Division By Design

Hey, hey Humanity! Today I share about yet another matrix-merry-go-round tactic....Division. It doesn’t just “happen.” It gets taught, rewarded, and reinforced until it feels normal. We ALLOW it to cut people off, label them, and call it boundaries when it’s really pain. I’m Theresa Marie, Ambassador of Chi, and I’m taking on a heavy topic with a simple goal: help us see the pattern so we can stop feeding it.
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Welcome And The Mission

SPEAKER_01 0:03

Hey, hey, hey, humanity, and welcome back to another episode of Free to Just Be, the podcast where I have been using my personal awakening journey to inspire, educate, and gather people, and help people connect with themselves, with each other, with God, and with the living, breathing world around them. And uh it's through my embody experiences, my daily earth school lessons uh that I have been sharing for about three and a half years. So if this resonates with you, I ask that you please just pause and hit the like button so that other people can find this information. And uh I appreciate you giving me some of your precious time. It's our greatest commodity. And what I've been doing over the last several years is just quite authentically and rawly sharing uh some of the things that I have been doing on this dance of transformation that we all find ourselves on. Um I talk about uh the ascension journey, I talk about the energetic aspects of it. I have uh started my YouTube channel and I uh share some gardening um videos as well because my husband and I are on a mission to create a food forest on our property so that eventually we can feed many, many people. And uh we are novices, and I'm showing how that whole process uh is happening as well. The other aspect of my mission is I am a moving meditation coach, and I teach a Tai Chi-based moving meditation called Release and Revive, where I teach people how to um, well, I I don't want to say I teach, I share my practice and um show people how to move energy through their body, which is what energy is supposed to do. It's supposed to continually move. And it's when we grab a hold and attach to thoughts or emotional loop-de-loops that we go through that we cause our own dis-ease. So that's my threefold um mission here on the planet. And um I welcome you in to Free to Just Be, and I hope that you will enjoy our conversation um today.

Why Division Hurts So Much

SPEAKER_01 2:49

Um today I want to I want to talk about division. Um and to open, I I just want to share um a personal observation that I was having all day yesterday. Yesterday was Father's Day, and uh I have done a whole series on being um the observer, and it generally begins by observing others, uh, people not close to you, maybe even the TV, you're beginning to observe and and notice differences and um similarities and patterns in your own life, right? So I've been an observer for um almost two decades now, and um I was observing some patterns and pain and division that my husband was going through on Father's Day. And we're gonna circle back around to that, but I want to talk about how division causes such suffering and how the Matrix Merry-Garound um you can you can put all sorts of titles on that. I have always coined the phrase the Matrix Merry-Ground because it it involves so many um entities, uh, systems, programs, false beliefs, propaganda. And uh some people call it the deep state, some call it the darkness. Um, but it's what we all as humanity as a whole find ourselves involved in. And I call it the Matrix Merry-Ground. And the goal, the desire of everybody's heart is to live free. Thus, my title of this podcast: free to just be. Be what? Be exactly who you are, not controlled, not um told what to think, what to say, how to look. And the world is consistently on a daily basis, more and more beginning to wake up and observe and take that red pill, like um Keon Reeves talked about in that Matrix movie back in the day. And even that in itself uh is all by design. Uh, everything that they are doing to us, they show us through media, through movies, and uh it's it's quite amazing when you you look at that aspect of it. But I want to focus on the point of division and how that causes so much suffering in our um journey through this human existence that we find ourselves in. And um and I'll come back and bring that home to what I observed yesterday, and which, by the way, I've experienced every Mother's Day. Um, and parents, you might relate to this. Um you begin dreading those days, Mother's or Father's Day. Um, some of us are not looking forward to it. Now with social media, it's even more prevalent to compare, to feel less than, to um see everybody else posting all these beautiful pictures and and gifts and and ways they were blessed. And it it becomes a point of suffering for many, many people. And and I'm just using Mother's or Father's Day as an example. So let's dive into uh these tactics of division and why they seem to be so prevalent today. Um, and I'm gonna refer back to some of my notes here that I've I've written. So if you see me looking away, it's because I'm looking at some of the stuff that I I wrote down. Um so it wasn't always uh families have always had conflict. I mean, even um if you're a Bible reader, you know, the uh the first conflict in a family between brothers ended up one of the brothers killing the other, okay? So there's always been family conflict. That that isn't um the question. That that's that's a given.

How The Family Unit Changed

SPEAKER_01 7:56

There's always going to be um disagreements within a family, but it's uh it changed dramatically because you see, back in the eighteen hundreds and prior, family was it. I mean, you got your wisdom, you got your support, you you uh learned, um, you everything about society was wrapped around the family unit, okay? And that all began to change during the Industrial Revolution, and that was when um most people began to leave the home. You know, it used to be uh everything was radiated out of the home. Farming, um whatever talent or ability you had, it was still based in your home. And everybody in your family operated as such, right? Well, then the Industrial Revolution in the early 1800s was a major turning point. People left their farms and their villages for what? For factories and cities, and families began to be more mobile, and so there was more travel, and for the first time, large institutions, governments, factories, schools, newspapers began shaping people's beliefs rather than the stories and the mores and and the different um uh lineage and and you know it it was it used to be there was a time when uh people operated in that simple fashion of just passing down recipes and and stories and um abilities and trades, and it was all about family. And the family in the 1800s started to become not the primary source of all of that, and uh might I add right here that even back then in the eighteen hundreds, there were those who were running the show, so to speak. The um, I mean, uh we can take it back, all right. Let's just just go back to biblical times. In biblical times, our deep state would have been called the Pharisees and the Sadducees. And uh a deep state or the controllers of the Matrix Mary-Ground are nothing more than people who want to be in charge. Um, if you have a controller tendency, and we all do, we all want to be in control, and we should be um able to make choices and be able to control our own world. And this is what began to happen thousands of years ago. Back from the Garden of Eden, there was always somebody, uh, dare I say, remember the most beautiful angel of all, wanted to be God, and he got thrown out, and thus the dark side came into be. And that's a whole nother topic. And everything that I share, everything that I share, I want to blanket it with the encouragement that all of us, humanityville, all of us, must and hopefully we'll begin to desire to resurrect our own Inquisition. In other words, don't take what anybody says. Verbatim. That's what got us into these messes that we find ourselves in now. We have allowed somebody else to think for us, and then we have just said, oh, yeah, well, that's what I believe. Well, is it? So, see, that's the start of the awakening journey. You start to question everything, resurrecting Inquisition. So I'm just touching upon some of my opinions and some of the history that I pulled up and took notes about in regards to how division, especially in families, began.

Mass Media And Manufactured Beliefs

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So let's move up from the 1800s and go to the 1900s. And that was when the next big shift happened: radio, movies, and television. And even back then, when it was all black and white and when TV came in, I look, I'm gonna date myself. We had a black and white, it looked like a piece of furniture in our living room on four legs, and it had the big tube in the back. And, you know, there were like three stations. And it ended at like 11 o'clock or midnight with the national anthem, and then it would go to static. Okay. So, yes, I'm telling my age right now. And and I so appreciate there are so many people that are my age that have finally um resurrected their wisdom. Because you see, as I've shared many times, I have lived a Jerry Springer Ringer life. And if you're under 50, maybe you don't even know who Jerry Springer is or was or what his show is about. In other words, I've lived a very tumultuous life full of many, many earth lessons. I have I have gone through the, and I'm gonna I'm gonna do a show about that um here in the next day or so. But but anyway, many people that are in the what some people would say the senior age, uh, age is is just a matter of perspective. I've I've just begun. I am 65, and I I've got at least 60 more years because I have just figured things out. And now, as I'm trying to share, many of us in my age group are realizing that everything that we went through was was not for for us only. It's time that we share our wisdom, that we begin to connect people back together. Um, you know, there are many, many, um, I'm getting a little ahead of myself, but there are many, many people in the younger generations that by design have walked away from their families. Um, look, back in the early 80s, I did that. And we're gonna talk a little bit about how that that occurred. So now we're in the 1800s and TV began and the rise of mass media, and what did that do? Well, people increasingly received their worldview from national news and media rather than what? Local communities and their family. So people were starting to broaden their horizon without recognizing that what was coming out of that boob tube, okay, it was called that for a reason. Because it it like satiated our need for dopamine while it was doping us down, right? Dumbing us down. And the the controllers of the matrix, the dark side, or whatever you want to call them, the matrix Mary Garan is very, very patient. And so for centuries, they have been doing kind of like the frog in the pot concept. Little by little by little. And the frog didn't realize it was being cooked from the inside out, correct? Well, that's kind of what the Matrix has been doing for us or to to us, what we have been allowing, I should say. So, you know, in fact, one of the notes I wrote down is one of the pioneers, this is in the early 1900s, one of the pioneers of modern public relations, Edward Bernays, look it up. He openly wrote about using psychology to influence public opinion and consumer behavior. Imagine that, excuse me. And thus it really began. They began to feed us via movies and entertainment. Oh, how we want to be entertained, don't we, humanity? We want to be fed the answers, we want to feel good, we want to avoid, if at all possible, any work, right? And media and entertainment became their massive vehicle to begin to change our minds towards what they wanted us to believe, which is why now we are all going, wait a minute, wait a minute. I don't believe this, right? And the waking up has come in waves. There are those of us that have been awake for 40 plus years. There are those of us that have been awake 20 plus years, and 10 and 5, and five months ago, right? Then

Culture Wars Start At Home

SPEAKER_01 18:47

came the cultural revolution in the 60s and the 70s, right? And this began a major acceleration of uh division. We're leading this all back towards it's always been about division. Divide, destroy, kill. Divide, destroy, kill. Those are their four three points of contention. That is what they're not the contention, it's their tools, it's their method, it's their uh methodology, is really what it is. So in the 60s and the 70s, that generation, including myself, lived through the civil rights struggle, the Vietnam War, feminist movements, okay? So all of that was pulling apart. Now, families used to be like this, right? Families were it. And by the 60s or 70s, it was coming apart massively, right? It was the sexual revolution, it was the counterculture movements, and most people began to discover direct conflict with their parents. And thus the division of families began to get wider and wider and wider. It it wasn't necessarily bad or good at that point, but and it and it did it did uh bring in some important social reforms and deep family tensions as well. Because perhaps for the first time in America, large numbers of young people were consciously rejecting many of the traditions of their parents. Um, what parents considered sacred. Like I was raised that it was taboo. Uh sex before marriage was taboo, and then the sexual revolution came in and and everything turned upside down, right? So let's go a little further. The

Algorithms Turn Us Into Camps

SPEAKER_01 21:07

1990s to the present, and this it there's no doubt in my mind that this was the biggest shift of all. The internet and social media, they it they don't merely inform people. No, no, no, no. They actively, actively divide people into groups. This is when the labeling of the generations, I'm a boomer, are you a Gen Z? Are you uh a millennial? And and it's ridiculous. It's ridiculous. And this is what we've allowed. And so much division. I will take it right home to my home. Uh my husband and I have seven children. He took on a single mom with five children. And to this day, although my husband has prayed for my kids every single day, and he loves my kids, our kids, there's still not a full acceptance of him. Now, of course, there's there's many reasons behind that. Um they were independent of having a male figure in their life for most of their life. Um I had some very bad pics prior to my um current husband. And there was a lot of trauma that happened. We all had trauma, every one of us has had trauma, but a lot of that trauma was by design. And um so because of the way we believe, um, now it's been eight years now. One of our children literally just said, I don't like your political views, I don't like your views on the spiritual world, I just don't like your attitude, I don't like anything about you, and I don't want to have anything to do with you. Now that is the ultimate kick in the stomach, in the heart. Um, and yet this one that we love so much is still estranged from us. And I do believe that it comes back to what we're discussing division by design. It's always been by design. Because divided we fall, united we stand. Hello. So, and a lot of people uh on the awakening journey, uh it may be something that painful that wakes them up, right? So when the digital revolution came in, it and algorithms um began to raise basically run our lives. They uh algorithms tend to show us content that reinforces what we believe. So, for all right, let's just um take take the controversy of politics right now, or or let's just go back, all right? Back when Obama was president and um we were getting ready to vote for Trump, and it had nothing to do with race, it had nothing to do with anything but what we saw in the government. But you see, if one of your children was an Obama supporter, guess what kind of algorithms, what kind of information, what kind of post, what were they start seeing in their feed over and over again? The verbiage, the propaganda, the facts, and or the lies of anything to do with that particular party. And the same is true with somebody back then that was conservative and was gonna vote for Trump. And so what happens is you have like this closed loop. You you you don't even have the ability to enter into any other thought patterns, and this is what they do, and people don't realize, well, you know, I haven't seen that in the news. Well, why? Because you have commented on the news that you wanted to see, and now that's the only news you're seeing. And people don't realize that this we're targeted. We are targeted not only for purchases, but we are targeted for our mind, right? They want us dumbed down, they want us to believe what they tell us only, because if we think we can't be controlled, see. So, and uh it just seems so much worse, the divisional tactics today. Why? Because people move away from family more off more often. Uh there are fewer multi-generational households, although that's debatable because there's a lot of people that are going back to the old ways. And and that is kind of where I fit in.

Reconnecting With Yourself First

SPEAKER_01 26:40

I am trying to, and and I don't want to say trying, I am on a daily basis um sharing community, um, sharing connection, reconnection. And in my opinion, the first connection you have to have is with yourself. You have to get back into your body. You have to um I I love The Lost Two quote: Um, you have to to get back to your heart, you have to lose your mind. And Wookiefoot did a great song about that as well. All the answers are right inside. I firmly believe that. And our job is to remove all the veils of unconsciousness. We have unconsciously allowed all of this crap into our field, and it's poisoned us, and it's caused massive division and massive suffering. So now let me just take it back around to the current status uh and why um I have been pondering this topic of division causing such suffering.

From Anger To Grounded Authenticity

SPEAKER_01 28:02

If you've followed me before, um, or if you you're new, you can go back and and and you can literally see the evolutional change in my own life from day one to now. I was pretty militant and um angry and um when I first started. Um and I'm not like that anymore. I'm much more centered and grounded and much more at peace. And it's uh I just lost my train of thought, but that's the beauty of being free to just be. You can do that and not be perfect. I mean, to me, uh if you would have told me even five years ago that I would have allowed myself to get before a camera, I don't know what I'm doing video-wise. I and I I am so comfortable in my skin now that it does not matter to me one iota, that I don't have a perfect background. I'm still in my little makeshift office. I've got my blinds wide open because it's been raining all day, and I I want to be able to uh hear and and be able to look out my window. I don't have um a perfect background yet, although I have art from one of my um dear friends and students. Um and I don't have any makeup on. Um heck, truth be known, oh oh, here here's the authentic part, okay? I haven't even taken a shower yet today. Oh my god, and I'm online. We are free to just be who we are, folks. We are. And the more people recognize that authenticity and genuine people are so much better than perfection, because the truth is we are all perfectly imperfect. So

Father's Day And The Weight Of Hope

SPEAKER_01 30:20

to go back to the division part, you know, I watched my husband struggle on Father's Day, and it's a lot easier to observe somebody else suffering and instead of going through it yourself, right? And as I observed him throughout the day, I of course was going retro back to Mother's Day. And try as you might, as a parent, you don't want to have expectations, um, but in your heart of hearts, I mean, yes, as parents, you and I will definitely make many, many mistakes, some more than others. Um, I certainly made way more than I feel like my parents made. But emotional neglect, that was a biggie. That came into play. Oh, it began probably in the 70s when moms had had to leave and uh a lot of moms weren't home anymore. Uh large families, I mean, I had five kids, right? And I did the best I could. I I had a lot of years where I was a single parent. But now with grown-ass children, now you're beginning to see the ramifications of your parenting. Oh, buddy, diapers are a cakewalk. That's the easy part.

A Family Break That Echoes

SPEAKER_01 31:54

And for me personally, I emotionally disconnected from my family when I was about, well, I was 13. I was already rebelling a lot against my dad. And then my dad passed away when I was 13 years old. And I that I lost it. I was I was gone, gone, gone. I was gone. And he was a police officer, and I spent 10 or 12 years being very, very good at being very, very bad. In fact, anything that my dad would have uh disliked is what I did. And because of that, I emotionally disconnected from my very support system, my five brothers and sisters, my mother. Um, and it it brought a lot of detriment in my development. And so I look back, and and these are things that I had to sit with, look at. Look, the awakening journey is isn't a cakewalk. It it is very, very difficult, very daunting. And this is why the tactics of distraction, of social media, of entertainment is so attractive to us as you as humanity. We we love the dopamine feel goods. We um we don't want to deal with our suffering. We don't want to deal with the causes of our suffering. We don't want to look in the mirror and say, oh wow, I did that, I caused that, I allowed that, I hurt these people. And yet that is where true awakening begins. You have to look at yourself. And uh so here I am observing my husband, who is attempting to have no expectations, and um, you know, it it's particularly rough when one of your children has already told you, I don't want to have anything to do with you, and cut you off right at the heart, and cut you off of every social media, and and you have pined away, you have cried buckets of tears, you have prayed, you have railed, you have prayed some more, you believe and receive that eventually there's gonna be unity, and yet eight years go by. It's it's a tough walk to be in that stage of parenting, right?

Estrangement In Blended Families

SPEAKER_01 34:56

And because my husband, Roger, is a stepparent and uh came into my children's lives, my youngest was like ten, and uh when we first met Roger, and um at that point my children really ran me. Um uh there was no male figure in in my younger son's lives, and anyway, when Roger entered and tried to be an authority figure, it did not go over very well. Now, does this sound familiar to how many single mom families, how many um step families do we have now, how many mixed families do we have, how many same-sex families do we have now? And every one of those comes with their own sets of conflict. And we can't give up humanity, we have to work towards multiplication instead of division, because united we stand, divided we fall. And so I'm observing my husband yesterday, and and it was so sad. Um I come May, I do not feel completely free in my skin and in my emotional body until after Mother's Day. Honestly. Honestly, I dread it. I um hope as I may to not have expectations. I always have expectations. I still have expectations on my birthdays that one day one of our seven kids will give me a surprise party, for example. I mean, it sounds ridiculous, but I have not had a quote-unquote birthday party since I was probably six, six, or seven years old. But they're living their own life, and and uh I used to tell my kids, every day with me is a day I am trying to show you to live without me. How about that? How warped was that? Well, it was warped because I left my home emotionally when I was 13, and I ran away from that home, um, packed up a backpack, stole money from my mom, and hitched out of the country on the Brooklyn Bridge with my then boyfriend, who became my first husband, when I just barely turned 18. And baby, I tell you, I was still a kid. And, you know, nine months later, I was a kid having kids, right? And this is what was done to us by design. And so all the support systems were gone, and and you you hope to shout. You know, you go through all the years of of the diapers and uh the terrible twos, and and you know, I homeschooled and and then I had to put them into school and and all the ups and downs. And as a parent, I don't think there's any parent, unless you're extremely cold-hearted, that says, Oh, I'm so glad it's over, and just go and have your life, and and you know, I'm done. Now I imagine that there are parents like that, but uh that was never my desire. My desire was to have an uh an adult relationship with my kids, to enjoy life with them, to uh be part of their lives. But yet, in the big picture, if I sat down and I looked at my life, what did I exhibit to my children? I didn't have a relationship with my siblings and my mother. I moved 2,000 miles away because I felt so unaccepted, which is just all again, remember, we are having a conversation about division, division by design. The design is divide so that their suffering so that we can, as the parasitic energy that we are, we can feed on their suffering. We can feed on their fear, we can feed on their um feelings of rejection and guilt and shame. Oh, they love all those negative vibrations. That's what the dark side feeds on. So, see, we have been having our energy siphoned off for centuries. And now people are waking up and saying, wait a minute, wait a minute, I don't want to live like this. So, to just close it off today, we had my husband's son show up, and my husband was so hopeful. I mean, I watched him. Uh, he didn't enter into a lot of activity that, you know, we were kind of thinking we were gonna do some yard work. Uh, we thought about running into town, we had some errands to do, and I watched him, I was observing. None of that was really happening. He didn't say so until the end of the day. But no, he was holding out, he was leaving space for his children, all of his children. We have seven children, and there's been no differentiation between us as parents. All seven are our children, right? My five are his, his two are mine. We together have seven children, right? And he was holding out for something. Now he knew one of his children was probably not going to reach out at all because that was already cut off. And we still to this day, on a daily basis, every single morning, pray for that unity and for that restoration of that relationship. But he was holding out and hopeful that maybe a day would be spent. Time spent is is massive. Time in a bottle means that song by Jim Croce. Um, if you if you're too young, look it up. It's an incredible song, Time in a Bottle. And it means so much when you're a Grammy, when your children are all grown. My uh our youngest child is gonna be 35 this year.

SPEAKER_00 42:05

No, our youngest will be 30? Yeah, 30.

SPEAKER_01 42:14

So they're all grown. And technically, you know, we should just but here we are. We still desire connection, we still desire, hey, what are you doing? Hey, you know, and when none of that comes, the dark side, the matrix merry-ground, wins. And some of our children are old enough now to have grown children. Our oldest grandchild is twenty-three this year. Twenty-three. And our youngest grandchild just turned two. And so the older kids have discovered some of the same things that I'm just sharing with you about Mothers and Fathers' Day. There's estrangement happening with the second generation. Why? And that's where I'm gonna close.

Choosing Unity Over The Matrix

SPEAKER_01 43:18

Ponder it. Division is by design, and it's my job and your job as a part of Humanityville. We want to get back to Humanityville because right now we're living in an illusion, in a um in a play. And we need to get back to truly living like human beings, connected, no color, no political affiliation. We're just all one people called humans. And that's what we have to awake, ascend up towards, to awaken that Christ consciousness again, where multiplication is prevalent rather than division.

How To Support The Mission

SPEAKER_01 44:22

So if any of this resonated with you, and if you're listening in just earbads on Spotify because you like audio podcasts, thank you, thank you so much. Many of my listeners have been listening on Spotify or on um other apps where it's just audio. But there are new folks on my YouTube channel, free to just be on YouTube. And thank you for spending some time. And I don't know, maybe it's scary to see Teresa Marie, Ambassador of Chi, on your screen. Yes, the former Terry Wilson, which, you know, that's just a nickname for Teresa. And back in the day when I first started this podcast podcast, I called myself Terry Wilson, the hippie freak of the South. Why? Because that was my story. I was the hippie renegade freak that felt unaccepted, cast out, and uh quite the rebel. I'm still a rebel, only now I'm a rebel against anything to do with the dark side and the Matrix Mary-Ground, and I am creating a community that wants to come back together, that wants to support one another, that wants to be united. And I do that by sharing breath work, by sharing movement, by sharing my podcast, my gardening videos, and so much more to come. So if this resonated with you, please hit the like button. Subscribe to my channels, because the more people that do that, the more people will see information like this. And I know that there are people out there that resonates with me. And maybe you know somebody that will too. So I would so appreciate it if you share this information. And as always, I close letting you know that my belief is, and my prayer for you, is that you have the greatest energy with the most vibrant health, and I reverse that. I actually always say, I pray for your greatest health and most vibrant energy, and of course, peace until next time.