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From Outburts to Peace How We Saved Our Marriage
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Julia welcomes Josh and Heather, a couple who have transformed their 23-year marriage through coaching and attending Breakthrough couples retreats over the past five years.
• Heather has gone from weekly angry outbursts to zero, while Josh has reduced his interrupting by 40%
• Their relationship once featured little communication, with Heather's outbursts driven by feelings of "not being enough"
• Josh describes how his need to control conversations stemmed from fear of abandonment and loneliness
• The couple experienced an "atomic bomb" moment when Josh's infidelity was revealed, forcing them to choose between real change or separation
• Heather learned to recognize her "impaired thinking" patterns and voice her needs instead of shutting down
• Josh discovered that what he thought was love (based on childhood observations) wasn't actually healthy connection
• Both emphasize that working on their individual relationships with themselves was crucial to healing their marriage
• They now describe their marriage as "exciting not dreaded" and find joy in the work of relationship
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Speaker 1Welcome to hey Julia Woods podcast . I'm your host , Julia Woods , founder of Beautiful Outcome , a coaching company focused on helping couples learn to see and understand each other , even in the most difficult conversations . On my podcast , I will share with you the real and raw of the messiness and amazingness of marriage . I'll share with you aspects of my relationship and the couples I coach in a way that you can see yourself and find the tools that you need to build the marriage you long for .
Speaker 2Welcome to another episode of hey , julia Woods . I am so excited about the results this couple is getting . I cannot wait for you to hear what's happening in their relationship . Today I am with Josh and Heather . Welcome , guys , thank you . Josh and Heather came to start working with me about four or five years ago . They started with coaching and now they have been consistently annually coming to Breakthrough my couple's retreat and in that time they are getting significant results , which we're going to talk about in a minute . Before we do that , let me add a little context . They've been married for 23 years , have three kids that range from 11 to 19 . And they live in Houston , texas . I think you guys born and raised in Texas , right , both of you .
Speaker 3Well Heather was born in Vegas .
Speaker 2Okay , vegas girl turned Texan . So , josh and Heather , thank you guys for being here and being willing to share your lives with us . Thank you for having us .
Speaker 3Thank you .
Speaker 2Yeah , so pre-recording . We were talking about some of the results and here we go , this work and attending Breakthrough . She has gone from having weekly outbursts in her communication with Josh to zero outbursts , which is super exciting . And Josh has the infamous challenge that man I think every spouse that I work with has this challenge Maybe it's just the ones who are most like me and that is interrupting in conversations , interrupting your spouse in the conversations and you're interrupting . Heather has decreased by 40% , which is a major , major shift . So that's pretty exciting , guys Like , let's talk about it . Let's talk about what was it like Each of you I want each of you to share . What was it like , heather ? What was when you were outbursts , having outbursts every week ? And Josh , what was it like for you when you were interrupting all the time ? What was that producing in your relationship ?
Speaker 3Go ahead .
Speaker 4Hey well , it was very lonely , the outbursts I could talk to myself and just go through , not wanting to be this person and not wanting to have this ugliness come out of me , while completely just being an angry mess . It was not nice to be in that position , just very ugly and sad , just being in the position of yelling , occasionally slamming things . Um , it was not who I wanted to be , it's not . It was a person I didn't recognize .
Speaker 2Um , yeah , what do you think ? What was taking you there ? What , what do you think you were angry about ?
Speaker 4you there ? What do you think you were angry about ? Oh , at the time I felt like I was angry about everything just not being heard or not enough . All the lies that we tell ourselves .
Speaker 2All the lies that we tell ourselves Not smart enough , not pretty enough , not skinny enough , not just not enough . Yeah , yeah , so your own relationship with yourself . You were angry that you felt not enough . What was ? Happening in the relationship that was bringing you to feel you weren't enough , Like what kind of what was happening in the conversations that would bring you to burst of anger , the outburst of anger in our conversations .
Speaker 4Well , we didn't really have too many conversations at the time , but what we did have , they were not good .
Speaker 2What is not good . I think so many couples would say that but what is not good ?
Speaker 4Um , from wanting to do like Josh , wanting to do things that I didn't like to do or didn't want to do . As far as a social gatherings , um , of course , I always would shy away from them . I'm not feeling enough . A lot of the conversations that we did have were things that I may not want to do or like to do , or about things that other people , about things that other people were wanting .
Speaker 2And I wasn't there . So you felt that other people wanted things from you that you didn't want to give . Correct yeah , and you didn't . Did you just go along and appease , or did you like would the angry outburst actually work to get you to not go to the social gathering , or like what would the outcome be ?
Speaker 4Outbursts , I think , would definitely allow me not to be able to go , and I felt at the time like , okay , I got my point across . This is not what I want .
Speaker 2However , it was not getting my point across and ultimately led just to deeper disconnection , deeper anger of the house taking care of the kids which , um , yeah , just oh , man , that ache , I feel it , I feel it in my own , like it resonates deeply with my own struggles , um , in just not owning my voice , and then the despair of trying to have my voice , but then the voice that I had led to loneliness , and then that loneliness just felt like more of the same , like I don't matter , I'm not , I'm not good , and this isn't what you said . For me , it was I'm not worthy of love , and so , no matter how hard I keep trying to get the love I want , I seem to keep pushing it further away . Any of that resonate ?
Speaker 4Definitely resonates Pushing further away .
Speaker 3Good . I feel like it led to total . What I would describe in our marriage at that point was total chaos how so , josh ?
Speaker 3so , as I look back and and look at these events , like it started , right , let's go back . We can go back 15 years , even 10 years . It started with , like I'm not , I want to go to that . You know , we , as I , as I replay these environments or these things that happen , you know she would quote , unquote , get her point across , right , but shut down and burst . And then I was . For me , it was like , well , she said , okay , I'm just gonna go do this thing . But then these things grew , right , and as these things grew , an ego grew or an excuse grew , and then it just created more disconnect . And that disconnect every , when I look back now , every event , whether it was a micro event , something small or a massive , like I'm gonna go do this for two days , right , or I'm gonna everything led to a decision that led to more chaos , to prove to me like I am , I'm enough , I'm doing all I can do . And then the lies grew in my head , which calls it was just this chaotic pattern that grew to an atomic bomb .
Speaker 2What was the atomic bomb ?
Speaker 3Oh gosh , that would have been on December 23rd , three , four years ago . It would have been uncovering infidelity and all of , I would say , everything that led up to that was the atomic bomb like that . That morning on her birthday or that night , actually , I was at a , I was at a bar . Like this would had grown to a point where , okay , I was at a bar , I was at a , football players or whatever it was was just always something going on and in my mind it could be justified with a business meeting , like I was raising capital or private equity or doing deals or and it was always with events or people . And then that grew into all of the disruptive things that you could possibly do in a marriage . I mean , we can go into detail if you want , but I don't know if that's necessary . And then one night I come home , smash drunk , hanging out with some football players at a bar drinking and smoking cigars . My kid broke his arm . I wasn't there for that . I said , oh , I'll be home on my way . And two hours later I still wasn't on my way . She handled that at the hospital . Three hours later , 12 hours later , 12 hours later , okay , so um , and then it went into uh , passed drunk , wake up in the morning I had plans to do what I needed to do to get her birthday cake and go meet a customer at a shop and all kinds of stuff and none of that that was the atomic bomb . None of that worked out . Like there was no me going to get a birthday cake .
Speaker 3Heather had found out everything two days before Christmas , on her 40th birthday , and at that point you know I'm not big on hypnotism , but in your mind you know some of the people I know they want to get hypnotized so they give into it , right . But there's a traumatic event , there's something that happens in the brain that wants to shift , shift . I think it's that . What's that ? Saying people change when their current reality is worse than change . And at that point it was . She spoke up and basically said it's all of that , or me , or we got problems and we need to work on this , and are you going to own up to it ? And that's that was the change . That was the atomic bomb , but everything prior to that , the , an outburst , and then a party , and then this , an event , and I'm not going to go , and I'm going to go . And then it grew in this ego . This monster grew and excuses grew , and then I was . I was right , no matter what .
Speaker 2Yeah , yeah , yeah , that's powerful . So , josh , we discussed at the beginning that your interrupting dropped by 40% , and what we looked at with Heather is that her relationship with herself was what was driving her angry outburst , her sense of not being enough . What do you think was driving your interrupting ?
Speaker 3do you think was driving your interrupting ? So you know we touched on this . I'm not narcissism , right , still learning but going deep into that or going deep into the control of a conversation . Right when , when , in a business like when you , when you think about focusing on a room or dominating a room or controlling a room , you control the conversation , you get to control the room , you get to be that person right and so bringing that that aspect home with me to my marriage and just consistently interrupting .
Speaker 3So she would start saying something , I would shut it down , I would say it and if I controlled the situation , I could control the environment , I could quote unquote , control her , but it wasn't looking back now , it wasn't controlling her . This is something we've learned over the years is that she was just shutting down , so she's in control of herself . But for me I could control that situation almost like in business or in a meeting or a room , and it would be a constant interrupt . But that wasn't just for the communication side . That interruption would go into me being the , the fix-it guy or me being the problem solver , any , anything that happened . I was going to interrupt , get to the bottom line and move right past it , and if it didn't , well then I'm just going to move past it .
Speaker 2Yeah , so , um , you know , control is an interesting thing and there is a saying that there's a pain in our past , we're trying to control in our future and it's creating chaos in our present , and one of the biggest ways it creates chaos is we're trying to control this present moment and trying to control something , whether it's shutting down , angry outbursts , you know , interrupting , those are all forms of control , but they're driven by fear , right ? Because when we're , we have a fear of something that drives us to anxiety , which leads to control , which then leads to rage , when what we're trying to control isn't being controlled . So what do you think in that interrupting , josh ? That is the fear underneath it . What is the fear that drives you wanting to control the conversation with Heather ?
Speaker 3you wanting to control the conversation with Heather . So we're at year three or four with you at least , and what I've learned and what I found is that and it wasn't until this last breakthrough , after really digging in normally I have micro breakthroughs , and this one was big and Heather had micros but and big one one . But I found that I had , I thought , the fear of failure initially . Was it like I can't fail ? But when I dug really deep , um , when I really looked into it , after really learning , it's the fear of being alone , my fear of loneliness . And then it started backing all the way up , going to my childhood and , I think , when I realized that I could be way off . But that fear of being alone would led me to wanting to control every conversation . And if I controlled the narrative , the conversation , the people , if I controlled the environment , if I walked into a room and controlled everything in that room , I wasn't alone , I was . I was the most present person , in control of everything , not realizing that we have control of nothing .
Speaker 2Yeah .
Speaker 3But looking back , I think our generation as a whole , we did everything alone . Growing up our parents would be like go get your bike , go outside , come home when the porch light comes on , when the sun comes . So we had to go figure it out on our own . We had every single thing go play . What the hell does play mean ? At six I'm going to go ride my bike by myself . So everything was alone to a point that subconsciously for me at least I couldn't . I didn't realize I couldn't handle being alone , but I had to be the biggest ego-driven , in-control person there was , even in my marriage against Heather , yeah .
Speaker 2Well , fear of abandonment is the overarching biggest human fear . We all , deep down , have that fear of being abandoned , because we are relational creatures . We're wired for relationship . Intuitively we know that we're wired for relationship . And , as a kid , when we are abandoned , as our caregivers are humans and they've got their things going on and there's different ways that we feel alone with them . Some can be extreme , some can be smaller , to learn that , oh no , it's my performance , because , a child , when something isn't going right , it's a natural , innate thing to make it about us . It's our fault , I'm the one causing this . So when abandonment happens , whether it's with our siblings or parents or whatever friends , we innately begin to believe it's based on our performance or lack of performance . And so we come up with these adaptive coping skills that are you know , controlling the conversation , in whatever form that is , whether it's interrupting or storming out or blowing up , or you know telling somebody they're wrong or that . We all have our own strategies . But a lot , if you really dig it down , it's usually our fear of abandonment and the coping strategies we learned to face that fear when we were young .
Speaker 2But the beauty of it is , once we get familiar with it , we actually can begin to shift to the gift side of fear , because fear is a gift . It's not a problem , it's a gift . It wants to take us to wisdom . It wants to take us to , you know , vulnerability and honesty . That wisdom comes through as you guys think about what's been happening for you over the years that are creating these incredible results . What are some what ? What shifted , like what ? Obviously , there was the big blow up . There was the atomic bomb , as you say , and so it was . Either we're going to do the work or we're not going to do the work and in the marriage , but what is the work been for you guys ? Like what , if you could bring it into today's world ? Um , you're still human , you still have the fear of abandonment . So what does it look like now ? Is there a recent conflict that you had where this came up as a temptation , but you worked through it differently ? What does that look like ?
Speaker 3You want to go .
Speaker 4I'm easy on this .
Speaker 3Go ahead .
Speaker 4Okay , well , I will say , very recently there was a thing that we were talking about and he had mentioned if it's not important enough for me to come back to , is it important enough ? And so he wanted to go on from there and just keep continuing the conversation , and that's where I had asked if we could just pause there for a minute and just kind of dig a little bit deeper into that , because , of course , my auto thought there is oh , I'm not good enough , I'm not important enough , I'm not . And so it was like okay , we're going to address this now .
Speaker 4So , for context , you were wanting to have a conversation , heather , and , and ask Josh if , help me understand if , if it's not important enough to address now or tell me again , sorry I got lost if it's not important enough for me to come back to , so if he has a thought that's happening for him , and if it's not important enough for him to come back to , is it important enough to have a discussion ? Is it important , um ?
Speaker 3yeah . So like I'll give an example . Let's say we're driving . My biggest thing is , if I'm driving , it's a lot of thing happened in the truck . Obviously it's texas , we drive everywhere is like she'll say something or we'll do something and I'll go to want to talk about it , but the complete conversation , like how to give myself the generous listen , isn't the time when I'm driving . That's what we're realizing a of .
Speaker 3It is like I've got 50 distractions going on when I'm driving and I can't be present for her . But in my head , is this learning now after years ? Like , is this a repeating conversation ? Is this an outside of like her ? You know me driving and her telling me to slow down or how to drive or whatever this right Like , but is this an outside of like her ? You know me driving and her telling me to slow down or how to drive or whatever this right like . But is this something in my head when we do sit down for talk time , is it the conversation I really want to have , or is the ? Or is this the old habit ? Is this me going back to mr fix it right then ? Is it an important conversation enough to take the special time with her to actually talk about big things that matter , if that makes sense .
Speaker 2Okay , so just for listeners . So I think I know what you mean by talk time . Talk time is what we call couples connection , where you weekly have a time at least a week you set aside a time to have real honest tension conversations , talk about where the tension's at in the relationship . Is that what you mean by talk time ?
Speaker 3Yes .
Speaker 2And how often do you guys do that ?
Speaker 3It depends . Sometimes we may go a month without talk time . I , I still am driven . This is , this is crazy . What I realized is that even as a kid , when , when my parents right , it's , it's everything we learn , and Heather's like , oh , let's schedule some talk time , I'm like did I do something wrong ? What's wrong ? What happened ? And I immediately go to like what the hell did I do ? Versus the opportunity to actually take this time . So , yes , when we do schedule or when we do have talk time , or when we're sitting and we'll have coffee in the morning or on the back porch or whatever , we have a little bit of special time for . Is that conversation , the talk time , a reoccurring one that I want to spend that nap ?
Speaker 2Right , okay , good , makes sense . And so , in essence , heather , that's when he was saying , like is this important enough to come back to at talk time .
Speaker 4Correct .
Speaker 2Okay , good , sorry , I'm caught up now . Sorry .
Speaker 4So that was a tension , because he was asking if it was important enough to come back to and you wanted to talk about it right then well , he was just saying whatever conversation he thinks about throughout the days , um , because we were , we were looking at the root cause of our disconnection , and so he was trying to think about , well , his times of disconnection , if it was anything important enough to come back to . And so , before going on , I wanted to address the fact of what he finds important , and we didn't actually get through the conversation as something else had come up . Um , but for me , when I recognized that , okay , I'm going into this impaired mode of thinking and just okay , I'm not enough , I'm not important , can we address this question now ? You know , and here's my questions . You know , what is ? What do you mean by important ? You know , because our ideas of important are going to be something very different .
Speaker 2Yes , yes .
Speaker 3So , like my mind goes to , if I'm a person that speeds all the time , right , and she's bringing up speeding and I'm just using a very simple term right , and we have attention about my driving and doing 10 over , 15 over , versus another conversation , is that conversation , is that speeding conversation and trying to decide when , when there's talk time , is that attention to bring up , or do we have a bigger conversation to have ? That's what I mean by important .
Speaker 2Yeah , okay , great . So , heather , you said you noticed you were going to the impaired thinking . How did you notice that ?
Speaker 4my thoughts , just thinking , okay , when he said important , is it important enough to come back to ? And when I think about , you know , is something that keeps happening , you know , important enough to come back to ? Well , if it's something that keeps happening , it may not necessarily be something that's important , but it is something that's causing tension , right , so that it that needs to be addressed , or I would like it to be addressed , and so it may not be even a matter of importance , but just something that I notice is happening . And so my impaired thinking there was okay , I'm not feeling like I'm important if I can't talk about something . And then I begin to , you know , the automatic of want to shut down , of you know , oh , I don't want to feel that uncomfortableness of not being important . And so that's what I could feel and I brought forward to him to be able to say , okay , let's talk about this .
Speaker 2Okay , good , all right , good . So what I hear you saying is that in the past you would have gone to the impaired thinking of , okay , I'm not enough , I'm not important , and you would have just shut down . This time you recognize the thinking and realized that wasn't taking you where you wanted to go . So instead you confessed to Josh , hey , I'm telling myself I'm not important . This feels important to me . Can we talk about it ? Is that kind of what you're saying happened ?
Speaker 4Yes .
Speaker 2That is a powerful shift , and it's amazing that angry outbursts are just usually when we haven't been willing to have our voice . But having our voice is just simply being honest about what I'm telling myself most of the time . Yeah , that's good , josh , did you find yourself wanting to interrupt her in that conversation ?
Speaker 3No , actually no , I liked listening because it allowed me to . I actually got to process how she is interpreting what I mean as important . Yes , five years ago I'd have been like , what the hell do you mean ? It's not important to me , so it doesn't matter . And then that would have controlled the situation to get her to shut down , to end the conversation , to go on about something else . I mean , I can see the pattern five years ago and I'm like , oh , wow , but I'm going to go back to childhood watching what my parents did . Growing up was , effectively , I'm never going to be like that , but I was being like that .
Speaker 2I I'm never going to be like that , but I was being like that . Well , interrupting is , uh , you know , it's pretty one-on-one for us when it's it's a very common strategy , right , and it's it's getting to that fear underneath it . What am I afraid of in this moment , right ? And when I can get honest about the fear and confess the fear , I can actually start asking questions that help me face the fear and realize the fear isn't I'm not going . I can choose to be alone in this conversation by interrupting it and controlling it , or I can choose to be present in this conversation and connect with this other human being who's very much like me and all of a sudden I'm no longer afraid , I'm alone . I actually feel more deeply connected , simply because I was willing to be present with what's there , rather than fearing like , oh , if they're upset , it must be about me , it must be .
Speaker 2I did something wrong , I'm going to be abandoned because I keep doing the wrong thing . Their opportunity is just simply to be present . So that's a big shift , josh . To go from this would have been a conversation . You interrupted her and sounds like you just shut the conversation down by taking it in the direction you wanted to go . So what shifted for you to want to listen ?
Speaker 3Oh , that opens up a whole box there . So you know , when I first started , when we first started working with you and we went through the actual coaching program , I , prior to that , what I identified as love and connecting was what I saw growing up , which was you eat , you fight , you make up , you have sex , you watch TV , you eat , you fight and you just repeat this process . But then going through , going through the coaching , it , coaching it was wow . I don't even really know what love is in a sense of what my spouse sees love as right , like . What does she see ? And what did I know love was ? And realizing I didn't know what love was like . I knew that's what love was , but that wasn't what love does , right , right . So opening up that year process and then realizing that that connection and being able to look at her or being able to talk felt so much softer , it felt so nice . It's almost like you know I had , and I'm sure we have people that are spiritual or believe in God or don't , whatever they want , but there's a , there's a higher power out there , there's a , something that can't be explained and one time we were coming back prior to your program , we had gone . I'm going to tantrum real quick . We had gone to some counseling and we would leave counseling more confused than anything . It wasn't like maybe there's a purpose for it , but the purpose wasn't going to help where we were at .
Speaker 3And then , um , I'm driving down the road 45 North Houston speed limits what ? 75 , 80 . I mean it's 65 , but we you know anyways . And all of a sudden I start shaking and I couldn't like , I'm like I don't know why you love me , like what is that Right ? And I , I saw that everything went black . I couldn't even pull over .
Speaker 3I'm driving and I saw my path of of where my marriage should go with my family and life . And then I saw where I was at and a path of destruction and lies and deceit and where it was headed . And I got to touch that and it was almost like a drug , like I knew when I touched that you're not going to take that away from me . And that feeling inside of that peacefulness , I call it the Holy Spirit , right Touched . But that I knew is what I wanted . And then , when I actually started participating in being vulnerable and realizing the love and the communication and the connection , that connection that I feel when I actually take the time was the connection I felt when I got to touch whatever it is I got to touch while I was driving , so going into , what made me want to do more of that was that feeling of giving it the chance to understand what that feeling was and learning , relearning , or actually learning what love is .
Speaker 2Mm-hmm . Yeah , yeah , and how ? What would you say ?
Speaker 3love is say love is . Now love is . I would say love is really wanting to be present , like it's going to open up another box , but being present and being there for my family not for me being there for god and really providing not just money or a house , but actually the , the nourishment for the soul , like really really just coming together , um , and that's something how every day I got to work on well , yeah , it's .
Speaker 2The journey of life is to become love , right ? Yeah , love is , love is sacrificial , and not in a doormat kind of a way , but in a genuine joy kind of a way , like I don't have time for a conversation , but there's nothing more important to me than this conversation , that sacrificial love that is , it's powerful .
Speaker 3Heather really showed me , heather really showed me when she the forgiveness , the relentless pursuit , even after everything , of like okay , let's , let's do this together . That was love . Like okay , she can forgive me and she can still communicate and connect with me . Oh , my goodness , this is what love is . Even the family , her family , my in-laws . And when everybody knew everything , it was still like okay , let's talk . It wasn't a shut out , shut the doors . It wasn't like a medieval time of you're kicked out of the castle and never come back type deal .
Speaker 2Yeah , yeah , yeah . So , as you guys think about these results of Heather , you owning your voice and not shutting down and bursting out in anger , and Josh , you not you having a significant decrease in interrupting , what difference is it making Like what is ? How is life different day by day with those two new results ?
Speaker 4with those two new results . Life is definitely different day by day . It's exciting and not dreaded . I'm continuously learning more about myself to be able to get results for myself and the marriage , just learning more , leaning into those tensions . It's not so like I said , it's not a dread , it's not like oh , here we go again and you know it's exciting .
Speaker 2Yeah , that's that is powerful , because you know that is the common thing , that , as humans , when the tension shows up , it's like , oh , no , here we go . Oh , and many couples , a common phrase I hear is it's like oh , no , is this going to be the fight that ends it all ? Like there's that fear of cause . The fights are getting bigger and , you know , more challenging and so , um , it's pretty powerful to move from dread to excitement . That's big . And you said , for listeners , I want to press a little further into that , just real quick . I know we're at time , but you went from . We discussed at the beginning that it's your relationship with yourself . That was what needed to be worked on , and now you just said that you're learning a lot more about yourself . So can you connect the dots between like ? Did you not care about like ? Were you not learning about yourself in the past ? What does it mean to learn about yourself ?
Speaker 4I definitely was not learning about myself , about myself , and now it's taking the time to focus on my feelings and my thoughts , what I'm thinking about and where that's taking me , and like journaling , there's so much over the past years . You know I'm very close to God and I know who he says I am , but I did not know who I was for me and the rest of the world , whether it be my husband , my friends , my family , complete strangers . I felt at one time I was lost and it was like , oh , who is this person ? But sitting with myself and being able to go through what I'm feeling and voice that and get that out , instead of holding it in and letting those negative thoughts run the show , I'm able to come out .
Speaker 2Yeah , yeah . Gaining our voice starts with us giving ourself a voice in our own way , whatever that is , whether it's journaling or , you know , talking it out or whatever . But if we don't know ourself , if we aren't listening to ourself , no one else is going to listen to us . Powerful Josh , what about you ? What difference is it making in you guys' life day to day , as you both are seeing this growth ?
Speaker 3I would say life is just better , right . So I go back , I'm going to go to you . Know how somebody comes to you and they say well , marriage is work right .
Speaker 3And you hear it in their tone and they're just almost disappointed . They're almost . What we've all been taught is that you got to put into work . It's going to be monotonous , it's going to be dull , it gets old and going through everything . Now marriage is work , but it's fun . So the difference it's made for me is it's fun and it's really amazing to connect . Like everything that we get to do is I'm gonna I'm gonna use that word you used to gift and a chance to grow stronger and connect more and go , go , do fun . Things like sure , marriage can be work . Yeah , that work can be fun yeah right .
Speaker 3So for us it's changed everything every , I mean everything , from , you know , dinners to sex to even , you know , having a drink or something , or anything we do is just it's a good time together versus the work . Um , that's , that's the difference for us . For me , that's what it is . I think that everything that I've been taught about marriage was wrong .
Speaker 2So grateful for your willingness to open up and share . I think there is a lot of powerful similarities in every human if they want to listen and consider how they work to control the narrative , out of fear of being abandoned , out of fear of being alone . And so grateful for you guys and any last thing either of you feels you want to share . I do .
Speaker 3I've used this twice since the last breakthrough , you know , when we were sitting there and you had mentioned something , that if we don't work on ourselves now and somebody gets divorced , another person ends up with the same person . There's no difference , right ? So two of my friends they they're going through some problems and I I actually told them that like , listen , you can get divorced but you're still the same person that's taking those issues to another person now . That's new . And to look at fixing , quote , unquote fixing , look at focusing on you and developing you in that marriage first . Then you get the chance to decide do we want to be together or not , and at that point that's okay . That's something that I've realized . Like , for us , I'm not looking at a point like we don't want to be together . It's amazing together . But when you said that this last breakthrough and I've taken that it has fundamentally changed the outlook I see on divorces now and friends that have issues , and it's 100% accurate that you have to do that first .
Speaker 2Yeah , it's the relationship we have with ourselves sets the tone for every other relationship that we have . So everywhere I go , there I am , and so if it's not working in this relationship , it's probably going to eventually pop up in the next relationship , because it's me , it's my own relationship with myself that is inviting me to grow . So thank you , guys , and thank you to those of you that joined us in listening . I'd love to hear what you're taking away , if you'll share in the comments below , and if this made a difference for you , would you give it a rate ? It give it five stars and share it with a friend . Thank you so much .