EP15: "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade"

Today is a very special episode!! The first of my Human Design seriers where i bring guest on that don't know much or anything about their Human Design profile. I interview through the Lense of Human Design to see how this system really works in everyday life situations. The information I gain from studying my guests' charts gives me the frameworks to ask some deep questions. Also allows the conversation to take unexpected turns with exciting realization for my guest!! 

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Your life is like a painting or a piece of music. Every phase has its haunting beauty, even the sad ones. In fact, you can make that leap in frequency. The times when you feel lost and alone are really the most magical of all. Sorry chap crying in the club No, I that was a lovely statement. Thank you for finding that for me yeah, it's That Really encapsulated like most of the internal struggle that i've been going through Lately But I just wanted to cut in there because it just takes reprogramming your brain of saying, I'm whole, I'm ready, I'm good right now. There's nothing I need to do. There's nothing I need to fix. And that, that, that can take time. But just know that. You really could do it right now, Hi friends. Welcome back to the fluidity podcast. My name is Hannah. I'm your host and we have the beautiful Mia with us today and so we were going to do this with you. Online and her at her house, but she had some technical difficulties and I actually think it is meant to be because it's better in person So don't mind us passing back the mic back and forth We got a bootstrap this in the beginning, So So, Mia, this is going to be the first of my series. Those of you listening, you probably don't know what I'm talking about, but don't worry, I will fill you in. So the series is going to feature people in my life, people that inspire me. I want to see human design work in real life. So I'm just going to bring people on the podcast and interview them through the lens of human design. They don't necessarily know much about their human design. Like Mia, I don't think really knows anything about her human design besides the little things that I've told her, but I've studied her design heavily over the couple of days, last couple of days. So yeah, a lot of these questions is going to be about her human design. And again, she doesn't really know what I'm even going to be talking about today. So this is going to be good. It's going to be exciting. But yeah, this is really just to help us see how on purpose we already are. And yeah, I'm just super excited. This is like the fun, funnest thing I can think of doing with my day. Mia, have any questions before I go into it? Do you want to say hi to the folks? Hey folks I'm Mia I'm super nervous because I don't like being out of control and I don't like not knowing what's happening, but Trust is in Hannah banana today So we got this. Okay Yes, if you're watching on youtube this is not going to be my forever studio this is just Yeah, until we get it situated. Those of you listening, Human Design, I know I'm newly bringing Human Design into the podcast. I just wanted to explain to you guys what Human Design is. in terms that I think are the most simple. This explanation will probably evolve over time as I evolve, but this is the way I am like vibing with how to explain it. So also I'm looking for, cause you, do you know much about human design? Not really. I feel like everything that I've known has based off of like my understanding of astrology, which is they're very different sides of the coin, but there's similarities. So yeah, not too much. Okay. So then I'm excited for. Like how this lands for you. I feel like you understand a little bit more with this explanation because I was When you first get into human design, especially human design reading and just the teachings of it when other people ask you what it is It's like In the beginning, you're like, fuck, I don't know how to explain it. So I've come to a conclusion. This is how I like to explain it. So just, I would love to hear your feedback. So human design is the mechanics of the human experience. It combines both ancient and modern sciences and ways of studying. human energetics. It combines spirituality and science. Human design is looking at astrology, the chakra system, the Kabbalah tree of life, the I Ching. So it pulls from all those systems. It also pulls from biochemistry and quantum physics. And it's really looking at these small pockets of energy called neutrinos. And we're either pulling things in and empathy from the world around us, or we are, expressing and projecting things out into the environment. So basically we're just looking at your energetics and unique gifts, qualities, the challenges we're meant to overcome, how we're meant to listen to our intuition, where we're here to have a lot of wisdom and where we're here to self express. And again, to get even more simple with it. I know that was a lot. It's how we work with our gifts at the highest vibration and become a much more aligned authentic version of ourselves. Yeah You wicked That was great, honestly, I was like author Hannah coming through yeah, no, that was really good I feel like that was really interesting the way you worded it as we're trying to reach like the highest vibration of ourselves and that I feel like unconsciously, we're always striving to be the best version and we don't really like when we first sat down and started discussing this stuff and You started pinpointing oh this isn't that which we'll get into in a minute. Like I was like, oh my god This girl is like Staring into my soul and I don't like that. I don't like it but it's very interesting how you can get that insight based off of somebody's vibe and then learning a little bit about like Their history through the stars. I think that's cool. You worded that very nice well, thank you mia, Yeah, I love that you said I looked into your soul because that's as a projector. That's literally what I'm here to do. So I always feel like I don't do that. So it's like nice to see that someone can see that I'm doing something. I'm not even trying to do that. Makes sense. But also human design gives us that framework to work in. And I feel like I was always looking for a structure because I understood people, but I didn't know how to put terms and words. And I feel like human design does that. And it does give you like, you can interpret it your own way and everyone's going to interpret it a little bit different, but that's the beauty of it. And yeah, so that's what we're going to get into today. And it's really just like honoring Mia because she's fucking awesome. So hell yeah. Okay. Okay. So the first avenue we want to go down is. So I already told you that you're a generator, and I freaking, whatever you, when you find out your human design, you're always going to be a little jealous of another energy type. And I'm definitely very jealous of the generator. By the way, there's no better or worse. You just, sometimes you get a little jealous. So your energy is like your signposts, basically. So what makes you a generator is this, like the spot right above your belly button. That's your sacral. It's literally, The sacral is your creative energy. You'll it's literally life force energy. So think about it's connected to like your sexual organs and just bringing like. Earth is like that giving life. And so you basically have connection or access to this life force energy when you do the things you love and when you're doing the things you think you should or you don't like doing, you don't love doing, you don't have access to this juiciness or you have access to it in a very limited way. And. You can feel very frustrated with it because you're like, you feel very, like you're supposed to have a lot of energy, but then you're like depleting yourself at the end of the day because you're not using it the way you should. So every energy type has a not self theme. And for generators, it's frustration. I'm curious if this resistance or if you felt frustration and if you if this rings true to you and what is coming up when I say this about generators? Again, you're so insightful and I feel like you yourself are a very introspective person so you're able to like peel away layers of someone else and you definitely nailed it on that. I feel like internally like I am a very angry person and I don't I know anger is a tool that we use to protect ourselves or set boundaries and stuff like that But I don't think like that is the core of who I am. I don't I do see that as my not self I was crazy like wording Coraline like the other mother that like angry that is like Yeah, not someone that I want to be. However, that version of myself I feel is triggered often because I do know what aligns with me and I know like I'm supposed to put myself in situations and I don't always listen to that feeling because I'm trying to appease another party or just I don't really like attention and I feel like a lot of times like this is calling me to step out of the norm to gather attention almost. Not in a bad or good way just like if you're not fitting in like someone's gonna be looking at you sideways And I don't want to be looked at all so I don't honor that and then I often I'm very frustrated because I didn't trust myself and I'm dealing with people that I should have never given the time of day. So yeah, I get very frustrated. It happens. It happens often. It happened yesterday and I was like, I have to go home, but it's okay. We get through and I don't yell at people anymore. At least I try not to. So I try to hold it together. Oh my goodness. This is so fun. I'm loving this. Wow. Oh my gosh, this is just you saying that before I even talk about the rest, it's just This just shows how much human design rings true. And again, this is the whole reason why I'm doing this is to see it in real life because we can read about it. And, but. Especially for me a three like I have to like experience I have to see the person and see how it is And so this is also helping me learn. So Thank You Mia. One thing you said was you know what that sacral yes or no is Absolutely, like I physically get sick for sure, like I feel like my intuition and my Overall read on energy and people is very strong. It always has been since I was a kid and if I am in a situation that You know, like I know is just like to the core like gonna be bad for me or bad from someone else Like I physically get like ill in my stomach and i've always struggled with like acid reflex issues And I have a problem with puking a lot like when i'm anxious or just like The littlest thing will upset me and it's like that is the first feeling I get is like I'm nauseous. I feel sick. This person they didn't do anything to me. They didn't say anything to me, but like I sniff the vibe and like they make me feel sick around them and yeah. All the time. It's in the gut for sure. Wow. As a generator, literally the Biggest lesson in your life. Okay. One of the biggest lessons in your lifetime is understanding that it's not selfish to Do the things that you love doing and you're designed to have that in the moment guidance by your gut of Yes, or no, you're let me go back. So you're every energy type has a strategy and the generator strategy is So because your energy is open and enveloping, I told Mia this when we had our coffee date a couple weeks ago, generators are literally like a warm fire. That's the, or you bring to the world. So you literally think about a fire. People want to be around it. You pull things, people, places, opportunities to you when you're in that magical high vibe. You're doing what you love. You spread that out to everybody. So your stake role is going to be saying yes or no to things that are going to either bring you closer to that your purpose or no to things that are like you're saying you're going to get sick because those are not the things for you. My, the next question was about if you know what I'm talking about, sacral, which you already answered. Yes. So I'm just going to go into the next thing, which is talking about your open G center. So I'm excited to talk about this cause this, this is something that I also have too. So I'm excited to like compensate convert conversate. Is that a word about this? Also, I just want to give you some advice. Your sacral is going to be so important to you and your life because that's in that moment. And especially since you have open G center, which I will explain in a second. You are not gonna have a three year or five year plan like some people that have a defined g center They know where they're going like me and you Girl, we don't know where we're going until the moment and that can feel so scary and it can feel like what am I doing wrong because the people that do have that Defined g center and not everyone with a defined g center is this way But if you're in alignment with your g center those people just know where they're going Like you can think of those kids in school that at the age of 10 They knew their life plan and they were like super solid with who they were and what they're gonna do can you feel like that? That was not me, girl. That was not me at all. I was the total opposite. And especially if you're Open G Center. Your sacred is going to be really important because you have to trust it in the moment because you don't have that long distance view of what, where you're going. And so I just wanted to hear what you have to say about this open G center. And I will say one more thing is we don't have a solid sense of self, so you can feel like you are being inauthentic when you're with different people, because different sides of you come out and. If you guys are aware of the authentic movement like everyone's obsessed with being authentic And I know I was and i'm like why i'm so different at all the time and it depends on who i'm with where i'm at what situation and i'm like fighting with myself because Am I just being like inauthentic like different all the time until I found human design That's literally us being authentic is letting different parts of herself come out. So I'd love to hear Mia What you to say about this? I feel like this is a big question for me. I won't lie. I told Hannah Yesterday I was a little nervous because I've been a little sensitive lately And this one is like itching that spot, I would say. The lack of self is one of my biggest internal issues. I feel like I'm constantly trying to figure that out and find myself or find resemblances of what like I thought the past version of myself was just so I can try to bridge a gap between who that person was and who I am now. And it is hard because I feel like we are constantly changing depending on our environment, depending on what we're going through, if there's anything like traumatic happening, like I feel like I know I Like almost shut down in a way I feel like I really that's when I trust myself the least is like when things get stressful because like I don't like that sickness of like When someone asks me like, oh, what do you want to do with the job or you moved out to detroit. What are you doing with that? And i'm like, oh Someone hit me with the car I'm like, oh god, that is like the worst like being a teenager and having to answer like What are you gonna go to college for? That sort of pit in my stomach, never having an answer for someone as to who am I? I really, I don't frickin know. You want me to be someone? Okay I can morph into that person for you because I don't know who I am without you in this room. So that's easiest for me is to morph into that or at least it was in the past I don't really doing that now because As you said earlier, it's just like such a drain like I do get physically sick from like Entertaining things and people that like I just don't like and they don't align with me at all But yeah, no, I feel like especially this human design thing We should look at it with people like mental illness as well Because I have seriously for so long thought that I have like bipolar Or some sort of personality disorder, or I have dissociative something identity something. Cause I literally lack a feeling of self so much. And I, yeah. I don't know, I feel like it's hard for people to admit that, so thank you, too, for admitting that. Cause I do it's so scary, honestly. And it's every day I wake up and I'm like, what the hell am I doing? I don't know. I don't know and that freaks me out and it freaks me out for having a boyfriend who has been like in friends honestly that are so set on a path and they've always have been and like They look at me and they're like, oh you have all these things that are so great and you're doing nothing with it And I'm like cuz I literally like I don't fucking know how to do anything. Like what do you mean? That's great that you can do that. But like I don't know I am very, it feels like you are lost and stuck at the same time. And there is nobody, like everyone is like wanting you to throw the lifeboat to them to find yourself. But like really it's we're waiting for like that one thing to make it make sense. That one person to make it make sense. And it's I don't think it ever will happen. We have to get comfortable with changing all the time, which is cool. We get to love like many versions of ourselves, which is cool. A lot of people, I think they're truly stuck. They don't really ever change. So maybe we can look at it differently, change our mindset. I feel like we're like chameleons. I just got chills and listening to you talk Mia, because a lot of what you said. And we'll get into it a little bit later, but remind me, I want to come back to the feeling, like you said, bipolar, that's something that's going to show up in here. But this work is so important because I feel you, the sense of the lack of sense of self I think was a big obsession. And I was trying to click on to jobs, to people. And when you do that, and then they leave, you're like, who The fuck am I? Yeah. And when And your boyfriend, he might have a defined G center and it can be really off-putting or really, you get really down on yourself.'cause you see these people know exactly where they're going and you're like, yeah, I don't, but that is the, that is literally why we came here. And we wouldn't have an open juice center if we didn't. Need it with what we're doing and so that why that's why it's so important to follow your gut because that's the only thing you know you and it's so scary because you have to Because you don't see again the whole map But you just see like the next step and that's all And to really we're gonna get really good at fucking trusting the universe because that's literally all we have and Yeah, wow. There's another thing you said that I wanted to touch on. No, that was really good. I think it was about, yeah, just being, you can get stuck in someone else's identity, and I found myself get stuck in other people's identity, and then not know, like not knowing who you are in that, and I think it's super important too when you have an Open G Center is to know who you are from your Define Center. So you do have a lot of Define Centers, which we'll get into that. And that is where you find your, that is where you find your center. Because you're like, quote unquote, sense of self will change. And it's not that you don't have one, it's just that you are so many things. And how much fun is that? That we're not just one thing. We are multiple. It's also superpower because we can see so deeply into people and when they're being authentic and when they're not, and we can see really what they're meant to do and what is truly authentic to them. Is there anything else you want to add on the open g center? No, it made me giggle when you first said it Girl I Wow, that is how That is yeah, I didn't even like talking about the juice and I didn't even make the I didn't even make the link until now. Wow. I did. I did. Yeah, this is actually a sex class. Surprise girl. So the next little thing I want to go into, which is your open solar plexus. So the open solar plexus is where all your emotions live or don't live because you have an open solar plexus. So yeah, the solar plexus operates in emotional waves and releases a pattern that consistently moves up and down from like hope and joy to sadness and pain. And where your open centers are is where you gain the most wisdom. So like your G center and your emotional center is Where you pull things in from other people, and so you're meant to really be wise about them because you amplify all these different energies Which is why I can feel freaking confusing and lost in the sauce because you feel these Enhanced emotions and you don't know where they're coming from. And so you don't really initiate your own emotional wave. So when you're by yourself, you're pretty quite calm unless you have identified yourself with an emotion and it's living in your mind, but really when you're by yourself, you are quite calm because you don't have someone else's emotions or wave to ride on. So before I get into a bigger, deep, or like a, More deep question. I want to hear what you to say about this again with the body parts The solar plexus is always like a big thing for me Growing up because I grew up doing martial arts and we learned very young that the solar plexus is one of The weakest spots in the body if you get hit there Like a lot of like internal damage can happen very quickly and it doesn't take a lot of like force, I guess So that was something that like has always stuck in my mind. I'm like Oof I can never let anyone punch me in the solar plexus because that is my magical box of life, like, when I was little I would think about it like that. And I do get sick that's where I feel my acid reflex is right there, always. If I'm not doing well or I'm having a bad day I always ache there. And I do feel my emotions It's usually pretty one extreme or the other. Like I am, I feel like day to day, especially around other people, I'm pretty good at keeping like a pretty no, I just lost the word. Um, I guess like mellotainment of my emotions around others. I feel like I try to stay within a certain range of extremeness but when I'm like home or when I am alone or with people that are safe in my life to be like a little wild child around it is very one extreme or the other I feel nothing. And it genuinely feels like a black abyss where I'm gonna get sucked into the void of my own soul Or it's like I'm so I feel everything that I'm actually going to explode like my body my brain I'm gonna turn into some freaking blob monster I'm gonna turn into that thing from the substance if you haven't seen that see that anyway But yeah, no like it is so One way or the other. And I do feel it there. I get very apathetic and then very I could cry over that tiny little bug right there, and I'll think about that bug for a year straight. And turn it into some metaphor of my life, I just, anytime I explain it, so I'm like, I'm unwell. No I, that is, but that's living with a Open Solar Plexus, you're, you amplify, think about it, you amplify the already, sometimes big emotions of other people. Yeah, if someone, sorry, if someone around me I am very empathetic as well, and like I do, I get affected by other people's emotions quite easily as well, so if someone is having a big feeling but they're not acknowledging it, or they're trying to stuff it down, it's almost as like my body will have that reaction for them. It's like I somehow, for people in my life, almost become a vessel for them to feel, because some things I think are genuinely too much to feel. And when you're someone like this, who like, can get really intense and then get really weak, You know very closed off. I feel like sometimes people will like latch on to you to use that energy outlet I don't know. I'm very bad at knowing how to shut that Stuff out and being like this is this person's own life and like I just need to let them Have their own reaction to whatever they're dealing with, you know I don't need to I don't need to feel upset for this person, but I always do so it's hard Girl, you're preaching to the choir right now You no, that was super interesting what you said, and I want to get into, actually I'm gonna, I'm gonna wait for that. The thing you said was, you either feel, shut off from the emotion or you feel for the other person, especially when they're not aware of how their emotions are floating out to you. And so I wonder, as a kid, did you ever feel super unemotional and did people, did anyone in your life ever say, why aren't you, why aren't you feeling this? Or why don't you have emotions? Like, why are you always so calm, cool, and collected? Was that your childhood or was it the opposite? And were you very emotional and didn't know how to handle your emotions? Oh gosh. We're getting into the childhood. We're gonna dig deep for this one here. Okay, now folks, I need you to tighten your seat belts. Keep all arms and limbs inside the vehicle while we're on this ride. Okay, thank you. I can't take myself serious trying to talk about that. Anyway. I feel as a kid I feel like I was generally normal, emotional for a kid. Kids have tantrums and they scream and they cry, but I was punished for having emotional outbursts. So I learned at a very young age, like, how to bottle things up and dissociate to not feel because feelings were Looked at as negative feelings or like emotional distress was looked at as like a weakness in my house so Yeah, most of the time I would get praise for being calm, cool, collected. Like the golden, perfect child. I was also an only child, so it's not like I had a sibling that was crazy and the example of like bad behavior or like someone who was super perfect that I could look up to and like model after. It was very like, how do I attune to these two adults needs who have serious problems with themselves and with each other and like they're looking at this four year old kid like All right. What are you gonna do about it? But you Better not cry, but what you gonna do about how I feel and i'm like, okay i'm four And now all of my emotions are for when i'm alone in my room, but I have to be quiet So it was like, I just learned how to stuff it down to young and so I feel as a teenager the Emotions were uncontrollable. As soon as the hormones started hitting, I was, like, unwell, for sure. Looking back on teenage life I don't know how anyone looked at me and was like, she's good, cause I would be good, but then I would have such a heinous response to something or I would just like completely let my emotions rule everything and then I would react and treat someone else Horribly because I could not control like how I was feeling if even if I had to do with them or not Like I'd be like, you're here so You get to deal with this And i'm gonna be crazy And you get to deal with that. So now as an adult I'm afraid of that. I'm afraid of I feel like I've always almost reverted back. Yeah, because I'm afraid of being emotional and being too much, and it is scary not being in control as an adult because the stakes are higher the older you are. So it's I can't freak out at work. I can't lose my job over something like that. Or just in general, like I can't like, I can't crash out in the grocery store because someone looked at me sideways and now I'm like, On edge, you have to keep it calm all the time So it is hard to know as an adult when to find the appropriate Moment to have an emotional response and to let like my inner child cry And be messy and it doesn't have to always be like the argument always doesn't have to always go as long as i'm still like trying and showing up for myself. I feel like that's the biggest thing. Sorry. I'm yapping I love this And so this segs us right into the next point I wanted to make, which is perfect. Since you have open solar plexus, you do, it is undefined, it's not completely open. A completely open solar plexus doesn't mean you don't have any gates defined, which, I have a completely open solar plexus, so I don't have any gates defined. You have one gate defined in your solar plexus. Undefined solar plexus. I know that can sound confusing, but think of this as an emotional anchor. It's gate 49 and it's the gate of principles and revolution. So this is, you have a little bit of flavor in this undefined channel that you feel things through, even though it's very all over the place and it's not fixed. So you don't really know what you're getting. It has a little bit of a flavor. So this gate. Is part of the part of an emotional pattern It's a wave that builds up and then needs to be released so it's like build and then you have a Like you explode and that's actually healthy for you like a big cry or something. So letting yourself Have have those moments, you're fine she's like feeling bad that her hair is gonna fall on my floor girl. My hair is everywhere but This energy is tribal and it wants community, like a community feeling. It really, it's really big on physical touch. And you have like really high values and morals. And when other people don't meet that, it can feel like a problem. And like you have an emotional knowing about what's good for basically your community and what is good for you. Yeah, your tribe. So I want to hear if this resonates. That's interesting. I feel like it's also interesting being like an Aries Sun I do get that sense of like natural born leadership, but I don't seek out that role Intentionally anymore because it's like I don't want to be someone for someone else Unless they really ask me, or I feel called or guided to do that. I don't want to just throw myself out there for the wolves to get eaten up because I've done that. Before and I don't know. I feel like it was almost ego based, of I think I know what's best for everyone. Or I really I'm a very logical thinker. So in a situation, I really know what's up. And I know a plan. And if we don't do it my way, I'm mad. Because we're wasting everyone's time. And if we just had done it my way, it would have been done, sealed, signed, delivered. And so it's like I don't know but that one is hard because I feel like I don't want to necessarily be that but I feel like i'm always called to step up or Be that person that has the uncomfortable conversation You know or does the confrontation for someone else because this person struggles with speaking up or something So yeah, especially emotionally like I can see other people Very well and like almost nurture them very well and be like, okay, like you, I can see you need this in your life. And if I'm able to give that to you, I will, if not, I will help you find it. But yeah, I don't love doing that for me. Yeah. With the open cellular plexus too, you can feel like emotions make you uncomfortable. I don't know if that resonates, but Either like confrontation, like I know for me, sometimes confrontation can be difficult because you can feel so much from somebody else. And a really good quote that I love is about the, for the open solar plexus is observe, don't absorb. So really learning to observe. Hello. Observe the emotion and see it for what it is and not have to take it out for the other person. And what I'm hearing from you a lot is that you do feel like you need to, maybe not as much anymore, but you did feel like you had to take out emotions for other people to help to like feel it for them. But to know that's really not your job to feel their emotions. It's to observe it and let it go. Sometimes that can get, it can get messy because you are a very caring person. So you want to help them through it. But I wondered if it makes me feel better about myself to help people. And I know like in the past I probably did that a lot in vain Just to run away from helping myself because I was like, oh I'll just feel better Being nice to someone else and letting them cry on my shoulder. I don't need a shoulder though. It's cool. You It's cool, I don't need that, cause that doesn't feel good to be vulnerable, I'll let someone else do that. But, I also hate that you just used the word observer, I don't know Last time when we went on our coffee date, did I tell you about my like, last mushroom? Oh. Yeah. Yeah. So that's like what I had taken from that horrible ego death is I am an observer to life. Like I need to stop trying to have an influence, like I naturally do have an influence on those that want to listen and want to learn. I don't need to force that. Into other people's lives, if they want me around They'll have me around and if not, like I don't need to like weasel my way in there And you know what? I have fought for so many people i'm over it Like i'm like someone can be my knight in shining armor and show up on my doorstep sometimes, Like I don't feel the need to go out and do that anymore Like I am very much like on the back seat Watching people, but I am nosy like I'm sure you noticed at work I like peep out around a lot But that's just so I can get a very good read on every person there So I know I'm always in a safe situation Depending on who's there so I can know who can I talk to you? Who can I not? I don't fuck with the person, so I'm gonna stay away. Oh my gosh, we'll get into that, we'll get into the, cause Mia's a little networker and that definitely shows in her chart, that little four line in there. So before we go to that though, I really want to talk about your gates, especially the gates in your sun, your conscious and unconscious sun. So those of you listening that are like, what is she talking about? Gates are the gifts. We all have certain gifts that we came here with and human design illuminates that and gives us a deeper picture or a deeper idea of what those are. And so Mia has, this is super exciting because you have your unconscious son in gate 60 and your conscious son in gate three. And that also makes a channel. So a channel is also where you, It's a channel is your most potent gifts and not everyone has their two sun gates as a channel like me My two sun gates are not a channel. They're not even in defined centers So this is like really potent strong energy in your chart And this channel is also very potent in it in itself. So I was like what? so I'm gonna talk about the unconscious son and the conscious son, and then I'll explain the channel. But once I talk about both the gates, you're gonna get the gist of the channel. So Gift number three. This is in your conscious son. So this is the gift of innovation. You are here to turn chaos into goodness basically the initial dissatisfaction with current situations or current circumstances, this is what prompts the need for change and This is the friction that brings breakthroughs, but it can feel very uncomfortable because you are going up against a lot of friction, but that is for a reason. And to be able to do this, yeah, you have to, it has to feel very inconvenient and pain because that's how you're going to change it. And let's see your face. Yeah. So this gift basically is overcoming difficulties in the, especially in the beginning, because the beginning is where you're going to come up against the most road blocks. And. Once you get past that though, that's where the innovation and the creativity comes in. Before I hear, before I ask what your opinion is, I do want to go to the next gate, because I think this will, this also ties in well. Gate 60 is in your unconscious, and this is all about tearing down limits. Again, you have very intolerance to roadblocks, limitations, and you get a high from tearing them down. This gift is about understanding the practicalities of life so clearly. You know how to use boundaries to your advantage. You are the ultimate. When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. And this channel is also part of a channel which turns on and off basically in simple terms. So when it's off, you can feel. Honestly depressed you can feel like nothing's happening It's this channel the on and off switch Especially the off switch is associated with depression And so this can feel like very low times and I have a channel that comes off the same Center so I Can feel like the on and off switch can feel very scary and it feels like why am I feeling this way? And it's really like a natural You thing that your body does to generate the energy to then spark the creativity to when it's on and you innovate and you change things. So it's really getting used to the flows of that channel because and that's where the bipolar thing can come in because the on and off switch It's literally so unpredictable and you have no idea when it's coming and to just honor yourself and know this is my off switch and then when it's on like you're freaking on and you have all these creativity or creative ideas, but you get those ideas in that off season in that off switch. So yeah, let's hear what you got to say, girl. Girl, where have you been? No, like seriously. That's crazy. Because I just feel crazy. Like most of the time I just wanna get along because, yeah.'cause it is so hard. Like you wake up and you have the best day of your life, and it's then it's like all of a sudden this one thing derails you for the next three months or two weeks sometimes, or maybe just another day. You just have a bad day the next day and then you're back to kosher. But it's no, sometimes it really does. The darkness will stick around for a long time, and it feels like, dang, no matter what I do, even if I'm very healthy, nothing, literally nothing in my life happened for me to feel like that. No everything's wrong. Everything's wrong, and I don't deserve to be here. That is how it feels. Because everyone else seems to have a purpose, and I'm just withering away in like a depression abyss, but then when that switches back off and then you're feeling like excited about life Like it is almost like mania. I mean I have I mean in the past probably when I was like a teenager I've definitely acted out of character, but I wouldn't say I've experienced true manic episode like maybe it doesn't quite feel the same as what I imagined mania to truly be. It's more of like I it's like what a normal person feels. They wake up and they have a zest for their day, for life. They're excited to have an interesting conversation that might inspire them. And it's wow, you just said one word and now I'm inspired. And now I'm gonna write a whole project out for 2026. And I'm gonna make all these crazy Pinterest boards and start doodling and start planning and this and this. And then two weeks later, the depression's back and guess what? It's staying. And I can't touch anything, and I can't do anything, and I'm like, As an artist especially, it's I am never able to get anything done, Because I'm like, I haven't been accepting of the times when it's slow. And I haven't been, because I'm so frustrated, And being a prodigy child, growing up and having to like, Excel at everything and be good at everything, And my dad was like, you are gonna do a thousand things, And you're gonna Be the best. And if you're not guess what? You're not my kid. Cause I only raised the best and I was like, okay, man, so I'm going to be like Beethoven in the house and I'm going to be karate master on the streets. And then I'm going to be like academic scholar at school. It was like so many things. And so now as an adult, having all of those gifts. And not using them feels like such a disservice. I don't know how. I'm working on it. I'm working on it, guys. I'm patient. And I do have lovely friends that are so encouraging and patient with me. To like work on the things and do the projects but that is sucks that channel sucks I don't like that one It's usually the ones that we have the most hate for the ones that like hit like that really challenge us the most that are going to be the ones that You find the most love and light from so just know that I also put your birthday in Gene Keys. So Gene Keys is like an even more like zoomed in version of your human design or your human design gate. So it's just about gates and what they said about this gate was I think It will definitely hit deep. So I'm just going to read exactly what it said on on your profile as a deeply creative person you will experience strange periods when you cannot make sense of your life, of the way that you feel the golden rule for you is to never question the way you feel or give it a reason it is simply. It is simply part of your chemistry. Neither should you get stuck in longing for a life to be different or return the way it once was. Your life is like a painting or a piece of music. Every phase has its haunting beauty, even the sad ones. In fact, you can make that leap in frequency. The times when you feel lost and alone are really the most magical of all. Seriously though. Stop. Let it flow. Let it flow. No, but seriously, it. I sense from you like you are such a creative person and you let those down times like beat you down But to see them as something that is really meant there to teach you It can be so liberating and it can feel like why me why is this happening to me? But truly I don't think you see Like the magic that just flows out of you so just really honoring those times and letting them be times of creative and Just Yeah, sometimes the most creative things come from those dark ass times And I know you know that and I know That you have that creative juice coming out of you, but you don't always believe in yourself And there is another channel that I think you might find a lot of healing from too But before we go to that mia, let's hear from your beautiful face. Sorry chap crying in the club No, I that was a lovely statement. Thank you for finding that for me yeah, it's That Really encapsulated like most of the internal struggle that i've been going through Lately, I guess of just like I don't like my life now My life in the past was ugly so I don't want that and the I'm, so far removed from that it's like I know i'll never revert back to it and I you know in terms of like people like I'm so grown that I don't, there are things, I just won't go back to my past life, but, it's hard when you don't envision a future for yourself. I feel like I am constantly looking at other people's lives and wow, I envy that, or if I could only get out of my own asshole to do that I would do that so fast. And that, I feel it is beating myself up constantly, and I'm not patient with My own process and I've I do know like we talked about how like I get influence from other people and opportunities from other people and then generators just in general take a lot longer to find their Spark their thing. Yeah, like my Big break or come up or whatever is gonna happen later for me in life, and I know that and i'm comfortable with that but I think Just the period Between now and then when a lot of people look at you and expect something great because they can feel it and I can feel it And we're all just sitting here feeling it like waiting for it to happen and everyone's looking at me and i'm looking at me and i'm like I can't like nothing's happening. I don't know and it's very hard being patient and feeling like I like this person. Can I ask you why you feel that your big break or your big purpose is coming later in life and why It has to wait and I guess a follow up question to that is What does light you up right now? What are the things that you do that gets you in that satisfied like yes, that's what I love to do i'll answer the first one first I think that because Really the biggest Issue of my life is just myself like I have my own roadblock, there's nothing really tying me down or I have so much support too. So it's not like it's that either So I really think it's just like man versus self, you know of like I have to go through that struggle that war And then as soon as I master that that's when everything, all the pieces of my life are gonna fall into place and things will make sense and things will the circle will be closed and then I can move on and do, like, all these things. I think for now Hold on, I'm just gonna cut in real quick. I just want you to know you don't have to wait to, there's no point where you're going that is okay, I've done all this work, now I can be happy, now I can do my thing. And I got stuck in that thought loop for the last two years of my life So I can I know it feels so true and it feels like I just had to get through this. I have to get through these Limiting beliefs I had to get I have to heal myself enough to feel Enough or that I have a purpose or that I'm doing something but just know that's not true at all That is your own mind tricking you and once you start to see that and you will I feel like you're it's going to open up so much and you have like right now you could do it and that sometimes can be the most frustrating freaking part because you're like Okay, if I could do it right now, I fucking would. But it's no, it's getting the mindset of, okay, right now I could be in a headspace. Nothing is stopping me physically, emotionally besides myself. And it's just the matrix of your mind sometimes that you get stuck in. But I just wanted to cut in there because it just takes reprogramming your brain of saying, I'm whole, I'm ready, I'm good right now. There's nothing I need to do. There's nothing I need to fix. And that, that, that can take time. But just know that. You really could do it right now, honestly. I just be getting frustrated with myself. I think yeah. My biggest thing, I think, that holds me back is I am so uncomfortable with being seen. Honestly, doing this today, it's a lot. Yeah I can do it. I know how to be vulnerable, and I know how to do it. It feels good. This is great. I know I'm going to have a wonderful day after this, but, I think building myself up to feel confident enough or comfortable enough to accept being seen is very difficult. That sort of attention whether it's a good or bad honestly makes me so uncomfortable I don't like it when people try to figure me out even though that is like honestly the one thing I yearn for Is to be understood It's like I just want someone to see me stare at me and be like, I understand everything. And then they come and give me a hug and then I float in the air and then I turn into a magical unicorn and all the art happens right then and there. And then the world keeps going. Yeah. But it's my magical unicorn world though. But no one's going to do that. I just have to do, I have to hug myself literally. No, literally. So it's I just have to be okay with people, magical. Having an opinion about me or even acknowledging that I'm there, because it's not even, I don't care when people don't like me. I don't care. That does not keep me up at night. But I do care like when people are hyper aware of me the way that I am of other people Because I know that is not always super normal to one's thinking that much about me You know the way I think the way that I think about other people like I'm in my head. I'm definitely like hyper aware of other people, which I think makes me like, Oh God, is anyone doing this to me right now? And then I get freaked out. I'm being an artist. You like have to highlight yourself in a way. And that makes me uncomfortable. And I feel like just tying into growing up and not really allowed to be I wasn't really allowed to be, like, my true self. I always had to be, like, the version my parents wanted me to be. Yeah, oh, you, we want you to be like this. So this is how you're gonna do it. So I think it's really hard for me as an adult to still do that cause I honestly, I I didn't do that as a teenager either. Yeah, like I never showed up for myself as a teenager either. So you did miss one question that I asked, which was, what lights you up? Yeah, I skipped that on purpose. I know. This is depressing, Hannah. No, it's not. It is, cause not much does right now. Okay, what's the first thing that came to mind when I said that? The first thing that came to my mind is I have to lie and find something to say to seem normal. What about you're very artistic, so what kind of arts are you into? I guess right now it'd be like music is like my baby. It's always been my baby, but I've been very blessed. I have some really kick ass, talented friends that have re inspired the music thing for me, but that, again, like, all of my things that I like came from a place out of pressure at one point in my life. So it's like I, as an adult, have to redefine my relationship with these things. Instruments, music, singing. I never did that really for my own enjoyment. It was because I had to. I had to practice things every day. I had to do these recitals. Had to, always. It wasn't my choice whether I was doing something or not. I love to write but I don't like letting people read my stuff because it's so dark. That's what's hard. Like I do find a lot of enjoyment in things, but I'm not at the place yet to be able to share them with people. So I enjoy other people's things right now and then keep my stuff to myself. So first off you do have things that you love and I think just from an outsider that are looking in. The instruments, the singing, the music, you have to find a new relationship with them because the old relationship feels not authentic and you may have loved these things and you might even feel, I'm just curious, you feel resentment because you do truly love these things, but you had a bad relationship with them in the past because of outside influences. And now you're like, I love this thing, but it brings back. A lot of these emotions that I'm not really feeling I want to feel. Yeah, absolutely. And just imposter syndrome of Oh, like I don't want to sing in front of anyone because I don't sound like freaking. Whatever nobody likes the way they sound okay, like I feel like we're all our biggest own critic But it's just those things like that Like I see my friend david, for example, like one of the most talented musicians i've met who's like Around my age like he just blows me away all the time and he is so confident and i've literally never seen him Like in his head about a gig or like nervous about performing like even if he has been it's like he's so Excited and if that were me, all I would feel is fear af So I just want to reflect back what I'm sensing and what I'm getting from you, but you don't see The talent in your own self and I feel that you're comparing yourself to people Because we can see people on their best day and not know what happened in their darkest day and I think that you're not giving yourself enough credit and You have to try To get to where he is you don't gain the confidence with not doing it I think because I know for me being really scared of Not being perfect at something and especially just from what I hear from you growing up with the parents that you did They wanted you to be perfect And so not being perfect is like a really big trigger for you and I just remember too when we were back at the coffee shop you said that you're not where you used to be with your arts and your And so that's stopping you because You don't want to be bad at the beginning, but that is how you get to, redefining your gifts and I am just so excited for you because I feel like this is a big pivotal moment Hopefully for you just to see how much like when you watch this back like just hearing you talk then no It's so amazing like the way you Talk about your emotions stuff is so amazing and you just express yourself amazingly and I think when you watch this back you'll realize too that you're you are the one in your own way and you're being your Biggest critic and and I know this from experience too. We have to flip that and be how can I be my best? fucking cheerleader and Our biggest enemy we are supposed to be our best friend And I know you know this and the people that know it the most It's probably the hardest to be that for yourself. Yeah, but there's something else I wanted to add, which was, I feel like you, you're caring about what other people are going to think of your art, and I just want you to know that if it's truly coming from a place of you loving doing it, because one, you're a generator, so what you love doing is literally going to spill out into the world, so don't let other people's thoughts of, is this, are they going to like it, yadda, if you love it and you're doing it from a place of truly loving it. That's all that matters and Yeah, I just want to say that like I just don't think you see how special you are. And yeah, so It's alright, everything is welcomed. The next channel, I think this is the last thing we're going to touch on. By the way you're doing amazing. I'm so proud of us. Mostly of you. But, next channel is channel 66, so it's gate 63 that connects to gate 4 and can you guess what the channel name is? It's logic, the channel of logic, and your unconscious Mars is in gate 63. The unconscious Mars is known as like your biggest challenge and the thing that you really have to work on in this lifetime. And gate four is in your unconscious moon. which is what drives you. So I'm going to talk about gate 63 and this is in the head center. So this is all about ideas and just logical thinking. And the, this gate is called the paradoxical power of doubt where you, yeah. And simply doubt is the word we humans give for this constant mental pressure. If doubt serves genuine inquiry, then it becomes creative. But when it becomes personal or internalized, it becomes destructive. If you do not use your mind in a creative way, the pressure either becomes a projection onto someone or something outside of yourself, or it collapses inward and becomes self doubt. And just from what we were just talking about, this does seem like a pretty big theme in your life. And I can see why it's in your unconscious Mars. And I did not plan for this conversation to just lead right into this, but here we go. Yeah, I really like again, this is the placement where you have the most growth and the most learning to do And I do just want to say one more thing because the gift of this gate again, that's why it's called Paradoxical because the gift of this gate is very close to the low expression You could say which is inquiry. I feel like i'm saying that word wrong. Do you get what i'm saying inquiry? Okay, I don't use that word guys Inquiry yeah And what this means is it's an act of asking for information You the real purpose of doubt is to serve the higher good in an impersonal way. The continual pressure of doubt fuels the spirit of inquiry, which leads to deeper levels of understanding. The deeper you inquire about anything, the more complex it gets. What is the prime importance is that you learn through the process. And that's it. It's funny the wisdom like the highest expression of this is truth And the first sentence of when I read the book talking about the wisdom of it. It's doubt is truth and basically Yeah, all doubt equals truth. And I think that's like it's really hard to wrap your head around But i'd love to hear what you have to say. I mean I can see that in like You're right. I do doubt myself way too much. I'm way too hard and critical, and I haven't even done anything to like, be critical of. I'm critical before I even do the thing, because I'm so like, in my head about not doing it well enough or some something, I don't know. Or not being confident enough in my ability to like, execute it. You know the way I see other people doing it and I look up to them and i'm like wow But that is like quite interesting. Um, I guess I can understand. Just because like the duality of life. I feel is a very strong theme for my life I'm sure you feel that as well like just on the emotional aspect alone like the heavy flips on one side or another I do feel like that light and darkness at the same time like love and hatred and doubting myself while also having the utmost belief in myself. I do feel that at the same time. And it is hard having such an emotional idea dictating your life, and it's very interesting that it's in a logical complex in my life as well, because I do try to rationalize everything. Logically versus emotionally because emotionally I tend not to trust that just because I'm like, oh am I reading into that or am I just being hard on myself? Am I having a bad day? Am I triggered about something 15 years ago? Like I don't know But I feel like even when I'm questioning that, I always know okay, the answer is yes to all of those things. I am having a bad day. I am triggered about something. But the truth remains that those triggers are now leading me into this feeling, and I'm going to use that feeling to push me to the next step, or the next growth phase of my life. So that makes a lot of sense, it's uncomfortable, though. I feel like it is hard to admit that. I don't I don't even know how to word that, it's hard to admit that I'm not a fan of myself. And I am the one person in my life that is stopping me from being, like, better. Because there's no one else anymore. I don't have any toxic person holding me down. So that's interesting. It's, it is scary to admit that because there's no one else to blame and I've been there. It's and I know you've been here too, where you are in a cycle of just blaming everybody. And it's easier that way, honestly, because then you don't have to turn it back on yourself. But then once you see that it is all you, it also gives you a whole lot of power and a whole lot of responsibility. And that can come with a lot of fear, but it's like a good kind of fear. Okay, I fricking got this. I feel like on that I don't actually blame a lot of other people in my life. I feel like when I was younger younger, yeah, you're like, Oh, my parents and, oh, that stupid girl stabbed me in the back. Just it's just trauma with people in relationships. It's very easy to be like, you were so bad to me. And so that justifies this response, or this reaction. But I don't, like I don't behave like that, and I feel like I haven't lived my life like that in that sort of truth in a long time. I do hold space for, like, how people have affected me, because everyone has their part to play. And I am very aware of things that I don't think I necessarily deserve to go through. I'm like, okay that sucked. But that happened also because I had a catalyst moment in that situation. I'm So I have to look at myself because I was also a player and I'm to blame partially as well. So honestly, I tend to blame myself first before I blame someone else because I do think I'm the problem most of the time, especially in the past because I was angry. So it's easier to be like, oh yeah, that was my fault because I got angry. It was a lot harder for me to look at, okay, what pushed me to act out of character. And like, how can I stop those things from happening first, before I start projecting? I got super uncomfortable when you were like You either turn it in on yourself, and you're like, hateful towards yourself, or it's your response is to project it onto the nearest person. I definitely have worked on that a lot, but it is like, it does come out usually when I'm having like, a moment where I'm not being my friend, I'll be mean to that person that's in front of me. Or it's like I start getting snippy over stupid things that like, it's not related. I'm mad at myself. And I can't tell that person that,'cause it's weird to be like, I need you to go away because I'm pissed. I'm pissed at myself, over nothing. Like I just, nothing happened, but I am having a moment. Yeah. I have something to say. I have something to add about. Blame. So when I say I had a realization when you were talking. So when we blame others, it's really us blaming ourself. And so then when we blame ourself, it's again, us blaming others. So again, a paradoxical. So to come back to no one's at blame, no one's at fault. It's also it's just easier again, to blame us, to be, to blame other people. And. I think it's just a learning curve to not go to that reactive behavior of I'm gonna be myself because I did something wrong. It's never good or bad. It's just learning. And I think it's all about that mindset because you could be doing like the same thing, but the intention and the mindset and the thoughts and emotion you put behind that thing is what drives it, not necessarily the thing, if that makes sense. I also feel an adult too, we get to decide what we want to subscribe to. It's a lot easier for me now. If I'm in a situation that's unfavorable with another person I feel like I'm very much okay, I see how I escalated that. Like I didn't I you made me feel like this and like I ran without emotion because I thought that was valid of me But really like I triggered that and that's why you said this, you know So i'm very good at seeing that sort of thing. And then if I am having those Situations or constant like feelings with people. I just choose not to really let it like because I don't know I feel like that's kind of life being like stop trying You With this person they are not meant for You know or stop trying with this thing. Like it shouldn't You shouldn't be struggling that hard, you know Like life is a struggle, but it doesn't have to be that hard you can definitely choose people that make it feel easier And things that kind of help you like ease into it doesn't always have I am such a fighter I was like everything has to be such a challenge, but it's not life can be peaceful. You can choose it Love it the next The gate in your unconscious moon, which is gate four. So this is what drives you. I'm just going to read some of the bullet points I took on this channel, or sorry, this gate. Which is, the power of this gate is to read and solve logical patterns. This leads you to universal understanding of the rhythmic patterns and tendencies of life. When you look logically at all angles of any concept You begin to realize that nothing can ultimately be proven through logic because logic can always be used to prove the opposite when gate four It's freed from having to solve your existence. It finally comes into its real genius to play with the patterns of existence and arrange them in new and original ways. In fact, you realize that all logical formulae can be manipulated to prove or disprove anything. The higher frequency of such understanding also brings with the urge to be of service to the world. And you can use the mental clarity of the fourth gift to follow the dictates of your higher self. That was that was crazy. That was super crazy. I feel that I feel like as a generator and someone who is like obnoxiously aware and observant and like knowing of those sorts of rhythm that I love that you use the word rhythms because I do like I feel life as such ebbs and flows and like I can feel it everywhere all the time like I feel like that is like My biggest inspiration of life is I can feel everything, and I think it's very cool, but it makes me a master manipulator, which I don't use to my advantage. Okay, let's get that clear, but I could. You could I could yeah, I feel like I do use it positively because I'm like, okay I try to navigate my life on the easiest path like for other people and with myself like I want people to enjoy Themselves around me, I don't want to be a difficult person. So it's like I feel like I am good at like Manipulating the energy a little bit to make sure everyone's having a good time. Or if I can feel it starting to become negative, I'm usually, I usually get like a head start to those things. Like I'm usually aware of it before the other person, like slightly, or I acknowledge it first. So I feel like in a lot of things I do have an upper hand just because I feel like the rhythm of life and energy and people. So I can manipulate the boundaries to be accordance to what I want. Yeah, but people are tricky. So it's hard to do that Yeah, you literally see the patterns in the human experience that was one thing in your chart like you really see and I feel like people think of logical thinking of not the human experience, but patterns in the human experience that other people don't see and the way you just said About manipulating like the conversations or whatnot that I wasn't going to touch on this but it just I have to know you have a channel 11 to 56 and the 56 is all about translating the human experience and visuals into language that the Capacity or that has the capacity to evoke an emotional reaction. It is It's not as concerned about facts or accuracy. It is purely subjective energy, dependent on the emotional flavoring and inter perception of the storyteller. So this gate is all about think of comedians and like people that you want Take things in life, and I really do see this in you, you take things in life that sometimes can be really dark and you make them light, and it's, you literally have the gait of the storyteller. And so you, the way you tell stories and the way you talk and the way you express yourself, Really does provoke emotion in other people. So it's literally what you just said. That's so cute! That's cute! Okay, I always thought I was like a low key bad person, and I was like, Am I a sociopath? Cause I can see things and change things to how I want. I don't think that's what a sociopath is, by the way. But, anyway, I don't know, I don't know. I felt like I was like, oh I'm I don't know, I'm doing too much. Sorry, I just coughed on your mic. I was like, I'm doing too much, but I'm losing my train of thought. Oh man. Yeah, okay, thank you. Yeah, I do feel like I am, like, it's nice because I feel like where I've come from, I could have turned out so angry and mean. I could really be using a lot of my gifts to be, like, a bad person. And I feel like a lot of the time I'm, like, fighting that urge to be, like, yeah, what, cause I don't want to be that person, but it, I do feel that way sometimes. I do have those emotions in me where it's okay I'm, like, very angry right now. And I really could just Light this person on fire and yell at them and make them feel really bad but i'm not gonna do that and i'm going to be very nice instead and kill him with kindness and That is nice that you said like you can take like a dark thing and make it light I really respect comedians. Honestly, like a lot of people are like, oh, you're probably messed up in the head It's no They're happy. I mean there might they might not be happy but like they're able to make it You easier to cope with because you're able to change the narration of your own story. And it can be better that way but it is also hard because if you're feeling negative, I feel like i'm like my life sucks Yeah, no, I love that. You just said that about the comedian thing because I could so see you being a comedian like no joke Like this may be your sign girl to maybe start thinking of things but Yeah, and also this channel is highly visual like very visual And again, you have a lot of energy up in your head You And so I just want to leave off with this, that a lot of times when there's a lot of energy up there, sometimes you can call in the logical thinking of things and adding stories to things that you don't need a story to. And especially with your open solar plexus and your open G center, you can get a little crazy with stories and you can manipulate them any way you want. And the cool thing is that you get to choose and. To not let the stories go a way that's putting yourself down to flip them and put them as lifting yourself up. And I'm just super excited for you because I feel like. I feel like you're like, I feel like you were in that off switch of that channel we talked about in the beginning. And I really do think this period in your life is here to teach you a huge lesson. And I'm just super excited for you. And I just love you. And I'm so happy you came out and did this because I know that it was not an easy thing, but also like this, like you doing this, like you're showing your, yourself like, who cares about the fricking fears in my head? They're not real at the end of the day. And, In your chart like you're literally meant to live your life and share and be a storyteller and elevate all of us So with your freaking magical generator sacral, so anything else you want to leave out with miss mia? I also want to thank you. You've pointed it out like People bring me opportunities in life and like I choose whether or not I want to accept them and I also feel inspired by you. So thank you. I feel like you came at a very important time I do pay attention to those things and I am listening to the universe with like your friendship calling to me So thank you so much. I do think I am at a certain point in my life, but I don't really get to do those things without the influence of other people sometimes, and you are giving me such a wonderful opportunity to introspect in a different way, and be more gracious, and thank you for encouraging me to be kinder, and not as hard on myself, and thank you for seeing me. And yeah, I love you too. Okay Bye chat. We're gonna hug and turn it off Love you. That was so cute. All right friends. Subscribe do all the things and Yes, was it say positivity, please spread love and I will put Mia's Instagram if you guys want to check her out Yes, you do Because she's gonna be a rock star soon. She's gonna be a comedian. Just watch out. All right guys. Love you. Bye