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The Blue Glow

• THeresa Marie

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A quiet numbness is spreading, and most of us are carrying it in our pockets. Today on day 2 of the Scrolling the Blue Is killing the Real you series, I talk about the “blue glow” that steals hours, flattens feeling, and makes connections slowly die.
I trace the rapid climb from room-sized machines to AI-driven feeds, and why our ancient nervous systems haven’t had time to adapt.  If you’ve felt overwhelmed, distracted, or quietly disconnected, it’s not a personal failure; it’s a biology–technology mismatch you can manage with awareness and small, steady changes.

If this resonates, share it with someone who needs a gentle reset, and make sure to subscribe so you don’t miss the next part of the series. Leave a quick review with one shift you’re willing to try next week—I’ll feature a few on the show.

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There's a new sickness arising, a new kind of numbness, and that numbness is the oblivion of over-stimulation. And I want to welcome you back to Free to Just Be. I'm Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, here to help Humanityville reconnect with God, nature, movement, and each other. So if you're ready to step out of the matrix and back into your true self, make sure to like, subscribe, and share this podcast with someone else who needs it. Let's begin, shall we? Hey there on this wonder-filled Wednesday, I welcome you back to Free to Just Be, where we kicked off the series Scrolling the Blue Is Killing the Real You yesterday. And of course, this campaign, this series is not about shame, it's about awareness. I'm not trying to attack any of us because, of course, we're all using the blue screen. No, it's a call to reflect back on what you and I are each doing with these blue screens. And I'm not trying in any way to try to preach to you. It's just an invitation for you to open your mind and look at how you're feeling and what you're doing and ways that we can navigate through this incredible rising all around us that, quite frankly, has never been done and never been charted. So we're in uncharted territory, folks. And think about it. You're out at sea, anything is possible. We could be surrounded by sharks and not even know it. You know what I'm saying? So it's worthy of a conversation because it is coming in like lightning speed. And when you stop and think about it, just ask yourself the simplest question before we begin today. How many hours today or yesterday disappeared from your life into that blue screen? I mean, we call it relaxing, but for many of us, it's becoming numbing. The scrolling never feels the ache or the pain that we really are trying to cover up. No, what it does is it distracts us from our bodies. It pulls us out of presence, and it quietly is disconnecting us not only from ourselves, but from each other. So today I want to reflect on what these blue screens are doing to our nervous system, our relationships, and our abil our abilities to truly feel. So let's let's talk about it here for a minute. I um I want to tell you that at three o'clock today, it will be five days without my phone. Yeah, I mean, I've counted and I and I know. And I have to say that right now, and and I and this is honestly coming from the bottom of my heart, okay? I'm I'm not making this up. I feel the the word that keeps coming to me is untethered. I I have this freedom that I didn't even realize I was missing. And now let me back up and say, uh I have already been charting my internet, my especially my cell phone use, right? Mostly my laptop use is to pay bills and to do what I'm doing right here, right now, behind this microphone. Um, most of my quote-unquote addiction to blue screens comes from my phone. Why? Because your phone is always with you, and yet I have been very uber aware of this and have been over the last two or three months looking at my tools on my phone and consciously reducing the amount of screen time. Now, where my screen time goes up is in my earbuds, especially at work. Um, as a podcaster, I listen to a lot of podcasts. I also listen to music, and of course, this helps a 10-hour um day at a very boring um uh kind of a brain-dead type of job, right? I'm working in a warehouse currently, right? And and so that's where most of my time. Now, I don't know where you are, Humanityville. Only you can answer those questions. But if nothing else today, open up your eyes and your ears and observe around you today. And literally just say to yourself, All right, today I'm going to consciously notice what Teresa Marie, the ambassador Chi on this podcast, Free to Just Be, has been talking about regarding screens. And just ask God to show you what it's like all around you. And, you know, even if you don't make it your goal today, you will notice all around you. Now, this is not to judge another, this is not to point our finger, this is to give ourselves a personal wake-up call about this incredible addiction, this control system, this program that is constantly running everywhere on planet Earth right now. Now, obviously, in the West, it it's a little bit um stronger than third world countries, you know, obviously, but especially in the West Western world or wherever you're living, notice the bent heads, the blue light, that blue glow. You can see it when you're driving, you can see it when you're online, you will see it everywhere you go. And then you have to ask yourself, is that me? Do I do I look like that? This is called awake to what you're in, right? That's that's the first thing I'm asking you to do. And I noticed that, you know, I was spending a lot of time, now especially in December, and I shared with you yesterday that I have been in resistance. I didn't want to talk about this subject. Why? Because everybody has a cell phone. Oh, you know, what are you talking about? You know, uh we we can't function without a cell phone. Really? Really? Is that where we have come, Humanityville? Can we literally not? All right, here's here's one of mine. Like my son-in-law said to me um over the weekend, well, what are you gonna do when you have to go somewhere and you don't know where to go? And he's chuckling because you know, classically, Theresa Marie easily gets lost, right? And GPS, oh my gosh, GPS was like a savior to me. But that is the point, humanity. There is only one savior, and it's not my GPS. And what did we do for years without GPS? So, see, these are the questions that we need to start asking ourselves when we open up this can of worms that I didn't want, you know, I don't want to be the odd man out when everybody is, you know, rushing to learn AI. By the way, I'm working a little bit with AI. But my goal is to let AI set up my frameworks and automate the things I don't want to do so that I don't have to use AI anymore. I don't want to be on social media. But unfortunately, where we are today, that is the marketplace. That is where everybody goes, that is where everybody provides their services or their products or their podcasts, right? So we have to learn, first of all, what we're in, then we have to learn to navigate within it, and then we have to learn that we have the power, not AI, not this program, right? This is where we're at, and so uh I want to talk a little bit about this overstimulation problem that we have, and ask you to remember that in anything brand new, awareness is the first step of awakening. So if you're listening to me today on your way to work, then I want you to just be uber aware, keep your eyes and your ears and your consciousness available today so that you can see what it is we're living in. Because we weren't meant to live through glass, folks. We were meant to feel the ground, to move our bodies, to look each other in the eyes, to learn how to breathe again, right? And we're we're allowing the screen to do everything for us, and it is something that we really, really, really need to begin to conversate about. So eventually I'm going to tell you about my own personal documentation, but I'm I'm I'm trying to build a foundation here so that we can we can really get a grasp on this. So the most recent statistics show that we as a people are not reducing overall screen time. No, no, no. Of course not. We are consumers, and we have been trained like Pavlo Pavlov's dog to consume information, products, commercials like never ever before. And the average daily time on social media globally has grown exponentially, especially over the last several years. We know this. I mean, AI and algorithmic designs, especially those built to optimize engagement, they want us to engage. This is what is contributing to this trend by creating feeding cycles and recommendations that keep us more engaged and thus more time on the screens than ever before. I'll give you my real-time example. I told you in December I really became addicted to overspending. Why? Because I wanted to feel better. I wanted to escape my feelings of loneliness. I wanted to escape my feelings of rejection. I wanted to escape my feelings of having a brand new type of holiday season, right? I wanted to feel better. That's what addictions or that that is the basis of all addictions. We want to escape pain and we want to feel pleasure again, right? And screen, screens, oh my gosh, you know, wherever you're at, in the car or at work. Wow, you know, I wonder if this product would make me feel good. Scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll. Oh yeah, purchase. Over and over and over again. And so my screen time became higher because I was trying to fill that gap in a way that we are being trained to do. And this is why, you know, uh even in December, as I was called to talk about this, I'm like, how can I talk about this? I'm in the middle of it, I'm doing it, right? Now, the flip side of that is digital detoxes and intentional screen breaks are in a way gaining traction. For instance, many people on recent wellness surveys prioritize reducing screen time over habits like dieting or weight loss. So people, some people are beginning to notice that it makes a difference, just like I shared. And it was rapid for me. Like day two, I was just like, wow, I what is this is amazing how I feel. I mean, that was the word that kept coming to the surface of my mind and my emotions, untethered, like I had been cut free, let loose, um uh able to flow again. And that was only 24 hours out. It uh it was just amazing. So we need to understand what is actually happening when we are over stimulated. So let let's close today's episode, because I do have to get ready for work. Um, let's talk a little bit about overstimulation and what exactly that means, okay? Um well, I'm trying to decide whether I should talk about overstimulation or dopamine first, but let's talk about the overstimulation. All right, so we were never ever met meant to be as stimulated as we are now. It's crazy how much stimulation these these blue screens offer us. We thought TV was bad. Um and and it's like three million times worse, right? So I talked a little bit about the early foundations. Uh it was back in the 1830s. Charles Babbage, he actually designed an analytical engine, right? He never fully both built it, but that was the first concept. Then in the 30s, Alan Turing, he he laid the groundwork for modern computing, right? And then in the 1940s, the biggest computer came in, huge, like a room, filled a room, the military used it, and then we evolved. Oh, it's all about evolution, isn't it? Not only the outward, but the inward, right? So keep that in mind as I finish this paragraph, right? So um I'm actually reading from the research that I did. So in the 50s, the mainframe computers appeared, and only the government enlarged institution used it. Then by the 70s, microprocessors were invented and personal computers became possible. In 1975, remember the big ones came out. In 77, Apple came out, in 81, IBM personal computers came out, and this is when in the early 80s computers began entering homes and office. Remember the dial-up and all of that? That soon became in. The internet began in 69. So that was computers. The internet went live with a program called, what was it called? Um Arpinent, maybe if I'm pronouncing that correctly. And it was funded, what I told you yesterday, by the Department of Defense. Okay, so just imagine if you believe, and I do, that the government is corrupt and overreaches, then you can understand why the Department of Defense, okay, they're gonna say they're using it to protect us, while they're actually gonna use it to further program us, right? So then the 70s came, the language of the internet's developed, and in 1983, we actually birthed the internet, and then between 89 and 91, Tim Berners-Lee invented the World Wide Web, and we began seeing websites, URLs, and web browsers and all of it. And by the mid-90s, mid to late 90s, the internet was mainstream for the public. Oh, woo-hoo! Now think about it. With the internet, if you've noticed, books started disappearing. We don't we don't look for books. We don't how do we find information now? Hey Google, right? That's how we do it. Oh, if you don't know something, you know, GTS it. Right? I didn't know what GTS meant ten, fifteen years ago. My kids told me, Google that shit, mom, that's what GTS means. So computers existed forty years before the internet. The internet existed twenty years before the smartphone. Social media is only fifteen to twenty years old. And now AI-driven feeds have only been around for the last five or ten years. So biologically, psychologically, and socially, human nervous systems have had almost no time to adapt. Well, that's a lot of time, you say. No. Our bodies are very slow to evolve, right? And we have been asked to try to catch up. Right? We are living as if our bodies and nervous systems were designed for this constant stimulation, constant information, and constant connectivity. And they weren't. Our human biology evolves slowly. Our nervous systems are ancient. They were created, they weren't made by man. Remember who we were created by. And we were built for face-to-face connection, for movement, for nature, for rhythm, for rest, and most especially community. So when and if, and the answer to both of those is yes, we do feel overwhelmed, distracted, anxious, disconnected. It's not a personal failure. What it is is a biological mismatch between our biology and this modern technology. And awareness of this, I'm not asking us to reject computers or the internet or even social media, but we have to learn how to use them consciously instead of letting them use us. And reconnection begins when we remember that all of this technology is a tool, not a replacement for presence, embodiment, and certainly not real human connection. And so when we begin to understand this, we can stop pointing the finger or thinking that we're doing something wrong, and we can start making kinder and wiser choices. And oh man, I have so much. This is why this is a series, because I haven't even scratched the turface. I want to talk about uh the number of the beast. I want to talk about ways to navigate and mitigate this issue. And I want to talk about my personal documentation of what it's like to not have a cell phone. Now I'm heading back to work for a four-day shift, and I am not even going to go to security. I've already tracked it. I see it's in the building. It's probably sitting there in security, but I am consciously choosing to not even ask for it because this is an experiment and a documentation that I feel like is very valuable to share with my brothers and sisters in Humanityville. But on this note, I do have to get ready for work. So thank you, Humanityville, for giving me your time today. And I hope, as always, that today you are filled with great health and vibrant energy. And of course, peace.