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Shifting With Shifty Shifts

• THeresa Marie

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News that your grandson eloped. A late-night recording after a long day. Walking back into a warehouse job and finding unexpected grace between the conveyor belts. This conversation is about the kind of awakening that happens while life keeps moving—and how choosing not to react can quietly change everything.

We unpack a season of rapid shifts: leaving DoorDash mid-shift because the inner yes turned to a clear no, trusting that needs will still be met, and embracing a new role at Amazon with fresh eyes. Along the way, we talk about detachment as a loving stance, not a shutdown—how it let us meet surprise family news without spinning into drama, and how that choice preserves energy, dignity, and sleep. These moments become proof that spiritual growth shows up in the body: sore shoulders that still move, a post-surgery knee that loosens through repetition, and a nervous system that finally gets to rest.

The story widens at home and at work. A chance connection with Olga on the line opens into shared tears and courage. Years of holding on give way to a closet breakthrough, releasing old scarcity scripts bag by bag. We reflect on mentorship, the voices that helped us start, and why iron sharpens iron when we listen with heart. Through it all, the thread is simple and hard-won: breathe, notice, choose. Celebrate the non-reaction. Let others have their journey while you walk your own with trust.

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Awakening more and more in this ascension journey is about being in the midst of chaos and taking a deep breath, remembering your truth, remembering your foundational grounding, and this eventually allows you to embody your true self more and more until it becomes fully natural for you to function this way. And when it begins to happen, it feels really odd. And I welcome you back to Free to Just Be, the podcast empowering humanity to courageously step in to new patterns and new ways of being and heal from their childhood traumas and give a big old hug to their true self. And I hope this finds us all in the greatest health this evening with vibrant energy all day today and peace to go to sleep tonight because we've all chosen to accept the full responsibility for our body, minds, and soul. Here, your host, that'd be me, Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Chi. I'm gonna try to inspire us all to truly be who we came here to be. Sparks of God, authentic, free, and aligned with our highest potential. So if my content is beginning to resonate with you, please take a moment to hit the like button and subscribe to my podcast on whatever platform you're listening to. And together we are gonna learn how to rewrite our narratives and live lives of purpose and passion. And yeah, it's kind of weird. It's 9.17 in Middle Tennessee, and I'm just now podcasting about 12 to 13 hours later than I normally do. But everything is shifting, and and that's kind of what I want to talk about tonight, because um these shifts that we go through, as we awaken more and more to the true us, the true spark of God, to the heroic human beings that we are, things shift and change. Uh for example, um uh as most of you know that follow my show, I uh went back to Amazon uh last Wednesday. And I am on the eve of yet my first full solo shift back in a different position in that plant, and um in that warehouse rather. And even just since last Wednesday, so much has shifted. Um made it through the the training, very, very boring training, especially if you've been through that intake training twice. It's I mean, you could get up and teach it better than the quote unquote trainers. Um and then we finally got on the floor, and then Saturday we were solo and uh met with our first challenges of not knowing what everything we were supposed to do was. And uh challenges are what we should embrace. Um, my husband always said for years and years that uh we take obstacles by choice, and um some of us don't even feel like we've chosen to go on this ascension journey. Uh, we'd prefer to be ostriches in the sand, and and some others uh uh awaken spiritually without ever coming into contact with uh oh, you know, yoga or meditation techniques or or really any kind of uh consistent spiritual teachings. Um my husband falls into that category. Uh hit and miss churchgoer, uh had a very profound um transformation with Christ um 15, 16 years ago, but no consistent training, never meditated, and uh any of this um uh new agey, as he would put it, stuff was never anything that he entered into. And he just it was like blink, um, and I predicted it, uh, because once my husband gets something, he runs with it. And that's what he's been doing. He's he's really transforming. And what got him on this dissension journey was simply because he couldn't stand to suffer anymore. He spent that year, year and a half, by himself, where he felt ostracized and alienated, and he had burnt every relational bridge with every family member, and uh suddenly recognized that this was suffering, and he loved us and he didn't want to be that way anymore. And so, boom, all of a sudden he's on this journey along with everybody else. And some of us chose and some of us didn't. Some of us have been self-help queens or kings like myself, and have been trying to figure out why we are what what we're not and and why we can't be what we want, and uh everything in between. And so in the midst of these shifts, uh it's amazing to begin to observe different ways of being coming into play. For example, um, you know, just first I I've left Florida and then I came home and been here for about three months now, and now I'm leaving DoorDashing and I'm going back to Amazon and I'm in Amazon and um I'm working uh on a daily basis with my daughter. Um, not generally next to her, but we see each other for two breaks, which is awesome. I get to see one of my sons once a week at the same job. Um I this weekend had two grandkids, a grandson who got married, um eloped, in fact, and and kind of surprised everybody, and a granddaughter who I believe also found her person, and change is in the in the air, good change. Um Saturday I came home and and had uh an incredible celebration um of the first shift with my husband. He had a huge bonfire set up for us, and we uh played around in the kitchen and prepped our um seafood tacos and then left all the prepped food in the fridge, and we went out and lit the bonfire, and it was just an incredible uh several hours, and uh we had a couple of drinks and we just enjoyed the fire and being outside in the newly crisp autumn air, and then we came in and had a beautiful dinner and uh uh some good loving, and it was a great way to end the first shift at Amazon. And then Sunday uh my body was feeling it because uh I'm I'm real close to being 65 and my hands and shoulders and you know I'm not complaining. I'm just stating the fact that any of you listeners that are older that think that they can't move, you you really can do a lot more than you think you can. And I am a I'm a huge advocate for if you want to continue moving, you know, I I I can tell you right now that just about being 65, I know that I know that I'm gonna be here at least another 60 years. That's just that is just the uh the request of the universe that I've put in. I I have just begun to uh exercise wisdom and to awaken fully to what I'm here to do. And I am in no way, shape, or form ready to check out. So I move. And uh yep, my body uh hasn't done some of these repetitive motions in a long time, two years, in fact. And so my body is adjusting. There's another shift. And uh so Sunday we got up and and leisurely began our um our our own personal worship style, which lately is sharing a a good cup of coffee, and uh my lyrical wizard uh playing music that uplifts and and makes our spirits soar. And then we walked out in the woods with the dogs and you know, got all the leaves changing and all the different things that are happening in the woods. And then there was more music and dancing and dancing around in the kitchen and cooking and then taking a nap and just having a very restful, restorative day, which that in itself is a huge shift. Usually on a Sunday, getting ready for uh, you know, a work week, we you know, we'd already be feeling the tension, and and and tension is starting to dissolve in our lives. We are recognizing finally that we don't have to be on the grind all the time, we don't have to always be worrying about the next day and planning and and you know, do do doing. We're we're finding enjoyment in actually just being, which is very odd for both my husband and I. Monday we um my husband went back to work and I thought that I was gonna have a full final day of door dashing. And I got in that car and I was about two hours in. I was in Murfreesboro 20 minutes or yeah, 20, 25 minutes from home, and I just I was done. I was done, done, done. I did not want to be in that car, I didn't want to drive, I did not want to deliver one person anything. I because God had already told me it was done, it was over. And again, it was an act of trust. It's like, all right, well, you have uh$60. Well, you know, I need to go out and well, do I? Is it is it, you know, are you are you gonna die if you don't do that? And there were a couple of things I needed, and uh I dashed for the things that I needed, and then I went to the store and I spent two hours trying on um bras. Yeah, I'll there's n I have no shame. I I needed a couple of new bras. And I thought, you know what, I'm doing this for myself. That's that's it. And and again, giving yourself permission to be at peace when your MO is, well, if I don't have this and this and this all in a row, then I can't, um, is a new way of being for me. J to just say, you know what, I'm I'm done. I'm God, I trust you. I work for you and you provide my everything. And he he has. He has for the 42 years that I have acknowledged him as my God and my creator, he has never missed a beat. Whether I'm laid off, whether I'm well I was only fired once, whether I've quit, whatever whatever scenario it is, he's always met my needs, always. And this is is very new to not be anxious for anything anymore. It's now I'm not saying it's never, ever, ever, but oh baby, the difference is night and day. Um, you know, what other changes we have? I have uh one of my sons is beginning to text me again, which is awesome. And then I have another one who's silent and completely distant. And so there's all these different changes happening in my world and um different blessings because of those changes. For example, I I explained in yesterday's podcast that my knee is getting the type of movement and exercise that it needs to have these adhesions break free from my titanium, you know, bionic knee. Um, I I had to get a special green card. You know, I'm I guess I I have an alien body part, so I have a green card to go through the scanner at work. Because at Amazon, you're going through like a TSA scanner because they have so much theft, which is, you know, another reason why I'm there to shine, shine, shine, shine, baby. And then because I'm shining at work, who did I attract? I attracted a beautiful woman from Argentina whose name is Olga. And we got to to sharing as we were working side by side, and uh, you know, her story evoked such emotion in me that I shared my story about my husband and I and how we separated and how my prayers for 15 or 16 years are now coming into fruition, and she ended up shedding some tears and we hugged, and we had just met an hour prior. So these shifts are massive and rapid and coming in like a flood, and while it's exciting, I I just want one of the things that I want to share tonight is the berating, the self-berating. Many of us that are down the ascension pike or or the awakening pathway, we are a little further down, which is why um I do what I do, because I was so inspired by others. I've I've mentioned Lori Ladd numerous times. I mean, years ago, 10, 12 years ago, as I was uh kind of a newbie on this ascension uh pathway. Uh she was such an inspiration to me. So uh because of that, uh I decided to start this podcast. And and there are others that inspire me still. Other podcasts inspire me, and that spurs me on to do my episodes. And it's it's very true. It um ascension itself is a is a heroic human journey, and it's best traveled with good friends who know the way ahead. Now, I didn't know a lot of the stuff that Lori knew, and maybe I know some of the stuff that you don't know, and that's what we're all here to do. Iron sharpens iron and we help each other out, and I want you to recognize that um when these shifts come, you're gonna I there's several things that happen. First, uh my first stage anyway, was it was like when I didn't have a specific response, for example. All right, I'll give you I'll give you this weekend's response. I was getting just about to get out of the shower, and my husband kind of rushed into the bathroom and he said, Babe, you're not gonna believe this. And I said, What? And he he shows me his phone, and I don't have my glasses on. I said, I can't see it, babe. What are you what are you trying to tell me? He said, Ethan, Ethan got married, and that's our grandson. And, you know, we we knew we had a girlfriend, but we we had no idea. And and this is the part that blew my mind. And I said, Oh, oh, okay, well, I'll be out in a few minutes. And I I was like, I wasn't flatline, but I had like no volatile emotions. I wasn't immediately heartbroken that we weren't there. I I wasn't upset that you know no none of us knew, or, you know, I there was no drama. There was complete detachment. I just continued getting myself out of the shower and and then went out, and I asked my husband a couple of questions and did a little more research and recognized that he and his beautiful girlfriend eloped, and uh they chose to stay out of the drama pool, and they're gonna have a reception next month. And that was extremely new to me. And in fact, it was as if my observer, I I don't know, I know I messed uh with my husband's head too, because see, I was so quiet, and he I think was expecting that I would have this knee-jerk, oh my god, reaction. And I and I didn't. And I remember standing in that bathroom thinking to myself, wow, look at you go, girl. There's you're not even upset. And really, there's no reason to be upset, but my former self would have been some kind of emotional upset with that news, right? So amazing. And the other part of me in the next stage was I would have be berated myself, I would have got my wet noodle out and said, Man, don't you even care? And man, you this is what happens because you're not really close with this particular grandson, and and I would have spun, I would have spun the tail, I would have uh gone back into my old journey, and that was the amazing part. This time I didn't do that. Those two steps that I used to do, first going right into the knee-jerk reaction, and second, then beating myself up because I didn't do it the way I thought I should, and not having a response, and now being completely detached, staying out of the drama, and kind of being out of my body saying, Wow, check it out, and recognizing that physically my body I was so much more at peace. It's amazing when you just let people have their journey and you just do your journey. That's called staying out of the drama pool. And you know, I I was so used to um even even this podcast, doing this podcast tonight. Well, you know, you didn't do it at nine o'clock this morning, so you can't do it. Well, why can I? I'm still kind of wide awake. I'm winding down. I I know I need to, I should really be in bed by now because I gotta get up at four, but okay. So what? So what? You know, uh I can do things a different way. I mean, there's nobody in my house saying you are doing things wrong. And that is what we do to ourselves. We put ourselves in this little position, this little box that says, This is us. We do this, we do this, we do this. We don't ever do that. I'll give you a perfect example of this. For sixteen years now, I have been quote unquote suggesting to my husband when on pretty much a yearly basis, I move things from one storage area to another that he has chosen to hold on to for whatever reason he has. I still don't know. And it was always the same thing. You're not getting rid of any of my stuff. Now, we're not talking hoarding, but I can say that let me just explain the difference between my husband and I using clothing. My husband has twenty-six different pairs of pants. Over half of them are camo. Three of them are jeans, and the rest are like LA gear, um, you know, like I'm going out to do a black op operation. My husband owns four pairs of boots, two in desert and five uh two in black leather. He has one pair of tennis shoes that I think I've seen him wear four times. And this is how he's always been, day in and day out, right? On the other hand, my clothing fits in half of my closet. Um and I just choose that if I haven't worn something in X amount of time, it's out of here. I'm gonna donate it or give it away, or you know, just not wear it anymore and get something to do. Oh, excuse me. Oh yeah. My body's starting to wind down. And uh it's amazing that this weekend I packed up all of our summer clothes because you know we're in the 50s now, our days of 80s in October are over, and autumn is actually coming in. And when I did that, I began to reorganize one of our closets in our bedroom and uh came out with a pile of clothes of my husband's. He's like, Oh no! And I'm like, no pressure, I will not uh remove an item from this house without your permission, like I tell you every year that has not changed. But look at these. When was the last time you wore them? Look at the holes in them, and little by little, this is this is unbelievable. And those of you that listen that know my husband know that this is unbelievable. This is like miraculous stuff. Because today, right now, in fact, in the trunk of my car, on the way to work tomorrow, I will drop two bags off to Goodwill. But before that, on my way out of town, I'm going to stop at the dump and dump three quarters full construction size black bag of trash that my husband said trash them. Now, those of you that have a spouse that you can relate to this story, you know that there has been a massive awakening shift. And each time I have gone through this process with my husband, I say the same thing. Babe, what is it I mean in your childhood? I mean, did you did you not have clothes? Did you did you feel like you wouldn't have something to wear? I mean, where did this um shackle come from that you have to hold on to everything? MC hammer pants, folks, okay? 501 button-down classic jeans. These these are vintage jeans, you know. I I could get 60 bucks on them. Well, let's do it then. Because these white jeans are turning yellow because they've been in the closet for so freaking long. And I'm laughing. And we laughed, and and you know, he he got a little bit triggered, and then he laughed, and and we are evolving. You, my husband, all of us. So when it happens, enjoy your own show. Take it in, drink it in when you recognize that this internal spiritual journey is literally the journey that's setting us all free. So as you're in the midst of chaos, and as you're breathing and learning how to embody a brand new person that's been waiting to meet you inside, be kind to yourself. Applaud the shifts, applaud the changes that you've observed, and you've observed that you're not reacting the way you used to. It's amazing. So find joy within the journey because it's not a destination. As Michael Delvaco reminds us every day on your everyday life on that podcast, which I highly suggest you you try. You might really love Michael. But he always says the destination is unknown. And I'm gonna close with his quote because maybe it'll get you to go check him out. He always says, No matter where you are, light workers, just keep going. And of course, the host of Free to Just Be has to end the show by not only saying thank you for giving me your valuable time, please hit the like button, share this podcast so that we can change the algorithms and get a lot more people on the journey with us. And I love you so much, humanity. And on that note, as I close down not only my laptop, but my eyes to a brand new day tomorrow morning, I leave you. Peace.