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Fall Into Autumn & Let Go of What's Already Gone

• Terri Wilson

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Today, in spite of editing issues, I drop this Fall Equinox and Welcome to Autumn to  you, dearest Humanity! Enjoy

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Embrace the seasons and cycles of life, for there is magic in change, and autumn shows us just how beautiful it is to let things go. And I welcome you to this magnificent Monday of Free to Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step out of old patterns and matrix programming and give a big old hug to a new way of being. And I hope this finds us all in the greatest health, with vibrant energy today, because we have all chosen to accept the full responsibility for our body, minds and souls. And here your host that'd be me, teresa Marie will attempt to inspire us to truly be who we came here to be authentic, free and align with our highest potential. So join me, won't you, on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. And I do so. Welcome you to this awesome fall equinox day, the first day of autumn in the Northern Hemisphere, and I say happy Jewish New Year on Rosh Hashanah, the two-day holiday that marks the beginning of the Jewish holy days. What an incredible weekend and what a time to be alive on the planet. Right, it is an incredible time to be alive. And I want to ask, as I've pondered this all weekend, actually for the last couple of weeks.

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Do you follow the cycles of the planet? Do you become aware of the signs of the time, like Jesus asked us to do in the New Testament? We're supposed to be wise as serpents and gentle as doves, and part of that is being aware of the very cycle of the planet which we are so attached to. I mean, our bodies function very much like the universes that are all spinning, like wheels. We too have spinning wheels our chakras, we have meridians where all the energy flows into each channel, much like the ocean and the rivers and the creeks. We are very much one. Are we aware of that?

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Today marks the start of the astronomical autumn in the Northern Hemisphere, where the day and night are nearly equal. It's like the concept of the seesaw I use this analogy all the time and it's as if the Earth, for a few moments, right about at 2.22, is just about aligned just about the same amount of darkness and just about the same amount of light at the same time. It's pretty phenomenal when you think about it. And what does all of these cycles gift us with? Well, think about the absolute wonder of the month of September, even just so far. Think about the absolute cataclysmic moments, starting with 9-9, september 9th of 2025. And when you use numerology, 2025 reduces down to nine.

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So that day was the 999 portal, and that portal was specifically to allow us to let go of the things that no longer serve us in our life. And we've talked about it many, many times, but I'm going to keep saying these things because many of us are just beginning to be aware of it, and that is that each season brings us opportunity, and the way the light and the energy is flooding the planet, those opportunities are becoming exponentially better, fuller and coming much more rapidly than ever before. Think about it. So, on the 999 portal, I shared that one of the little rituals that I personally did was I listed everything about my old self, and many of you know, if you've been following me, that my old self was characterized and I did the characterization I always used to. I don't anymore view myself as a hippie freak, and I coined the phrase the hippie freak of the South. Well, that girl is gone. Gone Now. She's always going to be a part of me All the lessons that she got to go through and all of the suffering and the false beliefs and the programs that I'm still, even now, to this day, walking myself out of. I listed all of those attributes of fear and anxiety and depression and all of the things that no longer have anything to do with myself, all of the attachments I had, the guilt and the shame of my parenting mistakes. All of them were listed on a piece of paper and on 9-9, I went out in front of a fire and I prayed and I basically announced to the universe and thank God for all those lessons, for the 64 years that I spent as Terry, the hippie freak of the South. And it's so interesting to me that for several months I have been letting folks know that I'm returning to my true name, teresa Marie, and it just delights my heart to recognize that that really, truly is who I am Teresa Marie, an ambassador of God's chi chi, being the intrinsic force of life that flows within us and all around us and created everything. And I took that piece of paper and I said goodbye to her and I know she will always, in memory, be with me. But she no longer is in the operating seat. I am now in the driver's seat as my higher self, teresa Marie, and my co-pilot is Jesus. Right, and now.

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That was the 9th of September and I'm going to tell you that, in retrospect, we are two weeks from that date right, just about two weeks and over this weekend I was really contemplating these different major cycles that have happened in September. So before I go back to telling you what happened after that little ritual on the 9th, let's talk about the massive energetic shift that happened on the 10th with the cataclysmic, tragic assassination that North America witnessed Many of us in real time and many people right there in person even children got to see somebody killed in real life and that, if you didn't feel it, really shifted the energy on the planet. Because now that darkness came in and the light rose so high and so bright when people hit their knees and started wondering and were overwhelmed and all of those emotions came to the surface for humanity to look at and unfortunately, we got to see both sides. We got to see darkness come out in the form of negativity and hate and posts that were pretty gross, but people revealed what's in their hearts and that's what the Holy Spirit, what love and light, is going to continue to do until everybody's hearts are turned back to our Creator God and that we realize once again that we are all one. So that was a very huge and massive shift in the universe. And then we had 9-11. So that shift was followed by the day that we remembered, when America came together like never before in 2001, when 9-11 tragically struck. But what did that evoke in humanity? Love and kindness for our neighbors, patriotism like we hadn't ever seen. Love of our country, Love of our families, love of being together and alive Sorrow for those in our family. Because, whether we had literal blood, family die in 9-11, we are all one family red, yellow, black and white. We all bleed red and that was verberated all around the planet on 9-11. And we are given these opportunities to awaken to the truth again that we are all one.

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So I want to go back to 9-9, when I did that ritual of letting go. And you can't have these rituals and just make them trite. I mean it really has to come from inside, from your heart, from your spirit man, from your higher self. You have to really believe what it is that you're doing. And it's just like what we saw on September 10th with Charlie Kirk Out of the depths of people's heart, words came out of people's mouths. And it's the same when you do these little remembrance rituals or when you sit in front of your remembrance altar and you look at all these little items and you remember certain situations or events that cause you to ponder and be introspective, ponder and be introspective, right, so that's what I did on the 9th.

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And now, looking back, I didn't realize it was literally the next day, but the very next day. And let me back up and show you in real time how the spirit works when you are awakened and you are beginning to take the steps forward, as courageous as they may be sometimes. Sometimes they're very scary, sometimes they're fearful, but you continue to move forward. You're not aiming for perfection, you're aiming for progress. So, one step in front of the other and you begin to awaken to new ways of being.

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And so what I recognized was for about. Well, it really it's been two years. That, the two, the two things. I am so sorry I didn't put my phone on, do not disturb, I'm going to do that right now and I didn't realize that for two years I literally was being called or asked by God to take care of two major issues in my life. One was my relationship with my husband, and many of you already know that the way that God helped me to transform not only myself but help transform my husband and thus our marriage, was to actually leave my home. My husband left him alone, literally for a year. Barely maybe one percent contact during that first year, and that revolutionized everything. So some of these things are not easy, but what I realized was, relationally and physically, I really, and financially Okay. So relationally, I am well down the pike and Roger and I are together forging ahead with a new way of being solo and a new way of being as a couple. So, relationally, progress has been made. Financially, I've spoken about how I'm not going back into the matrix, I'm not going to punch a time clock and while I'm still semi in the matrix, door dashing, I am at the same time building my life, coaching and course material and the things that I know I've been called to do, and beginning to change my branding and expand my moving meditation classes. Those are the things that I want to share with the world because they have so transformed my life. Okay, but while I'm doing that, I have to pay my bills, and so I door dash. So that's the financial piece, but this piece that I'm speaking about to you today is the physical piece and that is my health.

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And when I left 22 months ago I dove like headfirst back into crap living because I was living by myself and money was something that I had to be very cautious with, part of my walking away from my scarcity and mentality, the programming that I received as a child. I ate terrible. I lived on fast food. I ate a lot of carbs and definitely, most definitely, after really leading a clean eating life pretty much with my husband, I became a sugar addict again, sugar and carb addict, and carbs just turn into sugar. So I was literally fueling my body for the last two years on sugar and that really took a toll on my health and my body and it caused inflammation and sleep disruptions, especially as I went into a nighttime job. And so when I began thinking about leaving Florida, I was already starting to put into place. I was trying really kind of desperately to get off of the caffeine and I was struggling greatly with that. And then I hit Tennessee and again I was still. It was a process, again, not perfection, but I was making little tiny bits of progress.

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And then I threw that paper into the fire on 9-9. And of course, in that paper was my terrible way of eating, the way that I exhibited self-hate by treating my body poorly and recognizing hate by treating my body poorly and recognizing, wow, I hate myself so much that I'm still treating myself poorly, and all of that stuff went in the fire. But I never realized. Well, let me finish it further. I had bought the Livingston Dr Living Good, not Livingston Dr Living Good. You see him on Facebook and he's the guy that says why do doctors give you this medication when they can just tell you to eat this food? It's that guy and his name literally is Living Good, and he produced this 200-page book that he gives away for free you just pay for shipping and my daughter-in-law's father was experiencing some health issues, so I sent away for that book and I gave it to him, and when I moved out of my son's house nine or 10 months ago, they gave the book back to me I don't think that they even read it and I began reading it.

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And now I'm giving you all this backdrop because I now recognize that all of that was the universe or God. I believe it's God, but see, god uses the universe to set the stage for us because the planet is here to help us. It was our womb and it offers every resource that we need, including the cycles of the equinox and the change of the seasons and the tides, and all of that is here for our benefit. So when we release what is no longer good for us and we intend now I intended for this next year also on that day, but especially this weekend. Now I'm going to catch you up here. So this weekend was also. Saturday was a partial no, that was yesterday. Yesterday was a partial solar eclipse.

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So the week prior I had gotten myself down, I began well, let's see, so it's been two weeks ago. Two weeks ago, so literally the day after I threw that paper of my higher self into the fire. It was like the next morning I literally shifted. I didn higher self into the fire. It was like the next morning, I literally shifted. I didn't realize it that day. It took me 11 days to realize this.

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I finally came to this conclusion this weekend as I took Saturday and Sunday off and spent it with my husband and out in nature and with God, and I recognized holy moly, literally the day after I had that little ritual at that bonfire. The next day I suddenly woke up and stopped drinking coffee. I haven't had coffee in 12 days. And it's amazing to me how, all of a sudden, I have this resolute and willpower that I've always known was in me. I mean, I've lost 98 pounds 18 years ago and kept it off. I know I could do it, but it was gone. I couldn't. No matter what I did, I couldn't seem to get off caffeine or the pull of sugar.

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And it began the day after that ritual and after speaking out my intentions to the universe and what the universe does, the planet does, it begins to realigning our circumstances. There are no coinkydinks. Everything's by purpose. Oh, so you don't want to be addicted to sugar anymore. Oh, you don't want to drink coffee anymore. And it begins to shift things. And that's exactly what happened. So I started to walk through the process of this Dr Livingood's book and the steps that he suggested to regain your health. And here I am now, 11 days later, eight pounds lighter off of caffeine, and then, right before the eclipse on Sunday. I didn't even realize the ramifications of that eclipse, but I'm.

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I began a water fast Thursday night to Saturday night in preparation for a new way of being, and then I did my research and just to give you that resurrection of inquisition again, humanityville. If you don't know anything about the fall equinox or what that energetically means for you, then it's time for you to do your research, because not only is there an energy description, there's a spiritual description and everything cycles and we need to know, just like Jesus told us, the signs of the times. Now we're going into the season of letting things go finally and for good, and I know I did that on the 9th. And then Saturday night I had another bonfire and I literally had like a going away party for Terry, the hippie freak of the South. Now I already put her in the fire, but it was kind of like a farewell event for me. But that only took two or three minutes of my little ritual.

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The rest of the ritual was intending and welcoming and beginning to embody my higher self, teresa Marie, an ambassador of Chi, and that's what I began to do. I started speaking out my intentions. But then you cannot cling to those intentions, you have to surrender them and that's kind of what I've always done. It's like well, it has to be this way, it has to be this podcast, and I have to end up on a TEDx stage and I have to. I have to. That's my controller, that is the um Enneagram eight in me, and my downside is I want to control everything and know.

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On Saturday night, I released all of my intentions and I said God, however, you want to use my gifts of encouragement and communication, whether they be writing books, speaking, doing this podcast, whatever I'm giving them to you, I'm surrendering them to you because we today have entered into a new beginning, a new chapter of our spiritual awakening, and it's a very exciting time. And it's a time to reflect over our year and not wait till January. Autumn really brings a new surge of energy, doesn't it? The air is crisp, it's clean, we end up cleaning up our yards and getting ready to put our gardens to sleep, we love walking in the leaves and we begin to put away our summer clothes and take walks in the brisk air. It's a perfect time to reflect over the year so that by January, we are already full blown into the intentions of 2026. So I close on asking you to reflect over your year.

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What were your favorite moments thus far? For example, for me in January, it was going to Melbourne and recognizing that I was meant to be in Florida, which was a huge leap for me, and then in Florida, just packing up and going to Jacksonville, florida, for six months all by myself for my solo travel. It was so exciting and daunting and scary and it was a wonderful season in my life and being away from my family and recognizing that my children always needed and loved me and I love them and I don't want to be apart from them. But it took me six months away from them. So those are some of my favorite moments of revelation. What were your moments?

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What were you most grateful for over the last nine months of the year? I am grateful that I've grown in personal courage. I've stepped more into my sovereignty. I am so incredibly grateful for the transformations which began with my husband and our marriage. I'm grateful for my children awakening, even though it's painful for me to watch and painful to have. Some of them say I need space. Well, everybody needs space to awaken. Everybody needs space to look at their traumas. So I'm grateful that I see my children waking up to their own pain and traumas and they have to go through their own dark night of the soul and it gives me more fuel for my prayer life for them. I'm grateful for the massive shift and the embodiment of my higher self, especially in this last month. What are you most grateful for?

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What experiences really challenged you the last nine months? For me, it was trusting and literally relying solely on God, especially especially for finances, for health, for direction. It was walking away from an organization that I recognized was not for my greatest good. That was distracting and sucking my energy and causing me to be in a herd mentality and I am not a follower, I am a leader. It was having the courage to step back into my marriage and facing the fallout from many that it brought into my family because they didn't agree with that. What were the things that really challenged you, humanityville?

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What lessons did you learn in the last nine months? I learned that I literally have a lifetime of courageous acts, and the more courage you have, the easier it is to step into harder things, and I know that. I know that we are entering a whole era where things are going to get a lot harder before they get easier. So I'm grateful for courage, and I've learned a lot about the courage that I actually possess already. I learned that I always have God's help and with his help, I released a lot of my past and a large majority of my attachments. If I didn't release my attachment to the shame and guilt of my parenting mistakes, I would never be able to stand and watch my children go through their own metamorphosis and awakening without being completely unraveled Two years ago. I wouldn't have been able to weather it, it would have spun me out and I would be stuck. So I am so, so grateful for the lessons.

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So this is also a time that you can break karmic cycles. What is karma? You get what you give out. You reap what you sow right. All of those things literally occur and I was so happy for Lori Ladd. Lori Ladd sends me a little paragraph every Sunday, a little update, and at the end of that Sunday communication she gives me a free meditation and the meditation she gave this week was so apropos. It was a meditation visualizing, going and mind tracing and thinking about all the people and all the situations and the events and the online news and text and all of the things that your energy went out or got sucked away or people that were draining your energy, and saying you know what? That's my energy and that's my love and light and I'm calling it all back in, I'm calling it back in and I am right now breaking that karmic cycle. And I've shared before, I'll share it again today One of the favorite shirts that I have says it used to run in my family.

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In other words, generational curses or addictions or whatever it is that maybe and if you've never looked into generational curses now I've never actually followed that, but I do know that quote unquote genetically we have heart disease and and various different health issues and addictions and a propensity to depression and anxiety and even agoraphobia, like my mom had, where you don't want to leave your house, and so these are some of the generational things that I know in my family and we have the ability going forward as leaders, spiritual, energetic leaders in our family, to literally break that code. Energetically we can do that. We don't have to stay in those lower vibrations of guilt, shame, fear, all of those things that the matrix programming wants us to stay with, and so as we raise our own vibrations, we become catalysts to break those chains. So in that meditation I was picturing all the energy that I spent on guilt and shame. Think about it All the energy I spent on the worry of finances, the anxiety of the relational issues in my life. All of that expends energy and I called all that energy back.

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So today is a day to embrace the seasons and cycles of our life, because there is magic in doing these little rituals and magic in change. And I'm not talking magic like voodoo or witchcraft or anything like that. I'm talking about the magic that you remember as a child, on a swing with the wind blowing in your air and imagining you were flying. That kind of magic right. And autumn, which we usher in today, shows us how beautiful it is to let things go. What are the things that need to go in your life today, my dearest, dearest brothers and sisters in humanity? What are the things that you want to usher in come March? You know we have a season coming up where we can progress forward and then see the manifestations of that progress in March, as the things that we intended today and in this month blossom and manifest in our world in the new life of spring. What do you want to spring up in your life, humanity, in 2026? And I close you with this quote, which is the quote that I just put in my heart today, and it says this the first to help you are the ones who know how it feels to fall down.

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I have an incredible history of false humanity.

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If any of you have followed my path.

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I call it the Jerry Springer Ringer life, and for years all I did was look at that tapestry, the backside of it with all the knots and the tangles, and I never recognized that all those falls, trip and fall, cry and get up.

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Trip and fall, cry and get up, trip and go into the quicksand and pull myself out, cry and get up, and I just keep going. And now what can I do? I can show you that you can get through too. So autumn shows us that we can help the ones who know how it feels to fall, and I hope that each time you listen to one of these podcasts, you feel a little bit of that desire of my heart to help you, my beautiful dear brothers and sisters in Humanityville, and I hope you choose today to take the questions I brought out in this episode and take some time out in beautiful Mother Nature, our Divine Mother, and reconnect with the earth and know that change is not scary. Change is necessary and we have to let go in order to let in. I love you, humanity. Have a magnificent Monday.