Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast with The Matadoras
Surviving Toxic Relationships is a Christian podcast for women who are ready to break free from toxic, emotionally abusive, or narcissistic relationships and step into healing, clarity, and truth.
Deana and Lizzie are two women whose lives unexpectedly crossed when they were married to the SAME manipulative, cheating, financially abusive partner.
Their combined passion is to provide women with the tools to avoid, escape, or heal from toxic, harmful, or confusing relationships.
If you’ve been searching for faith based wisdom that goes deeper than surface-level advice, this show is for you. We talk honestly about trauma, emotional wounds, spiritual confusion, and the process of rebuilding your identity through faith.
Our esteemed guests consist of Therapists, Authors, Doctors, and Survivors. Together, we explore topics that include self-discovery and healing, narcissistic abuse, boundaries, discernment, and learning to hear God’s voice clearly in relationships.
Whether you’re trying to avoid early red flags, are in the middle of a toxic relationship, or recovering from one, this emotional and spiritual healing podcast offers real conversations, practical insight, and biblical encouragement to help you move forward into hope, restoration, self worth, and renewal.
Remember beautiful friends: You are not alone, You are not crazy, and You are deeply, deeply loved.
Deana & Lizzie
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast with The Matadoras
Episode #69: Am I The Toxic One in the Relationship??
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Am I the Toxic One? | Surviving Toxic Relationships with Lizzie & Deana
Are you the toxic one... and don’t even know it?
In this eye-opening episode of Surviving Toxic Relationships, Lizzie and Deana turn the mirror inward to explore a question many avoid: Could we be contributing to the toxicity in our relationships?
Together, they unpack the subtle but critical differences between toxic behaviors and trauma responses, and how unresolved trauma might be driving harmful patterns. This isn’t about blame—it’s about self-awareness, accountability, and growth.
Through candid conversation and practical tools like journaling and self-assessment strategies, Lizzie and Deana guide you on how to:
- Recognize toxic traits in yourself and others
- Understand the root causes (like fear of abandonment)
- Take actionable steps toward healing
- Build support systems that uplift your journey
- Stop repeating toxic cycles—and start rewriting your story
Whether you’ve asked yourself “Am I the toxic one?” or just want to create healthier relationships, this episode is your roadmap to transformation.
🔍 Key Takeaways:
- Toxic behavior often stems from unhealed trauma
- Self-reflection is essential for personal growth
- Accountability is the first step toward lasting change
- Support systems and journaling can accelerate healing
- You can change—and the desire to do so is your greatest strength
Hit play to reflect, reset, and rise above the toxicity—starting with you.
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Disclaimer: The views expressed by our guests are their own, and this show is for educational purposes only. It is not therapy, medical, or professional advice, and listening does not create a therapeutic relationship. If you need personalized support, please reach out to a licensed professional. If you’re in crisis or immediate danger, please call 911 for help.