Oops, I Did It Again

“Oops, I did it again” is a joke until it’s your real life and you’re standing in the kitchen wondering why you just reached for the same old comfort. I’m Theresa Marie, and I’m sharing a raw, quick reflection on what happened when I made a few big, bold moves in my life and then immediately ran back to a familiar habit: emotional eating, carbs, and the buttery tortilla that “shouldn’t” have happened. 

What surprised me wasn’t the slip. It was what came next. Instead of guilt, shame, and self-condemnation, I had a moment of clear pattern recognition. When you step into new growth, the unfamiliar can feel scary, and the nervous system tries to pull you back into what’s known. I share about breaking cycles, relapse recovery, and why awareness is a victory even when my old programming still tries to run the show. 
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Transcript

Repetition Without Guilt

The Tortilla Slip And The Turn

Pattern Tracking And The Matrix

The Transformation Dance With God

Real Life, Nature, And A New Lens

Cast Your Cares And Keep Moving

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Oops I did it again got lost in the game. You see, the problem is this I'm dreaming away, wishing that heroes that they truly exist. I cry watching the days. Can't you see I'm a fool in so many ways? But to lose all my senses, that is just so typically me. Oh baby baby. Oops, I did it again. And I welcome you back once again to Free to Just Be. And I am your host, Teresa Marie, a traveling ambassador of God Chi. And I am just going to drop a really rapid fire ditty for you because as we're on this incredible transformational dance that we call the rolly coaster of life, we are going to find ourselves looping, as we've talked about many times, and we're going to find ourselves repeating certain actions again and again. But I'm here to tell you that there's going to come a day, and it came for me today, that even in the midst of the repetition, all of a sudden I recognized really what was happening in the big picture, and found that there was no guilt, no shame, no um self-condemnation around it. It was just literally me observing, oh wow, oops, I did it again. Let me let me splain. So I've had two days of incredible um decision making uh that I am not at liberty yet to share. Um there are certain steps that I have taken already to move the ball forward in my mission, and they have been um in my book, I'm sure there's going to be much more monumental ones that will come along. And I've I've gone through um much bigger before, but for me, these were very monumental choices that I made and ways that I now am being. Um things that I've truly anchored into my life. And um as this repeat, this oops was happening, um, and I'll and I'll tell on myself right now what it was. It of course it's the food thing. And uh just like uh Brittany Spears, now I've I've I was never a fan, I never really listened to her music. Um I would only hear it when you know I was around uh venues or places that were playing pop music, and and I recognized that that's who it was. Um in fact, the sidebar about Britney Spears is I didn't really know her until I read her biography. Um I really love biographies, and man, she's had a rough life. And man, has she turned her life around and taken back her sovereignty? And one day I would love to have her on the Free to Just Be podcast, but I digress. So in that song, she says, you know, um, it's it's so typically me. And what did I do? Uh I ran to food, um, and there's no koinky dink that the food of my choice, now it wasn't bread, but it was butter and salt on a tortilla, warmed up, and it wasn't just one, and and and mind you, Theresa Marie has um little by little be beginning to pick up carbs again, and that this is even after knowing. Um, you know, by the time you hit 65, you know the things that work in your body and the things that work against it, the things that cause inflammation and um lack of sleep and all of that kind of stuff, right? And so I know the carbs are not my friend, and um I have been really uh doing without most of them, um and uh you know, with the occasional rice, and well, here we are. Oops, I did it again. And as I was on my second tortilla, I mean, and and we're talking consecutive here, so we're talking about uh say 30-minute, so that's uh one buttered warmed tortilla and salt every 10 minutes, right? Every 10 minutes I went back because there were three tortillas in the package, and by golly, oh baby, you know, um I'm not that innocent, and I I know what my problem is, and I was not gonna leave one tortilla in that package, I was gonna eat them all. Oops, I did it again, but at the same time as I was in the middle on my second tortilla, I had this revelation that, well, dude, of course you rushed to a familiar anchoring. Of course you aligned with something that you always did because you just conquered, dissolved, chose, and moved in ways that you never have in the last forty-eight hours. Oops, I did it again. But you see, this is actually a victory because I am very aware of what I did, and the enemy, the darkness, the old tapes, the negativity, the programming, the false beliefs, the childhood traumas that uh the enemy or the matrix or those who w want to suck our souls dry, they know how I've been. I mean, they've been tracking me my whole life. Sixty-five years. It's kind of like in the in the big picture of things, you can picture that the matrix itself, which you know, or or we can say the um quantum field remembers everything. And the nefarious energies, and we won't go into, you know, we can name them and we could talk about them, but that's not the point of this show. They also know me, like AI, who collects, and and I'm gonna do a whole series of of shows about AI and what I am walking through and away from and all the insidiousness around that. But just like AI, the more you input begins to recognize the patterns in your life, your energetic signature has these patterns. And you know what it's like. We've talked about being in that rut and doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result and all of that, and then you bust out, and now you're on this other track, and there's still a little bitty part of you that's going, oh my god, oh my god, you uh uh, this is totally new. I I feel so uncomfortable, I'm out of place. I, you know, and we often revert to doing things that made us feel better when we were in the original rut, right? Now we're in uh a groove, it's not a rut, it's not a place that we can't escape. No, it is it's kind of like the the trench that you put in your garden before you put seed down, and then absolute new life is gonna come from it. That's what it feels like, right? But here, whoops, I did it again, and blip, a weed popped up, and left unchecked, I could have been a week of digression at this point. I could have been beating myself up and saying I'm terrible and this is never gonna work, and I could have headed myself by choice down that spiral of anxiety and overwhelm and depression. And instead, I've chosen to come on and let you know that whoops, I did it again, but I also know that I am not the same person. I am strong and courageous and moving forward and have this incredible momentum, and man, those tortillas tasted good, and the rest of the day is still before me, and I am moving forward, and I'm not gonna let one little stumble point, which who knows, in the big picture, maybe God knew that I was so lacking in carbs that carbs is what I needed today. But there is a pattern in our transformation dance, there are like steps that we go through. Progress, and then we run to the shore, and then we swim out a little further and back and forth and back and forth. It's a dance, it's not a final destination. The destination is unknown. And if we but listen, if we start saying on a daily basis, God, what's next? God, what are we doing today? God, what mighty step do you want me to take today? God, what do you want me to let go of today? God, what's on your plate today? How can I help you? Everything shifts. Everything shifts, and that's what's occurring in my life. And, you know, uh I had again, there's my controller. So here's another example. You know, I woke up this morning and I knew that I, you know, I am leaving in about two more minutes to pick up my granddaughter, and we're gonna spend uh the afternoon and evening with her. And I knew that this was the case, and I get up with my husband, and I had this quote unquote planned to work on more of my written material, which I worked on a little bit last night, and really I'm further along the pike than I realized. That's not to say that I was shirking, but no, there also is other aspects that are happening in my life. Adulting, for example, moving sprinklers, because we are uh right at the hilt of all the berries just starting to come back to life. So they need to be really nurtured and watered and uh cared for. Um, and then when I was outside in the garden, I was so enchanted by the Divine Mother and the sun coming through the trees that are budding and the flag flying in the yard. And I am not gonna belittle myself because I spent some time admiring and praising God and just enjoying Mother Nature and being out on my land. It's such a blessing. And then there are house things, you know, laundry to be done and and uh groceries to pick up and a pantry to straighten, and those are all accomplished. And now I'm gonna go and spend some time with Emerald, and I've also dropped a little message that maybe, you know, maybe you have done an oops in your life, and now you have that self-abasement stick and you're beating yourself up around the head and shoulders. Step out, get yourself a new perspective, and look at the big picture, and maybe you too will discover that there is a pattern, and maybe it's not such a bad pattern as you originally thought. God doesn't condemn us. Why do we condemn ourselves? Why don't we just take everything that we're going through and cast it on him, like 1 Peter 5 7 says, cast all our cares upon him because he cares for you. And today I am so proud of myself. I I literally right now am patting myself on my left shoulder because I didn't spin out, I didn't go into the guilt trip, I didn't shame myself, all very, very familiar things to do. But no, what's becoming familiar and typical for me now is observation, recognition, acknowledgement, and praise, praise, praise, praise to God for never leaving me alone in this dance we call life. So on that note, I'm gonna go and pick up Emmy and I, of course, pray for the greatest health for all my brothers and sisters out in Humanityville, for vibrant health, and of course, peace.