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Breaking Free: The Survival Mode Trap
survival mode is supposed to be a phase that helps save your life. It is not meant to be how you live, and I want to welcome you back to a walk away Wednesday where I hope you have your boots on and are ready to walk away from survival mode and enter into the phase of living, of thriving. Yes, come on in and let's conversate about it, shall we? And I want to welcome you back to Free, to Just Be the podcast empowering humanity to courageously because it takes a lot of damn courage to step out of old patterns and all the matrix programs and give a big old hug to brand new ways of being. And I hope this finds you in the greatest health, with vibrant energy today, because you have chosen to accept full responsibility starts by being authentic and transparent and brutally honest, especially, especially with yourself, which ushers in freedom, and then we can be aligned with our highest potentials. So, once you join me, teresa Marie, your ambassador of chi and what's chi? That intrinsic energy that flows in you and me Join me on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. Whoop, whoop, it is a walk away Wednesday and I am so happy that you have decided to honor me with a little bit of your time today. I'm so, so grateful, and I just want nothing more than to bring some value to your life. So, again, thank you for joining, and if you would be so kind to just pause for a moment and hit the like button, that would really help raise the algorithms. And then we can be seen by others and we want to wake the world up, don't we? Don't? We want to be in a place where, together, we are progressing, where we are literally becoming more and more of our true selves. Absolutely, I don't know about you, but that's what I want to do. So this week we've been talking about this week we've been talking about what happens when you fall off a cliff. Now I've used the example of my fifth time realizing that I was involved in an erroneous organization and the lessons thereof, and I'm going to refer back to my particular situation in regards to survival mode.
Speaker 1:However, we all seem to live in survival mode. If you're not sure what I'm talking about in survival mode, let me just refresh your memory. So you get a major, huge blow. Maybe you discover your significant other or your spouse is cheating, or maybe you have an incredible, daunting financial setback, maybe you have abuse on your job, maybe you are experiencing a major health issue, but, whatever it is, it has hit you so hard that you go into what we're going to discuss as our autopilot of survival mode. Survival mode is very, very prevalent today.
Speaker 1:I want you to think about how many advertisements, how many people, how many podcasts, how many commercials that you're now seeing about cortisol, and cortisol is the stress hormone, and I'm not going to try to even touch the scientific parts of cortisol poisoning or high levels of cortisol, but we are literally, especially in the Western world. We tend to all seem to have way too much cortisol in our life. Thus we have bloating and inflammation and all these other maladies that revolve around an increase in a hormone that really is just supposed to be utilized in fight and flight situations. And back in the day, I just picture the cavemen all right, and there were no guns. They had rocks, right, and maybe they were making some very basic weapons, and they meet a bear or a lion or whatever. Now you're talking major and mighty fight and flight mode, or what about those that lived in severely cold environments like Alaska? And when that cold comes, your body physiologically goes into fight or flight. We're going to survive.
Speaker 1:Okay, we're not there anymore. We have every comfort available to us. We have so much comfort that we are fat and lazy here in the Western world and we are so addicted to comfort and to convenience and to getting our way immediately. It's the microwave concept we want. Our dopamine hits over and over again right now, right now, right now, we have become a very impatient, bloated, impatient, bloated want and want it. Now, society, and because of that, everything has shifted. And now what we're seeing is the effects of years of this matrix programming, of instantaneous dopamine. Right, because our bodies are freaking, wore out, our bodies are so tense all the time, our bodies are not able to fully relax anymore. We, we are going and we were pushing the grind way past the yin cycle of the day. We ignore the seridian rhythms of our body and it's taken a toll on us. Thus, we see all these ads about cortisol, which, of course, if you're not aware of the matrix, the matrix creates problems so that they can come in and rescue us from the problems, and of course, that all revolves around creating a need, supplying the necessary product to get out of the need, and of course, it's all, always, always, always about money, and that is the matrix. The matrix thinks that it is in control of everyone, and there it is the vice of pride, and its main goal has never been to help people. Its main goal is to keep the money machine moving, moving the money into their pockets so that they can live lives of luxury while the rest of the population suffers.
Speaker 1:So again, if you don't feel like you fit into this picture, I'm going to ask if you have these 10 signs that you might be living in survival mode. Number one you're experiencing chronic fatigue. In other words, even if you get to sleep over six hours, you never feel like you're rested. You are chronically tired. You just feel like you have no oomph in life. Two you lack focus and concentration. If you were A getter done person, you're getting jacked on now.
Speaker 1:Number three you find yourself reacting to everything. And guess what, folks, if we just took that one little iota of the 10 signs, that's happening everywhere. People are pushing the buttons and others are knee-jerk reacting because all of our triggers, everything is being revealed by the illumination of love and light pouring onto the planet right now. So people are reacting to everything. Four you're not taking care of your basic needs.
Speaker 1:I want you to just look around where you're at right now. Maybe you're in your car. Is your car a nightmare right now? Is your car full of trash? Has it not been vacuumed in a good amount of time? Are you in your home a good amount of time? Are you in your home? Is your home free to walk in? Maybe your survival skill is to just shut down the basics of life and you're living amongst a trash heap and they I love the proverbial quote unquote they say that your outer world is a reflection of your inner world.
Speaker 1:Well, that'll take us right into number five. If your outer world is a nightmare right now, it may be because, number five, you're constantly feeling overwhelmed. Oh, we could do a whole week's worth of show on overwhelm, and I have actually done shows on overwhelm and how we get over being overwhelmed. Number six you don't feel motivated or inspired Big big thing here, because when we put all of our energy towards surviving, we shut down the good stuff. Number six oh, excuse me, number seven, you have trouble remembering things. Oh, did I just forget to remember what number I was on? Ooh, okay, so just be checking off the boxes. If any of these sounds like you, you may be living in survival mode, and this is not a dirty word. This is something that is happening all around us and to us, is happening all around us and to us, so it is worthy of a conversation, so that maybe we can walk ourselves hand in hand out of it.
Speaker 1:Number eight everything tends to irritate you. Oh, buddy, when you're so focused on just surviving getting home to your house at the end of the day, surviving getting home to your house at the end of the day then anything that is off the track of that oh, you just got another assignment put on your desk and it's four o'clock. Holy shit, I have to stay late now. Everything, everything irritates you. It's, it's is poking you like you were a voodoo doll or something right. Number nine you're dealing with physical health issues joints hurt, bloating in your belly, headaches, not being able to sleep, no desire to move your body, depression. And, number 10, we'll just put them all in one pile and say you may be living in survival mode if you feel like a shell of the person you used to be, but that one that one has got a little bit extra to it, because the truth is, all of us are beginning to feel like shells of the people we used to be.
Speaker 1:Why is this? Because we are evolving out of that shell, kind of like the caterpillar, that goes into that cocoon and then willingly and I emphasize, willingly, because a caterpillar, without even realizing it, just automatically, on autopilot, knows that they're going to get in that cocoon and they're going to let their insides turn to liquid. Have you ever been there? Have you ever? Oh, yes, let's, let's just talk about the grossness right out the gates. Have you ever been somewhere very inconvenient and your stomach goes to liquid? You know what I'm talking about. Oh, buddy, one day maybe maybe not today, but one day I'm going to talk about several of those episodes where, if you don't have a bathroom, it's going to be, it's going to be messy and it's going to be stinky and it's going to be bad and it's going to be bad, and we're talking probably the most embarrassing situation of your life, right? Well, that is exactly what it's like to go through this evolutionary journey.
Speaker 1:On certain days, certain days, you will feel like you are literally being hammered down so that your insides are completely liquid, just like the caterpillar. Now the caterpillar realizes that, oh baby, it's time I'm getting in here and I'm going to let this thing rip and I'm going to go through this absolute uncomfortable situation. But I know, on the other end, I'm going to go through this absolute uncomfortable situation, but I know, on the other end, I'm going to come out like this beautiful monarch butterfly, and that's great for the butterfly. But when you're in the crucible and you feel like you're living in survival mode, the last thing you're thinking about is freaking flutterbys. Right, you are thinking about how the hell do I get out of this and when is it going to stop? Have you ever said to yourself stop the world, I want to get off.
Speaker 1:Hello, I think everybody listening has at least thought that, if not verbally spoken out of their mouth, at least once, right, and if not, you're still probably very young and, oh baby, enjoy every moment. So today I want to talk about what it's like when you have derailed yourself. Okay, you're going down a path and maybe you are down the pike, going down a path, and maybe you are down the pike of ascension, of transformation, and a lot of things in your life have already been taken care of. You have recognized about being the observer and you're beginning to wake up to the programs and the false beliefs. And you've had a good stretch and suddenly you have one of those blows that literally derails you and you are kicked back. Kicked back from the path. You have fallen on your ass and you feel like your stomach is liquid. Okay, picture that in your mind. You know those moments Well.
Speaker 1:I want you to think about what it is you do. What is your go-to? What is your go-to when you get knocked off your path? Do you reach for alcohol If you've had a terrible day and somebody kicked you in the stomach? Do you rush home and get PJs on and veg out on Netflix? Do you allow yourself to go through the drive-thru and get a double whopper? Do you call your two besties and spend an hour each complaining about the kick in the stomach that you just got?
Speaker 1:Because you see, all of us have these survival techniques when we get hit with a blow. We all have these certain habits, these knee-jerk reactions that, if you are observant, if you are aware, if you have your little mini-me over your right shoulder we've talked about this in past episodes and if you have gotten really good at saying, what the hell are you doing down there, teresa Marie, oh, oh. I've seen this survival mode before. I wonder where it's coming from, what trigger has been hit? But if you're not, then you could spin out for a week a month or you could be like those people who now have massive health issues because they haven't taken the time to be uber conscious of themselves.
Speaker 1:The very, very, very first way of beginning to live out of survival mode is to become a student of thyself. You need to know who you are inside and out. Nobody knows you like you except God, knows you like you except God. And as we begin to wake up and become more aware, we begin to start seeing our programs, our false beliefs, our survival modes. And once you know, a lot of times it's hindsight. Kind of like myself, this last time's it's taken me. I am going into my. Let's see this.
Speaker 1:This friday will be five weeks since I returned home from florida, from my florida escapade, my florida episode, my florida wake-up call, whatever you want to call it. Six, no, five weeks. Five weeks Now was all five weeks in survival mode? No, was I more aware of living in survival mode? Absolutely I was. And consciousness, well, this time it was just like immediately, immediately, as soon as I hit the road, I knew that there was going to be what I would call downtime, where I was going to have to recalibrate, where I was going to have to pick myself up from being kicked in the stomach and feeling like my belly went to liquid. Okay, so there's some self-doctoring, so to speak, and the way that I chose to do it this time was the first five days from the moment I left Florida.
Speaker 1:I knew that I was going to give myself five whole days of what? Of no training of any sort, except, of course, my Lotus Rising movements. And yes, that is where I'm heading, with my Qigong movements, my moving meditations that I have been doing on a daily basis for four years. That has come with me out of this last four years and I will ever continue to do these movements. But I have disassociated myself from anything to do with that organization and anything to do with Tai Chi Gong, and I now am an instructor using a session called Lotus Rising, and it's a beautiful, beautiful way to live. But anything else besides my morning routine, my morning sadhanas, my meditation, my time with God, the books I read, that was it. I slept nine hours a day. I enjoyed my husband. I walked around my property, I sucked up the love of my fur babies that I had been apart from for 22 months. I got to know my husband Pretty much. That was it. We just huddled down, kind of like what you do in a storm you can't go out, so you huddle down, and I knew that that's exactly what I was doing.
Speaker 1:Retreat Do you ever retreat when things get bad, when you are living in survival mode? Retreat from social activity, retreat from answering text? Have you ever been the ghoster? Oh, it's so easy for us to say oh well, why did you ghost me? You know, because I can choose to Do. You know, I'm going to date myself. But there was a day and age I know some of you might not know this, but there was a day and age where we didn't have cell phones at all and our phones were attached to the wall in our house by wires, house by wires.
Speaker 1:And then there came a day where voice recording machines came out, and so first it used to be the phone would ring and if you choose or you choose, you chose to answer it you could go say hello, or the phone would just ring and then somebody would either try you again or they would do the very natural thing back in the day of maybe coming to visit you and ring your bell or knock on your door. This is unheard of. That's like a danger stranger's you know safety thing. Now, if somebody knocks on your door, you're like who's there, who's at my door? Which is absolutely crazy to me. But going back to the phone, we could also get a um recording machine and we could leave a voicemail and even then we had a choice as to whether we would listen to the voicemail and return the phone call. We had choice. Now we have phones or iPads or whatever.
Speaker 1:The other modality is that you have that has us hooked up to satellites so that we can talk to anybody around the world and there's no escape. And immediately, if you try to escape, you turn off your phone. You leave your phone in your car. People are immediately saying why are you ghosting me? You know, I know you have your phone on you. I know you can read my text. Well, that might be the first thing that you do F the world. I am not reaching out or reaching back to anybody.
Speaker 1:And all the other vices come in at this point. Maybe if you smoke cigarettes, maybe you're going to go into a chain smoking session. You're going to think so much and you're going to be so overwhelmed that you're going to be so overwhelmed that you're going to go out on the porch and, one after the other, you're going to light them up. Been there, done that. I'm very grateful. I don't do that anymore, but that was one of my survival skills, which is really not a survival skills. It's more like a kill skill.
Speaker 1:Right, you may also abuse food. That was one of my go-tos. It may be food in excess, or it may be foods that you know are not good for your body, because, for some weird reason in the 21st century, when we go into survival mode, we have been trained, like Pavlov's dogs, to do self-harm. What You're saying what? Oh yes, oh yes. Do you think sitting staring at a TV screen for eight-hour marathons on the weekend because you don't want to face life isn't detrimental to everything about you? Think again. If you don't think eating horrible food and making yourself sick isn't self-abuse, think again. If you don't think cutting back from any kind of socialization, well, think about it Back when homeschooling first came out, and these are all things that put little kernels into your hopper for you to mull them around. Hop them around your mind and your heart and your spirit and your soul. Ponder them, because they will guide you back home, which is where we need to go is back home to who we are. But all of those things, the self-abuse things that we do, are really ways for us to self-destruct, and that is a marketing ploy of the Matrix as well.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, back in the day we used to see nicotine and alcohol commercials all the time. We used to see actors and actresses smoking and drinking because they wanted to dress it up like it was the cat's meow to do. And guess what? All of us dogs followed Pavlov and did so. And we became families and yes, my family is one of them that would drink alcohol at an event. We would drink alcohol because the day at work finished. We drank alcohol because it was Friday. We smoked pot because this happened or that happened, or we're tired or we're lonely or pick what it is.
Speaker 1:I'm so sorry I need to turn my phone off before I start podcasting, but I didn't to turn my phone off before I start podcasting. But I didn't because maybe I had trouble remembering things, because maybe this survival mode is a program that runs so deep. So now let's get back home to what we're going to do. What we're going to do with this survival mode, we got the picture of how it's a knee-jerk reaction. We get a blow to our life and we immediately go into survival mode, right, which, I'm reminding you, is supposed to be a phase that helps save your life, not something that you and I create to survive no longer serve us when it's time to thrive. Now, I just shared with you that I took five days on the front end after my blow. Now what the crap has happened. I had a whole nother month.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, teresa Marie was living in survival mode. I was still spinning, I was still looking at the sites and platforms that caused my demise. I was wondering about the people. I was praying for the people. I wondered what other people thought which, oh buddy, that is a big, big, big tactic of the matrix. Let's take the focus off of you and worry about everybody else. Wrong move, wrong move. All those things were still happening. Right, these are habits that I developed. Now, a lot of the times it would happen.
Speaker 1:And then it was the hindsight like oh wow, I am really procrastinating. Here, I found myself scrolling a lot more than I normally did. Why? Because I just didn't want to think about it, I didn't want to deal with it. I wanted to walk in my garden, which is part of the reason that I am able to do this show today, because I began to walk myself back to life.
Speaker 1:I began to spend more time outside and at first I was bombarded with all the survival mode thinking what if I made a mistake again? What if I'm the fool and everybody else was right? What if my kids think I'm an idiot? What if, what if, what if I had to go there? That's the knee-jerk reaction. And then, little by little, as I'm walking the property, as I have my hands in the dirt oh, I am so incredibly grateful to be back on my eight acres, back on garden duty. Oh, there's lots of work. My dear husband, he did a lot of inner work and the outside maintenance was never his thing, that was my thing, and he let a lot of it go. And so I am in reclamation mode, I am in cleanup mode, I am reclaiming all of my garden beds, I am reclaiming the yard that I love so dearly. Right, and as I walked and just let everything go and just focused on Mother Nature, focused on petting my animals. All of a sudden I started thinking about wow, it's really time to get it moving.
Speaker 1:You know, and that is the biggest, this is the biggest takeaway for today's show. Not only does the darkness, aka the matrix, want to literally fill up all of your time with nonsense right Any screen time. If you are not in control of your screen time, it is in control of you and it is nonsensical, time-wasting distraction. That is the matrix main goal. But then, if you wake up to it, then the matrix next tactic is to keep you in this survival mode a little bit longer and eventually we habits.
Speaker 1:If you want to stay in survival mode, keep replicating the same habits. You know what it is. Keep doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. Is the definition of what. Come on, you know it, say it, let's say it together Insanity. And we are not insane in the membrane. We are not. We are brothers and sisters of the light. We are sparks of the creator God, and we were destined for greatness. We are here with individual purpose. We are here to bring each other back home to that love and light of God that we are. And if you haven't figured that out yet, then your awakening journey is just beginning and you may be completely in survival mode. So new habits, new life.
Speaker 1:I want you to think for a second about how you and I in Humanityville probably all already have PhDs in survival mode skills. Now I'm not talking prepper survival skills, where you know you learn how to make a fire in the rain and you have water purification kits and you have a bug out bag, although those are very good survival skills and I highly suggest you do those as well. I'm talking about the way we mentally, emotionally and physically deal with our stress. And if you want to live a long life I don't know about you, but at 64, my minimum minimum is 50 more years. That's my minimum baseline, right, but if I want that, bad enough then I need to take that PhD in survival mode. If you want to hang it on a wall and say, yep, been there, done that. Or maybe you're a t-shirt gal or guy and now it's time to say got the t-shirt, it's going to goodwill, been there, done that, it's time to move on and we're going to shut that door Now I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that when you shut the door, that there's still not that crack underneath the door, and some of that may like seep out on occasion, but when you keep the door shut, it's a lot easier to stomp it out, right?
Speaker 1:But now it's time for us to stop running away and come back home and develop new habits. And develop new habits. Now that we know that survival mode is with us, that we don't need to go there all the time. All we need to do is develop new habits, life seems a whole lot better, a whole lot better. And tomorrow we're going to talk about what pulls us out of alignment and some habits that can keep us balanced and in homeostasis Homeostasis, yeah, I'm having a problem talking.
Speaker 1:Today, we're going to talk about the new habits that will pull us back into alignment. After we've been knocked off kilter Survival mode, it's time for you to take a hike. Today we're going to shut the door and walk away from living in high cortisol and we're going to begin to tell ourselves that we are safe. So, during survival mode, we often run so far away that we completely forget to come back to ourselves. Now, if you've run that far, that's all right.
Speaker 1:Everybody in Humanityville reach out your hand right now and say, come on, come on, we got this Together. We're going to return home to ourselves because we are safe now. We have plenty of comforts, we got plenty of resources. And I'm going to ask everybody in humanityville to come back tomorrow and we're going to talk about some of those new habits to keep us out of survival mode and get us going with momentum in to a life of thriving, because that's what we want to do. We want to not just survive, we are going to survive, see, see that I was just going to say we're going to survive. Oh yeah, I've. I've sung that tune most of my life. I'm a survivor, I survive, right. But no, we're going to help each other do more than survive. We're going to learn how to live and we're going to learn how to thrive. Have yourself a wonder-filled Wednesday and I will be in your earbuds. Hopefully, not earbuds, hopefully you're just listening without anything in your ears. That's a lot healthier for you. Love you, humanity, peace out.