Chrysalisbreak
Originally begun in 2012, poet Sarah Kappos wrote her way out of disordered eating and into an entirely different reality. Chyrsalisbreak is a testament to the power of writing.
Episodes
12 episodes
Kate of the Cottonwoods at the Border, Lochiel AZ
Chrysalisbreak began with the impulse to challenge an internal narrative, to become conscious of it and to share my evolution. Now I am opening this channel for others to do the same. I believe in the power of art and story.
nan seymour's Invitation to Sing
"There is a river under the river." Poet nan seymour has been saying this for years, and she is still discovering the depth of its meaning. After returning from the border town of Lochiel, I sat down with her to reflect on our experience with v...
Intro by Sarah Kappos
"All I knew was that I had written it, and it was true. I wrote it with quite a desperation. Almost like, if I don't just sit down and write the truth before I even really think about it, then I'm not gonna be able to get there."
"The refreshing nature of the details" #1
"It takes a really long time to live enough life to finish a work of art...To make something that really is true, and is gonna hold up over time, it takes a lot of back and forth, and a lot of doubt...working through a lot of doubt."
"I'm just angry, and I feel like I shouldn't be." #2
"You're not failing, you're learning. It's so hard to learn when that voice is in my head telling me, you shouldn't feel this way.One of the things this period of my life taught me is: It's okay, you're a young mom and you're gonn...
"Some things become more precious with time." #3
"There's an entry in this episode where I very gently come to the realization that I have been trying to pray myself away, and I'm not going to do that anymore.""The relationship you have to your body is the only relationship that y...
"This scale is not going to decide my wellbeing, anymore." #4
"If I set out to draw for example a leaf, and in my brain I think, 'I'm going to draw a good leaf.' There's no life in it. But if I look at an actual leaf and the veins in it and the specific lines of one leaf and I just try to ...
"Appropriate for children"#5
Small moments. kid prayers. broken arms. Covid sucks."I don't have a bedroom, I have a drawer," Beckam."Human beings think they're so powerful and they kill all the animals, why don't they use their power for someth...
"If I have no dreams, no soul, how can I raise children who matter?" #6
"How can I raise children who matter to themselves? Why do we raise kids and encourage them to go to soccer practice and draw pictures and learn how to do a magic trick and hang their artwork on the refrigerator and ask them what they...
"The unpublishable" #7
"I write so we can come out of hiding...There were some truths that I had been holding until they were safe enough to share...there were times when it was too scary."~ Sarah Kappos
"I still get into these ethical sticky spots" Artist Imposter Syndrome #8
"What the hell does it mean to be an artist?""One thing I love about Chrysalisbreak is, what I'm reaching for, is myself.""I don't have a mini van anymore, and I haven't thrown up on purpose in a really long time."~ Sarah Kappos...