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Conscious But Grounded
Conscious but Grounded is a podcast about spirituality: high vibe living in the real world. I ask questions like: how do we connect to the magic, spirit, source, the universe - but with our feet firmly planted on the ground? How do we show up in a conscious way and harness that to make big paradigm-busting change in the day to day of our lives?
Conscious But Grounded
S1 Ep 21: What do you need to change in your life right now?
In this episode I talk about what your life is showing you that is not working? What do you need to let go of, what stays? The evidence is staring you in the face! Accept it!
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Hey! I'm Rachel! I am a qualified Holistic Life Coach and Mind Body Practitioner, Embodiment Coach, Yoga 500hrs (plus lots more extra yoga quals). I'm also an award winning content creator and have 20 years' experience in digital. I'm a mum of 3 kids and I live in the Peak District - oh and I have ADHD and I am sober. My passion is helping midlife women turn meltdown into magic!
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Conscious but Grounded is a podcast about spirituality, high vibe living in the real world. I ask questions like, how do we connect to the magic? The spirit, the source, the universe, but with our feet firmly planted on the ground. How do we show up in a conscious way and harness that to make big, paradigm busting change in the day to day of our lives? I'm Rachel Brady, mum of three, yoga teacher and embodiment coach. This is the place where I'll be reflecting and exploring big, deep questions, all with a pinch of self deprecation, a few proper lols, and a lot of real life. Join me.
Hi, welcome back to Conscious Book Grounded. This is my podcast. I'm Rachel Brady, and I'm a mom of three, and this is my podcast all about, oh, spirituality in the real world. Being a householder in the spiritual sense. Oh, and actually in the real world sense. You know, I'm a homemaker first and foremost. I'm a stay at home mom, but I've always been doing this. Kind of bit on the side stuff and it's, um, content creation and it's really morphed into much more of like a spiritual holistic wellbeing angle. And you know, it, my podcast is called Conscious but Grounded. And that really represents to me the fact that, yeah, we can be conscious, we can be spiritual, we can be. Awakened or looking for that, you know, we can be searchers and seekers, but we've still gotta have our feet on the ground. And if we don't, then life will force us to anyway. And that's kind of what I wanted to talk about today. So, oh, I've been through some stuff recently and I am really at a point where I'm pausing, going inward with my coach, Karen Jackson, who I have to have on here soon, because we've. Had to rearrange it a couple of times. I think they're both my fault. Again, that's another sign of what I'm about to talk about. Um, and she's helping me very much, um, move forward and create a business that I can actually show up for. And, and so, you know, I, I have a substack called the Yoga Householder. Please go and check it out. I'm, I'm starting to share a lot more homey stuff on there. I posted. To the recipe the other day. I'm gonna go on later and post a recipe. Uh, but also it's always through the eyes. It's always through the lens of a householder. It's always through the lens of yoga. I recently did a post, it's been quite popular actually, um, about my sober journey and through the eyes of the Yoga Sutras, and hopefully I'm, I'm, I'm writing in such a way that you can understand these things too. Don't worry about remembering the Sanskrit words. You don't have to do that. I just, I have to do that. But you don't have to do that. So hopefully I've landed those ideas in a way that everyone can understand. So like I say, I am a mom of three. This might be the first time you've listened to me or come across me. So I have two teenagers and a 6-year-old. And I live in the Pete district. I was in digital marketing for years and then I became a mum, and I became a mum blogger just by accident. I just started blogging one day about family food, uh, and, and really enjoyed it and it grew. And God, that's a really good example of like, yeah, just follow your heart and then your dharma will come. And that has been my dharma for a long time. It became a YouTube channel and without any straining or effort from me. Just literally, I just. Really ebbed and flowed, which isn't recommended. And I have to say, the periods when I was consistent, I sh, you know, exponentially grew. Um, however, I, I moved away from that because of my own, you know, I've talked about it on this podcast because of my own challenges. I had depression episodes, and then I also had, was diagnosed with A DHD and my, my focus became healing and it became, you know, I embodied it to such a degree. I wanted to share. It with the world. And in a way that's probably part of my problem is I have this thing where I'm like, oh my God, I love this so much. Like, this is my thing. Like this is what I'm gonna do for a living. I can do that about everything. Right? So like I'm on my way to a yoga studio and I, I had a meeting arranged to franchise this yoga studio as a business. And then I, I have to do, I have to go and try the thing on and then realize, oh, maybe it's not for me. Um, and the reason I canceled that meeting and the reason I was like. Yeah, I don't actually think this is for me is because of what I'm about to talk about because it's not realistic for the stage I'm at now. Um, it's, you know, I feel I'm making some pivots in my business. Everyone's like, what again? But like, actually I can't do this any other way. This business is me. And I know it's frustrating for people, but I was really pushing and grinding these, you know, weekly, twice weekly yoga classes. For a very small audience. I know, I know that that is the reality of what you've got to do to make the classes grow. And every yoga teacher I've spoken to has that experience. There's nothing unusual there. Fine. Um, but what was happening is, was it was just becoming apparent that this wasn't a viable thing for me. Not just financially, because that's not what this is about at this stage. Uh, it's about me finding. My expression of my dharma right now, um, in its newest form. And I feel like this pivot I've done is really a lot closer to what I am actually meant to be sharing with you guys, which is holistic, spiritual self-care. Oh, excuse me, hang on, sneezing. Ooh. A little movement of energy there. Uh, holistic self-care and also, you know, holistic self-care and homemaking. That's what I've always been about. The holistic side has been my expertise. I focus on the last five years I've gained a lot of expertise. Things like the essential oils, things like running a home in a holistic way, and also adding in those things like yo practices, uh, and also, you know, just, just creating content around how hard it is to be. Someone who's conscious, who's awakened, who's spiritual and living a holistic life, but also trying to balance that with their own sanity. Um, because as women, there's a lot put on us, right? Um, so yeah, what happened was, I actually shared about it in the alcohol Yo post. What happened? A recent attempt? Well, I did, I taught year in online. It was fine, it was great. Uh, but I was constantly being interrupted by my 6-year-old. So much so that. It really stressed me out and I ended up having a cigarette and a glass of wine after the in class, which is actually quite funny. Um, but I'm fine. It's all good. I'm totally fine. Um, I write more about my sober journey and realizations about that on that blog post. If you wanna have a look at it, it's on my, uh, yoga's, on my substack work, which is at Rachel Brady yoga.substack.com. And my actual substack newsletter is called The Yoga Householder. It's like a blog and you get it by, you get the post by email. Um. And it was just like, you know, I talked it through in my, I, I had a really, really dark night of the soul the night before, the dark night of the soul. My little one had a huge, very, I mean, I'm not gonna mince my words, it was a violent meltdown. Uh, and he's always been my mirror. He is my mirror, right? Like the kid that's the hardest work is always the one that's gonna heal you the most. If you lean into it and it's gonna, that kid's gonna bring up your. Shadows and that kid's gonna bring up your shit and you are gonna wanna chuck that kid sometimes in the bin. But also it's the kid that you kind of just melt with as well. I mean, you melt with all your kids and you want to chuck them all in the bin at some point. But, um, yeah, he had a meltdown every, something so small and it made me realize like, God, I'm so exhausted from just this drive and pushing to create this yoga business. Um, that I'm forcing to take shape and that looks a certain way. Um, and it's making me so tired that I have no capacity to deal with his fluctuations in mood and emotional dysregulation that come with being neurodivergent. And I'm also neurodivergent myself. Um, and I'm, I've talked about that many times on here. I do, I am diagnosed A-D-H-D-O, but I also believe I have, um, I also believe that I. I have a level of autism in there as well and I saw a post on Instagram yesterday talking about A DHD dominant or DHD, uh, where both are the present, but it's a DHD dominant and how hard that is to diagnose and how hard it is for the person with it, uh, because they're constantly second guessing themselves. Or how can I be autistic when I'm this, this, and this. That's me. Like I literally dropped the whole autism question mark thing for a while'cause it was driving me. Insane. And then I keep seeing posts that I'm like, geez, I really, really, really identify with this. And this constant cognitive dissonance, this constant confusion, this constant, I know I need to do this and I want to do this, and today I feel like I can do this. And then not being able to follow through because of the levels of exhaustion and just how much I have on my plate with, um, you know, two of my three kids are neurodivergent. Um. They show up very differently. I'm neuro divergent two, so life is extra hard. Um, you know, I have a neurotypical child and believe you, me, raising her is a lot easier, um, because she's very self-sufficient and, uh, sporty and does all the extra activities and things. And I look at other people with kids who are all like that and I'm like, it is easier. It, it is easier. So, you know, for parents of neuro kids who are also new. Selves, I see you. This is hard. And also it is like the yoga householder thing of like, we've got to put, if you are a true household, it's like you live your spirituality through the tasks of your life. It doesn't mean that you're a a homemaker. Everybody thinks that. And I'm constantly clarifying that's not the case. However, I play on that as my title'cause I am mainly a ho a homemaker. Uh, and everyone also talks about the householder stage. You know? Yes, it's a stage, but. I mean, aren't we all in that stage? I mean, how many of us will evolve that stage into being an actual nun or a priest or whatever, which is the person who's on a spiritual path, who isn't a householder, in case you didn't know. Um, so all of this stuff is converging to a point, right? It's all like, you know, my coach said to me after this dark night of the soul, I didn't deal very well with this meltdown. I said, look, I'm not in a place where I can even run this business right now. Like I'm, I don't even. Know if I can teach online yoga, it's, it's really, really hard to get my shit together. My back went into spasm the day after this meltdown had happened because it caused such an emotional reaction in me. Um, I couldn't teach that day'cause my back went in spasm. But not only that, my son ended up being off school because he was so, when he's had a meltdown like that and we've had a come to Jesus kind of moment, it's. A lot and like, and then I can tell he needs me the next day and I need him to be honest, even though I also needed a day off. And so I had to cancel my class again. And I, I'm, I'm therefore becoming so inconsistent and unreliable. This has been a massive theme in my life. I'm very inconsistent and unreliable, flaky, for want of a better word. And then I have a shame spiral about the flakiness. But also I'm dealing with things like borderline, you know, chronic fatigue that I'm looking into at the. Minute, um, that I'm trying to manage, um, with Iur vda and with Healthy Living and Sobriety and just being okay with resting. You know, I've got a lot on my plate when I run and I've got this brain tumor thing, which is benign, but it does have an effect on me. It causes these migraines or I literally can't do anything. Um, I've got, when I reflect this to a doctor and just kind of give them, give them a quick run down, they're like, yeah, you've really got a lot on your plate. And it always makes me cry'cause I'm like, yeah, thank you. I have like, but I'll, I will internally tell myself, you haven't, you haven't got a lot on your plate. Get your shit together, you know that in a critic. Um, and so eventually, anyway, I fed this back to my coach and she was like, you are just not at a place right now where you can show up consistently to teach yoga and. You know, just take a step back, use this container that I'm in with her to really go in and really tend to myself. And she was like, stop blending all of your kind of personal, normal householder problems right now with your business. Because she was like, you know, yoga teachers have issues in the family. Everyone has issues in the family. They're all normal. It doesn't mean you're a failure as a human being, you know? Uh, and I was like, I feel like a fraud because I'm like. I didn't deal with the tantrum very well. I didn't stay calm. I was supposed to be teaching yoga, you know, and it's like we had a really good chat about it and it, it's been invaluable and I've taken this time and she asked me all the right questions and I journaled on them and it's like, all of this is spiritual, right? All of this is yoga. My main thing that I'm passionate about with yoga is, you know, if I could just tell people one thing about yoga, it's like, it's not just the twisty poses and the Asana practice, you know, I. It time and time again in here, it's the yamas and the armors. It's the eight limbs, it's meditation, it's breath work, but it's all about the realization that we are not just this body and this lash like we are more than that. Um, and that's what I want to kind of help teach people, and I can do that through my content. Don't get me wrong, I love Asana and I want it to be part of what I teach. Um. And that is gonna look different, but also it's gonna be probably better for some people. You know, someone came to a yoga class last week and was like, I can't do next week. I can't do this time, I can't do that time. And so what I'm gonna do going forward is put together an on-demand schedule. So if you like me and what I talk about and you try a yoga class and you like it, you can sign up. And I'll probably have like an on demand practice that I send once a month, a new one for a very small amount of money, uh, with some other practices in there as well. So that you can start to actually live your yoga off the map, which is my ultimate goal, uh, for myself and for anyone that's interested in my work. Um, and so also blending that with the holistic homemaking stuff, which to me is yoga. You know, talk about a himsa non harming the first Yama. Well, let's detox our homes. Let's detox our bodies. Let's, let's not keep using products and, you know, that are causing us harm. This is one of the things I'm passionate about. So just. Lending all those interested of mine is, is the way I'm gonna go with it now, which is still Rachel Brady Yoga. Like nothing much really has changed. Uh, I just won't be teaching live asset and practice at this time. I will still do my, uh, sacred Sundays, my retreats. The next one is on the 8th of June, and we're actually, if people want to, and if people sign up for this part of it, uh, with, there's the offer of going on a hike afterwards for anyone who's interested. So the 8th of June, that's in the P district. And then also. I'm gonna keep doing my seasonal day retreats. And the reason I can do those is because they're left. They're not twice a week. Uh, I create space around them so that I'm calm when I go. And so that maybe, you know, you know, I create little thing boundaries around myself so that I'm in the right head space when I go. My husband is there to take the kids and so on and so on. So it's much more doable just having a sip of coffee there. Um, and that's what I wanted to share about today. So realizing that, you know, taking the evidence before me, the evidence is I cannot cope with the live classes right now. So I wonder if reflecting it back to you, you know, what's the evidence showing you right now about your life that you need to change, that you need to pivot? How can you lean into your householder duties, whether that's your career, that's a householder duty, by the way. It's not always about the house. You know, your kids, your relationship. How can you be more. Devoted to those things and see those things as meaningful and worthwhile because they are so meaningful and worthwhile. Uh, your contribution to your family, um, and all of those things. Thinking about how you can live your yoga off the mat. Thinking about how you can be a better person every day in different ways in being cleaner, spiritually cleaner, you know, in the home. Yesterday I felt a deep need to cleanse all of my kitchen cupboards. Sorry, I only really need to drink this coffee before I get to my yoga class. And, um. It was amazing and I did it and I got my new, I got a doTERRA order with some on guard cleaning concentrate and some new oils. And I used wild art and peppermint in my simple cleaning spray that I make, that I use for every single thing. And I unpacked all of my kitchen cupboards and got rid of all the crap. Well, there wasn't much there that was crap. You know, just like all the manky things that had kind of gone a bit funny. I was like, right, get rid of that. Uh, and like cleaned it all out and. Do you know what energetically it feels incredible. Like you walk into the kitchen, it's just like, wow. And I've not even finished. I've still got to do the drawers and the big shelf, so I'm not even finished. Um, but I spent about three hours doing it and it felt like, wow. It felt like cleansed, like I felt deeply cleansed. And when I emptied a cupboard, cleaned it all out with this gorgeous spray and everything, smells like my daughter's friend was over. And she was like, wow, everything smells so amazing. And I was like, I know, right? I've just like cleaned, cleansed the kitchen. Um, and I cleansed it all out. And also, as I'm cleansing with this, with this homemade product, this cl this cleaning spray with the added extra essential oil. You know that those essential oils are going into my system. So instead of not, not, it's not just doing harm. It's not just not doing harm, it's doing good. It's relaxing me. I listened to a beautiful podcast while I was doing it, and then, do you know what I did after that? I took a nap and it was really necessary. And this is self-care. This is holistic self-care. Claiming is an act of self care. I've written a blog post about that before. And you know what as well? When you take all the stuff out of your cupboards, you might only get rid of one jar. You put a. All back and there's a third more space and you're like, wow. Literally by taking them out, wiping it down and putting them back in the correct kind of zones, like this zone is for like things that you have on toast or this zones, oils and vinegars, and I'm not even putting them in little trays or boxes or anything. I'm like, how is that created so much more space? And it's because we're not just lobbying things in the cupboard, right? Things are actually stood up, right? Things are actually pushed into a corner or in these little sos and I just thought I. I'm creating space in my body and my mind and my soul by cleaning and de and cleansing and decluttering, and this is something I'm not naturally very good at. I I want to be, and it deeply feeds my soul. I need to work on it. And this is the ADHD slash autism kind of counterbalancing each other all the time and fighting with each other all the time. Um, and it really helps to heal my soul to do that, and that's an important act of self-care. So I'm gonna go guys, because I need to rush and I'm gonna, I don't even think I'm gonna make this yoga class, to be honest, so I might end up sitting in a cafe and working, which is fine. Um, I love you so much. I'm so, I'm so kind of torn about this podcast. I love doing it. Um, but I'm, again, I'm not, I've not got round to sharing it properly yet. So please do. If you do listen to this podcast, let me know. Please let me know, is it resonating? Please ask me like, what do you think about this? Or could you record on that? I'm going to be sharing a lot more about essential oils. I'm finally gonna get round to finishing my aromatherapy course. I'm gonna be talking more about the oils. In fact, I might actually do a separate podcast. Just about oils, individual oils, every episode and individual individual oil. I'm also gonna be creating a 10 part oils program that's gonna be really, really, really good, and I'm so excited about it, and you will be able to get that for free. When you buy an oils kit off me, a specific oils kit. So let me know if that's, uh, piqued your interest and I will send you information on that as soon as it's ready. I love you so much. Have an amazing day. I am not gonna make this yoga class. Oh god, I give up. It was for 7:30 AM It says I'm gonna get to the car park at 7 29. Like I cannot get from the car park to the studio in like 30 seconds. The door shuts at seven 30, so Alright guys, I'll leave it there. I love you so much. Bye.