How Many of YOUR Personal Choices Are Your Own? | with Ulrika Karlsson

Key Takeaways:

-  We all possess the internal resources to connect with the most true, authentic aspect of ourselves but, for many of us, it is difficult to access because that part of ourselves is buried underneath the various conditioned programs received from society.

-  The more stagnant, heavy energy and conditioned programs you clear out, the more access you have to a higher state of consciousness.

-  Govern + ment = Mind Control

Have you ever felt the weight of the world's expectations pressing down on you, nudging you away from your true self? Ulrika Karlsson, an inspiring spiritual teacher, Soul coach and author, joins us to share her incredible journey from the brink of despair to a life infused with deep clarity and inner strength. Together, we delve into the complexities of free will versus societal conditioning, discussing how Ulrika's battle with depression and a crippling sleeping disorder opened her eyes to a deeper sense of purpose.

The discussion turns to the mystical Akashic records, past lives, and how karma shapes who we are today. We explore these concepts as Ulrika sheds light on the eternal nature of our souls, offering insights into how these past experiences can manifest in our present lives, influencing our health, behaviours, and life patterns. It's a journey that will have you questioning the very foundation of your reality and the energies, both masculine and feminine, that drive us.

Finally, we confront the specter of fear that so often dictates our life's path. Ulrika and I peel back the layers of conditioning to reveal how embracing intuition and inner wisdom can foster a divine connection, heal past afflictions, and assist in our personal ascension. The conversation also celebrates resilience and the joy found in shared transformation, as Ulrika introduces her thought-provoking written works, designed to aid in the ascension process.

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Transcript

Exploring Free Will and Conditioning

Speaker 1 0:00

So here's some food for thought. What if a lot of the choices we make are not solely ours? What if certain choices are programmed responses or reactions to our environment, meaning we are conditioned to think and act a certain way, conditioned to think and act a certain way? Thus, we are deluded into thinking that we are using our free will, but in reality we are not. And what if our God-given free will has been steered or exploited by an external influence, namely through the various programming we've received, by being a part of a society that has prescribed rules and conventions for us to follow and abide by, in effect, creating conditioned responses among us? In effect, creating conditioned responses among us.

Speaker 1 1:09

I think we can see many examples of this upon observing how humans interact and react, especially in the context of adherence to certain ideologies. Now, by no means am I suggesting we not partake in society. After all, we all need each other, and the beauty in our diversity, in our cultures, is what often connects us, because fundamentally, we are not so different as we think. But while we partake in this collective experience? But while we partake in this collective experience, how can we participate in society, in the world, without losing or inadvertently giving up our free will, thereby shutting down our inner power? How many of your personal choices are your own? How many of your choices can you say feels 100% true to you, and what percentage of your authenticity can you say is reflected in your choices? Are you even consciously aware of the choices you make?

Speaker 2 2:27

Today I'm speaking with author and spiritual teacher, ulrika Carlson, whose words may inspire you or challenge your perception yeah, I feel my life's journey has reclaimed the essence of being magnificent, like in my own unique of being magnificent like in my own unique, weird frequency.

Speaker 1 3:06

You do a lot of healing work but you started your life quite differently, dealing with depression, low self-esteem, suicidal ideation. Can we talk about that experience for a bit, what that was like?

Speaker 2 3:21

Of course, of course. That's why I love to be on podcasts, because when I was depressed and suicidal one day, I listened to Oprah Winfrey's show and on the show there was somebody there. I don't remember who or what was said, but it was something that resonated with me. So I didn't commit suicide, obviously, since I'm here. So that's why I love to be on podcasts, because it's like one way to pay it forward, like if there's something that I'm saying or something you know, even if it's like one sentence or one word that I say that resonates with your listeners, then I have paid it forward. It's like a ripple effect. So, yeah, let's dive into my the Dark Night of the Soul.

Speaker 1 4:06

It literally is, isn't it? It is. It is Because you also said that you also experienced sleeping disorders, and I can't imagine what that must have been like. Of course, if you are having deep depression and something that is so mentally straining like that, it usually comes with a few other difficult symptoms as well, and so it's not surprising to hear that you also experience sleeping disorders.

Speaker 2 4:37

Yes, that's right. It's like a cocktail of all sorts of emotions that are very intense. Yes, so I've had sleeping disorders for as far as I can remember, it started when I was a young teenager I'm 52 at the moment, so it started with that. I did have a really hard time to relax and to fall asleep and then, so you know, gradually over the years and decades, I adjusted to that and then it became worse and worse and later and later that I fell asleep, and then I started to wake up a lot of times at night and I couldn't go back to sleep. And with all this and that going on for many, many years, and then eventually I was only sleeping 15 minutes per night. So I just want to share here, like my first book, my autobiography 247 AM, the Journey Home to my Heart.

Speaker 2 5:35

So I only slept 15 minutes and every night when I woke up it was 247 AM on the alarm clock and I was so disorientated I didn't know where I was. I had this stale taste of blood in my mouth and I always woke up to this silent scream from horrible dreams where I were being slaughtered every night. So every day, every night, I dreaded to go to sleep, because I knew when I fell asleep it would only be for 15 minutes and I would see myself being murdered and slaughtered every night. So it was like blood splattering. And then I woke up, 2.47 and realizing that it was only 15 minutes of REM sleep, but it felt like a lifetime long prison. And so I woke up every night at the same time.

Reclaiming Soul Alignment and Heart-Centered Living

Speaker 2 6:29

And now I know what the time really means, but at the time obviously I didn't know. So it means different things actually. Two is, in the yogic perspective, the second chakra, that is, the sexual chakra with the element of water. Four is the sexual chakra with the element of water. Four is the heart chakra and seven is the spiritual like the crown chakra, and 247 is also the time of the organ of the liver. So it was my like spiritual awakening, but at the time, obviously, like I was depressed, I was suicidal for sleeping only 15 minutes per night for a very, very long time. So my energy was so low. I was sensitive of lights, I was sensitive of sound, I had a lot of weird other symptoms, like like sleeping disorders were the main thing, but also depression problems, depression problems with my stomach, with my skin, anxiety, et cetera, et cetera. So every night I was murdered and every day I had to live in the echo of that and also the dread of going to bed.

Speaker 1 7:38

That is really astounding. What do you think was the trigger for having that dream repeatedly?

Speaker 2 7:46

it was. Now I know that it was my soul who really nudged me, because obviously I didn't listen. I had had so many, not just before, for my soul, but I'm a very stubborn and ambitious and driven person, so I didn't listen. So I had all these symptoms, weird symptoms, for a long time and I so it was my soul's way to say, hey, you know, you need to stop because you're not aligned with on who you are, on your soul's mission, on your soul, soul's blueprint. So it really took me, you know, on a downward spiral, because if you only sleep 15 minutes per night, it obviously affects, like all areas in your life, your relationship, your job ability, your mental health. And I was so depleted, I was so drained and I didn't, you know, see any other way out than to. I wanted to end my life and at the time I was a mom to two really young kids. So, and the less I slept, the more I did Like I was a personal trainer at the gym, I had my own company, I worked also in the daycare and also as a physiotherapist.

Speaker 2 9:06

So I was working a lot and still I didn't feel that I was doing enough. Never being enough, never feeling enough. I was always feeling too much and because I also discovered in my journey to reclaim, to coming back to my heart, like that's the title of the book, the journey home to my heart that I I am an empath and a highly sensitive person. So that means not only do I empathize with other people in my surroundings, I feel everything, what other people are feeling, and I don't even know, you know at the time, if it was my feelings or others feelings that I felt. So it was so intense all the time and I, yeah, and I had very high inner demands on myself how I should look like, how I should be, what kind of a mom I should be. So I was really in my fucked up programs, so to speak, so not who I was on a soul level, but like my conditioned programs.

Speaker 1 10:07

I can totally see that from everything that you're saying. It's just like completely operating from your conditioning, from your program and what you were programmed to think and perceive exactly so it's so. It's so heavy, you know, when we operate from that perspective, it is so heavy, it becomes so heavy and overbearing on your soul right, I think a lot of us feel it, but I think the thing is a lot of us also don't have the tools to deal with it.

Speaker 1 10:41

A lot of us don't have the tools to kind of work through that in order to reconnect with who we are to the core. So I think that what you're doing is pretty. It's really cool and I love that you mentioned that you are now working from this heart-centered space. Can you tell me, for people who are not aware of what that means, can you kind of explain what that is all about?

Speaker 2 11:09

Thank you. So I want to say also two things. I agree with you that people, most people, we do have the tools, but they are buried beneath the 95% of conditioned programs that we all have, and this means that we only have access to 5% of consciousness right. And then we truly believe that we all have, and this means that we only have access to 5% of consciousness right, and then we truly believe that we are doing conscious choices, whilst it is the unconditioning and the conditioned programs that is running the show. And I also think that, because it also takes courage to change, we know that people, you know we have our comfort zones. We want to be there, we want to be. People stay in relationships, regardless if they're happy or not, because it's safer or for economical reason, et cetera, et cetera. So it also need, you have to have some tools and you have to have the courage and persistence and not to settle, because for me it was a matter of life and death. Like every day, I stood there with my pills in my hand thinking is this the day that I'm going to commit suicide or not? And I was actually saved many times, unknowingly at the time, by my kids. So for me a heart-centered leader is an empath, a highly sensitive person that's also empathizing and can connect how other people are feeling. Not only you know yeah, yeah, I hear you, I understand but to feel, to know, and for me also. Oh gosh, I'm writing so many books about this and this is so interesting, so it's going to be quite a long answer, but there a red thread, so just bear with me, okay?

Speaker 2 12:46

So we we live in times where we have been run for thousands of years with these conditioned programs 95 of the unconscious programs, right and there we have been governed by the unconscious masculine energies and unconscious feminine energies. And what I mean with that and what I write about in my books are that the unconscious masculine, one of the essence for that can be to be the good girl or the good boy, good at school, good as a family member, a good mom, good client or a good, whatever employee. So whenever we are maintaining and upholding these low frequency of the masculine energies, we are also contributing to the mess that we see in the world, you know, and also the very unconscious and immature essence of the feminine essence is manipulation. Manipulation, for instance, and we can see it in ourselves, we can see it in the world. We can see it, you know, in our politics systems, a lot of manipulation, etc. So when we see this, this is like upholding the old energies of the immature feminine and the immature masculine, and we see it everywhere, like we see it everywhere on the media. You know how, how parents manipulate their kids to eat the food and then they'll get the dessert. So these are the mental and very low frequency of the feminine and the masculine essence and and we all have them in us yin and yang, yin and yang energies.

Speaker 2 14:28

But these programs are the 95 percent of the unconscious programs that most of us are not even aware of, right? So we always striving for being better higher education you can even hear it in the language you know to rise up in your career, to climb, to move forward. This is all you know, upholding these energies that have sort of captured us for thousands of years. So for me to be a heart-centered leader is the first thing is that you have to become aware of your own fucked up programs, right, because I can never change anything that I'm not even aware of. So I have to become aware of my programs. You know that is running the show, that is, choosing my partners. That is, you know my mindset, etc. So I have to become aware.

Speaker 2 15:19

And then so I also work with karma clearings in the Akashic Records. So we need to clear out the old karma, we need to clear out traumas, we need to clear out unresolved issues, unprocessed emotions, and all these emotions I call them frozen emotions is stuck in us as energetic systems. So the more I clear out of my inner darkness, my inner shadows, my inner programs, whatever you want to call it, the more access I have to higher states of consciousness, the more access I have to more light and the more access I have to higher vibration of the divine masculine and the divine feminine right. And, for an instance, the divine masculine could be clarity, like a sword that cuts through all the bullshit and all the lies that we have been told by others and the lies and bullshit that we're telling ourselves. So you need the clarity to cut through. But you also need the unconditioned love, and most of us in western societies we have never been taught unconditioned love. We are taught conditioned love. It's always like a bargain. Please say that you love me and I love you back. How much do you love me? So it's like a bargain of love and that's not, you know, unconditional, that's conditioned.

Speaker 2 16:44

So the feminine and the masculine energies, they meet in the heart. So when you have cleared out your own inner shit, your karma, your inner pollution I have a book that is called holy fuck in a sacred water the sacred connections to everything. So once we have become aware that our inner water is really polluted and that's why also the outer oceans is polluted, because it's just mirroring our inner water, because we know that we contains of more than 75 percent of water, right, yes, so all these shit, all unresolved emotions, all traumas or suppressed emotions, etc. Are stored within the body as frozen emotions. So the more I clear it out, the more access I have to higher states of consciousness, to more light and these energies of the feminine and the masculine they actually meet and connect in the heart.

Speaker 2 17:40

So we need the clarity. You know the sort of direction, but we also need the clarity. You know the sort of direction, but we also need the heart. And I cannot only be in the heart like, oh, love and light. Everything is love and light, everything is just. You know, put it in a bubble and blow it away, because we also have to have some kind of direction for this love, for this healing and compassion and this empathy. We also have some kind of direction right and compassion and this empathy we also have some kind of direction right. So we need the holy fuck, the holy merge of the feminine and the masculine for us to be heart-centered leaders.

Speaker 1 18:14

I love everything about what you just said, but let's dial it back a little bit, because you mentioned something about the Akashic Records and I know a lot of people might not know what that is. Can you briefly get know what that is? Can you briefly get into what that is to kind of like allow people to understand the concept of?

Understanding the Akashic Record and Karma

Speaker 2 18:31

what it is. Thanks, good question, kasia. So the Akashic Record is like Google for the soul. You know like we can go out on Google and we can Google anything where we want to have dinner, what time our flight is leaving and the Akashic record is like Google for the soul. So we know that we are energetic systems, we know that we are eternal souls from source, or most people actually don't know. Most people believe that we have a soul, but that's not true. We have a body and we are souls right, and this soul that each and one of us have is like the God spark from divine source. That is the divine within us, that is the soul that is eternal, that has been reincarnated in different shapes and forms for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. And we don't even remember because every time we come down here, we have chosen to forget who we are, and our life's journey is to reclaim and to remember and reconnect to who we are on the soul level. So the akashic record is everything. So the Akashic record is everything that has ever existed in your life, everything that could have existed or possible possibilities, and everything that will exist in your life.

Speaker 2 19:56

So when I do karma clearings and soul readings. I, with your consent, your permission, I enter your Akashic record and I get a lot of information, a lot of information about past lifetimes where you started to do so-called negative choices. Because here's the thing, and this is what most people have a hard time to believe we have all been perpetrators and we have all been victims, and this means that in past lifetimes we have all been soldiers, we have all killed and we have all been killed, and these memories reside within our water, on a cellular level, in our DNA. That's why the book Holy Fuck and Sacred Water is so important how to clear out these old remembrance from ourselves, from our DNA. And everything of this is stored in the Akashic record.

Speaker 2 20:52

So when I do readings for people I don't know maybe don't know anything about them and then I get all this information and then I come back to them and I said I said okay, so this is the information from your soul that 17 lifetimes ago you killed somebody and when you did that, you fragmented your soul like fragments of your soul went missing, and you are also carrying other people's souls, right. So this is my latest book where I write about this the sacred soul, a divine evolution through time and space, and so we have all been part of what is going on globally today, because we have all these old karmic patterns that we transmit unconsciously out into the collective consciousness. So when I go into the akashic record then I can see where you started to make these negative choices. And these negative choices that you did maybe 15 lifetimes ago, 20 lifetimes ago, they're still echoing in your life today as the unconscious programs.

Speaker 1 22:01

Yeah, you say that you want to aid the ascension process of human beings, of what's happening here on this earth, and I think that's such beautiful work, that healing work, that spiritual work. It's so needed and so important. What is your process for going into someone's Akashic records?

Speaker 2 22:25

what is your process for going into someone's Akashic records? So I always need the consents. We are not allowed by the laws of universe to enter somebody else's Akashic record without consent. So if somebody is saying, oh you know, I checked into your Akashic record or I did some healing in your Akashic record, then you should just, you know, be aware, because these people are out of boundaries, because we always as free souls, as I write about in this book. We are free souls with a free will and if we want to have our souls cleared from negative karma, then we have to give consent, right? So first of all, that's the the main thing. And then I need some things to check out that it's truly you and nobody else. And then I just ask a lot of questions. So it's like I get all this information and I ask question and I just sort of it gets narrow and narrow and then I see, okay, there's a pattern here. So here I can see this lifetime, 15 lifetimes ago and and there's another lifetime and the repeated patterns are what you have in this lifetime. For instance, like you can be so successful and you can be good, whatever, but you might struggle with your health, it doesn't matter that you don't smoke or that you eat healthy or smoke or don't eat healthy, and you still have trouble with your health. And then, when I do the Akashic reading and the karma clearing, I can see that the choices that you made is and they're running programs, that is, concerning your health. So it doesn't matter what you do, because these programs are still lingering in your DNA, in your water, in your cells. So when we clear it all out, it's like you know, if you have a virus in your computer, right, if you just take, if you remove the virus, then the computer is working more smoothly and more efficient and you know, have access to all the info. And it's the same with the karma clearing. It's like I don't know the um, the english word for, but when you are boiling pasta and you are emptying the water, so it, the water, leaves and the pasta is still there.

Speaker 2 24:38

Each and one of us are like that. You know container, but we are leaking energy. We are leaking energy unconsciously. So during a karma clearing we sort of make the container whole again. So you have access to your vital life force, energy from divine source. And when you have so much more access to more energy in your daily life, then you have more energy to take new choices. Because obviously, if we you know, if I do the same choices over and over again and then expect a different result, that's what einstein called being an idiot. So yeah, so we have to change our you know our patterns. We have to change our mindset. We have to change our patterns. We have to change our mindset. We have to change how we look upon ourselves and others. We have to change this leakage of energy that we transmit unconsciously into the collective consciousness.

Speaker 2 25:36

And also, in a karma clearing, we get to know from what star you are from, like I'm from a star called Vega. So my soul's mission is here to inspire you. That is my. The soul's mission is to inspire, whether it's through books or healing or ascension processes, etc. Etc. So when I do that, then I am aligned to who I am, my soul's blueprint, and we all have different gifts and challenges from our different soul group of origination, etc. But the more people that I guide that are aligned on who they are on the soul level, because when I am aligned and I have cleared up my karma, I don't have to be mean, I don't have to be good, I don't have to punish others, I don't have to violate rape you know, kill murder, rape, kill murder, go into fights, et cetera because my energy is healed and it's intact. So the way I see it, that each soul that is more aligned with who they are on the soul level also contributes to high states of consciousness and is transmitting that out into the collective consciousness.

Healing and Remembering Past Lives

Speaker 1 26:50

Absolutely. How did you get to that stage? Because I know when you are struggling with depression you don't have that clarity right. You have so much brain fog you can't think straight and, to make it worse, you are having that sleeping issue whereby you weren't sleeping. So, of course, there is no space for clarity when you're in that mind frame. It's just a fog. You are literally living in a fog. What is it that got you from that state to the state that you're in right now?

Speaker 2 27:27

So everything that I'm talking about here I've experienced myself. I have allowed all kinds of feeling to run through, because also the word emotion means energy in motion, right, so that means that feelings and emotions are supposed to move through, but most of us we don't allow emotions to run through because if they are what we call uncomfortable or intense emotions, we suppress them. Them, we numb ourselves, we distract ourselves. Everything that we can use we can also abuse. So we can use food to numb ourselves, we can use sex, drugs, alcohol, medications work. If we are in these programs of being the good I know that you in America you could do like 16 hours a day and you know that's a good thing and we can be workaholic that's actually a grave imbalance in the root chakra. That you need to perform, that you need to act, that you need to do to earn love, to earn acknowledgement, to earn inclusiveness. So that is when we are like striving and working long and being workaholic and people are saying, oh, he's so good or she's so good at the work and you know she puts in so many hours. That is the, the unconscious masculine that is playing out as a program. So everything that I'm talking about here I've done myself, you know. I've faced all my fears, I've expressed all my emotions, the ones that I am aware of. I have allowed it all just to go through and I was just crying, like yesterday, like you know, because these past years have been really rough for me and for my family. I chose not to take the vaccine, so I have been censored, silenced, threatened. I've been. You know, people wanted to murder me. I've been discriminated. Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, my God, I could tell you so many stories. And I, from a, a country that has so-called freedom of speech, I can't even log into my, even my own LinkedIn account. So I've been silenced.

Speaker 2 29:40

And I know that I've lived many lifetimes, as a medicine woman, as a healer, as a shaman, as a witch. So I've been murdered so many lifetimes, burnt at the stake. I've been drowned, you know, hanged by the neck, and these memories resides also within the body, in your Akashic record, in your cells, in your DNA. So I have remembered. I have, you know, cried out all those lifetimes that I couldn't cry at the time. I have allowed my fear to be visible and to, you know, to speak about what I'm scared of and to feel dread, to feel the terror, to feel the different kind of fears that I've been holding in my frozen emotions.

Speaker 2 30:33

So I've allowed everything to pass through and there's no shortcuts. You know, I've tried them all. I've tried to be the workaholic, I've tried to numb myself with alcohol, with food, I've tried to numb myself with being busy doing, doing, doing, but also the the word. We are human beings, we're not human doers. So we have everything is distorted, everything that we thought we were is distorted because we have our emotions, we have our feelings, we have our thoughts, we have these physical bodies, but that's not who we are. So everything that I talk about I have, you know, explored and discovered myself. So there's no way through. The only way forward is to move inwards.

Speaker 1 31:24

I love that. That is so true, ulrika, it is. I love everything you just said. I wanted to, when you were just telling me about your past lives. Do you think those dreams were past life memories, those dreams you had when you were tasting that blood in your mouth?

Speaker 2 31:42

Yeah, I think it was a combination of remembering previous incarnation and I also know that it was my soul, you know, because, again, I didn't listen. I had so many signals, you know, and I was just stubborn, I was just pushing. I was very much in the immature masculine energy of doing performing, being effective, being good-looking, earning money, blah, blah, yada, yada, yada. So it was also my soul's, you know, like you know, really, hello. You know, wake up call, shake up call.

Speaker 1 32:18

It's like a reminder for you, a reminder of your path, pretty much Right. I think that is so interesting it is.

Speaker 2 32:27

And we all have them. We all have so many different lifetimes them. We all have so many different lifetimes. And I remember, you know, the more I clear out, the more memories from past lifetimes I have and the more gifts I get, like you know. So they're so amazing the more I unravel of myself, the more of me I've I become, and the more gifts and the more, etc. Etc. So I know that I've been a mermaid and you know, that time when I, when I did, uh, remember that, um, because I have a very special connection to water. So if you want to know more about that, I really suggest you to read Holy fucking sacred water, the sacred connections to everything. Anyhow. Then I just remembered, oh, my God, you know I'm a mermaid and I speak fluently Mermanian, so it's like wow, and you know where did that come from? And I have memories from, you know, being a white-footed wolf. I have so many memories, a white-furred wolf, I have so many memories.

Speaker 2 33:35

One memory came to me when I was on education a workshop many years ago. The workshop leader took out some arrows. Just by seeing those arrows, I remembered my whole body started to shake. Something was going, was really like something was going on and then I saw these flushes and I just knew that I had been killed by arrows, like 900th century somewhere in Highlands, scotland, and I was being raped by a lot of guys.

Speaker 2 34:10

I was only like a girl of 11 or 12 years old and I could see my dress and I could see how I looked like. And then I looked up and I could see the perpetrator standing above me with an arrow to my throat. So that life ended there. But just by seeing these arrows reminded me of this, because my body started to remember. My mind didn't remember, my body remembered. So this is stored in ourselves and our DNA. So there's so much healing to do, so much healing and clearing out our inner pollutions, our inner shit, our inner karma, so we can be the best versions of ourselves, more aligned, who we are on the soul level and from that space, heart-centered, be in service.

Speaker 1 34:58

That is so crucial. And, of course, the only way to do that is to just actually allow yourself to experience that, to acknowledge that is happening to you, because what we often do is we shove things under the rug or, as you said, we busy ourselves, we indulge, we over indulge in something, whether it be alcohol, substances, sex work, you know what I mean. There are just so many things that you can indulge yourselves in and you can also do it the other way.

Speaker 2 35:28

you can also be, uh, keeping away all that. What is it called being ascetic? That you don't eat, you don't celebrate, you don't enjoy life, you just sit there and pray or meditate. So that is the polarity.

Speaker 1 35:47

That as well. You can actually do the complete opposite of that, which is just like completely withdraw from everything, everyone, society, any kind of pleasures or indulgence, Anything that has to do with the human experience. You completely withdraw from that. So you can also do that the opposite way.

Speaker 2 36:08

Yes.

Speaker 1 36:09

A lot of people who do that. They usually do a lot of rituals, prayers. Praying is great, praying in general is great, but we're talking about this extreme ascetism, as you said, whereby you completely withdraw from everything that makes you human, that allows you to have the human experience, right. So it's a complete imbalance on both sides.

Speaker 2 36:35

And also this might be upsetting to a lot of your listeners but when we are praying, we're also praying to someone outside of ourselves. We want somebody to help us, to fix us, to guide us, but the truth is that nobody out there is going to help you. You, you can have, you can have somebody to hold your hand that has been on that path before you. You can have friends, you can have a lot of support, etc. But at the end of the day, happiness is an insider job. So you can't rely on some god or some guardian angels or a white shiny knight that is coming to save you and rescue you. You are the one that's going to rescue yourself.

Speaker 2 37:25

And again, the only way forward is inward. And as much as I want to expand, if I want rise, if I want to expand, I need to have the same kind of energy on the opposite polarity. So if I want to rise, I also need to descend. If I want to ascend, I need to descend. If I want to expand, I need to to move the same kind of energy within me. So basically, the one that you're waiting for is yourself.

Speaker 1 37:55

It comes back to that how do you explain that to someone who is accustomed to, you know, saying when I pray, I get this, or when I pray, this happens for me because, because I know it's a very difficult thing, because we've been conditioned in that way. Right, of course, there is a creator that is responsible for creating all of this, but we are at odds with each other, with what this creator is, who this creator is, the image and form that the creator comes in. There is just, there are wars about this Exactly, and there are literally wars about this, about what the creator is, who the creator is and what the creator has bestowed upon.

Speaker 2 38:49

Exactly, and even you know exactly, and even you know we are pixels from divine source. That means that we are divine too, so we are the divine creators. So it just comes down again to have the courage to to truly see, to have the clarity and the courage to see that oh my gosh, how many fucked up programs I have and I've been run by up till now. And then when you see that you know you can make more conscious choices, and then you clear out all these inner traumas and undersold emotions, etc. And then it's like I usually make this metaphor okay, you have this garden, right, a big garden, but the garden is covered with weed, so it doesn't matter if you want to plant new seeds, because it's full. There's no space, it's full with weed, so you have to pull out the weeds with the roots right. So you pull up the weeds, you pull up this trauma, you pull up this memory, you pull up this unresolved emotion, you pull up that situation, and it goes on and on and on, but eventually the garden is. You know, you have created space and in this space you can saw new seeds. That's why my motto is to relax, because most of us were so stressed, like we're all in the matrix, we're living in the matrix, we're running around in the hamster wheel we are. We are focusing on the wrong things outside of us. Like somebody else shall make me happy If I have more money, that will make me happy, if I look like this, it will make me happy If I only have that house. Blah, blah, blah. You fill in the blanks. So we are running around, but we are looking for the wrong things at the wrong places. So if I turn all that focus that I have outward to be successful or, you know, to be included, to be loved inwards, then I create this space and then I can plant new seeds.

Speaker 2 40:49

So my motto is to relax. So first we have to calm and regulate the nervous system, because when I'm stressed, we know that we don't have the clarity, we don't have access to conscious choice. We are running by these patterns, these conditioned programs, right? So first we need to relax and when I relax, a lot of stuff old memories, old traumas, suppressed emotions can come to the surface. So I allow them to come. I am the witness, I observe, I feel I don't judge, I don't change, I don't have to do anything, I don't have to change the intensity of anything I observe I feel. So relax, release, and then I can receive. Then I can receive the love that I have for myself and then I can also receive love from others, because I can never give what I don't have and I cannot receive what I don't have.

Speaker 2 41:49

And if the cup is empty, it's like a bank account. If the bank account is empty and I'm just doing withdrawal after withdrawal after withdrawal, what will happen? The bank account will be in bankruptcy. Right, but we treat ourselves as these bank accounts. We just, you know, we give and we give. We give our time, we give our energy, we give our you know effort. We do this, but most of us, we don't fill up the account with ourselves. So relax, release, receive is my motto. And so when you asked, how do I tell about this garden? Like your garden is full of shit, plain and simple, your garden is full of shit. And then you have a conscious choice Do you want to have that garden full of shit, full of weed, or do you want to have another garden?

Speaker 1 42:37

I totally get that Totally resonated with me. I want to know, from that perspective, how do you think, what is your perspective on fear, and why do you think so many of us allow it to have so much control over what we choose to do with our lives?

Breaking Free From Fear and Conditioning

Speaker 2 42:58

a good question because fear is basically a program. It is. It's basically that, like the movie matrix, like the agent smith, fear is like agent smith, is a deep conditioned program that goes back and I write about it. So, if you want to know more, I really also recommend the Sacred Soul, the Divine Evolution Through Time and Space. Yeah, like we are.

Speaker 2 43:26

Basically, we are energy. Right, we are energy in different frequencies, in different vibrations. It's like radio station you are playing your frequency in your radio station and I'm my radio station, but our energy and our vibration has, for thousands of years, been conditioned to be low vibrational and low frequency, and so we have these fears. And we are not even aware that we have these fears because, to be frankly, I know many people, like in Sweden, they took the so-called vaccines because they were afraid that they couldn't go traveling right, so again, again, they were afraid, they couldn't go traveling.

Speaker 2 44:14

That's an unconscious program, see, and actually, like the year 2020, where everything started, was the year of the heart, but most people chose the fear-based programs of lack and scarcity. Most people chose fear because it's so deeply programmed within us Be afraid, you know, don't wear these skirts when you go out as a girl late at night. You know, don't talk to strangers. Some people are afraid of heights, some people are afraid of heights, some people are afraid of spiders, some people are afraid of being alone, others are afraid of being in a relationship. We're all afraid.

Speaker 2 44:57

This is conditioned, and when we let the fears run the show, then we have less access to the heart, we have less access to clarity, we have less access to high states of consciousness and to the heart. We have less access to clarity, we have less access to high states of consciousness and to unconditional love. So it's deeply, deeply, deeply conditioned because we are light. We are light, we are frequencies from the beginning, and this is also what I write about in this book that the soul has a certain frequency. It's on the fifth dimension and above. But our bodies are living in 3D, in the matrix. So all our programs of fear, they're not real, it's illusion. We believe the illusions to be true.

Speaker 1 45:46

Of course it's hard not to, because we're surrounded like everything that we see. Everything that we experience continues to, it verifies, it validates what we're thinking, it validates what we're feeling, it validates what we're perceiving right. And of course, we know that, of course, what we focus on is exactly what will manifest. Of course, what we focus on is exactly what we will see. What we focus on is exactly what we will experience. But I think, when you're having that human experience, it's hard to separate reality from the illusions yes we are surrounded with and that's the matrix.

Speaker 1 46:32

It's designed that way yeah, the messaging, the messaging that you get from institutions, messaging that you get from exactly politics, the institutions, um, educational institutions, religious institutions, community organizations, all of those kind of reiterate the same thing and like push that out there. So it's really difficult not to get sucked in by that. How, how can we better caution ourselves or protect ourselves from being so? Of course we have to be open in a way to, because when you're heart-centered you are open right. When you're heart-centered, you have to be open in many ways in order to be able to even connect with yourself. Much less to connect with yourself, much less to connect with others. But how do we protect ourselves against all of that, the programming, the conditioning? I mean, as children there's really nothing we can do. But as we grow up and become of age and we start to be aware of certain things, how can we then move through life without getting so absorbed and pulled into these different ideologies and things that we experience out in the world?

Speaker 2 48:12

also is multi-dimensional. But to take one like, for me, tangible thing is that for thousands of years we have given our life force, energy away out from us. You know, we have given our trust to outer authorities, outer organizations, political systems, and these systems, including the school, is designed to keep us in place, is designed to keep us in the matrix. These systems are designed to keep us in the matrix. So we have always given our energy out. You know, we go to the doctor and the doctor say take these pills or this so-called vaccine, do this, do that. School says do this, do that, do this and do that.

Speaker 2 48:54

So we have forgotten to trust our inner intuition. We have forgotten to trust our inner knowing. Like I know my body better than anybody out there, right? No know, no doctor could say to me that, okay, you have this, you have that because I used to believe in authorities. That's what we are programmed to do. We are programmed to believe in authorities, but then again and we are also programmed to question our inner authorities, our inner knowing, deeper knowing, our inner wisdom, and we are being kept separated. Body, mind and spirit is being kept separated, but we are never separated. That's just an illusion, because I mean body, mind, soul, everything is connected to divine source. And then we have the free will. So again the courage. We have the free will. So again the courage, we have the free will and and our inner wisdom, like when I was depressed, I got so many medications take these pills, take these sleeping pills, this insomnia pills, take pills for depression, for anxiety, and somewhere with within me I was like but I don't want to take all of these pills because not only am I going to be, you know, perhaps addicted, there also might be a change in my personality.

Speaker 2 50:19

And the medication is only, you know, removing or covering the symptoms. They don't work on the root cause. So I didn't want to have these sleeping pills, I didn't want to have the anxiety pills. I didn't want to have these sleeping pills. I didn't want to have the anxiety pills, I didn't want to have pills for depression, because I wanted to find out the root cause. Why am I so fucked up? Why is my you know program so fucked up? So for me and this is also what I guide people with to remember to trust themselves, to come back home into their heart, where there is a knowing and where they trust themselves.

Speaker 2 50:55

That is true empowerment not being, you know, given power from somebody outside of you. It's like each and one of us is like an ecosystem, right, and you are the only one that knows what is good for you, and you are the only one that knows what is good for you. And then and then we can always, always, you know, ask for help, like so I'm not saying never use medication. I don't say, you know, because also, it's up to each person, each individual. So, of course, and I mean you know, if you need an operation, I mean, of course, that's not what I'm saying, this is not what I'm talking about.

Speaker 2 51:29

I'm talking about that we have constantly given our powers away to people or authorities, organizations outside of ourselves, and just to become aware of that, that's the first step. Yeah, and the word like this is so interesting the word government. If you translate the word government, it means govern, control, right, and ment is mind, so it literally says mind control. So why would a steering organ looking for people's highest good call themselves a government when it means mind control?

Speaker 1 52:07

I like the way you break that down. That was pretty good. Yeah, love the way you just break that down and the fact that you said a key point there when you spoke about being aware. The first thing, the first step to reversing all of the effects of all of the BS, the bullshit right Exactly On your psyche, on your soul, on your mental health, is to be aware, to be aware of what's happening, to be aware of what's happening around you, to be aware of the things that you're being fed.

Speaker 2 52:44

Exactly, and it's like, when people come to me, I give them the tools, so so they can help themselves.

Navigating Ascension and Mental Health Journeys

Speaker 2 52:53

I give them the insights, the information, the wisdom, the tools that they can use if they choose to right. Yeah, so it's not like when I do a karma clearing for, etc. Then there's like a three week of doing also differently in your own life, because, again, I can, I can give you anything that you need for your karma clearing, but at the end of the day, you are the one that lives in your body, in your mind, and you have access to a lot of things, and you are the one that needs to do differently, because I can't cry your tears, I can't remove your obstacles, because it's a free choice that we have, and every choice that we have that is more aligned on who we are on a soul level takes us to even more alignment. So then shifting from a downward, negative spiral to an upward spiral. But we are needing them both because we cannot see the stars at night if there would not be for for the darkness. Right, we couldn't see the stars if there was no dark night.

Speaker 1 54:06

So we need them exactly yeah, of course, just like you said earlier in the beginning, just going through the dark night of the soul. Yeah, right, you have to be able and willing and ready to do that in order to get to the other side, whereby exactly experiencing the light where exactly your frequency is.

Speaker 2 54:28

Different experience you have to experience a little frequency in order to experience the high frequency yes, yes, and and even though that I had, you know, teachers and mentors and support, I did the work myself because nobody could do it for me. And this is also how, how I work with my clients. You know, I provide with everything that they need, but then it's up to them, because that is that. That is the point that people get to decide. Okay, who is going to come and save me? Oh, there's nobody here, so I have to do it myself.

Speaker 1 55:05

Right, I have to do it myself, right? Absolutely, I'd love to talk about your book, because I know you've written a few. I think you've written maybe three or four, right, actually, five, five, okay, you've written five books. So let's talk about your books and what we can expect from that.

Speaker 2 55:28

Thank you, kasia. So the first one was this one 247 AM, the Journey Home to my Heart. And this book is here as a trampoline for people who suffers from mental illness, so they can use my inner darkness, my wounds, my fears, my programs as a way wounds, my fears, my programs as a way to jump off from and explore their own. So the book is here like that. There's a way out and the only way out is to go inwards. So this book is here to aid people who suffer from mental illness. And then I don't have the other two books because I'm in Spain at the moment, so I didn't have it with me.

Speaker 2 56:14

And then the book Holy, fuck and Sacred Water, the Sacred Connections to Everything. This is a book that is here to challenge and to provoke and to aid your ascension. So you might say fuck, yeah. And to aid your ascension. So you might say fuck, yeah, or you might be, you know, provoked, or or both. So it's a high vibrational book that is here to aid you in your ascension process and for you to see how polluted we are on the inside yeah, holy, fucking sacred water and the necessity to clear out all these residues in our inner water, in ourselves, in our DNA.

Speaker 1 56:56

Oh, that name.

Speaker 2 56:57

Yeah, yeah, I know. And then I was participating in writing a chapter about, uh, the power, the potent power of menopause, because also it's been very distorted in our countries that you are in Sweden we call that you are a climber cow or you're a menopause cow. So it's not very, yeah, I know, so it's so distorted. But actually to coming into menopower is a potent transition for both men and women, where you actually connect to the crown chakra, to the wisdom, to the universal wisdom. So I'm writing about that in my chapter. And then my final book, the Sacred Soul.

Speaker 2 57:46

So the Sacred Soul is sold in, I think, 14 countries and Holy Fuck, and Sacred Water, the Sacred Connections is sold in 17 countries and is mentioned as the book of the year, as it is. And this book is simply here for us to remember who we are on a soul level. It takes us through the downfall of humanity and also the ascension that we are in now. So this is here to for you to remember who you are on a soul level. So each and every book is like high vibrational and they are channeled, downloaded from the akashic record. So nothing is new, but most of the things most people have forgotten.

Speaker 1 58:33

So yeah, I love that. I absolutely love it, and the material sounds so good. I need to check it out for myself, please do I uh yeah, it's um, it's a game changer.

Speaker 2 58:48

Uh, holy fucking sacred water and this the, the sacred soul. They're like game changers and that's also why I've been censored are you serious yeah, for real yeah wow because, back home in Sweden or elsewhere on Amazon. What? Yes, and I'm censored in Sweden also. So you know, I don't see anything on my social media. I have to sort of, you know, look up my friends, and people don't see me if they don't look into me. And, as I said, I can't even log into my own linkedin account.

Speaker 2 59:34

it is, you know I'm, I'm banned that is crazy to me yeah, so it's been really heavy trying to have you know business running if you running, if you can't be visible. So there's also been like being on podcasts has also been, you know, like a voice, like you know I won't be silenced this lifetime.

Speaker 1 59:59

In that case, where can we find your books?

Speaker 2 1:00:03

So my website is wwwuliskarlssoncom, and I'm going to spell it for you. I know it's difficult for an English-speaking person, so it's U-L-L-I-S-K-A-R-L-S-S-O-N, u-l-l-i-s-k-a-r-l-s-s-o-ncom, and I also want to say thank you for having me and for being open to talk about things that some people are not so comfortable to talk about. So thank you, and also thank you, you who's listening, and I hope that there could be a word or a sentence that is resonating with you to aid your ascension process.

Speaker 2 1:00:47

And ascension process is not only about moving upwards. It is the combination of the ascending flow and the descending flow of the feminine, and they meet at the heart. So most people are working only with the ascending flow. We need to be enlightened, we want to move upwards, etc. But we need to anchor the wisdom within our body. So we need the ascending and the descending flow and the need in the heart, and I also want to say, like, if you find that you are, you know, depressed or in a dark space the word depressed could also interpreted as a deep rest deep rest for body, mind and soul. So actually you might be that seed that has been planted, and so that's a good way, that's a good way to start.

Exploring Healing and Transformation

Speaker 1 1:01:37

Love that perspective. So mad. It's a way to look at things differently. I think when you look at it in that way, it becomes more of an aid than a hindrance. Yes, because depression, as we think about it, we usually think about it as a hindrance. Yes, right, but the way that you just put it, it can be the starting point of you helping yourself. It sounds so helpful, right, it sounds so healing, coming from that state where you're saying you can look at it as a deep rest. Yeah, I'm happy. Yeah, it's, it's really beautiful the way that you just described that.

Speaker 2 1:02:23

so, thank you thank you, and just also that the more darkness we can explore, harness and transmute, the more access we have to the light, absolutely.

Speaker 1 1:02:37

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