When The Shell Cracks

A seed doesn’t “glow up” on its way to becoming a plant. It cracks, spills open, gets buried in dirt, and fights for light. That’s the metaphor I’m living in my garden right now, and it’s also the most honest way I know to talk about spiritual awakening, personal transformation, and the dark night of the soul.
 I share why surrender matters, what shifted when I finally asked God for help, and how Easter weekend frames the deeper truth: darkness isn’t the end of the story, resurrection is. If you’ve been feeling undone, buried, or flooded with information, press play and stay with me. Subscribe & share with someone in their own growth season. 

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The Seed Must Come Undone

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For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. First the shell cracks and its insides come out and everything changes. And it will fight for survival amidst the weeds trying to suffocate it. It'll go through wars with insects and animals that want to eat it alive. It will struggle through parched times of neglect and seek air and sun through floods of water. And then it will vie for space in a jungle of other plants, trying also to reach the sun. Because the tiny sea knew that in order to grow, it needed to be dropped in dirt, covered in darkness, and struggle to reach the light. And I welcome you back to Free to Just Be. And I am your host, Teresa Marie, an ambassador of Qi, and I am here to share my dance of transformation and all the lessons I've learned and am learning in Earth School. And if this resonates with you, I hope you will hit the like button right now, share it with somebody that you feel also is ready to expand and grow, and subscribe to my channel because, baby, we got lots coming. And on that note, I want to dive right in to the meat of the material today. And as you can tell, I'm talking about the garden. And the garden is a great place, a wonderful picture of what you and I, Humanityville, are going through on this awakening journey. Because there's always death before new life. And there's no mistake, no kawinky dink, that I'm talking about death and new life on Easter weekend. Now I want to take us back into my garden today because there's been so much happening out in the garden. First, I I'm just gonna share with you in rapid form what's occurred in the last month to six weeks. So there was a death. We battled fire ants. Do you ever feel like there's fire ants attacking you and stinging you? Yeah, you can feel like that a lot on this awakening dance. And then um today we are getting ready to put seed in the ground in that prepared soil. And uh Humanityville, if you're listening to a podcast called Free to Just Be, the soil of your heart is probably well tilled and is drinking in all the nutrients of many, many voices that are talking about waking up, waking up. And a lot of us try to remind not only ourselves, but our brothers and sisters in Humanityville that in order to have those beautiful flowers, the daffodils and the crocus that just came up, and by the way, uh you wait all winter for daffodils and crocus to come up. And what have they got? They've got maybe, if they're lucky, three to six weeks of beauty and life. The crocus and daffodils in my neighborhood, they're gone, gone, gone already. They've already dried up, and they will return again next year. This is the process. You have to understand going in to this ascension, to this awakening, that you will be asked, you will not ever be forced, it's always a choice, but you're going to be asked over and over again to die to certain aspects of who you are, who you've been, die to things that you believed were true, that you've discovered aren't, and to make decisions that all call for putting down and picking up, dying in order to come to a newness of a way of life that causes you to be free to just be who you are. It it is a daunting process, and just like the quote that I brought in in the very first part of the show, uh give me one second, I'll be right back. I had to go retrieve those quotes because I I had uh been given this podcast yesterday, but yesterday uh took me on a different path. Uh path of adulting. Yes. Unfortunately, in this ascension dance that we're on, we still have to do adulting. So it it found me vacuuming and mopping and dusting and doing all those adulting things. But this was given to me yesterday, and so I had to go back and look. And I opened with Cynthia O'Celly's um first opening lines. So it's true. She says that it for a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. Do you feel completely undone some days? Maybe the reason you searched for a podcast called Free to Just Be is because you feel completely undone. Like you are going crazy, that you are absolutely alone, and you have all these thoughts that oh my gosh, this is the truth. I never knew that this was true. Oh my god, and everybody around you, maybe the people closest to you have no idea what you're talking about, and you feel alone. And so you sought out others. And there are many, many, many pioneers out there. There are many talking about this earth school that we find ourselves in. As we make our way back home, homeware, inside, back to our spark of God, to the shininess that we are, to our pure essence. But the coming completely undone part is what keeps a lot of people from even entering, or from even thinking about leaving the Matrix Merry Ground. Because that's exactly what happens. Everything changes. And what did Cynthia say? The shell cracks, and that might have been the moment that you saw something like I've shared before many times, that my awakening came with chemtrails, and that is what shrack uh cracked my shell and opened me up, and everything began to change. And how did it start? Just like Cynthia described with the seed. All that was hidden inside me, everything that we stuff down, that we cover up, that we inebriate, that we desperately try to pretend is not within us, begins to surface, begins to show up. Why? Because in God's love, he wants to clear our channel to him, our channel back, our connection back to who he's always seen us to be. See, he knows who we truly are, a spark of him. And he waits for us to uncover it because he's a gentleman and we have free will, and it is our choice what we do with that light. We can hide it under a bushel, or we could say no, this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine. But see, once that shell cracks, it's extremely uncomfortable to have your insides come out. And that's what looking in the mirror does. We begin to see who we have truly been. This earth suit that we put on, and we recognize wow, this was just a mask. I don't even like these clothes. These clothes don't even fit who I am inside, and we begin to see that. But just like I continued, the next lines are mine. The seed will fight for survival amidst the weeds trying to suffocate it. Well, that line, of course, came from seeing my elderberry tree, which is just a bush size right now, and I had left, I had planted it two years ago, and then my husband and I were separated for 17 months, and it was left untended. So, what surrounded that elderberry tree? It was massive grass. Now, it may not be a weed to you and I, although uh that's a debatable question, because what what real use does grass have? I'm sorry, but that's a whole nother whole nother gardening episode. But I had to save it because it was being suffocated by this grass that decided it was going to go into that bed and overtake it. And there are so many times where we feel like we are being suffocated from all the programming, from all of the false beliefs, and from all of the voices in our head telling us that we're crazy, that you know, you don't need to do this. Just come back on the Matrix Mary Ground where everything was easier. Because you see, the road to hell is wide and expansive, and the narrow road back to yourself is a lot more uncomfortable, it's rocky, it's got dangers, and it's not near as pretty and and instantaneously gratifying. No, it requires work and effort, and the payoff is a thousandfold beyond what the wide road will offer you. What else did I say? It'll go through wars with insects and animals that want to eat it alive. Well, of course, that came from my battle with the fire ants who were vying for my garden spaces. And of course, I shared a couple of weeks ago about how humbling it was to recognize that here here you who I consider myself a pioneer in this awakening, and here I am so far in, and still I went to God as my last resort. But what did God do in his love and care for me? Even though I I had to apologize and say, forgive me, that I, you know, I didn't even think to ask you first about helping me with these ants. And yet in his mercy and his wisdom and his grace, when I finally did ask after five weeks of trying my own way, see, that is the battle. I mean, really, when you you strip it completely down, that is the the true crux of the battle. We got in this matrix, Mary Garound, because we were trying to live life our own way thousands of years ago, and we chose to step off that path. Some people would say it was right in the Garden of Eden, and again, that's not that's another debatable topic. But that is the truth. We step away, we stepped away from the glorious way that God had always wanted us to be, and we chose to check out that Matrix Merry-Garound, not realizing that we would go around and around it. What did the Israelites do? They went around the promised land for 40 years, right? Round and round that mountain. And we are very, very similar. And yep. The insects left after I asked God. That is the mercy of God. If we ask, He will answer. If we seek, we will find. No. Immediately he opened that door and he said, Surely I'll help. And he did. The next day the ants in my garden were completely gone. And if you want more detail about the ant war, you can look back on those episodes. What else did I add? The seed will struggle through parched times of neglect and seek air and sun through floods of water. Well, I shared just a few minutes ago how all of the plantings, you know, the berries, the elderberry, the grapes, they were all grown up and strangling. They were parched, they hadn't been watered, and there were times of neglect. And there are two blueberry bushes out there that I call Lazarus right now because I am calling them forth. And I am still believing that there are roots under the ground that are being fed good nutrients, and that these two blueberry bushes are going to come back to life. That's my belief. But that's just like us. We've neglected our true self, most of us for our whole life. And finally, after that initial crack open, whatever it was that made you think, what maybe it was the newsreels, maybe who knows what it was for you. Everybody has their own cracking open moment where they recognize that they've been wearing a mask or a whole earth suit, and they've been doing things because they were told that that's what they were supposed to do. And suddenly the revelation drops into their mind and soul that that is not who they are, and that is not who they want to be anymore. And we begin to recognize that we neglected our true self, right? And now we're seeking to breathe free. And a lot of times, right in the beginning of the journey, we get flooded with so much information. Just like the first couple of times I watered those areas. The water just almost ran off because the ground was so parched. And that is kind of what happens in the very beginning of this awakening. You wake up and you realize, and you you're like, wow, and you get this little breakthrough, and then all this information, because now you're curious, you have resurrected your inquisition, and you begin to read about the quantum field and energy and and how it's supposed to move, and and how all of your programming can be turned off, and you can reprogram your inner computer to truth. But often what happens, just like the matrix, which has so much information, it's information overload, we do that to ourselves and we load so much information into ourselves, it's like this flood, just like the flood of water. And some people at that point, unfortunately, allow that initial seed that cracked open to just get flushed away, and they go back onto the Matrix Merry-Garound, and they may every once in a while longingly look out at the rolly coaster of life, but they so much more appreciate the ease and the instantaneous gratification of all the dopamine hits on the internet or in their life. I will just go out and buy something to make myself feel better, guilty. I will just take this pill to feel happy again, guilty. I will just go and smoke one more cigarette because I need a break, guilty. I will just leave this marriage that didn't work for me, and I will enter into another one that's exactly the same, although I don't see it in the beginning, guilty. All of these different things, it's like this flood of water, but there's always a life raft. There's always the word of God that we can grasp onto and begin to float again. Then the other line I wrote, then the seed will vie for space in a jungle of other plants, also trying to reach the sun. And now this is what we see happening. We see people rushing to fill the void, um, to put out, you know, their their tiles, to say that I am this and I am that, when all they have is an internet six-week course and they think that they are the cat's meow. And we have copycats coming out, we have AI-generated people that say they're going to help you in this awakening journey. And this is where we have to begin to learn discernment. And we will go through um four cults, for example, that I have lived through and come out the other side. And then I ended with Sandra King's um quote. But the tiny seed knew that in order to grow it needed to be dropped in dirt. Do you feel like right now your life has just been a shit show? Dirty, mucked up, and not alive. There is that kind of dirt. Maybe it's absolutely clogged and has no air in it like the clay soil of a lot of Middle Tennessee gardens. Or maybe it's it's so loose and and dry that the water just washes through it and often takes it with it. And we neglect to see that there is beautiful organic soil. For example, if you've never experienced this, uh go to a forest and just, you know, take your shoe and uh dig down a little into the forest floor, and you will see the difference between uh organic and inorganic. Start a compost pile and you will understand the difference because you can take dead earth, just dirt, and turn it in. To gold, black, we c we call neutrified soil black gold. But first we have to get ourselves out of the muck and the dirt and the mire, right? And then what happens? The seed gets put into this soil and it gets covered in darkness. And look, kind of like when I came to the Lord, and I'm so grateful that uh 42 or 43, 42, I think, 42 years ago, Paul Heater, who led me to that prayer that changed my entire life, was very quick to say, Terry, because I was Terry back then. I'm no longer her, but back then I was. And he said, Terry, I just want to let you know that this is the biggest decision you have ever made in your life, and it feels really good right now. But you are gonna have a lot of trouble because now you have a target on your back. Now the enemy of your soul knows that you're awake and that you know God and that you're for God and He is for you, and you're gonna have trouble, just like the Word of God says, in this world, not when, not if, you will have tribulation, but fear not, because Jesus tells us he has overcome the world, and we are a spark of him. So that means that we too can overcome the world, and that is what it feels like. We're covered in darkness now, and there are days coming, Humanityville, and I've talked about many, many, many times, and many times I've recorded right in the midst of dark nights of my soul. Days where you're curled up in the fetal position and you don't want to come out, and you're crying and you're pleading, why am I in this? Why am I suffering? Well, I'm here to remind you today that most suffering is because we feel like we're not in control. And it is true. When we're in the control seat, we tend to bring ourselves back to ease, back to the matrix, Mary Goran. But if we allow God to take the helm, if we trust Him enough to just lay back in that boat, even though it looks like a storm is raging around us, and we're struggling to reach the light, we will. So on this day before resurrection, I want to encourage you, as we paused and pondered Good Friday and the ultimate sacrifice that Jesus Christ made for us, he's in the ground now, and people were devastated, and they some of them lost hope. But tomorrow's coming when he resurrects and brand new life is brought to the surface. Just like a week or ten days ago, I put seed in the ground, and now those marigolds and nasturnium are starting to come up around my strawberries and other vegetables. It's exciting, but it's daunting, and so remind yourself how strong and courageous you are and keep going. And I want to make an announcement today. I want to tell you that tomorrow my own resurrection is coming. Tomorrow, something significant that I believe is going to help many, many, many people, many of my brothers and sisters in Humanityville. And it is going to be the start of a new way that Terry Wilson, the hippie freak of the South, she died, and tomorrow on such a significant day as Resurrection Sunday on Easter Sunday, I too am gonna rise up and fully embody Teresa Marie, the traveling ambassador of Chi. So stay tuned, Humanityville, because new life is coming, and I'm so excited that those of you that have been following me will be the first to see the result. And on this note, I am gonna go make my husband some breakfast and we're gonna go work on our food for us today. And as always, I pray that you have the greatest health with vibrant energy, and of course, God's peace.