Riding The Wild Energy Wave

The ground is shaking, but not the way you’d expect. I invite you into a raw, moment-by-moment account of navigating a sudden surge of anxiety, the strange pressure of collective heaviness, and the stubborn pull of old programs that resurface when you least expect it. No tidy theories—just what it feels like to breathe through a foggy commute, sense the weight of a crowd’s nervous system, and find the thin strand of calm that leads you back to center.
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Chapters

• 0:01 Defining The Ascension Shift
• 0:30 Welcome And Purpose Of The Show
• 2:08 Surging Anxiety Without A Cause
• 5:04 Solar Flares And Body Symptoms
• 6:01 Fog, Traffic, And Collective Heaviness
• 8:25 Old Programs Pulling You Back
• 10:53 Awakening Anger And Social Tension
• 12:40 The Herd Stampede Metaphor
• 15:05 Standing In Discomfort And Observing
• 17:02 Phone, Algorithms, And Relapse
• 19:15 Forgetting The Bag And Adapting
• 25:55 Closing Reflections And Encouragement

Transcript

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The ascension process means that humanity is moving beyond the mind and into awareness, feelings, spirit, and beginning to wake up to energy. We are transforming into beings with a higher consciousness. And that, my friends, is not an easy feat. Not at all. And I welcome you to Free to Just Be, the podcast helping awaken humanity to move, breathe, reconnect, and remember who they truly are. And I'm your host, Teresa Marie, and I'm an ambassador of Qi just like you are. And I'm here to help guide us along with myself out of the noise of the world and back into the quiet truths within our own body, hearts, and souls. And this podcast is really for every human being who feels the pull to step out of old patterns, programs, and the emotional heaviness of this matrix merry-ground we find ourselves on, and step into a life of presence, purpose, and deep connection. It's what I call the rolly coaster of life. And I explore awakening through my own real life experiences, uh, challenges, and uh kind of like a journal of my own personal awakening. And I hope that some of what I share may resonate with you and help you to realize that you are not in this all by yourself. We're in it together. So I welcome you to Free to Just Be. Before I do another episode in the Scrolling the Blue Is Killing the Real You series, I wanted to touch base on this whole um energetic process that we're going through. Um I shared earlier in the week how off the chain this energy feels to me. I don't know about y'all, but um I I have not experienced so much anxiety um than in the last week or so. Um probably in my whole life, uh just incredible amounts of of unexplainable anxiety. And when I say unexplainable, I mean um work is going well, home life is going well, um I'm healthy, uh there really isn't um anything for me to feel anxious about. And yet my mind, yep, between the ears, oh buddy, uh, it it's as if uh, you know, I I've said so many times on so many different episodes that this whole podcast is like a love-hate relationship for me because it keeps me authentic, it keeps me um very in touch with reality, um, because I absolutely I cannot bring myself to come behind the mic if I have nothing that the spirit is asking me to share. I can't share something, for example, that I haven't already experienced um or am going through. Uh it's it's kind of like um you journalers out there. Some days you'll write five or six pages, other days you'll go four or five days and not write a thing. And it just depends on where you're at in your process, right? Well, I have to chuckle because that has never been more true. I have been talking about how the energy is so intense um already, uh, and it and it's been this way uh for at least at least six weeks before the new year came in. And to me, it is becoming more and more intense as we approach the Chinese New Year. Um, because technically uh astrologically, we we haven't even entered into the fire horse yet until about the 18th of February on Chinese New Year. But these energies are not waiting. And then we had that solar flare, and um, I'm just here to tell you that for me personally, ascension symptoms are literally off the chart for me right now. Um I have like this incredible rash on my back that I have no idea where it came from. Um very itchy. Um but the anxiety that's that is something very new to me. I've never um been a real anxious person. And um, like for example, today at work, I just felt like walls were closing in on me. Um this incredible heaviness. Uh I get out to head to work this morning and it was kind of foggy. And as I'm driving, I, you know, years ago, I'm talking, you know, 15, almost 20 years ago, I used to really hate driving in the fog. Um, but I I've walked through that fear and I I've never had an issue with the fog in recent in recent days. And it was really foggy this morning, and suddenly it was it was as if uh I'd never driven in the fog this morning. Um I felt my body tense. Uh I began to sweat. It it it was so weird. And uh as I'm approaching Murfreesboro, which is the city that I work in in Tennessee, um the fog just got so much worse. And there was so much traffic, and everybody was going a whole lot slower than normal. And uh I had left a few minutes later than I normally do, so there was that pressure, and and I recognized as I began to uh pause at the lights as as I came into the city, what I was experiencing was the heaviness of the collective. Um and I began to pray for Humanityville and it began to lift a little bit. I I I it it it's just it's just so noteworthy to me today to share that and to ask if anybody else is feeling an exorbitant, an extra amount of anxiety um these last couple of days. Um I really, really have noticed a huge difference. Um the other thing that just cracks me up is I I don't ever speak about things that I haven't either walked through or I'm walking through, and I am walking through the pull um of my old programs. I mean, it it's as if it's as if every program that I left behind is rearing its head and trying to suck me back in. Um, the last 48 hours have been uh an incredible couple of days of of heavy-duty spiritual warfare. Uh, I feel like I have I have said, get behind me, Satan, so many times in the last 48 hours. Is anybody else feeling that? Um just feeling like I want off. I want off, I want off, I want off this this merry ground. I've lived on it far too long. And uh the other thing that I've noted is well, I'm I'm actually pondering as I'm on the air. Um people are beginning to recognize that things are not right in humanity, right? In fact, people are beginning to become aware that this isn't the way life should be. And I find that um almost humorous because, you know, 15, 20 years ago, uh I was called a conspiracy theorist and uh a tin hat person, and uh, you know, uh you know, you just you you you're talking crazy. And now many, many people are beginning to say, are you feeling this? Life just isn't right, and I'm very glad that that is occurring. Um but where I'm at is learning to stand in the midst of it and come right back to my center. And it has been so challenging the last couple of days. I mean, so challenging. Um I actually left work a little early today because I I felt like I was gonna burst. I felt like I had I had to get out of the building, I had to be out in nature, I rushed home and I got the dogs out in the woods, and um I just had to get off the merry-ground. And we are really just beginning to heat up because as people wake up, the process that I've gone through, that many of us have gone through, um, the beginning stages, the the anger that we feel when we realize that we have been so lied to, that we have been so programmed from the moment we were born. Um, and we have allowed so much in our lives. And when this starts to happen in a massive amount, more and more people are gonna go through that initial kick in their stomach, and then the reaction, and they're gonna be telling everybody uh the things that I used to say 15 or 20 years ago. And did you know that this is happening? And the tumultuousness is gonna heat up. If we think that we're getting to a boiling point now, man, we we really need to buckle up because we have not seen anything yet. So I just I just wanted to let you all know where where I was at. Um and to touch base and see where the rest of humanity is. I I am having more loop-de-loops in my head, familiar programs coming up, and I I just my observer is acutely aware, and it's exhausting. It's it's exhausting. Uh I don't know which is more exhausting, being on the Matrix Mary-Garound and going around and around and feeling uh like you want to get off, or if being in the observer seat and and constantly throughout your day saying, Wow, I'm in a loop again. Okay, you know, and then running back and saying, you know, God just fill me, fill me, you know, Satan get behind me. And then you're okay for a little bit, and then suddenly your observer is keenly aware that you're in another mental loop. Um, it is it is incredible to come against what the world is doing and do the opposite. Um, I gave that picture a couple of episodes ago, and that is exactly how it feels. Again, I want to give you this word picture because this this is literally in varying different degrees what everybody is going through. And and now with the energy coming in far more intensely than it has in a long time, it is like wild horses who have, you know, just just picture the open areas of say Wyoming or Arizona, right? You know, you get all this space, and there are um many, many, many wild horses. And something, whether it's a weather disturbance, uh a predator animal or man, probably their greatest predator, um, has disturbed their peace. And they are now in a full-on stampede. And I I want you to feel the earthquake-like feelings of that, you know. And it's coming and it's coming and it's coming and it's coming and it's coming, and and you can feel your heart pounding because you don't know if you're going to be run over by this stampede. And that is the pressure that many of us are experiencing right now as our bodies are physiologically trying to anchor in these new energy frequencies that are much higher than we're used to. Um, it's why, like, for example, Dolores Cannon years ago talked about how, you know, it's gonna take a long time because our bodies cannot assimilate these higher frequencies all at once. It's a slow process. And then, you know, as you're awakening, you begin to realize that you have been running with this herd. And the herd is running, running, right? And you realize, no, I don't want to go that way anymore. And so now you've entered into the phase where, um, like one of my uh spiritual mentors of of years ago uh used to say, observe what the world does and do the opposite. Well, the world is the herd, and they are stampeding in one direction. And so if you're feeling way out of place, if you're feeling um like an alien, if you're feeling like you're the only one, uh, it's because you are beginning to turn away from the herd. So picture that. Just picture one stallion trying to turn when the entire herd is stampeding in one direction. No wonder we feel like we are freaking going crazy, right? So I just want to encourage you today, if if you're experiencing some um more heavy-duty symptoms of this ascension process of late, you are not alone. Uh there's a whole slew of symptoms, you know, pressure in your head, ringing in the ears. We've talked about this um agnosium, you know. You can you can look up so many different people who are talking about the awakening process. You can even put it into an AI-generated, you know, a chat GPT, or even Hey Google, and they will give you a list of ascension symptoms. You are not alone. Many, many of us are going through these varying degrees of uncomfortability and are in different levels of learning how to stand in the uncomfortableness. It's it's not a cakewalk. It is not it is not for the weak or those that are um It sounds like you're navigating a Well, did you see that? Um my phone was nearby, and it the Hey Google feature picked up what I was saying. This is the world we're in, folks. We are in a world that wants desperately to direct our path as we are desperately trying to get back home to who we really are. So, welcome to the Ascension Journey, to the dance of transformation. And today I I just wanted to come on and and just share my thoughts because uh it's been a day, man. It's been a day, and nobody knew it except me. Um and I'll close by letting you know that uh the update on my phone. So uh last Saturday, so it's Thursday now, so I've had my phone back since Saturdays, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. So four days with my phone. And uh the first couple of days uh was not an issue. I kind of really had already been without it for so long that you know I I didn't really feel like I needed it. And then yesterday rolled around. And yesterday was uh just like I described in the beginning of this podcast, it was very uncomfortable. Um A lot of anxiety, a lot of mind looping, and I stepped right back into it, right back into the distraction, right back into the algorithms, right back into the phone. And uh I lasted till about 11 o'clock yesterday at work, and then I listened to podcasts and uh, you know, uh while I'm working, uh I listened to YouTube shorts, you know, just one right after the other, right after the other. So I had my earbuds on and I was like fully inundated. It was it was like I the the addiction, you know, here I am talking about how scrolling the blue is killing the real you, right? And yesterday was a day where that was exactly what was happening to me. And I I, you know, on my way home, I was like, wow, wow, I'm, you know, I literally just had a day of exactly what I'm trying to help people become aware of. And that that is part of the process. It's it's kind of like, oh, awareness, test. More awareness, the next test, and so on. So enter today. So today, uh, I'm running a little late. There's various, there's so many different things um in my own processing that's that's occurring. Um I am trying to shift my my own time management, and and as I try to do that, uh my time management gets worse, and and all all of this type of stuff is happening. And uh so I rushed out of the house about eight minutes later than I normally leave and step out and it's foggy and uh how to go back in because I left my lip stuff. And of course, you know, if you're if if you're addicted to uh Bert's B's lip stuff, you you know you're not driving anywhere without your lip stuff, right? So I run in, I get my lip stuff, and I go back out in the car and I take off. And 20 minutes later I'm at work. I already shared with you about the fog, and I get to work and I pull into work, have my lunchbox, but the clear little caddy, because you know you have to have a clear bag. You can't have a bag that you can't see in when you're working at Amazon because so many people steal things, and so this is this is the controlling atmosphere that I walk into, right? And uh I pull in and I park and I go to reach for my bags, multiple, one clear bag and one lunch bag, and my clear bag is not with me. I have my lunch bag, so that means I have no work gloves, I don't have my um box cutter, I don't have my phone, I don't have anything that I carry with me, my lotion, anything that you know, even a bag to carry my keys. And for a moment I'm stunned, and then I have to crack up because I'm like, you're holding my feet to the fire, aren't you, Lord? You are letting me experience all over again this issue with the phone, how scrolling yesterday just caught caused me to be so scattered, and you're allowing me to be without my phone again today. I just thought that that was so comical. So then I'm walking into work and I'm thinking, well, um, how am I even gonna do this? Because, you know, I have a bag that it's a shoulder bag. So when I walk up and down the stairs on any different floor level of the three levels that we work on, I have an easy way to, and I just had to immediately from the car to the building, I had to come up with an adapt and overcome program for myself. So I had on uh my bearskin hoodie today, with the ten pockets that, you know, the the advertisement that my husband got sucked into and bought many of them for um family members. And I thought, well, I guess my bearskin hoodie is gonna be my bag today. And I put my water bottle and my lip stuff in one of the pockets. I zipped up my keys in another pocket, and I thought, you know what, I don't even have my glasses today. Well, and then for a second I thought, well, I need to go home and I'm like, no, no, you're not going back. You're not backtracking, you're going forward. You're you know, you're gonna adapt and overcome. And that's what I did until about two o'clock. And then I said, enough of this, man, I'm out of here. So, scrolling the blue is taking some of my time as well, and causing me to be anxious when I have it, to be anxious when I don't. So I am right in the midst of this series, right in the middle of it. Even as I'm speaking of the quote unquote evils of it, I am stuck in it just like you are, Humanityville. So, on that note, I wish you the greatest, most thought provoking Thursday evening as uh you pull in from your jobs tonight, and uh just know you're not alone. And as always, I wish you the greatest health with vibrant energy today, and of course, peace.