#130 - Farewell...For Now.

The title says it all. 
I've been called away from coaching and podcasting, at least for a time. 
Please allow me to thank you and to say good-bye. 

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I'm jamielynn Stephan and this is want to want it episode number 130 farewell for now. Welcome to want to want it a podcast for women of the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints who are ready to ignite not only their sexual desire, but all of their desires to create a more fulfilling life and marriage. I'm jamielynn Stephan, I'm a certified life coach, a wife, and a mother of seven children. I'm excited to share my personal journey to desire with you and teach you how to desire more as well. Hello, everyone so happy to be here today and to have the opportunity to share with you a journey that I've been on for the last few months. Back at the end of February, beginning of March, I decided that I really needed to look at my business and decide what I wanted it to look like going forward. Now in truth, it wasn't that I had a business I didn't want, but I hadn't been very deliberate in deciding on purpose. What I really wanted it to look like for me. I had built what I had been taught to build and what I felt like was the right thing to build. And now I wanted to make it something that I truly desired. And I have spent the last two and a half years preaching on this podcast about allowing yourself to desire and going after what you desire. And I realized that I really hadn't done that in my business. So I really prayerfully started to consider what I wanted for my business going forward. And that meant that everything had to be on the table. I could start working 40 hours a week and start pouring more money into my business and really make it explode. Or I could completely walk away from it and never looked back and everything in between those two possibilities had to be considered. And I really sat with all of that. And I certainly found it hard to consider anything that was outside of my comfort zone or what I thought was the right, the quote unquote right way to look at it. But I required myself to consider it all. And after much thought and prayer and a beautiful conversation with my husband, I realized that right now, I wanted my business to be small and simple so that I could still give most of my time to where my heart is. And that's really in my family. Perfect. I thought. All right. I'm just going to continue as I am right now, a handful of clients, a weekly podcast, and enough time to be with my most important people. And I felt so much peace about this decision. Well, fast forward to the first week of April. So only about three weeks after all of this work came to an end. Right. I'd made this decision. I'm getting ready for my day and I feel distinctly the words. You will be done coaching for good in June. And I was stunned and I thought like, what done in June? And then my next question was, but what about my podcast? And the thought just came. You're just going to do a farewell episode now, admittedly, I was confused as I had just done all of this soul searching. But ultimately I was actually filled with complete peace and total assurance that this was exactly what I should do. So I sat with all of this for a few weeks before I even said anything to my husband about it. And then I sat with it for a few more weeks until I had a mini breakdown where I started to believe that the reason that God was calling me out of my coaching practice was because I hadn't done what he needed me to do, that I hadn't been bold enough or brave enough. And so he was essentially firing me from being a coach. And I felt so sick about all of these thoughts because they just felt really true. So I took this story to my coach who listened to me and then offered me the option to believe that. Whatever lessons and work I had been called to do was now complete. And that it was time to open myself up to what is coming next. And again, I felt peace and assurance, and I realized that I needed to be open to whatever's coming next and hold onto the belief that it will be even better because it's going to be the next perfect step for me. And so I held this revelation close and quiet to myself until the middle of June. Before I started to really share it with clients and friends and family. And now it's time for me to share it with you, my listeners. So first I just want to thank you for being on this journey with me. Thank you for letting me serve you this way. Thank you for listening. Thank you for sending feedback and encouragement. Thank you for making something that felt very vulnerable to do become something that I really loved. And like I have said to my clients, I still want to be a coach. I still want to coach. I want to serve people this way when I can. So I am not going to have a formal business, but hopefully. A few opportunities at different times, we'll come around to be of help and service to people. And I have called this podcast farewell for now, because I don't actually know what is coming and maybe in a few months or a year or two, I'll be back. I am just really trying to be open to whatever possibilities are on their way for me. I really hope that by sharing this story of how I got here, that it will actually be helpful to someone out there. Remember to not just let yourself desire. Sometimes you have to actually require yourself to desire. Like I did when I was deciding what I wanted my business to look like. I wouldn't let myself fall into this. I should do this because that's what other coaches are doing or what the experts say should do. I required myself to really tap into what I wanted and accept it and tell myself that my desires were valid and good and worthy. It really wasn't that I wasn't letting myself have what I desired. I wasn't even considering what I desired. So I had to really require myself to actually. Dig deep and find out what I desired. Also be open to direction from God or the universe or whatever, higher power you look to be open to the possibility that they have a path to lead you on that you have never considered. Remember that even when we feel led or are doing what we know in our hearts is good and right, our brain is going to offer us negative stories. It's going to tell us we aren't capable that we're quitters, that we failed in some way that we can't possibly do it. So don't be surprised when your brain does this, but don't believe it either. I hope you always remember that what you focus on, you create more of that. Your thoughts are the first thing you have control of, and they create your feelings, which fuel your actions, which give you your results. Remember that you are already worthy of love and goodness, and nothing changes that nothing. I hope you will allow yourself to desire. Allow yourself to want to want it, want to want the things you want. Your desires make you so much more of you express them and go for them. And lastly, I sincerely sincerely pray for each of you. That your lives will be blessed and happy and that you will always find the help you need when you need it. God bless you all. Thank you so much for this by.