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The High Road Isn’t Glamorous—It’s A Garden You Learn To Weed

• THeresa Marie

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What if the life you’re living today is the garden you planted—on purpose or by default? We open with a hard truth wrapped in compassion: misery doesn’t just happen to us; it grows from choices we let run underground like rhizomes. From there, I share the most surprising teacher of my week: a patch of canna lilies that overran my strawberries and showed me exactly how “time-saving” shortcuts and unresearched decisions can choke out what I value most.

I walk you through my current pivot: stepping back into a steady day job not as surrender, but as strategy to fund my calling—teaching, writing, and helping people walk out of old programming. We unpack the friction around money and time, the triggers that show up on a long gig-driving day, and the moment I chose structure over spiral. You’ll hear the practical plan that emerged at our kitchen table: a brain-dump-to-priorities workflow I borrowed from my ultra-disciplined husband, and how our “figure-eight” marriage is making us both more whole—he relaxes control, I embrace systems. Together we trade chaos for clarity.

Expect grounded takeaways you can use today. You’ll learn how to research your habits before planting them, how to stabilize cash flow without abandoning your purpose, and how to set simple guardrails that protect deep work. We turn big ideas—personal responsibility, mindset shifts, time management, financial discipline—into a humane, step-by-step map. And we keep it real about setbacks, because sometimes the bravest move is a visible “step back” that actually places you two steps forward.

If this resonates, follow the show, share it with someone who’s weeding their own plot, and leave a review with the one habit you’re ready to pull up by the roots. Let’s grow the garden we actually want.

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Many people allow themselves to be trapped into a miserable life. And when others see this, they might think, Wow, how tragic. But in actuality, they did it to themselves. For we should all know how our lives are going. For we only need to track the decisions that confront us each day to discover the answers. Well, we got a lot to talk about this morning. As I welcome you back to Free to Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step out of all the old patterns and false beliefs and matrix programming and childhood traumas and give a big old hug to brand new ways of being. And I hope this finds you in the greatest health with vibrant energy today, because you and I have chosen to accept the full responsibility for our body, minds, and souls. Here on Free to Just Be, we're gonna inspire each other to truly be who we came here to be. And that would be the authentic, free, and aligned versions of ourselves. So I hope you will join me today on this transformative awakening journey to learn how to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. So I opened this morning with some quotes from the 365 Tao Daily Meditation Book by Deng Ming Dao. And the reason I did that is because it's uh it's kind of dear to me today. You know, a lot of folks just think that life happened to them and it's a terrible, miserable way to live. But not us free-to-be veers. You know, if if you are on the awakening path listening to Free to Just Be, we are not those that think it doesn't matter what we do. We are not people that just shrug and say that we're victims of our circumstances. We don't try to justify our unhappy lives, our illnesses, our stress, our divorces, our maladjusted kids. We recognize that those are all traps. And one of the beginning ways of waking up is literally recognizing that we were in charge of our lives and where we're at today, right now, is the decisions that we made in our past which got us here. Those of us that are on the awakening path, we don't want to end up miserable. We want to be free. We don't want to be victims. So, and I am quoting now, I love this part of the this this daily book. It says, quote, therefore, although it is a difficult path, we constantly seek to expand the parameters of our lives. We do not suffer to be exploited or enslaved, and we will actually put aside what is considered normal in order to be happy. This awakening path, in case you haven't already figured it out yet, Humanityville, it is freaking hard. It's the high road, it's it's that narrow path that the Word of God talks about. It's the path where we have to learn to not look left or right. We need to just stay focused. And currently, those are the lessons that Teresa Marie, your ambassador of God's Qi, is experiencing. So what's next here? Um I I have all these ideas, all this creativity, all this experiential knowledge that I would like to share with humanity God. So how do I do that? And I have this pile of things. Um, I have a devotional book that I'm I'm working on, a very unconventional one, by the way. Um, I have this podcast that I love to uh to do almost on the daily. I have many, many, many pages of ideas for this podcast, but I operate this podcast based on what I feel like I'm I'm being given on that particular day. Thus, I wasn't even behind the mic yesterday because I had zip. I had nothing to offer Humanityville. And to me, that's okay. That's the way I choose to live. As many of you know, I stepped off the Matrix wheel, and I have been pretty much like swearing that I was not gonna go in reverse. I was not gonna go back into the Matrix, I'm not gonna ever punch a clock again. And I've been door dashing, and I I have very few bills compared to the uh majority of Humanityville. Uh, just a little over a grand a month is all I'm personally responsible for. And that would be$70 a day of door dashing. And let me tell you, in uh the last week or uh month or six weeks, I have had difficulty even securing that$70, even going up to Murfreesboro, which is the most rapidly growing city in all of the United States currently, right? And it's it's about a 30-minute drive from me. And I I share this because this has been my current crucible. I don't get it, God. You know, you you know that I know that I'm called to use my communication skills to help as many people as I can. I have this written course material I'm working on to help people walk themselves out of the matrix. I have these wonderful moving meditation classes that I want to expand. So I have all these things in this big old pot and uh all the steps to get there, and and and and and this is how I've been feeling. I I don't even know where to begin. And part of it is my time is spent so often in a vehicle driving, trying to chase down the money that I need to just stay afloat. Because, see, when I return back to my husband um a little over two months ago, I told him, you know, he was like, no, no problem, babe, you know, we got this, we'll uh, you know, financially, you know, I uh I got you, babe, but I'm like, no, no, I don't want you to have me. I I need to learn this financial piece. This is a piece of my life that I've always been weak in, just like time management. So I need to figure this out. And let me tell you, man, it in recent weeks, it it's triggered me when, you know, when I I say to him, Oh, yes, I'm I'm gonna speak the truth. When I fall back into that quote unquote victimhood mentality, and I've been out for six hours driving, and I'm still shy 20 bucks for my bills, and my husband calls to check on me and how you doing, babe? Oh, I'm I'm fine. I'm just you know, I I have to, I just need to continue. I I'm 20 bucks shy of my goal. And he immediately says, Okay, well, I'll see you when you get here. End of conversation. And immediately I'm like, well, well, well, but but you know, what kind of support is that? It's the ultimate support, Teresa Marie. And I might add that I'll I'll be talking to myself then. I have to talk myself back to the reality that I want to live in. Because who was speaking and triggered and feeling like, oh, he must not love and support me as much, is the old the old gal. The Terry Wilson, the hippie freak of the South, the one that would prefer to be rescued, would not which really I've never been that has never been my preferential choice. But, oh baby, once you're awake, you you cannot close the box anymore. You cannot fake it until you make it. You cannot justify behaviors that you are so uberly aware of now. And so I found myself numerous times um in recent weeks saying, get behind me, man. We're not going here. We're gonna figure out this financial thing, and we are gonna figure out this time management thing. So these are the conversations I've been having with my older self, the self that I buried, the self that I um, all those attributes that I released, remember, I shared with you on the 999 portal. I let her go. And there's a new sheriff in town. There's a new Theresa Marie, your ambassador of God's chi in town. And so sometimes this new version of myself, this actual version of myself, the true and liberated and free Teresa Marie has to remind that old person that she's not around anymore, right? So I had this really visual lesson this weekend. I've told you I'm a headbanger. I told you that I could write the book on what not to do. In fact, that may be a book in the future. What not to do by Teresa Maria, the Ambassador of Chi, because her whole life has been a conglomeration of what not to do. But you know, every what not to do availed me this incredible lesson that sometimes I would repeat and sometimes I finally fully released and deleted from my life. Everything is a lesson because we are in Earth School. Okay. So the other um aspect, you know, not only the financial, but the feeling like I don't have time to pursue my devotional book. I don't have time to pursue this course material that I'm writing out so that people could read it and walk themselves out of the programming like I did over the course of the last 10 years. All of these different things that I know could help others, but I how do I how do I make the time to do that when I'm running after money to keep myself afloat? So all these questions were swirling around, right? So then the weekend comes and it's Saturday, and I've I've done my due duty and I I have my bill money, and I'm now working in my yard. Yard work will avail you many lessons as well. And I've I I think I've shared that uh I have been reclaiming I'm reclamating my garden. I'm reclaiming my ground, right? I'm uncovering my berry bushes, I'm I'm uh clearing out my vegetable garden spaces because I want to be ready for the spring. Enter a big huge lesson of cana lilies. Cana lilies like the vinca that I learned five years ago. See, I saw these pretty things that I wanted in my garden. Oh, ground cover, yes, I I want to put that around the house so you know my um house gardens, the foundation gardens will will, you know, fill in and I won't have to weed as much. But what I failed to do was research what I was putting in the ground, the vinca vine, which in retrospect I discovered was incredibly invasive. In fact, when I discovered that it was invasive and that it was growing everywhere and I wanted to get rid of it, I learned another lesson. You don't take the vinca vines that really should be burned and just toss them somewhere else. Because that's what I did. I just tossed the vinca that I chose to pull out of my foundation gardens, and I took this pile and I tossed them in a section of our woods. And two years later, we have this entire section of the woods that's being overtaken by vinca vine. Enter this weekend as I'm working on the removal of the cana lilies. Cana lilies grow with rhizoms, which are underground, like um, they look like if you've ever looked at ginger, you know, you know what uh real ginger, not in a in a bottle, but you know, you can buy raw ginger and grate it yourself. Well, they look like these um thick roots, and so rhizoms they grow sideways and then they sprout up. So guess what? They they can have networks of systems under your ground. The only thing that saved my ass was the fact that I put down black fabric shield, which is supposed to shield you from the weeds. Yet another lesson that Miss Theresa Marie discovered. I will never ever put fabric underneath my um Back to Eden Gardens, my layers and layers and layers, because it's it's horrible, it's not natural, okay? And that's what we do in life. We want to simplify, we don't want to weed, so we do these artificial things instead of just going with the flow of mother nature. Lesson learned. But now as I'm out there, and what I had done two years ago was I put all these pretty little cana lilies just on the corners. Four. Four cana lilies on each corner of my strawberry patch, which was you know probably 15 by 12, right? Well, I returned two years later, and the entire strawberry patch is covered up by these cannel lilies, right? So now I've had to cut them down, and I got them down to about, you know, three to four inches, and now I'm beginning to dig up these rhizoms, and it is a real difficulty, okay? The only thing that saved me over by my elderberry tree was the fact that I had this black fabric, and I was able to pull up the fabric, and most of the rhizoms just pulled right up with it. Not so with the strawberry. The strawberry field I uh or patch, I have to dig, you know, you don't have to go far, it's only about three to six inches beneath, and then you can get your shovel underneath them and pull them out that way. But it is a chore, it's a it's a job. And as I'm beginning this process, and believe me, I have two or three more days of work, right? The spirit is speaking to me. This is what your decisions are like. They grow and spread without containment. What? Oh, yes, yes. You have left your financial life to just grow wild, and now you are reaping the costs because you see, there's always a cause and effect. My decision over the years to never really become quote unquote learned, to sit down and teach myself because there's all sorts of resources out there. Oh, yes, I know how to do a budget, yes, I know how much money that I need in a month, and I know how to divide it by week and blah blah blah. But I've never really disciplined myself financially. And see, now what I want to do is I want to jump past that, and I want to just be financially free. It doesn't work that way, does it? And so I'm digging the rhizoms up and I'm I'm getting all these lessons. And then spirit begins to show me my time management. Oh, you wanted to save time by not weeding. So you thought by planting these cannelilies, it would, it would, you know, help. Oh, yes, it it helped with the weeds because nothing else but cannelilies can grow in that spot. They take over everything. And guess what? My lack of time management has spilled over into my financial world, into my what I I already know what my vocation is, but I'm like struggling, I'm flailing around. How do I get out all these wonderful veins of of creativity that you've given me? Oh, oh, oh, oh. You mean I have to pull in? I have to discipline myself. Whoa, whoa, what? I I thought I was leaving the matrix of discipline. Everybody has their own field to clear. Everybody has that pile of shit that you have to shovel through to get to the pony. And where I'm at now, and I've talked about this before in other podcasts, these are the three I had three finances, relationships, and time management. My three doozies, right? And so, what did Spirit have me do this weekend as all these lessons were pouring in, and I'm going, wow. And let me let me share a little further about the Cana Lily extraction. It is so incredible how this universal earth school that we're living in has been designed to give us all the lessons that we need, all the practical um daily discipline that we need, right? Whatever we need, the universe will supply. If we put out with intention words that say, I want to better my relationship, I want my body to be a well-oiled machine, I want to learn about finances, and I need to tighten up my time management. I've been saying this for years. And here I am outside in the sun, in Mother Nature, with my feet grounding on her earth. I am making progress on a garden project. He's and she are teaching me lessons as I'm digging in the dirt, as it's helping my body get healthier because I'm exercising out in Mother Nature. All of it has come into this one big ball of a lesson. It's it's actually quite incredible. And I'm out there, I'm just I'm just so grateful. I'm thanking God and Mother Earth for literally bringing into my life all the answers in one session out digging in my yard. And I'm so grateful. And then I knew what I had to do, and I came in and I I told my husband, and and this is this is where I'm gonna I'm gonna close today on the figure eight of our marriage and how we are literally changing roles. Because, as I've shared many times, I am the rain shower. La la la la la la la. Because for years I was I was called the the unicorn and rainbow girl, right? You know, I just want to just dance around life and not have any any kind of structure, and that's literally, I have lived my life pretty much by the seat of my pants. Never really worked on a plan, you know, never really um tightened up my focus. And then there's my husband Roger. My husband Roger is the tightest focused man that I've ever met. He is diligent, he is disciplined. He, whether he's working or not, is gonna get up at this particular time. He's gonna go in the bathroom and do specific things in specific order, he's very detail-oriented, he's super diligent. Six o'clock is dinner, six a.m. is breakfast, I'm gonna poop at this time, and that's exactly what this girl wants to run away from. And it is so incredibly hysterical to both of us that now my husband is in this position of working with an individual who's like me. In fact, he told me, he said, Oh my god, I'm working with a male version of you. I said, What do you mean? He said, Well, you know, he doesn't have a plan. And, you know, if he doesn't want to work, he just doesn't work. And and and, you know, I don't know if I can the first couple of weeks he was working with this guy. He didn't know if he was gonna make it. And now my husband has learned these incredible lessons of not being stressed all the time, not letting anxiety because his plan of discipline and detail and I'm gonna do it this way because this is the way I created safety in my life. He's loosening up from that. And he's learning to relax. While his wife, who has lived a relaxed life her whole life, is learning that if I want my vocation of helping Humanityville to expand to the thousands of people I want to reach, then I am gonna learn how to be focused, and I am going to learn that it may be I have to take on a matrix job again for a little while in order to get to the place where I can be paid well for what I want to do and have to be in the matrix a little bit longer to get there. Oh, ow, ow, what, really? And yes, to finish out what happened over the weekend, Sunday night, I get this text from my son who just got a really good promotion at uh a corporation that starts with the letter A, that I worked at twice too. And uh he said he put it out on the family chat that that particular entity was hiring, and I was like, no, no, no way, I'm not doing that again. And Sunday night, it's finally the window, we're getting ready to start the next work week, and I am now 80% in filling out that application again, and I suddenly become conscious of what I'm doing, and I'm like, what am I doing? And the Spirit of God said, just finish the application. And so I finished the online application, and in 10 minutes I was rehired by Amazon, and today I go and do my drug drug screen and get my picture ID picture taken, and I start in two weeks on a day shift, and the day shift will avail me the opportunity to still teach my moving meditation classes, and it will avail me a steady stream of income that will help me get my business cards and my card magnets and do all the things that I know I want to do to help humanityville, and all of a sudden my body began to relax, and I recognized wow, my decisions got me to this place, and now I'm not stepping back, I'm not digressing, no, I am strategically planning. And then Sunday I also sat down with my husband, and I said, Roger, what would you do if you had a time limit? Say, say your time limit is by the end of 2025, you want to have launched this, this, and this. And here is the pile of things that have to be done in order to do that. So I literally just threw up all the things that are on my plate that I know I am capable of, that I want to do, that I'm called to do, but I have no clue even where to begin. It's like overwhelm. And he looks at me like, like incredulously, like, what you don't know what to do with that? And I'm like, exactly, I don't know what to do. I'm just I just spinning my wheels. And he's like, okay. First you're gonna dump it all out on paper, then you're gonna put it into categories, then you're gonna take each category and you're gonna prioritize, and then under each priority, you're gonna make a list of the things that you need to do on any given day to get to that priority checklist. And and he literally walked me through his daily process, which he's not having to do much anymore. And we're literally becoming that figure eight. He's becoming me, and I'm becoming him, and guess what? We're each helping each other become fully rounded individuals. So, yes, in two weeks I will go back to a four-day-a-week job, a 40-hour week, that will avail me more time. I will have three whole days, and I won't be in a car driving around chasing money, and eventually by the end of 2026, I will have obtained all the goals that I seek to bring into my life, to do nothing other than create a life of contribution to my fellow human beings, and also be able to create an income doing so. Isn't this what we all want to do? Work at our passion and be able to sustain ourselves? We're all gonna be able to do that, humanity. And the reason I share that is to encourage you. If you've had to retract a little from your ascension journey, maybe you are taking a step back when you thought, oh, I was so far ahead. I am light years from the person I was two years ago. I am light years from the person I was two months ago. And yet all I was seeing was, well, I haven't done A to Z yet. What's wrong with me? So this is what we do together. My dear, dear, dear brothers and sisters, my fellow human beings. We share with one another. What worked for us, what didn't work for us. We share our victories and our presumed defeats and recognize that a lot of times defeat is where we really discover the solutions. So see, I am very grateful for cannelilies and vincaweed or vinka vine. They're really kind of a weed in my life. And for the lessons that they taught me, left out of control, your bad decisions will create a bad future. But when you catch them early, now I know that I know, that I know, that I will never plant something in my yards on this eight acres without researching it first. And actually, I've already decided that the only thing I want to plant in the ground going forward is something edible. Because think about it. Oh, I have these visions of having a food forest on my property, and yet I put down fabric. That is not how Mother Nature works. Food forests are not created with black fabric that is man-made. Hello. Lesson learned. Headbanger style, but lesson learned. And we don't want to bring things into our life that are going to spread massively. Don't you think you've already done enough of that in your life, Teresa Marie? Remember when you were the hippie freak of the South and you thought a little bit of alcohol or substance abuse was wasn't going to be a problem? Remember that? Remember how it grew? Oh, oh yeah. So now the things I bring into my life, I'm a whole lot more discerning about. And that lesson that I'm still, I'm still literally in the effect of that choice of the canalilies. Oh, they're so pretty. And they're pollinators. No research. I did not resurrect Inquisition in my decision to plant canalilies. And now I am having to take X amount of hours in order to eradicate them from my property. What have you allowed to spring forth unchecked in your life that eventually you're going to have to meet face to face in order to delete? So going forward, you can use this episode to say to yourself, whoa, wait a minute. Is the trajectory that I currently think I'm supposed to be on? Are there checkpoints that I need to, are there places I need to pull back? Are there sections of my life that I need to literally unroot and pull out and throw on the fire before I can be clear enough to do this? Because you see, I didn't have a plan. And therefore I was planning to fail. Now I have a whole new set of energy, a whole new resolution within my spirit, because now I can see that if I do this and this and this and this, I can see it. It's like a map in my mind now. And so now every day I can go back. And now I think I'm more ready. You see, I was so resistant to the mastermind program of Tony um Robbins and Dean De Garcia. Why? Because I've lived a completely undisciplined life. And I felt very constrained. Oh, here are the steps. Just follow the steps. Well, I don't want to follow steps. Ooh, uh. Well, guess what? Continue to be like that, and you're going to continue down the road to be in the same place that you are now extracting cana lilies. I don't want to extract stuff from my life anymore. So I want to learn from this and going forward, be wise enough to not replicate the things that I know down the road I'm going to have to delete. Woo, baby. Hard lessons, hard lessons. But guess what? Nobody ever told us when we came down here to help one another spread the love and light of God that it was going to be easy in earth school. Because we're not kindergarteners anymore, you and I, Humanityville. Oh no, we are progressing through this earth school. And when we open the Pandora's box by eating that red pill, yeah, yeah, buddy. We entered into a boot camp that is the boot camp of all boot camps. And if we want to progress, if we ever want to get through and and literally say, wow, the things I learned in that earth school, it is a journey with a destination unknown, folks. And every day is an opportunity. What will you extract today in Earth School? What lesson can you come back in your journal tonight and document? That is the question that I leave you with today on this tremendous, thought-provoking, terrific Tuesday. I love you, humanity, and I hope the crazy lessons that I go through will avail you a little bit of fodder, a little bit of encouragement, a little bit of inspiration on your session in Earth School. Peace.