Do You Know What Is Killing The Real You?

Today I lay out a new series that unpacks dopamine in plain language, maps information overload on the body, and offers simple, repeatable practices to reclaim attention. If addiction is a prison with keys on the inside, awareness and community are how we unlock the door. Join us for the Scrolling the Blue Is Killing The Real You series.

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Chapters

• 0:00 Seeking Relief And Naming Addiction
• 2:55 Host’s Mission And Awakening Journey
• 7:33 December Spiral And Spending For Relief
• 12:03 The Missing Phone At The Warehouse
• 18:20 Calling Out The Blue Screen Addiction
• 22:40 Tech History, Propaganda, And Control
• 28:20 AI’s Promise And Spiritual Peril

Transcript

Seeking Relief And Naming Addiction

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When life is uncertain and we don't like change and we're full of anxiety and fear and worry, what we naturally do as human beings is we seek relief, a break, a remedy. So in reality, there's really no such thing as addiction. There's only things that you enjoy doing more than your life. Oh buddy. That is something to ponder now, isn't it? And I want to welcome you back to Free to Just Be, the podcast where my personal dance of transformation becomes an invitation for you to start your own dance. And I'm your host, Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, and I'm here to share my daily observations, lessons, and awakenings as we navigate this powerful energetic shift unfolding across Humanityville. And this isn't just theory, these are my lived experiences. The messy, the beautiful, the expanding, and yes, the soul-stretching kind, the kind that leave you in the phila position, right? And my intention with this podcast is simple. I want to help Humanityville to feel what's happening inside them, around them, and through them. And to help open our minds to the truth that we're not alone in this ascension journey. No, no, no. And as we awaken together, I hope that this podcast can become a bridge, one that eventually leads us into real life connection. Gatherings, eventually movement nights, community circles, and literal embodied practices that will bring us out of isolation and back into compassionate presence with each other. So if you're ready to reconnect with yourself, with fellow humans, with God, and with this beautiful natural world that we call Planet Earth, take a big old breath because you are exactly where you're meant to be. And before we begin today's episode, I invite you to like, subscribe, and share. Because together we can grow a community rooted in awakening and real human connection. This is free to just be. Let's begin. So I ended 2025 in the midst of what we would consider an addiction. Addiction is anything that makes us feel better, right? But as Eckhart Tolley reminded us, every addiction starts with pain and ends with pain. So what was my pain in December? Well, I was going through um yet another metamorphosis. And remember that butterflies they start out as caterpillars and they go into that cocoon. And literally the caterpillar turns to liquid, to mush. It dissolves before it opens its wings and becomes a butterfly. So I was involved in one of those horrible dark nights of the soul, and was feeling very lonely and isolated, and um the beginning and the middle of December were rough, rough, rough, rough. And so having already decided that um I was going to stay on the path of good health, I had already lost some weight. I'm down to about um about 17 more pounds to my literal goal weight that I've always wanted to be my whole life. And it's it's been 50 plus years since I've been that weight. Yep, yep, yep, yep. And so that was in play. I dabbled some with alcohol, yeah. But from the middle to the end of December found me spending. And often on some really stupid shite, right? Face masks, um, just different things that I really didn't need. But see, what I needed was relief from the metamorphos that I was going through. You feel me? So let's let's just follow that train of thought. You know, so I'm in the midst of this, and part of the reason I was in there not only was the the feeling of isolation and and loneliness and going through um some things with my children and my grandchildren, and and wanting something that wasn't in place, and um that type of thing. I was also in the midst of resistance. I had a specific download and a message a couple of months ago about the direction that God wanted my podcast to go. And I just kept saying, Oh, I you know, yeah, but oh my god, really, you know, and um I've shared as well that I feel called to be this bridge to reconnection, to bring people together. And, you know, the paradox in my life was I didn't really have a whole lot of connections in my life. And I, you know, like Moses, I was saying, oh, you know, well, I can't do that. So all of that led me to an addiction that I haven't had in many, many years because a lot of the other ones were already gone. I wasn't smoking cigarettes anymore, I wasn't abusing drugs, I barely drank, you know, my food was under control, so I had to find something. Now, of course, this is all hindsight that I'm sharing with you. So I did a bunch of uh spending. And as December rolled through, by the last week or 10 days of December, I was I was over it. I was coming out of that dark night of the soul, I was recognizing what was happening, I was entering into acceptance, and by the end of December, I was feeling really, really good. So I'm at work, you know, and uh I'm working towards what God told me to do on my podcast, and I kind of dropped a little seeds in December about where I was heading. But much like everything else on this podcast, thank you, Humanityville, for keeping me honest and authentic and freaking way more vulnerable than I ever want to be. But I have this commitment to myself and to God that I'm not gonna come behind this microphone and speak about anything that I don't have actual real life experience doing or being in or learning from, right? And here it came. So now we're last Friday. And last Friday was what? I think it was the second, the second of January, and it was my last day on shift, and I was all excited because my daughter had returned to work that day, and uh here it was last break, and now break is over, and we're heading back onto the warehouse floor, and I have my headphones around my neck, right? And I reach into my bag to get my cell phone so that I could put something in my earbuds, and my cell phone is missing. And at that moment, I remembered that I had taken my phone out of my bag and placed it on my picking cart. That day I was picking at Amazon, so I was picking your gifts, folks, right? And I was picking the things that you ordered. And we have these carts, just kind of like a shopping cart, but for Amazonians, right? And I had taken my phone out of my bag and placed it on my cart. And as I'm walking toward the warehouse, I'm thinking, well, it must still be on that cart. So I knew where I had parked and gone downstairs because I was on the second floor. And so I thought, well, I'm just gonna go right back to that spot. Now, mind you, I need to just give you the physical picture, the paint the picture for you. The Amazon warehouse at Joe B. Jackson in Murfreesboro, Tennessee, is at least two football fields big. Okay, I mean, the warehouse itself has what's called the Green Mile. So it's a mile from the A side or the east side to the west side of the building. And it's three stories high, right? So it's a big ass building. And I was expecting, because you know, I just had faith that I was going to get to the second floor and my phone would be right there on the same pick cart, even though there's all these pickers in the building. And of course, I got up there and not only was the cart gone, but so was my phone. And now I'm entering into the experience, and I am literally now day four. Day four and 35 minutes further into having no cell phone. And there are no coincidence, as I've said many, many times, only synchronicities. Because the very thing that I have been called to talk about is this huge addiction. And addictions, as William Gibson says, all start out like magical little pets, little tiny pocket monsters that do extraordinary tricks and show us things that we've never seen and were fun, but came through some dire and gradual alchemy to make decisions for us, and eventually they were making our most critical life decisions, and they were actually less intelligent than goldfish. Oh buddy, and this coupled with the fact that the Matrix wants all of us distracted from what from the real you that is ever calling us in the background of our lives, right? And out of all the addictions in this world right now, and and pick your addiction. I mean, I and the reason I can talk about addiction is because I have gone through the gamut of them. And if you want to hear about my particular addictions, just scroll through the titles of the last three years. I've talked about many of them. And what addictions do is they offer distraction and continual dopamine hits to the brain. But this particular one is the biggest trap of them all. Out of all the addictions that we can list, there is one that for many years was slowly but surely starting to rise up as becoming concerning. But now, over the last three to five years, it's now the number one most dangerous to our very souls, to our very essence, to our God particle, which is who we are. And that, my dear friends, my brothers and sisters, in Humanityville, is what we're going to be talking about until God tells me that we're not going to be talking about it anymore. So, addiction is not literally a fact of life, but it is a description about how we choose how to live. Do you feel like it's difficult? Are you under financial pressure? Does watching the news cause your stomach to get into nuts? Do you feel the right and left pull? Because folks, we live in a 3D world. It is a frequency of duality: right, wrong, left, right, good, bad, cold, hot, right? And that has all been churning and churning and churning. And now we have this propaganda machine. And it's not coming. It used to be when I was a kid, the TV would go off at midnight and they'd play the Star Spangled Black Banner, and then they'd be static until the next day. So we would only have X amount of information coming to us. But then what happened? What happened is, you know, a very slow progression. Because it was way back in the 1800s, and I'm offering to you an opportunity for you to resurrect your own Inquisition. But back in the 1800s, the very first concept, now nothing was actually created, but the first concept of internet, of computers, not um internet computers, was first conceived. And then in the 1940s, the first huge computer, which filled an entire room, was created so that our military could put in formulations and that type of thing. And then in 1969, the Department of Defense, and that right there, should give you an indicator of uh-oh, uh-oh, our government was involved. So that should give you not yellow flags, it should be giving us red flags because we are all very aware of the overreach and the corruption in governments as a whole, right? And so they developed home computers and the internet. And then in about seven, oh about 89 to 91, the World Wide Web began. And we thought it was the greatest thing since sliced toast, didn't we? Or sliced bread, rather. And we didn't realize that we were like the frog in the pot of cold water, and the heat was getting warmer and warmer, and you know, it kind of just felt like a jacuzzi, and we didn't think about the fact that if we continued to stay within that pot, that we would be boiled alive. That is the same concept that is now occurring, and in the last three to five years, we are now facing the most dangerous enemy. And oh yeah, the darkness took it and ran with it. Why? Because it wanted to keep us completely distracted from the one connection that they don't want us to ever, ever connect back up to. Now we always have a connection to our Creator, but man oh man, have we let it get covered up, haven't we? Completely covered up. So here I am being called to talk about this along with many other people. This addiction to the internet. And why is this so important now? Well, because AI has taken us to a whole new level. And in my opinion, we can go two ways. AI can be utilized to absolutely free up our time. If we took AI and utilized it for all the mundane tasks, the tasks that are time consuming, it would free up time for what? For creativity, for connecting with nature, for keeping our channel to our Creator God free and clear. And we'd have more time to be connected that way. That would be the very best use for AI. But what is AI also capable of doing? And what everybody is jumping on the bandwagon to do, and they don't even realize what it is they're doing. It is literally And we're watching it in real time. It is siphoning our creativity. And what is the purpose of the darkness? The darkness feeds on our creativity, our energy, our light. They want it. They want to keep us distracted from God because if we are connected with God and we have that channel clear at all times, He's going to, as I always say it, and many other people say it, he's going to speak to us. He's going to download information to us. He's going to keep us on a trajectory, on a track towards our highest self. And oh my God, that is the opposite of what the darkness, via the matrix programming, which now is fully encompassed in AI. So AI, just like everything else in this dualistic world that we live in, there's good and there's bad. And if we don't start talking about full awareness and disclosure about this system, it's going to suck us dry. And we're not even going to have the ability to forget about decision making. We're not even going to have the ability to think. Because more and more we are letting it think for us, letting it write our emails, compose our songs, everything. Oh baby. And I got sucked into that for a time. I, you know, I never, ever, ever let uh, you know, it was probably, I don't know, three or four months ago. There was an addition to the platform that I use to produce my podcast. Do you want to add AI Mastery? And what I zoned in on was it will write your transcripts. And up to that point, I did not have a written copy of what I do on the microphone. And as I've told you many, many times, I don't, you know, I'll sometimes I'll use notes from my journal, but I don't pre-write, I don't uh, I don't read my podcast. I just come behind the mic and I allow whatever God wants to say to flow through me. But I wanted the opportunity for people who maybe are lacking time, or you know, they start listening and then they get cut off, or maybe they want to go back and look at it because there's a certain part of the podcast that they want to review, right? So I wanted to do transcripts. Well, so I clicked on it and I paid a little extra money for it, and they would produce the title, the show notes, and the transcript. And for a time I was just, you know, I never let them take my title. And I always edited the show notes. But there were days I would just push go, right? I'd adjust my title because my titles are always mine, because you know, they came from me. And come uh January 1, that's over, that is completely over. The only thing I am allowing AI to do is my transcript. But you can see the insidiousness. Oh, this is so easy. And oh, yes, it's easy to push a button and let somebody think for you. And we are allowing this to happen. And so as we go forward in this series, we're gonna talk about how, like Pablo's dog, we have allowed this blue screen. I I am thinking about when uh Blue Dream, a strain of cannabis came out, and it was, you know, it was touted as, you know, the best high that you could get because it was a sativa strain of cannabis, and therefore we could not only work, but we could have this euphoria and still be able to function. We wouldn't be laid out on the couch like Indica strands do, and blue dream was you know touted as the daytime strain of cannabis. Well, there's another blue dream, it's it's called the blue glow. The blue glow has come into our life and it is sucking us dry. And if we don't become aware and start observing ourselves, that blue screen, what it picked the screen, your phone, your tablet, your laptop, your home computer, your smartwatch, it's all a blue screen. Look up what blue does. This is all by design, and we need to wake up and understand. And this series that we're gonna kicking off today is called scrolling the blue is killing the real you because it is, and I'm here to help us walk out of it, and how can I help do that? Well, I am day four without a cell phone, and tomorrow I'm gonna walk you through the process that I went through the moment that I recognized my phone was gone, up until day four, or tomorrow it'll be day five. And I'm gonna show you in real time, as I observe my own reactions, I'm going to explain to you what I am going through, body, mind, and soul, and we're gonna talk about what dopamine does to our nervous system, the pros and the cons, what it does inside our body, and what happens when we're on information overload. We are going to work together on recovering our true self because it is something that we have to work on every single day. So, if you are feeling like things are still off in your life, if you feel like you have this hole that you can't fill, if you are so frustrated and you don't understand why, you might be very surprised by this series that is about to roll out into your earbuds. And it may end up that you choose, you pick and you choose what it is that you want to go in your earbuds, when it is that they're gonna go into your earbuds, and maybe, just maybe, in the process of this series, we're gonna discover more about ourselves and what the Matrix programs have been doing behind the scenes. Oh, because the internet, after all, is illegal. Phones are are necessary, we have to have our phone. I mean, everybody has a phone. I'll give you a quick closing little story about how accepted and how um groupthink and herd mentality began. And this was probably a good 15 to 17 years ago. I I know that it was back then because I was still in my prepper, um, I was still in my MT3 group, and I was still very much in prepper mode. And I was listening to talk radio show, a local talk radio show, and they were talking about uh something to do with cell phones. And so I called in because, you know, back then I was I was very big on pointing the finger and saying, you know, you all need to wake up and this is happening and that is happening, and I was shoving it down everybody's throat. And so I was taking the time to call into this talk radio show because I was gonna school people on the dangers of EMF frequencies coming out of our blue screens on our phone. And dude, that talk radio host raked me over the coals. He didn't even let me get three sentences out about the the issue of of uh EMF or you know the the radiation, you know, next to your ear and all that. He didn't let me talk about any of that because immediately said, all right, now wait a minute, ma'am. Are you calling on a cell phone today? Well, yes, I am. And and then he immediately took that. Well, how can you talk about cell phones? And and that's a bunch of malarkey, and everybody has a cell phone, and you're you're you're here to tell me that we just need to lay our cell phones down. Well, how will they function? That was 17 years ago. Now I want you to think for a minute. The massive head-blowing experience that the majority of the world would go through, well, certainly the Western world, if suddenly the grid went down and they could no longer, the blue screens were dead, it would be absolute chaos. And if you think for a second, that wasn't by design to keep us in prison. And in closing, I want to remind you that this is an addiction. Addiction is the one prison where the keys are literally on the inside of the prison. So my dear, dear brothers and sisters in humanity though, if you want to come back home to who you really are, if you want to discover true freedom, which we really have on the inside, then you might want to continue to check out this series of scrolling the blue is killing the real you. Because we're gonna learn a lot together, and I'm gonna explain to you what a person goes through when the phone is taken away. And on that note, I'm gonna close with what I always close with. I want to send out this prayer for you that you are in the greatest health with vibrant energy today and every day. Because if you have those two things in place, you will experience peace. Until tomorrow. I love you.