Held.

54 ~ Mollys life update + cycles, staying in your own lane & backing your desires

• Madison Mindset & Clarity Awaits

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Hello and welcome back to another episode of Held 🧚🏼

In this episode Molly shares a bit of a life update and we talk all things cycles, staying in your own lane, backing your desires and creating your dream reality!!

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SPEAKER_01:

But what I've noticed in myself is I can so easily let what other people were doing. Like, say if someone else is pivoting in business or they have this thing that's working for them, I then take it on board and think that that will work for me and I should do that.

SPEAKER_00:

When I was focusing on third eye, I had this vision of what I was manifesting with my anxiety. It was so weird. I was in the hospital, I was like doing different tests, I was like super stressed out, and it was a vision that I haven't lived yet. And I was like, no. Someone asked me, what do you want instead if you don't want that? And I literally dropped in an image of um me sitting really old age next to Mars, next to a river, with our grown-up children and grandchildren playing in the river in the middle of the forest. Held is recorded on Ragereland, Australia. Hey Maddie! Hey Molly! Join us for this episode and let yourself be held. This podcast is an online space for women to find open, honest, and judgment-free conversation.

SPEAKER_01:

I'm Molly, an intuitive guide, breathwork practitioner, and tea lover. And I'm Maddie, a yoga teacher, mindset coach, and plant enthusiast. Here's some topics you can expect to hear on this podcast. Our current challenges and wins. Periods and relationships. Friendships and work. Love and health. Open conversations and advice. Intuition, yoga, and breath work, incredible guests and guides. And raw, honest chats that will leave you feeling held. We can't wait to open this conversation with you. Join us in this space and let yourself be held. Hello everyone. Welcome back to another episode of Held. We hope you are having a beautiful day, no matter what it is you're doing or where you are in the world. How are you, Maddie? Good, Molly. How are you? I'm good. I um don't know if you've noticed. Something has changed in my energy since yesterday.

SPEAKER_00:

I definitely noticed. I noticed I went to meet this girl for lunch yesterday. I looked on her Insta stories and saw her energy, and I was like, oh my fucking god, I don't know if I can handle it today. I'm so the uh absolute opposite. This bitch is on crack.

SPEAKER_01:

Oh my god. I don't know what well, let's go into a cycle check-in. I'm on day uh I'm gonna get up Mrs. Clue. Miss Clue. I think I'm on day, yeah, I'm on day six. So we're so close. Yeah, I know. We've like finally like synced up a little bit. So I had my bleed for like three days. I don't bleed for very long. I had my bleed for like three days, and then yesterday was like the first day of not bleeding. I had a bit of spotting, but my energy was like fucking crazy. Like I just had so much energy, and like I was just like on one. I was on one. I'm just gonna say that. Um, and then I wake up this morning and I feel completely different. I feel really grounded. My brain feels quiet, my energy feels calm. And I'm like, what is this? It's so interesting. It's like, yes, like just one extreme to the other. But I was like, this is really nice actually, because um I've got a lot I need to get done today, and I'm just like feeling really grateful that my energy feels really grounded to do that. Um, and so I think yesterday was like maybe like what they call a crossover day, where you go from like menstrual to follicular. So my energy was really heightened. And then I don't know, now maybe I'm stabilizing or something. But I actually woke up this morning. I've been sleeping so well since my like late ludial, like sleeping all the way through the night. It's been so good. Um, and then this morning I woke up and I just was like, oh, this I feel quiet. My brain feels quiet, it feels calm. So I just made myself like a nice lemon water, went outside bare feet, walked on the grass. It was kind of wet and cold, like the grass. It was really nice. And I just hadn't had a morning like that where I just like walk around the backyard barefoot in literally I don't know how long. Um, and then I just sat outside and did like this really cool um guided breath work where you like breathe. It's like a body scan, but you breathe into every part of your body. So you like breathe into your feet, breathe into your calves and your shins, breathe into your thighs all the way up, and then there's like breath holds in there, and oh, it was just so good. And now I'm having a chat with you, and I just feel grounded. She's stable. I love it, and I have shared this with you. I haven't shared this on the podcast, and I mean it's a weird, it's a weird conversation, everyone has such different like beliefs around this, but I am 99% sure I have ADHD. Like I'm 99% sure. My brain, and that's fine. And since realizing it and talking to other people that have actually been formally like diagnosed and like reading into it, I actually have such a better understanding of myself and I love it. And I'm like, whether yeah, like whether or not I have that like label or diagnosis, like I'm not I don't have that right now, and I'm don't think I'll go down that path. However, I it's sort of given me a deeper understanding on my energy and why I am the way I am sometimes. Like yesterday, that was like crazy, but it was like it's also like a superpower in a way because fuck I can get some shit done. It's like I'm a Ferrari babe. Like I am a Ferrari and I'm just like full speed ahead on the highway. However, then I notice when I have these like down times, it can be like something in my brain as well. So yeah, that's fun, and it's just something that I'm like observing and I'm aware of. And like if I see a video pop up about ADHD, I'll like listen to it and I'll be like, oh, kind of helps me make my makes me understand myself a little bit more.

SPEAKER_00:

Interesting. Yeah. Was that your lesson and blessing?

SPEAKER_01:

No, that was just my cycle check-in of that was just my cycle check-in and a bit of a yap, yep, yap. Uh I can do my lesson and blessing. My current lesson, and we've all heard it, and I was speaking about this on my stories, I think, the other day, is like staying in your own lane. My lesson is around staying in my own lane. Um, in regards to, and I don't know if this is like my personality type or my like human design as a projector. I'm very open and have a very open chart. But what I've noticed in myself is I can so easily let what other people are doing, like, say if someone else is pivoting in business or they have this thing that's working for them, I then take it on board and think that that will work for me and I should do that. So it's like staying in my own lane and like being discerning with what is my truth versus what am I just like observing or admiring in someone else, and I don't necessarily need to make it my own. And like people listening might be able to relate to this in the sense of like, I know, for example, my beautiful best friend Ellie, she will be so happy in what she's doing in her life and how her life is going. And then, like, her housemate, for example, has gone and is traveling Australia. And so Ellie is like, oh my god, maybe I should go do that. Like, should I do that? And like that, like that's just an example of we can witness these other people doing these things, and then we think, oh, maybe I should do that. So it's like being discerning with what is actually your truth and like your soul soul's calling. So that's like my current lesson is just like being discerning with my energy and just like when I see something and I'm like, oh, maybe I should pivot, maybe I should do that. Just like actually stopping and being like, wait, is that actually like from me or is that like from somewhere else? You know what I mean? Okay, that's so relevant these days. Oh my goodness. Yeah, and it's so relevant when you're listening to people's podcasts, you're listening, you're on social media, like not even just out in the real world, you know. Like we have so much access to see what other people are doing, which is um I think it is a blessing and a curse, right? Because it can give us so much inspiration and so many incredible ideas, and also it becomes a problem when we start thinking, oh, I'm not enough, I need a change, um, what I'm doing isn't right, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. When it becomes like a um self-sabotage piece or like a limiting belief. So that's my lesson. And my current blessing is I actually asked Corey last night three things that um he was excited for, and then I told him three things that I was excited for. And I feel like they're what that's my blessing at the moment is that I am excited about a lot at the moment. I'm excited about um building my dream business. I'm excited for summer and like spending some time at the beach. I'm gonna go up to Newcastle for a couple of weeks. Um, and I'm also excited uh in January, actually. So I'm gonna go in December. I'm going for a weekend to Wollongong to visit Corey's um sister and her partner, and we'll stay with them, so that'll be nice. Over between Christmas and New Year's, I'm going to Melbourne for a couple of days with Corey and his family. Um, and then January, Corey's going overseas for three weeks, and I am gonna stay put here, and then I'm gonna go end of January and spend like two weeks in Newcastle um with Ellie and my friend Grace, and it's gonna be my birthday, and I just want to like chill, lay at the beach, I'll still work from there, it'll be great. Oh, beautiful. This sounds like a great plan. Yeah, and then the other thing that I'm excited for is my next chapter with Corey, which I don't know if I've actually like you know that I've been flip-flopping when that's gonna happen and what that's gonna look like. And I feel like I've really just landed in this the word conviction came up for me, like just being like having conviction in owning what I want and owning that I want that next chapter with him. I want to move in, I want to live together, I want to like start building our life together. Um, so I'm excited about that next chapter. It's looking like it'll probably happen in like the first half of next year. So I think like from February, we'll probably start keeping an eye out for places in Canberra.

SPEAKER_00:

Wow, that's gonna be so exciting.

SPEAKER_01:

Yeah, it's gonna be so exciting. So I just feel like there's a lot of like moving parts that have just sort of fallen into place. Um, and not even necessarily fallen into place. I think we can often wait for things to fall into place. However, you can actually just make a decision and then go with it and be have conviction in that decision and just be like, this is what I want. Sort of like grab it, you know. You have all these ideas up above you, like I'm visioning you've got a sky full of ideas. It's like you can just grab one and pull it down and make that your focus, you know what I mean? Rather than being overwhelmed by everything in the sky.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, oh amazing. Oh my goodness, so much things happening.

SPEAKER_01:

I know this episode feels like it's gonna be like a little bit of a life update.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, well, literally. I'm just like, I literally forgot I had a mic. I was just like, oh yeah, I like listening to my own.

SPEAKER_01:

I know, yeah, so did I. Because I I have um I have even more to say about the whole moving thing. Do you want me to go? Would you want me to share that now? Or do you want to do yours and then we can come back? A moving thing. No, well, now I'm curious. Go on. So, what I realized was I went to Canberra the other week, and then I went to Geelong for my beautiful friend Gabby's Hens Weekend, and I had the best time. And I was with all these girls, like I'd I hadn't met half like many of these people at all. It was all brand new people, and lots of them were engaged, like getting married, living with their partners. And what I realized on that weekend, I was like, fuck, like I want that. Like I want that for myself. I feel like I've coined it independent woman syndrome. I feel like because I was single for so long and I got this like independent woman mindset. Sometimes I fall back into that in relationship and I'm like, oh, I don't want to rely on a partner. I don't want to like blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I get this like independent woman syndrome. And that weekend made me realize, fuck, like, I want that for myself. And I'm allowed to want that. Like, I'm allowed to want that next chapter with Corey, moving in, getting a house, building, like, building a new, like, building a home together, like getting furniture, styling it, and then, you know, eventually getting engaged and married and having kids. Like, I want all of that for myself. Um, and I think this also comes back to that staying in your own lane thing. Because I do have some friends that are single, I think often, especially like Ellie, she'll talk about going travelling and all of that. And I'll be like, oh, maybe that's what I want to do. Like maybe I maybe I need to just like put on pause that next chapter and like go traveling like by myself and all of that sort of stuff. So it's just like coming back to my own energy. So that was a really beautiful realization. And also, like I realized over that weekend, like hearing all these women talk about their partners and seeing like the like at the Hens Day, they had put together this presentation of them asking um Seamus, so the the groom, like all these questions. And I was it just made me realize like Corey is my best friend. Like we have so much fun together, and he is just like my rock. He knows all parts of me. Like he is my best friend, you know, he's the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. Um, and so it was just these beautiful, beautiful realizations. And then when I was driving home from Canberra, I felt excited to come back here. Like I was like keen to get home into my own bed and all of that. But there was part of me that was like, oh, like I love being with Corey, like, and doing life together. Um, and on that drive, I just had download after download drop in because, as you know, a lot of the reason why I then put moving to Canberra on hold is because I'll be like, oh no, but I think I want to move to the beach, or I'll be like, oh, but there's so many opportunities in carcore and orange. There's so many opportunities for clarity awaits and for me to build my business and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And what I realized was it's all just a security blanket. Like it's literally all just a security blanket. And no matter where I go, no matter where I move, there's gonna be opportunities and I'm gonna make it work. No matter where I go, Clarity Awaits is gonna thrive because clarity weights is me. It's not dependent on a location. Um, and I also just realized like I am nearly 29, like I'm 28, nearly 29. I'm living like next door to mum and dad, which I love and I adore. However, you can get so then caught up with what they're doing, and you can almost feel this sense of guilt that, oh, I shouldn't leave them. And oh, like I'm in the business with mum, so I need to make that work. And it's like, this is my life. And like, mum and dad never lived near their parents growing up, like they moved so early on, like we never lived near our grandparents. They're not gonna be angry at me for leaving, you know, like all these limiting beliefs that I had just piled up on in myself, and like the thing about moving to the beach is like, yeah, that I want that for my reality sometime, but Corey and I have the rest of our lives to live at the beach. Like, Canberra can just be a stepping stone, or Canberra can be, you know, it's just I'm gonna go there and see what happens. Corey's gonna go into business with this friend, and we're gonna see how it all evolves, you know? And so it was just this it was just sort of like these, all these uncoverings, and it was amazing. And now I just feel clarity. I think you said that earlier. Like it's like I'm just getting clarity on my business, on what I want in my relationship for my life, the next chapter, and it feels great. That's amazing. Sorry, that would that was a lot. There's my life to update, everyone.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, we just went straight into Molly's um inner thoughts and where she's going. That's amazing, though. I'm so excited for you guys, and it's gonna be beautiful. Yeah, I'll have to come and visit, you have to show me the Canberra sites because all I've all I've done in Canberra is go to Questacon and the War Memorial. That's all I think Canberra is.

SPEAKER_01:

I think I think that's mostly what everyone has done. There is amazing like cafes and restaurants, and like they call it the bush capital of Australia. There's so much bush land and the lakes are beautiful, and also like back to the beach thing. It's only a two-hour drive to the south coast. So I'm gonna be closer to the beach anyway.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, I mean, I do that two-hour drive all the time, like to the mountains and back, and it's not a big deal.

SPEAKER_01:

Two hours is nothing on the road. Exactly. So I feel really excited. It feels exciting, and how far away is Canberra from the Blue Mountains?

SPEAKER_00:

Because we're gonna have to visit each other now.

SPEAKER_01:

I know, I know, because yes, we need a Maddie Life update. Canber to Katoomba. It's four hours. Oh my god. I know it's kind of annoying because it's like a bit of a weird drive. Oh no, no, no, you can go from Canberra, Golben to Ralga, like this back way, Oberon, and then you come out near Lithgow. So it's four hours. We'll make it work.

SPEAKER_00:

We'll make it work. We'll do long distance, it'll be fine. Exactly, exactly.

SPEAKER_01:

I know, I know exactly. Like, it is what it is, isn't it? Um and we're the type of friends that we don't need to talk all the time anyway, to like exactly so.

SPEAKER_00:

It's such a gift, isn't it? Like when you have like I just had my best friend come and visit, um, and I haven't seen her for two years, and we barely talk, like seriously, we barely talk. And I think it'll I don't think it'll be like that with you because we have the podcast and we have very similar people. Like me and my old besti, like, we're so different. It's insane. It's literally it's insane. We're only literally, I was like, we're friends because we're like sisters. We grew up together. That's the only reason we have nothing in common. Um, yeah, which is pretty crazy, but yeah, it's crazy how you don't talk to someone for so long and you get back together and it's like yesterday. And I think that's literally what it'll be for us as well. Yeah, they're my favorite type of friendships, you know.

SPEAKER_01:

You don't have to put that much effort. You don't have to water them all the time because they've already flourished, they're already a fully grown plant. It's a fully grown bitchin tree.

SPEAKER_00:

Like doesn't need your help anymore. It's good. Exactly. Yeah, so let's track back. I'm on day nine.

SPEAKER_01:

Oh my god, okay.

SPEAKER_00:

Yes, I'm in follicula, and I'm kind of going back to my old ways in the sense that follicula is not feeling good for me. Um, it just feels like heightened anxiety. I think maybe because it's like so much like new energy, and you know, it's like that, you know, that spring energy, right? I think that energy does not nourish me as much as winter, autumn. I'm definitely more that phase. You're a very yin person. So yeah. Well, I'm yang. I'm all yang, and I think that's why I like yin.

SPEAKER_01:

Oh, that makes sense. Like that's why the yin seasons balance you out, like luteal and menstrual balance your yang energy out.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, exactly. And I feel like when it's winter in orange as well, I feel like I thrive then as well. Yeah, like when you know how we've had like some cooler weather, everyone's been so upset because it hasn't been really springy, it's been kind of cold. I swear we nearly had a frost the other morning. Oh, basically, literally for fucking three days though, and everyone's like, oh my god. Everyone whinges, it's so annoying. Yeah, and it was crazy though. In the place where you're always like welcoming people in. Yeah. I'm like, how are you? Oh, it's cold. Like literally everyone is like, oh, it's cold. It's like, oh my god, yes, put a jacket on. Shh.

SPEAKER_01:

Yeah, like it's fine. And also, it is crazy though that it went one day, it was like 26 or 27 degrees, and the next day it was like eight. That is a crazy drop. However, it's only for a couple of days, like basically I loved that.

SPEAKER_00:

It really chills me out. I love it, I think it's fantastic. So, yeah, so yeah, me and Fallicula aren't really getting along. Lesson at the moment is probably based around self-healing work. I've been diving into, I think I've mentioned this before that I found all of Dr. Joe Jespen's stuff quite intense and like I couldn't follow it. Yeah, I don't know, something's happened and now I'm like obsessed. So obviously the time now is the time. I listened to Becoming Supernatural, and I bought his guided meditation on it's called Blessing of the Energy Centers. And you can buy it, he guides you through it. It's like a 48-minute meditation. It was insane. I was like, oh my god, 48 minutes. Yes, yes, that ain't for me. Well, that's the thing. Like, you know, I've been doing the Passana sits, they're like torture. I hate them. You know, like I know it's good for you, I know it's good for me, but I hate it. It feels like it's we spoke about one of this in the last episodes, how you did that hour sit with the girl. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Which is so fun. And she's so into it, and she's like, Let's do it again. And I'm like, Oh my god, how about we just don't?

SPEAKER_01:

Do you know what is so funny? Because in the last episode that we spoke about this, you were like, Yeah, I think I'm gonna do it every week.

SPEAKER_00:

And I was like, I want to, like, I really do. And I was questioning myself this week when I was like, I don't want to do it. I was like, is this my mind telling me it doesn't want to do it because of how hard it is? And because it's like mind training, it's hard, which I definitely think there's an element of that. But when I saw this like Joe Dispenser meditation, I was like, oh man, like it's 48 minutes. I will see how we go. It flew past. It was the best, easiest meditation I've ever done. When it was finished, I was like, that was 48 minutes. It was insane. But anyway, he does this really cool thing where he guides you through all the different they're chakras. He doesn't mention the word chakras, he very much goes um science-y, so very science-minded. So I liked that, but I knew it was chakras. And he guides you through and you do this really beautiful blessing and visualization work. It felt amazing. I don't know. And when I got to certain chakras, certain memories popped up. It was so interesting. When I got to throat chakra, so the higher dimensional, you know, that's where you're dropping things in from the universe. When I got to throat chakra, my grandfather popped up. And I was like, whoa, like, why did that come up as soon as I focused on my throat? And I think it's because, you know, that I had to say goodbye to him. I had like a scheduled time to say goodbye. He had a date to go, and it was so weird, and I had to think about what were gonna be my last words. How was I gonna express that I I love him and I'm gonna miss him without sobbing all over the place. And I think that really like that stuck with me because that was literally the surface thing. As soon as I went to throat chakra, my grandfather popped up and I was like, whoa. And then this crazy thing, I went into third eye. I don't do third eye meditations a lot because it's it's a rabbit hole and I need to keep my feet on the ground, you know. But when I was focusing on third eye, I had this vision of what I was manifesting with my anxiety. It was so weird. I was in the hospital, I was like doing different tests, I was like super stressed out, and it was a vision that I haven't lived yet. It was definitely like a future thing, and I was like, holy shit, because if anyone knows me, they know like health anxiety is a big deal for me. I get anything new on my body, I'm freaking out, I'm like going to the doctor, I'm like, I'm definitely dying, this is horrible. And what you focus on, you attract, right? So, one of the big things about health anxiety for me is like to get my mind off that and towards something else so that I'm not manifesting illness in some way. So this image popped up and it was some kind of future, and I saw it. There was no judgment there because I had already been in the meditation for like 40 minutes. It was like quite deep in. I saw this vision and I was like, no. And I literally like put something, it felt like someone was like, and what do you want there instead? Like it literally, I don't know, it felt like someone was asking and it felt like a person, but I know it wasn't a real person or anything like that. I don't know if I don't know what we call it. Universe, God, spirit guide, I don't know. But someone asked me, what do you want instead if you don't want that? And I literally dropped in an image of um me sitting really old age next to Mars, next to a river, with our grown-up children and grandchildren playing in the river in the middle of the forest, and we're just having the best time. And that dropped in, and then that was replaying, and I was like, whoa, okay, that's crazy. So there was a couple of different visuals in that meditation. Like people, you have to try this meditation, it's freaking insane. But yeah, so I did that, and then literally for five hours after I felt great, and then anxiety big time. I think it was like because I was reprogramming. I think these old things were coming up because the old things come up, they sit on the surface, and you have the opportunity to either push them back down or let them go. And to be honest, I think I did a whole heap of pushing down because I don't like the way it makes me feel. It's scary, and I hadn't kind of had a moment to process why I would be feeling that way. So I'm basically gonna do the meditation again and see if I can let it let it go. But it was so powerful. I've never had such an interactive experience with the chakras. Like that was very much like each center, something else popped up, and I was like, whoa. Like you can see what's sitting in each one.

SPEAKER_01:

That's amazing. And I think the thing is as well, it's like one meditation isn't going to completely. I I mean, I don't want to, I don't want to generalize, but like in my in my opinion, one meditation, one breathwork session, one yoga class is not going to reprogram your mind that has been programming a certain thing for so long. So it is that repetition is key in order to actually reprogram. And actually, it's almost like your mind is a projector, and the film, the movie that you've been playing for so long is going to take repetition in order to actually swap them out and have the new film, the new projection be your default. So definitely definitely key there.

SPEAKER_00:

That was literally the first time though I had kind of experienced what it might be like to see what you're manifesting. And it was it was very interesting to see. Like as soon as I went into third eye, that's what was happening. And I was like, no, why are we not doing that? It was insane. So really recommend that book, really recommend that meditation. You do have to go and buy it, it's like$30 something dollars USD, but you download it and it's and he he puts these frequencies and music over it as well, which gives you such a like deeper experience. I don't know. So for me, I feel like I need that over Vipassana at the moment, and now I'm just working out how I cannot feel bad about that because everyone like wants to use the studio or whatever, and I'm like, can I just give you the key and you guys go nuts? Because I just don't want to sit there. I can't can't do that right now. Like it's it's not serving my mental health. But yeah, so my lesson is I've got to work on that stuff, and I've got to really focus on healing that. My blessing right now is my beautiful partner. I was when I go into anxiety, my coping mechanism is scrolling, YouTube videos, doing all that stuff. So I sit there and I watch random videos of funny stuff, and it just kind of entertains me enough that it gets my mind off the anxiety. And I was kind of in that pit like at 9 p.m. last night, just scrolling, scrolling, and Muzz messaged me goodnight, and he was like, Set your alarm, put your phone down and go to bed for me. And he just kind of just gently directed me, and I saw that, and I was like, Okay, but it was it made the biggest difference, and I was like, that was so simple. But just to have someone go, I know you enough to know what you're doing right now, put your phone down. Like he just I don't know how he knows. He seems to know when I'm scrolling, he just like will pick it. I don't know if he can read my energy or what. He knows, like what you say with Corey, right? Knows you inside out, knows all the sides of you, and mother's just like put your phone down and go to bed. You gotta, you know, you gotta go to that. So that's a huge blessing for me to have someone in. your life who can know you and know how to help you get out of your own mess and your own situations that you you know you dig these holes for yourself and sometimes it's like you just fall into these holes and keep digging you know it's like whatever like I'm here now I may as well keep digging and and it means the world when you've got a friend or you know a partner who can reach reach down and pick you up and you know that's another blessing as well like my whole life I haven't felt like I've had partners or friends around me that feel aligned or helpful in any way but I absolutely do like I hang out with Georgie yesterday which was amazing and you know Muzz was supporting me and then I went and chatted with Molly and Molly's literally like my little energizer bunny like seriously I love I love your energy it really helps me because I just go so low and I'm like I don't want to talk to anyone you know go away and Molly just bounces in and she's always got this like even when you're low I still feel like you help me like you still pick me up. It's just like it's just something about what you know Molly's destined to do in my life. I don't know but she's picking me up which is so nice. So it's so good to have people around who are aligned and that can help you and just them being them is enough to support who you are. It's just it's beautiful.

SPEAKER_01:

Oh I love that what a beautiful chat what a beautiful conversation.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah we didn't get beyond the lesson and the blessing but you know what that was gorgeous. I loved hearing everything about you're doing and yeah I'm I'm gonna be moving to the Blue Mountains at some time. I don't know when it's so exciting. I don't know when but it is happening and yeah I think our whole plan is just to buy an empty block of land and live there. That is so exciting. That's literally the plan. I'm just like yeah get a tiny home or something. Yeah that's what we were thinking but I was even thinking we can tow the van out there and live in that until we put something together but yeah so yeah we don't know but I am definitely going to be manifesting that by the river dream because yeah that's just you know environments nurture your energy right like for for me I love the beach but I don't think I like I lived there for a while I lived in Newcastle and I liked it but what happens in Newcastle is one there's a beach two it's windy girl it's windy this wind and beach it stirs me up and like not in a good way it really does like I think it's like like I've spoken about this before like my constitution is very much like fire signs. And you know what happens when you blow air on fire and when you you add more sunshine to fire. It's like whoa like we've got to cool this down. So I literally like will like when Maz is like what do you feel like doing today I'm like I need to hang out where the mushrooms thrive thanks like take me somewhere dark with a waterfall with fungi growing on it. That's where I need I need to sit there and like literally just be in this darkness in this damp air and this chill like away from the sun so fucking funny. It helps me so much I can't tell you how much it helps me. I'll literally say to like if clients are like super anxious I'm like trust me find your nearest forest dark waterfally kind of place you know like the Grand Canyon like when you get right in there it's like lush ferns and everything's wet even if it's like the hottest day outside everything is wet because it's just that kind of deep rainforesty vibes. I'm just like find that place and sit there. Trust me anxiety's got no hope there like it really balances things out. Whereas if you're really low, no energy more towards a depressed side then the beach and light and air would be great for you because it'll pick you up. So it's interesting though how you find these environments that most serve who you are and kind of lift you and support you. It's great.

SPEAKER_01:

I think your next chapter like when you do move and you're with Muzz and you're building that life together and doing whatever it is you're gonna do in the next chapter and living in the mountains is going to be so fucking good for you. So my sign off message to everyone including you Maddie and myself is to focus on what you do want like literally create a movie in your mind of what it is you're creating and what you want if you feel like you need to create a vision board like open up Pinterest and do that focus on what you do want and that is that is the key.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah and adding adding to that like just as from my lesson this week I don't know how to explain what's happening in other dimensions how things come to you how law of attraction manifestation I don't even like you can try and explain it. I don't know how to explain the experience I had in my own brain but you really are creating and you have to be so careful and you know something that is all the way through that book that I mentioned you know becoming supernatural is you know where you put your attention is where you put your energy and wherever your energy goes is what's going to thrive. So just be very mindful of what you put your energy on because I've put my attention on oh this person's doing this I wish I was doing that or oh I should be doing this I should be doing that and you know this is what I'm scared of this is what I'm worried about this is what I don't want to happen. And that's exactly what brings those things to you because you're focusing so much on them. So this is not an easy thing but definitely like on that you know focus on what you do want like seriously like and literally attention on it.

SPEAKER_01:

Literally next time you catch yourself saying I don't want this I don't want that replace I do want like what do you actually want then stop focusing on what you don't want and talking about what you don't want and start verbalizing and speaking about what you do want.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah I do want to feel grounded I do want to feel calm I do want to feel excited about my life I do want to feel trust you know you've heard that analogy right people say you just reminded me of it but you know if you were ordering food in a restaurant you wouldn't sit there with the menu and the waiters there going what do you want you going well I don't want the chicken I don't want this I don't want that it's like don't tell them what you don't want tell them what you do want. How am I supposed to bring you something you don't want holy shit I love that metaphor I thought you've brought it up before I've heard that before and I'm like it's so true.

SPEAKER_01:

Like you don't go I don't want the rap that one is locked and loaded in my brain I'm gonna reuse that I love it I love it I love it I love it. People ask for what you do want to fucking speak the good menu baby. Yeah exactly ask for what you want you get I love that now that is a great way to sign off and that's an episode that's a freaking episode oh my god well thank you everyone for tuning in to another episode of Held we would love to hear your takeaway so if you're listening on Spotify leave a comment I don't know if you can comment anywhere else Maddie maybe you know not that I know of anyway thank you so much for tuning in we love you so much and we're so grateful that you're here. Lots of love and never forget you're always held