In this episode of Self Discovery, I’m giving a long overdue update on our RV plans, my plastic surgery a couple of weeks ago, and a health scare that sent me into a spiral in early August a few days before our move. While life can be unpredictable, and timing can be a real bi*ch, there are several lessons from this past month that I will forever keep in my toolbox. The most important one being that we must be our own health advocates. There is always hope, my friends, and you are never alone.
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In this episode of Self Discovery, I’m giving a long overdue update on our RV plans, my plastic surgery a couple of weeks ago, and a health scare that sent me into a spiral in early August a few days before our move. While life can be unpredictable, and timing can be a real bi*ch, there are several lessons from this past month that I will forever keep in my toolbox. The most important one being that we must be our own health advocates. There is always hope, my friends, and you are never alone.
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www.jaclynsteele.com/selfdiscoverypod
Instagram: @jaclynsteele
Youtube: youtube.com/officialjaclynsteele
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Oh my friends. I feel like it has been for ever since I last released a podcast episode and really it's been less than a month. But the last month has had so many events happen in it. My husband and I.
Unknown Speaker :We
Unknown Speaker :purchased a new vehicle. We sold a vehicle we purchased an RV. We sold our house, we moved into a storage unit. We partially moved into an RV and we've been staying with my in laws and we've been staying with my friend Lisa. So needless to say there's been a lot of activity there's been a lot of moving around a lot of losing things and my head and amidst that as well. I had plastic surgery I had liposuction done on my arm. So I've been recovering from that. Which I am going to do a podcast in a few weeks with the plastic surgeon that I had do the procedure and hopefully answer all of the questions that you guys send in about plastic surgery. Dr. loeber is so kind and wonderful, and I'm excited to introduce him to all of you. And then
Unknown Speaker :I had
Unknown Speaker :a health scare this last month, which I am going to talk about in this episode as well. So essentially, this episode is an update episode with a couple of takeaways at the end, which will hopefully be things that encourage you and add value to your life. But before I dive into everything else, I want to do a self discovery spotlight because I haven't done that in a while and this one comes from your biggest fan grace. She gave me five stars on my podcast. Thank you grace, and she said so good for your heart. This podcast will make you feel
Unknown Speaker :Stop. This is a podcast
Unknown Speaker :that will feel like self care for that tender, beautiful heart of yours. Jacqueline puts such care and thought into every episode and shares from a real
Unknown Speaker :honest place.
Unknown Speaker :You'll love it.
Unknown Speaker :Oh,
Unknown Speaker :I am so honored by that review. And it's reviews like that, that keep me creating this podcast because I'm not making any money off of it at this point. It's totally a passion project for me. And it's sincerely me sharing my heart and my life experiences in the hope that they will connect us and make our world more connected, make our communities more connected, make my life more connected, and hopefully yours, but also to share my life experiences so that we can all learn. I feel like life is such a learning experience. And I know that that's kind of a cliche, saying but it's the Absolute Truth and I feel called to share my life experience. Because I feel like when we share that stuff it makes
Unknown Speaker :it makes things feel.
Unknown Speaker :I'm not going to be very articulate as I say this, but it makes me feel less alone when I hear other people's stories. And it also inspires me and makes me feel like I can continue going on in a world that is not always easy to continue going on in. So that's really why I'm doing this podcast. It's all out of love. And I'm just so grateful for the reviews. So if you haven't left a review yet, what in the world please do I would love to have your review and I'd love to feature it on this podcast. Hmm, okay, so business stuff is out of the way. I want to now chat, RV plastic surgery
Unknown Speaker :and my health update.
Unknown Speaker :All right. Before I begin, I want to describe my setting right now because, again, I feel like Creating this podcast is like sitting down and having a cup of coffee or tea with you. And I want you to be able to visualize kind of what's happening. I am at my best friend Lisa's house, her dog, her golden retriever Gus is across the table from me passed out in front of my computer, and a vase of flowers. And I'm just feeling grateful to be alive and to have hope, and to have so much excitement in front of me. But also gratitude for a difficult couple of months, a really, really difficult couple of months because I feel like with difficulty, there are so many beautiful life lessons. And so that's where I'm at. And that's really what I want to talk about today is whatever is happening in our lives. I believe that it's happening. For us, to push us further and further into who we are and into being the best version of ourselves. You know, the tagline of this podcast is life gets easier when you know who you are. And if only we could know who we are easily without difficult life experiences, but I just don't think that's the case.
Unknown Speaker :And so,
Unknown Speaker :I'm grateful for the difficult experiences not always in the moment. Definitely not always in the moment. I can curse like a sailor and complain and do all of those things. But in hindsight, I can generally find the silver lining in every situation. And I feel like that's where I'm at right now. So I want to give you an RV update. We have the RV in our possession. I already told you guys that it has been parked at my in law's house, out in the country, and we have not fully moved in yet. We closed on our house in the middle of August. And said goodbye to my sweet cat. But the new owners are sending me video updates and he is so loved and possibly getting even more attention now than he did with me, which is such a relief and I'm so happy about again, things just worked out exactly as they were supposed to. And we were supposed to leave on our trip tomorrow, which would be Friday, the fourth of September. However, we have had several delays. And one of the biggest delays was my fault. totally my fault. We got a Ford F 350 dually truck that requires diesel fuel and I'm almost hesitant to even tell you guys this story because it's so freaking embarrassing, but I'm just
Unknown Speaker :gonna tell you anyways because
Unknown Speaker :I'm committed to being honest anyway. I put the wrong fuel in a diesel truck. And that is a giant. No no, I thought I was doing the right thing. I went to a diesel gas station that also had regular fuel I went to a pump. There are you know, three little gauges and one pump on one side and then another pump on the other side which I assumed was diesel because there was a green sticker above it. And I used the fuel that I thought was the correct one and come to find out and a fairly expensive bill later. I didn't use the right fuel and so that delayed us because our truck was in the shop. And then also we've just had so many loose ends. You know, canceling gym memberships, my husband's business is still going full throttle. And moving into the RV has also taken a little bit longer than we realize you know, getting the right hook And the right hoses. And there's a big learning curve with full time RV living. And so that's just kind of where we're at. We were delayed a couple of weeks overall from our target leave date. But that's the way that it is. And even though putting the wrong fuel in, and these loose ends have been annoying to take care of at the same time, my husband has been working so hard, and I just had surgery and I've been working so hard. And I think we needed this time to we're not really decompressing yet, because we're still doing a bunch of things. But we needed this time to not have to leave Georgia in an absolute rush and whirlwind. I don't think it's wise to start a new chapter especially one with a heavy learning curve when you're burnt out and not in a good headspace to take that on. And so that's where we're at, but I think it's a exactly where we need to be at second order of business that I want to update you guys on is plastic surgery. I had my surgery on, I think it was the 20th of August. And the night before my surgery, and the couple days leading up, I was so nervous. And I was not anticipating being that nervous because I just felt so confident about my decision. But I think I'm bringing this up because I just want to be totally honest, anytime you're having surgery, and especially if it's an elected surgery, like plastic surgery is it can just bring up feelings of doubt and scarcity and fear and I think all of those things are normal. The thing that got me through was my decision to have the surgery in the first place which was there are two types of fat in the body. There's genetic fat, and then there's fat that you can lose with diet and exercise, and the kind of fat that I had in my arms that was bothering me so much Gus just came up to me and he's breathing heavy. So if you hear that the dog is here, the fat that I had in my arms was this genetic fat that I would never be able to get rid of. And again, you know, our physical appearance is not everything. I don't recommend plastic surgery to anyone that, you know, wants to fix their entire life by looking differently. But I feel like I've done so much heart work and soul work and head work. And it was still something that was bothering me. I knew that if I didn't have it done, it would not be the end of the world. But I also knew that if I had the means to have it done, and I trusted my doctor, it was something that I'd thought about for several years and wanted to do and I'm so glad that I did.
Unknown Speaker :I
Unknown Speaker :again felt some fear but the surgery itself went perfectly. I was probably in The operating room for about an hour. And then the rest of that day I was totally fine. And since then I have been totally fine. I still have a bruising, I still have swelling. So my arms aren't like at the appearance that they will be in, you know, six 812 weeks, but they are already thinner and they are sore, but I have not had any sharp pain at all which I was so impressed by because, you know, as you guys know, there's a big difference between being sore like after you've had a tough workout and sharp pain. I think the most pain I've ever felt in my life was when I pinched a nerve in my neck and it wrapped around my whole head to like my other ear and down my shoulder, and I could barely move for like four days. That is the most pain I've ever felt in my entire life and this liposuction process was nowhere near that if that was like my 100% and I feel like I have a pretty high paid pain tolerance, um, plastic surgery for liposuction on my arms was probably a two or three. So, yeah, well 100% 10 two or 320 to 30% you guys get the idea. I have not experienced much pain, there's been some discomfort. Again, I don't have like my full mobility yet, but it's only been two weeks, a little over two weeks. So yeah, that's where we're at with a plastic surgery. I feel really good about it. I'm glad that I did it and I'm really really looking forward to the final results and to not have to wear compression garments anymore, but I still have a few more weeks of that. Okay, now on to the nitty gritty of this episode. And this part is a health update. I don't want to scare anybody I am okay. I just had what was a pretty big scare for me. And I want to rewind to February of this year before the pandemic hit. In February. Some of you will remember, especially if you follow me on social media or on YouTube. I did 20 videos in 29 days. And then I launched and I launched this podcast in February of this year. And so February was a really big month for me. I was working so so so, so hard, and I had a bunch of client projects with my branding firm steel International. I think I had like seven brand new but it was it was an insane month just full of stress and work. And sometimes that happens sometimes, you know, it can't be avoided, especially if there are a bunch of opportunities that are right in front of you to grab hold of. However, at the end of the month, I started having heightened anxiety and it wasn't just like oh, regular everyday anxieties, or anxiety, it was like really deep, profound, making me sweat, making me shake anxiety. And I thought, okay, something is off. I talked to my mom about it and she was like, why don't you consider giving up coffee because maybe you're drinking too much caffeine and it's causing this kind of chain reaction and heightened anxiety. And I was like, that is that sounds like a really good start. I'm gonna do that. And so some of you will remember I talked about it on Instagram, a fair amount, but I gave up coffee at the end of February beginning
Unknown Speaker :of
Unknown Speaker :March. And I didn't drink that much caffeine. I had one really strong large cup of coffee a day and giving it up with Difficult as you can imagine when you've been drinking coffee or been addicted to caffeine of any kind for a long period of time, but I felt like after that initial like brain fog and irritability of a couple of weeks, the anxiety that I had been feeling in February I felt it start to decrease. But then a couple of other things started happening. And this is gross, but I got really constipated. And then also, I gained like, probably 15 pounds. Um, and I thought at first Well, you know, it's quarantine. I'm not as active because I'm not out running errands. I'm not doing my regular gym routine. You know, I was doing yoga and some stuff at home, but it's not the same. So I initially blamed it on quarantine. And I did a small like lightbulb episode on it. And at that point I thought I only gained like five to eight pounds. But when I went to the doctor recently, I had gained much more than that more like 15. And while I'm still in the normal body mass index range, and I'm still considered to be healthy by health practitioners, that extra 15 pounds for me was a real indicator that something was seriously off. Because in quarantine in the beginning, you know, my husband and I stocked up on some stuff that we shouldn't have. But then after that, I was eating a pretty normal diet. For me. I wasn't consuming large amounts of food. I wasn't consuming large amounts of sweets and it felt like this weight was gained in my midsection and in my thighs, which is not generally where I gained weight. I usually gain weight in my butt, and in my legs, but very rarely in my midsection as well, and I gain weight in my arms.
Unknown Speaker :And so
Unknown Speaker :I just felt like something was really weird and something was off.
Unknown Speaker :Then on top of that,
Unknown Speaker :I was feeling extreme fatigue. I'm not just like, Oh, I'm tired in the afternoon. It was like I was tired all day long. It was miserable. I had brain fog. I felt like I couldn't focus. I felt like my anxiety. Even though it initially decreased. After I gave up coffee, my anxiety came back with a vengeance. I was exhausted but I couldn't sleep and so I'd wake up at like 3am every morning for weeks on end pretty much this entire summer. And it got to the point where I was like
Unknown Speaker :something is
Unknown Speaker :wrong, something is not right in my body, I can feel it. And I want to figure out what is happening. And so the first thing I did was I started researching hormones, because I was like, I feel like it's probably something with my hormones. Several years ago, I went to the gynecologist and had a blood test. And they said, you know, you're kind of borderline on hypothyroidism, which is when your thyroid is under functioning, usually due to like, it can be due to genetics, but it can also be due to stress and cortisol. And, you know, if you're an entrepreneur or experienced any kind of financial hardship, really just living on this planet, everybody in the United States is stressed and I am no exception to that. And so three, three ish years ago, I was borderline hypothyroid Right, so I thought I need to go have my hormones check, but before I do, I want to do a little research, and I came across a podcast by the minimalists highlighting this guy who did biohacking and his company is called renew life RX. And so I contacted him contacted the owner, his name is Adam lamb and I spoke to him for about 45 minutes super nice guy. Again, renew life RX. I'm not sponsored by them. But I am going to ask Adam to come on the podcast. And he encouraged me to get a blood test, get a physical and send in the results to their team who takes a pretty holistic approach to balancing your hormones. And so I got that initiated. I also went to the gynecologist for my yearly checkup and had a blood test there. And that blood test came back that my thyroid, like TSH level was really high and they wrecked demanded that I get on medication immediately. And just so you know, I want to go over some of the symptoms of having a hypo thyroid just in case any of you might be experiencing any of this and just wondering like what the hell is happening to my body. So, it can be skin dryness or roughness, hair loss or dryness. And also very common is constipation, depression, enlarged thyroid fatigue, joint stiffness, muscle weakness, puffy eyes, sensitivity to cold, slow heart rate, swelling in your extremities or weight gain. And I was experiencing some of these symptoms and was experiencing bouts of insomnia.
Unknown Speaker :So I
Unknown Speaker :have this blood test they they recommended that I get on medication immediately, but I I am absolutely convinced that my body wants to be Healthy, but I have to give it the nutrition that it needs and the care that it needs to be healthy. And so when somebody when the gynecologist said that you need to get on hypothyroid medication, I did not jump at that and say okay, because hypothyroid medication in general is something that you take for the rest of your life and I was not ready to sign on to that without seeing an endocrinologist. And so they sent me to an endocrinologist. I went to the endocrinologist and he diagnosed me with hashimotos hyper Well, no, it's called hashimotos thyroiditis, and it is a hypo thyroid disorder where your thyroid is under functioning. And essentially, your thyroid is like the highway to the rest of your body. It regulates all of your hormones, and is almost like a second brain in your body. So if your thyroid isn't functioning properly, your hormones in your body are not functioning properly. And if your hormones are not functioning properly, it can upset every other system. And so when I was diagnosed with hashimotos, I thought, Okay, let me get on this medication and try it. Because I'm so desperate right now to be able to sleep and to get rid of some of this weight. And this fatigue and this just overall feeling of anxiety and sadness. If I can just kind of level that out, then that's something that I really want to do. Again, I am not an advocate for just taking a pill when a Western medical medical doctor says, Hey, take a pill because I think so often our bodies want to be healthy. And if we're willing to change our diet and lifestyle, then our body is it is Created and has been created to heal itself and heal itself quickly. But because of the move because of the surgery that I had had, I was just desperate for some kind of solution. So I decided to get on this medication and I have now been on it. It's September 3, this podcast will come out
Unknown Speaker :around the sixth the seventh.
Unknown Speaker :I've been on it for almost two weeks. It'll be two weeks tomorrow. But in the meantime, I got my blood test results from the renew life RX
Unknown Speaker :test.
Unknown Speaker :And I am so again I'm not sponsored by them. But I am so impressed because they did like a full panel blood test whereas these other blood tests that I did were not nearly as comprehensive. The renew life RX blood test tested. My heart function, my liver function, my red blood cells, my white blood cells, my thyroid, a pretty Every kind of system in my body it It took that information from my blood and then that's all part of the test that may sound very inarticulate, but you know, whatever, it's four o'clock in the afternoon and I'm tired. And then yesterday I spoke with Milo from renew life RX. And he took a whole hour to go over every single freaking line of this blood test, telling me what the functions were in my body and where my blood was at in accordance to those functions and what I needed more of what I needed less of, etc. In short, I want to summarize this so I don't bore you guys to death, but my body and all of my organs are super healthy, but because of stress and some genetic stuff, because hashimotos does run it My family, my hormones are off.
Unknown Speaker :But
Unknown Speaker :what Milo said and what gave me so much hope and by the way, Milo is a health practitioner, but the blood test goes through a traditional MD, and they make recommendations based off of your blood test. So there is a western medicine component. But there's also an Eastern and holistic medicine component, which is just much more my jam with Renu life RX.
Unknown Speaker :And what Milo said was,
Unknown Speaker :your organs are so healthy, but they're going to have to start working over time if you don't get your hormones in balance, and that's what has happened with my thyroid. It was overworking so much that now from my understanding, it's under working and is causing the symptoms. And I listened to another podcast about hypothyroidism recently, and there was a statistic That came up in there and I have not corroborated this, so don't quote me on it. But it said that something like 70% of women in the United States have some form of hypo thyroid disorder because of the stress that we experience living in the West, the diet that we eat living in the West, and the overall lifestyle, pollution, etc. And so I want to talk about this. Because if you are experiencing any of this, it is not something that you have to live with. It is something that can be corrected. I have not myself learned how to correct it yet, but I am in the process of doing that. And I will continue to let you in on that process if it's something that you're interested in. So if learning more about hormones, is something you want to hear more about, please reach out to me on Instagram at Jaclyn Steele or via my website, Jaclyn steele.com, slash self discovery. pod. I want to hear from you about this because I am so fascinated. And I feel like when I initially got my diagnosis
Unknown Speaker :of
Unknown Speaker :having hashimotos, I felt so depressed
Unknown Speaker :because
Unknown Speaker :I think I did not want to be relegated to a life of fatigue, and sadness and brain fog and all of the other symptoms that go along with hashimotos. I mean, even the endocrinologist said, you know, treating this disease is not a science because we just don't know enough about it. It's much more of an art. So we're probably going to have to regular you know, go over your dosages and bring them up or bring them down according to how you're feeling and that can take several months to do and it just felt so daunting. And so I had a sense of hopelessness if I'm honest. I just felt like my My body had betrayed me even though my body did not betray me, my body is overworking to make sure that I can still keep going. I just felt so, so sad. But in speaking with Adam and Milo from renew life Rx, they have given me a totally different protocol, which I'm going to start, I think next Monday, the creams have to come in, but essentially, they were like, We are not medical doctors, we cannot tell you to get off of your hormone medication, which is levothyroxine. Because we are not medical doctors, however, we have treated people with hashimotos and seen fantastic results with the protocol that they're sharing with me. And by the way, this protocol is so freaking affordable compared to my health insurance and what I have to pay for my health insurance. It's, I mean, honestly, it's unbelievable. I think it's $500 for three months of this protocol, so it's not cheap. But it also includes consultations with them where they check in anyway, I'm gonna get into that in a second. But basically, Milo said, there is a great chance that you can correct your hashimotos by going back to basics, and correctly correcting the foundation of your health, which is your gut. And I know from taking a biome test, which is a stool test, and I know That's so disgusting, that I do have a partially leaky gut. And I think I've had a leaky gut probably since birth. I was born via c section. And normally when you go through the birth canal, that's your first like injection
Unknown Speaker :of
Unknown Speaker :really beneficial bacteria for your gut. And I did not have that from birth. And then when I was really young, I had chronic ear infections and I was on antibiotics for a whole year and then I suffered from Candida When I was in elementary school was all relates to the gut. And so I think I've had gut issues my whole life. And what happens is the gut is like another brain in the body and it sends all kinds of all kinds of signals to the brain, you know, mental health issues can even be traced back to gut health. And so it's no surprise to me that thyroid issues can also be traced back to gut health, so many bodily issues can be traced back to gut health. And so Milo is explaining to me that by doing some eating changes, and doing an elimination diet and getting my gut back into balance, there is an amazing chance that I may be able to correct hashimotos and get back get my hormones back into balance without medication. I'm also going to go on da ga, which is something in your body that creates like calmness, it helps don't quote me on this, but from what I understand from him it kind of counteracts the cortisol in your body, which is what happens when adrenaline is produced cortisol is then produced to combat that and the da ga is supposed to be like the calming agent. So I'm going to get on a supplement for da ga to kind of calm me down. And then also, this is gonna sound wild. But some testosterone to counteract all of the other levels of element elevated hormones in my body, the testosterone is supposed to bring them back into balance. It's a super super low dosage. But that is supposed to help and then additionally be 12 shots because b 12 shots are really good for the thyroid. And so I'm going to go on this protocol for three months because at this point, I'm like, if I can correct hashimotos with diet and some of these supplements and not have to be on medication For the rest of my life, then I want to do that 1,000,000%. And while I don't think there's anything wrong with going on medication, and if you feel like that's what's right for you, then I by no means judge you for it. But I don't feel like that is the answer for me. I feel like in the future if I continue to have problems even after being on this protocol and trying to work on my gut health, then I will definitely reconsider the medication but for now, I want to try this holistic approach. And after speaking with Milo yesterday, I just have Oh, I have so much hope. Um, with the diagnosis from the endocrinologist and the gynecologist it was just very much you know, you can't do anything about this. It's genetic. Diet won't change it, lifestyle won't change it. It's just part of your genes and your DNA. And in speaking with the renew life RX guys, they're saying, No, you're not relegated to this, it can be changed, it can be reversed. And I believe that, you know, in so much of the research that I've done, the books that I've read, there's so many things in our body that happened that are reversible. And there are countless stories to corroborate that too. I mean, all you have to do is watch Forks Over Knives or game changers. I'm reading super life right now by Darren olien. There's another book called hormones in balance, something like that. Where there are all these stories of people that are correcting these chronic diseases and these chronic symptoms through diet and lifestyle, and I want to try that route before I lean too heavily on modern medicine.
Unknown Speaker :Now, a couple
Unknown Speaker :of takeaways that I want to share with you guys.
Unknown Speaker :The first one is
Unknown Speaker :I recently
Unknown Speaker :did a podcast with
Unknown Speaker :my mother in July, about pregnancy and my questions about pregnancy and then also my desire to have children in the future. And it was shortly after I admitted that to myself, admitted it to my mom and my husband and then admitted it to all of you guys, that I got this hashimotos diagnosis. And
Unknown Speaker :one of the things
Unknown Speaker :about hashimotos or hypo thyroid disorders is that fertility can be affected. And so initially when I got that diagnosis, that was another thing that ran through my head like not only am I going to feel like shit for the rest of my life, but am I not going to be able to have children now. And it really, really freaked me out. But here's the silver lining. And this is why I believe in God and I believe in a loving universe that conspires with us. I admitted that I wanted to have children find And then I was diagnosed with hashimotos. And I feel like
Unknown Speaker :that was a severe
Unknown Speaker :mercy. It was God the universe, however you want to label it saying, Hey, we understand that you are ready for children now, but your body is not. And so if you were to try and go down this road without knowing this diagnosis without having this information, you could be staring at a lot of disappointment and heartache. And so, I just feel so loved and so held that all of that happened within a two month period. And now again, there are no guarantees. I don't have everything figured out. My thyroid is not back to normal functioning, but I have a protocol and I have a plan of attack. And I am committed to getting myself healthy, whether that is through this very Eastern route. diet and lifestyle changes, or if I have to lean on medication I will. But either way, I feel like I was prevented so much frustration, sadness, heart ache over fertility issues by having this diagnosis
Unknown Speaker :now.
Unknown Speaker :So that's takeaway number one.
Unknown Speaker :takeaway number two has to do with the RV, and timelines. And I just want to say this so often in life, we get
Unknown Speaker :some kind of fixed
Unknown Speaker :idea or picture of what we want to happen and when we want it to happen, and how it's going to look etc. And I just want to encourage you wherever you are to be flexible with your plans, it can be such a bummer to feel like things are falling through the cracks or slipping through your fingers. But so often my experience has been when your plans are thwarted, it is for a reason and again, I feel like the universe God, however you want to define it is there and And re pointing you in a different direction, because the trajectory that you are on is not the one
Unknown Speaker :that was for your
Unknown Speaker :benefit for your highest self,
Unknown Speaker :for your life. And so I want to encourage you to be flexible with those plans, and try and look for the silver lining. You know, we take ourselves so seriously. And in Western culture, we're encouraged to take ourselves so seriously, we all need to be millionaires, and we need to do this and we need to do that. And we need to maximize our productivity and we can never have downtime because then we might be lazy, etc, etc. You guys know the drill, it plays in your head, it plays in my head. But we don't have to take ourselves that seriously. We can choose to be kind to ourselves to say, Hey, you know what, a couple weeks difference a couple weeks difference, a couple years difference. I'm going to trust that whatever plan is ahead of me is one that is for my highest good and I'm going to try not to sweat the small stuff. that's easier said than done. But that's something that I keep coming back to like, I can laugh about this, I don't have to take it so seriously, you know, not leaving for this epic RV trip. Tomorrow is not the end of the world. And I just want to hold things loosely and be grateful for the moment, be grateful for the breath in my lungs, the thoughts in my head, the energy that I do have, and to live in the moment as much as possible. The next takeaway that I have and this is the last takeaway is that your body is yours alone. And you have to trust your gut and advocate for your own health. I think so often in western medicine and in our current healthcare system. We're not really treated as humans and and this is not a knock against doctors or nurses or people who work so hard because it's not their fault. It's the way medical system works. You come in you say you're feeling this, and then you are treated for that symptom, rather than the core reason that that symptom has occurred. And we think things are just kind of backwards and upside down. And so, you know, if you are somebody that wants to trust in western Western medicine and not question any of it, I respect that. I don't judge you for that I get it. But if you are someone that feels that little twinge, or that gut check, or that feeling like, you know what, I don't want to settle for that diagnosis or that plan. I want to ask more questions. I want to go to a specialist. I want to experiment with other methods of healing. I would just encourage you to follow your gut in every sense of that phrase. trust your intuition and be your own. health advocate. I don't have everything figured out by any means. But after speaking with Milo yesterday and feeling like I may be able to correct this diagnosis with some of these supplements and healing my gut, I just felt like, Damn, Jaclyn, you were right from the beginning when this just wasn't sitting well with you. So trust that gut. And I guess one more thing, at the beginning of this year, maybe the end of last year, I did this meditation. And it was talking about looking into the future and seeing yourself in five years and what your five year older self would say. And for me, that would be me at 39. And that person in the meditation came up and said to me, stop doubting yourself and start trusting your intuition. And that's not just in relationships, or business, or whatever. It's in health as well.