Girl In The Cupboard
The title reflects that I spent most of my childhood hiding in my bedroom cupboard, to keep safe but also to hide from the world, I loved and I hated that cupboard equally, but it was to become my safe space and without it I dont think I would be here.
I talk about all the things that has happened to me growing up to adult life, racism, bullying, abuse mentally & physically by parents & others. My own mental health and struggles.
I will share with you stories of growing up in a mix raced single mum family who had her own a fascinating story of her own, losing her to mental illness, the highs and lows of her split personality, finding out my dad who left when I was 5 was not my real dad 2 years ago which catapulted me into a new chapter in my life with a new family and siblings I never knew I had and so much more!
Just me trying to make sense of it all and navigate my way through, knowing iam not alone and that there are many others like me out there and maybe I can help someone else along the way.
Episodes
50 episodes
Episode 48 He used to slide under the table
8TH March 2024Today I finish her notes/letter on her life in India with her parents Don't forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful if you could subscrib...
Episode 47 - Hello I am back :)
6TH March 2024Just a quick hello and update on the letter , back again tomorrow with a full episodeDon't forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful if you could ...
Episode 46 - I'am devastated
27th February 2024Out on our walk today I'am devastated out on my walk my mums letter has fallen out of my pocket, back home I sit on the sofa & start to read the next letters, apologies for the tears I cant believe they are lost...
Episode 45 - I discovered how I was born!
23rd February 2024Out on our walk today where I read more of her letter/book pages, I discovered how I was born!Don't forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful if y...
Episode 44 - He kept pigeons in the toilet!
22nd February 2024We are in the snug again today as we read more of mums letter/book, I discover a lot of things but iam shocked to read that he kept pigeons in the toilet! Don't forget to go back to the other episodes or j...
Episode 43 - Pregnant. Stalked. Married. Belongings being destroyed
21st February 2024We are in the snug today with both cat & dog, apologies for his behavior. We read more of mums Book/Letter where she talks about discovering shes pregnant with me, rushed into marriage, sta...
Episode 42- Letter found in the loft & discovery of my real dad
20th February 2024Join our walk today where I read you mums letter that was found in her paperwork in the loft. Don't forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful if...
Episode 41 - Found her wedding dress & lipstick
19th February On our walk today doggie is full of spring, Iam back from the flu, I go over last weeks letter findings and my findings in the loft where I find mums wedding dress and lipstick. Dont forget to go back to ...
Episode 40 - Stalked & I finally went into the loft
14th February . On our walk today I talk about being stalked by the ex and the stepfather and what I found in the atticDont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would...
Episode 38 - Date rape & Single life
13th February . On our walk today I find my way in single life, socializing and being taken advantage offDont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful i...
Episode 39 - He stripped the house.
12th February . On our walk today I tell you about setting out on my own and how the ex stripped the house and left me with the mortgage Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!.&n...
Episode 38 - New boyfriend put me in a chest freezer
11th February . Out on marathon training today, not feeling great and the tracker keeps interrupting, so sorry about the quality! Today I tell you about my first boyfriend, house surfing and the day he tried to put me in a freezer ...
Episode 37 - Held me up by my neck against a door
9th February . Walk with me today with the stubborn dog, bad dreams are back with the memories I had forgotten Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be...
Episode 36 - Buying fags for mum age 8
8th February . Walk with me in the rain today as I update you on the social services and going to the shop with no money. Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. &nb...
Episode 35 Our names got changed by deed poll
7th February Come with me on my walk today with the doggie. Upsetting news from social services today which I talk about and tell you about our names being changed by deed poll Dont forget to go back to the other episo...
Episode 34 - Bailiff’s at the door
6th February Come with me on my walk today with the doggie. Today I talk about HP credit agreements and bailiffs coming to the door Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!
Episode 33. We had to steal to make ends meet
5th February Come with me on my walk today with the doggie. Apologies for the delay our internet has been down and then my computer crashed!!Today I talk about our need to steal to provide the basics Dont...
Episode 32 - Picking potatoes
4th February . Today I talk to you about yesterday episode while out on my run Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd!. Would be grateful if you cou...
Episode 31 - Found my underwear in stepfathers bed
2nd February Come with me on my walk today with the doggie. Today I talk to you of fond memories during carnival times and also the day I discovered my under ware in my stepfathers bedDont forget to go back to the other episo...
Episode 30 - She put my head down the toilet & flushed it
1st February Come with me on my walk today with doggie. Talked about bullying and being pub children & i've emailed social services for my records. Dont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one mig...
Episode 29 - The day I discovered my real dad.
Come with me on my walk today with doggie. I want to dedicate this episode to my real dad, my real hero and everything I ever wanted from a dad and more, how I discovered I had another dad and our journey to make it legal Dry Janua...
Episode 28- He used to sit on my bed at night when I was asleep
Come with me on my walk today with doggie. Today I talk about new start for mum and the stepfather and what life was like. Their new social life and visits to my room at night. Dry January Continues 2 more days to go!...
Episode 27 - He drilled holes in my door to spy on me.
Come with me on my walk today with doggie. Today I tell you about the stepfather by hell. Dry January Continues one drink with my bathDont forget to go back to the other episodes or just one might seem a bit odd! they are on...