life, you're going to experience that much pain as well. And that's because it's and and you know, it's true when you're operating as an ego, because you know, you're getting you're you're getting pleasure, you think. But what Jesus is saying is that you confuse pleasure with pain, too. Right? So the kind of pleasure that's met with its equal and opposite amount of pain had been ego pleasure in the first place. So we're keeping only what's good, we're keeping only what's true. What is that really? It's recognition of our innocence, it's recognition that nothing here can harm us. It's recognition that our pleasure, our truly comes from being miracle-minded. It doesn't come from anything in the world. So, one way to look at that is anything that seems to give you pleasure, just recognizing that the pleasure is actually coming from you, not the thing. It's really recognizing, because look at what happens. Uh, let's say you like this certain thing. Uh, and and uh and what it's great while that thing is around, but if you don't have that thing, you're gonna be missing that pleasure. That's where you're gonna have the equal and opposite amount of pain. It's the attachment to certain things, believing that they can give you pleasure that brings on that equal and opposite. So retaining what is good is retaining truth. It's really truth, it's not anything specifically in the world. It's like, oh, it's this joy, it's this meaning that comes when you're living life alive and not dead, right? So, so time is really existing to support this, right? It's a and and what we're giving, what we're really given is this learning environment. So, and and this learning environment is like a buffer for us. This is where we choose again. That's another thing about of course, a Course in Miracles, always talking about choosing again. So there's no accumulation of guilt. You know, to the ego, something good would be like some kind of power or possession of another person or control over a situation or something like that. Um, but in truth, what is good is the love that we can extend, God's love. God, God loves his creation, and each one of these persons that you meet is uh someone that God wants to extend love through you. That's the good. Okay, that's really and you and and you are the first recipient of that gift of God extending love through you. The ego is always trying to prove separation is true, make stories, past, future, failure, all this kind of stuff. But the Holy Spirit uses time for one thing, just undoing false judgment, accepting true judgment, and releasing everything that's not real. You would say that's everything that's shitty, it's judgmental. So, like when that friend was telling me about me picking and choosing uh Bible verses that I like, I'm like, here's a here's a Bible verse that I like. I don't remember what it was. Uh I like this one. This is the one I'm resonating with. And then he tells me another one that's all about uh condemnation or something like that. And it's like, oh yeah, anything like that, anything that speaks to condemnation, I just look right past it. It's not real. Oh, look at you being all picky toosy. Yeah, I don't mind what anyone thinks. That's right. I am picky toosy about that stuff. Condemnation, uh, judgment against the self that God made perfectly holy, those are not true. And that's why pleasure seems like pain, because it comes from this underlying judgment like this. That's why we apply the last judgment. Only what's good, only what comes from light. You can say uh the light of love remains, and that's that God's son is innocent. Just like when I when I was talking with Billy's sister, and I just happened to say, I'm an eternal being, just like you. What that's really saying is God's son is innocent. That's good, that's what's kept. See that, Billy? That's the kind of you see how that is, that's the kind of thing that's kept. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02: 1:18:01

Well, one of the verses that I go to, one of the good verses in the Bible I keep is yeah, judge not lest ye be judged.

SPEAKER_03: 1:18:09

Yes.

SPEAKER_02: 1:18:10

But what that's referring to, I see now, yeah, is okay, we're not supposed to judge anybody else because that's not our job.

SPEAKER_01: 1:18:19

That's right, or ourselves.

SPEAKER_02: 1:18:20

Well, but we can't judge what is good or not.

SPEAKER_01: 1:18:24

Sure, that's right. Well, it we're what we're what we're judging, and this is discernment. Uh, we're judging the false as such. So you could say the false is not good.

SPEAKER_02: 1:18:37

Love is good, love is good, right?

SPEAKER_01: 1:18:40

You could say that's not false, right? Yes, and so nothing in the manifestation is really subject to this book of knowledge, you can say, what's good and what's bad, it's all neutral. See that, yeah. Everything in the manifest world is just neutral, and your mind recognizing that it is just neutral is good. Let's say, yeah, let's say that. And your mind, your your mind judging anything as good or bad in the illusion is bad for you because it hurts. It's neutral and it's it's uh part of the learning environment. Let's say that everything that arises in perception is part of the learning environment. So time is not something to fight against, it's not your enemy, it's the means for this classroom that's occurring. Without time, your mind would be conditioned with fear forever. But God wasn't gonna allow that to happen. So We're given time. This allows here healing to occur in a way that feels safe and gradual and gentle. You want to be gentle with it. You have all the time you need. It's never gonna end. The earth is not gonna run into the sun or anything like that before you're done. Okay. All right. So let's uh you know, let's just let it be safe and gradual for us. Let's not try to uh uh try to scare ourselves. The judgment being referred here is keeping only what's good and true. That's the truth about you, that's not illusions, and releasing everything that's made in error, seeing this distinction between what's true and untrue without any fear. See, it's kind of confusing for people, I notice, because the world of form has so many different forms. It seems like we should be issuing this judgment out between all these different forms. But when you take all the form uh that the world is presenting as one neutral thing, that's how you see where your real decision is being made about what's good and bad, let's say. Let's say what's good is extending truth. We are all as God created us, wholly innocent. What's bad is making illusions true because that hurts your mind. Also, that could be undone in an instant, and now is always the instant for it. So the entire experience of the world, all perceiving, all perceiving in the world, it's giving you chance after chance to choose a way of looking at it, which is right-minded instead of fear. There's one way of looking at it that's a right-minded way instead of looking as if it's fearful. And this is what I'm talking about looking at it as a neutral thing that's making this classroom possible. So you can see how to choose. So one moment of time, every moment of time is just an invitation to you. That's why Jesus is saying miracles are meant to be constant. So every moment in time is another invitation to you to see things differently, to remember innocence of yourself and everyone else, to let illusions go and accept the truth of who you are. When all this is complete, time's purpose is fulfilled, and time will disappear completely because it's no longer needed. So there's gonna be no more work to be done at some point, as far as like trying to sustain yourself and stuff like that. Because there's gonna be no time. That's the that's your future. See that uh time will disappear because it's just not needed anymore. All right, yay. That was sentence four. Let's have it one more time. The purpose of time is solely to give you time to achieve this judgment, the final judgment. This is an achievement that you make. So sentence five. It means the final judgment, is your own perfect judgment of what you have made. It, the final judgment, is your own, not God's judgment, it's your own perfect judgment of what you made. This is not about judging yourself, once again, it's about judging what you made, your illusions, your interpretations, ego constructs, judging what you made. So perfect judgment means you're seeing clearly. You're not seeing with this uh uh with this lens of guilt. You're not seeing with fear, you're not seeing with any distortion. So this is the judgment that keeps basically only the good, only what expresses love, keeping only what reflects the truth about you, and only what aligns with your real identity. This is really keeping what's good, right? Only what expresses love, only what reflects the truth of your real identity, only what's truly in alignment with the Holy Spirit, with what the Holy Spirit knows about you. And it keeps these things intact for you as the last judgment releases your fearful interpretation. So this is what we're saying is bad. It's not good and bad based on circumstances at all, it's releasing fearful interpretation, false belief, your ego stories. See, I love I love uh using my stories, like I seem to be going through certain uh dynamics. Maybe I'll be going through a certain dynamic with a person that I'll bring up and I'll talk about. And you know, those dynamics are revealing patterns, they're allowing these patterns to come up and not receive a fearful interpretation as if this is terrible, someone's doing something to me, anything like that. It's allowing me to release these false beliefs, even false contracts, apparent contracts that I made with people to play out certain dynamics. It's like, no, I just love you. There's only love here. This way of relating this dynamic, this doesn't mean anything to me. That's why all of my relationships are harmonious. I'll only see perfection, right? Even if I have someone the other day, I seem to have someone being really mad at me on Facebook. You know, I was speaking to his holiness and his perfection, and all he wanted to do was see things uh in a way that was separating, and uh and seemed to get really pissed at me and tell me that I have I use the Jedi mind trick to uh win an argument. And to me, I wasn't in any kind of argument.

SPEAKER_02: 1:26:58

I just there is no argument.

SPEAKER_01: 1:27:00

Yeah, to me, uh to me, there's no no argument at all. The truth is true, you know, and whatever it is that seems to be uh a false interpretation or anything like that, I just recognize well, there's only love here. That's fine with me. If someone does not want to see their holiness, I can keep it for them. I can keep it intact for them and quiet. I don't have to run after them and say, hey, you you got it wrong. You know, it's like, okay, that's awesome too. Fear is real. Okay, that's awesome too. Really, it's not anything to argue about or debate. Uh, okay, so this is not about perfectionism. We don't want you to take that away from it because this says this uh last judgment is your own perfect judgment of what you have made. This has nothing to do with being perfect in the way you act or anything like that. It's actually clarity of your right mind, and this is natural clarity. So the perfect judgment is recognizing illusion as illusion, which in turn allows you to recognize the truth is truth. The truth is the good, the illusion, illusion is the bad in this scenario. You could see, you could say, right? Is it because illusion brings on pain. Believing in illusion brings on pain. So it's not like bad in a way that you have to get rid of it. See, the illusion is really an effect of believing a certain way. So this is a recognition. This perfect judgment that Jesus is talking about is a recognition that what was created was created perfect. That's totally intact. And everything else that speaks of something else other than perfect creation, that's an illusion. See? So it's not condemning what you made either. Uh Jesus doesn't do that, he doesn't go around condemning what you made. Whatever you made, he works within that. And he's refusing to give any power and asking you to refuse to give any power to what you made. Because what you made has been an extrapolation on the thought of separation, and the way you were created has none of that totally perfect. So this is your own judgment, and this is your own judgment because you are the one who has to choose it and accept it and participate in the in this correction of your mind. So that's why it's your own judgment, it's not God's judgment, but it is perfect. He's saying it's perfect, and it's perfect because it's inspired by the Holy Spirit, and it's reflecting the accuracy of what's true, it's seeing things without confusion. That's what makes it perfect. It's not saying you have to be perfect. This is not something that's up for any kind of evaluation or debate. You are as God created you, perfectly holy. But when you evaluate what you made in the light of truth, that's where only love remains. That's what you get to keep. Everything else falls away. Everything else just poop. Uh, my husband sent me a note saying that he just loves these aspects of me. And I think it was like uh freedom. Uh, pretty sure it was freedom and spontaneity, something like that. He's like, I love these things about you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. And if you know, uh, you know, I left my husband last year, um, it was just something that that arose that what that was the thing that was the most joyful in the moment. And it wasn't anything about making him wrong. He's been a great husband and everything like that. Um, and in the text, when he gave me that text and he told me that, you know, this is these are aspects of you that I really love. This is what attracts me to you. This is why I love you. And uh and immediately the ego came in and goes, Oh, yeah, but we raised our kids with you acting like you're against me and actually seeming to hate me for those very same aspects, you know. And I can feel this tightening. I can definitely feel this contraction. And, you know, wanting to say something like that, wanting to write something like that, right? So this is where it comes in. This is where it comes into play. So I'm just recognizing, oh, that's the ego. I do not want to keep something like that. I wouldn't keep something like that. For one, it's not true that he's to blame for whatever my kids think about me now. Um is just really not true. And their thoughts about me, here's another aspect of it, their thoughts about me are totally perfect. Uh, right? It's it can't be any other way. So in recognizing the truth of it, I keep only what's good. I keep the love that's extended between us. And I let all of that other stuff about, yeah, but what you did to me in the past, those 10 years where you were against me, you know, seems to be the story. So it's like the story it uh comes up and is recognized as not a true story. So I'm in that retaining only what is lovable. And that brings us to the next sentence. Do you see what I mean about retaining what's good there, Billy? It's like there's this love between us, it's uh that's so good, you know. And that's that how it that's how it is for all of our relationships, every single relationship. It's like the Holy Spirit is holding us in perfect union, is even as we seem to be resisting each other, right? So that brings us to sentence six in paragraph eight. We are still in chapter two, we're at the end of chapter two. Uh, we're getting to the last sentence here pretty soon. This might be it. I'm not, I don't remember how many sentences there are. There's one more. Okay. Paragraph eight, sentence six. When everything that you retain is lovable, there is no reason for any fear to remain in you. So, see, this was the choice point for me. Do I want to listen to the ego? And it and I notice a nervous system reaction, something that feels kind of addictive. That's the thing with the ego, it'll feel kind of addictive. Like, ooh, the ego likes that he's done something to me. Ooh, the ego likes that now he's recognizing these are good qualities about me. But before he used them to turn my kids against me. That's the story. It's not true. Nothing's really true. Uh, but when everything you retain is lovable, what this sentence says, there's no reason for any fear to remain in you. So I'm the one who's released from fear. Of course, I'm extending it too. You know, he doesn't even know about this unless he's listening to this now. He's not even knowing about this thing that occurred in my mind unless he's listening to it now. But we always feel each other. So when I'm released from fear, he's also released from fear. We always go together. Not only that, it releases everyone from fear. When I'm not willing to retain unlovable, all I'm retaining is lovable. See, I'm not accumulating baggage, so to speak. I'm not becoming jaded and setting myself up to have a shitty relationship the next time relationship comes around, whether it's with him, and who knows, I could get back together with him or another person or any other kind of relationship that I might have that's not even like on that romantic kind of vein, anyways. It really goes across all of our relationships. When we retain only what's lovable, that really plays across all relationships. So fear in us only exists when something unloving is being valued. So see how the ego's hook was for me to value the thought that he's, yeah, okay, you like it now, but you've fucking ruined things for me. See that? So I won't retain that thought. That thought's offered, and it's like that's an illusory thought. All that is is the ego, and I can see the attachment to it and everything. All I want is to be unhooked from it. That's when you ask for that, it's done. It's just that you're not usually asking for that. You're not asking to be unhooked from a thought like that. Uh, you want it to resolve in a different way, and that's uh a way that you actually don't want because you're listening to the ego. Uh, when you resolve it in the ego's way, you keep unloving, unlovable, and lovable, sort of like side by side, as if they're on the same level somehow, which we talked about earlier in chapter two, which is keeping uh truth and illusion on the same level. They're not on the same level. Uh, truth wins anytime you choose it. So that you're keeping only what's lovable anytime you choose it.

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Yay.

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Yeah. So when you experience fear, feel fear, it's not random. It's actually pointing to something being held in you that doesn't belong to you in the truth, in truth. You don't want this. It's an unloving thought. Right? So what's that?

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If it causes fear, it's unloving.

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It's an unloving thought, right? And it's unloving toward you. It seems like maybe it's toward someone else, and they deserve it. Right? The ego's got all kinds of evidence. 10 years of training your kids to fucking look at you like you're a lunatic. Right? It's like shit. You go, uh, you look at all the evidence, you take all the evidence and go, that doesn't mean anything. Because it's not true. And I wouldn't keep it. I wouldn't keep that for myself. You're only keeping it for yourself. And uh, you know, everyone is your same self. So you're actually always helping them to see truly or veiling things more for them. See, and everyone just reflects that back to you. So everything you retain, it says here when everything you retain is lovable, there is no reason for any fear to remain in you. So everything you retain, this is everything you choose to keep in awareness. Every interpretation you still value. See, so I just uh all I did was recognize that I do not value that interpretation. That interpretation seems to be hooking. That's fine, no problem. That interpretation seems to be there, no problem. This choice is recognizing I do not value this interpretation because it hurts, and I only want to keep what's lovable. Right? So when only what's lovable is kept, that's gentle, it's innocent, it's really true. It makes you feel more like open to the person, like you want to give them a big hug. Right? And not that it necessarily means you need to relate with them or anything. Let's say metaphorically, big hug. It's like the energy is different instead of pushing them away or wanting them to see how shitty they've been to you. You just want to give them a good a good big hug and thank them for playing that out with you so you can see how to keep what's lovable. Uh uh, fear is fear always requires opposition too. So recognizing that, that thought was opposing him. It's setting me up to be in opposition to him. What can he ever do to atone for uh showing our kids that their mom is a lunatic and having them, what can he ever do to atone for that? Right? It's like it leaves him just totally. The unworthy, which is there's no him, it's actually a projection meant to distract me from the idea of unworthiness held within myself. So every time I choose truth over illusion, I'm not only releasing this idea that anything has harmed me, but I'm actually being released from the idea that I deserve punishment. And that's going on in the unconscious mind. So it's keeping me safe, actually. But the ego's idea is that this thought, uh, pursuing this thought is somehow going to keep me safe from ever having to deal with a person who would do something so terrible to me ever again. But it's not really true. That never works. We just keep on repeating the same things over and over again. Oh, here's another one I saw on Facebook too. Uh, someone said, whenever they manifest or attract a person who's mean to them or anything like that, what they do is go, well, what have I done to manifest this? And that's really the wrong direction. First of all, no one's actually being mean to you. You haven't attracted a mean person. That's not, it's not about the person. This is a dynamic that you set up that seems to be being mean, whether it's to you, whether it's to anyone else. It's just a dynamic. It's not tied to a person. That would say it's tied to a body. Okay. I've seen people talk about denying access to certain people. You don't need to deny access to certain people. You deny access to the dynamic, the access that it had over you when you would perceive a certain kind of uh a certain kind of behavior by another person, you would take it personal and see it this way, right? Now, if you're not taking it personal, if you're not making that uh person have separate value to you, anything that they seem to be doing is perfect. Okay. Anything that they seem to be doing is perfect for you. Whether you seem to be involved in that same kind of dynamic with them going forward or whatever, just remains to be seen. It's not a choice you make either. Uh, as you keep on seeing things in the light of truth, people who want to play out dynamics that are hurtful, they're just not going to be interested in doing that with you because you don't have anything in you that uh that is uh, let's say, drawing that kind of dynamic. You have to be um agreeing to play that kind of dynamic. Let's say agreeing, that's better. If you're not agreeing to play a hurtful dynamic, you're there's no one's gonna be able to play that with you. As long as you're agreeing to play a hurtful dynamic, you're gonna feel as if you've been hurt. That's always giving you an opportunity. That's like, hooray. It's not a time to evaluate yourself. You know, you might feel like you're flying top of the world, uh, totally mature in all of your relationships. And then all of a sudden, bam, you're feeling like you're attached. You're feeling like uh this person is doing something terrible for you. You can't stop hearing fuck you and your mind toward that person. That's me. Uh, that's where you're given another opportunity to see more that wasn't available to see before. It's not saying anything's gone wrong. Nothing's gone wrong, nothing's wrong with that person. Uh, you know, that person also has something to be brought to life in the to light in their consciousness as well. So it's like we could be like playful children just playing, playing this stuff out without making each other wrong. See that? So when only love is retained, you know, because there's nothing to defend against. You're not feeling like you need to protect yourself from certain energies or anything like that. You're not trying to get out of anything, you're just embracing, watching, letting the river flow to the ocean as it does. Defenseless. Defenselessness. Defenselessness is where my safety uh lies. Yay. Oh, 445 or shoot. All right. We're gonna we're gonna just get to the end of uh paragraph eight here, and we'll start a brand new chapter next week. Yay! All right, so everything you retain, this is everything uh you keep it in your awareness. See this sentence? When everything you retain is lovable, that means everything you keep in your awareness, every interpretation you would value. It's it's everything you retained is lovable. Every meaning you refuse to release, okay? Every meaning, uh, you know, it's like uh every every meaning you refuse to release, it's like the meaning of truth applied to everything. I'm not gonna let go of that. The meaning that's applied to everything that's true, everything is neutral that I perceive, and it's giving me an opportunity to achieve the last judgment. That's fucking awesome. Not to achieve anything in the world, to achieve the last judgment, not to achieve uh self-perfection, also, only to achieve the last judgment, not to achieve eternal youth, for instance, to achieve the last judgment. That's all we want. There's no fear when only what's lovable is retained. That's what it says. When everything that you retain is lovable, there's no reason for any fear to remain in you. And this is Jesus' point here. You know, he said earlier in this same chapter about how time can speed up so fast, uh, but you would be required to be free from more fear than would normally be required of you or expected of you. Like you got to step this being released from fear up a notch if you want to, uh if you want the final judgment to go faster. Uh so fear requires contrast and opposition. It requires belief that something's harmful or real. But when only love is retained, that means there's nothing to avoid, even. You're just embracing everything. That's what I notice with myself. I feel myself as huge, huger than huge. And everything else is like a little speck that I can just embrace. See? Ah, thank you, thank you, thank you. So this is not about managing your emotions, even. This is actual purification of misperception. Fear doesn't need to be fought with, it just disappears when its cause is gone. So, see, the cause for fear is something's gone wrong, someone's didn't done something to me that had real effects. That would be a cause for fear. These things are the things that need to be seen as untrue. And not only untrue, but hurtful. You can say bad, anything that hurts you, you know, God would consider that's bad. Right? It hurts hurtful, not something you would keep.

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Being valued as if it's true, that's the cause.

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So we're actually undoing the cause for fear in the first place. Removing fear, resolving fear is actually effortless. When the mind is no longer interested in keeping what it fears. So you know when you're retaining only what's lovable because you feel peace naturally, you feel safety naturally, not because of circumstances. How much money you got in the bank, how good your health is right now, or anything like that. Trust is just automatic when you're only retaining what's lovable. You're feeling so loved and blessed, and you're feeling so supported by God. So this is how we complete the function of time, which was described earlier. Earlier, it was described as the gradual release of every unloving belief until only what's lovable is left. See that? So every unloving belief is being released until only what's lovable is left. You can't really release what's lovable, anyways. You can only just cover it up with misbelief, and that's what's being resolved through this. When only what's lovable is left, there's no fear, because fear doesn't have any function, nothing to do. And so there's no presence of fear.

SPEAKER_02: 1:49:22

Last sentence of paragraph six says the mind will inevitably disown its miscreations, and having withdrawn belief from them, they will no longer exist.

SPEAKER_01: 1:49:38

Nice. Where where'd you find this?

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Uh the last sentence of paragraph six.

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Paragraph six. Okay, so that's we were on that in our in our last deep dive. Can you say that one more time?

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The mind will inevitably disown its miscreations. And having withdrawn belief from them, the miscreations, the miscreations will no longer exist.

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Right. Yeah, so that's right in line with what we're talking about right now.

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Perfect. Yeah, no fear.

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Yeah, so you see how only what's lovable is kept, because that's all that remains, and that's that's the truth. So that's already, you can't get rid of that. You can only cover it up with misperceptions, you can only cover it up with fearful thoughts, and you'll disown those in time. That's what time is about. Disowning is basically saying those aren't true, they don't apply to me. None of that applies to me. Okay, yeah, I hear that, but that actually doesn't apply to me. It's not that's totally false. All right, let's go to the last sentence in paragraph eight, and the last sentence in chapter two. We're at the end of chapter two now. How fun! All right, this is your part in the atonement. That's the final sentence of the chapter. This is your part in the atonement. So your part is not dramatic at all. There's no sacrifice, there's no suffering, there's no earning anything. Super simple. Keep what's loving, keep what's loving. This is your part in the atonement. Isn't that nice? Keep what's loving, release what is not loving, so your perception can get corrected. This is our part in the atonement, you guys. Okay, look at if you accept this right now, you don't need to learn another fucking thing. Right? Keep only what's loving, release what is not, letting your perception be corrected right now.

SPEAKER_02: 1:51:48

In in that sentence, the second word is italicized.

SPEAKER_01: 1:51:54

Uh-huh. Doesn't that mean present tense? Yes. Maybe. Well, let's look at it like that. I don't know. I don't know if italicized means present present tense, but this can only occur in the present tense. So I'll go with that.

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Yeah, because atonement is now.

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Yes, atonement is only now. That's right. That's right. You're not going somewhere to be helpful somewhere else. It's uh it's now. There's no place or anything. This is not dramatic at all. It's really simple. You're just keeping what is loving, you're releasing what's not loving. It's like you're you it's like you're separating them out. What's loving, what's not loving. Okay. Um, and releasing what's not loving means you're not accepting that as part of life. You're looking on it as part of illusion. You're not just accepting it as part of life. You're ex, let's say the kind of acceptance you're doing, you're accepting it as part of illusion. You're accepting it as something that could be undone, revealing only the loving. So atonement is really undoing of errors in your mind. It's restoring your awareness to the truth. And it's simple. See how simple it is? It's not this dramatic thing. And it's moment to moment. It's meant to be natural and happening all the time. And it happening in a way that you can actually recognize it thought by thought by thought. So your role is only to allow this correction, not resist it. Because when you're when you're resisting it, you're not allowing it. It's natural for you to undo what you don't want. It's really natural not to cling anymore to what causes fear. Recognize this is causing me fear, it must be untrue. Simple as that. You see how non-dramatic it is. This thought is causing me fear. This thought hurts, therefore, it's not true. Yay, I don't have to listen to it anymore. Now I can chill out even more.

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Classic example are texts. Okay. You know, unsolicited text. Okay. You can look at the first sentence of it and go, that's a fearful text. Get rid of it.

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Uh-huh.

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I mean, you can tell right away.

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Right. Are you talking about these unsolicited texts from people who want to give you loans and shit like that?

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Well, that, but also in politics, uh-huh. They're all at all politics have money. Yes. Not just that, they want you to be on their side. Definitely. But it always starts out with if you don't do this, this thing is gonna happen.

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Right.

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And it's fear.

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That's right.

SPEAKER_02: 1:54:40

Well, if it's fear, I don't need to read it.

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Yes, that's right.

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I don't care.

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Yeah, and and the whole thing about politics is fear, isn't it? Yeah, it's all it's it's all about it's all about we gotta get our guy to do the good stuff so the other guy doesn't do the bad stuff. You know, for the most part, people are even going into voting like that. You know, they they they call it the lesser of two evils. What's the least fearful one? You know, and you know, the the least fearful, whether you find yourself voting or not, that's neither here nor there. The voting, the actual act of voting, vote for the truth, that none of that shit means anything. You know, a lot of people are suffering from uh from this idea that something really bad is happening in politics right now. And that's completely made up. Uh, one person told me yesterday about something, uh, something that's about to happen in the world. I forgot what it was, but I was like, wow, there's one I haven't even heard before. And this person's being bothered by that. You know, and it's all made up. Just recognizing that it's all just uh for you to reinterpret it. That's the atonement. Uh the Holy Spirit does all the healing. You just be willing to have a reinterpretation. You know, it's not really you in the sense of this separate self that you made reinterpreting anything because you don't know how to, right? So you're relying on the aspect of you that's the Holy Spirit to reinterpret things for you. If it doesn't feel good, it doesn't feel joyful, you got it wrong. You need a different interpretation. The world is set up to look like it's real and fearful, it's not really true. And every time you let one of these illusions go, each time you're keeping only what is lovable automatically. Automatically. You're participating in this atonement. This is your part. You're not being asked to fix the world, you're just being asked to release your misinterpretation. You're not atoning for any kind of sin. You're accepting that sin never occurred, and that's what you're demonstrating to yourself and everyone else when you accept that sin did not occur. So this sentence is linking everything before it the sorting of what's real and unreal, the release of fear and the retention of love. All of this is your participation in the atonement. Again, what is your participation in the atonement? Sorting, meaning what's real, what's unreal, releasing fear, retaining love. This is what your participation in the atonement does. Yes.

SPEAKER_02: 1:57:30

I love the second to the last sentence, especially the second half. When everything that you retain is lovable, there is no reason. There's no reason, yeah. There's no reason, period, for any fear to remain in you. Yes, love casts out all fear.

SPEAKER_01: 1:57:56

That's right. That's right. It's like it's like, yes, I'll tell I'll keep only what's lovable. The ego says you can't do that. The ego says you can't have light without dark, too. And it looks like that because we've been believing that shit.

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What a wonderful place to live with no fear.

SPEAKER_01: 1:58:13

Yeah, exactly. You're not bracing anymore, you're not bracing, wondering what's gonna happen to your body, what's gonna happen to your relationships, what's gonna happen to your money. This is the ego that braces all the time. And if you get tuned into what's going on in your body's energy field, you can feel that bracing and you can also feel the release and get tuned into accepting that the release is actually helpful, and the bracing is not helpful except to show you what can be released. Yeah, see that. So when you accept that your function is the atonement in the way we're talking about it here, your what your function is in this atonement, you're aligning your mind with the true purpose of time, and you're contributing to everyone's healing. So thank you. Thank you for being here. Thank you for listening to this. Just you being here to hear this and listening, that's super, super awesome. It's so much willingness. I appreciate you so much, and it's such a joy to do this. Um, next week I'll be back. Uh, same thing Wednesday. Apparently, I am going three to five still. You guys, if any changes come up, uh you'll you'll know on Zoom and also Substack if you're following me there. My website's a little bit slow to register changes. Um, but I will be posting the address in case anyone wants to come while I'm here. It looks like I'm gonna be doing Sunday wisdom dialogues, Wednesday ACIM deep dive until the uh the end of May, probably. We'll see. Uh, but it'll be several months. So I'm gonna be on a schedule for several months. I hope you join me. Yeah. Uh thank you. So much for joining today. And visit my website, hopejohnson.org, for all kinds of Hope Johnson stuff. I have a tab that says free resources. Check that out. There's a lot in there. You can also donate to me using that platform. It accepts monthly donations, which is great. Um, 100% funded now off of your donations. Thank you so much. Thank you to Billy and KC offering me this lovely home on a lake here, Lake Watcom in Cedro Woolley. Is that what it's called? Did I say no? Not quite. Okay, Cedro Woolley, Washington. I'm so grateful. I just love this. It's it's dark around here, darker than what I'm used to. Rainy. I'm gonna turn this place into a spa really soon here. I already have a lot, but you know, it's going deeper into spa mode. I love you. Okay. Uh let's see what we have here. It's eternal life party. Yes, vote for truth. Yes. Hooray, Glenn. I love the way you frame things. Thank you so much, Sandria. I'm not sure I'm saying that right, Sandria. Uh, if you have any corrections for me, just let me know. And right on to you too. I love it. Thank you for my to my sweet Substack people. Until next time, Mahalo, aloha, and a hoo-e-ho. Yay!