I Doubt It

Today I share the simple acrostic that helped me see what was really happening in my own head: DOUBT as Don’t, Overthinking, Uncertainty, Belittling, and Trepidation. Once you can name the pattern, you can interrupt it and stop letting your ego decide your future. 

We also sit with a paradox: doubt kills more dreams than failure ever can, and yet doubt can be a necessary precondition to meaningful action. I bring in René Descartes and the idea that doubt is the origin of wisdom when it pushes us to question assumptions instead of living in blind acceptance. That kind of inquiry helps us sort truth from noise, strip away bias, and rebuild a grounded mindset that supports personal growth and real change. 

If you’re ready to walk away from an old way of being and get closer to living authentically, give it a listen.. Subscribe, share this with a friend who’s wrestling with doubt, and leave a review so more people can find the show.

PS My learning curve continues as I recorded this on video as well for my Youtube channel with NO VOLUME! So you can listen and watch and see if they match up! Man, just one little button not pressed lol

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Quotes That Frame The Theme

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Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever can. However, doubt is a necessary precondition to meaningful action. And we're going to talk about some doubting today, as I welcome you back to Free to Just Be. And I'm Teresa Marie, Traveling Ambassador of T, and I have been the host of the Free to Just Be podcast, and now the full-blown mission for about five years now. And if I would have followed my doubts back in 2021, I wouldn't have 412 episodes of this podcast. But like everything in this duality that we find ourselves in, there are two sides, three sides to every story. But first, before we continue, I just want to welcome you to Free to Just Be. It's the place where I have been discussing everything about this dance of transformation that we find ourselves on, this energetic shift that we're all experiencing on the planet, this itch that has been driving us crazy. And many of us are now discovering that it's the true us, way down deep inside, that has been itching to get out. And we had been stuffing he or she down for so long, and then suddenly we wake up and recognize that we are people that we don't really want to be, and we want to be free. We want to be free of systems and beliefs and uh the matrix controllers, and we want to be who we were always meant to be, and everything along that dance of transformation is what I discuss on Free to Just Be. And I would so appreciate it if you would just hit the like button, because as much as I don't like the whole internet experience, this is where humanity is. This is where humanity goes and purchases and learns information. And when you hit that like button, more people get to see it, and then I can serve more of humanity. So I would sure appreciate it if you'd do that and you'd share this with others that you think might resonate with my episodes. So that being said, um, it's it's been a couple of weeks since I have uh dropped an a full-blown podcast, um, a week of massive transitions, and

Transitions And The Return Of Doubt

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every transition brings what we're talking about today. It brings doubt. And there's so many aspects of doubt, and I've been pondering this all day long, and it's a it's a rainy, very humid day here in Tennessee. So uh working in the food forest was not really an option, and I I uh share two release and revive classes on Wednesdays, so I generally um do low-key things in between my two sessions, and in the midst of that in between, I've been thinking about doubt. And uh as my mind normally goes, I I was thinking about all the ways that doubt had kept me locked in um in a place and in a persona in a an earth

Don’t, Overthinking, Overlooking

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suit that I really was never comfortable in. And when I was thinking about that, it came to me as as things often do, as an acrostic, you know, where you write the words vertically and the first uh all all the letters in that word have a meaning. Well, that's what I'm gonna kick off with the word doubt. Well, when I am full-blown into doubting, in fact, I have coined this phrase more times than I'm embarrassed to say how many times I've said this, and now recognize that it's probably not a hundred percent true, and that is when in doubt, don't. Don't and that word, those two words, doubt, it comes comes in like a flood, and the very first word that happens in the doubt process is the day of doubt. Don't do it. No, you don't do it. You don't want to do that, so your ego immediately. I can remember when God told me it was time to get behind a microphone. Did I do it right then? Heck no. I had all these doubts. And if I was coining the phrase, when in doubt, don't, well, what do you think I did? I didn't, I didn't. I I I I I no, I was afraid. I I began the O in doubt, overthinking. Overthinking. Well, I'm I'm not a good speaker. Um, nobody'll listen. Um, what have I really got to say? Uh surely you're not telling me to do a podcast, God. I mean, you know, come on. Resist, resist, resist. So first in my head, I'm thinking, don't, don't, don't. And why would my ego tell me not to? Because the ego, as I constantly remind our us, uh my audience and myself, the ego only takes the things that we've already done. And then when we're venturing into a new way of being, it immediately says, warning, warning, you've never done this before. Don't do it. Don't, you never know, you don't know what's going to happen, right? And that's the don't. And then the overthinking kicks in. And then the other O of doubt also goes hand in hand with overthinking, and that is overlooking. You see, for years, several years, I dare I say, yes, it was about three years before I actually purchased a microphone, and then probably another two years before I ventured into the podcast world. And that's because I overlooked. I overlooked so much. I overlooked how my life, the way it unfolded, the life school lessons, the earth school lessons that I've had. I I am rich in earth school lessons, as we all are. And we all have a story to tell. And we overlook that all the time. We negate the years of learning that we have gone through and the wisdom that we can share with other people. But

Uncertainty, Belittling, Trepidation

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that's what doubt does. It tells us don't, it gets us to overthink and overlook. And then the you of doubt comes in. The uncertainty. Oh my gosh, we can't live in uncertainty, can we? Well, if certainty, if you need an absolute surety of something, then you're gonna live a very stressful life because to me there are only two things that are absolutely certain. First one is God, our Creator. Same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Never changes, never leaves us, always there. It is the only, as far as I'm concerned, sure thing that we have is God. The other thing that we can be assured of is that things, situations, people, weather, everything. And I do mean everything changes. Two things that we can be certain of God and change. Other than that, everything is a crapshoot. Everything is subject to chance and probabilities and uncertainty. And yet that very concept of uncertainty, well, if we I I don't know if anybody will listen or not. And you know what? Five years later, I don't care. Why? Because I know that I know that I know that this is what I am to be doing. This is what lights me up, and if only one person gleans a gem from it, then I've done my job. But don't overthinking and overlooking join uncertainty when it comes to doubt. What about the bee in doubt? Oh, that's when we have a great idea. We have something that we have been thinking and dreaming about our whole life. Or maybe it's a way of being that we have wrestled with for years and we know that it has to go. But as those thoughts come in, the belittling begins because that's what doubt does. Doubt just loves to knock us out. The one-two, right? And belittling is a biggie. Oh, that's that's a small idea, you know. You know, you don't want to do that small thing. That's so unimportant. You know, why would you that what a worthless idea, right? We are our biggest self-saboteurs, aren't we? Um, and mayhaps I'm talking about this top that because I feel like for the last seven or ten days, I have been doing a lot of self-saboteur saboteuring. Um, but that's another show. So let's continue with the doubt. And then, of course, with the don't, with the overlooking and overthinking of the O, the uncertainty of the U, the belittling of the B, we come to the T in doubt, and that is trepidation. Oh, I I have so much trepidation. I'm I'm full of anxiety. I'm I'm fearful that I'm not going to be successful. And if I don't know I'm going to be successful, then I'm I'm just not going to do it. And we suffer because of that. Life is meant to be an incredible adventure. The journey of all journeys. And if you are not living it to the fullest, then you are probably living in absolute trepidation. Think about it. You can live out loud like this. Notice my body language. It's joyful, it's forward, it's it's full of life. Or you can trepidate. Right? What a contrast. So, of course, being the curious one, and the one that I there are probably hundreds of episodes where I have said this statement that we all need to resurrect inquisition. And

Doubt As The Origin Of Wisdom

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so I was so delighted. You know that I love quotes, and I open with uh quotes, right? Um, quotes the first quote was doubt kills more more dreams than failure ever will. And then doubt is a necessary precondition to meaningful action. Well, that almost seems like a paradox, doesn't it? But it really is true. Now, doubt kills dreams because we use the acrostic of doubts. We don't because we're overthinking and overlooking. We live in uncertainty and we can't have uncertainty, we have to have surety, we belittle ourselves and all of our thoughts, and we live in trepidation. Well, then doubt does kill dreams, doesn't it? However, and this is where I thought it was so cool, because as I looked up quotes, there's another quote by Rene Descartes, who was an 18th-century philosopher and mathematician. He was quite the the genius um teacher. He is the one that uh coined the phrase, I think, therefore I am. Well, he said that doubt is the origin of wisdom. Now check it out. This is this is where it gets so cool. He said that true understanding begins by actively questioning assumptions rather than having blind acceptance. Now, look look at our world today, Humanityville. How many of us unfortunately got the kick in the stomach when we ate that red pill? I'll use myself as an example 20 plus years ago when I was told about chemtrails, and I was incredulous. I was like, there is no effing way that that's happening. But what that did, going back to what Ren Descartes said, he said, uh what is the exact quote? Um doubt is the origin of wisdom. So I completely doubted chemtrails. And what did I do? I resurrected Inquisition and I ended up in an eight to ten year rabbit hole down the news rabbit hole and discovered more things that I didn't realize were true. Why? Because I doubted. I did not believe, and so this is what's happening worldwide. There are people that are still, they are incredulous, they do not believe, um, just pick any belief. Um immigration or um, you know, voting safety. Well, just pick a topic that is red hot on the news trail right now. And there are people that would say, well, I don't believe that, but the thing is they just sit in that. I don't believe that. So their doubts are keeping them by choice, by the way, because remember, we do have free will. But you see, the difference is, um, I'm just using myself as an example. I'm not saying I'm all that or putting myself above anybody. Don't hear me wrong. But as an example, when I didn't believe chemtrails, I began to resurrect Inquisition. I questioned everything about it. I read, I researched, which led me to another conspiracy theory and to another and to another. And ultimately, that led me to what I believe are truths that I 20 years ago would have told you were absolute lies. Do you see where I'm getting here? So those that blindly, as Ren Descartes said, it true understanding begins when you actively question assumptions rather than just doing and living with blind acceptance. And you're putting everything, every thought, right? So if somebody doesn't believe in um that there's anything wrong with our voting system, for example, if they just look at a headline and take that verbatim, and they don't scratch beneath the surface headline, if they don't research numbers or look at factual um documentation or whatever, will they ever actually know the truth? And yet they're going to stand on that position and be locked in that one way of belief because they didn't take the time to resurrect inquisition, right? So that's the opposites, right? So Ren Descartes said the true understanding begins by actively questioning. Questioning what? Putting every everything, every idea through rigorous doubt. That can't be true, putting it through the questioning, questioning the false premises, the superstitions, and the unexamined biases of everything. When that all gets stripped away, you're left with truth, with wisdom. And doubt is the beginning of that, it's the origin of wisdom. We were never meant to just be fed what we're to believe, and yet that is exactly the world, the matrix world that we have been living in. And why do you think the matrix controllers want to create such confusion in our heads? Why do you think they want to put doubt in our path all the time? This isn't true. This looks true. Well, but he said this, but this little piece was taken out of context, and on and on and on and on it goes. Confusion keeps us in the doubt pool, and doubt keeps us from achieving our dreams and causes suffering. And yet it is the necessary precondition

Surrender And The God Way Forward

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for us to take meaningful action. Now, let me let me bring it uh up to speed to free to just be and what's going on in my world. You know, I've lived a life where pretty much my norm has been that things are going to be difficult. Um things are going to be a struggle. Um things are going to be hard, hard to come by, right? And that being said, when everything in the last six months has been lining up like dominoes, right? And when I finally put doubts aside, and I finally just said, okay, okay, God, I I surrender. You have been calling me to do this. I I don't honestly know how to do it. And do what? Podcast to share my release and revive classes. Um, oh, people do these kind of things all the time. People start podcasts every day. People uh take their passions and and uh rise them up so that they can leave their uh just overbroke jobs, right? However, they all follow these worldly methods, um, these business models, uh the the way that you show up online, um, the background that you have, the way your hair is supposed to look. Um and no, no, that's that's not what I'm called to do. Uh I'm actually called to look at all that and then run away from that way of doing things and forging a new way of doing it. The God way of doing it. Um the word would be natural, or the word that they have so um overused now is organic. And and yet I want to say it's it's the God way of doing things. It's allowing, it's letting things unfold, it's taking steps forward in the not knowing. It's traversing the mountain of uncertainty. It's kicking aside doubts and saying, you know what, it may not work, but it may work, and I'm never gonna know unless I step off, and then you step off, and then you step off, right? So I've lived both sides of that, but now the current thing is my doubter has risen back up because I'm like incredulous about the good. What do I do with good? Well, what do I do with things unfolding just the way I've always seen them in my visions? And I'm not gonna beat myself up anymore over the fact that I've taken four or five huge leaps ahead this spring and early summer. Um I'm about to start my fourth class of release and revive. I finally launched a website. I have a sandwich sign, a sign that I carry with me everywhere with a QR code. So there are a few things that the world does that I literally had to learn how to do. It was very uncomfortable. I don't like tech stuff, but I had to do some of it. And now what's unfolding is true organic connections. I am meeting more and more people, and people are beginning to identify with my free-to-just-be brand and what I do in my release and revive moving meditation sessions, and the feedback is is becoming more and more um phenomenal and positive, and the ideas, the downloads that I'm getting now are so enormous. They're enormous, that my doubter's going, you you you can't pull this off. And you know what? That's true. But you see, when it's God telling me go this way, and instead of going, oh my gosh, I don't know. It's it's I have been there, and it it's a sucky place to be. Questioning and um doubting and and being absolutely stuck because you don't want to go forward because a rock might fall on your toe, you might get mud on your white sneakers, you you might be very successful. You see, wow, okay, all right. So now

Fear Of Success And Being Seen

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I have to admit that one. That that was probably my biggest hurdle. Because, see, I have had dreams and visions of standing with a microphone in front of thousands of people, and I know that that's where I'm headed. How it's gonna happen, when it's gonna happen, I don't know, but it is. I know this. And this is what's held me back for the longest time. Well, what am I gonna do when you know thousands of people know who I am, and and you know, that's gonna be scary. And and you know, what if I get followed, or or what if somebody doesn't like what I say? What what? And now as it's coming out of my mouth, it it just sounds so ridiculous. But I have to be truthful. This dance of transformation that we find ourselves on, whatever space you are in this dance, maybe you've been the wallflower for most of your life, and suddenly you are feeling like it's time to dance, and you really don't know how. That's kind of like how everybody feels when they start awakening and they start recognizing that, oh my gosh, I really don't know what I'm doing. Um, like right now, I'm looking at my camera because I am recording this podcast as I'm using my Focus Right and Buzz Sprout platform so that I have a recorded version and I have my audio version because I don't know how to go live yet. I I can't go live yet. I I only have 33 subscribers on YouTube. So please subscribe to my YouTube channel. It costs you nothing except pushing a button. And then when I have 50 subscribers, I will be saying goodbye to Buzz Sprout, and I will be doing my Free to Just Be podcast live every day on YouTube.

Walk Away From Old Ways

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So to wrap up this whole doubt thing, you know, um for a lot of years I did a show on Wednesday called Walkaway Wednesday. And I would open with these boots all made for walking, and that's just what they'll do. I hope one day your boots will walk away on this walk away Wednesday too, or something like that, right? And I look back on that and I have to just shake my head and I think you actually posted these things, and I look back now on the evolution, evolution, uh, the evolution of my own soul. And I look at those videos from five years ago or the audio tapes, and I have to laugh because I am so not like that person anymore. And yet, if I would have lived in trepidation, if I would have stayed with my fears, if I would have continued to overthink and belittle myself and tell myself, don't do it, I wouldn't be where I am and who I am today. So if maybe you are wanting to walk away from something or a way of being on this walk away Wednesday, humanity, maybe it's time to turn your doubts into the resurrection of Inquisition and recognize that doubt is the beginning or the origin of wisdom. You know, maybe you've been asking God for wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, but you need to question everything, especially who you are. Are you the person you want to be? If not, why not? What are the things in your life that are keeping you from being free to just be you? And then one by one, you put your doubter down for a nap or put him down in the trunk. I just like with my ego, a lot of times, a lot of times I'm tossing my ego, guilt and shame, which are twins, and I just tell them all, get in the freaking trunk. I'm not dealing with you right now, I'm not dealing with you today at all. You're going in the trunk, and I am gonna ride shotgun with God, and Jesus is gonna take my hand, and we're gonna go forward. We're not gonna doubt anymore. We're gonna use our doubts to birth new ways of being. Maybe you are like Teresa Marie, maybe you're a pioneer, and maybe you're here to usher in a new way of being for somebody. Everybody has their I don't want to say followers. Everybody has a circle of influence where their ripples touch somebody and it resonates with their soul. And if you're brave enough to share where you are on your journey, look around, man. Look around. Unfortunately, it's the internet, but look around. Left and right, there are people sharing how they are evolving. So you can too. Quit telling yourself don't, quit overthinking, quit belittling yourself, quit being scared of uncertainty and trepidation, and just put doubt on the shelf and move forward, peeling back the incredible spark of God that you are. And I have made it through this recording. My phone has gone gray because it's running out of power, and I am about to see whether or not these recordings have actually recorded. But I did sit in the seat, I face my uncertainty because I haven't been on in like 10 days or so or whatever.

Subscribe, Share, Closing Prayer

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And if you have been following me and you wondered where the audio version of the podcast has been, well, go over to the YouTube Free to Just Be channel on YouTube, and you'll see three or four podcasts that I did over there and I didn't do here on Buzzsprout. And please like this podcast, subscribe to my channel. It it costs zip. It doesn't cost anything but you pushing a button, and you'd so help a fellow sojourner on her evolution and her mission to help people reconnect with their true Spark of God so that they too can be free to just be. And as always, I'm closing with a prayer that you are having your greatest health and your most vibrant energy, and of course, peace till next time.