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Awakening New Levels of Consciousness Comes with Unexpected Challenges

• THeresa Marie

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hAwakening to a new level of consciousness comes with an unexpected challenge - what about the people we love who aren't awakening with us? This episode explores the complex emotions that arise when we begin to see through matrix programming while watching family and friends remain in old patterns.

The journey begins with recognizing that awakening is a one-way path. Once you've "taken the red pill," there's no returning to your former state of awareness. This irreversible expansion often creates a painful divide between our new understanding and the perspectives of those we care about most. We naturally want to pull them along with us, to show them what we've seen - but that approach rarely works and often backfires.

Theresa Marie shares personal experiences of how this manifested in her own family relationships, particularly during what she calls her "Alex Jones prepper stage" when she alienated loved ones by trying to force her awakening on them. She explores how guilt becomes a toxic companion on the spiritual path - guilt about moving forward when others aren't ready, guilt about past parenting choices, and even guilt about letting others experience the consequences of their own decisions.

The episode offers practical wisdom for navigating these challenges, including breathing techniques to move through knee-jerk reactions and ways to honor others' journeys without sacrificing your own growth. Theresa emphasizes that true sovereignty awaits on the other side of guilt, shame, and comparison - but getting there requires consistent inner work rather than focusing on changing others.

As you awaken, relationships naturally shift. Some people will exit your life temporarily or permanently while others will enter. This reshuffling isn't something to resist but to understand as part of the process. By focusing on becoming your authentic self rather than trying to control others' journeys, you create space for divine timing to work in everyone's life - including your own.

What parts of your awakening journey have been most challenging? Are you struggling with guilt about moving forward while loved ones remain in old patterns? Share your experience in the comments below and join our community of awakening souls supporting each other through transformation.

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If we are finally learning that we have the right to be ourselves, then we must also learn to honor that right in others. And that is a quote by Teresa Marie, an ambassador of God's Chi. And I welcome you back to Free to Just Be, the podcast attempting to empower humanity to courageously step out of old patterns and matrix programming and leave behind childhood traumas and false beliefs and give a big old hug to not only new ways of being, but to usher in a brand new earth. And I'm not talking a new planet, I'm talking a new dimension, a new vibrational grid. And I hope this finds you in the greatest health with vibrant energy today because you have chosen, along with myself, to accept the full responsibility for our body, mind, and soul. Here on Free to Just Be, we will try to inspire each other to truly be who we came here to be, authentic, free, sovereign, and fully aligned with our highest potentials. So join me on this transformative journey to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. And right here on the front end, if I am beginning to resonate with you, if you are on this awakening journey along with everyone else on the planet, and you appreciate being inspired and encouraged through it, please, can you please hit the like button and let's begin to rise this information up the algorithm staircase so that other people can be inspired and helped as well. And I welcome you on this fantastical Friday, the start of the weekend, and um I want us to ponder what happens when guilt drops so that we can hold honor. Those are the thoughts in my head today, because they have been in my heart. And I I want to address part of this incredible energetic shift that is happening. We are all shifting and it's different for everybody. Um, there are common denominators, of course. There are a lot of physical symptoms that many of us are uh continually feeling, um, not simultaneously, but sometimes they are simultaneously. And we have to learn to leave all of our expectations at the door. When you take that red pill and it begins to dissolve, and you recognize there is no way you can shut your eyes to what we're in. And we have to lose the illusions, lose all of the programming. And and when when we're there and you step across that threshold of awakening and the and the journey of awakening begins, the first thing that is hard to cope with is that there is no turning back, you cannot jump back into that proverbial box, and the more you try, the more you struggle. That that is the first lesson because when you get that first surge of OMG, what have I allowed in my life? You do. You want to run tail and you want to go in a in a little den and you want to curl up in a ball and forget you ever saw it, but I'm sorry, Pandora has come out of the box, and that is actually the best thing that ever happened to you and I is the taking of that red pill. And at first, you know, some of us really needed that spoonful of sugar to help the medicine go down, and that's what podcasts like Free to Just Be and Everyday Lives and Lori Ladd and and so many others are here for um to help us kind of sugarcoat, well, not really sugarcoat, but make it easier to get through, especially those first several months and and years, dare I say, although everything has accelerated. So those of you that are just stepping into this awakening, think about how blessed you are, because some of us who began this 20 plus years ago are um just now really recognizing a lot of people that almost instantaneously are getting things. Take my husband, for example. Uh suddenly, just like I predicted, I knew that I knew that he had all this knowingness inside, and when he finally awakened to it, before long he'd be football fields ahead of me spiritually and energetically, and it is becoming more and more true. And this is part of what we have to face. And so I want to address first off the guilt. The guilt that comes from being on an awakening journey when many of those you love don't even know what that is yet. And we feel guilty about that, and we want to, you know, tell others about it, and we want to do it for them, and and the truth is it's an inside job, and the only ones we can help are ourselves. And what Shannon Alder said is very true. As you awaken, you become very different. And she said that being different becomes a revolving door in your life where secure people enter and the insecure exit. Sometimes it's permanent and sometimes it's just for a season. And that is one of the biggest pieces of guilt that we carry. Oh my gosh, I I have I've reached this understanding. I I now understand why I always was XYZ, and and now I understand that the more I let go of XYZ, I can be who I was always meant to be. And yet there are people we love that are still in the cul-de-sac, in the loop de loop, in going around the same mountain expecting a different result. And we were all there before, and we want to go in and snatch their hand and pull them out, but that doesn't work. And so the first guilt that you have to let go of is feeling guilty that you have risen and those that you love may not have risen with you. And you have to recognize that you are the one that has to go forward, and it's kind of like what God said to Lot's wife, don't look back, or you'll be turned into a pillar of salt. And in our case, in this awakening journey, we don't want to digress, we want to go forward. And it's not, again, I reiterate, it's not um an effort towards perfection, it's just daily progress. Brianne Brown, who, you know, her dark night of the soul put her in um an insane asylum as an insane asylum. And it was there that she recognized all the programs and began to what? Work herself out, not only of the insane asylum, but towards helping millions of people on the planet recognize likewise. And she said that authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we're supposed to be. Well, as a dad or a mom, I'm supposed to guide and teach my children. Well, if your children are already grown-ass adults, that is no longer your job. And unfortunately, you have to just go through the experience of seeing if the way you raised your children was correct and accurate and what they held on to and what they said, nope, that's not for me. Now, for me, as a believer in Jesus Christ and a lover of God, my creator and my divine mother, I stand on the scripture that tells me that if you train a child up in the way he should go, and to me, it is we go towards God and we grow in God. And I believe that I laid the foundation of that in my seven children and as much as I could in my grandbabies that I had interaction with. And the rest is up to God, and I stand on that scripture that when they are old they will return to it. Now, are they there yet? That's really up to them. It's accurately none of my business, and I have held on to the guilt of that for almost my whole life, and I've shared with you many times that one of the things that really was liberating to me was to let go of the guilt and shame of my parenting. I don't know if you have guilt and shame from your parenting. What guilt and shame do you have? Only you know. So, in order to embrace who we are, so Brenn Brown said authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we're supposed to be in order to embrace who we are. That is the awakening journey. We are going towards the light, towards Christ consciousness, towards who we always were before we came into this tent, this temple, this avatar, this body that houses our pure energy of love and light. So part of letting go of that guilt is remembering, remembering that we were them, remembering that we too at one point in our life were so covered up and didn't realize that we were lied to. We too had a pre-red pill season in our life. And the truth is we have to be respectful toward others, and it starts by remembering and recognizing and applauding ourselves for opening our eyes and recognizing that we've been lying to. So first you have respect for yourself, and you have to remember that they are not you, and they are not exactly where you are, and you are not exactly where they are, and you might not be where somebody two football fields down the pike are either. So part of learning how to hold honor for others is dropping the guilt that the matrix programming, our false beliefs, and our childhood trauma continually wants us to hold on to. And it's so funny, we you know, we as human beings are constantly fighting to do what? To hold on, and then we're fighting to let go. And the truth is we don't have to fight. You know, um Emmett Ray said the path of nonviolence is the path of respect, and it is respect towards every being. It is the path of awakening, the consciousness of every being. Now I want to go back to that word that he used, nonviolence. The path of nonviolence. Now, we often equate violence with physical violence, but I want you to think about social media for a minute and think about the violence that we slam each other with on a daily basis on social media. The judgments, the comparisons, the uh the tweets, the trolls, the badgering, the um horrible comments of people who would never have the courage to look you eye to eye. We are very violent in our society today, especially from an armchair armed with our phones and our laptops and our computers. And we have to learn to let that go. And if that is something that you did, then you have to deal with the guilt thereof that comes with that, because we are not going to unite and become part of a Christ-conscious earth if that's what we continue to do. So the other aspect of guilt and shame and fear and all of those quote unquote symptoms of being or attributes of being in a controlled matrix system, or being controlled by our childhood traumas or false beliefs that didn't come from our true authentic self, but came from those around us that plug them in to our nervous system and planted them in our cells, and they have been cycling through our being ever since they were planted before we were even seven years old. And it is up to us to discover the ways that are going to allow them to come to the surface and then discover ways to navigate through that because we have no choice now. The light is coming so rapid and so fast and so bright that every day, whatever it is, you don't want to look at. I want you to stop and pause and think for a minute, my dear dear brothers and sisters in Humanityville. What are the things in your life right now that annoy the crap out of you? Write it down. What are the things that happen in your life on the daily relationally that cause knee-jerk reactions? Write them down. What situations keep coming in into your life over and over and over again? And you think to yourself, why does this keep happening? I feel like I keep doing the same thing over and over again. Hello, humanity, those are your clues that you are having reflected back to you over and over again the very aspects of your life that the Holy Spirit of God, that possibly your divine mother through nature, through the atmosphere, through songs, however God can reach you, He will use the Divine Mother, the universe, everything around you that He created to get your attention. So as this is happening, we fight to hold on to what we've known all our lives. We do it this way. My dad was always frugal, I'm gonna be frugal. Don't throw that paper towel away. Put the foil in the drawer. Do you understand what I'm saying? And maybe your true and authentic self knows that those items would be best recycled, and then you find other ways to incorporate into your life things that you want to use. Instead of holding on, we fight to hold on to the old, and then when we finally recognize that we have to let go, we fight to let go, and it's a dance. A little bit forward, three steps back. So if we have the right to be ourselves, now that's the other aspect that happens in this awakening journey. First, we want to throw it out to everybody else, and then we want to, you know, back up our rude, violent reactions to people by saying, I'm I'm allowed to be who I am. You can't stop me for being I'm just being authentic. Well, if being authentic becomes an act of verbal violence against somebody, then maybe you need to pull your authenticity back a little bit until you learn how to utilize it. What do you say? Because if we're guilting or shaming or instilling fear in another, we are denying ourselves of our true selves because on the other side of all that ugly qualities of life and attributes of life and matrix attributes and symptoms is the true self. So if we are coming out the gates and then we're feeling bad that others aren't coming out the gates with us, and then we're pounding people with violence in our reactions, in our words, in our post, and in our, well, you know, you should be doing it this way. We need to put our shoulds away. We have no business with shoulds. Take it from somebody that alienated almost everybody in her family. When I went through, you know, what really it was the crowning um uh the the straw that broke the camel's back for most people in my family, my children and and their spouses, was when I went through my Alex Jones um prepper stage of nine or ten years, when I was down the rabbit hole and making myself sick with fear and worry and and I need to prepare, I need to prepare, and and expectations of doomsday coming, and I was shoving it down people's throats, and they suddenly began saying things like, you know, this is what you always do. You something lights you up, and then you want everybody to do it. Well, mom, we don't want to do that anymore. And that's a hard smack in the face, right? But they were right. We as a collective have no business doing anything other than honoring and respecting each other wherever we are in this awakening process. And if we are pushing all of that matrix crap back out from us, trying to get rid of us but by rid of it by pushing it towards others, we are part of the problem still. And guess what? We are not a threat to the matrix. The matrix is cheering us on saying, yes, yes, give them more guilt, give them more fear, tell them that they're bad, compare yourself with them. And they laugh and know you're not a threat to their system at all. But if we recognize that our true sovereignty and our true freedom and our true self awaits on the other side of the guilt and the shame and the fear and the comparison, and we finally recognize that that's where we need to stay. We need to work on ourselves and forget about everybody else. And this enters the other stage of guilt. You know, going back to what Shannon Alder says, what happens when we feel guilty because people are suffering the consequences of their own actions? This has cropped up in my life in the last couple of months. Cause and effect. I mentioned earlier in the week in an earlier episode that there are people in my life that took the vaccination in 2001. Some of the people I know that did that are not on the planet anymore. Some of them are beginning to experience serious health ramifications and don't recognize that it's part of that poison that they put in their body. Is it my job to point that out to them? No, it is not. And there is guilt from a lot of us that have to step back and especially parents. You feel guilty for just letting your kids be. Maybe you were at the stage where my kids were. Their awakening has begun, and they're like, we're stepping back. We we need to step away from our toxic family for a while. And don't think I'm alone in this, folks. Right now, with everything shifting so much, dare I say there's not one single toxic family on the planet right now. Because everything is shifting. All old ways of being are being crushed and deleted and demolished, and new, new, new is coming in, and it's freaking everybody out, and it's causing all of us to have those knee-jeric reactions. For example, I'll give you another uh uh example uh in real time of what this false guilt looks like. Um there's somebody in my community who is very like-minded like me, and the thing that this individual likes to do is make homeopathic remedies, elderberry syrup and natural soaps and and all of those things. And I have watched her journey, and she opened a store, and she just announced this week that she's left her matrix job for good in order to finally be full-time at what she wants to do. And what was Teresa Marie? Oh, I am an ambassador of chi. Oh, am I? Well, my knee-jerk reaction. Now, granted, it wasn't around anybody, nobody knows, but I am telling on myself right now because I am so proud of my community uh member, Nikki, who has grown so much and has got to the place where she is fully loose and making an income in her vocation, what she's called here to do. And my first reaction was completely, I completely turned green. And I I wanted to look at and I looked at her sites and and this is this is how I was in internally this, can you feel it? This is how I was feeling. Well, good for her, you know. I'm so happy for her, you know, great, you know. When's it my turn? Ooh, well, what is that? What kind of guilt is that? Guilt is nothing more than being angry at yourself, really. And you turning it in. And that's what I was doing. Well, I haven't gone as fast as as she did, but you know what? I am not on her path. I am on my own individual path, and I have done things that she hasn't done. And we should be grateful. We should be giving glory to God for all of it. And I do. I'm so proud of Nikki Quinlan because she has arrived into her vocation, and I wish her nothing but good. But my knee-jerk reaction was jealousy and and inward anger pointing my fingers back at me because I haven't jumped ahead into the things that I know that are already still latent in me. And it's coming, but it's coming in God's time and when I feel like He's telling me to pull the trigger. So we have to let go of the comparisons and all of that and remind ourselves that when we let go, something magical happens, and we give God room to move and work in our lives, and by the way, in the lives of others. When we stop thinking that we have to be somebody else's Holy Spirit, then the Holy Spirit can work in their lives. So as we are in this incredible process of massive change, and we realize that our true self awaits on the other side of all that we have to let go of. Maybe this weekend we can ponder just learning how to breathe ourselves through the letting go process and learning, you know, maybe on our days off, we can learn and just learn to sit and just breathe through a knee-jerk reaction or two. Because that's what I did when I reacted to my dear friend's announcement. And within a couple of minutes, I was praising God for her progress. But I had to breathe myself through. What was I doing? I was recalling that emotions, especially volatile emotions that rise up real quick, like boom, there it is, thoughts, attitudes are not who I am. I am love and light, and all of that latter mess, the anger, the comparison, the jealousy, those are not me, and they're just energy. And the energy just needs to simply move in and through our body. And when we learn how to breathe, when those moments come up, take a big breath through your nose and let it out your mouth. And when you begin to practice that, you notice how your body just relaxes, and that allows the energy to just go through your body. Some things that you may have held on to all your life may take five, ten minutes, a couple of hours. Some of them are so stuck, it may take a couple of days, it may take rounds and rounds and rounds of learning how to breathe, and as it comes up, let it go. And as it comes up, let it go. And as we learn how to do that, then we can recognize as we see somebody having a knee-jerk reaction towards us, we can have instant recall and give the honor and respect to that person and back up, send love and light out to them, and quell whatever the um contrast, the the um the meeting of the mind, so to speak, the clash of the titans, by simply saying, Wow, I really do appreciate you sharing the way you see things, and I'm gonna think about that. And then you stop speaking. And the more we learn how to do these things, the more our true self will arise, and the easier it will be to let go instead of holding on to the things that do not serve us. So in closing, as the weekend comes upon us, recognize that we must learn to respect and honor the complications of others' lives, because our lives are just as complicated. And we don't need to pick at each other, we don't need to poke the bear, we don't need to push and push and push because our egos need to be stroked, we need to know that our children love us, we need to know that they want to be in our lives so that we reach out and we reach out and we reach out. And I'm speaking to the choir here. It is very hard to not keep texting or not keep leaving voicemails, or not have the idea in the back of my head every day to get a card and send it in the mail. And instead I have to remember they're asking for space. Am I giving it? Do I trust the old adage that absence creates more fondness? Can I let go of even that expectation? Can I let go of the possibility that maybe they will choose to never want to have a relationship with me? Can I deal with that? These are the hard questions that we have to ask. To ask each other humanity. But the truth is, the only one that we can help become true and authentic is us. And if you ever think about it, if we just took a season, however long that takes, to become our true and authentic self, don't you think that would just magnetically bring back the people who want and are supposed to be in our lives? I know this is hard, but this is what the word talked about mothers against daughters, fathers against sons, husbands against wives. It's a hard, hard path that we're walking right now. But in a world of upheaval, just like we talked about the last episode, we have to break the old sod to reveal the rich soil. And sometimes we just have to rejoice at the opportunity to plant seeds and then trust that under the ground, in the quiet, in the absence of communication or visits, that something is happening beneath the surface in the people we love's lives. And they are beginning their awakening process or continuing at whatever level they're on, and they will eventually find their true authentic self as well. So in closing, Deepak Chakra said, In the process of letting go, you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself. And the final quote I'll leave you with this weekend is my own quote. The quote lady who loves to open the show with quotes, leaves you with this quote by Teresa Marie, an ambassador of God's Chi. If, humanity, we are finally learning that we have the right to be ourselves, then we must also learn to honor that right in others. Have yourself a glorious weekend, and I love you, humanity. Peace.