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The Angsty Pod
For more than 2 decades, I have written in a diary almost every single day. And guess what? I saved them ALL. Each week, I will be reading from these archives and getting to know myself from the lens of my 10, 16, 25, and 36-year-old self. We'll explore big topics such as body image, queerness, divorce, addiction, mental health, and friendship. I'll read cringy poems and attempt to find compassion for the painful tenderness of my younger self. Join the drama of me and my guests as we explore our boy-crazy, closeted, angsty selves... one stupid page at a time.
Episodes
23 episodes
Episode 20 - Codependency 101!
It's summer 2004 and I am learning everything I can about how to be a anxious/avoidant-attached-codependent... and I'm ACING IT. I miss my friends terribly and start telling my diary about my fantasies of being on my own and then SPOILER ALERT:...
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Episode 19 with jp thorn
Content Notes: This episode contains mentions of suicide, drug use, disordered eating, death, and other potentially triggering topics. Please take gentle care while listening. <3In this episode, I have a long chat with my pal j...
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Episode 18 - In My Hippy Era
Content Notes: This episode mentions self-harm, drug/alcohol abuse, and sexual assault. Please take gentle care while listening. <3It's summer 2004 and I'm working my afterschool job as an egg picker at a local farm. When ...
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Episode 17 - My Best (Modern) Love Story (Part 3)
It's 2018 and I'm on the very tail end of my five-week adventure in Thailand. I've been teasing it for a few weeks and today is the day I finally share the full story of my best love story (and, as a special treat, I read a rough draft of my Mo...
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Episode 16 - She Thirsty, Literally! (Part 2)
I've just arrived to Koh Samui, Thailand. It's a quiet island and I am as lonely as one could ever be - there are no humans (except my sweet neighbor, Rod) and I've got a wretched sunburn. I share two stories of when I trusted a random stranger...
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Episode 15 - Noodles for Breakfast (Part 1)
It's early 2019 and I've just arrived in Thailand. I'm staying with my best friend who is, like me, a bit of a mess but trying to hold it all together. We eat until we can't eat anymore, walk until we can't walk anymore, sweat until... you get ...
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Episode 14 - F*cking and Punching
This episode is an absolute rollercoaster. I've just turned 16 and am spending every waking moment of my life (when I'm not in Driver's Ed!) with my uber possessive/moody boyfriend. I haven't seen my friends in months. Both my parents are M.I.A...
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Interview with Siva - Part 2
In part two of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions,...
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Interview with Siva - Part 1
In part one of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions,...
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Episode 13 - The One Where I Lose My Virginity
It's January 2004. I'm 15 going on 30 and am falling for the boy-next-door who sells pot and has sideburns. We spend our days making out and quoting Mall Rats. We are falling hopelessly while we try to navigate the rollercoaster that is our you...
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Episode 12 - Love Triangles and The Boy Who Blew My Mind
I'm 15 going on 16 and about to fall in love for what feels like the hundredth time. But this time, something feels different. I'm scared to get vulnerable with Grant because "what if he wastes all his goodness on me." There are too many love t...
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Episode 11 with Julie Fontes
"Writing is less about filling the page and more about discovery..."I am very into Julie Fontes as a writer and as a hilarious, sweet, genuine human being. My interview with her went in every direction imaginable... we candidly...
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Episode 10 - The Pool Party
It's the summer of grade 9 and I am throwing my bestie a surprise birthday party. It's very pop-and-chips - a bunch of kids just playing games and fighting in the pool. At the party, my mom reveals something that changes the course of my childh...
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Episode 9 - Vindicated by a Love Triangle
I'm halfway through my first year of high school. I'm about to break up with my first boyfriend (Nick Lachey from Episode 8!) but not before I enter into a super weird love triangle with my friend, who I will call "J," who is 6 years older than...
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Episode 9
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Episode 8 - Nick Lachey Is My Boyfriend
I've just entered highschool and had my first real kiss AND my first real boyfriend so basically, total chaos. My friendships are unravelling, my parents are fighting. My OCD and ED are on fire but no one knows except me and my dear old diary.<...
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Episode 9
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Episode 7 - That Night In The Field
Content Warning: This episode describes multiple sexual assaults.It's 2002. It's the summer before high school starts. I am straddling the line between young, innocent 13-year-old girl who just wants to decorate my journal with g...
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Episode 6 - Bankruptcy and Brené Brown
I read my diary from 2017, through tears, as I recount the events that led to me filing for bankruptcy. I re-live some of the most anxiety-ridden days of my life and talk about what it was like for me to move back in with my father...
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Episode 6
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Episode 5 - Dead Journal and MSN
"Fruit for breakfast. Veggies, fruit, and crackers for lunch. Something light for dinner. No snack." It's New Year's Day, 2002. I am 13 going on 14 and have just gotten drunk for my first time. I am eternally embarrassed by my mother. I...
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Episode 5
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Episode 4 with Maria Mosca
"I don't know how to love myself when I'm sad..." When I set out to launch a podcast, my main goal was to have a space to sit and talk to my writer friends about not just words, but grief and mental health and psychology and healing...
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Episode 3 - Maybe I'm A Lesbian?
In this episode, I have just entered eighth grade and the World Trade Centers were attacked. I am angry and bitter and confused about life, death, my sexuality, and my sister's indifference. I'll also share the story of how I met my very best f...
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Episode 2 - Pot Brownies And Men Named Marco
"We met. We fell in love. We went to Paris. We said goodbye." <3In this episode, I read from my diary titled, "Eurotrip 2018." I eat pot brownies in Amsterdam, turn thirty in Alfama, fall on my face in Porto, fall in love-ish with a m...
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Episode 1 - Justin + Yoda = LUV4EVA
In this episode, I'll be reading my very first diary... or at least, the first diary that I kept. Its cover is decorated in the phone numbers of every kid in my class plus some glitter for good measure. In the back, there is a glossary where I ...
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Episode 1
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