The Rocket THRUST of Frustration

Frustration can feel like a curse until you realize it might be the propeller. I’m Theresa Marie, and I’m speaking from a raw breaking point where my dream stopped being a “someday” idea and became a NOW decision. After years of inner resistance, I feel the shift so strongly that I’m literally STANDING at the mic, ready to move, ready to be seen, and ready to stop living smaller on the outside than I am on the inside.
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Frustration Becomes The Propeller

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The poorest person in the world is the person without a dream. The most frustrated person in the world is the one with a dream that never becomes reality. And let me tell you, Humanityville, that is over for me. My dreams, my visions given to me by the Spirit of God are about to be birthed. They have been in the incubator of this podcast for almost four years. And my frustration level right now, right now, is going to be the absolute propeller to get me out of every comfort zone. You want to talk about fire horse uh energy? You want to talk about forward thrust? Well, it is on like Donkey Kong. Because frustration, humanity, is a huge motivator. When you get frustrated, you can literally double your motivation. And right now, yeah, it is called Let's Go. Let's go, let's go. We're done sitting on the sidelines. We are done done done. It's time to be as big as I am on the inside. So that all being said, I welcome you back to Free to Just Be. And I'm Teresa Marie, an ambassador of God Chi, your host, and I am standing up because my desk chair keeps messing up. And I need to stand for this because I have so much energy flowing through me right now. Um, and it's it started yesterday. And this morning, all my motivation, all of the clarification, all that I received yesterday has been um magnified three thousand percent by what I just viewed. And uh wow, um yeah, I am even uh my normal opening has just kind of went out my head. Um because you see, I I I don't have notes, I don't have AI uh telling me what to say. So if this is your first time on free to just be, I'm here to let you know that you can and will be free to just be if you continue to listen to this podcast. Uh uh because the truth is your host, that'd be me, Teresa Marie, has been working herself out of Matrix programming for almost two decades now. And I have finally come to the place of realizing that I have a lot of value. I have lived a very tumultuous life and have gone through so much experiential evidence of what not to do, and recognizing and acknowledging that, and then choosing. See, that's the thing. You have to choose yourself out of the matrix. You can't just sit silent anymore and bemoan and grumble and complain and post and post and post about how terrible the government is and how terrible the world is, and AI is taking over, and damn straight, it is. So what is it? What are you and I gonna do? Well, that motivation um has just hit the fan, and I I am so um I'm livid this morning. Um and let me let me backtrack a little bit. First off, I want to welcome you. If this is your first time on Free to Just Be, I had to just step away from the mic for a minute and do some breath work and get myself in a calmer state so that I don't miss what I want to share. And uh Free to Just Be is a podcast where I have been sharing my transformation, my ascension, my awakening process. And uh, way back in the 80s, when um I first came to have a relationship with God, uh, about three to six months in from that uh absolutely transformative moment in my life when I was 24, God said, uh, I want you to do a reality show. This is prior to reality shows uh being around. And I was adamantly uh in resistance. There was no way in hell I was gonna do that. I was not going to expose my life to the world. But he wanted me to show people that you can love God and God could love you even in the midst of all our baloney, all of our BS, all of the muck that we walk through. And here it is, you know, um, some 40 years later, I've been doing just that on this podcast. And I'm here to tell you that with inside of a week, I am coming out on Instagram and on YouTube, and my face is going to be everywhere because it's time. It's time. And so, what I do is I share my everyday earth school lessons and stories out of my own life in the hopes that people will first off understand that we are in the most incredible energetic shift on this entire planet ever. And that is affecting everybody and everything, and society and the government and all of it. That's the first thing that I want you to be aware of. You are not crazy, you are not broken. The truth of the matter is, Humanityville, we have all been targeted since birth for hundreds of years, and we are so incredibly programmed, and myself and many other people on the internet are in the process of trying to help humanity choose their way out of this matrix, which is what I call it the Matrix Merry Ground, so that we can enter the rolly coaster of real life. That is what free to just be is all about. So I I welcome you and I I ask, please, please, please, for you to hit the like button so that we can raise the algorithms above AI-generated bullshit, and we can actually start helping fellow humans that are full of doing, doing, doing become humans being again. That is the crux of what this Free to Just Be podcast is. And uh so let me let me just share. Now, obviously, here it is, uh 11:30 in the morning on a Wednesday. I should be in an Amazon warehouse because today is one of my shift days. But I couldn't I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it anymore. Yesterday at work, I was uh under such incredible energetic attack. And there's a combination that happens. We are as human beings, whether we're aware of it or not, we are integrating uh the best way to describe it in many people in the energetic uh community and in the ascension community, in the awakening communities, they're everywhere, okay? Why are they everywhere? Because it's the truth, it's happening, and it is a growing movement of people that want something different than what we currently have. And it is as if our bodies have been operating on 220 frequency, and 440 is entering our body, thus the feeling that we're freaking crazy. We are not crazy, but we have all sorts of physical symptoms that are happening. And let me just share a couple of mine that occurred yesterday. Uh, it it there were moments yesterday where I almost felt like what it must feel like to be hit by lightning. I had uh tingling over all my body, right? Um itchiness, like unbelievable itchiness. It's it's it's as if the electricity coming onto the planet was coming out of my skin. That's how it felt. I also had this growing um angst or frustration. Uh you know, my task yesterday in the warehouse was counting. Open a drawer, tell me how many items are in the drawer. And I'm I'm like, really, really, God, what am I still doing here? What am I doing here? When there are people around the world that I could be helping, I what am I doing? What am I doing here? And the truth of the matter is fear. What is fear? False evidence appearing real. Well, I, you know, I I don't know how to do, and uh uh uh, you know, and uh what if my information isn't well received and uh and really it came down to this one piece of fear in Theresa Marie's world. I am in the control seat, I have bills to pay. I I need to be at the Amazon warehouse because I'm not sure that what I want to do, which by the way, God has told me for years that I was going to be doing. And look, my truth is I fully believe that Jehovah Jirah is my provider. It's not Amazon, it's not even me. So why was I still standing in this warehouse? Now I didn't go in Sunday because I put in um a whole garden patch. Because you see, at this stage of my life, that is what I am to be doing. And that dream of working my land and creating a food forest so that I can help people in my local community get off the freaking welfare system and learn to take care of themselves and to expand this podcast and to finally put out my written material about how to unlock your own personal door, which has always been there, to get out of this freaking matrix, to get off the merry-ground, to stop going around and around and around. So these are the thoughts that are going through my head as my body is going through these physical symptoms. And it got to the place where I literally, and and you know, I shared a call, you know, I I tell on myself all the time, which is why I did not want to do a reality show because I didn't want people to see in real time, you know, uh back in the 80s where I'd I'd pray out one side of my mouth and smoke a joint in the other. You know, um I didn't want uh to reveal the struggles, the realities that I was going through. And it's so funny to me because that's exactly what God has me do on this podcast. And one of the things I um told on myself about the about the garden was that as somebody who loves and follows God, I used him as my last resort to rid myself of these fire ants. And God, in his grace and mercy, even though it took me five freaking weeks to do that, right? And I shared that in the other episode, you know, I tried to have them evacuate six weeks ago, and I, you know, I did the Buddhist thing and told them, you know, please move somewhere else. And then I went back in the control seat. And anyway, he is so merciful and so full of grace towards us that the very day that I asked him to help me with the ants, the ants are gone. They are completely gone out of my garden beds. Completely. It's it's quite a miracle. And I'm here to share this kind of stuff because this is how God works. And by the way, he works with somebody that says the word shit. Oh my god. You know, he wants real, he wants authentic. He doesn't want a persona of holiness when you're not holy. Okay? And this is what he started to say to me yesterday. So I'm at work and I'm praying, and I'm saying and the other thing, besides the physical symptoms that were happening, and I'm sharing this stuff because you're gonna go through similar things, my dear brothers and sisters, in this incredible earth school, because the energy is gonna rise up all of your crap as well, and then you're gonna have to figure out what to do with it. And it usually starts with massive frustration. Now, my massive frustration today has absolutely transformed into motivation that I well, I'm getting ahead of myself. So back to yesterday. So I'm dealing with these physical symptoms, but again, here comes every tape that I have played in my head. Nobody's gonna listen to you. Uh, you're no expert. Um, you're you're not worthy of this assignment. God doesn't want to use you. And it was over and over, and and and it was it was like this. So, sorry, I didn't mean to do it in your ears, but that's what it was like. It was like this incredibly loud, and it kept getting louder and louder. And no matter what I did, I prayed and I prayed and I I put on different songs, and um, and of course, um I'm saying, God, you know, I know this is not me. This is my old self trying to rear up. I know this is not me, but I I just need your help to get to the other side of what I perceived was an attack. And honestly, I I would tell you that it was. Why? Because I am a freaking dangerous woman, because I am not gonna hold anything back, and I am going to help people walk themselves back to that spark of God and fan it into a holy fire, and to help people make their dreams become reality. Why? Because I am right now doing just that, and he has given me so much, so many tools, and I am about to just become larger than life. Why? Because just like he did with the ants, he answered my cries for help. You know, we believe that God will help us, but how often, you know, how often do we really ask him to help us with everything, with every daily activity? No, generally, um, and and I'm speaking from experiential evidence here, because before my 20s, the only time I ever prayed was when I was in a big, big problem. I created trouble and I was facing the consequences, and I would say stuff like, God, if you just get me out of this, I will serve you, or I, you know, um, and of course, there those were lies. And look, I'm I'm not gonna be this fake believer before you. I am not gonna try to be holier than thou, and I am I am gonna be who I am because I am at the helm of a podcast called Free to Just Be. And life is messy, life is full of lessons, and we are in earth school. And if we can't start looking ourselves right in the mirror and and begin to love ourselves right where we are in the middle of this mess, then we need more of God, and we need to ask God to help us. So that's what I was doing yesterday at the Amazon warehouse, and he did. And God, oh, and and I just hear um former Christians that I quote unquote sat in pews with many, many, many years ago saying, you know, that music is carnal, and God speaks through certain songs, and you know, you you shouldn't be listening to stuff on the internet, you should just listen to the word of God, and God used two YouTube videos, and dare I say, if God wanted to, he could break through AI material as well, and that is something we're gonna touch upon here in a minute, too. But anyway, these were videos about what I was going through, and it made me realize that I am full of God's love and light, and I have been redeemed, and he has shown me how to walk out of many things that you all might be going through as well. And there is nothing for me to fear, including the financial peace, because God is for me, and if God is for me, who can be against me? And if God is a God of abundance and I am the apple of his eye, then he is gonna provide for my every need, because if he takes care of the sparrows that are here today and gone tomorrow, how much more is he gonna take care of you and I, Humanityville? And then it was welling up, it was welling up in my chest, and you know, it was an act of faith. After those videos, I was just like, wow, you're right, you're right, God. Well, of course, God's right, you know, but I had to receive that, and I had to finally and definitively, oh, it's going through me, see myself through the lens of God's eyes, fearfully and wonderfully made, full of talents and abilities, and having gone through so many lessons over the last sixty years, he has been. Preparing me for a time such as this. I've shared, I don't know how many times, that I knew when I was 11 years old that I was put here at this time because I was going to do something big to help people on this planet. And this is that time. And I am no longer afraid, and I am going full bore in. I have I have I've already I dove off the diving board yesterday. And how did I do that? Well, after I listened to those videos, and after those thoughts finally ceased in my head, and all I could hear were the truths of God, not only for everybody else, but personally about myself, another thing popped up on my feed. Amazon saying, voluntary time off for tomorrow. That'd be today. And I looked at that, now I'd already taken Sunday off. I left an hour and a half early on Monday, and yesterday was Tuesday. And this was about three o'clock. I was getting ready to take my last and final break. Volunteer time off for the next day. And it took me about 30 seconds. 30 seconds. And first I was like, well, God, should I do that? You know, I mean, I and it was like inside me the energy, the frustration that I have felt, and this is my third rodeo. Do you think that you're a hindsight learner? Do you think that um you're a headbanger, that you you keep doing the same um actions expecting a different result, which of course is the definition of insanity. You're you're not alone, humanity. You're not alone. Because this was the third time that I have come back to Amazon. Why? Because Amazon, uh, and I've shared this before too. I I'm sorry if I'm being redundant, but this is all tying into what's happening right now in my life. Amazon allows you to, it's very easy to get hired in. It's very easy to uh leave and come back. And one of the templates about Amazon that I think most employers should take on is there's no issue, there's no point system. If you want to leave and you have unpaid time and they give you a lot of it, then you can walk and not worry about having a job the next day. So very aware of that. 30 seconds after I saw that voluntary time off, VTO, I clicked accept. And the second I did that, it was as if this blockade of energy, because you see, when you're frustrated, when you are resisting, when you are holding on to your stuff, your emotional uh upheavals, your um mental attacks, when you're when you don't let that stuff flow in and through your body, your body holds on to it. And I I was well aware of it, man. I I felt like the energy was going to burst out of my chest, right? And the second I hit VTO, it was as if everything like um a dam from the top of my head, it just went whoosh. And I was smiling again, and my joy was back. And I thought, you know what? I'm gonna go down and I'm gonna eat my afternoon snack, and then I'm gonna walk my happy ass out of here, and I'm gonna go home and I am gonna begin my real life. And that's exactly what I freaking did. And, you know, for those that get offended, forgive the colorful language, but that this is where I'm at. And I am not gonna hide where I'm at, I'm not gonna sugarcoat where I'm at. And if if you don't like colorful language here and here and there, well, I'm I'm sorry for your virgin ears. But, you know, um we we live in a real world that's full of it, and some of it is still within all of us, and yet at the same time, the contrast is there available as well, because he told us that we can be holy as he is holy. So that is something that Jehovah Nisi, the banner over us, helps us strive for. Okay? So I'm talking to real life people here. I'm not talking to people that are sitting with halos over their heads, right? So that being said, I come home yesterday, and I I just, you know, and as I'm driving home, I'm getting all these downloads. How to go about doing this? Because one of the things that I am committed to is I do not want to do my mission the way the world operates. I uh almost five years ago, when I heard the last two quote, observe what the world does and do the opposite. That is what got me into Tai Chi, my moving meditation. And I there's a whole slew of stuff I'm gonna share with you eventually about Tai Chi as well. Now I I ended up coming home, and of course, my plan was to immediately get behind my desk and uh continue the process of getting my written material prepped and ready because I'm I'm launching. I I'm not only on the launch pad, I am, you know, there's just a couple of toes left before whoop, here we go, right? But I got home and my husband was here already, and he was supposed to have a buddy uh go with him to pick up a um a very large ticket item, a very heavy item, um, a safe, okay. And uh his friend bailed for whatever reason, and he, you know, this is something that my husband so deserves. And for a good 10 years I have been encouraging him to do so. And uh he finally, he finally did it, and uh they contacted him and said it could be picked up. And he's like, you know, you want to ride with me? You know, just I'm not asking you to help me lift it or anything because they'll help us get it on the trailer, but you know, just for moral support, and I I could not, I could not deny enjoying and witnessing my husband's excitement. So I put my plan off for a little bit, and we went and did that. And anyway, we had dinner and a movie afterwards, and this is this is where my frustration really, really kicked in. And it and it's I'm sharing all of this because it is a perfect dovetail. It's a perfect uh it it's it's coordinated, and God will do that. He will He will put pieces before you and they will just snap together like a perfect puzzle. And I right now I'm gonna give a plug again to Angel Studios. Angel Studios is a new um platform that puts out incredible information, incredible movies, entertainment that's that's good, a lot of true stories, um like The Sound of Freedom, uh, the people who are actually rescuing children from trial traffickers, or Bonhoeffer, which was the true story of uh somebody in Nazi Germany, or The Sound of Hope, the story of Possum Trot. And these are people in a town that literally cleared out an adoption agency and helped kids. I mean, these are true people who literally said, no more, we're not gonna sit on our couches or before our phones and scroll and comment and bemoan and complain and share nothing but our frustration about what's going on in the world. Look, all of us are frustrated, but what the F are we doing? Do you honestly think that commenting on Facebook is changing the world? I I honestly have such disdain for Facebook. It's all I can do to keep posting just to keep my name out there, and and I I'm I'm about that's that is part of my plan. I am I'm I am going to drive my audience from Facebook to my material, and I I I just don't want any part of this social media stuff because it is an incredible arm and leg and seat belt and headgear that the Matrix is absolutely capturing generations, and I I just can't participate much longer. So we watched this movie, um, another excellent movie that goes along with what I'm saying is Truth and Treason, which is the true story of Helmut Huberner, who was a teenager, who had his head cut off because Nazi Germany said he committed treason by doing what? By having the courage to write the truth on red slips of paper and post them everywhere in his town. And he was finally caught, and him and his two friends were tried, and because he was the instigator of it, they killed him, and he wasn't even 18 years old. Now, do you and I have that kind of fortitude, that kind of courage? Do you and I have what it takes? Where has our fight gone here in America, for example, as we all downgrade and judge and uh belittle and make fun of our president? And I'm not here to be political and I'm I I am staying out of that political arena because I know exactly how ugly I was back when I was originally on the Trump train and I was trying to shove my politics down people's throats. That helps no one. In fact, all it does is it points back to our judgmental self. Because Humanityville, the biggest way that we can fight what's going on in the world is like Bon Hoffer, is like the people of Possum Trot, uh Possum Trot, is like Holmett Hubner. It's like the people who had the nerve and gumption to save children from child traffickers. So last night we watched, this one was a fictional one, and it was called Railway Children. And I highly suggest, especially if you're living in America, those two movies watch them and see if your patriotism or lack thereof is not absolutely brought to the forefront. Watch Truth and Treason and watch the railway children because I absolutely was in tears of frustration over the state that our world is in. And I looked at my husband, we're sitting on recliners watching this movie, eating a beautiful dinner, by the way, and I said, I wish every American could see this. And the closing scene was the clincher for me. Because again, it was children fifteen years old and younger that so convicted my heart. So here I had God saying, Yes, yes, this is how I see you. You are the apple of my eye. I was the one that gave you these talents and abilities in communication. I was the one that allowed you to go through every one of those difficult moments in your life. I was the one that helped you walk out the other side, not smelling like smoke. I am in you. I am guiding you. And then I uh take you to what's on my bathroom mirror that I read every single morning by Thomas Merton. I've used this before on my podcast, but I'm gonna I'm gonna say it again because it's that much um value to it. And this is what it says, my Lord God, I have no idea where I'm going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Well, that is not true, because I know that I am going to live forever in eternity with my God. And by the way, it is going to be in a mansion that He is preparing for me right now. Nor do I really know myself, it continues. And the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. How do I know that to be true? Because there are many times, take the four cults that I've been involved in. You see, my heart was pure, my heart wanted to serve God, and that is what walked me out of each one of those cults. Because going in, that's what I thought I was doing. That's what I was doing. And unbeknownst to me, I was with people that were not doing that. And God showed me and I exedoded from those cults. So, to continue with Thomas Merton's prayer, I know that there have been many times I haven't followed his will, but let's look at the next line. But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all I do. Do we have that desire, Humanityville? As we're looking out at society, as we're watching the news, which by the way, oh, that's my next episode, and I'm gonna drop it right after this one because it has to be said. As we're watching that propaganda, which is actually what the news is, and we're getting frustrated. Does that please God? Do you please him in everything that you do? And I hope that I have that desire in all I do. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. And let me tell you, when I hit that VTO, and I thought to myself, well, you know what, God? I have walked out of Amazon twice now. And I I I wasn't ready. I I I didn't, you know, I as my husband, I I love my husband so much. And sometimes he's he's my greatest naysayer, you know, because you know, he he has said things to me like, um, uh, did you drop a podcast? Yeah, babe, I just did. Oh, okay, well, are you getting paid for it? Uh no. Uh my payment is knowing that if even one person has a an iota of their life changed, if one person thinks about God, I have been paid a thousandfold. But I I digress, so this is the conversation I'm having with God yesterday, and this road, I I don't know anything about it, but I am now to the place where I have such a track record with God. I have 42 plus years of journal entries. I have miracle after miracle that have occurred in my life. I had the ants leave when I asked him to exit the ants. As a real-time example, that happened, what, four days ago? So why in the world, when he is telling me to go, go, it's time, it's time, it's time. That's what I keep hearing. For at least three months now. You're ready, you're ready, you're ready. And I was dragging my feet. And so I may not know anything about this road. But the end of Thomas Merton's prayer says, Therefore, I will trust you always, though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death, I still will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. And so it is time. Do I know how to do some of this stuff? I absolutely do not. And yet, I am gonna start and learn as I go. So, those of you that have been listening for the last three and a half years, or those of you who may have just stopped by today, I am here to put myself on notice. Watch this former hippie freak of the South who has finally and utterly without any holds back. I I I I will not hold anything back because I am, Teresa Marie, a traveling ambassador of God's Chi, and she is that intrinsic energy that created all of us. That energy that flows inside us and all around us, that is within everything that we touch, see, feel, and use. And I am here to be a bridge for humanity to walk themselves back to their own chi, to their own spark of God, so that they too can turn around and use every talent and ability and remember that they are. Fearfully and wonderfully made by their creator, who by the way sees them as their the apple of his eye as well, and will lead and guide us back into the golden age and out of this freaking matrix merry-ground that we find ourselves in. So hold me to task. Put my feet to the fire, so to speak. If you do not begin to see massive changes in how I show up for you, Humanityville. And on that note, I love you so much. I hope I have jogged something within your own spirit today and brought value into your life. I so appreciate you giving some of your valuable time to this little old 65-year-old woman with a passion for God and for my brothers and sisters out there in Humanityville. You are not alone. And there are people that have gone before you and walked themselves out of this massive programming that we find ourselves in. We are not broken. We are programmed and we can choose our way out. Let me help you do so. And on that note, I pray that you are full of the greatest health and have the most vibrant energy, and of course. Peace.