WEBVTT 00:00:25.449 --> 00:00:33.583 Hello, my unicorns, I'm nervous. 00:00:33.583 --> 00:00:34.364 Why am I so nervous? 00:00:34.364 --> 00:00:43.094 Oh, y'all, it has been freaking eight months since I last recorded an episode and chatted with you all. 00:00:43.094 --> 00:00:44.295 What the heck? 00:00:44.295 --> 00:00:48.420 Um, that was not my intention, not at all. 00:00:48.420 --> 00:00:52.957 Um, and I'm so glad to be back with you today and to be talking with you. 00:00:52.957 --> 00:00:55.042 Oh, my goodness, I missed you. 00:00:55.042 --> 00:00:55.743 Have you missed me? 00:00:55.743 --> 00:00:57.938 I know you've missed me because we've chatted online. 00:00:59.390 --> 00:01:06.801 Many of you have reached out and I honestly wanted to say I really appreciate it, even though I haven't been able to record more episodes or been in a space to do it. 00:01:06.801 --> 00:01:20.099 I never felt pressured by any of you to like hurry up and create it right now and I appreciate, um, you just being understanding and, um patient with me while I get my life sorted out so I can come back here. 00:01:20.099 --> 00:01:23.415 I'm noticing there's a little bit of an echo. 00:01:23.415 --> 00:01:25.518 I've only tried to add a little bit of a blanket. 00:01:25.518 --> 00:01:26.513 That's a little bit better. 00:01:26.513 --> 00:01:30.097 Um, new space this is the first time I've recorded a podcast here. 00:01:30.097 --> 00:01:34.039 So you know, working the kinks out, here we go. 00:01:34.039 --> 00:01:35.802 We love kinks, we love all the kinks. 00:01:35.802 --> 00:01:42.597 Girl, I'm ranty because I missed you and also like I'm out of practice. 00:01:42.597 --> 00:01:46.362 Oof, hmm, it's just talking, alex, it's just talking. 00:01:46.362 --> 00:01:47.245 You talk every day. 00:01:47.245 --> 00:01:48.453 There's no problem here. 00:01:48.453 --> 00:01:51.650 Oh, okay, I'll. 00:01:51.650 --> 00:01:53.117 Here's my plan for today. 00:01:53.117 --> 00:01:59.957 I want to catch you up on what the fuck has been going on in my life and why it has taken me so long to get back to podcasting. 00:01:59.957 --> 00:02:08.882 Um, and then I want to tell you a little bit about my plan um, going forward with podcasting so that we can, um, we can get on the same page. 00:02:08.882 --> 00:02:14.598 Um, the format and stuff is going to be a little bit different and, um, I'm just excited to try out some new things with you all. 00:02:14.598 --> 00:02:20.881 That, I think, will be a whole lot better, um, for me and my energy levels and not getting um burnt out again. 00:02:20.881 --> 00:02:24.599 Um, so, yeah, let's get into it, huh. 00:02:25.829 --> 00:02:28.799 So, first off, just an update on what I've been up to cause. 00:02:28.799 --> 00:02:29.800 Like what the heck? 00:02:29.800 --> 00:02:32.216 It's been a long time. 00:02:32.216 --> 00:02:45.838 Um, in that last episode I fully intended to get back to things in February but, um, you know, in hindsight I realized like no duh, of course I couldn't get back to things in February. 00:02:45.838 --> 00:02:47.156 I needed this time off. 00:02:47.909 --> 00:02:51.320 So, um, let's just recap a few things. 00:02:51.320 --> 00:02:55.181 Like, first of all, I moved across the country just over a year ago. 00:02:55.181 --> 00:03:07.218 What I have been in San Diego now for a year and three months, that is so crazy to me, that's so cool. 00:03:07.218 --> 00:03:25.390 Anyway, I'm really feeling settled in here and this really does feel like home, even though I haven't quite built up the same kind of um network, I guess I'll say, of like friends and people that are close to me as I did back in Maryland, and so I am still missing some of that Um. 00:03:25.390 --> 00:03:29.961 But uh, you know, it's going to come with time. 00:03:29.961 --> 00:03:36.759 So I'm really proud of myself for for being here and again, this really does feel like home. 00:03:37.890 --> 00:03:40.310 So, um, yeah, last year what, what the heck happened? 00:03:40.310 --> 00:03:41.355 Moved across the country. 00:03:41.355 --> 00:03:44.895 I broke up with that loser that you all had the pleasure of hearing about. 00:03:44.895 --> 00:03:47.051 Um. 00:03:47.051 --> 00:03:59.600 I was single for less than two weeks before I met someone new Um from what I remember I think I talked about that a bit on the podcast, talked about him, shared about him, um, and anyway, yeah, that was like quick. 00:03:59.600 --> 00:04:04.139 Uh, you'll remember my assistant quit last year. 00:04:04.139 --> 00:04:06.043 He was fantastic, love working with him. 00:04:06.043 --> 00:04:09.058 And then I heard a new assistant who was fucking amazing. 00:04:09.058 --> 00:04:10.001 That's Cole. 00:04:10.001 --> 00:04:11.490 You heard him in the last episode. 00:04:11.490 --> 00:04:13.457 If you haven't heard that, go back and listen to it. 00:04:13.457 --> 00:04:17.637 He's um a freaking rock star and if you need an assistant, hire him. 00:04:17.637 --> 00:04:43.490 He's so good, so reliable and um, he's the one that really took care of the podcast um, like show notes editing, et cetera for the last um, well, I guess since June, like starting in June last year, I think so months um working together and um, he also helped out with my programs and it was just really great working with him. 00:04:43.490 --> 00:04:54.072 But, let's be honest, like having someone quit, hiring someone new um training them and getting used to a new person and a new cadence Like that was a bit. 00:04:54.072 --> 00:04:59.535 You know, it did take um effort, um, that's the. 00:04:59.574 --> 00:05:07.081 I've been trying to make new friends, obviously because I moved to a new place, um, my finances got tighter um towards the end of last year and I got scared. 00:05:07.081 --> 00:05:21.589 I started a part-time job, which then triggered an identity crisis because, like I have just seen myself and to find myself by um my status as an entrepreneur for years now, since January 2017. 00:05:21.589 --> 00:05:30.752 That's when I kind of started the entrepreneur journey, um, even though I did have businesses before that, um, but that was really I don't know. 00:05:30.752 --> 00:05:32.478 I guess I think part of it. 00:05:32.478 --> 00:05:35.269 It really felt more like who I am. 00:05:35.269 --> 00:05:37.016 I guess at that point I don't know. 00:05:37.016 --> 00:05:41.067 Hmm, I'm thinking about loud here, but anyway, it was a y'all. 00:05:41.086 --> 00:05:45.762 I went through a fucking little miniature identity crisis, freaking out about like who am I? 00:05:45.762 --> 00:05:47.315 Am I a failure? 00:05:47.315 --> 00:05:49.036 What the heck am I doing? 00:05:49.036 --> 00:05:57.434 A year ago, I led a business mastermind and helped other queer entrepreneurs build their business up, and now I'm. 00:05:57.434 --> 00:05:58.858 What am I doing? 00:05:58.858 --> 00:05:59.560 Am I giving up? 00:05:59.560 --> 00:06:01.468 Uh, I'm going and getting a part-time job. 00:06:01.468 --> 00:06:15.083 And it's so funny because, like when my clients would say, hey, I'm in this tight money spot and I need to take care of my business, I'd be like go get a job, duh, go get a side job and use that to support yourself while you keep building your business. 00:06:15.083 --> 00:06:20.675 But it was like I wouldn't give myself permission to believe that that could be true about myself. 00:06:22.120 --> 00:06:32.028 Uh, let's see, I started working on some new, very amazing but very new and kind of intimidating projects Early last year. 00:06:32.028 --> 00:06:43.905 You may have seen I shared on Instagram a bit about it Davey Wavy and I who was on a few episodes ago he and I are working on a project together now. 00:06:43.905 --> 00:06:54.884 So I wrote a series for Hammeros and we're going to be starting filming next year, in 2024. 00:06:54.884 --> 00:06:56.884 So I'm really excited about that. 00:06:56.884 --> 00:07:02.802 But like, wow, talk about intimidating to like the writing at porn series. 00:07:02.802 --> 00:07:03.905 That's something I've never done before. 00:07:03.905 --> 00:07:08.905 I've never written anything like that. 00:07:08.905 --> 00:07:09.846 You know I've. 00:07:09.846 --> 00:07:17.759 The closest I've gotten is I've written workbooks or like school papers, writing a kind of screenplay sort of thing. 00:07:17.759 --> 00:07:33.240 Different writing porn, different working in the porn industry and having this kind of okay, wow, like this is going to be, like I'm going to literally be there working on set. 00:07:34.547 --> 00:07:39.905 I think I just had a bit of imposter syndrome around that and kind of getting used to like no, I can do this. 00:07:39.905 --> 00:07:44.435 I mean, I know I can do this, but it's a lot to process for the mind, you know. 00:07:44.435 --> 00:07:48.273 Let's see, I moved in with my boyfriend in January. 00:07:48.273 --> 00:08:04.821 So yeah, we live together now and that has come with just a whole new set of challenges that I didn't expect going in and are very normal. 00:08:04.821 --> 00:08:09.617 It's been helpful talking to other couples and kind of understanding things. 00:08:10.105 --> 00:08:12.865 I also got back to therapy last year. 00:08:12.865 --> 00:08:15.905 I think I shared that with you all on here already, but I'm not sure. 00:08:15.905 --> 00:08:17.651 Anyway, I'm back in therapy. 00:08:17.651 --> 00:08:21.442 That's been really good and have been working through there. 00:08:21.442 --> 00:08:37.329 I've been really encouraged by the fact that he said I've actually worked with two therapists now and both have said that my boyfriend and I are working through things in a really healthy way, and so I appreciate that encouragement. 00:08:37.449 --> 00:08:50.473 But, like still y'all, it's been a journey and I've had lots of spurts of like anxiety and fear and just getting used to things that have just been a challenge for me. 00:08:50.473 --> 00:09:02.168 So sorting through that stuff has been definitely like a source of energy drain, although maybe I don't want to say it like that, maybe I'd rather actually say it's been a. 00:09:02.168 --> 00:09:08.879 It's been something that has been worth putting my energy into and that I want to put my energy into. 00:09:08.879 --> 00:09:16.933 But again, I'm trying to give you some context to what's been going on in my life and hopefully two things will come out of that. 00:09:16.933 --> 00:09:36.801 One, you'll be understanding of why I wasn't on the podcast and two, you'll also be able to apply this to your life and maybe give yourself a little bit of a break when you're going through a lot and you're processing a lot and you need to just take a break from some things that you may feel guilty or ashamed of needing to take a break from. 00:09:36.801 --> 00:09:39.871 That's where I was, anyway. 00:09:39.871 --> 00:09:50.078 Let's see Another thing that I've been working through was, and still is, feeling distant and disconnected from a couple close friends back in Maryland. 00:09:51.465 --> 00:09:56.615 You know, I really I miss them and oh God, I'm now. 00:09:56.615 --> 00:09:57.257 I'm getting emotional. 00:09:57.257 --> 00:10:02.315 I don't need to cry with you all the first episode I'm back in nearly a freaking year. 00:10:02.315 --> 00:10:18.060 Anyway, I miss them a lot and I am enjoying the new friends that I'm making here in San Diego, but they're not a replacement for my friends back in Maryland. 00:10:18.060 --> 00:10:23.603 It has been challenging for us to make time to connect with each other. 00:10:23.603 --> 00:10:31.616 I've talked with them and I do want to make more of an effort to be intentional about that. 00:10:34.015 --> 00:10:37.321 I think that was also another source of instability in my life. 00:10:37.321 --> 00:10:45.264 On top of all of this, I also just started feeling really guilty. 00:10:45.264 --> 00:10:57.418 The more time that went on that I wasn't back to the podcast, even though I told you I'd be back in February, the more time that went on that I was not keeping that promise, the more guilty I felt. 00:10:57.418 --> 00:11:04.066 I knew in that that I did not want to return to the podcast out of guilt. 00:11:04.066 --> 00:11:05.800 I was not going to do that. 00:11:05.800 --> 00:11:06.535 Hell. 00:11:06.535 --> 00:11:09.925 No, I've done things like that before and then that will just build up to resentment. 00:11:09.925 --> 00:11:31.442 I knew that I wanted to work through that guilt and that shame the guilt and shame around the podcast, the guilt and shame around getting a part-time job and make peace with those things and be okay with those things before I came back to the podcast, so that this was truly out of the overflow. 00:11:31.442 --> 00:11:42.185 This was truly out of me wanting to be here and excited to be here and able to be here as the big, amazing, vibrant coach Alex Wright that you know. 00:11:42.185 --> 00:11:47.181 Not me giving myself a guilt trip and just doing something because I think I'm supposed to. 00:11:47.181 --> 00:11:50.902 The content just would be crap and we don't do that here. 00:11:54.779 --> 00:11:59.149 There's probably something else I've missed. 00:11:59.149 --> 00:12:05.537 I don't know if I think of it later, maybe I'll add it, but those are all the things that have come to mind. 00:12:05.537 --> 00:12:11.301 All in all, I've just been trying to navigate my personal life. 00:12:11.301 --> 00:12:15.819 With all these different things happening. 00:12:15.819 --> 00:12:18.967 I did not have the space or the energy to be podcasting. 00:12:18.967 --> 00:12:27.682 I'm happy to say, I'm proud to say and excited to say that I am in a place now where I'm really excited to be returning to you all. 00:12:27.682 --> 00:12:30.902 I have genuinely missed this. 00:12:30.902 --> 00:12:35.665 I miss the energy that I get to be in here. 00:12:35.665 --> 00:12:46.625 I miss putting on Coach Alex Ray and being this badass bitch that hugs unicorns and rides them across the rainbow into the sunrise or sunset or something. 00:12:46.625 --> 00:12:58.750 I just miss this badass bitch energy and it's been kind of boring without this. 00:12:58.750 --> 00:13:02.400 So I'm really excited to be back. 00:13:02.400 --> 00:13:05.406 Let's see. 00:13:05.406 --> 00:13:08.562 Oh, I wrote down in my notes here. 00:13:08.562 --> 00:13:11.280 I'm going to read this to you because I was proud of this. 00:13:13.654 --> 00:13:24.457 I've missed this powerful, badass version of me as I have been cocooning and now I am ready to emerge from my chrysalis Y'all fun story. 00:13:24.457 --> 00:13:26.177 It's a short story. 00:13:26.177 --> 00:13:38.105 I named my car chrysalis because I felt like it was my gorgeous chrysalis, my cocoon, to go in and be just my safe place. 00:13:38.105 --> 00:13:51.487 It just sort of transports me from here to there and I get to be off at home and I get in my chrysalis and I arrive and step out of the vehicle at an event as the badass bitch, coach Alex Ray. 00:13:51.487 --> 00:13:55.881 It's been fun, she's awesome. 00:13:55.881 --> 00:13:56.936 I'm so enjoying her. 00:13:56.936 --> 00:14:04.423 Okay, let's see, I want to share with you a lesson, right? 00:14:04.423 --> 00:14:06.419 So that's kind of the next part of this. 00:14:06.419 --> 00:14:14.778 Here's the lesson that I've learned in the last eight months as I've been riding up and down these waves. 00:14:14.778 --> 00:14:17.220 I wrote this on my phone. 00:14:17.655 --> 00:14:29.800 I, kind of like, came to this phrase while watching the sunset the other night and I had been processing some anxiety and some frustrations. 00:14:29.800 --> 00:14:48.046 And I was watching the sunset there's a palm tree that was between me and the sign and it was just perfectly fading behind the palm tree and the sky was just filled with gorgeous, amazing colors. 00:14:48.046 --> 00:15:05.598 And I had this aha moment where I was like, whoa, I have so much to be grateful for, so much to be thankful for, so much to appreciate, so much to be happy about. 00:15:05.598 --> 00:15:13.837 Why am I focused on this small thing that really is not significant? 00:15:13.837 --> 00:15:27.168 It's really like no big deal, honestly, in the long run or in the big picture of my life, what am I doing? 00:15:27.168 --> 00:15:29.575 Being miserable right now. 00:15:29.575 --> 00:15:43.334 And so I, out loud, started just saying I appreciate the fact that I am in this beautiful place and this wonderful weather that we're experiencing right now, and I appreciate this gorgeous sunset in front of me. 00:15:43.334 --> 00:15:47.635 I'm so thankful that I had the courage to move out here to San Diego. 00:15:47.635 --> 00:16:00.600 I'm so happy that I have been meeting new, amazing, wonderful people out here and that I've been able to do some new things that I never thought I'd do. 00:16:00.600 --> 00:16:05.755 I'm so just excited to be getting back to the things that really light me up. 00:16:07.745 --> 00:16:17.740 About two weeks ago, I did my second in-person workshop since I moved here, and that was just amazing and that lit me up. 00:16:17.740 --> 00:16:35.886 And so, anyway, y'all, I just went on this tangent out loud for a good five minutes, just appreciating, thanking, enjoying things about my life, and I was like what the heck this is so funny? 00:16:35.886 --> 00:16:40.195 Why have I been upset about this one thing so much? 00:16:40.195 --> 00:16:42.405 I don't know. 00:16:42.405 --> 00:16:50.390 It's just it doesn't need to be that big of a deal, like what am I doing anyway with this? 00:16:50.390 --> 00:16:54.610 This thing isn't me. 00:16:54.610 --> 00:16:58.071 Come on, let's go, let's move on. 00:16:58.071 --> 00:17:20.195 And so I had this thought, this phrase under my mind and this is the one that I was getting to earlier, this phrase under my mind after going on that tangent, watching the sunset behind the beautiful palm tree, and that phrase was it's all just art waiting to be interpreted. 00:17:20.195 --> 00:17:26.233 It's all just art waiting to be interpreted. 00:17:26.233 --> 00:17:29.527 And I truly believe that. 00:17:29.787 --> 00:17:47.014 I believe that it works so much better for me to look at life from a little step back, instead of being so in it and just feeling overcome by life and getting crashed by all the waves. 00:17:47.014 --> 00:17:58.157 Taking a step back, allowing myself to feel a little bit distant, a little bit kind of a view from above of life or a view from outside. 00:17:58.157 --> 00:18:29.192 It helps me feel more like an observer and then I can appreciate it so much more because when I'm in it like I'm only appreciating it in the moment maybe, or I'm thinking about something else and I'm not even paying attention when I'm stepped back looking at my life, it's so much easier to be an observer and appreciate so many things about the beautiful artwork of life and the ugly stuff that I'm not into. 00:18:29.192 --> 00:18:37.730 There's so much less of a big deal because, again, I don't have to spend my time in that hallway of the art gallery. 00:18:37.730 --> 00:18:47.971 That great that ugly art exists that I am not interested in, that I don't want to hang out with. 00:18:47.971 --> 00:18:53.115 Okay, well, I'm going to go through some ugly things in life that I don't like and I don't want to be in. 00:18:53.115 --> 00:18:58.995 But do I really need to buckle down and really fully identify with that? 00:18:58.995 --> 00:19:02.772 No, I can step back and observe it like art. 00:19:05.027 --> 00:19:15.792 When I was in high school I started doing some classes at the community college because I was homeschooled and my first class was a photography class. 00:19:15.792 --> 00:19:16.815 It was black and white film. 00:19:16.815 --> 00:19:18.357 It was amazing. 00:19:18.357 --> 00:19:35.471 The professor of that class did a really good job of having us do art critiques, and an art critique was just where everyone set up their photo series around the room and as a group we discussed it. 00:19:35.471 --> 00:19:38.557 What did we observe about it? 00:19:38.557 --> 00:19:39.778 What was interesting to us? 00:19:39.778 --> 00:19:45.618 What thoughts or feelings did the photos, the art, spark in us? 00:19:45.618 --> 00:19:47.002 What did we like about it? 00:19:47.002 --> 00:19:47.825 What did we not like about it? 00:19:47.825 --> 00:19:49.948 What did it mean to us? 00:19:49.948 --> 00:20:02.825 And it was so fun getting to do that and then hear the artist's interpretation of what they did and how it kind of differed from my experience of their art and vice versa. 00:20:03.145 --> 00:20:38.390 I really enjoyed getting to hear other people's interpretations of the art that I created and the feelings and thoughts that sparked for them, and then knowing that oftentimes my intention was the same as what they would say, but plenty of the time my intention was different from what they took from it, and it was really really cool for me to just hear another perspective about this art that I created that was different from my own. 00:20:38.390 --> 00:20:49.136 And so what that has allowed me to do with art and what I'm really turning up in my life I've done it before, but it's like I've forgotten about it, y'all, and I just needed to remember. 00:20:49.136 --> 00:20:58.484 It is just to look at life like that, like, hey, interpretation is everything. 00:20:58.484 --> 00:21:02.335 Otherwise, it's just art on its own. 00:21:02.335 --> 00:21:05.884 Without interpretation, it's just there. 00:21:05.884 --> 00:21:09.585 It doesn't really have any meaning until we interpret it. 00:21:09.585 --> 00:21:23.877 It's just colors or shapes or pixels or, in the case of black and white photography, little silver dust, essentially. 00:21:23.877 --> 00:21:25.803 Isn't that cool? 00:21:25.803 --> 00:21:28.067 Did you know that it's black and white film? 00:21:28.067 --> 00:21:36.484 And I believe the photos too, are silver particles like the metal. 00:21:36.484 --> 00:21:40.235 So cool, not like the metal, it is the metal silver. 00:21:40.235 --> 00:22:03.684 So, anyway, this perspective, bringing it back has really allowed me to step back and appreciate things and also just not feel overwhelmed or overcome or over identified with the things that bring me anxiety or that I don't like or that frustrate me or piss me off. 00:22:03.684 --> 00:22:12.279 So that is my reminder to you today, or my little lesson for this episode is it's all just art waiting to be interpreted. 00:22:12.279 --> 00:22:16.976 It's all just art waiting to be interpreted. 00:22:16.976 --> 00:22:22.098 Okay, you got your lesson. 00:22:22.098 --> 00:22:24.024 We got a little recap, we got to connect. 00:22:27.131 --> 00:22:33.392 I want to propose something new for us, so I want to do things a little bit differently around here. 00:22:33.392 --> 00:22:42.998 Now that I've had some time away from the podcast, I knew that, like I needed, I needed, wanted, am going to switch some things up. 00:22:42.998 --> 00:22:48.738 First off, I want to make it a whole lot more collaborative. 00:22:48.738 --> 00:22:56.278 I want this to be like a collaborative project y'all that we are working on together. 00:22:56.278 --> 00:22:59.355 Yes, I'm doing the bulk of the work by all this recording and posting etc. 00:22:59.355 --> 00:23:04.932 But, like I want you to be a little more involved, I want to work on this together, our little project together. 00:23:04.932 --> 00:23:08.551 So I need your help with some things. 00:23:09.065 --> 00:23:11.894 The first thing is I need some help with topic ideas. 00:23:11.894 --> 00:23:15.674 I love coming up with topic ideas. 00:23:15.674 --> 00:23:43.730 I think I'm pretty good at it, but I also noticed that when all of the creative pressure was on me like that, it was really exhausting, and so what I want to propose is that I really encourage you and you really respond more with some topic ideas, with people or questions that you want on the podcast. 00:23:43.730 --> 00:24:04.286 So if you would like to make suggestions for the podcast, you have a person who you think would be a good guest, or you want to nominate yourself, you have a question that you want me to answer on the podcast, or you have a topic idea for the podcast, would you please email me at podcast at coachalexraycom. 00:24:04.286 --> 00:24:08.496 That's podcast at coachalexraycom. 00:24:08.496 --> 00:24:10.681 That will also be down in the show notes for you. 00:24:10.681 --> 00:24:24.351 But, like, come on, let's do this project together and I really want to make content that is really relevant and useful and helpful and exciting for you to listen to as well, instead of just kind of like I don't know. 00:24:24.351 --> 00:24:35.392 Sometimes I feel a little bit like a preacher just ranting at you, and y'all know at this point how I feel about preachers and I am not into that, don't want to do it. 00:24:35.392 --> 00:24:40.907 So would you come along with me and make this project collaborative? 00:24:40.907 --> 00:24:41.710 I'm excited. 00:24:42.790 --> 00:24:46.576 The other thing I want to ask your help with is supporting the show financially. 00:24:46.576 --> 00:24:54.505 There is a link down in the show notes now where you can donate every month to just be a supporter of the show. 00:24:54.505 --> 00:24:57.336 It's just three bucks a month to donate. 00:24:57.336 --> 00:25:03.649 You can donate more if you'd like, but your support of the show financially will really help. 00:25:03.649 --> 00:25:06.591 Right now you know the show is. 00:25:06.591 --> 00:25:15.038 It costs me money, it costs me time to produce, to host it. 00:25:15.038 --> 00:25:30.730 I don't Most people don't know, but you have to pay monthly fees in order to have your podcast published, unless you have your own server that you like run, which even then then you'd have to like have the server at your house running all the like electricity, whatever. 00:25:30.730 --> 00:25:35.575 Anyway, this costs money y'all, and so I would love to have your support. 00:25:35.575 --> 00:25:45.666 If you are able Again, just $3 a month to support the show, and this will also help me keep this as keep this ad free as long as possible. 00:25:46.369 --> 00:25:57.957 I may eventually have to do sponsored content or ads in the show just to be able to make this work financially, but I really want to put that off as long as possible. 00:25:57.957 --> 00:26:14.730 So the more of you who are willing to donate, the longer it will be until I have to add ads, or maybe, in an ideal world, I would love to just never add ads to the show, because I think it's an interruption and I really like being able to have this space where it's just you and I chatting. 00:26:14.730 --> 00:26:16.331 We don't need an ad from. 00:26:16.331 --> 00:26:25.042 I'm not even going to say their names, but you know all the companies that are fucking obnoxious on podcasts, like we don't need to hear from them again. 00:26:25.042 --> 00:26:29.531 Okay, wonderful. 00:26:29.531 --> 00:26:41.221 So join me in that, join me making, in making this project more collaborative and, lastly, I really want to avoid burnout as I enter back into the podcast. 00:26:41.321 --> 00:26:46.426 So what we're going to do to start is an every other week cadence, and we're going to see how that goes. 00:26:46.426 --> 00:27:10.466 As things progress and as I'm able to like adjust the time spent on other projects and areas of life, I may be able to up that to a weekly cadence again, or we might go to seasons instead of just every single week and, mike, we might do, like I don't know, 12 episodes, seasons or something, who knows? 00:27:10.466 --> 00:27:13.150 We're going to feel it out together. 00:27:13.150 --> 00:27:17.556 This is going to be a living, breathing, evolving project and I'm really excited for that. 00:27:17.556 --> 00:27:24.442 That feels so much more human to me instead of robotic, and I just I can't do the robotic shit anymore. 00:27:24.442 --> 00:27:27.265 So there we go. 00:27:27.265 --> 00:27:33.775 I'm also changing the day of the week that the podcast goes live. 00:27:33.775 --> 00:27:38.679 Instead of coming out on Thursdays, the podcast is going to go live on Tuesdays now. 00:27:38.679 --> 00:27:42.023 So this is the first of the new cadence. 00:27:42.023 --> 00:27:48.031 Again, we're going to go every other week for now, and that's that. 00:27:48.653 --> 00:27:56.760 So, yeah, here we are, we are back at it, you and me. 00:27:56.760 --> 00:28:01.964 We're chatting again, we're having a great time, or hanging out, me and your ears just ranting at you. 00:28:01.964 --> 00:28:08.553 No, smooth talking, you is more like it. 00:28:08.553 --> 00:28:11.817 Thanks for welcoming me, welcoming me back into your life. 00:28:11.817 --> 00:28:19.503 I appreciate and value this opportunity and I really just want you to know that. 00:28:19.503 --> 00:28:34.538 So I'm excited to be back here and I've got some amazing guests that I'm reaching out to to create some more episodes that, will you know, come out soon and we'll be back. 00:28:34.538 --> 00:28:35.798 We'll be back soon. 00:28:35.798 --> 00:28:38.441 So here we go With that. 00:28:38.441 --> 00:28:47.307 My friend was lovely chatting with you today and I'll see you next Tuesday, or see you next next Tuesday. 00:28:47.307 --> 00:28:49.742 Bye.