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There Are Some Things You Can Only Learn in a Storm

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We can only learn certain things in life's storms – like our true resilience, how much we trust God, and the depth of our faith in our own intuition.

• The current quantum energy shift is causing evolution in the collective, bringing higher vibrations that push out our blocks
• When uncomfortable emotions arise, they signal an opportunity to face what we've been avoiding
• Many of us have inherited patterns of suppressing our inner knowing, pushing down what doesn't feel right
• Facing storms rather than running from them builds our "faith muscles" and spiritual strength
• Theresa shares personal stories of storms from her youth and recent decision to leave Florida
• The "calm after the storm" comes when we've faced our truth and aligned with our higher path
• God watches over us during storms and brings us out when their purpose has been fulfilled
• Our ego reminds us of our failures to keep us "safe," but we can choose to focus on past victories instead
• Taking time to list and remember your storm victories helps build confidence for future challenges

Please smash the like button, hit subscribe on whatever platform you're listening, and share this podcast with someone who needs to hear it. Join me on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion.


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There are some things that you can only learn in a storm, like how resilient you are, how much you trust God if you have courage and audacity and, most importantly, how much faith do you have in your own knowingness? Welcome back, welcome back to Free to Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step out of old patterns and programs and give a big old hug to not only a new earth, but a whole new way of being. And this is Teresa Marie, your traveling ambassador of Chi, and I hope this finds you in the greatest of health, with vibrant energy today, because you have chosen, along with myself, to accept full responsibility for your body, mind and soul. Here we're going to inspire each other to truly be who we came here to be, which starts with authenticity, honesty, vulnerability, which leads into true freedom and alignment with your highest potential. So if this show is beginning to resonate with your soul, please smash the like button and hit subscribe on whatever platform you're listening and share it with somebody. And then join me, teresa Marie, on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. And I do want to welcome you to this magnificent Open your Mind Monday episode of Free To Just Be. I am super, super excited to be here and I have literally turned a page to a new chapter of my journey. But boy, oh, boy, baby, as you can tell from last week's episodes my series on full exposure it has been quite stormy in Teresa Marie's world lately, and that's what I want to focus on today.

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I want to talk about the storms, the storms of life. And why is that so relevant today? Well, because with this quantum change of energy that we are experiencing, with this evolution of the collective of humanity all going through various levels of evolution, we are all having to experience the love and light rushing in coming up from Mother Earth. And what does that love and light, that goodness, the good stuff, the higher vibrations, what do they bring into our life? Well, they start pushing upwards, or outwards, depending on where they are. The blocks that we've held onto, the things that we were not willing to look at, let alone let go of, the things that have been anchored in the very cells of our body, are beginning to get loosened and they're starting to roll around within us, and it's causing us often to feel very, very uncomfortable. You feel very, very uncomfortable, very much like a hurricane going on inside in our heart, in our emotions and definitely this battle between our ears. Welcome to the evolution of the human soul. It is full of storms, folks, and if you're not a storm person, if you've always been afraid of thunder and lightning, well, dare I say, it's going to be a little bit more difficult for you to navigate the storms that are raging around us.

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And at first on the journey, we have the tendency to focus on the storms, on the external, for example, the weather, we can identify a very base program when we immediately are thrust into the fear, fear, fear of oh, it's hurricane season. Oh, we better prepare. Oh, we better board up the windows. Oh, fear, fear, fear is nothing, I remind you, but false evidence appearing real. Now, yes, we do have to be quote unquote wise and we have to, uh, be logical. Um, in certain situations, and, yes, when everybody else has been evacuated, it's probably time to evacuate in a weather situation.

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But I'm here to tell you that when a storm rises inside you, an emotional storm, a mind-blowing storm, a storm that you cannot stop thinking about, that you cannot stomach anymore, those are the storms that you need to turn, dig your heels in and face it. Uncomfortability will rise to a new height that you probably never even experienced. But I'm also here to give you a witness that the very first time you do it and you come out the other side of the storm smelling like a rose, the sunshine is shining again, all the flowers are blossoming in your life and you're like dang, am I good man? I did that. That is your beginning point. That is where you begin to exercise those faith muscles and you begin to recognize that, yes, that was a stretch of my darkness, part of the dark night of my soul. But instead of turning away from it, instead of once again which, by the way, is really no fault of our own, except for the fact that, well, I can't even say that we allowed it, I think our ancestors allowed it and we have just been part of that collective legacy of doing what Shove it down, shove it down. That uncomfortability, that siren that's going off, that's saying to you no, no, no, no, no, this isn't right, this isn't right. And we push it down, and we push it down and we go forward in spite of that is your knowingness speaking.

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And the first time you answer the knowingness call. You begin your weight training, you begin your demon slaying class 101. You begin your true, true faith walk because you, just like David facing Goliath, have to learn how to stop running away. And this is spoken out of the mouth of a runner. This is spoken out of the mouth of a stuffer. This is spoken out of a mouth of a grandiose thinker who would take one little grain of good and pump, pump, pump it up. This is out of the mouth of somebody who is a headbanger. And what's a headbanger? You ask Somebody that takes two, three, four, five times to get a lesson. But baby, five times to get a lesson? But baby, those of us that take that long. Those lessons are so deeply set within our psyche, within our spirit, mind and body, that we will never, ever, ever go back to the way it was. We will be much more rapid at turning and facing.

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Remember, just picture when you were a kid and the first time you were walking home from wherever. Now, maybe I'm dating myself. Most kids don't even walk home from school anymore. But just picture a time in your life when, maybe, life when, maybe, oh, I think of many times that I literally dodged bullets. I'll give you a real, the epitome of stupidity that I was literally rescued from.

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I can remember in my freshman year in high school when I was taking the A train to Stella Morris Catholic High School and there was this quote unquote good looking man that rode the train with us. And when you're 14 years old and green behind the ears and know nothing, when a good looking anybody smiles your way, especially when you have felt like you were the ugly duckling with the American thighs and didn't have the right clothes and really didn't care but all of those things and that good looking guy or good looking girl smiles your way, oh, buddy, your mind can just. You can lose your mind right then. And little by little, this person began talking to me. And here I am 14 years old, and this is a grown ass man. I mean, he was probably late 30s, early 40s, if I have any recollection of this person. And then the day came where I came to my stop and he got off too and he said the fateful words you want to ride home and the dummy that I was at 14, I literally to this day think that I dodged the bullet of possibly a serial killer, if not a rapist or a pedophile, because, remember, I was illegal, I was 14. And I remember that ride home and he was asking me questions and I, you know, I was honest, I was totally. I was answering every one of the questions. Oh yeah, I live in Richmond Hill and yeah, my dad is a policeman and that's probably what saved my ass. And I don't remember knowing I was in the middle of a storm and that is kind of how storms begin Another example of storms that creep up on you and you don't recognize it. My sister, marianne, will remember this story and my dad would too, and he probably remembers now in heaven. I'm talking to you two right now.

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So my sister had and again, I was younger than 14. I was maybe 12, 11 or 12. And my sister, who was four years older than me, she had already started some part-time job. I don't remember exactly the details in that, but she had bought herself a Peugeot 10-speed bicycle. Now, at that point I was a bicycle fanatic. I had graduated from my swim bike with the handlebars and the sissy seat and the banana seed and the basket with the flowers on it. Yep, I always wanted to be a hippie. I just quite missed it just a little bit. I was born in 61. So unfortunately I couldn't be at Woodstock but, oh baby, I wanted to be.

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And she hardly ever rode that bike and it used to drive. I was so jealous of that bicycle and back then, way back, you know, over 50 years ago, I remember she paid like $180, which is like a millionaire bike, okay, and she would keep it locked in our garage. But I happened to know where the key was Because every once in a while she would let me have the gratification of riding this bike. Well, one day, when my sister wasn't home and my friends asked me to ride to Forest Park in Ozone Park, I wanted to go so bad but there was nobody there to ask. So of course, you already know what Theresa Marie did yes, indeed, indeed, indeed. That's exactly what I did. I asked nobody, I went and retrieved the key and unlocked the bike and took off with my friends, only to get to Forest Park, when, if you've lived on the East Coast Florida, new York, anywhere on the coast you know that when a rainstorm comes up, it comes up right quick and sometimes it can be torrential like so torrential you cannot even see in front of your windshield.

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Okay, so you know, I thought I was such a badass back then we started riding home. We were going to beat the storm okay, we were going to outride the storm. And because I was so paranoid about riding my sister's bicycle without permission, riding my sister's bicycle without permission, thinking that, oh no, my dad would arrive home before me or whatever it was, I was thinking back then. But I took off and I went out ahead of my pack of friends there was probably four or five of them and they were riding and I can remember getting ahead of them when the rain started and it was coming down so hard and I was having a hard time riding against the wind, against the wind. Remember that song? Well, that's what I was doing, and I kept hearing yelling behind me. But I was so determined to get home before them that I didn't realize they were yelling, that I missed the turn.

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So instead of ending up near my house, I ended up on the other side of Forest Park and then I had to ride back through the storm. And as I got closer to my house, all of a sudden, the light before me, as I was approaching this light was turning red and I had both my hands on the brakes of that Peugeot 10-speed and I had both feet down, but because it was raining so hard, I was skidding right through the rain. My brakes weren't functioning at all and I could see the car. It was a white car and the man had a ponytail and he was happily crossing the intersection, having no idea that my bicycle was careening downhill towards him. And just as he passed the intersection, my bike collided with the back fender of his vehicle and I wrecked, my sister's bike, fell on the ground and I was momentarily knocked unconscious.

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And I woke up with people around me looking down at me, saying we think we should call an ambulance, and I was so freaked out about that bicycle that I got up dizzy, my hands were bloody, my knees were hurt and the bike, the frame of the bike, was twisted. But I got up and and I told them I'm fine, I'm fine. And I rode away, away from the, the, the people getting ready to call the ambulance, and I went to the closest place near me and that was the place that I babysat to Beverly Abates Yep, I used to watch her sons, stephen and Scott. I wonder where they are today. But anyway, I showed up at her house and after she calmed me down and ascertained that I wasn't in any life-threatening wound area.

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She called my dad and I was petrified, and my dad showed up and said nothing, you want to talk about calm? Before the storm, that eerie like, oh God, what's going to happen? Calm, that's the calm of the storm that I was facing that day, and he said nothing, just like all the birds all of a sudden being quiet. Nothing. All the way home. He put the bike in the trunk and said nothing to me, not a word. Not, are you okay? He thanked Beverly and off we went, and that is a storm that you don't see coming, a storm of your own creation, and many of the storms that we face in this journey of evolution are really a revisiting of decisions that we made in our past, and as triggers come up and as things come up in our life, we have to turn and face the consequences of our decisions. Now, there's always goodness that comes out of the storm, though, so I just talked to you about different scenarios of the storm, and so now I want to utilize some of the quotes. I love quotes, can you tell? So here's a great one.

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And all the quotes I'm using today. None of them had a name, so I'm going to assume that they were all anonymous. The first one says the calm before the storm is when you prepare to meet it. Oh baby, I was in that car and I knew I was going to meet the storm on the other side of that ride home and, sure enough, I was grounded for two weeks. I think I had to do some kind of restitution for my sister's bicycle I'm not sure, marianne, do you have an answer on that one and I remember being all banged up and all I could think about was there was no compassion. I could have been dead. I remember waking up and having all those people around me and I look back on that and I was thinking I survived getting hit by a car, or rather hitting a car, and all they cared about was me being grounded. Well, of course, you know that is a child's perspective, not recognizing that my behavior, not recognizing that my behavior, my choices put me in the consequence that I had, and maybe it was tough love that I received.

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But the calm before the storm is when you prepare to meet it. The calm after the storm is when you realize you beat it again. So that was one of my first storms that I met and it's taken me almost a lifetime to recognize that. You know, I was in error and my dad was doing what any good dad would do, what God would do. He would discipline you. And now, as an adult, I recognize the many, many, many storms that I have gone into, some by my own creation, some by the creation of others. But over and over again, humanity, you need to remind yourself sometimes, especially when the storm is raging, that you beat storms in the past. Now I am in a period this week where all I am to do God's given me testimony to this. My physical body has attested to this and I just know in my my own heart that it is time for me to enter the calm after the storm. I've had to wait for the peace to return. Once more. It's taken me.

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I am just shy of a month home now, and when I pulled out of Florida, I knew what I had to do and I was preparing myself to do so. What kind of preparation was I doing? Well, being real quiet, not listening to a whole lot of teaching and then listening to so much that it would drown out any possibility of listening, and I would vacillate back and forth through that. Have you ever done that when you avoid, avoid, avoid and then you just sit and sit and sit right in it? So I seesawed back and forth from that and then, when I arrived, I knew what I had to do and I just had to clear the way to do so. Once I left Florida, I could feel a lifting, a confirmation, a validation of my intuition, and I knew that I had made the right decision. And I felt just like when I left Washington State 25, almost 20, it's actually 20, no, it's 25 years at the end of August yes, 25 years ago when I left Grandview, washington, and my son and I crossed the Washington State line, it was literally like we could feel the pressure and the weight lifting off of our backs. That's how oppressed we were in Washington state when we left, and that is exactly how I felt.

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Well, and I had pre-storm warnings two or three weeks before I left the position that I was in. Two or three weeks before I left the position that I was in, I didn't have to go into the building anymore, and I had two weeks of that and boy, the liberation started. Right then I was just like, wow, I can't believe the difference being outside, and I just at first I thought it was just because I love people, I like being amidst people and I was out doing outreach and I was talkingst people. And I was out doing outreach and I was talking to people and I was doing classes outside the building. But no, it was more than that. It was definitely more than that. And then I realized after I left Florida that that was a preview of the piece.

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And when I finally got home I've already shared with you what an incredible difference began to flow into my life again, into my heart, mind and soul. The freedom, the energy, the flow was back in my life. I didn't realize how much trouble I had sleeping when I was in Florida. The first week I was home. The first four nights I was home here in Tennessee with my husband. I slept for nine hours straight four nights in a row, without even waking up to go to the bathroom.

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Now that is peace after a storm, and the first storm was making the decision to leave. That was a big storm in my life. Why? Because my ego, my pride. It's embarrassing to admit and be vulnerable and literally say to the world because I'm putting this podcast out for anybody to hear it. There are people in my past and people I went to high school with, and I don't give a rip because I believe that if I share authentically and vulnerably and rawly what I've gone through, there are people out there that are going to go oh wow, man, I did the same thing and if you can do it, I can do. And if I can inspire one person, then by golly I'm going to be freaking vulnerable. And so I was being prepared to do what I didn't want to do for four years, and that is admit that I was once again wrong, that I because I have a heart full of mercy and compassion got sucked in because somebody took my desire to not only shine for God but to help humanity and they took it for a ride around their block. And, yes, I did it again. Whoops, as Brittany said, whoops, I did it again. And yes, it was embarrassing and yes, it's no fun to have egg on your face. But here I'm letting you know that you can wipe your dang face off, but face it, just face the storm head on, and then you'll get the beauty of the peace afterwards, the freshness of that rain pouring through your body, mind and soul right. The freshness of that rain pouring through your body, mind and soul, right? So? Another quote that I loved by Warren Wearsby. He said he knows when we go into the storm, he watches over us in the storm and he can bring us out of the storm when his purposes had been fulfilled.

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Now, the moment my road trip back home to Tennessee began, I already had the ideas they were already downloaded to me that I was going to reveal as much in generalities, because I am not about taking anybody to court or calling anybody out or taking anybody's name through the mud, but those of the people in my world that know would know, and the rest of the world? It's just a lesson in generalities, right? So I knew that I was going to do this series of full exposure and I needed literally almost a month to prepare myself for that. Not because I knew what I was going to speak out each day, no, because that's not how God operates, or I operate as I do this podcast. I've told you before that I pray, I walk, I'm given an idea and then all I do is I gather my quotes. That's the only intel that I do. Otherwise, I let people know. I'm going to look at my notes because I had to look things up, but the only thing I do with the idea is generally quotes, and sometimes I get an actual dictionary definition. This was no different, but I was being prepared.

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He knew I was going into yet another storm. What did he do? He took me out of the storm. He, what did he do? He took me out of the storm.

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When I was in Florida, I was in a raging storm because those around me were saying one thing and I my intuition, my, my chi, my physical body was feeling and experiencing something completely other. And I, I kept questioning well, there's something wrong with me. No, there was nothing wrong with me, but everything that I had been feeling for three and a half years was coming to bear and I had to stop and I had to turn and look at it. And where did he have me at that time? He had me away from my husband. He had me away from my family. He had me living in a house by myself.

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Now, granted, I had a roommate, slash landlord that I shared the house with, but I was living on my own. Okay, she wasn't holding my hand. I was paying her a good amount of money every month to live in her beautiful home, but I was living on my own and I had many, many hours of solitude, a lot of which was during DoorDash time, and I recognize now that that was my way of pushing it down. Oh, I would. I, you know well, what can you do today? Well, I don't want to think about this now. Granted, this is retrospect, this is hindsight, knowingness. Okay, because in the midst of it I just thought well, I have to dash, I, I'm supporting myself, I have to get out there and dash. So I spent hours and hours and hours doing this door dash thing, but what did that avail me? Time alone, away from anybody else. And let me tell you the time periods between orders. God was right there, speaking, speaking, speaking. Sometimes I would listen and sometimes I would go na-na-na-na-na-na-na.

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Right, this is what we do in this evolutionary process, so please stop beating yourself up. It's a game of cat and mouse. It's the one, two, shuffle. It's the one. Two, three progress and we back up three or four steps. This is what happens as we evolve to a higher level of being. So I know he watched over me in the storm. There were many, many ways that he helped me, and I've talked about some of them.

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I could not slow myself down because if I slowed myself down then I would do nothing but think about what he was telling me I needed to do Leave, leave. It doesn't matter what anybody thinks. You know that. You know that you're not supposed to be here, that this is not of me, it's time to go, it's time to go. And I was refusing. And so I remember one night dashing, I was in such a hurry I ran a stop sign. And it's just hilarious to me now, because God had been telling me for a whole week slow down, stop, teresa, stop, just stop. And I wouldn't stop. So he said okay, you don't want to hear me. Now you have a hundred dollar ticket for running a stop sign. Oh, it gets worse. Then there was the day I was rushing around and rushing around and he kept telling me slow down, slow down, slow down. And no, I didn't listen. And then I got a speeding ticket. Oh, and I'm going to tell you the outcome of those decisions, probably tomorrow, anyway.

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So he watches over us in the storm, make no mistake. When you're in a storm, jesus is right there in the boat with you, and then he brings us out of the storm. So what did he do? I got home, I just came out of a storm and I rested. He literally brought me into this Incredible period of rest and my first five days home I cleared everything. I didn't door dash, I stayed away from any training, I didn't read, I just was with my husband. I was just with my home, I was with my children, I slept, I ate healthy food, I was in the calm after the storm. And why do we get periods of calms after the storm? Because the next storm is arising. The next storm is arising. This is life, folks. This is life. And he brings us out of the storm when his purposes have been fulfilled.

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My first purpose was to have the gumption to walk away when everybody else was staying, to do what I was being asked to do. That was the first storm he brought me out of and that was the first purpose that was fulfilled. And then he strengthened my resolve. He gave me back my resilience. I began to feel refreshed and at peace again. And here it came at peace again. And here it came the calm before the storm. And then I knew, I knew, I knew I was even given my exit date, which is no coinkydink. My exit date out of my last chapter of error was the Lionsgate portal of 8-8.

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August 8th was when I drew the line in the sand and ended my series called Full Disclosure and I talked about the very lessons that I learned the hard way, I might add, because I am a headbanger in my fifth round. Yeah, yeah, I definitely needed a tutor, and this time I had my whole family. My whole family knew before I did. My children were very leery about the organization I was in. My husband was very leery. I have many, many, many friends in this organization whose spouses felt the same way and many of us ignored those danger, danger warnings. We knew better, and so the purpose was fulfilled. I finished my podcasting of that chapter of my life and now I'm in this wonderful calm after the storm.

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Calm after the storm, and it's a beautiful thing to be here because you see, the calm after the storm, because, as we're going through this evolution, trials are inevitable. Folks, we are going to go through storms but rather than focusing on the dreaded quiet before, the huge pain and we know it Now think about it. All of us have hindsight experiences where you know before things busted out, and I'll give you a quick picture, like the jack-in-the-box If you press things down that you don't want to deal with and you press them down and you press things down that you don't want to deal with and you press them down and you press them down and you press them down, just like that jack-in-a-box in your preschool years. There is going to come a day where somebody hits that lid and that jack-in-a-box is going to go and it's going to pop out and it's going to dump on somebody, rage at somebody or maybe turn it inward to a massive depression or some real anxiety-filled days where you're on the bed in the fetal position. Ever been there? Oh, buddy, I can't count on my hands and fingers how many times I've been there, right? So? But you know, you know that quiet. You know because you're ruminating on it. You know what you have to do and you're battling in your head, which is why you become depressed and anxious because you don't want to deal with it, and anxious because you don't want to deal with it. So, rather than focusing on the dreaded quiet before that huge pain, from now on, how about we highlight the celebration that comes post-battle Now? I want you, right now, before I close today's episode. I want you to think about a victorious dark night of the soul that you've already come through. Maybe it was a financial struggle, a relational struggle, a physical struggle, a spiritual battle, but you came out the other side and you learned a great lesson that you value even to this day.

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We all have them, but yet what does our ego? Constantly run in our brain? The have-nots. So when you have the negative, when you have the have-nots, when you have the fear, fear, fear running in your brain, just automatically start to remember that is your ego's job. Your ego's job is to remind you of the things that you have failed at, because it, its main job, is to keep you safe. And if he, if he or she I'm talking about your ego now, which, by the way, you can never dissolve it's always with you, but you can learn to tell it to get the hell in the backseat of the car, that you don't need it as your sidekick anymore, right?

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So when those tapes come up, if you begin to recognize that that's your ego trying to keep you safe, and you begin to have conversations, conversations with your ego, like you know what? I know? You've kept me safe all these years, but I'm not that little girl anymore, I'm not that little dude anymore. I am my higher self and my higher self is leading me to higher ground. And, yes, sometimes it looks scary because we don't know if we're going to get there.

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But I want you, ego, to look back. Look at all the times I have been victorious, look at all of my successes, and if you begin to do that, the storms will be a whole lot easier year to face. So let's remember all the gold stars that we have already from coming out of storms. And when we wait for the calm after the storm, we wait for the peace to return once more, and know that if you're in a storm today, you will eventually find the peace of God that passes understanding. And that's where I'm at right. Now I am in a healing period. Once again, I am going to have to shut down inquiries and texts and emails for a time, for a season, because I know that. I know that I am going to be utilized in some way, shape or form, to help others heal as well.

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And so today, as you face yet another historic milestone in your own personal evolutionary journey to becoming a new way of being preparing ourselves for a new earth. Why don't you look back and take five minutes today and list some of your victories and maybe post it somewhere where you'll see it when that storm begins to rise again, and know that wherever you are in the process, you are still the apple of God's eye and he's got you in the palm of his hand, and that's a pretty dang safe and secure place to be. And that's a pretty dang safe and secure place to be. I love you so much. Humanity. Have yourself a magnificent Open your Mind Monday, and I hope this opened your mind and heart a little bit more today too. Peace out.