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Your Therapist Needs Therapy 157 - You Are What You Eat, Algorithm Edition

Jeremy Schumacher

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This week Jeremy looks at the algorithms we consume. Jeremy breaks down how these mindless math equations actively shape who we become by rewarding outrage, insecurity, and endless engagement over truth and connection. We touch on how the attention economy reinforces the same psychological patterns found in authoritarian systems, from identity formation to fear-based messaging, and why that's so profitable. Most importantly, we discuss how reclaiming our attention, building real community, and choosing what feeds our minds can become acts of resistance in a world designed to keep us scrolling. Alternate title for the episode was “They see me scrollin’, they hatin’” but it wasn’t quite accurate on messaging.

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Hello,

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and welcome to another edition of Your

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Therapist Needs Therapy.

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Your friendly neighborhood therapist,

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Jeremy Schumacher.

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I'm a licensed marriage and family

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therapist.

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Today,

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let's talk about what you're consuming.

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on the interwebs me right now how'd you

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find me wellness with chair was a big

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mistake when it comes to seo searchability

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the internet just thinks that's a type out

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a type out a typo uh for wellness

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with her who's the her no one knows

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it's more mysterious that way

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there's a therapist who locked down,

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take care with Jer.

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And I'm really just furious that I didn't

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think of that, but good for them.

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That's really good.

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One of my clients is fairly invested that

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I should rename my practice Therapy with

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Jeremy, which has a certain lilt to it,

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but you have to pronounce it that very

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specific way.

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And I don't like near rhymes.

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Anyway, yeah, I mean,

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you found your way to me,

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which is really cool.

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And some of you did it because you

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know me or you're familiar with my work

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or you heard my ad on the radio

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or you saw me at the film festival

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at Pride or whatever.

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I am out and about somewhat frequently.

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And some of you found me because you've

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searched for mental health related topics

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on the interwebs.

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Maybe your podcast feed recommended this

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because you listen to other mental health

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stuff.

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Maybe you're on YouTube and stumbled your

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way across and saw the long hair and

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bearded cutout that gets used for the

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thumbnail.

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I never know which one it is.

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That's what I have media people for.

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Media person for, hey, Ken, you're great.

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Thanks for all your work.

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Today we're going to talk about algorithms

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and what's behind them.

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Evil capitalist overlords.

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Obviously,

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but with a little bit more nuance than

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that.

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I think that's somewhat established that

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social media ruins our mental health and

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also

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billionaires are unethical,

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topics I've covered before,

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and also topics that I think are more

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readily accessible to more people,

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although that's just what's in my feed.

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So perhaps your internet looks very

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different than mine,

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but that's sort of what we're gonna get

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into, right?

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Like what's going on with the internet

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that different people are sort of,

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not just sort of,

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like are really experiencing different

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realities and why?

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And if you're excitedly clapping your

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hands saying,

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I bet Jeremy is going to talk about

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French philosophers today,

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you are correct.

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We're going to go back to some of

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the postmodern thinkers who talked about

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this stuff in the sixties because called

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it.

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I don't know that any of them are

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still alive.

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Most of them are dead.

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That's a long time ago.

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Paul McCartney is still around.

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So some people who were maybe young and

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upcoming back in the day are still around.

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We still have elected officials,

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although there are fewer than there used

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to be in that age range,

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which is pretty exciting.

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Still a couple of big ones that...

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can die peacefully in their sleep,

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for all I care.

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Yeah, let's talk about algorithms.

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You know,

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I had the idea for this topic because

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I rewatched season one of Silicon Valley,

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Silicon Valley.

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I feel like people on the West Coast

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don't enunciate,

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don't add the emphasis at the end of

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the word, Silicon, Silicon Valley.

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um and i a midwesterner i'm like silicon

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valley those tech people really really

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know what they're doing with the big data

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centers ruin the great lakes right next to

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us again that's not how people talk from

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here i i'm from here and this is

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how i talk um the algorithm feeds us

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content

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And content is mediated before it ever

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reaches our eyes.

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And so we're getting a weird subset of

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what's out there.

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Um, and it,

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it depends a lot on what you click

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and this affects the sort of narratives

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and the story you tell about the real

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world, quote unquote.

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real world not the mtv show was it

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on mtv um i only know about that

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because the ms who's a pro professional

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wrestler uh not the cool brewers pitcher

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who's a much better version of the ms

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of the pro wrestler ms was on the

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real world i don't actually know what this

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reality tv show that's all i know um

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the stories we tell ourselves about the

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real world the universe we're living in

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and experiencing currently um

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about politics, about therapy,

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about movies that are good or bad.

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It's the content we consume is all

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algorithmic.

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Now,

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algorithms have been around for a while.

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They're just a mathematic tool.

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They're not thinking.

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They're not sentient.

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I would argue they've almost exclusively

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been used for evil purposes.

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because insurance companies were using

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algorithms long before we became familiar

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with the term related to social media as

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a way to decline people coverage because

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insurance only can exist in so far that

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it denies what should be paid for.

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That is their model.

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That's a separate episode, though,

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where I complain more about insurance

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companies.

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That's an episode I've already done and

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will probably have to revisit because

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America.

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So our algorithms feed our psychological

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attention span.

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And also, you are what you eat, right?

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That's the title of the episode.

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They feed our attention span.

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They also dictate our attention span to

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us.

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And that's the trippy sort of high level.

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It's not high level.

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The levels that we have to keep in

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head.

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There are going to be multiple levels of

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things we're talking about here.

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We're talking nuance.

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Algorithms are bad.

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Fact.

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Why and how and what do we do

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about it?

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If I remember to close the episode out

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correctly.

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We'll see.

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That doesn't always happen.

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This is why I don't do outlines because

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I have great ideas and then I get

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sidetracked.

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One of the first thing, I mean,

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I think that first level algorithms are

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bad is people are aware that the

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algorithms are optimized for engagement

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and not accuracy.

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And so the algorithms that express

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outrage, that are rage bait,

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that are trendy buzzwords without really

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saying much, again,

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I really struggle

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Clients send me stuff often, not often,

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somewhat regularly.

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It's not like a daily occurrence,

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but clients will often send me stuff and

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they want my opinion on it,

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which again is super...

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I'm super grateful that my clients do want

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like, hey,

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person we have a real life relationship

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with who is an expert in this specific

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field,

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what do you think about this video I'm

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sending you?

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Because again,

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I think that's a great way to use

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the internet.

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I think that's interesting.

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I wonder what so-and-so who was actually

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well-informed on this topic would say

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about this.

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So I like that.

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And a lot of it is...

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Overly simplistic, because again,

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what engagement is rewarding nowadays with

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short form media like YouTube Shorts,

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TikTok, Instagram Reels, all that stuff,

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that short form media is engagement.

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Did you stay on the whole video?

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Did you watch for a certain number of

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time?

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Data that I get regularly that I don't

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really care about is like how many people

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stay watching or listening to my videos.

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The reason I don't care about that is

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because like I don't ever change how I'm

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doing it because I know a bunch of

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people click away in the first five

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minutes while I preamble my episode before

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getting to the point because I need it

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for dopamine.

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it's engagement, right?

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A lot of these things are geared towards

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engagement.

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And so those people who do like long

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fingernails and click on everything while

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they're making like a gross smoothie,

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like that's rage bait, right?

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That's engagement or like the people who

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are into ASMR.

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So again, there's, there've been,

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Certain things that sort of rise that are

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just like,

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they only exist because the internet

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exists in its current form.

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Something like that shit wouldn't have

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worked on Vine back in the day,

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if y'all are old enough to remember Vine.

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don't even want to say the glory days

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of the internet because there was there

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was plenty that wasn't good about the

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internet back then too um but the question

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of that the algorithms are looking for is

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did you click on something did you stay

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on the page for a certain amount of

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time did you go back to the page

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so it's monitoring the scrolling that

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happens but it's tracking the engagement

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people scroll that's the expectation what

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it's specifically looking out uh for and

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mapping and charting and keeping tabs on

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is what

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held your attention?

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What did you engage with?

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Because what they're going for is not some

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sort of agreed upon reality,

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but is reinforcement.

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if you got mad about this thing,

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we're going to send you more of that

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thing because that reinforces the idea

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that that is a thing,

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which is how we get people who are

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so devoid of reality.

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If you ever have the misfortune of

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listening to a Republican talk for a long

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time,

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they're going to say a bunch of weird

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stuff because many of them lack critical

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thinking skills.

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That's why they're Republican.

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And two, they're,

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Liberality is very shallow and odd.

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It's conspiratorial since the the the

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Trump one point no presidency and then

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QAnon and everything that sort of happened

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with that covid.

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All of these things have have leaned

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conspiratorial.

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And so you get people you get they're

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eating cats and dogs in a presidential

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debate and somehow like that's not

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disqualifying.

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because that's what an old demented man

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sees in his feed who is never smart

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to begin with and has dementia and zero

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critical thinking skills.

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But that's what he's consuming.

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And also that can get filtered out for

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people who aren't supposed to see that,

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for people whose experience of the world

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is that's a good businessman.

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And so the algorithm cuts both ways,

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right?

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It reinforces a perceived reality for

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people based on their engagement,

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and it excludes things that might

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challenge that perception to keep people

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sort of filtered in those various ways.

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And again, it's not just right-wing.

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I think a lot of wellness culture,

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I think a lot of sort of hope,

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cope bullshit that

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liberals i'll say especially white

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liberals are consuming are like rest is

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resistance type memes and like i've talked

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about that concept before as a slogan that

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is fine it means more than that right

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um

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again i think specifically for people who

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aren't doing a ton of work who aren't

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organizing who aren't part of community

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that lets them feel like they've done

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something they liked a video they shared

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something to their friend group and while

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those things can have some meaning that

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isn't the actual active work of organizing

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let alone revolutionizing and so um again

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it goes both ways i think

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the algorithms have really ruined whatever

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used to be good about the internet,

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which we'll get into.

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But this idea of continuing to sell people

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the idea, and this is religious, right?

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This is religious trauma.

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I've worked with this for years after

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doing my own work, coming out of religion.

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This idea that you're not enough,

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enough is one of those concepts that's

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really tricky.

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Cause like, how do you define that?

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And it really messes with our brain that

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there is some vague concept of what enough

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is.

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We've never defined it.

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It doesn't have rigid parameters.

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And so we can never really fully meet

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it.

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It's one of those dangerous sort of

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thought processes that really become a

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hamster wheel that our brain can get stuck

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on.

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So we're never doing enough.

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There's continual outrage that feeds the

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engagement of the algorithm.

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And it does need to give us this

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idea that we're doing something.

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Game designers have studied this,

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and we know about some of the

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psychological concepts.

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The easiest metaphor I can use is in

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video game design.

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You need it to be challenging because

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humans get bored when they don't feel

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challenged with something.

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So you need something to be challenging

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and rewarding.

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You do need to level up.

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You do need to unlock things.

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You do need to feel like there's

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progression being made.

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And so while the outreach machine exists,

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you do need to convince people that liking

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things and subscribing and clicking and

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sharing is accomplishing a thing, right?

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And like super meta, right?

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Like while I'm recording this,

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like subscribe,

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do all those internet things.

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Like, yeah, I'm aware, right?

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This is not all I do.

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This is more than a hobby,

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but certainly not my day job.

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This is trying to combat the nonsense

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that's out there with learning and getting

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you to use your brain and think

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critically.

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Hooray.

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Think about sort of like the influencer

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culture.

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It's beauty products, it's fitness,

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it's wellness, it's productivity,

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religion, therapy.

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But I think the sort of core things

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that are like beauty,

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wellness slash fitness and productivity,

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like

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the internet's not giving you any of those

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things again.

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And I would almost say specifically,

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the longer you stay on your phone,

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the less those things exist for you in

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the real world.

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And in real time,

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you're consuming that as a product from

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other people and not doing anything.

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So like, again, that,

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that dual messaging of you are not enough,

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but you are doing something.

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So like, good for you.

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So,

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so stay right here and keep doing that

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while we subtly convince you that you're

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not enough and keep you from doing

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anything.

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Um,

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And so the algorithms lean towards fear

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and inadequacy.

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And that is really fun when you look

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at like, why?

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Why are those the values that are embedded

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in the algorithms?

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Now the algorithms are not pristine,

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flawless,

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mathematic equations that are

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distillations of the human brain

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They're things that were created.

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They're coded.

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The large language models that are wildly

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agreeable to you were written to be

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agreeable.

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One,

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based on some data that we get from

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the engagement.

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But again,

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the algorithm started somewhere before

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they started tracking everything,

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before they started keeping tabs on how

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long our eyes stayed on the screen,

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before looking away,

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before they were tracking all of that

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stuff, which they have so much data.

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We do not live in a private society.

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the algorithms were built on a value

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system and that value system was Silicon

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Valley.

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And I, again,

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the idea for this podcast sort of started

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because I rewatched season one and it,

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it is, it's still funny.

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I would say it's aged really poorly.

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One, just like how,

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vitriolic and again this is this is my

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lived experience we are towards tech um i

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certainly think that's true of my

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generation of millennials by and large um

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and young people again the the recoil

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against ai has been very strong and

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pronounced in a way where integration of

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the iphone and smartphones and again the

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erosion of our general privacy and human

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rights has been fairly effective for tech

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um

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what happens in a lot of tech is

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those values were kind of vapid um the

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the idea of sort of like growth uh

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which again like growth in a capitalistic

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sense is just cancer it's unending

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replication under finite circumstances

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like

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our model for our economic system is based

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on cancer growth, which again is bad,

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kills things, we know this.

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Growth, optimization, competition,

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conquering, scaling things and disruption.

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And disruption is the easy one to say

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like that never has happened with tech.

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That's always that's like this big

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buzzword.

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And so watching season one of Silicon

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Valley is like tech disruptors is sort of

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where the finale takes place.

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And whoever wins the prize gets like a

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big thing.

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Now, again,

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has tech in the way become ubiquitous?

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Like, yes, I remember having a flip phone.

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I remember having minutes.

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I remember only calling my long distance

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girlfriend, who's now my wife.

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in case you were going to judge me

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for calling my long distance girlfriend,

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that panned out for me.

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But having to wait until we had minutes,

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having to wait and think about like she's

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in a different time zone,

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having to do the math in my head

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for like who could call who when that

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texting had specific limitations.

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And again,

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that tech has grown to a way where

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some of those things work much better and

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are so much more, again,

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like ubiquitous in our lives speaks a lot

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to how far tech has come.

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I'm not dismissing that.

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But when you look at the disruptors,

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it's AI.

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Well, that has fallen flat on its face.

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It hasn't really disrupted much of

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anything other than our access to clean

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drinking water.

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Uber disrupted public transportation,

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except like not really.

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Lyft exists and taxis are still a thing.

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So it sort of took taxis and modernized

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them.

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So you can order them from an app

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on your phone instead of having to call

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a number,

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but otherwise it's pretty much just still

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a taxi and that you can pay in

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the app and all those things sort of

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only exists because smartphones exist,

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not because

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These ride shares disrupted things.

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Most people, at least in America,

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still also drive their own cars.

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We're huge polluters because we have

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cities that aren't walkable.

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Uber, Lyft, whatever,

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did not disrupt that.

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Waymo is not disrupting that.

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Self-driving cars are not disrupting that.

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There's no disruption.

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It's, hey, this...

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thing this system is making a lot of

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money we're going to come in and try

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and take over a share of that and

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then again where the values of silicon

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valley come in is like growth and

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optimization we're gonna increase the

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value of this thing and then we're gonna

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cut it and sell it

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And again, that's the cancer of this.

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That's where these things keep dying.

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We keep having things that are worse and

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worse, the of the internet.

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All of these sort of tech disruptor spaces

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haven't really done anything.

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blue origin space x haven't replaced nasa

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and are getting lapped by now other

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countries um federal subsidized their

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state level engineering things like the

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idea that we could be exploring space and

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exploring the ocean and working together

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as a planet instead of like in competition

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Doesn't happen because, again,

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the competition is one of the values that

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big tech put into the algorithms from the

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get go.

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And if you look at like who these

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people are now, again, to be clear,

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these people did not create the

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algorithms.

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They're not clever enough to do that.

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They're not smart enough to do this.

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These are the names that are there.

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But the names that are there are the

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people who are.

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Definitely instilling some of the values.

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Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, Mark Zuckerberg,

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Mark Andreessen, Peter Thiel.

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These are our deeply uncool dorks and

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losers who are incredibly insecure and

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have daddy issues.

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And so again, when we think about like,

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the algorithm feeding on inadequacy and

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fear, like, yeah,

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those are some of the values that are

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put into the system by the system's

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creators.

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Again, not those people.

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But those are sort of like the caricatures

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and sort of like the schemas,

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the idea of like, why?

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Well, because like insecure men, right?

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We're doing this.

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And do I think that some of this

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was really cool,

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really smart people who came up with a

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great idea to make the world a better

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place?

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Yes, absolutely.

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I'm not saying like everybody in tech is

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bad and all coders are men and all

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men are insecure.

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Therefore,

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like I'm overgeneralizing in my language.

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I understand there's nuance here.

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But to draw the parallel to the point

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I'm making is that like the algorithm has

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these values in place.

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Think about whose values those things are.

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And again,

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somebody like Teal is probably closer to

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the truth.

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zuckerberg for sure um versus like musk

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and bezos who sort of came in as

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capitalists and bought up things that were

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already doing this more than they had

00:22:07.828 --> 00:22:10.211
their hands in the code at any useful

00:22:10.271 --> 00:22:11.673
point of building some of the algorithm

00:22:12.094 --> 00:22:16.018
again zuckerberg um arguably like again an

00:22:16.057 --> 00:22:17.480
entire movie's been made about it and i

00:22:17.519 --> 00:22:19.521
didn't watch it because who the fuck cares

00:22:20.403 --> 00:22:20.644
um

00:22:21.203 --> 00:22:22.644
But whether or not he made the code

00:22:22.664 --> 00:22:24.105
or stole the code or ripped off his

00:22:24.145 --> 00:22:27.288
roommate or like many male inventors over

00:22:27.367 --> 00:22:28.689
time have just ripped off a female

00:22:28.709 --> 00:22:29.390
somewhere in their life.

00:22:30.049 --> 00:22:32.192
I don't know how much he made himself

00:22:32.412 --> 00:22:34.432
or but like he was on the ground

00:22:34.574 --> 00:22:35.114
floor.

00:22:36.535 --> 00:22:36.775
Again,

00:22:36.815 --> 00:22:39.457
I don't think Teal was necessarily doing a

00:22:39.537 --> 00:22:40.917
ton of coding.

00:22:40.998 --> 00:22:42.318
He and Musk with PayPal.

00:22:42.338 --> 00:22:43.279
Yeah.

00:22:44.061 --> 00:22:45.962
Musk is like in nerd circles,

00:22:46.042 --> 00:22:47.502
pretty well established to be bad,

00:22:47.643 --> 00:22:49.263
very specifically bad at coding.

00:22:49.304 --> 00:22:51.644
Like he's not actually a smart person.

00:22:52.105 --> 00:22:54.286
He could have like really lived on a

00:22:54.326 --> 00:22:54.766
mansion,

00:22:54.925 --> 00:22:56.886
lived in a mansion somewhere and coasted

00:22:56.987 --> 00:22:59.166
on like his Tony Stark level reputation.

00:22:59.907 --> 00:23:01.488
If I don't know,

00:23:01.548 --> 00:23:03.348
his daughter hadn't come out as trans

00:23:05.204 --> 00:23:07.386
seemed to have broke his mind a little

00:23:07.406 --> 00:23:07.567
bit.

00:23:07.626 --> 00:23:08.788
And like TL very,

00:23:09.689 --> 00:23:11.269
got super nervous after nine, eleven.

00:23:11.990 --> 00:23:12.250
Again,

00:23:12.310 --> 00:23:14.492
sort of the disconnect between like

00:23:14.532 --> 00:23:15.333
Silicon Valley,

00:23:16.875 --> 00:23:19.436
just like thinking of like people as NPCs

00:23:19.696 --> 00:23:21.898
and sort of being above and away from

00:23:21.959 --> 00:23:22.419
everything.

00:23:22.479 --> 00:23:24.119
Like billionaires, rich like,

00:23:24.901 --> 00:23:27.364
douchebag idiots who thought of themselves

00:23:27.403 --> 00:23:29.486
as disruptors really struggled with nine

00:23:29.506 --> 00:23:31.328
eleven because it was a situation where

00:23:31.348 --> 00:23:34.152
like a bunch of them did business and

00:23:34.192 --> 00:23:36.273
were regularly at the world trade center

00:23:36.795 --> 00:23:38.217
and so the idea that like they could

00:23:38.257 --> 00:23:39.698
have died and something like that

00:23:40.298 --> 00:23:43.119
was really disruptive for them and their

00:23:43.140 --> 00:23:45.661
psyches so again that fear that inadequacy

00:23:45.681 --> 00:23:47.821
that insecurity is there and then covid

00:23:47.842 --> 00:23:49.083
made that a lot worse right like there

00:23:49.222 --> 00:23:52.424
there was no ability to prevent there was

00:23:52.484 --> 00:23:54.065
again a lot of these people got vaccines

00:23:54.105 --> 00:23:55.506
before like doctors and nurses and

00:23:55.526 --> 00:23:57.646
teachers got vaccines so again

00:23:57.926 --> 00:24:02.489
billionaires um another thing that really

00:24:02.548 --> 00:24:04.049
scared them was like their wealth

00:24:04.760 --> 00:24:07.244
didn't prevent them from still needing

00:24:07.285 --> 00:24:07.705
people,

00:24:07.766 --> 00:24:09.087
still need to interact with people and

00:24:09.127 --> 00:24:11.791
like an airborne virus could really cost

00:24:11.811 --> 00:24:12.453
them their lives.

00:24:12.493 --> 00:24:13.214
That really scared them.

00:24:13.255 --> 00:24:13.695
And so again,

00:24:13.756 --> 00:24:16.078
these like dudes with daddy issues,

00:24:16.098 --> 00:24:17.161
these insecure men,

00:24:19.707 --> 00:24:21.167
though that value system,

00:24:21.307 --> 00:24:22.669
not just the insecurity,

00:24:22.729 --> 00:24:24.490
but also like the competition,

00:24:24.570 --> 00:24:25.771
the optimization,

00:24:26.251 --> 00:24:28.773
some of those things that these people are

00:24:28.834 --> 00:24:30.394
sick with those ideas because they grew up

00:24:30.414 --> 00:24:32.016
in America, they grew up under capitalism.

00:24:33.136 --> 00:24:34.377
They didn't come up with it.

00:24:35.499 --> 00:24:36.960
I hate to say they're victims as much

00:24:37.000 --> 00:24:37.560
as anyone else.

00:24:38.557 --> 00:24:41.480
Cause they're definitely abusers such as

00:24:41.601 --> 00:24:43.182
the unfortunate nuance of the world.

00:24:43.782 --> 00:24:45.443
But some of this stuff again was the

00:24:45.463 --> 00:24:46.846
water they were swimming into.

00:24:46.905 --> 00:24:49.087
I'm not saying they like charted it out

00:24:49.167 --> 00:24:50.368
as evil geniuses.

00:24:50.469 --> 00:24:53.491
I'm saying it's there cause it's their

00:24:53.531 --> 00:24:56.954
values and their values are unhelpful and

00:24:56.994 --> 00:24:57.474
unproductive.

00:24:57.494 --> 00:25:00.077
And again, look at any of their lives,

00:25:00.137 --> 00:25:00.337
right?

00:25:02.733 --> 00:25:05.555
musk has what thirteen kids by eleven

00:25:05.615 --> 00:25:08.435
women um nobody likes him he's super

00:25:08.536 --> 00:25:11.355
lonely his texts and dms are really sad

00:25:11.395 --> 00:25:13.037
he ruined his dick with like several

00:25:13.076 --> 00:25:14.737
surgeries so he's into like artificial

00:25:14.757 --> 00:25:17.657
insemination as like a kink like he's not

00:25:17.698 --> 00:25:20.419
like a well person he's abusing ketamine

00:25:20.459 --> 00:25:21.739
because like dealing with reality is

00:25:21.778 --> 00:25:24.700
really hard for him um bezos is on

00:25:24.740 --> 00:25:26.580
what wife number three or four

00:25:29.141 --> 00:25:30.721
continually shown up by his ex-wife,

00:25:30.741 --> 00:25:32.123
who's been one of the most generous

00:25:32.262 --> 00:25:34.765
donators to charity in all of human

00:25:34.845 --> 00:25:37.846
existence and has donated more than Bill

00:25:37.866 --> 00:25:40.867
Gates, Zuckerberg, and Musk,

00:25:41.449 --> 00:25:42.528
Bezos combined.

00:25:42.569 --> 00:25:43.970
Like, truly embarrassed.

00:25:44.029 --> 00:25:44.211
Like,

00:25:44.611 --> 00:25:47.031
the idea that I can say something that,

00:25:47.071 --> 00:25:50.034
like, dudes would be like, oh,

00:25:50.074 --> 00:25:53.957
this guy hates men and insecure men.

00:25:54.477 --> 00:25:55.557
Like, yeah, right.

00:25:55.617 --> 00:25:57.559
Because like Mackenzie Scott has donated

00:25:57.599 --> 00:25:59.181
so much more money than all of the

00:25:59.240 --> 00:26:02.104
other like billionaires who are disruptors

00:26:02.163 --> 00:26:04.246
and job creators like that.

00:26:04.286 --> 00:26:05.846
They're just sycophants and they ruin

00:26:05.866 --> 00:26:06.126
things.

00:26:08.108 --> 00:26:09.971
So again, these these

00:26:11.104 --> 00:26:12.265
It's not men are bad,

00:26:12.325 --> 00:26:14.306
it's these specific men are bad.

00:26:14.385 --> 00:26:16.007
And these specific men have created a

00:26:16.047 --> 00:26:18.468
world that fulfills their idea of

00:26:18.508 --> 00:26:20.328
masculinity because their values are

00:26:20.348 --> 00:26:21.750
embedded in the algorithm network.

00:26:22.290 --> 00:26:23.872
Being forced, right?

00:26:23.912 --> 00:26:24.991
That we didn't opt into,

00:26:25.172 --> 00:26:27.453
we didn't consent to.

00:26:27.493 --> 00:26:29.295
Not a surprise for a number of these

00:26:29.335 --> 00:26:30.115
men.

00:26:31.836 --> 00:26:33.396
Not a surprise for a number of these

00:26:33.457 --> 00:26:33.616
rich,

00:26:33.656 --> 00:26:35.878
powerful men not understanding consent.

00:26:36.721 --> 00:26:38.084
that these are things that we were not

00:26:38.925 --> 00:26:39.567
opting into,

00:26:39.586 --> 00:26:41.991
that we were not able to consent to

00:26:42.152 --> 00:26:44.477
use or not.

00:26:44.497 --> 00:26:45.219
Shocking.

00:26:49.012 --> 00:26:49.813
So again, I mean,

00:26:49.913 --> 00:26:54.294
the status and the ideas of competition

00:26:54.433 --> 00:26:56.855
and some of the capitalistic ideas and a

00:26:56.875 --> 00:26:58.996
lot of the insecurities also came through.

00:26:59.056 --> 00:26:59.276
Again,

00:26:59.296 --> 00:27:00.855
we're being fed these things and it is

00:27:00.895 --> 00:27:01.576
affecting us.

00:27:02.136 --> 00:27:03.817
I don't think there's a way around that.

00:27:04.116 --> 00:27:06.557
And we do have to look back.

00:27:08.258 --> 00:27:09.538
If this is like a telescope,

00:27:09.558 --> 00:27:11.338
we're looking through the other end of the

00:27:11.378 --> 00:27:13.539
telescope and seeing what it also tells us

00:27:13.559 --> 00:27:14.720
about the people who created it,

00:27:14.779 --> 00:27:17.101
which is like deeply insecure and fearful

00:27:17.141 --> 00:27:17.980
people as well.

00:27:20.101 --> 00:27:21.282
um but what happens then with the

00:27:21.363 --> 00:27:22.804
algorithm the algorithm that is embedded

00:27:22.824 --> 00:27:24.365
with these values the algorithm that was

00:27:24.846 --> 00:27:28.430
based and shaped by these values is it

00:27:28.490 --> 00:27:31.173
trains our systems one of the things about

00:27:31.753 --> 00:27:34.155
our brains is that repetition matters

00:27:34.316 --> 00:27:36.618
pavlov stock right think about bell

00:27:36.798 --> 00:27:38.941
ringing uh and then we get

00:27:39.682 --> 00:27:41.583
the meat powder and then when the bell

00:27:41.643 --> 00:27:43.663
rings we start salivating even without

00:27:43.765 --> 00:27:46.526
getting any meat powder right that call

00:27:46.546 --> 00:27:48.507
and response that reward system is very

00:27:48.547 --> 00:27:51.888
powerful in us um paul heyman who's who's

00:27:51.909 --> 00:27:54.431
a very famous figure in pro wrestling

00:27:54.951 --> 00:27:57.093
talks about name recognition and if you

00:27:57.792 --> 00:28:00.615
run a promo on friday that says uh

00:28:01.490 --> 00:28:03.772
know he uses some made-up name and like

00:28:03.813 --> 00:28:05.815
phil gluckman's the greatest wrestler

00:28:05.875 --> 00:28:07.696
nobody's ever heard of before wait till

00:28:07.717 --> 00:28:09.637
you see gluckman come out and then you

00:28:09.699 --> 00:28:11.480
run another promo next week and you say

00:28:11.859 --> 00:28:14.383
phil gluckman is debuting next week this

00:28:14.403 --> 00:28:17.105
is the most unheralded naturally gifted

00:28:17.144 --> 00:28:18.666
wrestler i've ever seen that nobody's ever

00:28:18.686 --> 00:28:20.448
heard of make sure you check out gluckman

00:28:20.868 --> 00:28:22.990
and then gluckman finally premieres what's

00:28:23.050 --> 00:28:25.112
understood in pro wrestling is that that

00:28:25.212 --> 00:28:27.314
segment on tv will do better

00:28:27.974 --> 00:28:29.954
because you've done the repetition thing

00:28:30.095 --> 00:28:31.316
over and over and over again,

00:28:31.375 --> 00:28:34.996
more so than just having Gluckman be on

00:28:35.016 --> 00:28:35.576
TV.

00:28:35.676 --> 00:28:37.497
And even if he's really actually good at

00:28:37.517 --> 00:28:38.217
what he does,

00:28:38.257 --> 00:28:41.137
that won't matter without that repetition

00:28:41.258 --> 00:28:41.978
beforehand.

00:28:42.077 --> 00:28:42.278
Right.

00:28:43.097 --> 00:28:45.919
It's why I think the modern day right

00:28:45.939 --> 00:28:48.598
wing just says things that aren't true,

00:28:48.659 --> 00:28:49.778
that are provably false,

00:28:49.818 --> 00:28:53.240
very easily falsifiable because they're

00:28:53.279 --> 00:28:54.819
going for repetition.

00:28:55.580 --> 00:28:56.941
And some of this stuff

00:28:58.935 --> 00:29:00.457
They used to get away with easier because

00:29:00.477 --> 00:29:02.018
it couldn't be fact checked in real time.

00:29:02.077 --> 00:29:02.979
Now it can be.

00:29:03.358 --> 00:29:04.759
And they're sort of learning that like for

00:29:04.799 --> 00:29:06.201
a subset of the population,

00:29:06.761 --> 00:29:08.202
they can still just get away with it

00:29:08.363 --> 00:29:09.983
purely on repetition because people won't

00:29:10.023 --> 00:29:10.444
check.

00:29:12.665 --> 00:29:14.708
Which is maddening for somebody like me

00:29:14.788 --> 00:29:17.250
who like checks lots of things.

00:29:17.670 --> 00:29:19.431
And before I put things out and before

00:29:19.451 --> 00:29:20.751
I put my name on things like double

00:29:20.811 --> 00:29:21.813
and triple check sometimes.

00:29:22.314 --> 00:29:23.734
Not this, this is podcasting,

00:29:24.095 --> 00:29:26.676
not a real scientific inquiry.

00:29:28.063 --> 00:29:29.303
The medium is accessible.

00:29:29.462 --> 00:29:32.044
Again, like a cog in the wheel.

00:29:32.104 --> 00:29:32.884
I'm not unaware.

00:29:32.983 --> 00:29:34.704
The meta analysis of like everything I'm

00:29:34.744 --> 00:29:35.964
saying can also be applied to this

00:29:36.005 --> 00:29:36.484
podcast.

00:29:36.525 --> 00:29:37.765
Like, yeah, for sure.

00:29:38.185 --> 00:29:39.766
If I was going to write a paper

00:29:39.786 --> 00:29:40.826
that was going to peer review,

00:29:41.125 --> 00:29:42.787
I would do a lot different job than

00:29:42.886 --> 00:29:44.467
I am putting it out.

00:29:44.666 --> 00:29:46.548
I do maintain that what I put out

00:29:46.587 --> 00:29:49.307
on a weekly basis is way more beneficial

00:29:49.347 --> 00:29:51.528
than something that Rogan or Peterson or

00:29:51.588 --> 00:29:51.989
whoever wrote.

00:29:52.930 --> 00:29:54.453
Ben Shapiro is doing.

00:29:55.395 --> 00:29:57.601
But again, part of it is like, yeah,

00:29:58.162 --> 00:30:00.346
the repetition isn't necessarily evil.

00:30:01.436 --> 00:30:03.057
The idea that our brains are wired for

00:30:03.077 --> 00:30:03.318
that,

00:30:03.398 --> 00:30:06.161
and this is a known phenomenon is not

00:30:07.162 --> 00:30:08.542
bad or wrong.

00:30:08.663 --> 00:30:10.003
A lot of what I got into with

00:30:10.023 --> 00:30:11.885
podcasting with was don't follow your

00:30:11.945 --> 00:30:12.405
numbers,

00:30:12.425 --> 00:30:14.587
make sure you're putting up consistent

00:30:14.627 --> 00:30:15.308
content.

00:30:15.769 --> 00:30:17.971
And over time that separates itself.

00:30:18.090 --> 00:30:19.271
And then whether you have any sort of

00:30:19.352 --> 00:30:22.454
skill or there's an audience for it will

00:30:22.494 --> 00:30:22.894
happen.

00:30:22.914 --> 00:30:24.977
But like most podcasts don't even hit ten

00:30:25.017 --> 00:30:25.597
episodes.

00:30:26.238 --> 00:30:27.779
because again it's one of those things

00:30:27.819 --> 00:30:29.442
where like to pop a number is really

00:30:29.481 --> 00:30:31.663
difficult unless you already are famous

00:30:32.325 --> 00:30:35.749
which again like sucks that any level of

00:30:35.788 --> 00:30:37.791
fame is like we're gonna have every single

00:30:37.832 --> 00:30:39.472
person who's ever been on a sitcom has

00:30:39.492 --> 00:30:43.778
their own podcast and like we're all we're

00:30:43.798 --> 00:30:45.760
all trapped by the machine um

00:30:47.173 --> 00:30:48.854
So it's not good.

00:30:50.134 --> 00:30:51.455
But the repetition matters and the

00:30:51.496 --> 00:30:53.938
repetition then shapes perception.

00:30:54.338 --> 00:30:55.920
I would argue it doesn't create

00:30:57.585 --> 00:30:59.645
That, I think the perception exists.

00:30:59.665 --> 00:31:01.247
I don't know.

00:31:01.386 --> 00:31:02.106
It's messy, right?

00:31:02.126 --> 00:31:02.886
Like there's nuance there.

00:31:02.906 --> 00:31:03.607
There's a back and forth.

00:31:03.627 --> 00:31:04.928
There's a feedback loop there,

00:31:05.568 --> 00:31:06.909
but certainly shapes perception.

00:31:06.949 --> 00:31:08.329
And so your brain is looking for certain

00:31:08.369 --> 00:31:08.849
patterns.

00:31:09.730 --> 00:31:10.830
The more you see them repeated,

00:31:10.871 --> 00:31:12.491
the more your brain recognizes them.

00:31:12.672 --> 00:31:15.093
And so then it's easy to, again,

00:31:15.192 --> 00:31:17.374
sort of demonize whatever marginalized

00:31:17.433 --> 00:31:18.755
group you're going to say is taking their

00:31:18.795 --> 00:31:20.255
money when it's obviously like the

00:31:20.295 --> 00:31:21.476
billionaires have always been taking the

00:31:21.496 --> 00:31:21.596
money.

00:31:22.840 --> 00:31:24.761
Um, so you,

00:31:25.001 --> 00:31:28.364
you are having a feedback loop in your

00:31:28.384 --> 00:31:30.204
brain and the algorithm is tracking that

00:31:30.224 --> 00:31:32.025
feedback loop and then feeding it back to

00:31:32.045 --> 00:31:32.185
you.

00:31:33.306 --> 00:31:33.526
Right.

00:31:33.945 --> 00:31:34.467
And so like,

00:31:34.507 --> 00:31:35.767
if you think of our feed instead of

00:31:35.826 --> 00:31:37.667
as like updates in real time,

00:31:37.688 --> 00:31:40.189
but it's like rehearsing for engagement,

00:31:41.029 --> 00:31:41.190
um,

00:31:41.329 --> 00:31:43.050
algorithm is mirroring back what your

00:31:43.090 --> 00:31:43.530
brain is,

00:31:43.790 --> 00:31:45.432
is trying to practice with repetition.

00:31:45.796 --> 00:31:47.576
And again, it's not intentional.

00:31:47.616 --> 00:31:49.117
It's not consensual.

00:31:49.238 --> 00:31:51.519
It's one of those things where when I

00:31:51.578 --> 00:31:52.420
say practice,

00:31:52.500 --> 00:31:54.641
I mean like I do mean rehearse.

00:31:54.661 --> 00:31:57.162
I mean, repetitive behavior,

00:31:57.241 --> 00:31:58.863
not necessarily like intentional thing

00:31:58.883 --> 00:31:59.643
that you're trying to do.

00:32:00.223 --> 00:32:01.423
Language is hard.

00:32:01.944 --> 00:32:04.445
Just did an episode last week about about

00:32:04.506 --> 00:32:04.705
that.

00:32:06.960 --> 00:32:08.340
And again, I mean,

00:32:08.421 --> 00:32:09.603
as a religious trauma therapist,

00:32:09.623 --> 00:32:11.144
this is really apparent when you look at

00:32:11.163 --> 00:32:12.705
something like repetition shapes

00:32:12.746 --> 00:32:13.306
perception.

00:32:14.386 --> 00:32:17.109
The way that most church liturgies exist,

00:32:17.130 --> 00:32:19.873
the worship service, the prayers,

00:32:19.913 --> 00:32:20.512
the chants,

00:32:20.553 --> 00:32:23.155
the songs that are just prayers and chants

00:32:23.195 --> 00:32:25.917
to music, that repetition really matters.

00:32:26.459 --> 00:32:27.920
That helps people, again,

00:32:27.940 --> 00:32:29.602
recognize patterns more easily.

00:32:29.622 --> 00:32:31.223
That makes them believe more.

00:32:31.804 --> 00:32:33.384
or hold that the pattern matters.

00:32:33.424 --> 00:32:33.664
Again,

00:32:33.704 --> 00:32:35.445
Phil Gluckman's debuting next week

00:32:35.486 --> 00:32:36.646
suddenly has meaning,

00:32:37.906 --> 00:32:39.788
even though it's totally made up, right?

00:32:40.368 --> 00:32:41.509
Religion's totally made up,

00:32:41.528 --> 00:32:42.990
but suddenly has meaning because of how

00:32:43.049 --> 00:32:44.830
it's repeated and where it's repeated.

00:32:46.511 --> 00:32:47.992
The technology is different.

00:32:48.012 --> 00:32:49.292
The psychology isn't.

00:32:49.353 --> 00:32:52.174
The methods of control are presented to

00:32:52.194 --> 00:32:54.215
people with some degree of certainty to

00:32:54.256 --> 00:32:55.356
complex questions,

00:32:56.416 --> 00:32:59.038
some degree of identity to a big...

00:32:59.699 --> 00:33:03.201
formless void of a world um clarifying

00:33:03.241 --> 00:33:04.663
in-group out-group dynamics who are your

00:33:04.742 --> 00:33:06.523
enemies and who are your friends giving

00:33:06.544 --> 00:33:08.045
you that sense of belonging you're here

00:33:08.065 --> 00:33:09.965
you're one of the good ones you're with

00:33:10.145 --> 00:33:12.428
us you're on the in-group and then the

00:33:12.468 --> 00:33:14.429
moral panics that exist for that out-group

00:33:14.469 --> 00:33:15.990
again like that's what organized religion

00:33:16.010 --> 00:33:17.270
has been doing that's what politics has

00:33:17.290 --> 00:33:18.432
been doing less successfully than

00:33:18.491 --> 00:33:20.354
organized religion although that does seem

00:33:20.374 --> 00:33:22.335
to be shifting a touch um

00:33:23.632 --> 00:33:24.173
And so again,

00:33:24.492 --> 00:33:26.755
the algorithm is really in touch with the

00:33:26.795 --> 00:33:27.836
narratives that are out there.

00:33:27.955 --> 00:33:30.778
And then it's just tracking you to feed

00:33:30.798 --> 00:33:32.601
you back which narratives you're already

00:33:32.800 --> 00:33:34.982
sort of believing, you're curious about,

00:33:35.022 --> 00:33:35.743
you're inquisitive about,

00:33:35.844 --> 00:33:37.285
or are already totally locked in.

00:33:37.325 --> 00:33:38.306
It's going to feed you more,

00:33:38.787 --> 00:33:39.227
which is again,

00:33:39.267 --> 00:33:40.468
how I think the internet has become a

00:33:40.508 --> 00:33:41.489
very siloed thing.

00:33:41.849 --> 00:33:43.310
And how like talking to other people about

00:33:43.351 --> 00:33:44.412
what's in their feed or what's in their

00:33:44.451 --> 00:33:46.173
algorithm is like really weird.

00:33:49.096 --> 00:33:51.538
like for some people i'm very jealous i

00:33:51.577 --> 00:33:54.220
mean like and and depending on how

00:33:54.279 --> 00:33:56.402
neurodivergent you may or may not be like

00:33:56.442 --> 00:33:57.643
your algorithm might look different my

00:33:57.663 --> 00:33:59.064
youtube algorithm is a lot different than

00:33:59.084 --> 00:34:03.307
my instagram algorithm um they both get

00:34:03.406 --> 00:34:06.329
like thrown off somewhat easily my youtube

00:34:06.410 --> 00:34:08.271
algorithm used to be pristine and then my

00:34:08.311 --> 00:34:10.672
children got a hold of it um but

00:34:10.713 --> 00:34:12.353
it's one of those things where again like

00:34:13.695 --> 00:34:15.398
i use different mediums for different

00:34:15.478 --> 00:34:17.780
things and i'm very aware of that and

00:34:17.800 --> 00:34:20.083
then it's interesting how the algorithm

00:34:20.143 --> 00:34:22.126
learns that and again feeds that back to

00:34:22.146 --> 00:34:24.829
you and so youtube is for board games

00:34:24.909 --> 00:34:27.793
and sports in a way where like instagram

00:34:27.833 --> 00:34:31.157
is for dogs and lizards and disc golf

00:34:32.219 --> 00:34:32.380
um

00:34:34.335 --> 00:34:34.655
And again,

00:34:35.275 --> 00:34:36.297
I don't think that's intentional.

00:34:36.376 --> 00:34:38.338
I don't think that's coded into those

00:34:38.398 --> 00:34:38.940
algorithms.

00:34:38.960 --> 00:34:40.541
That's me using those things differently.

00:34:40.981 --> 00:34:41.262
And again,

00:34:41.282 --> 00:34:42.782
these algorithms are reflections of what

00:34:42.804 --> 00:34:43.523
we're already doing.

00:34:43.804 --> 00:34:46.606
And so those things show up that way.

00:34:46.786 --> 00:34:48.309
My favorite is when my algorithm gets

00:34:48.349 --> 00:34:50.510
confused about who I am and it can't

00:34:50.530 --> 00:34:52.974
tell that I'm like a cis white dude.

00:34:53.014 --> 00:34:54.856
So I start getting things in other

00:34:54.916 --> 00:34:55.516
languages.

00:34:55.576 --> 00:34:56.197
Then I'm like, ha ha,

00:34:56.436 --> 00:34:57.597
I fooled the algorithm.

00:34:59.139 --> 00:35:00.820
And I don't know that that's a normal

00:35:00.880 --> 00:35:01.382
reaction.

00:35:01.702 --> 00:35:04.143
I do listen to a lot of music

00:35:04.204 --> 00:35:05.344
that is not in English.

00:35:05.525 --> 00:35:07.266
It's the main driver of that confusion

00:35:07.347 --> 00:35:07.967
more than anything.

00:35:08.588 --> 00:35:11.570
I also follow a bunch of athletes who

00:35:11.590 --> 00:35:13.952
are not from America.

00:35:14.293 --> 00:35:15.474
I watch a lot of disc golf in

00:35:15.494 --> 00:35:16.014
other countries.

00:35:16.034 --> 00:35:18.016
There's just some beautiful courses in

00:35:18.996 --> 00:35:20.117
other countries that you wouldn't

00:35:20.157 --> 00:35:21.079
necessarily be like,

00:35:21.219 --> 00:35:22.880
I should go to Estonia because they've got

00:35:22.940 --> 00:35:23.820
great disc golf.

00:35:23.860 --> 00:35:24.222
But like,

00:35:25.177 --> 00:35:26.938
My feed has me convinced I should probably

00:35:26.978 --> 00:35:28.599
go to Estonia and go disc golfing.

00:35:32.820 --> 00:35:33.300
Where are we?

00:35:33.360 --> 00:35:35.963
Disc golf and board games are really doing

00:35:35.983 --> 00:35:37.443
a lot for my mental health this summer,

00:35:37.664 --> 00:35:38.123
I will say.

00:35:41.985 --> 00:35:42.206
Now,

00:35:42.425 --> 00:35:45.186
when the algorithms start to shape our

00:35:45.226 --> 00:35:45.748
narratives,

00:35:48.739 --> 00:35:50.521
young people have an attention span issue.

00:35:51.380 --> 00:35:54.202
I've joked for a long time in my

00:35:54.262 --> 00:35:58.724
career, um, seventeen years,

00:35:59.083 --> 00:36:01.945
because I've made this joke probably the

00:36:01.985 --> 00:36:03.306
first year I was in my career,

00:36:03.885 --> 00:36:05.166
because I got diagnosed super late,

00:36:05.226 --> 00:36:07.208
but I went in to get my diagnosis

00:36:07.228 --> 00:36:09.389
for ADHD by telling the psychologist who

00:36:09.409 --> 00:36:11.010
was going to do my assessment that I

00:36:11.090 --> 00:36:11.530
had ADHD.

00:36:11.690 --> 00:36:13.471
I was just there to do the paperwork.

00:36:15.438 --> 00:36:16.338
But I made the joke for a lot

00:36:16.358 --> 00:36:17.719
of years that I grew up on thirty

00:36:17.739 --> 00:36:18.498
minute cartoons.

00:36:18.539 --> 00:36:20.860
That's about the extent of my attention

00:36:20.900 --> 00:36:21.219
span.

00:36:21.619 --> 00:36:23.340
Now that's a gross oversimplification and

00:36:23.440 --> 00:36:24.701
also not true.

00:36:26.001 --> 00:36:27.422
I don't know that my attention span is

00:36:27.481 --> 00:36:29.003
thirty minutes, that's for sure.

00:36:29.802 --> 00:36:31.284
But the idea that, yes,

00:36:31.324 --> 00:36:34.184
the medium of television that I consumed

00:36:34.224 --> 00:36:35.744
most often as a child was cartoons,

00:36:35.764 --> 00:36:37.226
and those cartoons are twenty-two minute

00:36:37.286 --> 00:36:39.385
episodes with a couple of commercial

00:36:39.405 --> 00:36:39.927
breaks, right?

00:36:40.367 --> 00:36:43.407
So the idea that that

00:36:44.311 --> 00:36:46.474
isn't my natural resting attention span,

00:36:46.494 --> 00:36:48.275
but that attention span has been fed to

00:36:48.315 --> 00:36:48.496
me.

00:36:48.536 --> 00:36:51.938
That's the medium I consumed most often in

00:36:51.978 --> 00:36:53.639
a way where like I almost always have

00:36:53.659 --> 00:36:54.340
the radio on.

00:36:54.661 --> 00:36:56.302
There's always noise going on.

00:36:56.382 --> 00:36:58.304
Cause I'd like a level of stimulation,

00:36:59.184 --> 00:37:00.485
but the attention span and the

00:37:00.545 --> 00:37:01.186
interaction,

00:37:01.266 --> 00:37:03.969
the engagement as it were with the radio

00:37:04.009 --> 00:37:06.690
was lower than with the television slower

00:37:06.710 --> 00:37:07.711
than it is with the phone.

00:37:08.251 --> 00:37:08.532
So, again,

00:37:08.552 --> 00:37:12.476
some of this stuff is like the narrative

00:37:12.637 --> 00:37:13.978
has existed for a long time.

00:37:14.018 --> 00:37:15.599
Again, going back to Marshall McLuhan,

00:37:15.639 --> 00:37:16.762
going back to Guy Debord,

00:37:16.802 --> 00:37:17.621
going back to some of these.

00:37:17.641 --> 00:37:20.525
I don't think McLuhan was French.

00:37:21.126 --> 00:37:22.887
McLuhan's not a French name, is it?

00:37:23.168 --> 00:37:23.528
I don't know.

00:37:23.929 --> 00:37:24.670
I'm bad at that game.

00:37:25.590 --> 00:37:27.373
Guy Debord, definitely French.

00:37:27.853 --> 00:37:28.494
Yeah.

00:37:29.559 --> 00:37:33.864
Even Foucault and talking about discipline

00:37:33.884 --> 00:37:36.505
and punishment and the panopticon and what

00:37:37.067 --> 00:37:40.769
looks different when we're observed versus

00:37:40.809 --> 00:37:42.572
when we know we are not being observed

00:37:42.672 --> 00:37:45.193
and the prison system as a society.

00:37:47.335 --> 00:37:47.697
Yeah,

00:37:48.097 --> 00:37:49.938
all these people were already interested

00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:51.320
in what's being tracked,

00:37:51.340 --> 00:37:52.221
what's being watched.

00:37:53.331 --> 00:37:55.675
we're you know now we talk about like

00:37:55.715 --> 00:37:57.338
our tv watches us while we're on our

00:37:57.358 --> 00:38:00.063
phones like yeah that's fucking weird

00:38:01.166 --> 00:38:02.969
there's not really anything natural about

00:38:03.028 --> 00:38:04.711
that it's incredibly dystopian

00:38:06.650 --> 00:38:08.791
And so there's like attention span crisis,

00:38:08.891 --> 00:38:11.514
whatever language screens are killing our

00:38:11.574 --> 00:38:12.195
teens.

00:38:13.976 --> 00:38:14.978
There's again,

00:38:15.038 --> 00:38:17.039
like it's not the screen existing,

00:38:17.099 --> 00:38:18.179
it's the symptom of all these other

00:38:18.199 --> 00:38:18.481
things.

00:38:18.541 --> 00:38:20.442
It's that these algorithms were built with

00:38:20.461 --> 00:38:22.623
these value systems that are bad for us,

00:38:23.405 --> 00:38:24.865
And those value systems are also like

00:38:25.027 --> 00:38:26.807
ruining everything else,

00:38:26.867 --> 00:38:28.670
like our access to third spaces,

00:38:28.690 --> 00:38:30.550
our access to freedom of movement,

00:38:31.032 --> 00:38:34.414
our ability to have rest and relaxation,

00:38:34.715 --> 00:38:38.739
and certainly the crushing of our natural

00:38:38.798 --> 00:38:41.760
resources through exploitative practices.

00:38:43.682 --> 00:38:44.184
Yikes.

00:38:46.900 --> 00:38:48.561
so it's not so much a new attention

00:38:48.581 --> 00:38:50.661
span problem it's a monetization issue

00:38:51.041 --> 00:38:53.242
that is created by capitalism it's

00:38:53.302 --> 00:38:55.103
unfortunate that these horrific

00:38:55.244 --> 00:38:59.865
capitalists are also owning and dictating

00:39:00.085 --> 00:39:03.208
the algorithm to us um you know i

00:39:03.228 --> 00:39:04.909
think the simple version is like outrage

00:39:04.929 --> 00:39:07.690
gets amplified because outrage pays um

00:39:07.750 --> 00:39:10.791
outrage drives engagement engagement again

00:39:10.831 --> 00:39:12.211
another pro wrestling example pro

00:39:12.231 --> 00:39:14.393
wrestling is a really fine simple

00:39:14.472 --> 00:39:15.934
distillation of capitalism

00:39:17.329 --> 00:39:19.010
is why part of the reason I love

00:39:19.030 --> 00:39:19.510
pro wrestling,

00:39:19.530 --> 00:39:20.409
but I also go back to it so

00:39:20.469 --> 00:39:21.070
often because it's like,

00:39:21.650 --> 00:39:25.492
it's a very basic art form for how

00:39:25.512 --> 00:39:26.711
do I get you to spend,

00:39:27.132 --> 00:39:29.193
how do I convince you to give me

00:39:29.233 --> 00:39:30.534
those five dollars in your pocket?

00:39:33.702 --> 00:39:34.882
And so, yeah,

00:39:35.063 --> 00:39:37.403
and like also just cerebral ownership,

00:39:37.483 --> 00:39:37.684
right?

00:39:37.903 --> 00:39:39.184
And the people who are doing the actual

00:39:39.224 --> 00:39:39.483
work,

00:39:39.523 --> 00:39:41.364
the wrestlers do not get those five

00:39:41.405 --> 00:39:41.744
dollars.

00:39:43.144 --> 00:39:44.664
They get a tidy fraction of it.

00:39:44.846 --> 00:39:46.306
That's the wrestling business.

00:39:46.326 --> 00:39:47.186
It's super carny.

00:39:47.206 --> 00:39:50.407
There's a good reference for capitalism in

00:39:50.447 --> 00:39:51.746
pro wrestling pretty much all the time.

00:39:52.427 --> 00:39:53.126
But Eric Bischoff,

00:39:53.146 --> 00:39:55.188
the guy who ran WCW into the ground,

00:39:56.920 --> 00:39:58.021
That's an oversimplification.

00:39:58.481 --> 00:39:59.101
If you know,

00:39:59.523 --> 00:40:01.003
that's a funny thing I just said, though.

00:40:02.485 --> 00:40:03.726
His book that he wrote,

00:40:03.766 --> 00:40:04.847
his biography back in the day,

00:40:04.887 --> 00:40:06.730
is called Controversy Creates Cash.

00:40:06.829 --> 00:40:08.552
And again, very carny,

00:40:08.592 --> 00:40:09.773
very pro-wrestling coded,

00:40:09.813 --> 00:40:12.476
but true for the modern internet and for

00:40:12.576 --> 00:40:13.536
algorithms, too.

00:40:13.657 --> 00:40:17.621
The idea that the outrage machine sort of

00:40:17.661 --> 00:40:18.201
drives it.

00:40:19.503 --> 00:40:19.782
I think...

00:40:20.043 --> 00:40:21.244
It's more nuanced than that.

00:40:21.264 --> 00:40:22.344
I do really think it is about

00:40:22.423 --> 00:40:23.184
monetization.

00:40:23.204 --> 00:40:24.905
Your favorite YouTuber gets worse when

00:40:24.925 --> 00:40:26.565
they get big and start having to worry

00:40:26.585 --> 00:40:28.286
about views and ads.

00:40:29.748 --> 00:40:30.927
Hi, it's me,

00:40:30.967 --> 00:40:32.128
your friendly neighborhood therapist.

00:40:32.188 --> 00:40:33.690
Doesn't care about that shit because

00:40:33.889 --> 00:40:36.271
actually doing work with real people is

00:40:36.291 --> 00:40:37.672
what pays my bills and is what I'm

00:40:38.152 --> 00:40:39.472
genuinely passionate about.

00:40:40.407 --> 00:40:41.788
I suppose if somebody were to back up

00:40:42.208 --> 00:40:44.048
a dump truck full of money and drop

00:40:44.088 --> 00:40:44.949
it on my front lawn,

00:40:45.130 --> 00:40:48.271
I could be swayed to do this more

00:40:48.311 --> 00:40:49.873
seriously and professionally,

00:40:49.913 --> 00:40:53.235
but I'm just not passionate about that.

00:40:53.295 --> 00:40:56.056
I get a lot from the people aspect

00:40:56.177 --> 00:40:58.778
of this, not talking into a camera,

00:40:59.759 --> 00:41:00.760
which is what's happening right now.

00:41:02.380 --> 00:41:04.862
Thanks for watching me so I'm not just

00:41:04.961 --> 00:41:06.342
screaming into the void.

00:41:08.143 --> 00:41:08.324
So,

00:41:09.443 --> 00:41:11.583
All that, I said, we would wrap up.

00:41:11.603 --> 00:41:13.184
I've got a hair in my mustache, maybe.

00:41:14.664 --> 00:41:15.824
I said, we'd wrap up on like,

00:41:15.903 --> 00:41:17.244
and what do we do about it, right?

00:41:17.664 --> 00:41:21.164
You are what you eat, algorithm addition.

00:41:21.204 --> 00:41:22.925
I mentioned earlier how I handle this,

00:41:22.985 --> 00:41:23.184
right?

00:41:23.686 --> 00:41:25.326
The answer's already there and I'm not

00:41:25.385 --> 00:41:26.726
perfect at it by any stretch of the

00:41:26.746 --> 00:41:27.365
imagination.

00:41:27.806 --> 00:41:29.065
And it's not something that I necessarily

00:41:29.146 --> 00:41:30.606
set out to do intentionally.

00:41:30.666 --> 00:41:33.306
It is a thing that I think my

00:41:33.347 --> 00:41:35.268
brain and my awareness of systems sort of

00:41:35.327 --> 00:41:36.487
picked up on early on

00:41:38.271 --> 00:41:40.012
The algorithms were already doing their

00:41:40.052 --> 00:41:41.972
work on us as we became aware of

00:41:42.012 --> 00:41:42.572
the algorithms.

00:41:42.592 --> 00:41:43.833
Some of the reporting came out on how

00:41:43.853 --> 00:41:45.733
they were being written and coded and

00:41:45.753 --> 00:41:46.333
adjusted.

00:41:46.755 --> 00:41:46.974
And again,

00:41:47.054 --> 00:41:49.396
I think Musk buying Twitter just unmasked

00:41:49.436 --> 00:41:51.356
a lot of that.

00:41:51.396 --> 00:41:52.456
But some of this stuff is stuff that

00:41:52.496 --> 00:41:53.538
researchers have been tracking for a

00:41:53.577 --> 00:41:53.818
while.

00:41:54.677 --> 00:41:56.099
The internet's been around long enough for

00:41:56.139 --> 00:41:57.818
us to have some longitudinal data on some

00:41:57.838 --> 00:41:58.300
of these things.

00:41:58.900 --> 00:42:01.320
Thinking about nutritional intake,

00:42:01.360 --> 00:42:02.641
like you are what you eat,

00:42:02.681 --> 00:42:04.481
like curating your diet,

00:42:04.621 --> 00:42:05.882
what makes you feel good, what doesn't.

00:42:07.307 --> 00:42:11.110
Um, from content to hours, to, uh,

00:42:11.909 --> 00:42:14.771
hours being like usage hours, um,

00:42:14.831 --> 00:42:17.253
to hours being throughout the day when and

00:42:17.293 --> 00:42:17.932
where, like,

00:42:17.952 --> 00:42:18.934
if the first thing you do is grab

00:42:18.954 --> 00:42:21.315
your phone and start scrolling versus if

00:42:21.335 --> 00:42:23.014
you fall asleep while you're scrolling

00:42:23.074 --> 00:42:25.456
versus if you curate that somewhere else

00:42:25.496 --> 00:42:27.317
to be a much more intentional thing.

00:42:28.217 --> 00:42:28.458
Um.

00:42:30.030 --> 00:42:32.032
Being aware of the outrage machine,

00:42:32.072 --> 00:42:33.952
what they're going for is content.

00:42:33.992 --> 00:42:37.554
So when you angrily caps lock,

00:42:38.215 --> 00:42:39.235
leave comments,

00:42:40.956 --> 00:42:42.157
you're going to get more of that stuff.

00:42:42.197 --> 00:42:43.936
And if that thing made you so mad

00:42:44.016 --> 00:42:45.858
to comment and then your algorithm keeps

00:42:45.918 --> 00:42:47.039
sending you that stuff because you're

00:42:47.079 --> 00:42:47.539
engaging,

00:42:47.559 --> 00:42:48.739
that's not going to be good for your

00:42:48.780 --> 00:42:49.659
mental wellness overall.

00:42:49.760 --> 00:42:51.101
It's just going to keep you mad.

00:42:53.288 --> 00:42:54.009
So some of that stuff,

00:42:54.108 --> 00:42:55.728
getting information from other sources,

00:42:55.809 --> 00:42:56.610
read books,

00:42:56.650 --> 00:42:58.291
go to your local bookstore and find the

00:42:58.311 --> 00:42:59.710
new books and see what's there.

00:43:00.811 --> 00:43:02.972
I think again, like having conversations,

00:43:03.072 --> 00:43:04.432
one of the weird things about the internet

00:43:04.452 --> 00:43:05.653
that's nice for some people,

00:43:05.753 --> 00:43:07.753
somebody who grew up in like AOL Instant

00:43:07.793 --> 00:43:08.215
Messenger,

00:43:09.876 --> 00:43:12.137
and who likes texting versus talking on

00:43:12.177 --> 00:43:12.699
the phone,

00:43:12.778 --> 00:43:14.420
there are parts of my brain that really

00:43:14.501 --> 00:43:16.003
like asynchronous conversation.

00:43:16.103 --> 00:43:17.304
I like being able to think about how

00:43:17.324 --> 00:43:17.905
I'm gonna respond.

00:43:17.945 --> 00:43:19.407
I like being able to write out my

00:43:19.447 --> 00:43:21.128
response and see it before somebody else

00:43:21.148 --> 00:43:22.409
is gonna have an opportunity to react to

00:43:22.449 --> 00:43:22.530
it.

00:43:23.311 --> 00:43:24.353
And I get a lot,

00:43:25.427 --> 00:43:27.248
from real life interaction with another

00:43:27.307 --> 00:43:30.309
human where their eyes are going um what

00:43:30.331 --> 00:43:31.851
their body language is telling me while

00:43:31.871 --> 00:43:34.934
we're communicating um i i can feed a

00:43:34.994 --> 00:43:36.855
lot on people's energy in a different way

00:43:37.355 --> 00:43:39.896
in person than online and so again there

00:43:39.916 --> 00:43:41.577
are times where the asynchronous part

00:43:41.657 --> 00:43:43.400
works really well i think and there are

00:43:43.420 --> 00:43:44.820
times where it's like yeah no we're just

00:43:44.840 --> 00:43:46.181
like mammals and so we want to see

00:43:46.202 --> 00:43:47.563
what the other mammals around us are doing

00:43:47.603 --> 00:43:50.864
that community aspect that in real life

00:43:50.905 --> 00:43:53.547
face-to-face interaction does have meaning

00:43:54.387 --> 00:43:54.507
um

00:43:55.307 --> 00:43:57.068
and and certainly helps us and again some

00:43:57.108 --> 00:43:59.971
of the shitty ideas that get I think

00:44:00.331 --> 00:44:02.572
propagandized online and turned into like

00:44:02.672 --> 00:44:05.114
normal things fall really flat on their

00:44:05.153 --> 00:44:08.996
face in real life like I don't know

00:44:09.036 --> 00:44:10.958
I can't I can't imagine somebody like Ben

00:44:10.978 --> 00:44:13.760
Shapiro or Nick Fuentes has like a ton

00:44:13.800 --> 00:44:16.721
of real life friends that they like talk

00:44:16.760 --> 00:44:19.922
to the way they do their shows um

00:44:19.963 --> 00:44:21.985
this this me is how I talk in

00:44:22.025 --> 00:44:22.485
real life

00:44:24.264 --> 00:44:25.505
Some of my clients are like, yeah, yeah,

00:44:25.525 --> 00:44:26.405
yeah, Jeremy, capitalism.

00:44:26.545 --> 00:44:27.385
I know, I've heard you.

00:44:27.425 --> 00:44:28.905
I've heard you get on that soapbox before.

00:44:30.086 --> 00:44:32.847
That's just how I am.

00:44:32.867 --> 00:44:35.730
So, and again, like, yes,

00:44:35.809 --> 00:44:37.489
I want people building community locally.

00:44:37.530 --> 00:44:38.490
I want people organizing.

00:44:38.510 --> 00:44:39.650
I want people doing that,

00:44:39.692 --> 00:44:41.753
like builds a better world than this

00:44:41.853 --> 00:44:43.853
algorithm driven slop we're being given.

00:44:44.994 --> 00:44:46.954
The gruel we get from our dystopian tech

00:44:47.074 --> 00:44:48.735
overlords, right?

00:44:51.126 --> 00:44:54.009
And it's not perfect discipline.

00:44:54.048 --> 00:44:55.451
It's not like willpower.

00:44:55.610 --> 00:44:59.893
It's having parameters in place and then

00:44:59.954 --> 00:45:03.476
having other sources for getting our

00:45:03.556 --> 00:45:04.777
intellectual stimulation.

00:45:04.838 --> 00:45:07.099
Like one of the things the internet truly

00:45:07.721 --> 00:45:10.443
misses for us is our bodies, right?

00:45:10.483 --> 00:45:12.083
We might get intellectual stimulation,

00:45:12.664 --> 00:45:13.626
maybe, right?

00:45:13.806 --> 00:45:14.646
If we're careful, right?

00:45:15.788 --> 00:45:17.088
with curating that we might just be

00:45:17.108 --> 00:45:19.550
getting like slop and outrage and again i

00:45:19.570 --> 00:45:20.769
mean i think a lot of what people

00:45:20.809 --> 00:45:22.771
see on the internet is like what used

00:45:22.791 --> 00:45:25.012
to be the tabloids at your supermarket and

00:45:25.032 --> 00:45:26.773
those always sold incredibly well right

00:45:26.873 --> 00:45:28.434
like there were so many of them because

00:45:28.454 --> 00:45:31.916
people bought them um i do think people

00:45:31.956 --> 00:45:34.677
are not watching long form video essays by

00:45:34.777 --> 00:45:36.697
high level scholars generally i think it's

00:45:36.717 --> 00:45:38.139
the outrage machine i think it's

00:45:39.018 --> 00:45:41.181
your shitty friend down the block who has

00:45:41.201 --> 00:45:44.063
a sports YouTube channel and somehow that

00:45:44.103 --> 00:45:44.682
popped off.

00:45:44.822 --> 00:45:48.186
I don't think most people are using the

00:45:48.206 --> 00:45:49.927
internet to get intellectual stimulation

00:45:49.947 --> 00:45:52.068
and being kind by suggesting that's the

00:45:52.128 --> 00:45:52.389
norm.

00:45:53.467 --> 00:45:55.389
um but it is missing any sort of

00:45:55.429 --> 00:45:56.849
physical stimulation right like we're not

00:45:57.190 --> 00:46:00.313
moving and people have again this is such

00:46:00.333 --> 00:46:02.755
a modern world this is such a modern

00:46:02.815 --> 00:46:04.416
problem that like we don't move enough

00:46:04.456 --> 00:46:05.836
that we like need to go someplace to

00:46:05.896 --> 00:46:07.858
move and then we've also monetized that

00:46:07.898 --> 00:46:08.858
like going to the gym you got to

00:46:08.898 --> 00:46:10.400
pay for your membership just to like use

00:46:10.420 --> 00:46:11.541
your body the way it was designed to

00:46:11.561 --> 00:46:13.501
be used because there's no free space or

00:46:13.521 --> 00:46:15.943
whatever um so again like the idea that

00:46:15.963 --> 00:46:17.324
we like walk while we're listening to our

00:46:17.364 --> 00:46:19.286
podcast or we get on the stationary bike

00:46:19.326 --> 00:46:20.726
while we're watching our shows like

00:46:22.773 --> 00:46:25.876
sure but but that's not that's a solution

00:46:25.976 --> 00:46:30.378
to that's using the thing that created the

00:46:30.398 --> 00:46:32.440
problem as the solution again it's a nice

00:46:32.481 --> 00:46:33.981
little tight loop that capitalism has

00:46:34.021 --> 00:46:38.146
built but like that's not what we need

00:46:40.208 --> 00:46:42.208
we need friends and barbecues and game

00:46:42.248 --> 00:46:46.253
nights and community gatherings and yeah

00:46:46.273 --> 00:46:47.554
oh

00:46:49.150 --> 00:46:54.715
The intentionality behind setting some

00:46:54.735 --> 00:46:56.398
parameters I think is accessible.

00:46:56.478 --> 00:46:57.960
I think it's the consistency to do that

00:46:58.019 --> 00:46:59.961
regularly and do that well is where it

00:46:59.981 --> 00:47:00.442
gets difficult.

00:47:01.242 --> 00:47:03.985
But the algorithm isn't all powerful and

00:47:04.025 --> 00:47:05.226
it's certainly not all knowing.

00:47:05.268 --> 00:47:06.789
It has a lot of data certainly that

00:47:06.809 --> 00:47:09.351
it's trained on and it is actively

00:47:09.371 --> 00:47:10.552
capturing data from you.

00:47:11.657 --> 00:47:14.186
So protect your online privacy as best you

00:47:14.226 --> 00:47:14.447
can.

00:47:14.847 --> 00:47:16.012
It's a losing battle,

00:47:16.092 --> 00:47:17.615
but doing something is better than doing

00:47:17.677 --> 00:47:17.978
nothing.

00:47:20.378 --> 00:47:23.780
the algorithm is not necessarily making

00:47:23.800 --> 00:47:26.021
you into something there are some biases

00:47:26.041 --> 00:47:28.143
that exist in algorithms that research has

00:47:28.163 --> 00:47:30.043
started to show but ultimately what it is

00:47:30.083 --> 00:47:32.224
doing is it is turning you into the

00:47:32.264 --> 00:47:35.907
product the consumer is also the commodity

00:47:35.967 --> 00:47:37.527
and so the question isn't what is your

00:47:37.608 --> 00:47:40.469
algorithm training you into the question

00:47:40.510 --> 00:47:42.431
is what is the algorithm learning is

00:47:42.490 --> 00:47:43.711
easiest to monetize from you

00:47:44.512 --> 00:47:44.811
Um,

00:47:44.851 --> 00:47:46.773
what will make you sit through more ads?

00:47:46.813 --> 00:47:48.235
What will make you click on something and

00:47:48.255 --> 00:47:50.376
buy it is, is what it is.

00:47:50.416 --> 00:47:54.360
And so again, like TikTok shopping,

00:47:54.400 --> 00:47:56.001
YouTube short shopping is somebody who

00:47:56.021 --> 00:47:57.902
puts the podcast on YouTube and has a

00:47:57.922 --> 00:47:59.164
YouTube channel where I talk about other

00:47:59.204 --> 00:47:59.523
stuff.

00:48:00.143 --> 00:48:00.244
Um,

00:48:01.806 --> 00:48:03.706
YouTube shopping is like really pushed on

00:48:03.786 --> 00:48:04.967
us as creators.

00:48:05.007 --> 00:48:06.068
I don't like thinking myself as a creator,

00:48:06.088 --> 00:48:06.769
but I am right.

00:48:06.789 --> 00:48:08.010
Could put up multiple things a week,

00:48:08.050 --> 00:48:08.351
I guess.

00:48:09.050 --> 00:48:09.110
Um,

00:48:10.048 --> 00:48:11.849
That's like what they want.

00:48:11.951 --> 00:48:12.170
Again,

00:48:12.210 --> 00:48:13.931
it's like the commodification of this.

00:48:14.012 --> 00:48:15.353
If we're getting eyeballs on this,

00:48:15.393 --> 00:48:16.773
how do we make money off of it?

00:48:17.434 --> 00:48:18.094
So ultimately,

00:48:18.516 --> 00:48:21.918
it's not that complicated at the end of

00:48:21.978 --> 00:48:23.940
it all to say it just simply wants

00:48:23.960 --> 00:48:25.360
to be able to monetize you.

00:48:25.561 --> 00:48:26.661
That's capitalism.

00:48:28.443 --> 00:48:32.067
If you're not choosing what to eat,

00:48:32.126 --> 00:48:33.847
if you're not choosing what you're feeding

00:48:34.027 --> 00:48:34.889
yourself with,

00:48:35.588 --> 00:48:37.831
then you are being fed by somebody else's

00:48:37.891 --> 00:48:38.492
business model.

00:48:41.164 --> 00:48:42.565
And like, you know, I don't know.

00:48:42.605 --> 00:48:44.646
Modern society has taught us people really

00:48:44.666 --> 00:48:45.726
like licking those boots.

00:48:46.067 --> 00:48:48.407
The billionaire boot is some people's

00:48:48.487 --> 00:48:53.751
acquired taste.

00:48:53.791 --> 00:48:55.851
But hopefully that feels bad to say out

00:48:55.911 --> 00:48:56.291
loud.

00:48:59.474 --> 00:49:01.454
Hopefully people realize that and don't

00:49:01.474 --> 00:49:03.815
like it.

00:49:03.835 --> 00:49:04.396
That would be cool.

00:49:07.389 --> 00:49:09.650
start sending my podcasts to people to

00:49:09.710 --> 00:49:15.373
ruin their algorithms that'll be fun he

00:49:15.432 --> 00:49:18.014
said as a manipulation tactic to get his

00:49:18.054 --> 00:49:21.336
viewership up no I truly don't care I

00:49:21.356 --> 00:49:22.918
need like three of you to download every

00:49:22.938 --> 00:49:24.559
episode of the podcast if I actually cared

00:49:24.579 --> 00:49:26.199
about my viewership going up that pops a

00:49:26.219 --> 00:49:27.900
nice big number because I have a lot

00:49:27.940 --> 00:49:30.382
of episodes consistency

00:49:32.454 --> 00:49:34.315
Nobody wrote a book that says consistency

00:49:34.376 --> 00:49:35.436
creates cash, right?

00:49:35.657 --> 00:49:36.737
Controversy creates cash.

00:49:38.840 --> 00:49:41.101
But I'm doing the consistent thing because

00:49:41.161 --> 00:49:42.443
I can get a little weird about numbers.

00:49:43.523 --> 00:49:44.483
My neurodivergent brain.

00:49:46.184 --> 00:49:46.686
Let's see.

00:49:46.806 --> 00:49:47.847
Updates about the podcast.

00:49:48.266 --> 00:49:49.668
For those of you who are tuning in,

00:49:49.728 --> 00:49:50.548
I've been at fifty.

00:49:50.748 --> 00:49:51.750
Thanks for hanging out.

00:49:53.550 --> 00:49:55.632
I have gone from talking about having

00:49:55.693 --> 00:49:58.295
guests to scheduling guests.

00:49:58.434 --> 00:49:59.295
Hooray!

00:50:01.016 --> 00:50:01.556
It's summer.

00:50:01.637 --> 00:50:02.697
It's a weird time to schedule.

00:50:02.817 --> 00:50:03.637
And admittedly,

00:50:03.677 --> 00:50:04.759
I took most of the spring off for

00:50:04.818 --> 00:50:05.699
even reaching out to people.

00:50:05.978 --> 00:50:07.579
But again,

00:50:08.000 --> 00:50:11.021
I have not just the thought of getting

00:50:11.041 --> 00:50:13.463
guests on, but actual guests scheduled.

00:50:13.963 --> 00:50:14.983
So for the next couple of weeks,

00:50:15.023 --> 00:50:16.625
we'll start sprinkling in some guests.

00:50:16.864 --> 00:50:19.706
I'm looking at some version of sanity for

00:50:19.746 --> 00:50:22.349
myself in the sense that like,

00:50:23.188 --> 00:50:24.891
a lot of my work is also geared

00:50:24.911 --> 00:50:27.112
around scheduling i i don't necessarily

00:50:27.152 --> 00:50:29.355
slot my clients into every week sessions

00:50:29.394 --> 00:50:31.717
it's just not how i do therapy and

00:50:31.737 --> 00:50:33.159
that tends not to be what my clients

00:50:33.219 --> 00:50:35.800
need from me um so there's a lot

00:50:35.820 --> 00:50:37.302
of scheduling that i have to do in

00:50:37.342 --> 00:50:39.443
my day-to-day job in my actual real life

00:50:39.483 --> 00:50:42.728
job that pays the bills and i just

00:50:42.748 --> 00:50:44.409
sort of get tapped out on scheduling and

00:50:44.429 --> 00:50:45.750
so thinking about adding

00:50:47.369 --> 00:50:50.050
four guests a month or four point three

00:50:50.090 --> 00:50:52.090
guests a month for the four point three

00:50:52.130 --> 00:50:54.851
weeks of the month got to be too

00:50:54.891 --> 00:50:55.231
much.

00:50:55.291 --> 00:50:56.231
And so, yeah,

00:50:56.271 --> 00:50:57.572
we're going to try and hit a better

00:50:57.632 --> 00:51:01.353
cadence with that and sprinkle in guests,

00:51:01.393 --> 00:51:03.974
maybe every other episode or that type of

00:51:04.014 --> 00:51:04.574
thing.

00:51:05.215 --> 00:51:06.934
And it's just a lot easier for me

00:51:07.014 --> 00:51:08.416
and the age of my kids and when

00:51:08.456 --> 00:51:09.896
I have time to record and all those

00:51:09.936 --> 00:51:11.916
things where I have that flexibility to

00:51:11.936 --> 00:51:13.416
just record a solo episode,

00:51:14.117 --> 00:51:15.217
talk about what I want to talk about.

00:51:17.719 --> 00:51:18.639
So, yeah,

00:51:19.179 --> 00:51:20.740
but we'll have some guests coming up,

00:51:21.001 --> 00:51:22.702
which is super cool and I'm excited for.

00:51:23.463 --> 00:51:25.003
Always fun to get other people's

00:51:25.043 --> 00:51:27.465
perspectives and voices on things that I

00:51:27.485 --> 00:51:29.085
don't know as much about because I like

00:51:29.146 --> 00:51:30.507
learning too.

00:51:31.088 --> 00:51:32.768
Look at us engaging our critical thinking

00:51:32.789 --> 00:51:34.190
skills together.

00:51:34.210 --> 00:51:37.952
All right, y'all.

00:51:40.539 --> 00:51:41.800
Let's see, my mental health.

00:51:42.081 --> 00:51:42.740
I said this earlier,

00:51:42.960 --> 00:51:44.342
board games and disc golf.

00:51:44.362 --> 00:51:46.041
Disc golf has been phenomenal.

00:51:46.081 --> 00:51:47.382
As somebody who was dealing with an injury

00:51:47.463 --> 00:51:49.043
last year, I've been out a ton,

00:51:49.423 --> 00:51:51.144
so much that my calves are super tight

00:51:51.244 --> 00:51:52.164
and my ankles hurt.

00:51:52.264 --> 00:51:53.925
So now I'm in PT because I need

00:51:53.945 --> 00:51:55.347
to learn how to walk properly.

00:51:56.507 --> 00:51:57.807
Somebody played D one sports.

00:51:57.847 --> 00:51:59.288
It's pretty frustrating to have to do all

00:51:59.327 --> 00:52:01.068
this basic biomechanics stuff.

00:52:03.447 --> 00:52:05.208
Not a huge shock as a Nerd Aversion

00:52:05.248 --> 00:52:05.728
person though.

00:52:06.469 --> 00:52:07.750
And yeah,

00:52:07.769 --> 00:52:09.650
like getting into some role-playing games

00:52:09.690 --> 00:52:10.550
beyond D&D.

00:52:11.891 --> 00:52:13.452
If you pay attention to,

00:52:13.532 --> 00:52:14.954
if you watch my YouTube,

00:52:15.054 --> 00:52:17.255
I put out a number of videos about

00:52:17.275 --> 00:52:18.416
Baldur's Gate three,

00:52:18.576 --> 00:52:19.876
which is pretty much the only video game

00:52:19.916 --> 00:52:21.237
I played for the past couple of years.

00:52:21.338 --> 00:52:22.157
Not that I game a ton,

00:52:22.478 --> 00:52:23.378
I got young kids.

00:52:23.438 --> 00:52:25.000
And if the PlayStation is on,

00:52:25.039 --> 00:52:26.300
it's usually because the kids are using

00:52:26.340 --> 00:52:26.740
it, not me.

00:52:28.422 --> 00:52:30.523
but i got into dnd uh at a

00:52:30.583 --> 00:52:33.226
time when baldur's gate was still thriving

00:52:33.706 --> 00:52:36.407
and so a lot of dnd um and

00:52:36.427 --> 00:52:38.168
i'm branching out to some other tabletop

00:52:38.248 --> 00:52:40.210
role-playing games so that's been really

00:52:40.231 --> 00:52:42.351
great really like really interesting stuff

00:52:42.411 --> 00:52:45.675
for me as a neurodivergent person as a

00:52:45.934 --> 00:52:49.978
audi hd brain that likes novelty and um

00:52:51.143 --> 00:52:54.186
new interesting ideas and definitely likes

00:52:54.226 --> 00:52:55.706
to read the rules for every board game

00:52:55.786 --> 00:52:58.289
i own um that mix of like there's

00:52:58.349 --> 00:53:00.289
rules and there's also novelty has been

00:53:00.329 --> 00:53:03.293
really great for some of the lesser known

00:53:03.733 --> 00:53:06.954
role-playing games um and the therapeutic

00:53:06.974 --> 00:53:08.655
value of that right like i greg shanick

00:53:08.675 --> 00:53:11.018
was a early guest on the podcast talking

00:53:11.038 --> 00:53:13.119
about role-playing games in a therapeutic

00:53:13.179 --> 00:53:14.679
sense um i might get

00:53:15.621 --> 00:53:17.722
a local business on let's talk about some

00:53:17.742 --> 00:53:19.842
of the role-playing games too so again

00:53:20.003 --> 00:53:23.324
guests are scheduled and get outside and

00:53:23.364 --> 00:53:26.144
throw some discs at some baskets get out

00:53:26.244 --> 00:53:28.985
on the water it's been stupid hot so

00:53:29.045 --> 00:53:31.907
when disking is not pleasant it's great to

00:53:31.947 --> 00:53:35.389
be in the water um that's how so

00:53:35.748 --> 00:53:37.150
that's how i've been rolling these days

00:53:37.389 --> 00:53:40.411
this hot hot summer twenty six

00:53:42.934 --> 00:53:44.856
So do those things if you're looking for

00:53:44.876 --> 00:53:45.237
stuff to do.

00:53:45.757 --> 00:53:46.518
They're great.

00:53:49.101 --> 00:53:49.440
Yeah,

00:53:49.481 --> 00:53:51.362
all that in service of taking care of

00:53:51.382 --> 00:53:52.923
yourself, taking care of other people.

00:53:54.885 --> 00:53:57.208
We'll be back next week with another new

00:53:57.489 --> 00:53:58.168
episode.

00:53:58.228 --> 00:53:59.409
Peace out, everybody.