Your Inner Accuser Gets Loudest After A Breakthrough, Remember

Something shifts the moment you do something brave and real and then the guilt tries to rush in and explain why you didn’t deserve it. I’m Theresa Marie, and I’m sharing what that whiplash feels like in my own body and mind after a week of intense spiritual flow, creative momentum, and a milestone I’ve been building toward for years.

I talk about the roller coaster of transformation, that slow climb where anticipation, fear, and excitement all live together. After decades of journaling, years of recording my “Earth School” lessons, and even using AI transcripts to see my own words with fresh eyes, I finally release my first mini guide, a 12-page download that came together during Holy Week. I also share why Resurrection Sunday mattered so much for the timing, and how launching with no fanfare felt more sacred than any performance ever could.

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Transcript

Welcome To Free To Just Be

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Good morning, Humanityville. Good morning, everyone out there. I'm so happy that you're joining me on this magnificent Monday. And I'm gonna be brief and to the point this morning. As you can tell, there's no quote from the wordy one this morning to open the show. But I do welcome you back to Free to Just Be. And I am Teresa Marie, your host and ambassador of Qi. And what I do on this podcast, if it's your first time, is I share my Earth School lessons and talk about my awakening and uh ascension dance of transformation that we're all going through on this planet as we experience the greatest energetic shift ever and uh everything uh inside and outside of it. And uh today I want to talk about the roller coaster of life, the the anticipation of climbing that roller coaster. Um if any of you that have been following me over the last three and a half years um and just about 400 episodes back, I have shared over and over again these dreams and visions that I've had to serve and help humanity. And this last week, this holy week, um, I was pushed to places I've never gone. Um the spirit just had me go, go, go, and I would sit down and without forcing anything, it would just flow out of me. Um years and years and years of lessons are beginning to just show up and uh formulate into these beautiful works of uh little tidbits of knowledge and experiential um wisdom. And I I released, as many of you know, my first mini guide. It's a 12-page guide, and I'll leave the information in the show notes if you're interested. And that uh what I'm trying to explain to you, I want to speak about Resurrection Day and how that was the day I was given to release this material because it's so significant in my life, and I'll talk a little bit more about that later in the week because it is actually 5.06 right now, and uh I had to go back and lay in bed because I was feeling the effects of a choice that I made last night with um something edible, and woke this morning and my body was still saying, you know, we don't do that anymore. And oh my gosh, but it was Easter Sunday, and yes, it was, and it was probably one of the most glorious Easters I've had in a long time. And my plan was now, you know, I haven't been in organized uh religion or a church, I haven't belonged to a church in well over 15 years now, and um, and I've spoken about that before, but my plan, um, we had um some neighbors that have been on our road for, you know, uh my husband's been here uh over 30 years, and I've been here 27, and uh they pulled up and they invited us to their little country church, and so uh that is something that I had planned to do yesterday, um, not because it was Easter. Um I have and I've I've shared, you know, 40 days of Lent. Uh Easter's probably my favorite and my most go deep time of the year, and this year was no different. But I was planning on going to that church and and but had a different plan. And it just cracks me up. Sometimes I think we we are like the the comic relief for God, because you know, you you can make your your plans, but really God has the final say. And um, but what I'm trying to say is I it wasn't pressure that I felt all last week, it was awe that you know I I'm I'm trying to put into words what's been occurring in my world lately, uh, of literally embodying staying in the canoe and letting the spirit flow and take me effortlessly towards my dreams and visions. I in the last couple of months have seen more manifestations of those dreams and visions, and it's not me manipulating or pushing or begging my husband to start a project or uh none of that. And as I said, years and years and years of journals and and all of these episodes that I didn't realize, you know, and then uh utilizing this AI tool to write up transcripts, my very own words appearing on that page and recognizing wow. So it's been a very exciting seven days, but I'm here to tell you that immediately this morning I get hit with oh, you know, you're such a heathen. You not only didn't you go to church, but the Saturday before Easter you drank a tea, a twisted tea at that. And so those voices were going in my head, and and you didn't even go to a church on Easter. Not even on Easter. You do you hear the voice of the darkness? Do you hear do you hear that accuser of the of the brethren? It's just so obvious that that's who that voice is. And I am at the place now where I completely understand and am here to tell you that you know my husband and I talked about that, and we've decided that yes, we are gonna go visit that little church, but we weren't gonna do it, especially on Easter, because um I, you know, and I'm gonna offend people right now, but I it it it it's right now in my world, after years and years and years, you know, 24 years, including two years of full-time ministry, where I sold everything and lived in three rooms with my five children. Okay, so I I have a seat to be able to sit and speak these things from my experience, and you don't have to agree with him, but I am uh brave enough to give my honest opinion, and it's like a dog and pony show. We go on Easter to show our Easter clothes and how good our hair came out, and oh, if we're the ones that are performing in the church, then we feel better about ourselves. And I've been in that atmosphere, and I didn't realize what it was, say 40 years ago, um, I was way too naive. I was feeling uh the love of God pour through me, and that was all that mattered. And now, having recognized the quantum science of it, uh about how our own endocrine system matches up with the chakras and and how God is so multidimensional and he's involved in everything, and and when you begin to realize that what you read in the in the word, what they haven't twisted or you know uh messed with, and if you read it enough, the the Spirit of God directs you. You you know, you know what's what is true. And uh I've just totally lost my my train of thought. Um and so all of these things uh kept us from going to that little church yesterday. And what was our day like? It was a couple of very slow walks in the woods with our dogs, silent no words, apart from one another numerous times, watching the the glorious spring sun come through the greening up the trees in the woods, feeling the wind a little bit warmer now, coming through the trails, watching the dog find a new smell and then we did a lot of sitting next to one another, silent, no music, no TV. Now, was there a stretcher time where we were on the internet? Yes, there was. But it was very still. We spent a lot of time just being with one another. And I had um I had my material for my launch just about ready, but I had to format it, and I had been told that I was launching on Resurrection Sunday, but I hadn't done the formatting, and so I was woke woken up at ten after two Easter morning, and that's what God and I did, resurrection morning. For six hours I formatted and got everything prepped, and then I launched, and I felt like it was the most honoring thing I've done for my Lord Jesus Christ in a long time. I it came out of my own tomb. I came up from a pile of what the world would say is ashes, all these Jerry Springer ringer experiences that quote unquote the hippie freak of the South went through to become and be the learning still how to embody the true and authentic Theresa Marie, Ambassador of Qi. And why would I be surprised? I wasn't surprised at all that all those voices came into my head because I did something monumental, a milestone. The other milestone that took my breath away was the fact of how I was asked to do it. Completely opposite of the world, no fanfare. I I don't even know what the next move is, but he does. And it's so exciting. But I wanted to remind you that no matter where you are on this dance, if the moves are getting really familiar and and you're even grooving with them, there are gonna be back steps. There's gonna be the two steps forward, three steps back moments. And don't kick yourself. I'm I'm happy to say that I'm happy this morning. Did I quote unquote fall off the wagon, so to speak? Did I uh step out of my devotion routine a little bit in the last several weeks? Yes to both. Does God love me any less? No, He loves me more. It's it's a love that's unspeakable, it's a peace that passes all understanding. And anybody that wants to challenge that, you you can't. We we cannot possibly point our finger or challenge anybody's faith because it is an inside job. It is personal. And oh my goodness, the journey with him is so much more exciting, breathtaking, daunting, beautiful, incredibly hard, um, full of suffering and full of joy, and it is the greatest adventure I've ever been on. And I am so glad that I said yes to that offer when I was 24 years old. So, on that note, I'm gonna go and kick in to the this next four-day shift, and we will see you on the other end of the next recording. And um stay tuned, Humanityville, because my little 12-page guide was just the cracking uh open of so much more. And uh, by the end of the week, I'm going to have yet another exciting announcement about another arm of this beautiful free to just be mission that I am giving birth to. So, as always, I pray you have the greatest health with the most vibrant energy today, and of course, God's peace.