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Embracing Your Sovereignty: The Transformative Power of Personal Stories
Have you ever considered that the very experiences causing you the most pain might someday become your greatest gift to others? This transformative revelation lies at the heart of today's deeply personal exploration of journaling and purpose.
Since 1979, I've documented my life's journey through countless journals—spiral notebooks, leather-bound books, composition notebooks—creating a tangible record spanning over four decades. These aren't just personal artifacts; they've become the foundation of my mission to inspire others through authentic sharing. As Deng Ming-Dao beautifully writes, "Writers write because they must. They hear voices others do not. They listen urgently and they must communicate what they hear." This powerful truth has shown me that our most painful experiences were never meant to be hidden away but shared as beacons of hope for others walking similar paths.
The global evolution of consciousness is forcing all of us to confront our unhealed traumas. Like my cat Sissy who spent twelve years hiding in a bathroom after early trauma, many retreat to emotional safe spaces, afraid to face their wounds. But the rising energetic frequencies on our planet are "pounding on the door of every trigger," making avoidance increasingly impossible. This explains why so many seem agitated or bewildered—they're experiencing internal shifts without understanding what's happening. Your unique combination of life experiences—your personal pattern of traumas, lessons, and victories—equips you to help others in ways no one else can. The very things that irritate you most often point toward your purpose, reflecting either something unhealed within or indicating the problems you came here to help solve. What if you're sitting on your future livelihood, a calling that would light you up every day while serving humanity? I invite you to ponder this question and recognize how your journal entries might transform into the exact medicine another soul desperately needs.
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My mission is to inspire and impact people by authentically and transparently sharing my relatable life experiences, encouraging them to look within and rediscover the love and light of God they truly are, and I want to welcome you back on this tremendous Tuesday to Free To Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step out of old patterns and programs and give a big, warm hug to a brand new way of being, and I hope this finds you in the greatest health, with vibrant energy today, because you have chosen, along with me, to accept full responsibility for your body, mind and soul. Here, teresa Marie will help inspire you to truly be who you came here to be. You to truly be who you came here to be, which starts with authenticity, transparency and honesty, which causes us to be free and fully aligned with our highest potential. So won't you join me on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion? And if this content is resonating with y'all, can you hit the like button and also subscribe to my channels on whatever platform you're listening to? I would sure appreciate it and I am very grateful for you allowing me to come into your earbuds and take some of your precious time, and I hope I can bring value to your life today because you chose to be with me. Yes, yes, yes. It is a tremendous Tuesday and I opened with my own life mission quote. That was a quote from me, teresa Marie, your traveling ambassador of chi. Yes, indeed, indeed, indeed. I had such a lovely Tai Chi Gong class last night in the park and I am hopefully getting ready to very soon have a new venue, an indoor venue, because soon and very soon, we will say goodbye to summer and the cooler, rainier weather will start moving into Tennessee. So exciting news on the horizon for my meditation in movement classes. It was really a great class last night and I'm so happy to be back in my hometown sharing it again Today.
Speaker 1:I want to open. I want to talk a little bit about journaling, about the value and what can actually come out of your journals. I have journals dating back to 1979. Yep, 1979. I was 18 years old and I think I had many before that, but I think I was pretty scared to keep them around Because you know, as a teenager, you don't want anybody to see your books. I know there was a season in my life I had a little black book too of all my sexual escapades, which I'm not very proud of. But document, document, document. It literally is you are writing your own book of life, is what you're doing, and I have 46 years. Stacks and stacks. Well, they're now packed in boxes heavy boxes, I might add spiral notebooks, bound notebooks, leather books, edition books, uh also parchment paper, loose leaf, uh, all sorts of uh journals in sizes and different shapes, and some of them are real beautiful and some of them were just, and my favorite actually are the black and white marble um bound notebooks that you used to use bound notebooks that you used to use in kindergarten and then you moved on up to college-lined bound notebooks.
Speaker 1:And one of the quotes I want to share today comes from, right now, one of my current favorite devotion books and I actually have three that I work from along with my Bible, but one is Jesus Calling, and I have loved that for years. I think I've already told the story about the little elf-like man that came up to me in a parking lot one time and said he wanted to give me a gift. And said he wanted to give me a gift and he led me to the trunk of his car and he had boxes and boxes of these Jesus Calling books by Sarah Young, and I remember my arrogance back then. Let's see, when was this? This was back in 2017. And I want to thank you, stan Barr, because on October 30th of 2017, he approached me in a parking lot and I was so full of ego and so arrogant back then and I said well, sir, I appreciate the thought, but I already walk with Jesus. Maybe you want to give this to somebody else. And he looked me right in the eye and he said no, god told me to give it to you.
Speaker 1:And now this book has been chewed on by one of my grand fur babies that would have been probably either Goose or Eva, and each corner is pretty chewed. But I couldn't get rid of it and I've given many, many copies of this particular book away myself Jesus Calling. In fact, I have one right now that I haven't even opened because Spirit hasn't told me to give it to any particular individual. And you know my ego was saying, oh well, why don't you open it and just let it be yours? But see, if I did that, I'd have a brand new book, but I would not have from Stan Barr with the date and his phone number in it and that was very valuable to me. So that's one of the books I read every day.
Speaker 1:The other one I read is from Cindy Trim, who many know her as a spiritual motivational speaker and she wrote the really good book called God's Power in your Life every day of the year and it's called Commanding your Morning and it's a daily devotional and I love specifically her very potent prayers and decrees and declarations. But the one I want to focus on a few lines from today is called the 365 Tao Daily Meditations and it's by Dong Ming Tao and it was way back in 92, 1992, he wrote this book. But when I read this this morning you know there are no coinkydinks that I had been sitting here during my meditation time this morning thinking about my journals and how invaluable they are to me and how in recent days I've recognized how important they are to my specific mission. So let me share these five lines from page 159 of the 365 DAO daily meditation book and it's called Writer. She withdrew into herself, first writing just for one, then, touching thousands, she incarnated ghosts, hurt and joy into paper and ink stories of wonder. Isn't that a beautiful depiction of journaling. And that is exactly what I was called to do a little over 10 years after that 79 journal, and that is to rawly, without any covering up. To be completely transparent, I was to share my life experiences. Thus mission statement that I open with, and I love this one little paragraph that follows that quote. It says one author said I can get rid of anything by writing about it, meaning that the process of externalization could liberate him from the pain in his soul. That realization produced a delicious dichotomy To free himself or to hold on to both joys and tortures by remaining silent about them.
Speaker 1:Writers write because they must. They need to express something from deep within themselves. They hear voices that others do not. They listen urgently and they must communicate what they hear. Is that not beautiful. What a beautiful picture and how very much I love that picture.
Speaker 1:I remember years ago, some years ago, I wrote a poem about a dream that I had about seeing the words from my journal come to life. And that is literally what I do with my communication skills and gifts and desires. I carry a journal with me wherever I go, whatever bag. I'm not a purse woman, but every once in a while I'll carry a purse and then inevitably I leave it somewhere, because I don't carry a purse, a knapsack, some sort of satchel, but I'm not a purse girl and I always have something right on. And, oh buddy, if I forget, I better hope to shout. I have a napkin and at least a pen in the car and the worst case scenario is I will pull up my voice memo.
Speaker 1:My dilemma with voice memos and laptops and typing things is that I never, seem to ever go back and utilize them. But my journals, oh buddy, now it's so funny. Journals intimidate people. Journals cause people anxiety, because some people are very fearful that what they've written, because some people are very fearful that what they've written might be seen. And I am literally coming out of the box of that thought and utilizing the things that I wrote in my journals. That is what, teresa Marie, your ambassador of chi. And what is chi? The intrinsic life force, energy. Well, I am a firm believer, more so than ever now.
Speaker 1:I always thought, oh my goodness, when is this Jerry Springer, ringer spin cycle that I'm on going to stop? Well, I was told in February, when I turned 64, that all the lessons from my past were over, and now I'm going to begin sharing them and a lot of what's been occurring in the last year or so is I'm becoming more and more, and if you hear a weird sound in the mic, it's because I have my beautiful friend and comrade, sonny Boy, a very big black cat who's about 14 years old, sitting on my lap and he occasionally rubs his jaw across the mic. So if you hear a weird noise, you can thank Sonny Boy, can't they? Yeah, and so, going back to the journals, I know that I am going to eventually use some of those very journal entries, especially the entries regarding the dark nights of my soul. We all have them, and I started to say that this last year.
Speaker 1:It's the stage that I'm in now in my evolutionary process is learning to step into my sovereignty, into my higher self, and not be afraid of the consequences, not be afraid of what others think, but rather be aware that when I do not operate out of that, because, see, once you open the door and let yourself out of the proverbial matrix box, which is nothing more than a thin veil Now, all of us have veil upon veil upon veil, but these veils are thin enough that you can begin poking holes and light will start streaming in and eventually, more and more light gets in, and I'm at what I believe is the tipping point. I am seeing and experiencing more light and flow in my light than the darkness now, and every time I come up against a piece of darkness that I need to deal with, I am less and less afraid, just like last week when I had to share the embarrassing experience of repeating yet another symptom of the exit of the matrix. Oh yeah, it took me five times to learn the lesson, but I do believe the lesson has seeped in so permeably that I permanently rather, I will not only not replicate it, but I will see it a mile away from now on. And so there's no foul in being foully wrong. There's no era that you can't recover and receive an incredible lesson and then go on to teach it to others, and people going forward may even thank you for the advanced warnings right. So I am eventually and I'm working diligently towards these processes and eventually and I'm working diligently towards these processes I have course material that's going to come out of those journals. I have coaching that's going to come out of those journals and I have a devotion book that's going to come out of those journals. God finally showed me that there is not one lesson in life that we go through that isn't going to be used for his good. Not one, not one.
Speaker 1:And I bring up journals because I'd love for you, my fellow humans, in this great family of humanity, to think about your skill set, your gifts, your abilities, your loves, what you love to do. Maybe you're a painter. My husband and I, this past Thursday, went to an art show and it was so cool to see different mediums. There were mediums that I wrote down because I'd never heard of them, nor had I seen them. So what particular way can you express your dark nights of the soul? And I have so many ideas going forward when I open up to live mics and bring a lot of folks on to talk about their journeys and how they are bringing to the forefront their sovereignty, because I believe that that is what we're all called to, because just like the Tao Te Ching.
Speaker 1:And what does that title of the book mean? Well, the Tao is a central concept in Taoism and it's the natural ways of the universe, it's an indescribable force. There's the chi right, or principle that underlies all things, representing that one source that created us right, the patterns and sustenance of reality. And D. You know the Tao Te Ching. D means virtue or power, and Ching means classic or scripture. So really, what the Tao Te Ching is is the book of the way and its power, and these are teachings that didn't make it in the Bible for whatever reason, and I'm not going to go there, but you can certainly research that if that is something that tickles your fancy, and I highly suggest the Resurrection of Inquisition.
Speaker 1:If you're not curious, if you're not asking why, why? Why remember me kid? And maybe it was because some of us in my you know, I'm considered and here's the label. See, this is what society does. I am a boomer and a lot of us boomers. When we asked why too many times and our parents didn't want to hear it anymore, you would get the response that my dad always said because I said so, and I think maybe hearing that enough causes us oftentimes to not be inquisitive, to not be curious, and then we go on the other end of the spectrum. Well, curiosity killed the cat. So therefore I'm going to say in my safe spot, kind of like my cat Sissy, who lived almost 12 years in a bathroom. That was where she hung out.
Speaker 1:What a perfect picture of what childhood trauma can do, of what childhood trauma can do. And this was a kitten. She was probably days old and her mom dropped her in our garage in between a bunch of very tall boxes, in this very small spot, and I don't know where the mama ended up and how. It had to be that way. But poor Sissy was discovered by our Malamute who has gone to dog heaven, named Duke, and Duke had climbed up on this cupboard in our garage and was literally looking down on this tiny little day. I mean, we had to nurse her with a bottle for probably two weeks when we discovered Sissy. But when we discovered her she was shaking like an absolute leaf because this dog was barking and barking and barking down at her. Now, duke wouldn't have heard her, he wouldn't have heard a flea and actually he didn't. He, you know, we had to use medicine to kill him because he certainly wasn't going to touch him. That's how docile he was.
Speaker 1:And sis didn't know that and she was so traumatized. I can remember even to pick her up to feed her I would have to wrap her like three times in a towel to just keep her from trembling, and she was always so skittish she was pretty much my cat and then my husband. We were the two only. And if people came in the house you could just see it in her eyes, in her body language. She would run away and she would hang out in the closet in our bathroom and she would sleep, oftentimes in the sink, and pretty much that was her world. And that's kind of how the world emotionally keeps us. They keep us in a box of safety because, oh, we don't want to ever have our traumas pricked.
Speaker 1:And then we entered today's day and age, where the energy is rising so rapidly and so exponentially that it is tapping not only tapping, it is pounding on the door of every one of our triggers. And I just want you to keep that in mind as you go about the rest of your week, when there are people gruff, agitated, annoyed, mean, maybe even cursing, rude, maybe those that cut you off in traffic. And I want you to think about how everyone on the planet, whether they are aware of this energetic frequency change that's happening on the planet and thus happening inside of each of our bodies, many of them don't even know. So can you imagine having all this stuff going on in your body, mind and soul? And maybe you have never even had a conversation about God or don't know anything about quantum science or energy. All you know is that you are so frustrated, you are so bewildered, you are XYZ.
Speaker 1:Pick an emotion, because every emotion has to be seen, heard, acknowledged, felt. And yes, unfortunately, if you want the traumas to leave your body, you're going to have to let them rise up. You're going to have to look at them and then you're going to have to decide if you want to continue to respond in that survival mode or if you want to recognize and talk to that traumatized child who is now a grown-ass adult experiencing all sorts of trauma coming up. This is what this energetic evolution is doing, and I want to encourage you not only to have compassion for others, but also to think about how your particular life cycle, the things that you have gone through. Do you recognize that there's nobody just like you or I? There's only one of us, literally everybody on the planet is a one-of-a-kind creation.
Speaker 1:Now, we may have common denominators and certain attributes that may be similar, but nobody may be similar, but nobody, nobody. Nobody is exactly like you or exactly like me, and you know we've all gone through similar. You know. Just, you can make the list of traumas right and most of us could check off just about all the same boxes, but I didn't go through trauma 10, the exact same way as you did. I've skipped trauma 8, but I had five doses of trauma 15.
Speaker 1:You see what I'm saying, and when we begin to get out of that box, when we begin to truly follow our authenticity and our higher self and we start to look back and this is the positive of looking back, when mind mapping really becomes valuable that we can see that our patterns and how we came through the tunnels of darkness and how we rose in victory could be utilized by others, we can literally, by our own life experiences, help other people. What do you think all these online courses are doing, all these coaches online? They're taking their very mistakes that they learned from and turning around and utilizing it to help other people. So I encourage you to think about that. That very line might help you discover what your actual purpose is, just like I shared a couple of days ago that walking through my little country town in Bedford County, tennessee, made me realize that the very things that I'm annoyed about, the scarcity, mentality, people that apparently in my eyes and see it's just my eyes, because not everybody feels this way but the way I always saw our town was oh, people don't care to rise up, they just want to live in mediocrity.
Speaker 1:Well, maybe that is true for some of the people in my town, but I also know that the very things that you are most agitated and irritated about have very much value in our life, because often what we're seeing as an annoyance is something within ourselves being reflected back to us, because everything and everybody is a mirror, something within ourselves being reflected back to us, because everything and everybody is a mirror. The other thing that agitation, irritation or you just don't want to be bothered with are often indications of the very thing that you came to help rectify. So be very aware this week not only of the fact that everybody on the planet is going through this evolution and they're at all different levels. And if you feel weak, then there's somebody weaker and there's somebody stronger, and if you feel strong, same thing. So don't step on toes.
Speaker 1:Walk a couple of miles in somebody else's moccasins and then, as you're going through your own journey, think about the things that you learned. Are there lessons in there that you can turn and help a sibling in humanity. It could very well be that you might be sitting on your livelihood going forward, and it would be something that would light you up every day, because, you see, coming before this mic lights me up, standing before a group of people teaching them the moving meditation of Tai Chi lights me up. I want to contribute, I want to give back to humanity, and I just ask for you to ponder. Seal that for the rest of your afternoon and think about it, and I will see you on a walkaway Wednesday. Until then, have yourself a absolutely tremendous Tuesday evening, peace out.