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The Angsty Pod
For more than 2 decades, I have written in a diary almost every single day. And guess what? I saved them ALL. Each week, I will be reading from these archives and getting to know myself from the lens of my 10, 16, 25, and 36-year-old self. We'll explore big topics such as body image, queerness, divorce, addiction, mental health, and friendship. I'll read cringy poems and attempt to find compassion for the painful tenderness of my younger self. Join the drama of me and my guests as we explore our boy-crazy, closeted, angsty selves... one stupid page at a time.
Episodes
31 episodes
Episode 28 with Sarah Hanson
Join me as I chat with my pal and client, Sarah Hanson! Sarah (she/her) is a poet from Minneapolis, Minnesota. She is a truth teller, trauma survivor, and constant reinventor. Sarah's writing practice is "in bloom" and her first poetry collecti...
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Episode 27 - Big Romance?.... Or BIG Dysfunction?!?
Content Note: This episode mentions self-harm and suicidal ideation.In this week's episode, I am falling in love and terrified of saying it out loud. I'm so terrified, I start inflicting physical and spiritual harm to myself ...
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Episode 26 - Handjobs and Hard Conversations
Part way through this episode, I decide to split this journal into two episodes because just SO much is happening! It's winter 2005 and I am coked out of my mind. I go on a bender in Quebec City and am slowly falling madly in love with my very ...
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Episode 25 - The Worst House Party Ever
CONTENT WARNING: This episode mentions suicide. Please take gentle care when listening.Kid's Help Phone: You can reach a professional counsellor...
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Episode 24 - Tanked in a Lime Green Tube Top
This episode starts with me getting kicked out of my house and ends with me rolling around in bed with someone from my past. Oh, by the way, I'm 17. Things at home are the worst they've ever been, but my parents are almost completel...
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Episode 23 - Committed & Desperate
Content notes: This episode mentions suicidal ideation multiple times. Take good care!! --After a lil break, I'm back with another episode and this one SHOOK me. I turn 17 and get completely black out drunk and basical...
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Episode 22 - Peanut Butter Heart
In this episode, I share my first experience using hard drugs and what it was like to have my boyfriend call me a "dirty dirty e-head" in front of all my friends. I am self-conscious about my clothes, worried that what I wear will start a fight...
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The Episode Where My Dog Dies
I'm taking a pause from my regular scheduled programming to bring you a special episode about the life and death of my dog, Gnowee. In this episode, I share tons of memories from the day I adopted Gnowee right up until her death. I ...
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Episode 20 - Codependency 101!
It's summer 2004 and I am learning everything I can about how to be a anxious/avoidant-attached-codependent... and I'm ACING IT. I miss my friends terribly and start telling my diary about my fantasies of being on my own and then SPOILER ALERT:...
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Episode 19 with jp thorn
Content Notes: This episode contains mentions of suicide, drug use, disordered eating, death, and other potentially triggering topics. Please take gentle care while listening. <3In this episode, I have a long chat with my pal j...
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Episode 18 - In My Hippy Era
Content Notes: This episode mentions self-harm, drug/alcohol abuse, and sexual assault. Please take gentle care while listening. <3It's summer 2004 and I'm working my afterschool job as an egg picker at a local farm. When ...
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Episode 17 - My Best (Modern) Love Story (Part 3)
It's 2018 and I'm on the very tail end of my five-week adventure in Thailand. I've been teasing it for a few weeks and today is the day I finally share the full story of my best love story (and, as a special treat, I read a rough draft of my Mo...
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Episode 16 - She Thirsty, Literally! (Part 2)
I've just arrived to Koh Samui, Thailand. It's a quiet island and I am as lonely as one could ever be - there are no humans (except my sweet neighbor, Rod) and I've got a wretched sunburn. I share two stories of when I trusted a random stranger...
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Episode 15 - Noodles for Breakfast (Part 1)
It's early 2019 and I've just arrived in Thailand. I'm staying with my best friend who is, like me, a bit of a mess but trying to hold it all together. We eat until we can't eat anymore, walk until we can't walk anymore, sweat until... you get ...
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Episode 14 - F*cking and Punching
This episode is an absolute rollercoaster. I've just turned 16 and am spending every waking moment of my life (when I'm not in Driver's Ed!) with my uber possessive/moody boyfriend. I haven't seen my friends in months. Both my parents are M.I.A...
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Interview with Siva - Part 2
In part two of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions,...
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Interview with Siva - Part 1
In part one of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions,...
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Episode 13 - The One Where I Lose My Virginity
It's January 2004. I'm 15 going on 30 and am falling for the boy-next-door who sells pot and has sideburns. We spend our days making out and quoting Mall Rats. We are falling hopelessly while we try to navigate the rollercoaster that is our you...
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Episode 12 - Love Triangles and The Boy Who Blew My Mind
I'm 15 going on 16 and about to fall in love for what feels like the hundredth time. But this time, something feels different. I'm scared to get vulnerable with Grant because "what if he wastes all his goodness on me." There are too many love t...
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Episode 11 with Julie Fontes
"Writing is less about filling the page and more about discovery..."I am very into Julie Fontes as a writer and as a hilarious, sweet, genuine human being. My interview with her went in every direction imaginable... we candidly...
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Episode 10 - The Pool Party
It's the summer of grade 9 and I am throwing my bestie a surprise birthday party. It's very pop-and-chips - a bunch of kids just playing games and fighting in the pool. At the party, my mom reveals something that changes the course of my childh...
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Episode 9 - Vindicated by a Love Triangle
I'm halfway through my first year of high school. I'm about to break up with my first boyfriend (Nick Lachey from Episode 8!) but not before I enter into a super weird love triangle with my friend, who I will call "J," who is 6 years older than...
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Episode 9
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Episode 8 - Nick Lachey Is My Boyfriend
I've just entered highschool and had my first real kiss AND my first real boyfriend so basically, total chaos. My friendships are unravelling, my parents are fighting. My OCD and ED are on fire but no one knows except me and my dear old diary.<...
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Episode 9
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