14. Paul Nootbaar - Healing Severe Childhood Trauma Through MDMA-Assisted Therapy

Psychedelic integration sits at the center of this episode—a clear, grounded look at how real life changes after profound experiences.

Paul Nootbaar shares an incredibly raw story: he lost his mother due to domestic violence as an infant, years of foster-care chaos followed, and later, becoming a dad brought a surge of buried memories and suicidal thoughts.

What saved him was MDMA-assisted therapy, and the slow, steady work of integration. 

In fact, integration was so vital to Paul's healing that he's of the opinion people need to “journey less, integrate more.”

We get specific about what integration can look like in day-to-day life: honest conversations with family, building routines that calm the nervous system, and choosing practices that hold you steady when memories surface. Paul also describes the difference between chasing “more sessions” and actually putting insights to work at home—sleep, nutrition, movement, journaling, and community. 

No silver bullets. Just consistent steps.

You’ll hear how fatherhood became a catalyst for healing, why preparation and aftercare matter, and how a skilled psychedelic facilitator can help keep the process ethical and paced. If you’ve lived through significant childhood trauma—or you support someone who has—this conversation offers practical ideas without sensationalism or clinical promises. It’s education first, always.

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The contents of this episode are for educational & entertainment purposes only and are not medical, legal, or mental-health advice. We do not diagnose, treat, or guarantee outcomes. We do not condone or promote illegal activity, including use of illegal substances. Laws vary by location—know and follow yours, especially regarding controlled substances. Consult a qualified healthcare professional before making changes. If you’re in crisis or an emergency, contact local emergency services or a support hotline. In the United States or Canada, dial 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline). For psychedelic support, contact the Fireside Project at 623-473-7433 or https://firesideproject.org/hotline
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