The Doorway of Intrusive Thought Loops

The worst part of a mind loop is how convincing it sounds. One thought turns into a courtroom, then a verdict: you failed, you missed your purpose, your people do not love you, you are back at the beginning. I talk through what that spiral felt like for me over a brutal stretch of repetitive thoughts and why it hit hardest in the quiet moments at work when my brain had nothing else to focus on.
If you have been stuck in rumination, overthinking, intrusive thoughts, or spiritual burnout, come listen and try the reset with me. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs relief, and leave a review, then tell me what thought loop you are ready to release today? And as always, I pray for your great health, vibrant energy and of course PEACE!

PS Here's the link to the video I spoke about. try it and tell me what you experience

https://youtu.be/sAzT7PIXGU4?si=J8uSWWZoHYlt1Lsp

Transcript

yrics That Name The Battle

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Memories consume like opening the wound. I'm picking me apart again. You all assume I'm safe here in my room unless I try to start again. I don't want to be the one that the battles always choose because inside I realize that I'm the one confused. Oh baby, are we ever living in a confusing time? Are we not? But let's just take a breath and just hang out for a minute as I welcome us back to Free to Just Be, the podcast where my personal dance of transformation hopefully becomes an invitation for you to carry on, to keep going on your own dance of transformation. And I'm your host, Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, and I am here behind the mic to share my daily observations, my earth lessons, and everything to do with my awakening and ascension, dance and journey. As together, Humanityville, we navigate this powerful energetic shift unfolding across humanity. I hope this finds you just absolutely full of great health with vibrant energy today on this glorious Sunday morning. I am about 30 minutes out from heading into yet another four-day shift. And I wanted to continue what we were discussing on yesterday's episode. And I want to give you some actual examples in my life about these mind loops that we're going through, and then close with a possible solution that you might investigate as well and see if it works in your life. But before we start, I would really appreciate and invite you to like, subscribe, and share this episode so together we can begin to grow a community rooted in awakening and real human connection. So I open with Breaking the Habit from Lincoln Park, the lyrics of their song. And um, this is the battle that we find ourselves in. You know, we're going along and things are looking good, and then all of a sudden, here it comes again. And we just like the song says in the third verse, we don't even know what's worth fighting for anymore. Or why we have to scream. And I don't know why I instigate and say the things I don't mean. I don't know how I got this way, but I know it's not alright. So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit tonight. And so to me, these lyrics depict what I have been going through in a very accelerated way the last several weeks. And you know, when you make these decisions to turn away from programs or um habits, you you start out doing really good. Just like I talked about the you know, the the racing concept. You know, you're you're feeling great and you're all energetic and you're at the starting gate. But then as you continue, you all of a sudden recognize that here here's this craziness again in your head. And I'm gonna I'm gonna share with you, you know, for me, uh a lot of it had to do with um feeling like I've missed the mark. I'm not doing my um the mission that I'm here to do, and um I'm at that Amazon warehouse again, and so I'm a failure. I, you know, I I what am I doing with my life? And then there was the aspects of my kids. Oh man, did I get pounded with negative thoughts about my kids? Oh, they don't they don't want to talk to you, you know, so all those feelings of rejection came back, and they don't care about your life, and and I knew that this wasn't the case, but I couldn't get the thoughts out of my head, and it was it was driving me literally batshit crazy. And uh, you know, so I what did the controller aspect of myself do? Well, I'm I'm gonna, you know, I'm gonna I'm gonna pray myself through and om, om, um. It was all about me doing it, you know. So then I'm begging God, you know, I'm saying, um, and and we don't need to be beggars. We ask, we seek, we knock, and then we trust. It's it's really a simple process. But when we get into these mind loops, the darkness will tell us, oh, well, you have to do this. You, and this is this is where the religiosity programs come in, right? Um, you know, I'm gonna, you know, I'm I'm gonna do this these Lent things. I'm I'm gonna stop drinking coffee. I'm I'm gonna be in the control seat, and I'm and wow. And so there was this massive battle going on. Uh, it's like the enemy in my soul was saying, Oh, oh, you you think that you're gonna do this? Oh, okay. Well, if you think that you're in the control seat, well, we're just gonna have a heyday with you. And why is that, Humanityville? Well, because in myself, and I can't speak for y'all. I mean, you'd have to ask yourself the question, but I know that I know that for most of my life I tried to direct my path. And baby, it didn't go very well. And so now the hindsight, you know, I'm out of that tunnel, I'm through that battle, so now I'm recognizing and I'm able to share with you what was occurring. And so in this process of these pounding thoughts, they just would not go away. And um, especially at work, you know, uh I'm I've been very diligent about not having my um phone out on the floor, and uh so therefore it's it's silent, you know, and and sometimes what I would do is I would put my earbuds in my ears, you know, uh, no Bluetooth turned on, just to have earplugs in my ears so I wouldn't hear all the machinery. And so here I am, I'm I'm working, but it's pretty well just me, you know, it's not anything going in my mind, and so my mind just went berserk. And I really I I honestly didn't know how to get out of it. And uh I I don't know, maybe two shifts into this, um, a little bit better at home, but man, when I was at that warehouse, uh, those thought patterns, uh very familiar thought patterns, by the way. And and even knowing how to be the observer, I'm literally that little avatar of Theresa Marie on my right shoulder was going, wow, look at this. And I'm literally saying this to myself, what incarnation is going on? Look at look at all these thoughts, you know, and I'm I'm battling, I'm telling them to get out of my head, get behind me, all of that kind of stuff. Nothing, nothing. So then finally, um, like the last two days of the second shift of this, so now I'm you know two weeks in, I finally just like couldn't handle it anymore. I needed a break from it. So I pulled out uh my phone out, you know, on the floor, and I said, all right, what what should I listen to? And I was immediately directed to YouTube, and back to back, he gave me two um Alan Watts uh videos, and one was talking about if people fall out of your life, even family members, and why that would be, and how the spirit is actually guarding your energy. And then you know, it was it was kind of like the Holy Spirit dropped thoughts into my head of when I was a young mom, and uh I was asking myself the question, how often did you call your mom in your twenties or in your early thirties, when you were raising your five kids, how how often, how often, Teresa, how how often did you talk to your mama? And I was like, wow, um sometimes I'd go months. And that hit my heart because one of those thought loops that I kept having those two weeks was, you know, because I have a couple of grown kids that have kids, and they're not seeing their parent, you know, they're teenagers, young in in a couple of them are in their 20s. And my thought pattern was does my son not see that he doesn't call me, or we, you know, we don't see each other, and and yet he's bemoaning the fact that his kids aren't coming around and calling and he doesn't know anything about them. I mean, isn't that kind of ironic? You know, these are the thoughts going through my head. And I'm like, finally, God was like, Do you do you remember what it was like to be a parent? Do you remember how you were forging a life? You were a busy young mom, um, often a single mom, and and when did you call your mom? Well, often when things got pretty bad, and I just needed to have an encouraging voice, right? Um, but what does the word say? You leave your father and your mother, and you cleave to your helpmate, to your spouse, right? And and this is a natural part of this earth suit journey that we're on. There's different stages of life, and and so that was dropped into my spirit, and I was like, oh, you know, wow. And then there was another um another one that I'm gonna I'm gonna put in the show notes, and it was talking about a uh a specific ancient word, and it was a video talking about just this, these these thoughts, and um how they are like parasitical um energies that attach to us and try to feed um off of our um mind loops and our negativity, right? And you know, some of this well, not some of it, I mean everything right now, uh, there is only one truth that I consistently go to, and that's God, because I have a a 43-year record of consistency with him and the and the Holy Spirit, right? And you go online, and so when I'm when I drop that into my show note, you have to use your own discernment. This is what God gave me. And, you know, everything that I choose to play or look at when I am on my phone or on my laptop, I I literally say, God, you know, give me the discernment because this could be AI generated, this could be propaganda, this what is true on the internet anymore, right? However, I also know that there is what's called the placebo effect, right? And scientifically they have proven um that if you think on something long enough, or if you believe it to be true, um there's that placebo thing, you know, uh, it could be nothing. It's there's no medicine involved at all. But if you believe it'll heal you, you could heal yourself, right? That type of concept. So when you listen to this video, if you choose to do so, just know that I am not advocating or suggesting that this is absolute truth, but I am saying to you that after much prayer and after hearing those videos, it was really interesting what occurred because when I got that thought in my head that I love my mom, but I didn't talk to her a whole lot, but I still loved her, and I it became like comedy in my head. I literally started laughing out loud in the aisle, and I recognized that all I needed to do was to just breathe all of that out, just let it all go. And all of a sudden, I pictured myself getting back into the lap of Jesus. I've talked about that, that's my favorite place to go. Everybody has this mental place that they can go to, and that's my place. You know, I see myself, and no matter what state I am in, I I will always head to the lap of Jesus, and by the time I get to his lap, I am that five-year-old kindergartener girl climbing up in his lap, and relief just pours over me. But this time, what occurred was you don't have to be in control. See, you're trying to control everything, and it dawned on me, even these uh self-sacrifices, this the self-denial of Lent. I was trying to change me. I was doing it, everything was I directed, and the simple truth is I can let all that go. And the relief of I don't have to worry about my kids, they're in God's hands, they're doing what they're supposed to be doing, they're growing, they're evolving, they're parenting, they're developing their lives just like I did. And I am free from that now. I am past that stage of life, and I can let that go, and I can tell the enemy to just shut the F up, right? And that relief just started pouring over me, pouring, and I was I was like, oh my god, this is so simple. And I have been allowing all those thoughts, like allowing the enemy to bring me back over and over again to all these supposed wounds that were still in my life, those wounds are gone. I let them go long ago, and the battle was over, it was just over, just like that. So I'm here to tell you that if you think you're crazy right now, if you're having these rant rambling, repetitive thoughts going through your head, and you just feel like you can't get out, just take a deep breath and let them go. Give them to God, and peace will start flowing back into your life. It it really is simple. And uh I uh I'm gonna close now by telling you this little trick or um this word that I was taught in this in this second video that I was given. And how amazingly it really seemed to be effective. And uh let me let me uh pull up that video here. Hold on one second. So, in this video, the title of it is Jesus Gave Chosen Ones One Word to Freeze Archons, and they cannot move when you say it. And um, I'm reading the Ethiopian Bible right now, and there are a lot of books, like for um example, the apoc apocrypth I can't say it, the apocrypton of John. So there are these scriptures that the church tried to erase from human memory forever, right? And uh there are things that these texts were we were shown certain things to do and say um to protect ourselves and that type of thing, and this is why the institutional church didn't want us to find these things. Now, whether or not you believe that, um there are different terms, uh, for example, uh the true source of power in these writings are called the monad. And anyway, and they just they describe the evil entities, these parasitical energies as the archons. And in this it described that you can use one word, arch, A-R-C-H-E, and they pronounced it arch A. Anyway, and so this video was dropped in at about the same time that I got this one about. The spirit will often remove people from your life uh either for a season or permanently, uh, especially if they are draining your energy. And see, my children weren't necessarily literally draining me, but my thought patterns about them were sucking me dry, right? And so after receiving those two videos and feeling that relief pour over me, and having my joy just bubble back up, and then it came around again. Hear these thoughts, like like immediately, just like uh in the Lincoln Park song. It's like you know, you you you assume it's safe unless I try to start again, and and that is how it feels. When the attacks come, you are generally moving forward, and darkness doesn't want you to move forward, so therefore the attack happens again. Well, after all the relief swept over me, after listening to these videos, when the attack came this next time, I literally not completely. Believing, but you know, I thought I'm gonna try this, I'm gonna see if there's credence in this word, and I'm gonna tell you that I put my hand on my chest over my heart, and I spoke that word, and immediately, immediately the thoughts in my head silenced. Like immediately. So, again, I I'm I'm being honest with you. I don't know if it was a placebo effect for me. I don't know if it's because I had already been delivered from all those thought patterns, and they're gonna come up again. But we need to continue to stand, we need to continue to move forward, and we need to continue to remember it's it's so very simple. Have a little talk with Jesus, tell him all about your struggles because he's there all the time, ready to listen, ready to, as my picture of putting you on his lap and saying, It's gonna be okay, man. You don't have to be in the control seat. And I I recognized big time, even with this Lent practice, that I am trying to control it. And I don't have to do that anymore. I don't have to be the controller because God is doing a fantastical job with my life, and all is well, even if outside on the planet everything looks like chaos, we can have surety that God's got us. And I want to close with uh something that I I look at every single day, and if you haven't ever read Psalm 91, I I'm just gonna close out because it's a Sunday morning and show you the strength, the power that we have in God. Psalm 91. I dwell in the shelter of the most high and rest in the shadow of the Almighty. Now I've personalized this so you'll you'll notice the difference. I will say of the Lord, You are my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust. Surely you will save me from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. You will cover me with your feathers, and under your wings I will find refuge. Your faithfulness will be my shield and rampart. I will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at my side, ten thousand at my right hand, but it will not come near me. I will only observe with my eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If I make the most high my dwelling, even the Lord who is my refuge, then no harm will befall me. No disaster will come near my tent, for you will command your angels concerning me to guard me in all my ways, and they will lift me up in their hands, so that I will not strike my foot against a stone. I will tread upon the lion and the cobra, I will trample the great lion and the serpent. Because you love me, says the Lord, I will rescue you, and you will protect me, for I acknowledge your name, I call upon you, and you will answer me. You will be with me in trouble, you will deliver me and honor me with long life, and will you satisfy me and show me your salvation? So on this Sunday, if you are in the midst of these incredible mind loops, they're getting louder and louder. Why? So that we recognize that we have an answer. Take the answer, take God, and have yourself a spectacular Sunday. And as always, I wish you the greatest health, vibrant energy, and peace.