The Leaves of a Victim never more with Steven Wilson
This show is intended as a form of therapy for myself as well as helping those that identify as a victim of abuse. it is also meant for those that are dealing with addiction.I am in active in NA now and in group therapy.I am a survivor of childhood sex abuse. I am a drug addict in recovery. As a fair warning; some might find this show at its content triggering so please use caution as I talk in detail about my life and those things that happened to me.Be a blessing and may you find serenity.
Episodes
65 episodes
8th seal:Epstein files and the death of a nation of law
In this episode, I begin, what could be a series about Jeffrey Epstein in about child, rape and child molestation. Many of you know that the podcast itself is based on my experiences, and being a adult survivor of childhood sex abuse, and...
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Season 5
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Episode 1
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24:20
Fear of
This final episode of 2025 deals with the topic of stigma, which I have covered in the past. The reading from this goes from Irving goffman in his book stigma notes on the management of spoiled identity.more specifically the topic ...
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Season 4
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Episode 10
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25:30
Krampusnacht
In this episode, I begin with reading from the Marquis de Sade, The dialogue between a priest and a dying man.This episode again is taking a little bit from group therapy and the discussions about the perceptions of being good or being b...
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Season 4
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Episode 9
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25:49
The life you get after the afterlife
This episode is about the death of my grandmother, and what I’ve been going through.I read from Isaac Asimov the universe from flat earth quasar.In my own self analysis in my own group therapy, I started to deal with the loss of f...
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Season 4
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Episode 8
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25:29
52 pick up
Two birthday or not to birthday, that is the question.In this episode, I spoke about my grandma’s illness and how it’s affecting my birthday this year. I’m also dealing with the task of purchasing my mother’s head stone as it has b...
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Season 4
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Episode 7
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25:27
Hobbies: flesh fellows of leathercraft
In this episode, I talk about a group session that I had in the topic came up of hobbies.One of the hobbies I brought up was leather craft, and the conversation turned a little bit sinister, because of the perception that it carries with...
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Season 4
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Episode 6
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25:55
An American birthday: Donnie diarrhea brain and Tolstoy’s gospels in brief
Today’s episode is based on another group session that we spent talking about birthdays, and how we spent birthdays. It started out talking about our best birthday in the month. I’m talking about our worst birthday.today’s reading comes ...
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Season 4
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Episode 5
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27:57
Mother may I…move on
Today’s episode deals with my first Mother’s Day after my mother’s passing last October. Unlike other past episodes, this one really doesn’t deal with Group Therapy. This is just something that I went through.Today’s reading is tak...
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Season 4
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Episode 4
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26:02
Crucifixion: you too can become a Martyr
In this episode, I discussed the group therapy session that was before Easter, and about the concept of murder them, but only for the survival of sex abuse, but also the survivor of addiction.Today’s reading was taken from a poem by Walt...
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Season 4
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Episode 3
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26:00
Trust in Medicine: telehealth or telewealth
This episode, is it getting taken from the group therapy session with the topic was seeing a psychiatrist or seeing a nurse practitioner through a television.Some of the guys in the group didn’t like it bothers liked it without a human b...
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Season 4
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Episode 2
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26:47
The orange peel of despair: a new mental illness
This episode is based on more group therapy sessions in which the group diagnosed American voters. This is a reference to the phenomena of trans placement wherein a patient believes they themselves are a doctor or therapist. This i...
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Season 4
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Episode 1
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26:36
Dear mother: a eulogy for a hard woman
My mother passed away. This episode I talk about the cycle of life, funerals, being missed, being remembered, and the role of children.My mother wore the chain she forged in life, and pressed it upon me. I feel a sense of re...
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Season 3
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Episode 9
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27:21
Nobody for president
This episodes deals with the election for president as politic entered group therapy recently.I read from Anarchism and other essays by Emma Goldman. The article is entitled “patriotism: a menace to liberty.The real separa...
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Season 3
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Episode 8
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26:12
I don’t know (Clean and Sober)
In this episode I discuss a new member to the group who was diagnosed with co curing and has decided to do both, group therapy and NA. I read from my copy of the narcotics anonymous blue specifically on recovery and relapse.My opi...
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Season 3
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Episode 7
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25:20
This is War!
This episode is about a therapy session topic again; Memorial Day weekend.We spoke of life as war metaphor, the difference between surviving and victim. There is also mention of the current state of conflict around the world, and ...
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Season 3
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Episode 5
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25:00
Take a chill pill or prepare for horror
This episode deals with a few therapy sessions and the topic of patience.I deal with patience itself and the origins of the frustration they comes with someone telling you to relax or calm down.I talk about horror movies in the ...
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Season 3
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Episode 4
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25:01
3 days of death
This episode is really about the last month or so and my battle with serious illness.Influenza APneumonia Sepsis blood infectionI read from Lovecraft story Herbest West reanimator.I know it is not a standard...
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Season 3
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Episode 3
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25:48
Age is the final cage
This episode is another based on group therapy and what I’m dealing with my mother being in a nursing home. These are observations I have made for my mother as well as the other residents of the home.The reading is Whitmans “Thank...
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Season 3
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Episode 2
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24:06
The group diagnosed me : I’m angry (Dr Lovecraft told me to chill out)
Today’s episode is an update on my life dealing with my mom in a nursing home. I went to group therapy and told them what I feeling. They told me I was angry because my own life had disappeared. I don’t agree.The readi...
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Season 3
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Episode 1
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28:59
Elder care and nursing homes in the United States of America
Respect vs RulesIn this episode my topic is based on my experiences with my mom’s nursing home and all the paperwork involved with her care.I talk about the nucleus of medica in America: who’s gonna pay this bill?I read ...
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Season 2
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Episode 13
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28:29
Time machines
Ray Bradbury once called people “books just walking around”. Well, I believe people are time machines too.This episode I continue documenting my life as I transition my mother to nursing care. I talk about packing her stuff ...
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Season 2
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Episode 12
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25:57
Mom fell and is now in a nursing home (Am I a good son?)
Today’s episode is based on recent events involving my mother and her falling. She had been living on her own and fell. Luckily the pharmacy was delivering her meds and found her. No one knows for sure how long she was out.
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Season 2
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Episode 11
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27:34
The dead are fun
Today’s episode is based on holidays and their meaning within the framework of the celebration itself. I take some the analysis from our group session.I read “Nature” from Longfellow. I think it is a great poem on death.What is ...
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Season 2
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Episode 10
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23:01