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What if the feed didn’t just steal your time—it reshaped your attention, your body, your wallet, and your soul? This is a call to choose stewardship over surrender. Use technology as a tool when YOU want it, not as a leash when IT wants you. If this lands, tap follow, share it with a friend who needs a reset, and leave a review with your best boundary tip—I’d love to learn what actually helps you stay present.

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Technology is both a tool for helping humans and for destroying them. This is the great paradox of our time, which we are now compelled to face, is a quote by Frank Herbert. Simon Wiesenthal said The combination of hatred and technology is the greatest danger threatening mankind. And all you need to do is turn on the news if you doubt that quote. But I just want to welcome you back on this beautiful Tuesday afternoon to Free to Just Be. And I'm Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, just like you are, and I'm here to come alongside humanity and help reconnect us all with God, nature, movement, and each other. So if you're ready, more than ready to step off the Matrix Merryground and back into your true self and get on that rolly coaster of life, please pause for a moment and smash the like button for me, subscribe, and even more important, share this message with someone you think who needs it. I welcome you in. Let's conversate, shall we? Well, I am picking back up my series called Scrolling the Blue Is Killing the Real You. And today that series is gonna culminate in episode 10. We have already gone through Do You Know What's Killing the Real You? That was my intro. The Blue Grow The G The Blue Glow episode was about the history of technology. Are you a dope? Or dope? That was all about dopamine and our nervous system. Untethered from the blue screen, episode four, was my story of losing my cell phone and what I went through physiologically and emotionally, all of it. Episode five was called Welcome to the Machine. Oh buddy, we talked about what is happening or what we are allowing to happen to us by design. Episode six, when acceptability becomes a trap for the soul. We looked at all the things that we just accept as a natural now, without even stopping and giving it a second thought. That was when we focused on all of the products and advertising pushed out to us all the time, which actually turns us into the product. Episode eight, we talked about who profits when you feel not enough. And we hit the beauty and health industry that we see on the internet. And number nine's episode was Bundle Up Buttercup, The Matrix Hates Your Attention. And we talked all about focus. And today I am going to wrap it all up, and we're going to look at all of that, all that we've discussed in the last nine episodes, and we're gonna put it all together so that we can see it in real time, what we are allowing. So let's jump right in. And I I apologize up front that I might sound a little nasally. I am experiencing a head cold, something I haven't had, and I can't even remember how long ago. But life goes on and we just keep moving. So let's let's hit this scrolling the blue is killing the real you in our final episode today. Let's talk about the attention and cognitive fragment fragmentation. Tech the big part that really they want is our attention. Our attention and our money. And then ultimately they want our life, you know? That's really what it comes down to. But what has tech been allowed to do? Shorten our attention span. It brings up constant task switching. How many of us are doing something and the phone rings or we're playing music? And so we never fully concentrate on one thing. Difficulty reading long form content. Why do you think our children have such a hard time in reading and comprehension now? Because they have second by second info. They would much prefer that. They don't want to go through the process of reading a whole book. That's no fun. The loss of deep thinking and contemplation. Meditation, what? What? I can't sit. No, you know, what if what if somebody is trying to reach me, right? Everything is dopamine driven. Novelty seeking. We want the likes, we want the comments, we want to get on and see what everybody else is doing because oh buddy, are we voyeurs? We want to live vicariously through everybody else who obviously is doing much better than us, forgetting that we do have filters and we do have liars, and we do have oh now AI. So what truly is real? So the core idea of the attention and cognitive piece is that we are allowing our minds to skim life instead of inhabiting it. Then we'll hit upon the dopamine and reward loop. Scrolling literally becomes compulsive. Oh buddy, am I guilty? Guilty as charge. It's like the slot machine effect, right? We get a little bit and we want more and more. Likes, notifications, comments, they're all dopamine triggers. Then comes the desensitization, and I've talked about that many, many episodes. Think about it. I mean, there were things that we were not even allowed to have on a TV screen. And then you have the scene in The Walking Dead where a guy gets beat to death with a hammer. I mean, a hammer, a bat. And we all continued to watch. And now we've moved up to real life people getting assaulted and assassinated in real life, and we are recording it and watching these recordings over and over again. Talk about desensitization. And then what do we need when we become desensitized? We need more of that stimulation to feel less. And then we wonder why we have such restlessness when we're offline. Because we confuse that stimulation with what? Fulfillment. So the core idea of the dopamine and reward loop that we discussed is that dopamine was actually meant to support meaning, not replace it. Then we hit upon the nervous system overload, why people feel anxious, wired, or numb. Why? Because we are chronically in a low grade stress response. We never quit. It's fight or flight 24-7. We're always on in that vigilant stance. And we have a true lack of reset in our bodies. There's emotional dysregulation because of that and difficulty settling into our own bodies, which of course brings more irritability and reactivity. You interrupt somebody that's listening or viewing something online, and oh buddy, you might get quite a reaction. So the core idea that we looked at was that the body doesn't know that scrolling is an optional task. And it reacts as constant input. Then there's the loss of embodiment. Oh boy, the disconnection from our own physical self. So we are now a population with reduced body awareness. Our breathing has become shallower. We move less. We wonder why we are so obese when we sit on our recliners. Oh, I'm, you know, I'm my hand is raised right now. And scroll, scroll, scroll, ignoring hunger, fatigue, and pain cues. How many of you have had teenage kids back in the day when video games first came out, and you literally had to pull the plug because they wouldn't eat, they wouldn't talk, they they could have a headache, their eyes could be burning, and they were not going to stop that video game. And it's only, I mean, we're talking 10, 15 years ago. It's exponentially grown much worse. So we are literally living from the neck up these days. So the core idea of that aspect of this series was screens pull us out of our body. And healing doesn't begin until we return to our body. And remember, everything I'm sharing, whether we want to believe it or not, is literally by design. Then there's the emotional manipulation. Oh my goodness, how algorithms feed emotional charges. Think about this is the one that's really getting me this week. Fear-based headlines, outrage loops, comparison and envy, manufactured urgency, and polarization. So I just I'm just gonna give you a small chasm of a four or five day period in Middle Tennessee. The snowstorm is coming. Snow Mageddon is on its way. You better be prepared. We're not playing. This is gonna be the worst storm that we've ever seen across the country. Fear, fear, fear, right? And then you get to the grocery store and it's like COVID, and shelves are empty, and there's 30 people on each line. And then there are people looking at others' carts. Is that all you're gonna buy? As their cart is full to the brim because they want to make sure they have their snacks, because five days they might starve. And then there's the manufactured urgencies that we see. Watch tonight's news. You know, the headlines are ever present. Think Minneapolis, folks. Do you think that they are not trying to get you to think along certain lines when it comes to the violence happening in Minneapolis? Did we ever even consider that emotion keeps us engaged and enraged? Not truth, not wisdom. And their objective by having, oh, remember back in the days, those that are in my era, about to be 65, when the TV itself went off at midnight or 11 o'clock, and you heard the national anthem, and then you heard nothing but static. And news was like at 5 o'clock and 10 o'clock, period. Now, 24-7, we are bombarded with polarization. They want us divided, they want us at each other's throats. But and then there are some of us that say we know that. Then how come we keep feeding that fear? How come we keep watching their manufactured newsreels? Because we're freaking addicted, folks. And we have to wake up, smell the coffee, and recognize that that's exactly what's happening. How about the financial drain and consumerism? How tech keeps us spending. We talked about targeted ads tied to emotional states. Oh my gosh, you know, your wrinkles are showing. Well, we need retinol, or we need the quasi-mask to have our face look like glass. And yes, guilty, I I fell prey to that dang quasi-mask, which does nothing, folks. It does nothing. My face is still the same. Identity-based marketing. Oh, telling our children who they are. Think about the health and beauty industry and how many people buy all their products because they're seeing a repeated review, not recognizing that reviews can all be skewed. The skewed reviews. And the messaging is always only one more thing, one more fit thing will fix it. And we talked about how they create. But dang it, we have allowed ourselves to be so freaking covered up by program after program and false belief and all the childhood traumas. And guess what? They're taking that and they're running with it because they already know that we're programmed. So therefore, we're easily programmed. And I might add and reiterate over and over again: nobody is coming to do this for you. Nobody is going to ascend for you. Nobody is going to uncover that beautiful love and light, that spark of God, that little G, because God is the OG, baby. He is the OG, and He there's no other God like Him. But we are made in His image, and He told us that we would do not only what He did, but even more. But none of that's going to happen if we continue to allow ourselves to be programmed by the darkness. The financial drain and commu compu uh consumerism. The impulse buying. I shared very vulnerably and kind of shamefully how December found me in a dark night of the soul. Because I didn't like the fact that my kids weren't going to be around for Christmas and I was feeling bad about myself. And oh, what did that do? The addictive side of me? Do you think that we are not all addicts now? If you scroll at any point in any in any day, we're we're all addicts, okay? We have to admit that. And because of that, what did I do? Impulse buying. That was my quasi-mask stage. My husband fell prey to the bear skin hoodie, you know, because we want to be warm even when we're traveling up the mountain on our knees. It's it is micro spending that adds up to dollars for the matrix and empty purses for us. And the core idea of that, of course, the scroll monetizes our insecurities. That we are never enough, that, you know, and we also talked about how they create the problems. They create the problems, they feed us poison, and then they pedal to us the remedies for their poisoning. Then of course there's the time erosion where our lives quietly go. Lost hours that don't even register as a memory. Remember when you used to say to yourself, man, I drove home and I don't I don't even remember passing A Avenue, for example. Well, now we can lose two hours at a pop when all we were going to do is just check on our Facebook page. And then there's the time compression, because then that comes into, oh my God, where did my day go? And the reduction of our creativity. If we are constantly in fight and flight, if we're constantly comparing ourselves, we are constantly feeding ourselves somebody else's creativity, and that creates what for us? Less imagination for us, less unstructured thinking. Children today are sat before their tablets. It used to be the TV. When I was a kid, we were told to go outside, and we'd be outside all day long. And by the way, I might add, I kind of hated to hear, Teresa, it's time for dinner, because then I had to go home and I had to conform to whatever was going on in the house. That is not happening anymore with our children. Our children are being hijacked. And dare I say, our parents are not doing their job, and I did not do my job because you know what? We are about three generations in now. And the frog in the pot, oh baby, we don't even realize that we're getting to the boiling point, do we? And parents, their one job is to protect the divinity of their child, to make them have secure identities. But no, it started with letting the TV be the babysitter. My husband was a product of that. Latchkey kids, remember that whole generation? Well, now you don't even need a TV. Kids seven or eight have the TV, the computer right in their pockets. Then there's the relationship impact. Well, this is a perfect dovetail into that. The phone is present and the person oh yeah, mommy or daddy is absent. Mommy, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom. Hey, just be quiet. Can't you see I'm reading something? Oh buddy. Ben there done that. Ben there had that done to me before there was telephones. Less eye contact. When was the last time you had a conversation with somebody that will actually look you in the eye? All communication is shallow. Hey, how you doing? Nobody cares how we're doing. Because everybody shares what they're doing on online. I I can look at what you're doing by looking at your Facebook page. Even though your Facebook page is probably the very best of the very best moments, and nobody knows that your life is absolutely in the shithole, right? Come on. Come on, folks. Come on. When we post selfies of ourselves, what are we truly after? Oh, you look so beautiful. Beautiful as always. Oh, what a great picture of you. That is all ego and that is all pride. And I have done it myself, so I can't point the fingers because I have three chubby ones pointing back at me. It reduces our empathy. Think about that. We are so good now at saying, oh, can you believe what she put on on her Facebook page? Can there's no empathy at all. Nobody even thinks about responses that might devastate. They are, what do they call it? Um, armchair warriors, right? That's what other uh platform people have said, you know, oh, you're just an armchair warrior, you won't have a face-to-face conversation, which is easy to say when you're behind a mic and nobody's in the room with you. Which is why I am believing and receiving that before the end of this year, I am going to take my mic out into the public. Because I do want to have empathy, and I do want to have deep conversation, and I do want the reconnection of humanity because we all need to come back to Humanityville. We are out in some cyber land right now. This gets me so worked up. Why? Because I'm still in the midst of it too. And we need each other. We need the support, the encouragement. We need people to be more authentic and get away from the filters and get away from what we're allowing. What about conflict amplification online? Oh my gosh, I can't even do it. You really want to feel the heartbeat of where humanity is. You pick any conversation, especially a conversation on a news platform, and read the comments, and you will see conflict amplification. I'm right, you're wrong, you're stupid idiot, and on and on and on. And then, of course, there's the loneliness, despite the fact that you have a phone with you all the time. Why are people so lonely these days? When, you know, Facebook promised us that you can connect with people around the world. You can find your high school buddies. You know, if your high school buddies wanted to stay friends with you, they would have stayed friends with you. But no, now somebody can pop up on your feed and you're like, oh shit, I didn't want to talk to them in high school. Here they are. The core idea of this relationship impact is that connection requires presence. You have to be fully present, not just be nearby online, right? But here we are. Here we are, right? Then there's the identity and self-concept distortion that people are wondering why there are so many suicides, why there's so much plastic surgery that, by the way, goes bad, why there are so many health issues. Because we it it it's it's the war between who we think we are versus who we really are. It's a comparison culture. There are literally curated realities where people come online and they look like perfection and it's a pressure to perform or brand yourself. Nobody wants to be, I mean, nobody wants to be who they are online. Nobody wants to get up before they showered and hop online and make a video to post on Facebook. Now that would be wrong. Nobody wants to see me looking like that. Oh God. Yep, yep. He just laid it on my heart again. Oh, there are things that I'm being called to ask that I've been asked to do by God that I am in such resistance, you know. But you might see Theresa Marie here real soon, and it may be the Theresa Marie that crawls out of the bed. Who knows? We we might head there, folks. Um there's always pressure to brand yourself and do it this way. And in my book, this is my biggest conflict because you see, one of my greatest teaching from Last Two that I absolutely loved is the quote observe what the world does and jump in with the herd. Let's run with the pack, people. Let's run with the pack. I want to be a stallion, I want to run, I wanna, I wanna run, I want to be just I want to be part of the herd. Even if the herd is running to a cliff and they're gonna freaking kill their true self. No, Last 2 said, observe what the world does and do the freaking opposite. Emphasis was mine, my by the way, right? And and this is this is the part that I am so struggling with, and I we're gonna close on that aspect. But so the core idea of this identity and self-concept, you know, think about kids who haven't even anchored in their own identities. Not to mention the parents that there, you know, all of us have had identities shaped by our childhood traumas, false beliefs, and programs. So we have that in play as parents. And then children come on board, and before they have an opportunity to figure that out, they're dealing with the childhood traumas and the false beliefs of the parents and the programming. And now they are given a tablet or a phone or get to sit in front of YouTube and let YouTube raise them. And they, oh my gosh, why do you think kids don't want to sleep by themselves? Why do you think kids have anxiety out the roof? Because they are viewing things that their little bitty minds and identities don't even understand or can comprehend about, and they're full of fear. Right where the darkness wants them to be. You see, they're still working on getting all of us, but oh baby, they have already captured entire generations. And the core idea of this is that we begin to literally live like the avatars that we literally are. I mean, we are living in a construct, folks. If you if you don't haven't figured that out yet, we are in a matrix. And these suits, these avatars that we put on, our bodies aren't even us. I remind you again, like earlier in the podcast, we are aspects of God. We are the little G's. We're not this body, we're not our ego, we're not our minds. But we are literally beginning to live like we are that avatar instead of humans learning to be. I'm gonna save the one that gets me the most for last. There's so many. There's so many things about this scrolling the blue, killing the real you. What about the health and sleep impact? The physical cost to our bodies. Well, remember years ago, years ago, when cell phones came out, and we heard stuff about EMFs, and and I shared with you how you know, and I was I was a prepper then. I was in a in a um uh what some people would call a cult, even, uh, you know, but it's not really a cult when you're just wanting to be prepared for what the world is about to uh explode into. And back in those days when cell phones first came out, we were warned about EMF and about the radiation and about the damage it was doing to our brain, and we were called conspiracy theorists, and we were we were told that we had tin hats on, and oh, that's not real, and you're just you know, I remember calling in to talk radio here in um the Tennessee area, and I'll never forget, and I I'm gonna even call it out. It was Brian Wilson on Talk Radio, and the this topic was cell phones, and I was I was fired up that day. I was going to work and I called and I got through, and I started to say something about the dangers of cell phones, and man, Brian Wilson, he just shot me down immediately. He's immediately said, Are you calling me on a cell phone right now? Do you use a cell phone? Do you use a computer? We have to use computers and technology, and and this is the way that that society is going, and you know, you're a hypocrite if you're and it was an immediate attack. And here we are, here we are experiencing the physical cost of technology, blue lights disrupting our Ceridian rhythms, poor sleep quality, headaches, eye strain, posture issues, and reduced recovery time. Boom. The body does keep score. Even when the mind continues to scroll. Mindful of that old Paul Simon song. How long you think you can run that body down? How long you think you can do what you've been doing? Who are we foolin', humanity? Who? Because God's not fooled. Satan's not fooled. God knows exactly what we're allowing, and Satan knows exactly what he's doing. So what about the AI and acceleration of this? Why our moments today feel so different. Because now we have hyper personalized feeds. We have all felt it. I was just talking about buying XYZ. And it's as if my computer heard me because all I keep getting is ads for XYZ. Uh duh. If you if you don't know by now that the matrix has every one of your numbers, it started with when you were born and you were given the Social Security number. And now what they've done is they've through all those years of tracking us on the internet and with our phone, they know exactly what we like, what we don't like, what infuriates us, what we're worried about, and now they offer faster dopamine loops. Oh, this is what you need, this is what you need, so there's less randomness and more succinct targeting to get more of our money, to poison us more, to create the problems and be the answer to our problems. And it's reinforcing beliefs and echo chambers. That's what AI's done. And reduced friction. It's it's so easy now, which makes it so much harder to disengage. Because AI doesn't slow us down. What it does is it accelerates our unconscious patterns. That's what it does. And now to the last part, the part that upsets me the most in my own world, and that is the spiritual disconnection. We, humanity, have lost our stillness and listening skills. We do not know how to be anything other than humans doing. We do not know how to be a human being anymore. We have reduced our times of silence, which causes less prayer, meditation, and contemplation. So that causes difficulty hearing our own inner voice and guidance. We're allowing external noises to drown out our inner wisdom, and we have a constant distraction from meaning. So the core idea is if we are listening to a podcast called Free to Just Be, which by the way is all about the ascension journey of awakening, awakening to what we're in, awakening to who we are, awakening to who or to what we're allowing in our life, and recognizing that we're it. Nobody else can do this work, and it's an inside job. And what does scrolling the blue do? It has us constantly reaching for the external fixes when all the answers are inside. Awakening requires space, humanity. And what does scrolling do with that space? It fills it up to the brim, so we don't even have an iota of space to begin to explore our own personal awakening journey, which is what upsets me the most because people are deciding every single day. And what happens to the people who have decided to not go inside and not find their OG, their little God, the love and light that we are? What happens when their connection, that umbilical cord attached to our creator God, has become so dried out that it just crumbles? Will they be left behind? What's gonna happen? Cause we are in the greatest divide of frequencies right now, which is why this ten episode series has been so important for me to get out. And m mind you, why it was so so much of a resistance for me. How can I talk about this when I'm in the midst of it? Because we're all in it. Unless you're a monk, unless you are a um oh what do they call those people that are um um oh it's not antisocial uh ah, I can't think of the word, but you know, unless you're living in a cave somewhere completely void of society, you are gonna have some form of scrolling or a laptop or some technology in your world. Because that's the society we live in. So in closing, Masheo Kaku, and if I've murdered your name, I'm sorry, had this quote. He said that there are dangers, but only dangers if people don't understand where technology is taking us. And to prove my point, I want you to know in all authenticity and to be vulnerable and true to my audience. What I did before I came on behind this mic today is I put in the concepts of those ten or nine episodes. Today is episode ten, the culmination. I put in the core ideas of each of my episodes that were my episodes, by the way. Um, there were, you know, if I ever do research, and there was one when I talked about the history of technology, I told y'all that I was reading from my notes because I didn't know the history of technology, you know. I'm I'm not, I told you, I am just a regular old woman, just like you out there. I am not a doctor, a counselor. I am just a human being that cares about my brothers and sisters out in Humanityville that has been called by God to share what I'm going through. That's it. So everything that I shared with you these last nine episodes came from me. Except for those noted places. Like I always tell you who the quotes are, you know, I always give credit where credit is due. So I put in all that information into AI. And AI, boom, boom, boom, in less than 45 seconds, gave me the overview of my very own scrolling the blue is killing the real you. So what I literally did is I read you what they called the complete blue screen series map. And that, my friends, is the biggest concern for AI because you see, as I'm scrolling through what it gave me, it scares the bejeebis out of me. What is true anymore? Who is telling the truth online? Who? You want to believe that something you are resonating with is true. How do we know anymore? How do we know anymore? And so I believe the next things that I'm going to be sharing in the very near future is my dilemma over AI. The what to do with AI, if anything at all. Because you see, what keeps going through my head is observe what the world does and do the opposite. Yeah, but but the trend is your friend. And you have to have a brand and you have to have a website. And and and do I? The still small voice inside your sister Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, which by the way, humanity, we all have that qi. Qi is nothing more than that intrinsic energy that created us, that flows in and around us, that's in everything. We're all ambassadors of that qi. But are we covering it up? Are we using it for good? Or are we allowing the intrinsic power of God to wither away as we are being enticed by the darkness? Now, in closing, I want to reiterate that I am not here to condemn us. I'm not here to say that we're all bad for being in the midst of a technological revolution. But I am here to say that if we don't wake up and look at what we're in and make a decision about where we want to be, not in ten years, not in five years, it's coming down the pike in seconds. So I just want us all to use my favorite word. Many of you that follow me and have been following me for the last three years know that favorite word is Sila. And I ask you, please, to re-listen to these ten episodes. Make some notes. Discover where you're at with technology today, and then Sila it. Pause and ponder it all. Where will we go? Will we go to Robotville? Will we go to this dystopia? Will we go to 1984? Will that become reality? I don't know about you, humanity, but I I still want to walk out in the woods. And woods that are thriving, not woods that are being suffocated by the chemtrails and by the chemicals that we're putting on the earth. I still want to feel things. I still want to enjoy the laughter of a child and feel my husband's arms around me when he hugs me. In real time. Remember what uh Meta. Uh I can't remember his name now. I've kind of blocked the Facebook. Hey babe, what's the Facebook founder's name?

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Zuckerbergs.

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Oh, Zuckerbergs. Thank you. Thank you, Roger. Um Mark Zuckerberg, yes. I did a whole show called Zuckerberg back in the day. You know, remember when he came out and he was trying to convince us that reality could be found in these goggles? And I'll never forget that commercial, which I think was AI generated, by the way, um, before AI was released. And he talked about just imagine your grandkids a few states away, and you can be in their living room enjoying your grandkids. No, no, I struggle enough not being around my grandkids. Please don't ask me to have an online relationship with them. This is real stuff, folks. And we are a society that lives in a microwave mentality, and all of us, myself included, want things to be easy. We don't want struggle, and yet struggle is what makes us strong. We don't want dark nights of the soul when we're rolled up like uh in the fetal position. And yet the darkest times in our life bring the greatest lessons, don't they? Oh, but no, we want ease. We want, you know, we want to feel good all the time. How can that be in a in a frequency of duality? You have to have bad with the good, and we have to learn to go back to our source, to our center, to our satsuma, right in the midst of it, and come back into alignment and balance with our creator God. So, Humanityville, I love you so much, and I hope you found value in this 10-episode series called Scrolling the Blue is Killing the Real You. And my next two episodes are going to be talking about what we can do to help ourselves shift into allowing technology to be the tool that we utilize when we want to utilize it and step away from technology using us as their tool. And as always, my prayer is that you will be in the greatest health with vibrant energy every day, and of course, peace.