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How Radical Transparency Fuels Authentic Growth

• THeresa Marie

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What if the fastest path back to yourself is the one that feels scariest: telling the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth? We go there—into vulnerability you can feel in your body, into the valleys after the mountaintop highs, and into the quiet courage it takes to admit when old coping sneaks back in. This is a raw, practical tour of radical transparency as a daily practice, not a performance.

We start with the somatic side of openness—how your chest, throat, and breath register risk when you drop the armor—and why retraining your nervous system is essential for authentic living. From there, we unpack timeline shifts: those seasons when motivation and clarity surge, only to crash into doubt or numbing. You’ll hear a candid account of slipping into familiar escapes, how childhood wounds of rejection and abandonment can reactivate under pressure, and the simple, repeatable steps used to reset: notice what’s off, name it without shame, go directly to God for guidance, clear your field, and realign with what matters.

Along the way, we challenge the wider culture of secrecy and spin. Transparency isn’t just personal healing—it’s how trust is rebuilt in families, communities, and public life. When we admit mistakes, drop hidden agendas, and speak plainly, energy returns, relationships warm, and choices get cleaner. If you’ve been feeling flatlined, “off,” or stuck in loops you thought you outgrew, this conversation offers a map back to clarity and peace you can use today.

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Here's the link to my earlier episode on transparency

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Understanding what is true is essential for success on this awakening journey. And being radically transparent about everything, including mistakes and weaknesses, helps create the understanding that leads to improvements in our evolution and ascension. So let's dig a little deeper into the transparency angle of the word authenticity. And I welcome you back to Free to Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step out of old patterns, heal from childhood traumas, and delete matrix programming and give big old hugs to new ways of being. And I hope this finds us all in the greatest health with vibrant energy today because we have chosen to accept the full responsibility for our body, mind, and souls. Here on Free to Just Be, I'm going to try to inspire us all to truly be who we came here to be, which of course is authentic, free, and aligned with our highest potentials. So won't you join me on this incredible transformative journey of ascension? And while you're at it, slap that like button and hit the subscribe button too. And together we're going to encourage each other to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. And I am so happy that you have joined me, and I am very, very grateful that you are spending some of your valuable time giving my words a listen. And I hope that I can bring some true value into your life today. Today we are on day 11 of our deep dive into the word, which we made into an acrostic. The word, of course, is authenticity. And we've gone through most of the letters of the word, and we are now down to the last T in authenticity. And today we're going to talk once again about transparency. Now, I did an episode on transparency back in July. I think let me look, it was July 10th, and I'm going to leave that link down below in today's show notes if you want to listen to that aspect. And I I talked about some transparency happening within my family. Well, you know, there are absolutely no kowinky dinks because I almost I almost came on last night at a very, very low point. About 10 o'clock last night, I almost came back into my office and dropped a recording. Maybe I should have, but I'm still going to talk about that very um incident um revelation that I was receiving last night. And it's part of this whole transparency episode. And uh yeah, sometimes we don't want to be transparent. Transparency is uh, as Mother Teresa reminded us, honesty and transparency make you vulnerable, and we don't want to be vulnerable, we don't want to, you know, um air our dirty laundry uh because we're worried so much about what others will think. And being vulnerable, um, I remember a dear friend of mine uh gave me a somatic exercise, and the exercise was to uh put some pretty puffy pillows on the floor and to lay your chest across the pillows so that your chest is pushed up and out, and then your head is leaning back behind you. And she said, I want you to lay back here, open your arms and your legs, and now I want you to close your eyes. And she said, How does that make you feel? And immediately I said, vulnerable, and that's what vulnerability feels like, and and that's what she said that the reason she was using this as a somatic exercise was to remind us that even though we feel unsafe in our body sometimes, we have to retrain our mind to recognize that we are safe. So when we open ourselves up like that, we need to learn that within who we are as people, um, and certainly who we are in, you know, uh being created in God's image, we are truly safe. And laying out there, it it really it really brought home to me how vulnerability feels. Uh, she said that um, you know, if you do that outside, you know, you risk being open to an attack by a wild animal, for example, and all the other things. Um, even just closing my eyes in the room. I wasn't sure if she was gonna drop something on me or or um spray me with water, or you know, all of these things go through your head. And vulnerability is something that we guard and and keep ourselves in prison because we are afraid of exposure, right? Um so what does transparency help us with on the ascension journey? How how can it help us and how does it correlate with authenticity? Well, authenticity absolutely requires not only vulnerability, but it requires transparency and integrity. And why why does authenticity require that? Well, the opposite of that, according to the Dalai Lama, the opposite of transparency results in distrust and a deep sense of insecurity. Now, go with me here for a minute. Isn't that exactly where we are in this matrix right now? In the world at large. We as as a humanity, humanity bill right now has a huge distrust in their world and a deep sense of insecurity. We don't know what's coming, we feel like another shoe is gonna drop, there's political um uh dissent, and there's um uh lies in the media, and we don't know who to believe, and we feel like the news doesn't tell us the truth anymore. And that is literally the opposite of transparency: distrust and a deep sense of insecurity. So as we sojourn on this awakening journey, as we take steps up the ascension ladder, transparency fosters a sense of trust and provides serious motivation. So today I believe that the most optimal way that I can personally help Humanityville today, and every day I come before this microphone, that that optimal way for me is being transparent about my experiences. And that's what I attempt to do every time I share stories from my life and what is occurring in my body, mind, and soul on this ascension journey. And there are many, many other podcasters and um uh social media influences doing the same thing. And what does that do? According to Paul Gillen, who wrote The New Influencers, he said that transparency may be the most disruptive and far-reaching innovation to come out of social media. Absolutely. Think about all um, you know, that we had the terrible uh recent tragedy, and um people recorded live that assassination, right? And and that changed everything. I mean, the news cannot give their version anymore because there are people with cell cameras out, and everybody is now uh subject to, you know, you you want to try to pull the wool over somebody's eyes, somebody is gonna be filming you and you will be found out, and that is really where the world needs to go. So for me, being transparent today about an aspect of my ascension journey is gonna be where I'm at because transparency is what we all long for, and what really will help us all truly evolve. Uh, Billy Bowie said uh transparency fosters a sense of trust and provides serious motivation. So I am hopefully going to provide some serious motivation for all of my brothers and sisters, all other human beings, to be motivated to step away from being a human doing and become a human being again, right? Um because I want to increase my own credibility and accountability, not only for my own good, but for my family's good and for the good of humanity. Um the other reason is because there is no truth to be had without being transparent. And there is no beauty without truth, like Carrie Summers told us. I just absolutely love the Mother Teresa quote about how honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. But be honest and transparent anyway. So I'm gonna be honest and transparent with you today about my ascension journey. So I um for the last probably for the last two weeks, um, I would have to look in my Bible for the accuracy for how long, but it seems like a couple of weeks at least. Now, I shared that on September 9th, 9-9, the 999 portal, I threw in the fire all the attributes about my old self. Uh, and I I call her the hippie freak of the south, right? And I said goodbye and I shared all about that. And for a couple of weeks, I was like on fire with motivation, with everything to do with my ascension journey. I had begun um doing the Dr. Living Good 21-day program. I had lost six or seven pounds, I was doing um uh new 10-minute HIT workouts along with my moving meditations. I was really, really beginning to flow in uh so many ways. And here it came. Now, of course, um, unfortunately, as you're evolving, a lot of the lessons still come in as hindsight lessons. And our tendency as as flawed human beings, um, as human beings that don't want to be vulnerable, we want to perfect everything right away. We have the tendency to dog ourselves when hindsight lessons come in. Instead of saying, Wow, wow, look at that, look at that lesson that you know, I got it, I got it a little late after the fact, but and and and there it is, we stay on that. We we think about how, you know, yeah, well, you know, um hindsight's 2020, you know, um that type of thing, and and we we lack giving credit to the fact that we did get the lesson. So my lesson um is that and and I've talked about this. I've talked about how when you're on a mountain high, when your flow is is going really well, you're in the kayak, and and everything is just smooth sailing, and you have your feet outside of the kayak, and you just feel great, and you're looking at all the the surrounding beauty and nature, and you know, you're not paying attention, and suddenly you're in the rapids, and your boat is swirling, and you feel like your kayak is gonna flip over, and it may even flip over, and you may have that wake-up call of being tossed into the river, right? Well, that is often what happens as we continue down this evolutionary path of climbing the ascension ladder. And you know, I have spoken about how when you're in the flow or you're having that mountaintop experience and and the energy is very high, expect what? The crash. Expect that generally these mountaintop experiences are often followed by a crash down into a valley, right? And here I was, vibing good, and everything was going great, and and then I I recognized, I recognized this last night because yesterday, and and I have been seeking the answers. What yeah, I this is this is what I was saying in my head. Have you ever said this, Humanityville? What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me? That's what I kept saying. God, what is wrong with me? I don't even feel like myself. I I felt um, and I've talked about the flatlining. Um, when you just, you know, if if you were to pull down your visor mirror in your car and look at yourself at any point, you would see that you're not frowning, you're not smiling, you have a flat line across your your lips, right? You're you're emotionless, you're you're going through uh just your daily motions like a robot. You're on um uh remote control, right? You you're you're just um you're going through the motions of life, and that's kind of where I was at. And even now, here's where the vulnerability comes, because you know, I'm I'm supposed to be this uh evolutionary um influencer. Well, again, I go back to the best way that I can influence anybody on this journey is being straight up and and not manipulating my own podcast by saying, well, I have arrived and and I don't ever fall and I I don't make mistakes because that's a bunch of absolute bullshit. And the truth of the matter is, um, and I've been hearing others speak of this, that often, and I and I did, back in early September, I I literally felt and knew that I had made what is considered a timeline shift. And I suddenly was literally vibing with all of the attributes of my higher self. I had motivation, I was moving forward, I was making plans, I was working the plan, I I was feeling better body, mind, and soul. I, you know, uh I was on track. And that is kind of a dangerous place to be, because now as we're flowing down this river and things are going well, what does the opposite, the duality, the darkness? Oh buddy, they don't want that. Darkness, dark spirits, or the opposite of flow is stagnation, right? So you can expect the test. I failed the test. Often when um and uh Michael Delaracco, um, who does the podcast um I think it's called Everyday Life, he talked about how you not only um become aware of shifting timelines, but you have to anchor that timeline in. And that's where I failed. I became vulnerable to the suckage of the dark entities again. And you know, we can save a debate for where these entities come from. Um another podcaster I've listened to for a good 12 years is Lori Ladd, and and she has spoken about how the online apps, um, in her opinion, are carrying a lot of these dark energies. And wherever it comes from, I just know that two weeks ago, now, and again, last night this was my retrospect. So I'm I'm sharing this and being honest with you because you know, you might be in the midst of what I'm trying to explain to you, and it may help you be dislodged from it a little bit more rapidly than I was. So, what followed this massive flow in my life was getting sucked back into my old way, to my old routine, to my old coping mechanisms. And and yes, it was uh uh drinking alcohol, it was uh a little bit of pot smoking, it was um feeling less than all those voices of you're a sham, you're a sham, you don't have a mission, you can't do you, you, you, and I didn't catch it for quite a while. And I was still doing my you know, my meditating, I was still doing my moving meditations, I was I was still um 80% on track, but that 20%, oh buddy, it was working on me and it was wearing me out, and I and I just could not figure out what was going on. And uh then I talked to um a an energy worker, a light worker, um dear sister of mine, and she explained that many of us are healing from deep set childhood traumas. And one of mine, um, and now I recognize that that was truly what was coming up, um, I have been surrounded once again by the childhood traumas of rejection and abandonment. And again, I reiterate, I was not um intentionally rejected, and I certainly wasn't intentionally abandoned. But these are things that I felt like I was experiencing as a child. And now, in retrospect, I understand what my energy worker, light worker friend was explaining. She said, Teresa, you are again reliving and going through the observation of these childhood traumas of rejection and abandonment. And some aspect of that is still stuck in your systems, your chakra systems, or your meridians, or what have you. And we are now evolving to begin to learn how to clear these disturbances on our own. So don't be afraid of it, but know that that's what's happening. And so she gave me some different modalities to try. And um, interestingly enough, no kawinky dinks again. Um, that very same day, Lori Ladd was saying the same thing. She was saying, you know, when you feel off, when you you absolutely don't feel like yourself, this is what I suggest you do. Don't go to a friend, don't go to a podcast, go directly to the source. Go and and and I love how Lori is now saying, I go directly to God. And then she covers herself and says, Go to whatever you feel is God, the universe, whatever. And Lori, I just I just personally think you should just drop all the other extras because it's God. Okay, it's God, folks. And so that's what I did um all day yesterday. And uh I was driving and and I recognize too that um when I go off door dashing, um it's it's for me, it it really is like a process time because I can accomplish something, I can drive and I can pick up and deliver and drive and pick up and deliver, but at the same time, inwardly I am processing, if that makes any sense. And um, so I that's what I was doing. I was I was saying, God, I don't know what's going on. I I do know, and these these are the things that I want to share that worked for me, because alcohol certainly didn't. That was just covering it up. Um, even my herbal prozac, you know, it it doesn't have the same effect anymore. Why? Because as we ascend the things that our former life and our former energetic signature used to use, we have a brand new energetic signature, and those old things do not work. Now, I can say this and quote unquote preach it, you know, on my podcast all day long. But the vulnerability piece comes from the fact that, oh man, I got caught again. I got caught with my pants down, I got caught covering up, I got caught inebriating. And what it did was dull me. It dulled my senses, and it elongated my little um in the kayak going through the rapids. It it made it last longer. And like I said, I think it was a couple of weeks of this flatlining of feeling like, you know, well, what am I doing? And maybe, maybe I'm not supposed to be doing this podcast, and all this doubt and all this, and and it was like I allowed the matrix to come back in and say, Oh, come on back, come on back, right? And that, you know, it it takes a lot to admit that. So, you know, before I continue, I just want to go back to that definition of transparency, and I'm gonna post this on my Facebook page. It it transparency refers to the quality of being easily seen through or understood without any hidden agendas or secrets. See, I I don't want to ever go through something on this evolutionary journey and keep it to myself because I want to get ahead of y'all. I mean, how how selfish and stupid would that be, right? Um, transparency also implies openness, communication, and accountability in various contexts. That's what I'm doing. I'm holding myself accountable to you, Humaneville, uh, because I think that what else transparency said, it's essential in productive personal and business relationships. We are in the business of evolution. And in order for us to be productive on this journey, we need to be transparent to one another because it promotes trust, clarity, and understanding among all of us that are on the same evolutionary journey to awake and ascend, right? So let me give some examples of transparency. One of them is direct communication. An individual speaks their mind clearly and honestly. Hopefully, that's what you're seeing and hearing from me right now, without resorting to manipulation or hidden agendas. Kind of like um you you've all clicked on them. The the rapid weight loss programs, the supplements that you need to change your life. And you click on, you know, just click on this uh for the secret that everybody's looking for, and you listen to a 30-minute presentation only to get to the end, which is of course the manipulation and the hidden agenda, trying to suck you in and touch your emotional cords. Why? So that you can pay them money, right? So that would be the opposite of transparency. We have seen that manipulation and we've seen those hidden agendas. Another example of transparency would be emitting mistakes. When somebody takes full responsibility, what is responsibility? Responding with your ability, right? To do what? To tell the truth, taking responsibility for their actions, acknowledging your errors, and not trying to shift the blame. I did not sleep with that woman, as Bill Clinton lied right into the camera, right? We need to become people that are willing to admit when we're wrong. So that's kind of what I am doing today. I'm I'm saying, you know, I did. I got sucked back in. And the truth is that it is extremely important. Oh my goodness. I just had to pause the recording because my husband, who is home today, just brought me in the most beautiful BLT sandwich I have ever seen. And it's even more beautiful because my husband brought it to me. So I'm also going to share that on my Facebook page today because that is a prime example of the transformative power of this ascension journey. Because I'll tell you what, two years ago, not only would I have never expected this, it never would have happened. So there you have it, folks. Transformation um on this evolutionary journey is a beautiful thing. And now I I I feel very motivated to finish this podcast because this sandwich looks so dang good. So to continue what occurred um last night, I got really serious. And as I'm laying in bed, I'm saying, God, I really need you. Need you to delete whatever I allowed to come into my energetic field because you know we are responsible for keeping our field. Some people would call it the aura, but we have an energetic field, a cushion, if you would, around us. Right if you put your hand right on your sternum, it emanates out seven or eight feet. And if you're really healthy, even further than that, and it's completely around us, above and below us, like a like a cushioning bubble of love and light. And when we experience physical ramifications in our body, dis-eases in our body, it's because we did not catch them in our energetic field. And many of us are becoming more and more acutely aware of when something triggers or hits our energetic field that doesn't belong or um is distorted or is infiltrating with darkness, right? Now I did not catch it, but I knew that there was something that was causing me to not be the Teresa Marie, the true person that I am. And honestly, I was tired of trying to figure it out and I didn't know, so I laid there in meditation and I was saying, God, whatever I allowed to come in, forgive me for allowing it to come in and send whatever these are, whatever is causing me to not be myself back to the sender. Send it back out of my field, and I close up my field to nothing but love and light. And I trust you that this is a lesson that I need to learn on my ascension journey, and thank you for helping me stand in the middle of it. And then I went to sleep. And I woke this morning with more joy, with more energy, with more focus. Um, I feel like I'm myself again. And then I'm gonna I'm gonna be honest. You know, I am the this financial piece is wearing me out. So I know that just like relationally, when I got to the place with my husband Roger, that I no longer could tolerate what was going on in our relationship, I had to leave. And I left knowing that I was eventually going to come back, but there came that place of recognition. Enough is enough. And that pretty much is what is happening in my financial realm. I'm sick and tired of driving and receiving not enough, you know, for my efforts. And I know that I'm uh called to do certain things. And I kept saying to myself over and again, what's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? Why, you know, am I not supposed to do this mention? Well, what was wrong with me is that I was carrying once again these burdens of dark energies or decisions that I made, and they were affecting my focus. And I'm very grateful for that. I woke up a new person, and then I checked my bank account. And last night I was so excited that, you know, my car payment was paid, and yeah, I did it with my DoorDash money, and yada yada, and then I was feeling really good about this morning, and I wouldn't have to hustle around. And for whatever reason, um I opened my bank account and my car payment was not taken. Um the payment that I made last night didn't take. And now, for the first time since I bought this car, there it was in red flashing at me, late payment. And I I for about 45 seconds, I railed. I was just like, oh my God, I can't believe this happened. And here I'm working on my credit, and uh, and and then I realized, oh, wait a minute. Here, here it is again. Joyful, whoosh. And I'm like, nope, nope. And I stood with my husband and I said, no, we're I'm not letting this happen again. And I pulled a chair up next to him, and he was feeling that financial crunch too, because he hadn't worked but one day this week, and he wasn't working today. We are being called to trust God in ways that we never have before. We are not in the control seat anymore, and so we are learning to step up another ladder rung when it feels extremely uncomfortable, and I caught it. I thought, no, we're not gonna, we're not gonna go there. And so my husband and I sat and we prayed together, and both of us are on a better track, a happy track, a more positive track. And so I just want to tell you that today, if you are feeling like you are not yourself, what worked for me, and you know, I've known this for well over 40 years. I've been walking with God for well over 40 years. I know that when I call out to him, he's there to help me. And that's exactly what he did is he helped me. He helped me to clear my field. And now it's my responsibility to stay wide awake and to catch it. So that is my um antidote for hypocrisy. I I don't ever want to be someone who says one thing behind this mic and does another. Transparency is the antidote for hypocrisy. Transparency is so incredibly important to us. And I just want to close with uh Luke 8 17, and I want to encourage us not only on our ascension journey, but also when we look out at the world, when we observe how the matrix is being dismantled, one iota at a time. Luke eight seventeen says, For nothing is secret that shall not be made manifest, neither anything hid that shall not be known and come abroad. And the living version is even better. It says, For all that is secret will eventually be brought into the open, and everything concealed will be brought to the light and be made known to all. Wow. That is what's happening to us, and that is what's happening within the matrix. Little by little, justice will be served because we have been in darkness for so long. This huge paradigm shift, can you feel it happening? It's happening in you and it's happening all around you. More and more people are waking up, and the more that wake up, the less the matrix will control us. There are thousands making the Exodus away from the Matrix merry ground. So I want you to be encouraged by that today. And hopefully, me being in my flow this morning helps anybody listening today fall back into theirs. Transparency is required for authenticity, vulnerability is required for transparency, and all of that brings beauty, the beauty of truth back into our life. So hopefully, by me being transparent today and talking about how I literally took a step back and was almost trying to anchor back into my former timeline. And then I woke up and I recognized and I called out to God and He helped me, and today is a new day. So if you feel like that, if you feel like something is off and what is wrong with you, there's nothing wrong with you. You are on an awakening journey, the the biggest, most difficult, and courageous journey of your life. So take your right hand, Humanityville, and put it on your left shoulder. And take your left hand and put it on your right shoulder and give yourself a big old hug. Because you are doing a fantastical job. This ascension journey is no freaking joke. It is not for the weak-willed or the weak-minded or those that want to hide and put their head in the sand like a freaking ostrich. It takes a lot of courage to face your own lies. It takes a lot of courage to step out of relational manipulation. It takes a lot of courage to look out at the news and say, you know what, I don't feel like that's the truth. So let me dive a little further into resurrecting Inquisition and find out the answers for myself. All of these things take incredible courage, energy, and trust in our Creator. We, you and I, are learning to lean on the source of everything in ways that maybe we never have before. But I'm here to remind you, you're not alone. Be vulnerable today. Be transparent in a way that you never have today. Maybe it's just being transparent with your own reflection in the mirror. But that's where we're gonna find beauty, and that's where we're gonna find peace.